Me, Myself and Joyce

2011-03-22T03:24:00.000-07:00

HELLO BLOG!!
its been a very long while!!!!
i've started using iWeb on mac, that's why i haven't visited u...
i think my need to do a travel blog is kinda not really working out... hahaha. paiseh.

life's okay so far at the moment..
a lot of assignments to get done.. not at all many classes to attend. so i haven't really made any aussie friends :( well, except for my groupmate. haha.

ineedtoBOnow.okaybye

2011-02-03T06:56:00.000-08:00

i decided not to leave this blog!!! :))))))
becos i realise it's too close to my heart to just chuck it aside...
i will be starting a new blog that hopefully is more sophisticated and interesting to read. haha. will try my best.
actually i have MANY MANY blogs... but today i've decided to delete a few of them.. cos private businesses mah. haha. anyway, chen nian wang shi already, and the its probably in my best interest if i just get rid of them becos i dun want to be reminded of this 'past'

sooo... anyway! i'm happy. becos its the simple things in life that's most impt..

on another note, i'm not happy. cos the ch8 9pm show is not on til next wk!! :(((((((( sadness! i will miss ma yongjie!
can u guys believe i actually email the actor - andie chen bangjun to tell him how hot he is!!! hahaha kidding! but i did email him though, just didn't express my hots for him. haha

see, that's why i shld keep this blog - so that i can 'stay true' to the feelings that i have and how i like/want to express them.
so why do i want a new blog then? WELL. it's a travel blog mah, in a way, so like the NZ blog tt i have, i want to separate them out. so yup. hopefully i'll blog better then!

and yes, layout changed to the conventional simple layout. can't believe i had 111posts in 2008! hmmm wow.

2011-01-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

okie dokie!! i'm finally gg to AUSTRALIA!
can't believe i'm abt to fulfil my lifelong dream (haha. actually my lifelong dream is just to go goldcoast!, and it was partially fulfilled when i went there 2 yrs back. gosh i feel old now)

i'm pretty much packed. so yes, like i told my fren, i'm as ready as 'on the mark, get set, *bang*!
and i think i'll start a new blog when i reach australia. will be like a travel blog i suppose.. with pictures!

anyw, i think i was pretty brave the past few mths.. contacting and going out with a few of them... haha. though i think i've wasted quite alot of my 'time' but it's good experiences i feel. maybe when i come back from sg, i'll have to continue doing so.. unless i've alr found one in aus! muahahahaha

ok. i guess this is the last of this blog? 6 years this blog have lasted. 6 years!!!! OMG man! from my first entry abt tennis to now abt prepping to aus.. have come a long way man. its all good. thank u blog, u've been a great pal. haha.. i'll definitely visit you often! :)
..

2011-01-21T06:29:00.000-08:00

i can't believe i'm actually following this ch8 drama series
out of all the characters and stories, i quite like the one betw the dorky garden boy and the atas lady. and well, that's becos the guy totally resembles him. so ya. just wonder if he is really like him in the tv show.
but then again, its like we've nv even met. such a disappointment.

can't believe my CCs asked me to go aus and find a bf too. haha. let's hope that comes true! 10months only lor. wonder how ppls get married when they know each other for less than 10mths

oh wells, pretty excited abt it! AUS, NZ, FIJI awesome stuff man. gonna make the most out of it.
cos the NEXT time i'm gg there, won't be for the next 5yrs!

2010-12-31T03:39:00.000-08:00

This was my plan for 2010

1)graduate NYP. duh!
2)?go NZ with classmates in april/may
3)get a driving license
4)get a a job as a locum
5)get a gym membership so tt i can have great transformation like YH!!!! WOOTS! hahaha --- OK MAYBE NOT. but i'll try to work out more on my own!!
6)go USA in december :)

out of this 6, i've achieved 4! 1st and 4th were no-brainers..pretty darn good yea! gym membership and US adventure gotta wait til a little much later!
2010 was a pretty good year overall.
1) graduating from NYP.. ah.. those days(pls refer to archives).. i definitely miss em... esp the people and all the happy times we spent tog in our fave j-corridor.. glad that we're still taking time out from our busy work schedules to meet up at least once a mth:)
2) gg to nz for 2.5 wks. gosh. no words can explain how amazing the country is. really hope that nz 2011 works out!
3) entering the working society... it's been 8mths since i started work, and i feel pretty good about it... i think i am.. no wait, i know i am in the right line (even though initially i had doubts abt it) Being a physio makes my life more meaningful (to put it simply).. i'm glad i made the right decision (though at times its really not easy to explain to others what it's all abt, but i'm living for myself aren't i? :D)

so yea.. good job. 2010 was awesome. let's try and top that next yr shall we?

2011- main agenda - PROJECT AUSTRALIA
i'll see you then!

2010-12-28T04:35:00.000-08:00

oh man... oh man.. oh man.
BIG SIGH
this is just plain ridiculous. it all boils down to me and my aries personality. HMPF!

one more month til end of work!!!! can't wait man!!!!!
i'll do.. exercise? haha. drive around? i dunno. PACK! HELL YEA! LOVES PACKING!!! muahahahahahaha!!!!

2010-12-14T06:18:00.000-08:00

well, i hope u can too :)

counting down...

2010-12-10T18:40:00.001-08:00

its been awhile since i last blogged abt work. not that i should anyway.. but fri was a good day, i suppose
an old patient who was recently discharged, returned to my ward. and she turned out to be super chatty and livelier compared to the prev admission when she just had her op. so happy that i cld chat with her as we walked ard the ward.. she kinda cheered me up. haha...

on the way to xmas shopping, a colleague asked abt her knee. which i totally dread. i told her, i guess i'm more of the inpt physio rather than the outpt one (strange i suppose, since most ppls have the idea that physios are outpt treating knee and shoulder probs) but i guess i do prefer inpt more because of the nature of work. "Come auntie/uncle, let's walk" So much more easy anyway. hahaha

one more week til u know what?!
bonus! pls let me have my bonus man! oh god please! pro-rated or not. i just want my bonus! i wana buy camera and backpack!!

2010-11-26T23:53:00.000-08:00

Feb 2011
2350
Terminal 3
SQ279

Destination: Adelaide, Australia

:)))

2010-11-12T03:21:00.000-08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!! MY VISA IS APPROVED!
THANK GOD! PHEW!!!!

now left accommodation, and air tix.
accommodation is a little trickier.. hopefully it'll be done deal
can't wait to pack and leave man!

i passed my driving!

2010-10-28T03:12:00.000-07:00

After having 30 over lessons, with around 10 different instructors, over 6mths, spending close to 2.7k, taking1 (and no more than tt) test, I FINALLY PASSED!

16 points!
omgosh.

i must really thank my instructors man. (as i walked out of BBDC, i was thinking of how sad it would be not to be able to come for lessons - even though each lesson costs a bloody 68bucks! and some instructors were as good as not being ard)

last night was my last revision lesson with this particular instructor. Mr.P (haha, NO, P is his initial, not that MR.P from many yrs back and they definitely dun share anything similar at all) i rmb the first time i got him 2 mths back, i thought it was strange tt he wasn't my usual grp of instructors.. and he was like kinda quiet, gives comments but always appear very bo chap and SIAN during my driving. after that one time, i seldom got him for my lessons.. then come recently, i got him for 2-3 lessons. the recent ones being last wed, where he convinced me to book ANOTHER lesson, and last night, which was my last revision lesson. the way he calls my name is kinda weird. haha. think he trying to emphasize smthg to me... last wed, he alr observed that my vertical parking was very inconsistent. and i was very inflexible when it comes to making adjustments... he like damn pek chek with me lah... but at the end of the lesson, he wld tell me in a nice tone to go and reflect... LAST night, the same thing happen again. i was super stunned when i cldn't reverse into my vertical slot. and everytime tt happens, he will be EXTREMELY QUIET. and i will be EXTREMELY LOST. cos i honestly dunno how to make adjustments. i will ask 'HOW?' and he will be angry that i'm not trying on my own to attempt and go in. yar. that happened several times.... when the session ended, we were the last car that weren't back at the lot.. he drove me back, told me not to be pressurized...shoke me hand good luck, again, asked me to go and imagine the different senarios...

i was like .. oh shit.. i just pray i can go in, in one attempt

i cldn't sleep well from last night til this morning... only wanted to fall asleep when i was on my way to bbdc. waited at the warm-up area... praying for a good warm-up instructor (aside from good car, good weather, clear road, good tester), then 1220, i heard 'JOYCE'. it was Mr. P. he brought me to the car, tell me that he's gonna give me some extra time to practice..supposed to start at 1230. [SO NICE OF HIM RIGHT? i thought tt was a very nice gesture] anyway, i didn't ask how come he's the warm-up instructor... i thought it'll be some random instructors... So, he brought me ard the circuit.. of which i made stupid mistakes right from the start like not being able to lane change, mounting kerb on directional change! haiyo... on the roads, he said i was good, juz keep up with the momentum... again, shoke my hand good luck b4 we left the car. he gave me his HP number and told me to call him after the test.. then dunno what he mumbling lah.. say all rely on me alr(in chinese).i was thinking - "does he need me to pass so that his group's passing rate will go up?" haha then he walked me to the waiting room.. and then at a very soft volume, he apologised to me for being very hush to me last night. LOL! hahahahaha... pls lah. dun mention it. was he very hush? i didn't think so.. though i thought it wld be better to tell me than make me think lah. haha.. very nice of him lah. he seemed truly paiseh abt what happen last night though i wasn't even at all bothered by it... i mean it's true lah, TP alr, must know how to make adjustments when parking mah..

ok... tt was that.. i waited in the waiting room.. abt 18 of us in total... then slowly one by one the testers came and called the names... (so now i realise that testers are different from instructors! i always thought instructors are testers too.. haha) i was the 2nd last to be called.. by this tester who looked like he acts as the big but short gangster in hongkong drama. haha. he led me down.. and i asked a damn stupid qn juz before we entered the car.. i pointed at the driver's seat and asked 'so i sit here?' he replied' then u want to sit here (tester's seat)?' HAHA. oops. how dumb rite!

wah i didn't know test car is like president's car in circuit one leh! everyone will stop and siam for you. unfortunately, I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW THAT! so everytime i wana turn or go straight, i'll wait for the other cars.. the tester kept urging me to go, but i thought i shld juz ignore since i was told they wld always wana hurry testee to do things.. but then i realised they know that test cars DO HAVE THE RIGHT OF WAY.. so i was scolded for not going when i shld/could. i'm soo happy i aced my parallel parking. though i got scolded cos i thought i shld wait til the car adjacent to me goes in first.. WHY MUST WAIT?!!! he scolded. (but everytime during lesson, the instructor always say only one car can go in at any one time mah -.- ) kena another scolding for jam brake during upslope. say i brake too hard. [and i honestly cannot rmb if we did E-BRAKE] went out to the roads, again, OH MY GOD. its like my car has a singapore flag in front and back. haha. during the lane change at the ITE, i was SO GRATEFUL for that bike which saw my car and didn't go any faster so that i cld do the lane change! THANK YOU SO MUCH BIKER! sorry i cldn't take down ur plate no.! i wld have sent u a thank u card!!! and for that 2 bus/trucks.. i dunno if they were really slow, and juz nice enuf to let me lane change back to left.. and finally that car that had hazards lights on. shucks i thought i was going to die there cos i cldn't overtake him. but luckily he moved off soon enuf... i realised i made a terrible mistake of making a improper turn cos speed too fast plus forgot to change blindspot ( YOU KNOW WHY? cos everytime i go that route, i will go right and do U-TURN! so i really stun tio when he ask me to turn left at traffic light! at that point, i was secretly counting. 8 points?! yikes!)

anyways, i have no idea.. drove back to sch... once we stopped, i thought i heard him said - book for review test. then i HUH?! then he mumbled smthg else and it sounded like go back to room to do debrief. i was like OH SHIT.... then as i waited in the room.. i really had no idea. he came.. wah lao. SPEAK SO LOUD! scared i deaf eh. so fierce i didn't even look him in the eye at all! then i juz wanted to see the points, but i cldn't. then he somemore draw diagram and show me how wrong i was. initially i thought perhaps he juz scaring me only.. then as he went on.. i got more demoralised. then he keep saying i can't be too slow, must have more confidence. and then he passed the paper to me. hehe. PHEW. mass msg the close pals and folks. wanted to call Mr. P but cldn't get through, sent a sms to him instead. later on, while waiting to get license, he came by (perhaps spotted me from the back) JOYCE! i look at him ' i passed! ' like duh rite? if i didn't pass, i wld be there sitting and waiting liao. sure go home and cry alr. haha. he looked at the paper. didn't really say much to me though.. i said thanks again and shook his hands. told me to take care. anyways, i realised he was the team leader for the group that i'm under. haha. so slow. only realised on the last revision lesson. i think he became nicer towards the end.. dunno issit becos he feel for me.. haha. maybe instructors are like this one lah.. fierce during lessons, but nice when it comes to test day.. i'm really appreciative for his presence... can't believe he can be so different... which is good.. haha.. definitely will miss some of these instructors...

so yea. can't believe i passed man! i mean. i can, actually. i was feeling pretty confident for most aspects except the vertical parking... and really.. its a combination of all luck factors - super nice drivers who gave way to me... good weather.. good warm up instructor.. yea.. mm.. tester wise.. well, actually i did more work than i wld give credit to him in any way passing me. HAHA.

2010-10-08T07:03:00.001-07:00

LOSER MOMENT NO. 456 : Being quiet at a table full of conversations

guess it's gonna take a gazilion years before i build any sort of bond with the rest who are alr so wel acquinted with one another.
haiyo. sian

2010-09-17T20:30:00.000-07:00

i can't wait to go australia.......

looking at the photos of my frens in scotland.. its so great that they have each other's company. as for me, i dun really know how i will interact with my prospective flatmates. hmm. i'm really quite independent in a way that i'm lazy and so i probably won't be bothered to really COOK. haha.

driving is really cutting an extremely huge hole in my pocket! I MUST PASS ON MY FIRST ATTEMPT! I WILL!

2010-08-30T06:06:00.000-07:00

OK. SO I'M NOT THE MOST AWESOME DRIVER AFTERALL. 58 points for my stage 2 review? haha. oh wells. it is only stage 2. (which excluded circuit and parking)hmm...

i got the curtin offer. sickening. oh wells, at least i dun have to rush and take some lifesaving course. adelaide is better than curtin. my dearest cheryl will be there to help me out. i'm not losing out by not accepting curtin.

haven't done the 'test' yet.
looking back... there were just SO MANY tests tt we had to go through.. everything was so ever important.. and results weren't the greatest.. this is perhaps to some ppl - just another test to get through with. hai.

jia you joyce

2010-08-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

Driving makes me happy
it takes away all non-driving related troubles from me
I wish I could drive more.

And I think I'm a pretty gd driver. So far. Haha

2010-08-06T18:29:00.000-07:00

Started in new ward(s) this past wk. so far so good :)

Been spending(and STILL spending) a lot since getting my pay. sux tt 1/4 goes to driving, another 1/4 goes to my mum, and i'm barely saving any $$ for scotland.

ANYWAYS. it's the long weekends:) gg out with all my friends from jc,sec,and poly!!
why is it when ppls gather, it's for FOOD only?!

DRIVING in a few hrs time! :D

2010-07-23T05:36:00.000-07:00

NEURO NEURO OMG.
JIAYOU! the more i get exposed to, the more i learn, the more experience i gain.

ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSS
ITS SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY..
HHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

HAHAHAHA
kk. i work last 2 sats PLUS wakeboarded last 2 sun = have been waking up b4 7am for the past 2+wks!!! which is very early okay!!!!!
so i'm gonna chill out tonight and nua tmr morning. PLS LET THERE BE A THUNDERHEAVYSTORM!
haha. so evil. i juz wana lie in my comfy bed with my comfy bolster and comfy blanket!

woooosh.
got a new I NEED/WANT $$$ FOR THIS list
1) Scotland.
2) Spectacles (kinda alr planned to get this 3mths ago, but not sure if the money can be put to BETTER use)
3) Crocs pumps! (for work plus play?! idk)
4) COACH large wristlet.. hehehe
5) CRUMPLER 2million dollar baby. tt cost abt 78$. also not really sure if it's extremely necessary for the time being.

Yup, my no. 1 is still scotland. and i better start planning otherwise how to take leave later on?!?!!?!?!?

2010-07-16T05:01:00.000-07:00

Issue no.1
why involve me??? i didn't want to be involved! certainly in no way i am good with such things! HAI... alrite, i'll give it my best. Might as well take this chance to speak out and make an impression. a good one i hope.

Issue no.2
how on earth can i forget to document?
HAI. well, on the bright side, it's not the worse thing to do. (RECALL SPINAL NURSING)

Issue no.3
Can i please stop avoiding people and not be depressed anymore? Sometimes what i do can't be that wrong. if i look back, perhaps i did it right after all.

Issue no.4
I will start reviewing all my patients in half an hr time and see one by one. don't care whateva crap. okay maybe not, whenever they feel fine to be seen, i'll see them. as long as it's reasonable.

AND I WILL DOCUMENT.

WORK ISSUES ASIDE
i am occassionally depressed with regards to back pain. both the patients' and mine. ok, tt's still counted as work.

ANYWAY
Driving has been pretty interesting. i'm taking manual under school. NOT CHEAP DEFINITELY. and i sure hope it'll be like one of my prac tests in nyp where i can usually pass! haha. my L knee aches as i press the clutch, my ankle hurts from pressing accelerator/brake, and i still stall as it's only my 2nd lesson. on another note, i really dun think i can absorb whateva my instructor is saying because everything tt comes within 6inches of my ears automatically gets blocked off! or rather there's a NO ENTRY sign on my L ear, (worse on the R of course). Despite all, i still really enjoy and look forward to my driving lessons becos it's a form of distraction from work and it makes me finish up my work asap. so good stuff after all.

2010-07-02T06:14:00.000-07:00

time for a breather!!!!
officially >6mths since i last ate mac/kfc in SINGAPORE!!!! (those in nz not counted! :P)
so gonna have some ole meal tmr haha!! and yes i know, i've grown fat, the weighing scale in my bro's machine is well utilised by everyone except me even though i spend the longest time being the nearest to it! RAHH!! my tummy is bigger definitely. confirm plus chop! and yes, i'm still gonna eat that zinger burger/drumstick tmr cos it has been TOO LONG!

this wk has its high and low. both in pt load, nothing emotionally/mentally related, which is good of course. still being careless occassionally, but thank goodness for all the kind nurses/frens in my ward. seriously, they're sucha bunch of great ppls- so helpful and funny too, i hope every ward i go next time will have nurses like them!! (haha. probably not lah)

2010-06-25T20:35:00.000-07:00

SERIOUSLY AGING :((((((((
any facial places that can recommend me to go?
facial products??? :((

ANYWAYS. this wk wasn't half as bad, as i thought it possibly might be.. oh wells
still learning as much as i can..

I WANA GO AUSTRALIA LIKE REAL SOON!!!!
gotta go buy some adelaide australia book/map man! :))))

2010-06-18T05:13:00.000-07:00

i have to make sure that all my patients are safe BEFORE, DURING, AFTER the treatment
i have to make sure that all my treatments are effective
I have to make sure i walk fast, even if i have very few/'manageable' patients.

OK. don't worry, if physio's jobs were so dangerous, we wldn't have such low pay.

PRAY.
and have NO REGRETS.

2010-06-12T02:30:00.000-07:00

happy one month to me and.... my ortho ward!!!!!! haha
hai. hope i can catch on fast enough and may i meet stats everyday next wk onwards!!! nothing less than a double digit!!

wakeboarded for the 3rd time after a long break. wasn't as tiring, wasn't as difficult, water wasn't as salty, abs no longer felt like it have to work v hard. but still got more to learn. hopefully next time round will be much better :))

scotland is sucha a far away dream.. with driving & macbook pro in mind... scotland is... SUCH A FAR AWAY DREAM. on the other hand, august long break is coming up, gotta start planning if i shld go anyway or not. hmm...

scotland aside.. i haven't really been able to do much research on UniSA/adelaide yet.

2010-06-01T07:19:00.001-07:00

i still have SO MUCH TO LEARN!!!
making stupid mistakes still!!! ARGH! SO ANNOYING!!!
omgosh. one day someone will realise how terrible i am. oh man.....
i gotta learn fast, learn quick! make the correct judgement! prevent anyone from knowing how terrible i am!!! i need to save my reputation! FAST!

2010-05-29T03:05:00.001-07:00

i'm sucha terrible person.
hai.
i wonder how many more mistakes i can make before committing the worst one ever.

please let me learn from all these mistakes and to never repeat them ever.

2010-05-27T19:19:00.000-07:00

omgosh omgosh omgosh!!!!! i'm so friggin excited that i made it to UNISA!!!
AUSTRALIA HERE I COME... AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i feel more motivation to work harder at work!!!
[[[ side thought. my teamleader juz trf, so now i got a new teamleader whom i hasn't spoken to before. and i stil feel clueless and helpless at times, and well, not answering questions, nor discussing them properly as a PHYSIO... i hope i learn from these past mistakes and make better contributions in the very very near future, aka saturday onwards!]]]

ANYWAYS, back to my lovely australia!!!!!!!!!!! this is all abt australia post man!
so YES, i did get in with my somewhat pretty ridiculous gpa. and i found out 2 of my seniors will be gg(they seem nice) and another of my notsoclose classmate...
but the thing is, I'M GG TO AUSTRALIA!!! the land where cheryl and jie are! the land where i spent my 21st birthday at!!!

oh gosh, i can't wait to plan all those trips AROUND australia!!!
omgosh, if i wana go so many places in aussie, how to go scotland!?!!?!?!?!!?!?

OMGOD like 1 mth ago, i was soooo decided on gg there, (and getting a westie, but well that was really more fat chance). but yes! i wanted to, and i dunno now.. the thing is with some of my pals there, it wld make gg to this cool awesome (and rather random) nation much more 'safe' and ya. at least i know i have friends there who can bring me out and it won't be entired a solo backpacking trip(kinda like my 21st bday in sydney)

but with the calculation tt i'm doing now, i dunno if i have enuf money! the KEY KEY things that i need a lot of money for are MACBOOK PRO and SCOTLAND! see! even my branded bags are pushed out of way becos of this! with my meagre pay, and many future thoughts on the trips tt i'll be gg IN Australia (dreamworld movieworld seaworld in GOLD COAST), i dunno how i can save up enough to fulfil all these travelling needs(wants) of mine!!!!!!!
and who knows, maybe a short NZ trip somewhere in between? on MAGIC? haha

talking abt australia is like so never ending!
first of all, it's UNISA i'm gg. so it'll be in south australia. issit the same as adelaide? that i'm not entirely sure..
there's accommodation.. well, tt shld be for the later part. i'm thinking of an apartment shared with the others tt i'm gg with.. but preferably a room on MY OWN!! i need my space!
then there's food. start learning!!! i need to learn chinese food for god's sake!
and travelling! please let me pass my driving b4 i go off! maybe we cld do a road trip somewhere?!?!?!?!
can i have a dog there? then bring it back when i come back?! omgosh.................
ooh shopping! hahaha hmm... adelaide ah. dunno can shop what leh
then the beaches!!!

thenthen! during the holidays, can go gold coast!!!!!!!!!
this post is so filled with random stuff!! hope they all come true!! one way or another!

2010-05-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

i'm secretly still very scared.
but i shall be brave. or at least pretend to be. for now.
things will get better.

wakeboardin was interesting. if only the water wasn't so salty and my abs didn't feel so tired so easily.

2010-05-08T07:15:00.000-07:00

i miss NZ. i really do.

yes at times i didn't enjoy certain parts during the trip becos it's not easy travelling with so many people and so such tight schedule.

but i still miss nz.

i miss the long white clouds tt covers the entire sky, and that is so endless it seems to be touching the ground.
i miss the fun adventures that we participated - white water rafting at kaituna river, horse-riding, cycling on the road THAT HAS A CYCLING lane, gg to the beach, swoop, bungy at taupo...
i miss the delicious food we have esp when the company is so good
i miss the weather (very odd. but yea. i guess towards the end of the trip, the weather seems alittle more bearable)
i miss the funny moments we share, the laughter and jokes...
i miss cookie time. and afghans. subway's cookie tasted funny juz now.

i can't wait for my next trip. hopefully i can go to scotland.
and in a few years time. to travel around the States.

A trying phase

2010-05-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

Wk 1 has passed. But technically, i've only been up the wards since thursday
As a working adult, i do not wish to post all my nonsensical rantings here, for.. i'm afraid it may reflect badly on me.

It is a very trying phase to start working. I'm not sure if it's just me, or that it's only been 2nd day. Here i was, having spent the last 3hrs since i reached home from working, researching continuously.

I do not want to disappoint the people around me, especially the patients. They deserve nothing but the best. And because they do, i have to do my part to make sure i don't screw up.

Today was a teeny weeny bit better than yesterday. Hopefully Monday will be even better..
Being at the bottom isn't necessary a bad thing. It means things can only get better :)

2010-04-28T18:46:00.000-07:00

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

so i've got my hands on the iphone!!! (but tt's AFTER a friend told me tt a NEWER iphone is cmg out in stores a few mths later -.-) oh wells.
it's gonna be MAY soon. and i was reviewing my new yr resolutions which i set in jan - seems like things are gg pretty right on track.
1) graduated. though extremely dissatisfied with gpa
2) went to nz. what an amazing country it was. read blog!
3) got a job. not locum. but gd to know i'm clearing my 3yrs as of 3may. haha.
4) has signed up for driving. FINALLY.
5) this is a bad one - I HAVE NOT LOST THE INTENDED WEIGHT I WANTED TO LOSE! ARGH! all that jogging is totally not effective lor!! i wish i had my own personal trainer!
6) gg to states in dec? NO. I kinda postpone it. Probably i will spend SEVERAL MONTHS there at the end of my next 3yrs. this way, there's something i can look forward to at the end of my employment.. haha. haven't even start work alr looking forward to end of employment.. what on earth rite?! oh wells *rolling my eyes*

Speaking of which. I AM GONNA START WORK SOON. and in my contract, i muz not TALK *RUBBISH* How do i feel? NERVOUS. SCARED. and maybe a little bit of EXCITEMENT! yea! esp after knowing tt i POSSIBLY don't have to start in OPD.. yet. so cool! gonna have to do some serious revision man!

2010-04-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! I'm back from NZ! so sorry i had NO FRIGGIN UPDATES cos we had to pay 6NZD for one hr of internet use in our hostels. so... anyways, i'll be posting up my travel journal of that 17 days plus pre and post stuff in this other blog specially dedicated to the NZ trip! Enjoy! Photos will might be up abit later on!

http://iwenttonewzealandinapril2010.blogspot.com/

Aries

2010-03-31T09:27:00.000-07:00

i was replying a sms juz now when i realised, its either my personality for having such a huge reaction to the type of qn my dear fren was asking. or juz how 'terrible' that qn is to be even asked.
so i thought i'd do a in-depth research abt myself as an aeries (I AM BORED after all), and maybe elaborate too.

Aries will be a loyal friend as long as the relationship keeps evolving and they feel that it is of benefit, but if they become bored or the relationship becomes stale, they will assuredly get out
-- true in a certain extent. but i think this applies to many ppl.. i have several friends who i tell different stuff abt and i like this.. so that i dun totally overload one person with all my emotions..

Strengths: Adventurous, Energetic, courageous, confident
i think the strengths are pretty true! haha. juz becos i feel no qualms whatsoever doing skydiving, bungy and in the future, swimming with sharks! not so true abt confidence though..i think i have self-image issues.

Weakness: self centered, short tempered, impulsive, impatient
weakness.. also pretty true. unfortunately i AM self-centered. in many ways i think my friends surely have felt it one way or another. i try to be generous and considerate but let's juz say, they're not in my genes. short tempered yea.. impulsive.. i dun really have eg of that.. impatient YES! I HATE WAITING, I HATE PPL WHO DO NOT COME ON TIME,(so tt pretty much means i hate all my friends. HAHA. pls dun be offended. juz try not to be late the next time u see me, and NO. tell me early tt u're gonna be late DOES NOT HELP. ok. anyways , i've learnt my lesson and i am no longer punctual. but i still turn up as the earliest latecomer. HATE IT) i think this impatient and self-centered traits kinda feed on each other. PAI SEH HOR.

Aries are nv shy of apologizing.
YES. extremely true. as with my Hk fren incidence. i take time. but i absolutely hate it when somebody gets the wrong impression of me. i can get angry easily. so yea. i guess i do the wrong things(becos i AM self centered :S)

Aries can speak about anything & everything under the sun.
-- NO! unless u are my close friend. or some random dude i meet online. haha

Possessing a strong sense of urgency!!!
AH YES! tt's the total opposite of impatience right?! and that is A GOOD TRAIT! i'm not sure if i got it when i was in military band and heard of the term. i think if i have a timeline, i will follow to it strictly and expect the rest to do so too. what's the point of having a timeline if u ain't gonna follow it!? i'm not sure if this is the same as being extremely time-oriented. i like to have timelines on the day of exams so tt i can tell myself what time to wake up, study, shower, lunch and when i shld leave home! yes i do that!!

remember, what Aries wants, Aries usually gets...
? really? only when i have money i think. or since last yr when i turned 21. wldn't say its true all the time!

Aries can sometimes be an egotist.Aries is the first sign of the zodiac, the first in any modern (or old) astrology sun-sign list. This strangely enough, often transfers to the person born under aries into a "me first"
-- tt probably explains my self-centeredness. not my fault ok!

Arians tend to be very organized and are therefore able to organize others with ease.
-- very true. yet i think that being too organized and wanting to get things done MY WAY sometimes backfires :(

The Leader: Being the first sign of the zodiac seems to make Arians natural leaders. They are seen as ambitious, exciting, and vibrant individuals who gravitate towards the centre of any action because of these traits. Arians make great leaders because they normally have genuine concern for those they lead. They tend to be frank and candid, which are traits many people look for in a leader.
--- true. i often myself NOT being able to juz sit back and i dun like to wait for things to happen (IMPATIENT!), so i guess tt's why i like to take things to my own hands and make things happen. once again, it does backfire, so i shld probably watch myself more.

Arians are very good at starting things, but often may leave tasks unfinished.
true to a certain extent! i guess tt's what leaders do rite? start a idea, and let the others fnish it. HAHA. juz kidding y'all!

Ares are Independent.
TRUE TO THE MAX. i'm the kind who do things for MYSELF (recall self-centered) and i dun like waiting for other (recall impatient). i go movies alone when i feel like it, i dun see a problem shopping alone.

A romantic relationship with a sweet, quiet guy won’t work for her. It’s important to choose someone who will hold his own and will not intimidate easily, otherwise life will become way too boring for Aries. On the other hand, they dislike restrictions of any kind and a possessive relationship will end up going nowhere. That does not mean she won’t be a little possessive herself. She sees nothing wrong in that.
--- i agree :)

The typical Aries woman has the physical stamina of a long distance runner. Generally healthy, these robust subjects have been known to stave off the flu through sheer willpower. Arians are simply too busy to be sick.
-- if only! then i won't be failing my 2.4 19 out of 20 times! but fyi, i still go for my regular jogs! and i am seldom sick, though i blow my nose quite often. its the aircon.

Aries motto is "Ready, fire, aim!" It may be backwards for others, but you'd rather figure out what to do while you are doing it. Impulsive actions, however, can bring you your share of trouble. While others are gathering information to make informed decisions, you are already on your way. As such, you could suffer from false starts. In fact, you Aries are so good at starting things that you can be off onto your next project before completing the previous one. As you Aries mature, you learn to slow down your reaction time in order to think about the consequences of your actions
--- SO TRUE. the last sentence --- it is only becos not everyone ard me ar aries. so i often gotta slow down and wait.. hate waiting!

2010-03-29T10:07:00.000-07:00

i am a chronic worrier

over the past years, i've worried abt these

schools
spelling
tests CA, SA in primary & secondary sch
exams
assignments
public speaking

very recently
results
chances of gg for degree conversion
conflict with my org
gg nz - accommodation & activities

stuff in general
getting a bf. or not being able to get one

future
working.
treatment strategies. or the lack of it
documentation
inservice
contribution to the team
getting sued

this past wk was probably the worst. ever. day by day, getting worried for stuff, one over-taking another. no rest in between. and not to mention my poor sleep pattern is hugely affecting me ---- ONLY BECOS i worry i can't get out of it!

i know 99% of my worries are for nothing. but i can't help it. i really can't.
websites says tt worrying is gd becos it helps prevent problems by first anticipating it. so yea. but of course, at my rate of worrying, i'm sure the disadvantages outweigh the benefit.

hai. i worry abt not worrying too.

2010-03-22T17:28:00.001-07:00

my org is not happy with me. or juz one or two of them.
pls let everything resolve peacefully.

2010-03-22T17:28:00.000-07:00

my worst results ever.
if i had gotten these results last sem, it might not feel as bad. but because its the last sem, it kinda became the DECIDING sem
really sux that my results dropped this far. all because of clinicals. that 5 wks at hk (and i know that 5 wks at sgh also did affected this)

what's a girl gotta do to get into a uni?
maybe i gotta look into newcastle too. maybe i'll go there. maybe they'll take me in.
*see lah! who ask u dun want to go uni after jc. now go thru another phase of fretting over impt stuff like this!*

argh i'm so tired.
i just want to cry.
what's the f**king point of getting a scholarship if i ain't gonna live up to the standard?!?! i should totally screw myself and put a gunshot through my head. i don't deserve this.

k. shit. die.

2010-03-22T04:11:00.000-07:00

Results out tmr.. D DAY for one very last time in NYP.
gosh. i'm still not as nervous yet. maybe i will be tmr. and then for the additional few mths where i await my application for the overseas uni.
will i be accepted?
can't imagine having to pay 1k back to nuh if i dun. then where do i work at? probably NUH still since sgh reached quota and ttsh too.

hmm.

2010-03-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

my daily routine is as follows:

1)wake up at 9
2)breakfast
3)Back to bed by 12 or 3pm (depending on what shows are available)
4)wake up ard 5-6plus
5)goes for a 45min jog
6)watches tv til 2am(cos i enjoy watching the rerun of ER)

tt's pretty much how sad my life is now.
wait..no it's not sad.. it's juz rather lifeless.
i can't say its boring cos i'm supposed to be happy to be like this BECOS tt was how i yearn to be during the crazy period of sch.
i'm not working out as hard as i wish i was (note, jogging is not performed DAILY unfortunately)
i'm running out of money soon.
and i wld love to eat xiaolongbao. or dimsum. right now. or soon.

i miss pt2 ppls. all the lame stuff abt them. nobody is online. what's wrong with them?!

2010-03-06T05:37:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS....

it's been a week... sentosa, baking, nz itinerary, lunched with angie, borrowed books, rented vcds... all's good man..

i've decided i'll probably come home with a westie when i come home from australia in a yr's time. that is IF i do go to aus in the first place... hmm.. i dun wana think abt it.. from the time when i think if my gpa can make it, to me hoping to get a scholarship, and now tt i spent most of the scholarship $$, i'm worried if the intake is large enuf to accept me in.

NZ plans: pretty much settled. except the fact tt juz the ACTIVITIES itself cost a bomb of 1.5k! no food/accommodation/transport included! :S can't imagine having to tell my mum tt i have to draw tt amt of moolah. oh dear

Gotta buy a cap! BUGIS!
Next wk is IT fair - gotta buy the thumbdrive, external harddisk and guitar hero(probably shld go with my mum instead.. pretty sure she'd pay for the first 2.)
L'oreal sale the wk after... dunno what to buy, but looking forward to seeing what they have :)

right now, life is pretty comfortable.. yea, i miss the bunch of ppls.. even though gg to sch means being stressed out, i def miss hanging out with them.. talking, gossiping, laughing... lots of smile and laughter... it's kinda.. quiet since sch ended.. :(

last day of school

2010-02-25T02:57:00.000-08:00

"it's ur final paper. savour the moment"
with that, all of us sat for the geron paper, for the very last time, in the class where we had our very first lesson (by the terrorizing yet turn out to be one of the best lecturers Dr Uma)
After which, photo taking and cam-whoring!! haha. never thought i would say it, but this bunch of people have been very special to me... From the beginning stages where ms impatient dun feel the need to sit together at every lunch to gradually learning to being more 'tolerant' and less self-centred..
Ok we have came a long way (as mentioned in prev prev post) so shan't go through the same thing... but here's a bunch of NO MORES that i've came up with

NO MORE
Boring Lectures
Tortorous 3h tutorials
Intensive notes scribbling practicals
Sleeping at J corridor
Eating at J corridor
Passing around food in class
Long journey to school. PHEW!
Crazy mugging, panicking and stressful nights
Assignments with the need to cut down words
Pract Tests to stress over
FYP project meetings and juz projects overall
Use of Physical Therapy, Pubmed, Science Direct to find gazillion pages of articles

some of the sadder no mores
pranks - putting random stuff in bag, setting weird ringtones/wall papers
eating as a group, and well, eating A LOT together and sharing the good stuff
suan-ing each other
patting on the backs - jia you. we'll get through this

Because i believe that in the end, everything will turn out fine.

look at how fine all of us have turned out at the end of 3 years. Amazing isn't it? 3 years ago, we were all noobs, in ugly attire coming to sch, memorising and testing each other on anatomy of this and that. 3 years later, all of us have 'evolved' into gluttons, still wearing the same lok kok attire to sch, but this time, we're PHYSIOTHERAPISTS.

OMG. are we? we are? oh dear....
the end of another phase in life, and the terrifying start to the beginning of a confirm-will-be overwhelming stage - working life.

well... until then. let's juz have fun ok? hahahahahaha. chill guys.
ok i stink and i gotta go shower.

oh and btw, i'm glad i spoke to my friend on this very last day to clear the air. the clouds are gone, the sky is pretty, and the day is amazingly wonderful.

thank y'all ppls! you've all made NYP a really much easier and comforting place to be in. without y'all. me will die. haha.

countdown to exams!

2010-02-19T06:34:00.000-08:00

3 more days to exams!!
can't seem to get focused!! aside from the stupid assignment and the even stupid-er mistake tt i make for not checking the markin scheme b4 submitting. thank god for nurul aini.

my tooth hurts. probably from all the chocolates
i seriously dun want to exercise. in fact, feb has been really bad for me. blame it on the weather!!!
i feel like eating sushi after i saw someone's fb pics.

I NEED TO GET MOVING!

i will make this work!!

fyp ppt

2010-02-05T07:49:00.000-08:00

what a day!
fyp presentation - OVER
job well done to everyone!!!

i still rmb my first time listening to the FYP presentation back when i was in yr 1, thinking - ohmygod, will i ever be up there doing it?
and thinking back, right b4 the start of the presentation, i reminded my grp mates that " there comes a point where we have to be satisfied with what we've done". this was smthg ms soh said to me during my Alevel period, and i've always found it useful during exam period. nothing is perfect, no one can ever finish studying everything or be perfect at everything. (even every crime has it loophole.) so yea... i think my grp members have come a really long way this past one yr... (and no it's not over, but somehow this presentation marks a very significant day in our 3yrs in nyp)
i know i've been hush, unreasonable, annoyed, resistant to change, and i'm really thankful that susu, franny & huicheung who have always been there to either argue against me, laugh at me, or totally 'not feel it'. i'm soooo appreciative for what they've done and (as i write this, my eyes are tearing up). we've come a freaking long way, and i'm really proud of what we've done. no, i dun agree that MIAT is of any use, but really, to work hard together at smthg we dun believe for one yr, and go through all the long emails, checking, rechecking, late nights, online meetings.. (i will secretly miss them), it's been a great year, and i really enjoy working with each and every one of u.

actually, i was slightly disappointed at the turnout of the presentation and the way it was organised (it didn't seem like we have showcased enuf our stuff cos no one was there to appreciate it except for us and our fellow classmates)

nyp is a terrible place to study in. but i'm so ever grateful for each and one of my classmates(including those in PT1) for their presence, pranks, jokes, and the fact that we could be there for each other, along the long and unsurmountable (yet abt to be surmounted) journey. a special mention to the follow ppls jac, qing, jiamin, mashy, yen, joce, caryn, susu, ginny, tricia. and last but not least, my best pal - nurul aini. u sux man! haha. kidding la. u're the bestest pal in the whole world man. thank u for ur 'calm down's though occassionally it's useless and not helpful.haha. for everything that i'm not able to express in words due to my lack of english - thank you.

sinking feeling as the last day of sch draws even nearer. still got tons of assignments and reports to churn out.. but i do hope we will all cherish one another and enjoy ... our remaining days together.. in the very special j214 corridor.

i will miss you guys. truly.

2010-01-30T06:39:00.000-08:00

one crazy week down, another few more crazy weeks to go...

hope my cp assignment will be decent enuf for submission.. and hope i do well for the viva. not forgetting multiple sclerosis, ergo, fyp... and 2 other assignments and ... EXAMS. RAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

anyways, came up with a to-do list for after the exams!
1) learn juggling!
2) play more tennis!
3) intensive workout daily!
4) organise notes/manuals and those pdf in the computer
5) make photo collages
so far tt's all.. shld keep me pretty occupied for the whole of march and also gotta plan for NEW ZEALAND! how can i forget tt!?!

2010-01-26T08:21:00.000-08:00

dun feel appreciated = makes me pissed and extremely upset and disappointed with the world wide world!

tonite. i hate fyp.

New Zealand!

2010-01-16T04:31:00.000-08:00

I'm gg NEW ZEALAND!
yes yes yes! can't believe i'm doing it.. but yes! i've trf the air tix money to joce.. now waiting for confirmation!

did a little research last nite on queenstown nz.. wow. sooo many fun stuff to do! well. mostly adventurous and exciting stuff.. not much shopping... and all of them are not cheap ok! oh man. and we're only supposed to stay at queenstown for - 1 day? or 2? :S well, as long as i get to do jumping and fun stuff, it doesn't matter which part of nz i do it in, as long as i DO IT!

still got lots of proj to be completed!!! but so great to have a grad trip to look forward to!!!

2010-01-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

there is a freaking sale gg on out there but i have nothing to buy! AAAARGGHHHHHH!!!!

btw, i think being fat is genetic, but i shall still work out and hope for the better!

i went out for dinner at chachacha(CHIMICHANGA IS AWESOME!) and went to sw's hse to play cluedo and sabotuer(can't spell) HAD FUN :)))) only played one round of each and had to leave to catch the last bus! wish we cld stay longer! hence, stayover next fri! WOOHOO!
btw, the peanut butter ice cream is GREAT until u reach 75% of it :S yea. then on the way home.. was chatting with A and only then realised that only ONE WK OF SCH HAS PASSED BY.the past one wk of sch... felt like ONE MONTH! SERIOUSLY woah. wat is gg on man?!

counting down to last day of school... secretly happy yet still sad abt it.. NOPE. no time for emotions. BACK TO WORK!

2010-01-05T06:48:00.000-08:00

SHOULD I JOIN THE VERTICAL MARATHON THIS YEAR?
anyone?

2010-01-01T07:58:00.000-08:00

POST no. 399

haiya! shld have blogged randomly some other day, so that i could start with post no. 400 or 401 today! on this brand new day of the brand new year, 2010!

anyways, i've came up with a plan for this yr! hopefully it'll be able to top last yr!

1)graduate NYP. duh!
2)?go NZ with classmates in april/may
3)get a driving license
4)get a a job as a locum
5)get a gym membership so tt i can have great transformation like YH!!!! WOOTS! hahaha --- OK MAYBE NOT. but i'll try to work out more on my own!!
6)go USA in december :)

yup. so far, tt's the plan for now. pretty good plan rite? get a driving license so i can go states (?on my own), get a great figure so i can pick up guys in the states - HAHAHAHAHAHA, or get picked up! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
yes, locum so that i can pay for the driving classes and the gym membership, and the US trip of course!

and and and and - finally, YIHUI! HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY! surprisingly, u're the most gorgeous bday girl out of all the parties tt i've attended. THE DRESS IS SO HOT! seriously, my dear, if u can wear tt dress, u can wear EVERYTHING ELSE! it's juz a matter of whether u want to take time and money out to go and learn the art of FASHION AND SHOPPING!! haha :) anyway, u look really really hot! i'm so happy for ur transformation! :) i hope u can keep this up! haha! next time our outings so shld more sophisticated and less lok kok!!! u are really NUI DA SHI BA(or rather, ER SHI YI) BIAN! CONGRATS:))

here's a gorgeous pic of u and a lok kok pic of me :S hai, not my fault k! i wasn't the one who wanted to come in polo tee! wld have worn a dress! (well, if it wasn't raining also. haha)

LAST DAY OF 2009

2009-12-31T04:17:00.000-08:00

THE LAST DAY OF A MEMORABLE 2009

indeed 2009 has been a very special year,i'm so very glad for everything tt has taken place this past 365 days.

let's recall the special events of the year

1) housevisiting during CNY with the S55 ppls!
2) permission granted to go Australia and spent time with jie&cheryl and also to mark my 21st bday by doing a tandem SKYDIVE :)
3) applied for Health Science Scholarship 1 + 1 and i got it!
4) bought a new Samsung touchscreen hp :)
5) did my spine placement in HONGKONG for 6 wks and gosh, what a experience i'll never forget.
6) whined my way to a bungy jump at the Macau tower of 233meters
7) had a really enriching placement at CGH, even though i thought it wld be worst nightmare. thank u zj.
8) spent lots of MONEY on ALL THE 21st bday parties&presents. thank u my friends!
9) bought wii - but unfortunately is under-utilised :(
10)batam trip with yh and des :)) sensational spa indeed!
11)xmas parties at cheryl's pl & sm's pl, yr end party with pt1 & pt2 ppls at weekok's hse! can't believe with the amt of workload we had, we each still came up with a dance to perform for one another!

alrite. pictures speak a thousand words. shall let 'em do all the talking then!

with S55 gals, TABLE FOR 10!

with ntmb mates :)))) all lao peng you already... haha

the special events
1) 21st bday in SYDNEY + SKYDIVING

2) Hong Kong, Macau, BUNGY JUMPING!

the crazy ppls of PT2 :)) never thought we wld be this close... and i'm really glad we did, cos i wldn't be able to survive these 3 yrs without u guys. well, maybe i wld, but it wld be SO BORING! haha :))))

yea man. that pretty much sums up my awesome fantabulous wonderful BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!

2009-12-23T02:22:00.000-08:00

oh dear
woke up with a terrible L neck pain. looked almost like a wry neck. minor movt of the neck to the L side brought on pain instantly.
it was so painful tt
a)when i walked to my gp, i had walk very slowly
b)i had to keep my neck extremely still to make sure there ain't any sudden movements
c)when there were sudden movt, i had to stop in my track and juz hold my neck
d)my chin was rotated to the left to ease off the pain - hence i looked funny when i walk back
e)teared in the clinic cos it was so painful and tiring to hold the neck up
f)eating breakfast -beehoon,was extremely troublesome
h)lying down on bed was OMG EXTREMELY TOUGH - like cos alot of eccentric contractions of the neck was required- it was SO PAINFUL
i)took a gazillion of pills

thankfully, after my first nap (12 to 3.15), it got slightly better
after my 2nd nap (4 to 6), it get better tt i can rotate and side flex and rotate more towards my left. and waking up was easier too
seriously hopes it gets better cos i wana go for my xmas party tmr!!!!

and i received this!

yippee! right after i top up for the postage! :))))))

2009-12-22T05:05:00.000-08:00

BATAM TRIP :)

what an experience i must say! had several of my firsts over the 2D1N trip!

day1:
departure was kinda rush
ferry ride was tolerable
arrival at hotel - drinks were :S
bowled for 2 games cos our room wasn't available yet.. bowling was- alrite.. one strike! haha.
got our room - spacious. clean. decent. good view of the pool too.
went to nagoya hill mall - had a&w (so-so lor. nothing fantastic.) bought several stuff- fake gucci sunglasses(even comes with the casing!), chelsea merchandises, teddy bear biscuits!(reminds me so much of the ones i had in HK! yippee! love 'em!)
went back hotel
SPA - OMG. what a sensational spa it was. it was my first time doing spa so i wasn't sure of all the procedures.. did it with dear yh, whom was slightly more experienced. but still, she didn't warn me abt it! so the exciting parts were having to change into the sarong in that 'tent'-super open space can! then lie down. did a scrub first. finished the whole of the back of the body. and then have to turn ard and lie supine! omg. i was only in my disposable undies! omg man. then i accidentally saw yh's... haha. but only a blurred vision. then the person even scrubbed my breast. OMG. i so didn't see that coming. alrite. that i survived. prett open abt it. did i mention it was kinda in a open area when the walls of the 'room' were juz bamboo stick-like hanging horizontally like can see the outside from inside and vice versa! eW
then came the worst part. or shld i see the funniest cum scariest part. showering naked with yh. oh dear, we were so silly laughing cos it was just so extremely awkward!
the rest of the spa was a massage in exactly the same manner as the scrub and followed by a bath in the bathtub- yes with yh again. naked. well, thank goodness for disposable undies and towel!
this was definitely a first for me! lesson learnt is to do it SINGLE in the future! haha. but yea, it did kinda brought us slightly closer on a physical level. HAHA
after the spa - pizza and pasta at the cafe
did a facial in our room, caught survivor's season finale, and zonked out

day2:
breakfast buffet - not fantastic. giving it 5/10 is juz me being generous.
swimming. well more like chilling in the pool
went sauna (my first. though extremely unsuccessful cos i didn't break a sweat at all)and dipped in the jacuzzi for awhile
checked out
had pop mee (cup noodles) while waiting for the bus to arrive.
played snooker!!! another first for me too! haha. it was pretty embarrassing cos we had no idea how to play it. in the end we cheated like crazy and by hook AND by crook, we got all the balls in! HAHA
went to ferry terminal, boarded the ferry and bye bye batam!
reached home safe and sound:) slept like a pig though. hehe

yea. so that was my rather interesting and definitely UNFORGETTABLE batam trip! :)
like my msn nick- it's good to be home!

2009-12-19T00:17:00.000-08:00

NEW BLOGSKIN UP

thought of changing it since the last time i changed it. the prev one was too greeny and flowery and the words were often too small! shan't spoil ur eyes and mine!

anyway, it's been ages since i last blogged! and strangely enough, its not becos i was too busy. in fact, i think this sem i've been pretty slacked. haven't read up on all the lecture notes yet. oh dear. so much projects to do. and i really wish someone else would take charge just because.

oh wells. christmas is here! and it's finally our last term break of the freaking last semester in nyp. even the OTs had their final day of sch ytd! how shiok huh.
holiday plans: gg on batam trip with yh and des:) hopes everything will turn out well and we'll have a great relaxing time there!

deg conversion: not much of news on it, except tt i have to resubmit my application after the final results. can't ask for more except to maintain a 3.0 or at least pull up to 3.2

someone proposed a trip and i was invited. hmm. dunno if i should take up the offer.
anyone interested in a USA trip instead?

2009-11-30T07:33:00.000-08:00

OMG
U GOTTA BE FREAKING RICH AND KNOW HOW TO DRIVE IN ORDER TO TOUR THE STATES. OTHERWISE MUZ GO WITH TOUR GROUP MAN. BORING
DEFINITELY NOT THE BEST DESTINATION TO TRAVEL ALONE...

travelling alone.. the idea seems a little daunting.. i can eat my meals and watch movies alone.. i muz say i'm quite the independent girl.. but travelling is another whole new different story.. so more, i'm not tt rich. and i dun have a license. haha

2009-11-28T06:37:00.000-08:00

bought a pair of asics! WOOHOO!!!
gotta start running faithfully again!
bought way too much stuff over this weekend.. 2 tops at f21 & pull&bear, 2 online checkered purchases, and the shoes.
and i actually wana buy more stuff... but guess i better curb my buying(s) NOW!

had a great dining experience with the pt2 ppls at chomp chomp!!!
oh man the hokkien mee is sooo nice i cld totally finish up the 5$ plate on my own! and so is the sambal stingray!!! WOOHOO! and i love the huge mug of sugarcane juice! it's been so long since i last had sucha delicious tasty yumyum singapore food!
next up, adam road with s55 ppls!

i wonder how our thai trip will work out... and the batam trip too.. so annoying tt nobody is replying my fb msg! :S

OH! and btw... i've decided that my next dream (hopefully not juz a dream) destination is UNITED STATES OF AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO GO THERE! SO MUCH TO DO, SEE, SHOP!!!!
USA ANYONE???

2009-11-24T07:13:00.001-08:00

When I see their happy faces smilin' back at me.
7th Heaven, I know there's no greater feelin' than the love of family.
Where can you go when the world don't treat you right?
The answer is home; that's the one place that you'll find...
7th Heaven, mmmmm 7th Heaven
7th Heaven

one of of my all time favourite shows, and one of my fave songs.. esp the the 3rd & 4th line :)

2009-11-21T09:43:00.000-08:00

finally, the very last clinical placement has come to an end.
i still remembered the first time i had a look at the clinical placement schedules when i was in yr1.looking back, i thought 'damn. 3 freaking placements in yr3? how the hell am i ever gonna get by that?!' and here i am. been there, done that.
by far, this is my best placement. i've learnt a lot, i feel inspired to do well, and i think this is where i can perform the best for my patients...
of course i wish i was a more well rounded physio, and i might need some help in ms cos tt's my least confident area.

anyways, i'm really glad tt clinicals are over - so i dun have to face somebody every single freaking hour. things got juz teeny weeny better at the last few days, only cos she sorta screwd up and i decided to be sympathetic towards her. i'm really looking forward to sch.. to seeing my good o' pals and being ard ppls whom i dun get angry, annoyed or pissed at. haha. unfortunately, fyp status is not tt good. gotta start working on my statistics! ARGH. on a side note.. haha. 3quarter of my fyp are gonna be colleagues in future! WOOHOO!

bought 110$ worth of cosmetics.. kinda regretted one of the foundations.. doesn't seem to suit me:( sadness. guess when it comes to cosmetics, got to spend and splurge quite abit b4 finding the right one..

on another note,
and i need a pair of running shoes!
hope the thai trip works out in the end!

2009-11-11T04:30:00.000-08:00

U! pissed me off and i dun like u!
i try and stay invisible when u treat ur pt and help u if needed/necessary.
but u! talk talk talk talk talk! i dun give a damn how friendly u are, but i juz want u TO SHUT THE FUCK UP and LEAVE ME AND MY PATIENT ALONE! u're seriously cramping my style u noe that!
the stupid questions u ask are as though u're my CE and u wld noe better! but u fucking don't! what 'quiet people score better than the vocal ones"? WHAT THE FUCK WAS ALL THAT ABOUT!? DID U SERIOUSLY HAVE TO ASK THE CE ABT THAT IN FRONT OF ME??!?!?!? ARE U TRYING TO GET HER TO TELL U THAT NO, ACTUALLY VOCAL ONES WILL SCORE BETTER AND PPLS LIKE ME WHO ARE SO QUIET WILL DO WORSE. FUCK OFF MAN!
I WAS SO TIRED AT THE END OF THE DAY AND INSTEAD OF JUZ TELLING ME STRAIGHT TT I DIDN'T CLEAN IT PROPERLY, U HAD TO ASK AND PROBE IN FRONT OF ME CE SO THAT I MADE A DAMN MISTAKE IN FRONT OF HER AND SNAPPED AT U FOR THE WRONG REASON

I WISHED U HAD STAY AT HOME FOR THE REST OF THE 2 WKS
I WAS PERFECTLY HAPPY THE LAST 2 DAYS!!!! I DUN LIKE HAVING U AROUND AT ALL! U SHLD JUZ MIND YOUR OWN DAMN BUSINESS AND STOP ACTING SO FUCKING HELPFUL, COS I FUCKING DUN CARE AND DUN APPRECIATE AT ALL. GO SUCK UP TO HER WHEN I'M NOT AROUND. DON'T FUCKING DO IT IN FRONT OF ME AND MAKE MY BLOOD BOIL!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!! I HAVE NEVER USED SO MANY OF THIS FUCKING VULGAR WORD IN MY ENTIRE BLOG. I'VE TOLERATED ENOUGH OF U! I JUZ WANT U TO GO AWAY! FAR FAR FAR FAR AWAY!

ok.. after so much vulgarities. i apologise to any readers who are offended. joyce hasn't changed. she juz got angry and needed to vent it out. and yes, she was so angry she had an overdose of vulgarities in her blog. hopefully none in the future.
with regards to the above rantings, i juz wana say, maybe i'm over-reacting. perhaps i'm over sensitive. (OR PERHAPS IT REALLY IS HER FUCKING FAULT). sometimes ppls get on to my nerves, and if i keep quiet abt it, i'll burst out later on. The above wasn't a first. in fact, i ald told her off the other time rd. this time, actually she was juz annoying me cos i really didn't need her fucking dumb qns to try and make me look like i dunno what i'm doing COS I DO NOE WHAT I WAS DOING. CLEARLY.

i guess i shall go back to the 'idunwanatalktouandishallnotrespondunlessabsolutelynecessaryandifutryandtalksomemoreulljuzendupfeelingandlookinglikeanidiotsomyadviceisBUZZOFF!'

2009-11-01T07:18:00.000-08:00

i had a minor setback, well, several minor setbacks during my 2nd week... i think i almost failed for safety.
oh wells, better make a list of to take note and mental steps b4 i see all my pts..
mid eval- cld be make or break wk...

ON THE OTHER HAND... there's a reason for me to look forward to travelling all the way to changi! haha :))

2009-10-24T08:48:00.000-07:00

finally, first wk has ended. somewhat reminds me of CE3B. hence, i shall take ALL PRECAUTIONARY MEASURES and DO MY BEST FOR WK 2's EVAL!!!! JIA YOU EVERYBODY!

within 2 days, i spent way too much on food(REALLY GOOD FOOD AT FOSTER'S), presents and a pair of LEVI'S jeans tt i kinda bought on impulse! SIGH. what to do??!??! i seriously can't step into a shop with cards and cash on me man! tt's the only way to stop me from buying stuff!
had 2 gatherings over the fri and juz now.. had fun playing skip-bo and family business! hahaha.. really shld juz go mind's cafe one day and play all wkend long man!!!! so good to see my friends. haha.. and parting with them.. well, it's more like i dread the cmg monday than feel the sadness of parting with them.. then again.. it's probably the last time i'll see this bunch until dec 04. haha. uni life is insane man. so are we.

so much to do... and there's a chelsea match later! haha. kinda juz wana waste tonite away.. tmr.. hopefully it'll be more productive?

ya rite.

2009-10-16T10:00:00.000-07:00

it's the time of month again.. well. not THAT time of the month.. but yea, clinicals are here to haunt me again..
on a positive side, i'm doing all these at HOME. singapore the little tiny red dot. the comfort of having my own desk(tho extremely messy), a desktop with great wireless that doesn't screw up every 1.5hrs (it better not!) and a awesome bed to toss and turn over every nite..
though i'll probably miss the free transport (bus '11') and late starting time.. but yea.. let's see what i can do with this placement.. hopefully i'll get the most out of it...

went to idp with fran to apply for several unis.. tho on one hand, we're pretty anxious abt the damn limited places, both of us are really looking forward to the chilled out and cool aussie lifestyle... fran n i .. well.. along with su and hc.. have came a long way man... i'm really glad to have all of them in my grp :)) really grateful for all the work they've put in, esp during the 4 days i wasn't here.. i think we make an awesome team.. tho not so during report writing. haha.. definitely gonna experience some up & downs later on (when i go off to slack. haha) but i'm pretty sure it'll brg us even closer together... haha. die die also muz finish report mah.

busy period cmg up next. but wateva it is, at least i'm at home..

it's gd to be home.

Good to Be HOME!

2009-10-08T17:51:00.000-07:00

finally back home!

it was a good experience despite everything that had happened.

friendships were made.. and broken (in my case). it's unfortunate of course, but through this period of living with one another, u can really see the true colours of someone... the not so pretty true colours.. It's easy to have a friendship and just hang out for a day or so.. but having to live with someone else in that cramp and crappish room really brings out ur true personality and that everything u used to see on the surface were juz the decent cover of a really terrible book.

well, the good thing that come out from here is that i was able to experience LOTS of LOVE from my MUMMY! haha..... strange, but yes.

i wouldn't say i did nyp proud thru this clinicals- others cld have definitely done a much better job. Likewise, i wouldn't say that he was the best ce of all. i feel shortchanged, like i went there but i didn't get as much as i wanted.

Bungee was my main highlight. did u know u weren't suppose to actually JUMP off the platform, but instead juz to lean forward? (yea, i vaguely recall tt from somewhere else too)
sadly, i had TERRIBLE photos and TERRIBLE video, so i will definitely NOT POST my video. Definitely will do it again!!! JOIN ME MY FRIENDS!
Bungy(haha, i realised i keep spelling it as BUNGEE) vs skydiving
==== hmmm.. the 'weirdest' part abt bungee was the leaning forward, cos it's super OMG - like what the hell am i supposed to do?????? for skydiving, thinking back, the part where i was gasping for air was pretty scary too. but skydiving i won't do it much often in future, cos of the air pressure differences... unlike bungy where u dun really experience much physiological changes.. and also i wana train my abs so i can pull that damn strap off at one go next time!

2009-09-27T03:59:00.000-07:00

it's a weird feeling to be totally by myself compared to being myself in the presence of the other 2.. there's more comfort in numbers in the latter. not that it really matters right now, since i'm at the lobby watching boys over flowers. but yea, i'm curious to know where they are right now...

this wkend was pretty relaxed i guess. to be staying in hongkong and not having to worry abt what condition the next pt will present with or wat are the biomechanics of this and that... it's juz pure holiday..

Hai. can't believe that for the ortho inpt, i'll still be graded. kena stumped by all the simple qns today...

i can't play catch up anymore. any longer.
i miss being alone without being lonely.

i noe many of the 'consequences' are the results of the decisions i made, but i guess that's juz who i am. it's hard to put it in words. maybe i'm a complicated person who doesn't like to be 'manipulated', i like things to be done my way - unfortunately, when i'm ard with ppls who are more outspoken and have a mind of their own, instead of speaking up, i'd rather go do my own thing, my own way, myself, alone.

2009-09-23T07:20:00.000-07:00

if u stay in a foreign land for 6wks with ppls whom u're are not used to, u either hate em or love em.
but whateva the emotion u choose for the person, only express it after the 6wks.
until then, u juz gotta suck it up, cos they are the ones u sleep next to every single night...

28 days have passed and i've made up my mind.

2009-09-19T03:51:00.000-07:00

soon! ppls, i'm cmg home REAL SOON!!!
and soon i'll be able to treat my 2 kind friends for the help they've provided me few mths back! :)))))

i can't WAIT to get out of the clinic man! wk 3 was still tolerable. managed to survive somehow... but i dunno how much more he'd expect from us on the last wk!! i'm secretly glad i can't speak canto, so perhaps he doesn't expect me to give pt education.. haha. but then i wished i was able to understand the language more. cos it seems like my ce is so good with his pt, building up rapport and stuff. and i really wish i know what he was saying to the pt so i can pick up some stuff from him!

sigh.. i wonder how it'll be like if i'm here with my good pals instead.. haha.. i dunno... guess it depends on who..

hmm.. inservice is such a chore. i'd be out shopping like mad if it wasn't for inservice. not that i'm very productive anyway. juz kinda waiting for them to pass me the impt info..

miss the days at sydney.. guess it's always the case. when i'm in sg, i'll yearn to go overseas, and the moment i step out of sg, i wish i was back in sg. why is it this way??? i'm like half looking forward to gg aus for further studies, but now... after been to sydney for 1wk and hk for 3wks plus(soon 5wks), i can't decide if i really wana leave the stupid little red dot.

2009-09-12T21:40:00.000-07:00

Updates from HK!

it's been super long since i last updated! been thru quite a lot but i'll try to summarise them all

day1: at the airport. started out really embarrassing cos my mum was rushing for work, and she kept insisting on me and the rest to check in. while the family of the other 2 are still like 'dilly dallying'.. which is understandable on their part. but i still feel my mum didn't have to be so kanchiong to send me off for a 6wks HK attachment

my 4mth old samsung pixxon broke down on me the moment the plane landed in hk. it literally burnt up. -.- so annoying

we got lost on the way to the hotel becos we took bus instead of cab. BAD CHOICE. DUN EVEN DO THAT OK. [now tt we look back on that experience, we cld have found our way easier since we juz walked rounds and rounds abt the hotel. but still. if u have a 20kg lugguage. TAKE A CAB]

sobbed and sobbed on the first nite there when we found out the room was freaking small. it was really extremely small.. and all the problems surfaced upon us and we just cldn't control our tears... fortunately, a kind soul appeared and we managed to switch to a bigger room the next day. accommodation- settled.

Clinicals. our CE is no-joke, no-nonsence kind one ok. tt says it all. nothing close to my neuro CE in ttsh. and we had peripherals on top of spine cases! ARGH. anyway, i was really stressed out during the first and 2nd wk. cried and called my mum to talk abt it.. it was quite similar to how i felt back on the day before bio Alevels.. juz extremely painful. not to mention i was in a foreign land far far away from home. did not help at all. but after a while, i got settled. i dun think my mid-eval is extremely reflective of my competency due to lack of spine cases. so. oh wells. i hope to do better within the next 2 wks since my spine placement is only 4 wks short. [yes, i'm extremely happy to say that my spine placement is only 4 wks. i dun think i can handle this amt of stress any longer. but of course tt meant i only have 4(now 2) wks left to redeem myself... ]

shopping wise- let's juz say i'm the type tt will buy stuff tt can be found in sg overseas. yea. so brands like esp nike and adidas- i'll buy them when i'm overseas cos tt's when i can spend the money more at ease. haha. rubbish. wateva... i haven't decided if i shld get converse anot.. not really my style. haha. maybe la. still got one more yr of uni(if i get in). i juz feel like my sense of style and clothings shld change now tt i'm a adult..ok. tt's abit rubbish. i can't phrase it well. but yea. something along tt line tt i shld dress nicely more. haha.

hmm. i declare sunday my free and easy day. cos the other 2 go church, and i decide i shall do whateva i like whenever i want. so yup.

yup. food is alrite here... had a century egg porridge lunch diet last wk.. haha... muz save money over the wkdays so that i can spend more over the wkends!!

i miss my mummy.... everytime i'm sad and i talk to her, i'll miss her more... and i'll end up crying... i dunno how my grades will turn our - both the exam and the placement grades.. i really hope i'll do well this 2 wks and prove my competency.

on the brigher side...

2009-08-16T05:37:00.000-07:00

i realised the past few entries have been way too depressing. so i shall have a "happy" one for now!

ok. so clinicals are over. obviously i dun fare as well in clinicals as i had so in my yr2 semesters. i forsee the one in HK won't be any easier, but i shall TAKE ON THE CHALLENGE and conquer my fear for outpt! hahaha :)

HK. yes. speaking of HK. i'm leaving in abt 10days time? that's damn fast rite?!
started packing alr... though i'm not too sure what books or lecture notes to bring along.. damn i only have one nite to pack! i hope i dun have to buy anything last min. most prob can buy it over at HK bah. quite excited...

... BUT

exams is in 7 days. i feel like i haven't had decent muggin session for super long. the pass few days juz doing paeds was driving me crazy. so glad i'm done with it alr! phew. which is why i'm quite happy. haha..

i wana go macau after hongkong! i wana see the remains of that st paul's cathedral. the one where boys over flowers had a scene there...it's been so long since i last got addicted to a drama serial.. it's nice to have something to look foward to watch every sat. too bad i can't do so for the next 7wks! damn! muz record them down!!!

2009-08-14T07:29:00.000-07:00

hai. yet another placement to pull down my overall gpa. i dunno how my exam grades are gonna help pull up the overall.
GRADES REALLY DO MATTER. no matter how much u learn from the placements or based on the mistakes u make, grades are the ones tt are so possibly gonna make or break u.
well, in my case. i think i'm pretty screwed.
i didn't think my clinical skill will be this bad until i actually come for outpatient.
i need more C2s. this is insanity.

2009-08-08T03:48:00.000-07:00

i really want to have a part in making these people better.
but i'm not sure if this is meant for me.

SUCK IT UP JOYCE!!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-31T06:43:00.000-07:00

to be honest. i haven't really learn much this placement. and it's been 3 weeks alr. this wk passed esp fast. i tried to redeem myself. but there wasn't really much opportunity to do so.

i dunno what to do man.

2009-07-27T03:47:00.000-07:00

i have the worst grades ever over this past sem!!!!!!!
D+ D+ C+
SERIOUSLY CRAP MAN.
Like so what if i can "afford" to go to a uni now? i dunno if my grades can still ensure me a univerity entry!!! F*&^$#@!$%&* juz cos got scholarship doesn't = confirm entrance u know!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn it man.i muz now get almost full marks in order to juz get a B+. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

prediction for exam papers:
CP is damn hard.
AP is HARD - unknown.
MS- usually ok, but this time round maybe not becos of youknowwho

have i been slacking too much? issit becos i dun stress myself before the tests, tt's why i've stopped achieveing better than what i could? or was it really becos the paper was too tough? hmm.. probably my fault. the way i handle stress.. taking everything to be too easy... wrong! i muz change asap. i gotta aim higher and produce a miracle during the exams. (my heart totally sank as i type the previous sentence.) it's so tough.

now.. i juz wana enter a university... tt's all....

2009-07-24T09:33:00.000-07:00

annoyingly cute. dammit

all the best for wk3!

2009-07-18T06:57:00.001-07:00

oh i can't wait to have my room to myself!!! first is to remove the ugly cabinet tt takes up half the room! then buy new bed, wardrobe, nice desk, and one extremely comfy single couch to lay on. oh, and a punching bag wld be nice too.

first wk at ttsh is fine. not the best. but definitely have the cutest CE of all. haha. all neuro PTs are so soft and nice.

too busy/sleepy to study this weekend! slept from 10pm to 10am today. rushed to bro's engagement. slept again. watching harry potter til midnite or smthg. then boys over flowers. (YES I'M WATCHING TT SHOW. IT'S QUITE NICE. I HAVE TO ADMIT IT.)then tmr gg to watch harry potter (6) in the noon, then AT NITE, gg to watch harry potter AGAIN (on tv). haha. it's like the harry potter weekend. hopefully can go jog a little in the morn (provided i wake up early!)

wants to start on my obesity essay and AP revision soon!

2009-07-09T02:18:00.000-07:00

wk 12 is OVER! thank god. dun have to do repract for either ms nor cp. HUGE RELIEVE.
phew!!!!!!!!

now napfa. sian. clash with menses somemore lor. 2.4 sure gone case. as usual.

2009-06-27T00:53:00.000-07:00

of course i'm delighted tt i'm posted to ttsh for CE3A. somemore it's with nurul and mashy! company's always important. not too crazy abt the distance and the fact tt it's neuro instead of MS/CP. means i need to fork out extra time to study for the upcoming exams. totally dreads it

it feels like a holiday all over again. sigh. sad sigh.

finally signed the deed :)

jie and cheryl are back. but i think they gotta self-quarantine themselves first. and i really can't risk getting h1n1 this period. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

had a pretty good dinner at hardrock cafe with the ntmb ppls :) it was kinda a rowdy place.. a little noisy.. the food is decent tho. recession deal was pretty good. 23.40 for nice mushroom soup, steak(or cod fish) as main, brownie with ice cream and tea/coffee.
bonding time with them was pretty nice too.. esp the part abt planning for the future in aussie.

2009-06-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

i'm quite saddened abt the recent break up between kate and jon gosselin. if only they hadn't start the show abt how they handle/cope with their 8 children. now, these 8 children will not be able to experience parental love similar to those of other normal family. sadness. i love collin. can't imagine what will become of them as they grow up.

makes me think twice abt having so many kids. if my partner is gonna cheat on me when our kids are 5, i dun think i'm noble enuf to ignore it and tolerate it for the sake of my kids. but getting a divorce will juz break my heart and my kids will juz be so heartbroken (even tho they won't understand the repercussions of it til much later).

on another note,
yahoo news: more singles leaving it to chance to find their other half.
“And because so many people are hoping to meet someone by chance, the probability of that happening is very low. So as a result, why many are still single is because they have not met anyone that they want to be involved with.”

i knew it man.
who said the right guy will juz come along when the time is right? not true lor. everyone wait and wait and wait. wait until all the hair become white liao lor. mine alr one-tenth white le :(

on another another side note.
i have mixed feelings regarding the wk11 being elearning. sure enuf, i haven't studied much and i really need the extra time. but can u imagine, wk12? having to do ALL of wk 11 work PLUS PLUS having to get prepared for clinicals on wk13. INSANITY man. plus napfa, which i confirm will fail. SIGH. and ms prac. MEANS I CANT FAIL MS PRAC LEH. wah lao. how to retake ms prac if it's all in the same wk. CHOI. of cos i dun wana retake la.oh. and CP. OMG.

ohmytian.

2009-06-17T03:38:00.000-07:00

sadness.
or maybe just stupidity.

2009-06-14T08:28:00.000-07:00

my life revolves ard fyp... oh my god.. it's so damn frustrating!!!
i dunno wat's worse. not knowing wat to do, or having TOO MUCH TO DO!
ARGH
seems like i can't get to start on other stuff cos everytime i'm in the mood to do some non-fyp work, i seem to drift off to doing fyp instead!!!
it's so freaking frustrating!!!!

to do list in this 2 wks:
NON-FYP
ms clinical pattern
ms revision
ms prac
work beh test
paeds
applied physio intro
applied physio revision
cp revision
cp prac revision

FYP
carry out actual expt
think of stats analysis
get ready fyp proposal and viva defense. craploadofbullshit.

and i'm supposed to enjoy this term break no matter what. ARGH

2009-06-06T00:20:00.000-07:00

wk 7 has ended. one more wk to our supposed 2wkbreaks...
i've completed the B1 of my BD, and i juz bought a hip scarf :)
i still got tons to do, as usual.
i need to sign the deed, i want to get my allowance.
i have tons to buy (as usual)it's GSS, and i haven't bought a thing yet. HIP SCARF NOT COUNTED.
i'm not sure if i shld buy wii next wk. my mum might kill me.

i dreamt abt limjie again. haha. pls dun bring back swine flue, jie! otherwise u'll get quarantined, and we can't see u!

anyway, i juz want to tell all my pt frens that this year have been great even with the humongous workload. i feel like i finally belong to the group, and i have really enjoyed the company :D thank u guys, and i'm pretty sure we'll all get through this/these and come out better and stronger and FUNNIER TOO :D

2009-06-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

everyone, i'm gg to HONGKONG.
27th AUG to 8 OCT 2009.

confirmed, guaranteed plus chop and stamped.

happiness people.

2nd trip in a year. i hope my money comes in soon man. STILL HAVEN'T SIGN THE DEED. SO SIAN....

i wana buy my wii next wk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not so sure abt it. but i hope i get to buy it!!!
i owe my mum ALOT OF MONEY man!

2009-05-27T09:19:00.000-07:00

first case of h1n1 in sg. i hope it doesn't spread. i want to finish my clinicals, finish my fyp, go to HK, and graduate as planned. no surprises.

anyway, i was in the toilet when the news came on abt the girl who returned from NY. and i thought abt my dreams. not wat i dreamt when i slp, but juz in general dreams.
i'm a very simple girl, quite easily contented, and i try to count my blessings every now and then.

my dreams are
-get a physio degree
-i wana work overseas
-get married. hopefully to-you-know-who-and-no-it-doesn't-have-to-be-mr.p-but-i-wouldn't-mind-anyway
-have kids. omg. i really wana have kids with the above mentioned..
-travel around the world, gg to places like europe,states,ozland,(no, i dun wana go india and get molested when i arrive at the airport nor do i wana backpack ard china(minus HK and TW). sorry, i won't waste my money liddat.)
-i want to work til i'm 40. i hope my husband is the heir of some CEO grandpapa.
-i want to stay in a suburb and be like one of those desperate housewives
-i want to keep my friends close to me so all our children will grow up getting hitched or being BFFS

if i have to choose between travelling and having a family. handsdown the latter wins. unless the guy i marry is a jerk. in that case then i'll probably remain single and travel ard the world for the rest of my life.

yea. btw, i think i finally finished lit review.

happy21stbdaycherylteojiahui :D even though u probably won't see this.

2009-05-24T10:08:00.001-07:00

i'm abt to finish my lit review. not finish finish to the extent that i can submit it, but just to the point where i need a couple more evidence to back me up, and an editor for my poor language.
and i feel like writing a post, so here i am.

i saw a couple of pics on fb.
will one change if she moves from sg to aussie to study? like, will the personality change? her dressing definitely yes - cos of weather. but also like her style(summer time) will be better too right, compared to if she had stayed here in sg. Probably becos AM tends to dress up better and more... and in sg, when it's hot, i'd rather stay home then dress up, go out and sweat in my pretty clothes. haha.
Personality will change becos she isn't really who she wants to be in sg, but if she goes to aus, she will find it more comfortable? how can that be true? i dunno.
when she returns, how will she see the rest of her friends? will be be comfortable with them? (well it depends on who she hung out back in aus - AM vs asians? but then again, the asians could very well be AM-type)
why do college students like to drink alcohol? i mean SERIOUSLY. why????? why is it such a big deal? will i go to a party and there won't be any soda available? that will be terribly awful.

i took a canto test on fb and it says CMI. DIE man. seriously jia lat liao. better get amanda to teach me during the coming break. i forsee ppls will look at me with a long neck and tease and taunt me like how he did when i was 9. a traumatic experience i muz say. lots of scarves!

lots of work to be done over the next few weeks. i'm anticipating for the wk 11 to arrive. when it comes, it'll have to leave. hahaha. nonscence. i juz wana get things done and over with.

had dinner with amanda and angie at kimgary last fri. reason? none. juz wanted to spend time with them? how can friends be friends for the sake of buying presnts and celebrating bdays? it's the fun and comfortable-ness, and a really good distraction away from all work and stress. bonding time is always fun for me :D

belly dance class is fine. 2 down, 2 more to go. hmm. i'll probably take the next level after i return from HK. muz make use of my membership mah.

a new wk awaits all of us tmr. let's do it!

2009-05-19T07:11:00.000-07:00

i have been not-nice aka mean to a fellow classmate. SIGH. how am i ever gonna get accepted by my peers in future?
dateline of lit review is postponed. my level of ambitiousness has dropped too.
i have trouble finding sureties. so many of them are either sureities for someone else or are being bonded alr.
i still have problems with my fringe
i need to run
i love to eat
the 1 hr nap i took juz now was pretty good
i need to prepare for tmrs tutorial but i'm still stoning over my agilit lit review
i hope bala can see us tmr.

2009-05-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

i need to change my blogskin soon. words are annoyingly small these days.

tue's PT clinic is so far off from reality. shoots man. SHE is gonna kill us on friday.

sch days have been rather long.. today was bad. i have too much to do, too little time. WHY TOO LITTLE TIME? becos i start sch at 8 am and i have to go bed before 1 in order to have enuf sleep to tahan the next day, but when i reach home from sch, i'm juz mentally drained ALREADY to even do any of the enormous pile of work.

i tell myself, even as Y3 as tougher, i muz still find time to enjoy life. and so, this saturday, i will start with a belly dance class, followed by a buffet treat courtesy to my fren.
and next sat, i get to go to a holiday resort at sentosa :D the high class kind ok? not the stupid small chalet. hahahaha.

oh yes. i juz rmbered wat's supposed to be the main point of this post.
the past few days during lect have been a blur.... i tried my best to keep focus, but at times i got too tired and sleepy. but obviously i can't sleep in class, so my mind drift off to something.. someone. MR.P.... hahahaha. *seriously man, i need to move on!*
yea, i was reminiscencing the old days... the day they called my name juz so i cld turn ard and see mr.p walk pass, or tt we're both waiting for our frens at the atm. the changing of seats so tt i have a better view of him eating. the final day which i still find extremely embarrassing, and the day i saw him doing grocery shopping wif his gf at cityhall and YET STILL SO EXCITED ABT IT. hahahahaha..

OH. those good old days.
i secretly wish tt one of my CE3 placement is done in sgh. for i noe i won't be there for the next 3 yrs after i grad.

2009-05-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

i am quite anxious/worried/scared abt PT clinic tmr. i wonder issit due to my LOW SELF-EFFICACY? or the fact that i know that i actually DUNNO ALOT OF THINGS.
i'm afraid that i'll be 'exposed' tmr, in front of my peers, and the PT there.

BUT THEN AGAIN. it's better to make mistakes now and LEARN rather than screw up my reputation in the future rite?

JIA YOU JOYCE.

i love my friends :D

2009-05-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

it was wonderful!!!!

long weekend started on fri- went simin's place to play her wii's rockband and HSM!! SO FUN! i sux at the games, but i believe with more practice, i'll do better!! then we proceeded to aiping's condo where her celebration was held. ambience was 'romantic', but rather dark. THE FOOD IS YUMMYLICIOUS. i swear if it wasn't close to my bed time, i wld have finished the whole packet of penne! cos i do love pasta!! and the best part? LAUGHING TO MY HEARTS CONTENT. omgosh. being ard with these bunch always make me laugh as though i haven't laughed for the past 10yrs. sy was soooooooooooooooooooooooo extremely funny(not juz the embarrassing moment) but her imitation of a prc was damn hilarious!!! ah. it was super funny la! i totally enjoyed myself with the great food and awesome company. thanks guys :D love the pressies u guys gave :D and happy bday aiping!

then on sat! the s55 ppls met up for a mini project at amanda's hse... haha.. hope everything turns out well.. and it was yet another funny gathering with angie's unfortunate buys and mediacorp's many shocking and 'gay' revelations. hahahahaha/

i juz simply love my friends :D including the PT ppls :D

thanks all of u! totally made my day/weekend :D

cheers to many more funny moments in the future!!!

2009-05-02T01:16:00.000-07:00

bikinis are all so pretty :) if only i had the figure to flaunt it every wkend. it's so sad i can't go tanning cos my tanning pals are in aussie :( when i have the courage, i'll go alone. until then, i shall. not. tan.

went for a belly dance trial juz now :) went pretty well. i wld love to take up lessons and eventually do a tummy roll (or wateva tt's called). now that money is not really a limitation, i feel that i shld be more active outside sch!

went to 'made with love'- the shop at PS tt sells scrapbook supplies. omg man. i feel like i shld start buying stuff there regularly cos they're all so pretty.. and engage myself in a mini-art project every now and then. note to self: keep track of receipts from tt shop.

haven't done much this wkend except to go thru the work beh lect notes. gotta do laundry now, and if i dun fall asleep after tt, jogging wld be a great idea too!

i like long wkends :D

2009-04-26T06:11:00.000-07:00

i'm not sure if it's the weather. but today, i had this sudden feeling that i really miss that wk in sydney. definitely the weather. and the company. it's quite strange, i didn't really miss sydney when i return home immediately. but it's been over a wk, and now, some of these feelings juz came back to me, and yes, i miss sydney. i wld love to go back to australia ++++++++ i muz have my friends along with me.

i lost the to-do list for this weekend. so sunday basically flew by as a totally unproductive day. oh wells. it IS just wk1.
and already, i look forward to end of wk2. haha

here's a nice pic of us in front of QVB. the more impt part is us. so i shall crop away the queen. haha

2009-04-24T06:05:00.000-07:00

YR3 SEM1 WK1 - DONE

phew:D

1. i can predict spine is gonna tough. mmhmm.
2. fyp shld be manageable cos my grp has good ppls :D
3. ICU will be a little daunting.
4. paeds shld be fine.
5. i shall enjoy applied physio cos bio has been my fav subject.
6. napfa will be interesting. i wana pass my 2.4!!!! and u know today i was soo annoyed with my tibial torsion. so crappish la. bad enuf tt i dun have slim legs- but muz gimme that weird curve for wat?!?!?! ARGH. still. no excuses for not passing my 2.4.

enjoy the weekends my friends!

2009-04-21T05:16:00.000-07:00

fyi: i'm posted to NUH. yes, it's near my house. tt's abt it. dun sense much enthusiasm? haha. there isn't. well, at least it IS near my hse. and i can look forward to chilling at the pubs at holland v after my work. haha.

i'm gonna work hard this sem. academically wise. i dunno how on earth i get such a horrendous grade for the whole of my yr2 placements. i dun think it's justified at all. i can whine and whine all abt it but there's no way anyone is gonna do anything abt it. DAMNIT.

2009-04-20T06:24:00.000-07:00

i wana swim with sharks the next time i go aussie :)
tt shld be quite scary. shld be more scary than the skydive bah.
you know i'm proud tt i did the skydive, but the kinda feeling after i completed it doesn't seem very HIGH.. hmm. like i said, maybe it's becos i'm not that scared in the first place. yea. probably.

i need to buy the following
1. school bag (my eastpak is juz peeling and peeling.)
2. longchamp? hmm.... tt's a want, not a need
3. laptop... hmmm.. important for FYP i guess, and 4th yr too.
yea, tt's all. the school bag is very important. probably i'll get something tt doesn't peel so easily on the inside.

btw, thanks PT ppls for getting the chelsea tee, hair curling iron and f21 clutch. all very practical - i like :)

2009-04-19T01:52:00.000-07:00

aussie trip part 2- reflections.

1) sydney has alot of internations aka asians. and they speak with weird english which to me - makes me more conscious abt the way i speak.
2) i can't seem to hold a simple conversation, even as simple as answering a waiter's qn abt the food. gosh. i hated their huge portions. big portions literally kill my appetite. thank god there wasn't really much i was missing out on ( i feel)
3) the ppls there dress very well. i wish i had a nice figure to be able to dress like them.
4) the "ah bengs" there really intimidates me. i mean, here in sg, i can just walk past ahbengs and not get freaked out. there, i think i'll just siam them as soon as they’re in my sight. those teens are just so ... [maybe becos i'm a tourist there].
5) i'm starting to worry abt going their for my 4th year. it's not easy. i swear it's not. just hearing stories from cheryl and jie makes me scared. having to speak up in front of them- oh my god. i can't even speak up in my own class la, much less to do so in front of them. and i know they'll be judging me. in a bad way.
6) if i work there, where on earth am i gonna find friends to chill out with after work?????
7) random- do u know in sg we having flashing green man, and in sydney- they have flashing red man. it's quite scary to see a red man in the middle of the road u noe. haha. and this stupid car almost knocked into jie. still shake his head at us somemore. idiot.
8) but the lifestyle there seems quite cool. like there was this park we went to, and ppls were just lying on the lawn..! the weather is so good u cld really do that u noe! i liked it. i love their weather!!! there was definitely less oil on my face at the end of each day! haha.
9) it's not really the place(sydney) that u go, but it's the ppls that go with you. thank u cheryl and jie - for being tolerant abt my mood swings...
10) fyi, if any of u stay in a backpacker's hostel, dun leave ur food in the common area- someone will take it. we had that experience.
11) darkness. u noe, at 6pm there, it gets really dark already. it looks like 10. and shops closes early in aus. so, there wasn't really much we cld do. in fact, i think we spent like 30% of the time there juz on walking from pointA to pointB.
12) how am i gonna meet a guy there? sigh. i need to be more confident man.
13) think the clubbing scene there is bigger.
14) i wish i was born a caucasian. seriously. when i was in sydney, i juz wished i wasn't a singaporean. that way, i cld fit in better with the rest.
15) skydiving. it may seem like i'm a brave soul that conquered such an incredible adventure. but i think i wasn't that scared in the first place, so even though i've completed it, to me, it doesn't FEEL like such a big thing. oh my, i can't believe i just said that. but anyway, i'm still glad i did such a huge thing in my life. i'm looking forward to telling my grandkids abt the awesome 21st bday i had. so, what next? haha, really, it seems like when u completed such a huge thing like this, everything else should be EASIER rite? NO. sigh.
16) i'm a little sad that i have yet to blown a candle on a cake yet. maybe my family cake.
17) being back in sg was a good feeling. really. i know how everything works here, i know where to go and how to get there. i have ALL my friends and family here. it's good to be home. oh and my bed. love my bed. hostel's bed was bunk bed and shared with 3 other ppls. so it was quite uncomfortable la.
18) good to be eating sg's food. compared to food there - where the portions are so huge. i have come to realise that huge portions kills my appetite.
19) now that i've been to australia(even though it's juz sydney), i'm kinda lost. like aussie was my dream for all my life. but after this experience, i dunno if i still wana have a life there. i mean, aside from the weather and friendly staff ??!?
20) I’ve turned 21. I hope that I can really grow up. Have a good and healthy social life. Be, look and act more like a adult. Oh I hope to have a bf soon. Haha. no need AM la. i've decided it's not that impt - nor issit easy.

Resolutions
Exercise HARDER
Learn to drink well enough.
Keep my friends close to me. Or even closer. haha
Think of my next destination
Think of my next big thing to do.. maybe. i was thinking i shld do skydiving more? haha. since bungee doesn't seem AS COOL as skydiving. but oh wells, wateva extreme sports (that dun require training, juz guts), count me in!

sch starts tmr! final lap!

Back from Sydney

2009-04-16T19:21:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!!! it's good to be home :)
UPDATES pics are all on fb :)

day1 thu
i was the first to reach the airport! imagine my horror when i dun see the other 2.
but i survived. we took a cab back to our hostel - YHA SYDNEY CENTRAL.
went to chinatown which was very near the hostel and had lamian for dinner. i was quite, erm hesitant - about eating there. come to aussie to eat chinese food?!?!?!
anyway, the portions were HUGE. i almost didn't feel like eating when i saw the food. oh and btw, there was this EDWARD CULLEN LOOKALIKE in the same restaurant. HAHA! so cute la.
went back to rest. we were in this 4beds room, so there were 2 other roomies there. and me and cheryl were literally holding out breaths as we unpacked to go shower. yea, cos we didn't wana wake them up.
and the bunk beds were metal. so imagine the creeky sounds i made whenever i turned. i didn't sleep well man. there was a easter party downstairs. boom boom boom.
oh, i saw ALOT of internations aka asians.

day2 fri
cereal and milk for breakfast is so not my type.
went to see the opera house and harbour bridge. had a nice chicken burger and hotdog for lunch. you see, the 3 of us share 2 portions. just right.
bought bus tix and travelled to coogee beach. saw this scene where a girl was just screaming vulgarities in the middle of the road, and then at the bus stop. she was like wat, 16? stupid.

day3 sat
brunch at pancakes on the rocks. a hungry joyce is a grumpy one!
walked around the ROCKS, and bought some souvenirs :)
saw a gay couple. nice.
walked along george street, which was really long.
ate krispy kremes :)
shopped at supre!
had salad for dinner. yum? nah. healthy? of course la!

day4 sun
took a ferry to taronga zoo
nope, the zoo is not as fantastic as the singapore zoo. REALLY! we walked the same paths over and over again!
had a little meltdown. sorry girls. i think it's part of pms.
had a awkward dinner at the fish market
everything kinda resolved later on
sat in a circus to watch several acts of performances.
had a nice desert at lindt cafe

day5 mon
went to oxford street. where mardi grass was held. too bad i missed it man!
then to bondi junction- which is a really huge shopping mall
and then to bondi beach.
UNFORTUNATELY, it RAINED like nobody's business! damn it man! pouring like mad la! so we couldn't really walk the beach :(
head back to yha for a salad dinner. haha

day 6 tue
ooh, had breakfast at the 'a little on the side cafe'.
cute waiter :)
i was so not in the mood to eat. even went to the hotel next to the cafe to shit.
and i was still not in the mood to eat after that.
went to direct factory outlet at homebush. had to take a train and bus. i even dropped my 35$ bus ticket on the floor which i only realised after the bus left! SO SAD! shopping was alrite. alot of shops. too many things to see. if only we cld spend longer time there, and if only i had more money. haha
poor cheryl was feeling unwell throughout.
after homebush, we headed back to oxford street cos i wanted to get my shoes from rubi shoes. (didn't really spend as much as i thought i would at homebush). then we took a bus to bondi cos 'i want to touch the sand and touch the sea' at bondi beach. HAHA. how can i not do that when i'm in aussie rite?!?!?!?! of course i insisted we went, even though it was pretty dark. and oh. it was not even 6pm lo. it looked like it was 7-8pm
so, when we reach there. cheryl, finally puked. gosh. it was ONE BIG BAG OF PUKE man! haha, no photos to show for that. but yea. luckily i got bring plastic bags meant for puking, and it came in handy! she felt much much much better, so thank goodness for that. THEN.... we finally went to touch the sand! and i touched the sea! hahaha. it was quite scary, cos there were lightning. haha. i was the only one to make my way towards the ocean, (or issit sea) and made sure the waves reached my feet. hahahaha
later on, we had dinner at bondi pizza :) loved the pasta there! it was my first proper meal of the day i felt.

day 7 wed
SKYDIVING DAY! happy 21st to ME
couldn't sleep well
took a free ride to wollongong. bumpy car ride for 1.5hrs
well, i got ready and this cute guy helped to put the harness on for me. too bad, he wasn't a chatty one. oh wells
adam was my skydiving 'instructor'. took a film of the whole ride
plane ride was pretty cool. we sat in a very close packed position. haha. and there was this other bday boy too! he was the first to go off, followed by his gf, and then it's ME.
it was awesome. it happend really very fast too, i just know i had difficulty breathing, and the next thing i knew, adam opened the parachute.
yea. u guys should check out the video. it was a awesome experience :)

anyway, i was feeling a little unwell for the rest of the day ... so sad
slept in and skipped lunch. didn't even had a decent breakfast lo.
later on, we dressed up and went for dinner! ate at hurricane grill at darling harbour.
oh the waiter. the so fierce looking waiter who resembles lincoln burrows. only darker. haha
didn't eat much, again. couldn't even finish my soup.
thanks jie for the treat!
headed to starcity the casino. spent a dollar and that was it. haha.

day8 thu
last day. did last min shopping and headed back to the airport
ok take note everyone, if u take A380, pls reach the airport like 3 hrs early to check in alrite?! it was such a long queue when i reached there!
plane ride. honestly, simin!! the ride is about the same as normal SQ rides, cos it's economy class. so to me, there's no difference. except the movies and games part- abit more organized and catergorised for easier viewing.
landed safely for the 3rd time (first in sdyney, 2nd was skydiving!)

alrite, reflections will be on the next post. maybe later in the afternoon!

whiny mood

2009-04-06T19:41:00.000-07:00

I'M GONNA WHINE RIGHT NOW

I'M SORRY BUT I JUST NEED TO WHINE.

C+ FOR 3 CLINICAL PLACEMENTS SUCKS SO BAD

DO I NOT DESERVE B?

AAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

my overall gpa dropped.

and yes, i know i have a scholarship. but- it doesn't mean i can just fare badly in my modules. shit man

2009-04-06T09:58:00.000-07:00

i have to say this. i was disappointed. abt how it turned out. i guess, life can't be smooth-sailing all the time.

anyway, this is a video of the louhei we had 2 mths back. didn't really wana post of FB.. haha. some things are juz meant to be kept within our circles. or so i feel. happy viewing :D

2009-04-04T19:58:00.000-07:00

new blogskin. again. :D

apparently, i've been banned on posting on some of my fren's blogs. which really upsets me becos i know they didn't do it but i dunno why that msg keeps popping up!
*hmpf*
anyway, to all my UNI pals - all the best! one more mth of tests, assignments, reports and the dreaded exams.. and then, it's 3 freaking mths of non-stop PLAY

so. not. fair.

by then i wld have started sch :(

hmm. 4 more days to aussie. let the counting down BEGIN.

2009-03-30T16:28:00.000-07:00

good news everyone! (once again)
well, it's not really THAT fantastic, but it sure is making me pretty happy.
----- i've got a new phone :) SAMSUNG PIXXON M8800
i think i quite like having a samsung phone. hopefully touchscreen doesn't cause MUCH trouble.
NO. it's not a early birthday present.
anyway. tt's like a lot of sms-es and a lot of outgoing calls that i HAVE to make cos i know, i USUALLY will not be able to use that many. yes. this happens to be my first mobile PLAN too.

oh and the reason why i got it is so that i can have auto-roaming in aussie. HAHA
it is one of the first reasons.

i got it!

2009-03-28T18:22:00.000-07:00

EVERYBODY. CONGRATULATE ME
i got my scholarship offer! yayness! tt's what i was talking abt 2 posts before.
HEHE! so exciting please!!!!
well, aside from not having to worry abt getting loans from bank to pay off the tuition fees- i get a monthly allowance of $****, and well, yeah that's it. haha.

thanks des!

SO EXCITING PLEASE. i've been acting like a crazy girl for the past few days and i even made my mum angry cos of the interview. well, no worries now.

overall, this year seems to have started really well for me dun we all think so? and it's not even april yet! haha.. aussie trip + skydiving soon. scholarship offer. and hopefully if all goes well, i'll get to go for that overseas placement.

this scholarship offer definitely came at the right time. it's like an early 21st bday present!

hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm gonna treat my family to a nice meal every month
pay back my mum for that plane tix
buy Wii. yes, angie, i'm gonna buy wii - u guys can come over to my hse instead!
buy ipod. it's abt time.
buy a longchamp bag. whee!!! maybe soon?

life was good. and now, it has just got better. way way way better :)

2009-03-26T04:59:00.000-07:00

i wasn't in the mood of telling my mum what was asked in the interview for i know later she'll ask how i answered it. and juz having to tell her the interview means i have to recall how i performed the interview.

so how was the interview?
i'd rather not talk about it. will only find out the result in 1-2 wk's time. and i do hope is sooner rather than later.

2009-03-25T04:59:00.000-07:00

i hope i get it tmr.
i really hope i do.
life would be soooooo much better if do get it.
please let me get it
please!!!!!
everyone pray for me that i get it.
if i get it, i can go buy WII!!! OMG!!!!
when i get it, i'll let you guys know.
all the best to me

2009-03-20T17:26:00.000-07:00

5 wks of clinicals has passed. it felt like i've only learn 2 wks for stuff.
this is so not enuf.
to me, it seems as though each clinicals, i juz kinda learn some stuff and somehow managed to pass the evaluation without the CEs realising perhaps i may not be that competent after all. i dunno. i'm wondering how this will affect me when i start work. definitely gonna give fb to the sch abt sach. [sorry! no offense! it's juz not rite!]

ANYWAY, IT IS THE HOLIDAYS! SO, HOORAY!
haha. i find that my excitement has slight died down a little compared to last sunday.
sighs....

2009-03-19T04:54:00.000-07:00

apparently i was picked for curtin.... OMG.
but a swap is gonna take place cos well, curtin is abit more ex, and besides, after some consideration, hk may be quite fun after all. excluding the absence of AM. haha

UNFORTUNATELY, i'm supposed to hand in my NYP CCA record. which i have absolutely none to speak of. except the occassion rubdowns. SIGH

why o' why do i not have a CCA?
my life is rather boring after all, isn't it?
and it's not like my grades are that fantastic with the absence of a CCA.
screwd. i dunno.
why can't she check before putting our names down?
will i be disappointed?

maybe. not.

I AM GG TO SYDNEY ANYWAY! HAHAHAHAHAHA....
looking on the bright side of life.. tt's me :)

2009-03-16T06:12:00.000-07:00

i am given an opportunity to go to HONGKONG for my clinical placement in yr3.
HELLO! HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! an overseas placement! i nv thought i will have this chance. this sorta thing doesn't usually happen to mediocre students like me.
opportunity doesn't knock twice.
let me tell you what's gg thru my head.
1. while some are gg HK, there are others who are gg Curtin(but not me cos my grades didn't really make it)
2. i can try to request to go curtin instead.
3. i definitely prefer. WAY WAY WAY prefer to go curtin than HK.
4. i was told HK's placement is an outpatient setting - and i might be gg there during the spinal module, BUT i may not be getting spine cases THROUGHOUT (or rather, it's not certain how many spine cases i will even see). this worries me. i'm really looking forward to doing well in my spinal module.
5. cost of living and expenses is way cheaper in HK then curtin, duh!
6. if there's a chance, i wana work in aussie in the future. NOT HK. so why waste my time?
7. not a good canto speaker to begin with.
8. i'm not that well off.
9. it is such a waste to give up this chance becos it will be given to someone else! i've worked so hard for this!(not THIS THIS. but yea.) i deserve this.
10. if i do get accepted to curtin's placement, wld it be like a 'waste', considering i'm gonna go there for my overseas degree conversion ANYWAY. get wat i mean?
11. i am already gg aussie in april. do i really want to go there again? (YES. OF COURSE!) juz tt no money.
12. if rite now, i am given the scholarship to do my degree conversion, i wld have no qualms(nor money woes) abt applying for the curtin placement immediately.

yea. i will be stupid to give this (hk) up. i'm always that sort of person not to try out things (becos of the cash, or rather, the lack of it)
i have 2 days to decide. wth?!
i have also <2 days to finish my inservice!

life is good. but it can be better.