happy birthday to me

today is my birthday.. seriously it's no big deal... i'm not the kind who needs company to go out and celebrate with me... so to yq: dun make me sound so pathetic... meanie... wl and sy delivered the present to me... it was very sweet of them... apparently the present was from quite a number of the bandmates... thanks alot!! the shirt was cute... but if i play tennis in it, i'll reveal my fats.. eeks!
i was quite disappointed at something.. i shan't mention... i noe what to do next time..

i'm quite worried bout the class gathering.. not sure that many of them will turn up... on one hand, look at the bright side.. if there's little people, they will tend to bond together more compared if the whole lot was there but still in their own cliques, true?

yesterday got soccer matches... ac won innova... sa won hc!!! hahahaha... anyway, i was at the caf and i started to look out for yk... so difficult... cos quite far.. anyway.. i spotted 39.. tot it looked abit like him... the way he ran.. and tried to use his head to get the ball.. haha.. so yk... then, had a discussion wif sy whether it was him.... and i was right! shows that my eyesight is still quite good...
anyway.. many saints brought the tables to the side of the field, blocking me and sy's view... but we soon made our way to the gallery, where we met up with yk... it was quite weird lah.. cos the cheers, rite.. were not what we learnt during the orientation..so what's the point of learning then? sian. oh.. my classmate was in the sa team.. and he got injured.. ouch.. i think he banged into this other guy... i could actually hear the impact... eeks.. hopes he gets well soon...

next mon wil be sa vs ac... hmm.. may the best team wins... (and may that be sa..) haha.. hope no one get injured though... oh, i heard sas won acs(i).. haha... may the trend continue... all the best, team sajc! oh.. i wish yk luck too.. only him,not his team... hehe.. .


oh.. there was also this talk bout the testimonials... ya.. so weird.. the principal was making fun of the others... actually, it's good to be simple wat... i mean, if there are leaders, there need to be followers too, rite? or else, how are the leaders ever gonna get their stuff done.. i was kinda worried too.. i think i'll be the quiet person... maybe, i can be more open in COOP.. haha... be in the ex-co or something.. wadeva lah.. see first... i juz think it was quite mean of her lor...

freaked out!!!

i have been running for the past few days ... at home..not on treadmill.. u noe, it's like, on the spot lor... quite lame ah... but i really ran lor.. or at least, i jogged... i got timed myself one... gradually increased from 3min to 18min... somehow, i ran 22min instead of 18 yesterday... my legs have been cramping... but it was a great feeling... cos i've ran... outdo what i tot i couldn't do... very satisfied
today, i've decided to go to the park at my place to run.. i wanted to run the distance... to see whether the past few days i've improved.. unfortunately no... i started running... then i realized it's all gone haywire... i ran 2 rounds... then i stopped liao... that equals to one round around the track... so lan rite??? my plan was to run 45 sec every 100m... but i overshot.. but i still managed to run under 3min for 400m... so that's good, rite?

i'm really pissed lor... i'd rather run on the spot than around the track... when, i'm running on the spot, i juz focus on the time, when it's around the park... i get confused... like... it's a slightly different feeling... i seriously need to go train... i hope i have determination to do it...

without struggle, there can be no progress

i muz keep that in mind... motivates me to do perservere... ya.. i actually forgot about it when i run today... that line kept me going when i was running the past few days...

right now, i juz pray the pe teacher we get tmr will juz do height and weight and not make us run... hmm...

anxious.. worried... going nuts!

hiaz... we'll probably get our time-table next week... which means... time to practice for 2.4km!!!! gosh... can u believe it, 4 years already, i've yet to pass 2.4km.... i've yet to get over my phobia... i've yet to improve my stamina despite my new year resolutions every year for the past 4 years.... no matter how i set myself a list of exercise to do, i juz can't follow it after at most 2weeks.... i'm so terrible.... i feel like i've wasted my life.... i mean, why make life so miserable over some stupid 2.4km.... why can't i juz get myself to do it.... lead a heathly life.... i've calculated... if 18 min is the passing time, i need to run 3min per round, 45sec per 100m.... if only i was forced to do it.... if only my dad had forced me to run with him... if only i've heed his advice.... if only......

alot of ppls are going for the ah leow tuition... most of them are those taking 4 sub.... can't believe it... i'm thinking of going too.. but my parents never liked the idea of sending us to tuition.. if we can do it, we can... according to them, they dun wanna push us too hard... besides, it does cost a sum of money... let's juz say, i'm doing AVERAGE only w/out tuition...
so ridiculous rite... i'm not studying now becos there's no test.... i mean, that's everyone's concept... only to study if there's a test/exam coming up.... nobody bothers to study... i'm not going to complain bout why i'm forced to take up math for the time being... wo(3) ren(4) ming(4) le....

cca is bullshit.. so is cip... the most impt thing now is to get a good testimonial, and what better way to do it than by doing tons of cip? forcing ourselves to appear to be some passionate bout cip when all we want is juz to get a good testimonial from our teachers... to the govt, this is not working out.... gd eg is me and my dear friend... thinking of ways to DO something, when all we have in mind, is actually to impress our cts... we're such laughingstocks... hey, if U are reading... i'm not exactly refering to u only okay... everyone's doing it... i'm juz pissed that we stooping so low... well, not exactly stooping so low... it's juz that our mindset are not right.... testimonial... it shld be confidential... it shld not be let known to students that a testimonial is impt... it juz brings out the pretentiousness in people.... people like me...

hey, but on the other hand... i really wanna donate blood.... i dunno... i'm not thinking in a way to help others... i juz think it's cool... so lame rite... at least i'm not donating to get credits... i'm donating cos i think it's cool... the latter sounds better, rite...

crybaby

i'm so pissed with myself... well, not really.. juz shocked, embarrassed and diao?! anyway, we had the presentation thingy today... i tot it was to tok about myself... but then the first few speakers were toking bout their own personal experiences... so my preparation went down in the drain... and i juz crapped bout band...

i was saying how i joined band.. blah blah blah... then i reached the part where i was saying bout how we took the unanimous first breathe during the leonardus rex... I DUNNO WHY.. but i juz started tearing.. well, not really lah, my eyes were slightly wet... i was shaking... then i hurry up finish up and went back to seat... i guess most of the ppls could tell that i was about to break down? i dunno.. i tot i was quite obvious when i started taking tissue out to wipe dry my tears... the instructor was saying something like i have to control myself when i toking bout certain emotional issues

BUT IT"S NOT... i swear... i was juz very nervous... i mean, i din even cry when we got silver lor... why would i cry while telling the experience... band life to me, happens to be the worst time in my life... (also the best lah...) ya.. anyway... i was extremely embarrassed.... i shocked myself... maybe even the rest of the class... eeks!! what a terrible bad first impression...

please pardon me... i juz realized i have very active glands.. the one that produces tears..shucks ...

oh strange thing is... the topics that everyone choose were at least 3 min.. the instructor was out of tape lor... haha... i can't believe it... so weird rite?

formalities

okay..i was really pissed when i found out they were late... i mean, come on, if u dun wanna come, then tell me... and worse still, if u had already wanted to come, can't u have some decency enuf to wake up early.... i'm telling myself, i'm never asking them out for gym.. ever. okay, so i simmered down when they FINALLY arrived... i was thinking, we've been friends, i should have expected this from them... but someone forgot her manners!!! she din apologize.... and that made me pissed for a few seconds cos the other one had already done so... did she think it was alright? oh gosh...
i think it's juz me... but i feel that manners are really impt, even among friends... i feel like demanding an apology from her right now... but i noe, she'll probably not mean it... but i'm not gonna rmb that she forgot to say sorry... i'll juz keep in mind to forget to apologize to her some other time later... BUT becos it's ME aka miss-very-polite-to-all-my-friends i'm toking about, i'll probably not be so mean... maybe, i should learn to be more forgiving... rite, that'll be one of my resolutions this year... forgiving someone for the things she've done and for the apology that she doesn't say .. rite.