inferno & op

Yay! Good guys won!! Haha.. only 3 guys and 1 girl in the good guys team.. and they won!!! Yes.. good will always prevail over the evil...i think the the bad asses lost prob cos they dun have teamwork.. and that there's 7 of them.. so.. haha... they sux... I'm happier at the fact that bad asses lost rather than good guys won.I think Jamie was lucky.. she didn't get picked into the inferno. I mean, all the girls in good guys who got picked all ended up gg home.. so .. lucky Jamie.. and I think the girls in bad assess are not really that fit..this triathlon is really all abt endurance and physical ability lor.. I think it's kinda boring.. and the riddle is so easy lah.juz figure out the age of the ppls who kana out from the inferno.. haix... $150,000. that's a whole lot of freaking money. if I had that .. I would.. haha.. I would do and buy a hell lot of stuff.
I like the show. juz watching ppls fooling ard.. getting competitive.. bitchy.. haha

op is finally over... the long awaited moment in my life.. but then.. i TOTALLY SCREW UP the q&a... i simply couldn't ans the que...i knew my ans was not the ans they are looking for.. but then i really dunno wat to say liao lor... then stupid me i go and mention OBS.. it's not OBS lah.. it's DBS.. then... i ARGH!! totally screw up.. i tot ben soh was v kind when he asked my to elaborate on my 'wrong' but according to him, 'interesting' point... but i also couldn't ans.. i juz simply repeated myself... *pukes*
but i think i did alrite for the presentation part.. alot of eye contact.. good.. i think.. i hope i can get a good ME... hehe.. *prays hard* but then the effectiveness of the presentation abit screw up lah.. cos sheena was like ' as shown in the chart' (points to the screen) but then the screen didn't have the chart.. it was kinda funny lah... haha.. but i think we did alrite... except my qna part... hiax.

now left i&r... hmm..if i can't do well for op, the least i cld do it score for the rest of the pw... and i need to start of holiday assignment liao.. esp math.. cos i'm having my first ever tuition this sat... i hope it helps...

yay!!!

i got a new handphone!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy!!! hahahahahahah... it's a samsung slide phone... not bad... quite small.. smaller than my 8250... lighter than my 8250.. got COLOUR!!! my goodness... i'm so amazed.. haha... i noe, i'm lagging... but it's juz that my phone had nv had colour for like the past 2 years... and everyone ard had colour phone.. i was so envious.. finally! it has a camera too... [ppls! i'm coming to take photos of all of u!!] haha... i feel like a country pumpkin... not that i didn't know that such functions exist.. it's juz that i've had my 8250 for too long... so long until i'm missing out on all the exciting functions of a colour-cam-mp3-phone.. did i mention mp3? yes i did! haha.. but i still dunno how to dl songs into the phone yet.. dun think it can store alot lah... but nvm..i'm juz overjoyed....
yes, i got a phone.. all thanks to my mum, who's in the Hub Club... some starhubs thingy.. haha.. so happy she decided to get me the phone... i hurried her to the shop last nite... otherwise i'd have to wait till wed... hehe.. i'm so happy... now, that's one thing off my wishlist... and 1 more to go...
oh gosh... haha... i feel like a little kid getting extremely happy over a new toy... muahahahah

yesterday's op went well... i was time keeping for amanda's grp.. and then.. when it reached xw's turn.. my heart was thumping really hard... haha.. i guess i was getting nervous.. cos their grp's presentation gg to end soon... which means it's my turn! THEN, since amanda's grp took an hour, by the time they finished, it's 845, and here comes to rest of the class... eeks! not fair, we have to present in front of the class while amanda's grp only presented in front of our grp.. ANYWAY.. my heart was still beating... but i managed to deliver my part of the presentation well...at least that's what the teachers said... good eye contact.. improvement from the last op... more confident... muahahahaha.. i feel so happy.. but i noe i was gg abit too fast... so i'll work on my pace... i think i've memorised my part.. cos before i sleep and when i juz woke up, i managed to say the speech w/out the cue cards. yay. however.. i still have to work on the q&a... which i was juz telling my grp, that i might as well juz give up... i mean, do well for the presentation.. then screw the qna so hopefully i can still get a gd ME.. hehe...

ppls! less than 2 more days left!!! woohoo!

forget it..

looking at photos juz sucked... really bad... I realise i'm nv gonna fit into their grp... oh well.. forget it... i guess it juz wasn't meant to be... it's ok...

a fren juz called.. someone who cares... i guess, i shld be juz be contented with who i have ard me now, and not force myself to fit into other grp of ppls that are juz way off my league... yup. i've made up my mind...

peace.

roddick, i love u!

my goodness, what a game... i din see the entire match... only started when the last set's score was like 5-4, ferrer leading.. whoa.. then it went on to 5-5, 6-6, then tiebreak..i was so nervous lah... that ferrer guy is good at his aces too... it was all so close.. i kept shrieking.. my dad was like me, not sure who's gonna win.. cos they keep ending up at a tie... then one of the last few, we tot roddick's ball was out, but it's actually in! [it was like a whack across the court that most likely is out], but then no one said anything.. anyway, i'm juz glad it's in... otherwise ferrer wld have won... and roddick won, with an ace as his match point.. woohoo! i love roddick! he got 17 aces, compared to the 12 aces that ferrer had... it was so close.. phew...

tinge of regret

i dunno how to say this...
i felt weird when i see the photos... i'm kinda jealous..well, not jealous jealous... but.. like regret jealous... (ok i dun make sense)... feel sad that i lost a bunch of frens juz liddat... i mean, i'm happy i still have my current groups of frens... but looking back... if i had been more... i dunno.. involved, i'd still be close to them... yes.. i miss them... not every single one.. but the other few... haiz.. not much i can really do now... hopefully i can meet up with them...
i'm juz really sad... 2 years of friendship... juz gone liddat... and it's all my fault...
i love u guys.. well, girls i mean...

update!

chi is over! yea! hope i get a B3 or better still, A. Went out with the a bunch of them... flowergirls, lj, angeline, hx, jo, cheryl & sw... was very happy... eating lamian... hey, it's cheaper when u share the food, u noe? haha... then we went orchard, in hope that the 'johnny' will be there... i was having such a headache on the bus... i think it's juz weird to have a bunch of girls juz gg there to see the guy.... haha.. fortunately, he wasn't there... phew!

mum hired a tutor for me... my cousin's bf.... heard he's smart... and doesn't make his tutees memorise stuff.... i hope it'll really help... gotta buck up this hols.... still got that stupid OP.... hiax... i also dunno how to practice.. juz noe that i have to be more confident...

this holiday is gonna be well-planned.... exercise. study. go out. haha... hope i won't waste my hols... next year is 'A's... so fast, huh? can't believe it... and i got promoted! haha... still feeling happy and shocked.. but i can't be complacent... next yr's goal is to do well, and have points good enuf for uni admission...

have fun ppls!

(sigh..) happy

haven't really been studying chi... more interested in watching tv... have been gg out... to orchard... buy this buy that... walk until my feet v pain.. but very HAPPY !!! went to buy the havainas... the guy is so cute!!! and v shuai! he's so polite too... greeting us when we went there... not like the other 'blur' guy that served us the previous time... this shuai-ge had a pimple.. but he looks so cute! esp when he smiled... showing his set of colgate white teeth! haha...

hiax... the slippers are nice... but not really worth so much leh... dun think i will buy.. but i will want to go that shop more often....

happy me!

huge sigh of RELIEVE

thank goodness!!!!!!!! i pass my promos... yes that = I AM PROMOTED TO J2...
if i didn't see wrongly...
my results will be something liddat:
Chem- 46 (E)
Math-46(E)
Bio -56(C)
GP- ard C5-B4
Chinese- B4

thank goodness... this is the overall marks.... i failed both chem and math papers... pretty badly... luckily for CA and CT... my marks are pulled up... so, moral of the story... study hard throughout your J1 year... u nv noe when u need the marks...

so, after this... my plan is to play hard and study even harder! i have a mission to be accomplished for next year: good grades and university admission...

faints

terrible... humiliating... disappointing...
today was maths paper... i fainted.
the wing was extremely strong... then my tummy started aching.
i went to the toilet.
then i walked back... feeling very sick.
when i saw the rest, i was ....
asked sy to walk me to the office which is like 7m away.
couldn't see where i was walking... juz kept walking....
suddenly. thud! i landed.. face flat... i think i saw deb, and i heard vic's voice. i realise, if my knee didn't hurt, i'd have laid down...
tried to get up... walk into the office... told the staff that i wasn't feeling well...
then image became blur.
DM and another staff held me as they walked me to the sick bay... i couldn't walk... well. hardly
i reached the bed. laid there...
a nice lady came to help me...
i was sick sick sick.
then after much dilemma, i decided to take the paper... at 10 plus
no surprise, i couldn't do it.. i tot 3 hrs was long... but it's not that long.. cos my brain was trying to function...
cried, cried, cried...

overall.. i did badly. the only paper i can confirm a pass is MT...
i'm so gonna get retained...
peace.
i'm feeling better now.

promos !

today is monday. tmr is tue which is bio spa. then wednesday. THEN THURSDAY !!! which is promos for chem and bio!!!! argh!!! and what am i doing online now.??? checking for protein synthesis animation... abit helpful.. as i've nv understood what it was toking about before...

stress....
can't wait for promos to be over.. so many things to do!!
can't wait to be promoted...
bless me.

peace

i took a 3hr nap today!!!!!! eeks! wasted so much time.. can't blame myself cos i slept at 1 plus 2, trying to complete tt stupid chi compo.

i seriously sux at math. can't do a simple que... much less difficult ques. how how how? few weeks left...

my dad brought alot of vcds and ps2 dvds today... can't wait to watch and play them...

i have this feeling i'm going to make it... but i'm still... like, not getting my facts in the head...
actually i think many of us will make it... oh gosh.. i'm so scared.. i'll be left out... i mean, i have got past so many major exams... doing badly, but nv failing.(except this CT's math).. haha.. can one, can one.. sure can one... jia you!

sept hols

phew... so fast.. another week of holiday has arrived... not sure whether to be happy or not... cos, it can be a week of relaxation, but also a week of mugging..... haha.. actually i think it's more relax than mugging... somehow i juz can't mug during the hols... this is evident from the past years of studying... hmm.. one week is really good... u see, i got CEO when i study the day before the ct.. so, if i study more than one week, i shld do really well rite, at least better than CEO... make sense doesn't it..?

hmm... many ppls dun really like pw... neither do i... but i seriously think it's a great way of connecting and getting to know others... of course, it would be better if we din have to chiong for all the stuff...

it's 10 plus now... still haven't started on the gp essay... (yawns)
i can't wait to get promoted... haha

historic moment in my life

finally!!!!!!!!!!!!! i pass my 2.4km test!!!! so happy.... it's like a stone removed from my heart... phew.... luckily got cheryl teo and shuwei run with me... thanks!

now.. muz still train for next year.... but i'm so glad it's all over....

sleepy...

feeling very sleepy nowadays... juz wanna sleep and not wake up... dun feel like doing anything...
oh, had ndp yesterday.. was pretty cool... we did the sign language.. i've to admit, none of mine were PERFECT... really... i hope we still break the record too... and i hope they dun say who was part of the record... cos i'll be upset to know that my name isn't there...
ps: i love the song reachout for the skies.... juz so lovely.. wish i could learn the whole dance.. instead of juz the chorus...
it's juz so tiring to be studying.. after psle, then o lvl, then alvl, then uni, then work... it's so... sian.

i juz realised my life is so empty... i feel really sad at times... very pathetic .... i'm so pissed... coming to jc is no better than going to poly....
completing o lvls was a miracle...
staying alive is a mistake
i'm so pathetic

mixed feelings

still feeling sick.. from sore throat & flu...

there was spot check this morning.. usually, i wldn't be anxious abt it.. cos my skirt is damn long.. BUT no! i'm in SA, my skirt is ultra short(thanks to my mum).. And YES, i got caught... i, chan yanying joyce, the most goody-two-shoes of all ppls! damn suay lah.... the first half of the girls got checked by dan ho.. then, afterwards, he decided to switch with this old woman cos he wanted to check the boys of e other class... so i got caught... for having one ear stut... (go figure!) each ear can only have one. i only wear one for one ear and none for the other... then she was like... [v. blurish lah]... dun even understand wat she wants me to do.... then she saw my skirt... said it's short.. esp at the back.. pulled up my shirt... HIAX.... so embarrassing... my name was taken down...haha but it's by ct, who is extremely nice... but i'll still try to alter my skirt.. which is already v short... or i'll exchange it with someone... kaoz.. this is a first for me...

run 4 rounds during pe.. didn't stop... but still a not-so-good timing... i hope i'll do better next time... i think i will...

had chem practical.. realised i'm kinda dumb... i.e i can't really apply wat i learn during lesson time to the prac questions... which has been like since forever, including bio...
dunno how to do math and chinese... feeling hopeless... as usual.... it's damn hard lah... esp, when the questions are so long... it juz pisses me off.

i was juz wondering... how did i get past the 7 months of jc life... so fast rite?!!! and it's gonna be promos soon!!!

on the positive side(finally...) national day is coming... excited abt going back to ntss... that is if we're going.... and i'm looking forward to the 'performance' on the actual day... woohoo!! hope i dun screw up...

3 weeks

today i was supposed to take the 2.4km test again.. i told mr ho that i didn't want to run... as much as he wants me to run.. i simply refused... i juz didn't have mental preparation that i was to run today... so.. ya, i kinda told the teacher 'i give up'... i noe, i noe... we shld always have the 'never give up' attitude... but for me... it's really useless lor... oh, then i suggested to mr ho, i'll run 4 rds every pe lesson... then.. he agreed lor... ya, that was before i played games with the class..
After the games, he suggested to me, that 3 weeks later, the second last week of august, i'll do a test again... everything, again... then i was like.. stunned.. but i agreed to it... he was like, 'u did very well in your 5 stations... it's such a pity to give up... '... then i was like' ya, but the 5 stations are not long dist running'....
but, that's the deal.... i'll still continue to run 4 rds every pe lesson until that day arrives...

i think mr ho. is a really nice teacher... i mean, compared to the others lah.. so it's kinda stressful too... i mean, i also wanna do well in running... and i dun wanna disappoint myself, and him too...
haix...

almost there...

failed my 2.4 test.... 18min 12 s... actually, come to think abt it.. i was quite happy with my results... i mean, my previous one was 20.48... so it's pretty much a great 'achievement'... haha... if only i had run harder, i could have got bronze... which, i wouldn't need to run again... well.. nvm.... i'll try harder again next time... but i think it's gonna be harder to keep up with the new timing...

i have to do it!

okay, i drank red bull as recommended by wenmin... wouldn't say it's very useful, as least not to me.. finished the 4 laps, overshot by 15 seconds... after that, i juz couldn't carry on... honestly, i believe there shld be some sort of moltivation to do everything... esp those really tough ones, like running 2.4... i can't think of any lah... i was running the third one, and i was thinking, 'i gotta go, i gotta continue running... because...?' i dunno! nothing moltivates me to finish the run...

i came back, with my whole body aching... mostly due to the five stations i completed on mon... i would really wanna pass this time's 2.4km... in the past years, the night before possible 2.4 runs, i would totally dread waking up, hoping it will rain, or that i will suffer from some sickness... but on last sun nite, i was like, 'okay, i can do it.' and i was like looking forward to do it...

if i'm not wrong, everyone did well for their 5 statns, on mon. so that means, if i dun pass my 2.4 this thur or mon, i will be the only one redoing the entire thing next week... that would really sux...

i wanna pass, really badly. i trained hard.. i think. at least, i've done my part...
it can be quite irritating to keep constantly thinking abt 2.4km... i wanna get it done and over with...

and i can't stand those who tell me ' fail then fail lor' and then they pass instead... go figure!

haix

Did terrible in my ct... suprisingly, my gp and chinese is better than my science... go figure...
have been trying to study hard lately... watching less tv and all.. doing mindmaps??? ya.. i'm trying my best... i do not wanna get retained. nobody does, but i'm gonna do my part in ensuring that doesn't happen...
i wish i didn't have to take math... econs would have been better.. at least the topics in econs make sense... unlike math... functions, trigo, bionomial...
the pt of me taking 3 sub is so that i can conc. on them and hopefully get to do s paper.. but now, i'll juz be glad if i dun get retained...

2.4 this coming mon... erm.. hope i can improve my timing. better still, keep up with the others... which reminds me of thur when i was running with them... i kept wanting to stop.. but i dunno why i didn't... it felt great to have been able to keep up with jan and sw..

i think there's ard 75 days left to promos.. yap.. jia you..

past few days

coop camp was okay only... very slack lah.. it's at a pace that is so comfortable.... unlike counsillors... so hiong... so smelly too... haha. i'm pissed at sy for not running with me on the last morning... it's so sian lah... she always does that.... so why issit she's always telling me that she walks with other people? nvm... she's been a close friend of mine for so long... i'm not gonna get mad at her for such a small thingy... i take it as a lesson learnt...
anyway... games were okay lah... overall, my grp got 2nd place... so not too bad.. my thighs hurt after the frisbee game... which explains why i couldn't keep up with the others on the last day of moring run...
i din run for the elections... i had no confidence in making the speech... besides.. they even asked questions there and then... so kinda freaky... also, the committe didn't really nominate me... so... kinda obvious lah...

legs still hurt... dunno how i'm going to go for my usual jogs.. sian.. muz retrain all over again.

still learning my sign language... very interesting... hope i get selected for the ndp...