i really wana go to australia gold coast. really. i wana sit those rides!!! and take pictures wif the crew of looney tunes! will i get to go? i have yet to ask my mum. i can imagine she'll juz remind me to save money for the 4th yr deg conversion at aus(which i'm having my doubt abt it alr)



i'm looking at the attractions at movieworld and seaworld alr.. and also looking at the accommodation prices. can't decide if gg on tour is better(things are taken care of) or free&easy better(eh. well, it's free & easy la)



accommodation is super duper impt! the location mus be good. i mean, accessible to the themeparks. and i muz find out how to TRAVEL from the hotel/motel/apartment to the themeparks.



this is so troublesome... sigh... and it's becos of things like this, there's alot of THINGS tt i wana do but eventually didn't do becos i'm always concerned abt certain things and worrying over other stuff... i shld learn to do this man.



jie: any chance that any of ur aunts might be interested to go wif her family or smthg? then can go tog. then i dun have to research on accommodation le.

had some fun at sentosa ytd.. didn't really cycle but felt a sense of satisfaction as i helped sw and mel to learn cycle.. they're still kinda shaky but i'm sure they'll get the 'feel' of it soon.

have been facebooking these couple of days. esp petting the fluffpets and racing them! totally addicted! i want tt gold medal!!! AAAHHHHHHH! haha. so childish.

watched juno.. was pretty alrite i think... later watching p.s i love you. and then there's still jumper and the leap years(which i hope to watch on the 29th.) i thnk i'm gg to be broke soon. and i still haven't gone shopping.

tennis tmr wif yh!! it's been soooo long! i wonder how well we can still rally!!! haha!!! definitely gg to continue my tanning!!! i bet it'll be way more effective than the tanning session we had at sentosa..

carling cup final: chelsea 1 tottenham 2 (e.t.)

rather disappointed, i turned off my tv half a min before the final whistle. couldn't bear to see chelsea lose.

initially when the commentator said whenever drogba scores, chelsea will win, i was like skeptical. and then when drogba did score the opening goal, i began to be hopeful. spurs were the better team, they were pushing and attacking. chelsea had a really amateurish shaky start. chelsea was supposed to hold on to their goal as it was wat they were supposedly good at. they didn't, i knew they cldn't becos spurs was all out attacking during the late 2nd half, and they got a penalty. good lor

then it went on to extra time, steve clarke and j.terry were both giving moltivational talks and i was almost sure it wld talk some sense into the players. but it didn't. spurs scored their second goal within the first few min. i wasn't panicking at that time cos i tot chelsea cld surely come back. but they didn't. last 5 min of the match, they had one corner after another. but still no equaliser. it was painful to watch. they only have themselves to blame as they refuse to do more attacking when they first got their lead (it's like last min mugging. no use one lor. shld have been more consistent earlier on, so dun have to panick like mad at the end). that's it. chelsea lost. i lost too. i was damn damn damn sure tt chelsea will win this cup. so they at least have one silverware in their bag for this season. now the other 2 possible cups they can win is facup and cham league(which i think is still not tt possible but i shall keep my faith in them)

sigh:(

finally. exams are over. i dun feel like seeing a counsellor anymore, even though i think i really need help in coping wif the anxiety i face during exam period. it gets extremely awful.

anyway, i'm kinda disappointed not to be joining my class for timbre tonite..sorry. have decided to have a sleepover instead.. juz feel like having heart-to-heart talks wif my closest frens..

decided against getting a job this hols, wld really needa focus on clinicals preparation. initially i wasn't so nervous abt it, up til audrey mentioned some of the objectives tt we have to achieve. oh. and the fact tt if we fail one clinicals, have to retake and hence will be behind the rest by one 'clinicals'. DARN. i plan to do well in my clinicals.. brush up on my interpersonal skills(i wonder how), learn abit of teochew and canto, practice transfers, mmt and rom.. rom still can, cos i was given a chance to do it at sgh(tho not very skilled), mmt is like -!!!! it's easy to do in lab la.. but in front of the real patient, muz really be professional abt it..

gotta work out hard during this hols... kinda used to running in the gym wif the aircon le.. abit not looking forward to running on tracks.. sigh.. one yr down, one more yr to 2.4test.

other stuff i'm looking forward to:
shopping!
cycling/rollerblading wif my pals!
tanning at sentosa! haha
buying donuts from donut factory! double chocolate!!!!! chocolate wif raspberry!
fried mars bar!!!!! omg!!!
tennis/squash/badminton! work those calories!!!
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revision-.-

cheryl left. how sad. i wasn't there to see her off.

anyways, i feel really really upset about today's kine/epa paper. i also dunno whether i'd describe it as upset or numb. nah, i'm definitely upset and disappointed about today's paper. i think i didn't think hard enough before i attempted each question, so when that happens, i write out ans that i think make sense. at the end of the paper, on the way home, i ponder over it and ask wat my frens think of that paper. i have a feeling they sorta knew wat to write, but perhaps didn't phrase it properly. but for me, i felt like i didn't know wat i was writing, and everything juz came out based on prev prac and some sorta common sense.

on the bright side, i didn't leave questions blank. ya i think. but some of my ans are really crap lor. argh....

exams bother me. they really do. i have a feeling i'm the only person who is bothered by the way i fare in the paper. it sux really bad cos i feel tt i shld have stepped out of my sec sch/jc mentality and be more mature when it comes to studying for exams. i haven't. i'm still tt crybaby who succumb under pressure. the annoyed girl who can't let go of some minor marks, the perfectionist who wants to regurgitate word for word in each essay que.

i need to change.
i need to see a shrink/psychologist to help me deal with my panic attacks.

optimistic joyce. i know myself well, despite all the negativities, a side of me is assuring me tt i dun have to take sub paper, at most get a D for epa/kine mod.

i'm not gg to say i'll study harder for next sem. it does't work. after so many years, i've come to realised tt last min cramping is bad but somewat effective. unless i study my subj the way i study for anatomy. i'll miss anatomy.. abit la. cos it's the only mod tt i can do well becos i can regurgitate the facts. word for work (ps. essays only la, mcq not included unofrtunately)

i'm supposed to be happy tt kine/epa paper is over. i hope studying for biom will be smooth sailing later. hai. but got calculation ques, so can't be tt smooth la.

cheer up joyce.

i'm thinking of the day tt i was absolutely sure i failed epa prac. and i got a C in the end. let's hope things turn out better tt wat i think:)

i obviously haven't stepped out of that 'circle'/mentality.
GIVE ME A BREAK.

i'm really upset about my kine prac grade. i thought i did well. but thinking back again, the teacher did give me quite some hints abt certain stuff, so i guess i dun deserve the grade i wanted. But, if it had been the other teacher, i may have done slightly better. oh wells. now, i noe i have to work even harder for the written exam which is super duper tough cos the ans are not found in the notes. the notes are like not informative at all lor. and kine/epa has the highest credit points! kill me!

i'm worried tt if i'm not able to grind out at least 3.0 every sem, then i might not be able to get into an aus uni... sigh. wat shld i do? maybe i can work hard to do well in clinicals? haha.. unlikely considering i still sux at chi and unable to utter much phrases in the 3 dialects. i have alot to work on during the march hols.

gotta get back to studying.

i'm so dead. it's eve of CNY, and here i am in doubt over my kine pract. i thought i did well leh, even for the exercise part.. then, my fren who supposedly got the same que said it's eccen exercise and eccen functional. but i recall prescribing exercises meant for concentric. oh no.. i thnk now there's a possibility tt i may fail (even tho i did 'pass' the rom and mmt part). hmm.. but exercise prescription is not really - forget it. it's impt, if wrong exercise means fail le? die die die. shit la... why audrey nv prompt? she juz keep asking 'anything else?' so i juz keep giving concentric. i even say out how it works leh. die la. now she thinks i dunno wat's conc and ecce. shit. oh god.

tt aside. epa was alrite. managed to smoke thru even tho last nite i was seriously having a panic attack. think i may do better for epa after all.

positive sign for right trendeleburg - i dunno if i spelt the word correctly, but this is wat happens: while standing, the person's right leg will be straight, while the left pelvis drops, becos the right abductor is not able to keep the pelvis level.

i demo-ed it to my tester, and gave an explanation while demo-ing. and guess wat, for a 20yr old student, i really screwed up my left and right! i demo and said "so the right side will be straight" - and i pointed to my left leg standing straight. and then say" and left pelvis drop", and i dropped my right pelvis!

i even did all the actions leh! i showed how the right abductors(pointing at left thigh) will not be able to level the pelvis on the left side (pointing to right thigh).

it's not THAT BIG a deal i hope? afterall, my exercises were prescribed for the right leg, and i made sure my patient did it on the right leg.

yes. calm down joyce. this plus the fact the TFL doesn't attach to lateral condyle + my patient did compensation and i didn't say out until tester pointed out + my measurement for ROM also abit not here not there = i think too much liao. [i also tot of a better exercise while i was showering juz now. i shld have suggested it. damn. i think better while showering. ]

yes. i thought i cld get a good grade, now. er, well, i still think i did well.. haha.. i'm an OPTIMIST! (FYI:optimist expect good stuff to happen. i always tot they juz HOPE good stuff will happen.. hmm. )

alrite man! now. gotta start on epa. i'm so damn happy it's not tmr.. i juz took like a 1.45 h of nap!!! which felt really good after staying in sch for so long.

i'm gg to do quick shopping tmr(since i overslept), hopefully get 2 tops. and buy myself either a prosperity burger or juz the twister fries :)

am looking for websites for exercise prescription. hope the spine exercises won't be tested. argh. shit. i still rmb i have to go memorise definitions for psychology.

last nite was pretty fun. the surprise was definitely there. tho it felt more like a grp gathering rather than a class gathering cos the guys left soon after cheryl appeared and we were still sorta in out own little grps.

the exercise doesn't seem hard leh. but i noe when i see the que tmr, i'll surely -!! nope. i shall be calm when i see the que. and there's a difference between stretching and strengthening, and i have yet to touch the latter! frustrating! lucky my slot is the noon. but still.

bad news. chelsea drew!!! oh man 1-1!!! so damn close to winning la, with all the last min attacks! and idiot man u!! they score a goal at like the 93rd min to save their sorry ass! why cldn't chelsea have done the same?! then we'll be levelled, or close. now, we're 6pts below. sobs. 3 mths left? *prays hard* and shit la, chelsea is playing liverpool next!!! prays tt our home record stays unbeaten!!!!

it's 1st feb. and week 16 has juz ended.. the dreaded wk 17 with 3 tests will soon arrive :S
but still, it's been a 'fabulous' wk 16.
1) i got noticed. i think... mr.p saw me 4 times this wk! haha
2) i fell in love with the new song - So Close by Jon Mclaughlin. and i can't stop listening to it. my classmates hate me for it. i even put the song on a com in the resource room!
3) i ate 2 donuts from donut factory! Double Chocolate and the Chocolate with raspberry! SINFUL! but absolutely delicious!!! thx joce!
4) i did well for anatomy. and i was the first to find out bcos i actually approached dr uma right before she wanted to edit the list for an unnecessary reason. and apparently she noes i improved. like as though she know me very well liddat -.-

yup. tt sums up the week :)

on the downside
1) i think i was pretty unproductive in studying, except for making notes blindly
2) i totally sux at public speaking. i need to take up a course during the hols or smthg. shoots.
3) i'm pretty clueless abt exercise prescription. shit.
4) i haven't exercise much during the week.

4 -4. draw. haha. oh! chelsea won as usual! so did man u and arsenal. so it's still a draw.

the dreaded D-day will arrive in 2 weeks. it's probably more dreaded than my 2oth birthday. sobs...

i walked past mr p at the traffic light.

it was rather strange when we walked passed each other. i wasn't super excited afterwards. hmm.. maybe we walked too close to each other le. strange. it's a really strange and somewat sad feeling.

wat shld i do tmr?

anat prac is finally over. sigh. shall i expect A or settle for B? not really within my control now anyway.. hope we'll get tips for physio and biom so we won't be clueless during our revision.

oh, then there was this funny joke during the pract. our dear classmate pg was seated at the rest station, and dr uma was saying, flip to ur que tt corresponds to the model at ur station. and pg was like looking ard and mumbling "eh, where's the model ah?", and then she realised "oh it's a rest station."! seriously think it's super funny when nurul told me la! i wish i was seated next to her.. it's geniune blurness la.. haha.. no offense fren, i dun mean to make fun of u.. but let's juz say, u have ur way of making ppls laugh and lightening up the mood. u rock girl!

went shopping juz now!! eh. i muz apologise for being the last customer to leave mango even tho i entered the shop knowing they're gg to close alr. oops. but i saw there were still ppls inside mah.. then i browsed the whole shop, there were still ppls, so i decided to try on a top. by the time i tried finish, only left me and another couple who were paying for their stuff.. so i was officially the last to leave. how awkward. now i noe wat lj meant when she said some irritating customers wld come when shop is closing.

and. while walking out, this caucasion guy approached me. he looked rather lost so i tot he was gg to ask for direction, and then he said ' excuse me miss, do u have natural nails or fake nails?' i was like ' do i have wat?!"his slang and vol made it kinda hard to know if i heard his words correctly anot.. anyway, i said natural(duh!), and he asked me to show him my nails. then he wanted to do smthg abt it, (apparently he was selling some of his products at those small pushcarts) an so i juz like apologiesd and rushed off.. i can't even understand him clearly.. eeks. forget it.

eating at pasta de waruku tmr! like FINALLY!!!!! :)

no mr.p :(

DISAPPOINTED!!!!

i didn't see mr.p today. how annoying! can't he like try to take the same train every morning??!!

i got a lousy grade for physio (becos i didn't cross my fingers like i said i wld.)

but i'm still a pretty optimistic person becos when i get a stupid lousy grade, i comfort myself by saying i'm on the higer end of the lousy grade.

yup. SIGH. now i'm worry for anat. ARGH

i realised i may have saw the WRONG mr.p last thu. but thankfully, i saw the CORRECT one this morning! he looks nicer.. and i'm more sure it's him. becos he was cmg out of the mrt station and was wif a fren, juz like how i saw him in the past.

haha.. can't see the buff arms... hmm.. does tt mean there are quite a number of hot caucasians working at sgh? HAHA.

happy :)

aus open

wat an eventful australian open! only the 6th day, and there were alr quite a handful of major upsets.. one in particular was andy roddick's early exit in the 3rd rd by a german seeded 29th. roddick reached a career high of having 42 aces! tt's awesome. but his winners were only 79 compared to like abt 100 of his opponent. sigh. he's juz not as good. wat's the point of serving so many aces? tennis is not juz abt serving ( even tho it's easier for roddick- cos he can juz finish off a game very quickly by serving well) wish he cld up his play more and play like federer.

*fingers crossed for phsyio pract* pls let me get a B!!!

it's him it's him!!!

prac test - i wld say it's easy, but i prob still need luck in order to get a B. *fingers crossed*
oh, i somehow passed my epa test, tho it's one of the lousier grades among all. it's alrite. i'm juz glad things turned out better than i thought it wld be. i'm thankful :)

okok, now, is the MAJOR part. ppl: guess who i saw today????? yes no maybe u dunno? let me tell u all, it's MR.P!!!!! omgosh pls!!!!! i was sooooooo happy!!!! it's a rather long story, slightly embarrassing and crazy if i write the actual process of how i saw him, let me juz cut it to the bits.

1) saw a familiar back figure in the morning. hmm..
2) in the late noon, saw mr. p's fren. strangely, he was waiting at the bus stop instead of walking towards the station. bus no. is 190 i think. HAHA
3) saw this really hot and super tanned and super buff guy! head-curly hair, eyes- black sunglasses, shirt- sleeveless singlet(*faints!*), berms and slippers and sling bag. it's him man! it's sooooooo him! BUT the strange thing too, is tt he was taking a bus too, but i didn't see the bus no. damn. yup, so even tho he looks like mr.p, i still have some doubts. cos he looks more buff than the last time i saw him, which was prob in mid nov(it's been soo long.) gosh.. and he's so tan, i bet he went to sentosa to play ball or smthg! and i still can't believe his arms were so huge.. it looks so different when he was wearing tees wif sleeves. hmm.. but the curly hair is so him lor..

hai. i tot i had snapped back to reality, thinking tt mr.p had gone home after his overseas exchange internship program. maybe he is a perm staff after all.. hai. damn, i'm gg back to dream world again...

it's really nice to have seen him. i'm so happy. but i prob won't meet him regularly cos he prob has changed to taking bus to work :(

overall mood: happy :D

smitten.

wat a embarrassing day it was at the pt clinic. i still sux at public speaking, even if it's to a bunch of ignorant kids who are like 4 years younger than me. gosh i feel old now. i feel so bad abt not helping out much.. i felt like a 13 yr old. damnit. i'll do a better job for psych ppt.

it almost happened. those water droplets. like it's gonna start flowing any time soon. it always happened! the last time it actually did was during some public speaking lesson. oh man. wish i cld be more confident... my peers were so good at it. i wish i have their confidence.

alot to study. damn. hope i dun fail my phsyio prac.

i am SUAY one lor. alrite, juz not as well prepared as i thought... EPA-FAIL. the mistakes of those ppls b4 me seemed way too minor compared to mine.. i did it on the WRONG PLACE! like WRONG! not position wrong, is WRONG PLACE. ARGH

and it was juz upsetting to know i wasn't one of the many who did really well for phsyio despite the tips. damn.

pain scale- 11 out of 10.

hopefully this serious mistake will moltivate me to work harder in my studies for the rest of the 2 mths.

had a sleepover at limjie's place. b4 tt we had dinner at the adam rd hawker centre. let me try to list the 'events' down

1) i was early, as usual. sw was late, as usual

2) decided not to rent the dvds cos it was too ex

3) had dinner at adam rd, ate the famous nasi lemak + stingray + satay

4) looked at pics of evelyn's cute little hyperactive puppy

5) took this:

6) went to island creameary? to have ice cream

7) went back to limjie's hse

8) had gift exchange - there was a lack of communication and so the presents were of the 'wrong' prices.. haha.. sw gave my cute undies.. which i shall work hard so tt i'll look gd in it.. haha

9) played a little bit of pictionary b4 angie and eve left... it was a close fight!

10) erm. cheryl n sw watched some online shows while i was double-tasking: discussing epa wif limjie while watching chelsea vs newcastle match.

11a) chelsea score 1-0

11b) newcastle drew 1-1

11c) chelsea won! 2-1 YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11d) man u lost! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

11e) arsenal down 0-1 at halftime!!!

12) watched white chicks.

13) slept at 430am.

14)everyone woke up at ard 10

15) check arsenal.com, they won 4-1. sian.

16) waited for jie's parents to buy back breakfast

17) juz hanged ard. some pictionary

18)ordered mac. n watch the unbeatables :)

19)went home!!!

I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO 2008! i dun wana do epa prac test and i am unhappy tt i'm not studying AT ALL. i feel lousy. argh. n i have decided to go sch tmr.

Date: Saturday, 24th December 2007
Place: Simin's lovely home at Clementi
Time: 645pm til the next day

530pm:I was soo looking forward to the xmas party at simin's pl. there' was this rule to wear either red or green. and i chose red! and juz b4 i left the house i realised i made an awful mistake of being in red&black completely. there was a red tee wif black skirt, then red nails wif black birks. AND i chose to carry a black handbag and the esp plastic bag-which is red. HORRIFIED! it's juz wrong. had to change it to a nice gold paper bag in the end.

545pm: at the bus stop. i stood. and waited. and waited. and waited. almost 2-3 of evey bus came except the one and only tt i cld board-166 it came like 20min later. argh.

645pm: reached simin's pl.. much to my surprise, sm was still in the midst of cooking.. and ap was helping her in the kitchen while wl was in the living rm doing the tuna on biscuit thing. nope, i didn't help. the host refused to let me do much. so i juz kinda slacked...

this is tiring.. haha. let me try to summarise

yh & lh were late.. it was like 730-745 when the table was finally filled wif food. omg. it was really filled wif food. there was chicken, duck!!!!, spaghetti, garlic bread, mashed potato, veggie, hashbrown!!! it was delicious! the setting and atmosphere was really nice too! and there was the christmas tree!!! dinner was fabulous! yh cracked a joke by asking for some '82 wateva wine... super nice.. too bad sy wasn't present.. and xy was still on her flight back from japan... the dinner was filled wif cold jokes, funny jokes, and reminders for one another to finish up the food!

after dinner... hmm.. think we juz watched some shows on tvb and licensed to wed, which was an alrite show la.. then xy arrived and we took lots of pics... unfortunately, the grp photos are all in wl's cam..... yup.. gift exchange! seriously, i swear i will put in more effort to buy a NICER present in future! sorry wl! wl and xy went to aus and jap respectively so they got us nice and edible souvenirs! :)

oh. then a sm & ap's fren turned up. ya.

then ap and xy went home.. and the rest of us kinda went to sm's rm to sleep... it was an early nite(compared to the slpover wif sw and cheryl...) we were watching harry potter.. but i fell asleep like super early cos the lights were alr out...

woke up really late despite sleeping early... had log cake(my mum made) and this friend potato dish tt sm's mum whipped up(using the left over mashed potato). watched tv... we were all kinda sianed... like stoned. and i had to play pictionary!!!! sm has this art board? those drawing kinds wif a stand.. and i drew! and sm,wl and yh guessed! haha... i had to draw based on wat i played wif sw last time...

tt's abt all... the xmas dinner was prob the best part of the stayover! i'm like so inspired to make a meal for my frens and family too!!!! hmm.. maybe i shall try it out during the hols in mar!!! yea!