no pain, no gain.

i think i'm not used to the concept of 'no pain, no gain'. except in terms of mugging. I find myself being more and more unwilling to sacrifice time and money in going for squash and tennis lessons.

Supposed to attend squash tmr so tt coach will teach us backhand, which there is also a possibility that he wld have forgotten abt it. I have no sch tmr leh, then the lesson starts at 7pm, so means i needa purposely go sch for a 2hr squash session. i am juz sooooo reluctant to do so... it's not fair tt i get my fren to go and learn, and then teach me another day... And if i'm so unwilling to fork out a couple of hrs, then i might as well not learn the sport rite?!

As for tennis, i do wanna play and learn new strokes like backhand slice, drop shots, and to hit the balls either cross court or down the line. But the coach is still sorta focusing on our basics like forehand, backhand and serve. Which i do understand cos we're still weak in these areas and therefore he doesn't wana teach us the new stuff... "muz learn to crawl b4 u can run/walk" I get it. But i dunno... it feels like a waste of time and money too... And then there's this OTHER FACTOR.

See... i dunno how i survived 4yrs of band practice and performances... I noe i seldom miss prac until sec3-4... and even though i get kinda scared abt the footdrills and sectionals, I won't actually find band prac a waste of time. but for tennis and squash, I seriously lack the discipline and commitment to go for the lessons.It's probably becos these lessons are not compulsory and tt i won't get into trouble if i dun attend... Haiz, i really can't be a sports athelete...HAHA.. not that i'm FIT to be one in the first place...

Right now, my classmates are actually playing sports like badminton, volleyball and bball while here i am blogging. Well, i gave the reason tt i didn't wana get sweaty and stink on my way back. But the real reason is that i'm juz reluctant and unwilling. WHY? i have NO IDEA too:(

I do wana play tennis and squash wif my frens on a regular basis, but again, i feel lazy having to brg balls, rackets,shoes, towel, extra clothes to the sch tt is 1hr15min away. There's the option of a locker, but i dun feel safe putting a 215$racket inside it..

i'm such a lazy girl - i can't stand myself!!!