aussie trip part 2- reflections.

1) sydney has alot of internations aka asians. and they speak with weird english which to me - makes me more conscious abt the way i speak.
2) i can't seem to hold a simple conversation, even as simple as answering a waiter's qn abt the food. gosh. i hated their huge portions. big portions literally kill my appetite. thank god there wasn't really much i was missing out on ( i feel)
3) the ppls there dress very well. i wish i had a nice figure to be able to dress like them.
4) the "ah bengs" there really intimidates me. i mean, here in sg, i can just walk past ahbengs and not get freaked out. there, i think i'll just siam them as soon as they’re in my sight. those teens are just so ... [maybe becos i'm a tourist there].
5) i'm starting to worry abt going their for my 4th year. it's not easy. i swear it's not. just hearing stories from cheryl and jie makes me scared. having to speak up in front of them- oh my god. i can't even speak up in my own class la, much less to do so in front of them. and i know they'll be judging me. in a bad way.
6) if i work there, where on earth am i gonna find friends to chill out with after work?????
7) random- do u know in sg we having flashing green man, and in sydney- they have flashing red man. it's quite scary to see a red man in the middle of the road u noe. haha. and this stupid car almost knocked into jie. still shake his head at us somemore. idiot.
8) but the lifestyle there seems quite cool. like there was this park we went to, and ppls were just lying on the lawn..! the weather is so good u cld really do that u noe! i liked it. i love their weather!!! there was definitely less oil on my face at the end of each day! haha.
9) it's not really the place(sydney) that u go, but it's the ppls that go with you. thank u cheryl and jie - for being tolerant abt my mood swings...
10) fyi, if any of u stay in a backpacker's hostel, dun leave ur food in the common area- someone will take it. we had that experience.
11) darkness. u noe, at 6pm there, it gets really dark already. it looks like 10. and shops closes early in aus. so, there wasn't really much we cld do. in fact, i think we spent like 30% of the time there juz on walking from pointA to pointB.
12) how am i gonna meet a guy there? sigh. i need to be more confident man.
13) think the clubbing scene there is bigger.
14) i wish i was born a caucasian. seriously. when i was in sydney, i juz wished i wasn't a singaporean. that way, i cld fit in better with the rest.
15) skydiving. it may seem like i'm a brave soul that conquered such an incredible adventure. but i think i wasn't that scared in the first place, so even though i've completed it, to me, it doesn't FEEL like such a big thing. oh my, i can't believe i just said that. but anyway, i'm still glad i did such a huge thing in my life. i'm looking forward to telling my grandkids abt the awesome 21st bday i had. so, what next? haha, really, it seems like when u completed such a huge thing like this, everything else should be EASIER rite? NO. sigh.
16) i'm a little sad that i have yet to blown a candle on a cake yet. maybe my family cake.
17) being back in sg was a good feeling. really. i know how everything works here, i know where to go and how to get there. i have ALL my friends and family here. it's good to be home. oh and my bed. love my bed. hostel's bed was bunk bed and shared with 3 other ppls. so it was quite uncomfortable la.
18) good to be eating sg's food. compared to food there - where the portions are so huge. i have come to realise that huge portions kills my appetite.
19) now that i've been to australia(even though it's juz sydney), i'm kinda lost. like aussie was my dream for all my life. but after this experience, i dunno if i still wana have a life there. i mean, aside from the weather and friendly staff ??!?
20) I’ve turned 21. I hope that I can really grow up. Have a good and healthy social life. Be, look and act more like a adult. Oh I hope to have a bf soon. Haha. no need AM la. i've decided it's not that impt - nor issit easy.

Resolutions
Exercise HARDER
Learn to drink well enough.
Keep my friends close to me. Or even closer. haha
Think of my next destination
Think of my next big thing to do.. maybe. i was thinking i shld do skydiving more? haha. since bungee doesn't seem AS COOL as skydiving. but oh wells, wateva extreme sports (that dun require training, juz guts), count me in!

sch starts tmr! final lap!