end & beginning

ok. the year has come to an end liao... and i have to say, it was quite a horrible year.. academically wise... my grades are all like C or E or close to O... so jialat lah... next yr how to take a lvls??? actually, i think i've like wasted the past year... didn't really study... didn't really understand lectures.. didn't really complete my tutorials... the supposed only achievement of this past yr was that i pass my 2.4km run... w/out cheating... haha.. oh, and my first blood donation too.


But coming to a new sch and being in a new class, i have enjoyed the company of my new grp of friends - shuwei, cheryl, huixin, wenmin, angeline, limjie... & the flowergirls... of course, i haven't forgotten my sec sch frens... whom i still keep in touch with like simin, xiny, aiping, shiying, woeilin and yihui. and this past year was more about going out... wif frends.. enjoying their company... and juz living the moment... trying not to care about other stuff..


then came the dec hols... well spent, i would say. i'm not gonna complain how i've been slacking.. and not doing hw or revision...i would say i have slept for very long... replacing some of the hrs that i used for studying... and i have enjoyed watching all the tv shows... that i have missed while cooping myself in my room... and i haven't listen to any radio since the start of the hols... let's see, i'm gonna miss alot of shows.. such as: oprah! the nanny!(my favourite!), ch 8 drama like the current one - love concierge and the 3 lucky stars, ch 5 variety tv - ameria's next top model, [oh, and amazing race is coming soon! - this i muz watch]... and all the cable tv shows... oh, and i watched king kong (movie of the year!) and Oi! Sleeping Beauty! The wake up musical... which i loved & thoroughly enjoyed!!!


next yr a lvl liao... i really hope to do well.. cos my olvl grades was like no way here nor there.. and i really wanna do well... afterall., i need to enter uni... so my grades muz be very decent, if not excellent.. to get into my choice faculty... hmm.. wonder wat i'll choose... hopefully, a scholarship for overseas studies will juz drop upon me... hehe..

christmas @ cheryl's & the drama production

went to cheryl's hse to celebrate christmas wif wenmin, surong, mel, amanda and latecomer(as usual)- shuwei... yup. had pasta... (which i already ate in the morning) watched charlie and e choco factory. i dunno whether it was boring or that i juz felt like sleeping during the show... and the small man singing and dancing were eeky...

ya, then watched the rainbow connectn again... agrees wif the others that this show abit senseless and is not logical... abit diao lah.. then we exchanged presents... i got cheryl's homemade cookies and mine key pendant went to shuwei...


ok, went to watch the play ' oi! sleeping beauty! The WAKE UP Musical' it was a wonderful show... so funny... esp when they involved the audiences... like the part where the cat ask the audience to tell Dawn that he's not there. and then dawn asked the audience where is her cat. some kid actually shouted ' he's not there'!!! haha... then got the kiss and kill the princess part...


oh and there were these 2 irritating guys sitting behind me & yunle who laughed SO LOUD and so distinctly. according to sources, these 2 were the costume designers which explains their absence at the second half of the show.. oh, and they sang really well!! the Prince bin Charming and Dawn... oh, and we realized that there was a mike on dawn's forehead!! amazing...


overall, i loved the show!!!! i dun mind coming for their next production.. but it's quite ex... $30plus onwards... but it's really wonderful!!! support local productions!!!

cip & band fest.

1st- cip. have doine 3 shifts of cip... it's quite good lah... juz sell the booklets and funpacks for abt 1 hr plus.. and then give out the feedback form at the end of the show for another half hour... AND the total cip hours is actually 3.5 hrs!! ya.. cos when the show starts, there's not much for volunteers to do... so can juz slack... ok. so the more 'eventful' shift was sunday nite. wif wl and yl. we met ADRIAN PANG!!!! like O M G!!!! okok.. i noe.. it's adrian pang only... not like it's pierre png or zoe tay.. ya so.. he was wif his family, his kids.. but i didn't really see his wife... so. i wanted to approach him at like.5 min later to ask him to buy the stuff.. then the next thing i noe.. yl is like 4meters ahead, walking in his direction.. ARGH!!!! ya.. so he bought for her.. oh.. i think he's really sweet to his kids... they are like less than 5... maybe 4... and so he helped them to write their wishes... so cute lah... like he was kneeling down... his hand over his kid's hand... writing down the wish... sigh....
THEN we met ben soh and wl's fav teacher leonard ong... yup.. so they bought a pack from both of us..
THEN... during the interval... i saw adrian pang playing with his 2 kids... so sweet lah... at one corner where i almost missed him if not for yl... ya.. and it was only the 3 of them.. w/out the wife.. so i din ren xin to borrow him so that i cld take a photo wif him... sigh... ya.. and that was the last time i saw him. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

2nd - band fest. ok.. i hate to say this.. but this yr's band fest is kinda disappointing.. first is the starting of the first piece by the first band.. i was like... huh?? ok.. then the next thing is there were hardly any shuaige playing the percussion... i rmb the last time i went there were so many lah... but come to think abt it.. i was like sec 3 then watching jc ppls play.. but i'm now watching ppls of my age.. so maybe dun look as attractive... THE MOST IMPT PART - i saw the usher boy.. so cute! i swear i spotted him first whom yh disagrees. watever. didn't notice his name.. as usual... ya.. and during the interval, i asked yh to take his photo which she unskillfully... DID NOT.. nvm... so i practically spend the next half of the concert thinking abt him.. haha.. not really lah..i did listen to the music.. but the seats were really uncomfortable... so.. after the show, we came up.. but i noticed his was gone... hiaz.. ya. and then we met up wif simin and mr tay, who kept on toking abt aiping's sis..he siao one lor.. like some old che go pek(pervert).. BUT THEN FINALLY... i saw him again.. wif yh.. he had changed to his polo tee.. looking .. well not as cute as he was with the usher attire on.. haha.. and.. no chance to take his pic.. as usual... but again. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

so.. on the way home wif wl.. i was telling her i think i'm gg crazy cos of my craziness over the shuaige... first it's 'johnnie' then it's now usherboy.. i'm so huachi lor... i shld prob stop this kinda behaviour... so horrible... i'm gg nuts!!! and the worse is i still dun have their photos... eeks!!!

updates

okok... went to simin's hse warming.. woah... so many ppls lah... ya.. played twister with e same gang... sell my earrings... yea!!! thanks girls! not gg into details.
then.. watched harry potter.. was a great show!!! muahaha... can't wait to watch chicken little and king kong... woohoo!!!!
oh.. that camp and QPS.. was ok lah... made frens.. with the facils... and like 2 of the mentees... wouldn't say i'm the most interactive person on earth... ya.. enjoyed playing the games.. was glad that the 2 days went past pretty fast... and not to mention i had to run for ALL 4 of my bus in the 2 days.. can u believe it? lucky for me the bus wasn't as fast as i am... haha... so-not-true...
so rite now.. i'm juz slacking... and hoping to finish my hol assignments... and i can't wait to go shopping!!!!!!

er... abit diao..

went for job application today.. with des... we were told to fill up the application form.. then... later we gave it to his lady, prob the in-charge.. and then she started a little mini interview.. there and then. so she asked a few ques... i said a few words in reply.. and so did des... then, she concluded.. that i was v. nervous.. and said that she wld give the job to des rather then me... well.. i wld be lying if i said i didn't feel a tinge of regret for getting des to come along... BUT... i dun blame her... really.. even if she wasn't there.. i would still have like.. 'played wif my hand' i dun really agree wif the lady that i was extremely nervous... maybe a little.. i mean, who wouldn't be??? well.. i think des didn't get the job cos she's gg overseas... well.. she was nice to 'push' the job to me.. (thx!) but i guess... i wasn't ready for the job... honestly, if e person calls and say she'll give me a trial, i'd rather she didn't....

i guess i'm not ready yet... for this sorta thing... after this interview.. which is like a huge lesson learnt on the impt of body language.. i think i shld juz stay at home and mug for next yr's As.. haha... oh.. and maybe i shld read up on books that teaches 'how to score for your interviews'
which i did... after leaving the shop.. haha.. i think the most impt thing is the confidence level part... which i'm totally lacking.... hmm... it's ok... it like a ... 'what do u call that' in my face... but.. life goes on.... i guess more imptantly, i shld pick up on such skills so that i wld be ready to look for jobs after As and also to prepare for possible interviews for universities...

and to make matters worse.. i was on my way home.. waiting at the bus stop.. there's this mini van that passed by carrying malay ppls wearing their beautiful costumes.. and this idiot suddenly pointed his middle finger at me... i was like???!!!!! what the hell??? i didn't look ard .. but there wasn't anyone siting near me... and i think that guy was actually pointing at me... i'm juz so pissed lah... watever... dun wanna continue.. otherwise i kana sued for racist comments.

well.. i'll be gg to the library soon... to read up on these kinda stuff... not sure whether i'll still be gg for any work interviews... i juz hope that more ppls will buy earrings from me so that i can earn some extra money... worse come to worse.. i'll use my nets lor.. which i dun want to...

PS: i'm ok! maybe i shld be glad that i can have all the time in the world to properly manage my hols and well.. window shopping is good too.. a form of exercise...

$$$

i need money! first time leh... i mean, this has nv well, hardly happened to me before... like in sec sch... i have no money watsoever during the hols... i stay at home... go for band... which i get my $5 for every practice i attend... and that's it... i dun go out.. at all....

then.. juz this nov, my mum gave me $200 for god noes wat reason... and then i realise juz THE OTHER DAY, it's gone.. poof! gone... i so can't believe it.... what happened to me??? and i still have so many things tt i need to buy!!! *sobs*

so rite now.. i think i'm gonna need to go find job.... there's this one at citylink (next to num!) and it has flexible work schedule... so.. maybe i'll go try out for it... but i'm juz scared... like.. i dunno how to approach the person... dunno how to ask for an application for the job... i'm so absolutely clueless!!!! but i noe this is gonna be impt... i mean, eventually i'll have to go out there and WORK.... hiaz.... ok... i'll go take a look soon... hopefully the job is not taken up...

btw, ppls!!! listen up!!!! i have started to make my own earrings.. and they are for sale!!! pls purchase them... plsplsplsplspls.. i seriously need the cash... and its' freakin cheap... no where else.. ppls... u gotta buy my stuff... hehe....

happy

okok.. went for class outing at sentosa on mon... actually.. it's more like cliques' outing lah.. but it was really fun... er.. i didn't see any obvious jellyfishes... juz droplets of them, which according to the lifeguard can cause rashes... nope, surong, i dun think they are cute.... well, maybe alittle... ya.. so basically, i played frisbee wif amanda, lj and sw... watched the others build a ship from sand... suntanned at the brigde... luckily for me, i didn't get any darker... juz got my feet burnt... overall.. it was OK... at least i wasn't feeling miserable - like the first og outing... anyway.. it was fun!!! but i think i'd prefer to go cheryl's hse for any more of such outings...

bought my earring beads... but only 3 colours.. so currently they're all looking pink blue and white... i'm gg to buy more today!!! haha... i'm juz so happy doing these earrings... althought i think my designs are pretty not so-fabolous... but i juz like the process of making them.. hhehe... i'm so gonna be broke... i think i have money for one lunch and one movie for the rest of the hols... and NO.. i dun wanna work!!!! haix... everyone is so into working.... i juz wish i have a cash printer at home to print money for me to use.... (sigh) wldn't that be so good! the best invention of the century!!!! muahahahhaha.. yes.. fat hope.

still hanging on...

i am so gg to be broke... going*.. take a look
charm bracelet-$29.9
shorts - $40.8
flipflops-$26.9
dinner @ jack's place- $19.9
jc band fest- $11( haven't pay yet...)
actually.. not really lah.. but then u can see how ridiculously i spent my money.. and the holidays only JUZ STARTED... and i still got so many bags and tops tt i haven't buy!
my goodness...

anyway, yesterday went to jack's pl for dinner wif -aiping,wl, sy, simin, xinyi... sort of a post sy's bdae dinner... was quite fun... learnt that aiping got the letter to go ns in malaysia! so shock.. hope she can escape from it... otherwise... she's in trouble... started 845 plus.. i was so starving already.. then took photos at paragon.. well, with the xmas tree outside... was kinda fun.. felt reall great to hang out wif them.. too bad yh & des didn't come... well, there will be more of these times... esp after yh finishes wif out jap visit. oh, then the 5 of us sang bdae song for sy... it was the one person-one word bdae song. it was so funny lor...haha.. so sweet too!

i seriously have no idea how to do i&r.. i can't believe i did so well for the 2nd one and then i juz totally screwed up the third... and now i hve to come up with e final one.... argh!

ppls! xmas is coming!!!! yea!!! santa claus IS coming to TOWN!!!

(sigh!)

today went to buy havaianas... 'johnny' wasn't there... was kinda disappointed... cos tt time i came at the same day same time, and he was there.. but he wasn't today... i still buy the slippers though... and yes! they do wear name tag.. so... i'm gonna find out his name soon!! and why didn't i wait until he was serving me, then i buy the slippers? well, i can't wait.. mon gg sentosa.. then i dun think i'm gg out for the next few days.. so might as well buy lor...

then i saw him.. yes, the johnny guy... me and sw were on the way back to somerset mrt.. already in the mrt.. then.. cos there's like 2 distinct directn.. so we walked on the left.. and then i saw this really distinct guy.. he's tall, tanned.. looks extremely familiar.. and he was carrying the 'mum' bag..( which is supposed to be 'num' = newurbanmale) then. sw was like - 'issit?! him?!' and yadayada.. we shrieked for a awhile... sigh... so goodlooking... lucky we took note of the bag earlier at the shop... otherwise, i wouldn't have believed it was him... i mean, i haven't seen him for like the longest time.. haha..can't really recignise him....

yes.. then sw was like.. hiax.. if we've waited... but then i think it's alrite.. i mean, what are the chances u'll meet the guy who works in orchard at an mrt? i mean.. quite difficult lor.. so, now that i met him.. it's considered.. 'yuan fen'... fate.. hehe.. i am so unbelivably cheena.
i am juz over the moon... can't help smiling to myself at times.. hehe.. happpy!

oh.. and we went to cheryl's house... me, sw, surong, sheena, angeline.. and later amanda.. weate pizzas... made by cheryl! not bad.. actually got tomato inside.. i think it's good! then watch 40yrold virgin and some ghost show... then we played Life... was overall a great day!! haha.. can't wait to go there again... except for the not so nice ghost show.

inferno & op

Yay! Good guys won!! Haha.. only 3 guys and 1 girl in the good guys team.. and they won!!! Yes.. good will always prevail over the evil...i think the the bad asses lost prob cos they dun have teamwork.. and that there's 7 of them.. so.. haha... they sux... I'm happier at the fact that bad asses lost rather than good guys won.I think Jamie was lucky.. she didn't get picked into the inferno. I mean, all the girls in good guys who got picked all ended up gg home.. so .. lucky Jamie.. and I think the girls in bad assess are not really that fit..this triathlon is really all abt endurance and physical ability lor.. I think it's kinda boring.. and the riddle is so easy lah.juz figure out the age of the ppls who kana out from the inferno.. haix... $150,000. that's a whole lot of freaking money. if I had that .. I would.. haha.. I would do and buy a hell lot of stuff.
I like the show. juz watching ppls fooling ard.. getting competitive.. bitchy.. haha

op is finally over... the long awaited moment in my life.. but then.. i TOTALLY SCREW UP the q&a... i simply couldn't ans the que...i knew my ans was not the ans they are looking for.. but then i really dunno wat to say liao lor... then stupid me i go and mention OBS.. it's not OBS lah.. it's DBS.. then... i ARGH!! totally screw up.. i tot ben soh was v kind when he asked my to elaborate on my 'wrong' but according to him, 'interesting' point... but i also couldn't ans.. i juz simply repeated myself... *pukes*
but i think i did alrite for the presentation part.. alot of eye contact.. good.. i think.. i hope i can get a good ME... hehe.. *prays hard* but then the effectiveness of the presentation abit screw up lah.. cos sheena was like ' as shown in the chart' (points to the screen) but then the screen didn't have the chart.. it was kinda funny lah... haha.. but i think we did alrite... except my qna part... hiax.

now left i&r... hmm..if i can't do well for op, the least i cld do it score for the rest of the pw... and i need to start of holiday assignment liao.. esp math.. cos i'm having my first ever tuition this sat... i hope it helps...

yay!!!

i got a new handphone!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy!!! hahahahahahah... it's a samsung slide phone... not bad... quite small.. smaller than my 8250... lighter than my 8250.. got COLOUR!!! my goodness... i'm so amazed.. haha... i noe, i'm lagging... but it's juz that my phone had nv had colour for like the past 2 years... and everyone ard had colour phone.. i was so envious.. finally! it has a camera too... [ppls! i'm coming to take photos of all of u!!] haha... i feel like a country pumpkin... not that i didn't know that such functions exist.. it's juz that i've had my 8250 for too long... so long until i'm missing out on all the exciting functions of a colour-cam-mp3-phone.. did i mention mp3? yes i did! haha.. but i still dunno how to dl songs into the phone yet.. dun think it can store alot lah... but nvm..i'm juz overjoyed....
yes, i got a phone.. all thanks to my mum, who's in the Hub Club... some starhubs thingy.. haha.. so happy she decided to get me the phone... i hurried her to the shop last nite... otherwise i'd have to wait till wed... hehe.. i'm so happy... now, that's one thing off my wishlist... and 1 more to go...
oh gosh... haha... i feel like a little kid getting extremely happy over a new toy... muahahahah

yesterday's op went well... i was time keeping for amanda's grp.. and then.. when it reached xw's turn.. my heart was thumping really hard... haha.. i guess i was getting nervous.. cos their grp's presentation gg to end soon... which means it's my turn! THEN, since amanda's grp took an hour, by the time they finished, it's 845, and here comes to rest of the class... eeks! not fair, we have to present in front of the class while amanda's grp only presented in front of our grp.. ANYWAY.. my heart was still beating... but i managed to deliver my part of the presentation well...at least that's what the teachers said... good eye contact.. improvement from the last op... more confident... muahahahaha.. i feel so happy.. but i noe i was gg abit too fast... so i'll work on my pace... i think i've memorised my part.. cos before i sleep and when i juz woke up, i managed to say the speech w/out the cue cards. yay. however.. i still have to work on the q&a... which i was juz telling my grp, that i might as well juz give up... i mean, do well for the presentation.. then screw the qna so hopefully i can still get a gd ME.. hehe...

ppls! less than 2 more days left!!! woohoo!

forget it..

looking at photos juz sucked... really bad... I realise i'm nv gonna fit into their grp... oh well.. forget it... i guess it juz wasn't meant to be... it's ok...

a fren juz called.. someone who cares... i guess, i shld be juz be contented with who i have ard me now, and not force myself to fit into other grp of ppls that are juz way off my league... yup. i've made up my mind...

peace.

roddick, i love u!

my goodness, what a game... i din see the entire match... only started when the last set's score was like 5-4, ferrer leading.. whoa.. then it went on to 5-5, 6-6, then tiebreak..i was so nervous lah... that ferrer guy is good at his aces too... it was all so close.. i kept shrieking.. my dad was like me, not sure who's gonna win.. cos they keep ending up at a tie... then one of the last few, we tot roddick's ball was out, but it's actually in! [it was like a whack across the court that most likely is out], but then no one said anything.. anyway, i'm juz glad it's in... otherwise ferrer wld have won... and roddick won, with an ace as his match point.. woohoo! i love roddick! he got 17 aces, compared to the 12 aces that ferrer had... it was so close.. phew...

tinge of regret

i dunno how to say this...
i felt weird when i see the photos... i'm kinda jealous..well, not jealous jealous... but.. like regret jealous... (ok i dun make sense)... feel sad that i lost a bunch of frens juz liddat... i mean, i'm happy i still have my current groups of frens... but looking back... if i had been more... i dunno.. involved, i'd still be close to them... yes.. i miss them... not every single one.. but the other few... haiz.. not much i can really do now... hopefully i can meet up with them...
i'm juz really sad... 2 years of friendship... juz gone liddat... and it's all my fault...
i love u guys.. well, girls i mean...

update!

chi is over! yea! hope i get a B3 or better still, A. Went out with the a bunch of them... flowergirls, lj, angeline, hx, jo, cheryl & sw... was very happy... eating lamian... hey, it's cheaper when u share the food, u noe? haha... then we went orchard, in hope that the 'johnny' will be there... i was having such a headache on the bus... i think it's juz weird to have a bunch of girls juz gg there to see the guy.... haha.. fortunately, he wasn't there... phew!

mum hired a tutor for me... my cousin's bf.... heard he's smart... and doesn't make his tutees memorise stuff.... i hope it'll really help... gotta buck up this hols.... still got that stupid OP.... hiax... i also dunno how to practice.. juz noe that i have to be more confident...

this holiday is gonna be well-planned.... exercise. study. go out. haha... hope i won't waste my hols... next year is 'A's... so fast, huh? can't believe it... and i got promoted! haha... still feeling happy and shocked.. but i can't be complacent... next yr's goal is to do well, and have points good enuf for uni admission...

have fun ppls!

(sigh..) happy

haven't really been studying chi... more interested in watching tv... have been gg out... to orchard... buy this buy that... walk until my feet v pain.. but very HAPPY !!! went to buy the havainas... the guy is so cute!!! and v shuai! he's so polite too... greeting us when we went there... not like the other 'blur' guy that served us the previous time... this shuai-ge had a pimple.. but he looks so cute! esp when he smiled... showing his set of colgate white teeth! haha...

hiax... the slippers are nice... but not really worth so much leh... dun think i will buy.. but i will want to go that shop more often....

happy me!

huge sigh of RELIEVE

thank goodness!!!!!!!! i pass my promos... yes that = I AM PROMOTED TO J2...
if i didn't see wrongly...
my results will be something liddat:
Chem- 46 (E)
Math-46(E)
Bio -56(C)
GP- ard C5-B4
Chinese- B4

thank goodness... this is the overall marks.... i failed both chem and math papers... pretty badly... luckily for CA and CT... my marks are pulled up... so, moral of the story... study hard throughout your J1 year... u nv noe when u need the marks...

so, after this... my plan is to play hard and study even harder! i have a mission to be accomplished for next year: good grades and university admission...

faints

terrible... humiliating... disappointing...
today was maths paper... i fainted.
the wing was extremely strong... then my tummy started aching.
i went to the toilet.
then i walked back... feeling very sick.
when i saw the rest, i was ....
asked sy to walk me to the office which is like 7m away.
couldn't see where i was walking... juz kept walking....
suddenly. thud! i landed.. face flat... i think i saw deb, and i heard vic's voice. i realise, if my knee didn't hurt, i'd have laid down...
tried to get up... walk into the office... told the staff that i wasn't feeling well...
then image became blur.
DM and another staff held me as they walked me to the sick bay... i couldn't walk... well. hardly
i reached the bed. laid there...
a nice lady came to help me...
i was sick sick sick.
then after much dilemma, i decided to take the paper... at 10 plus
no surprise, i couldn't do it.. i tot 3 hrs was long... but it's not that long.. cos my brain was trying to function...
cried, cried, cried...

overall.. i did badly. the only paper i can confirm a pass is MT...
i'm so gonna get retained...
peace.
i'm feeling better now.

promos !

today is monday. tmr is tue which is bio spa. then wednesday. THEN THURSDAY !!! which is promos for chem and bio!!!! argh!!! and what am i doing online now.??? checking for protein synthesis animation... abit helpful.. as i've nv understood what it was toking about before...

stress....
can't wait for promos to be over.. so many things to do!!
can't wait to be promoted...
bless me.

peace

i took a 3hr nap today!!!!!! eeks! wasted so much time.. can't blame myself cos i slept at 1 plus 2, trying to complete tt stupid chi compo.

i seriously sux at math. can't do a simple que... much less difficult ques. how how how? few weeks left...

my dad brought alot of vcds and ps2 dvds today... can't wait to watch and play them...

i have this feeling i'm going to make it... but i'm still... like, not getting my facts in the head...
actually i think many of us will make it... oh gosh.. i'm so scared.. i'll be left out... i mean, i have got past so many major exams... doing badly, but nv failing.(except this CT's math).. haha.. can one, can one.. sure can one... jia you!