omg

okay, qing deliever the rackets to us today... he helped us to paint the W on... unfortunately... the colour kinda spilt onto the frame... which makes it look abit...not so new... but then nvm lah... he say can use non-permanent marker to erase it...
then... yihui told qing that i want to join the tennis team in the school.. i was like.OMG!!!! why did u say that???? i was not yet that angry at her, but more of embarrassed when she told them. yes, them referring to qing and hanqin.... Hanqin is in his sch team... OH my GOODNESS... then qing was like - okay, if u have a goal then u shld work towards it. THEN, yihui mentioned that the team only accepts 15 members. ARGH!!!! how could any one say that???!!!!
okay at that time i was still very embarrassed... maybe i'm abit paranoid, but i tot i could sense that 'tone' when qing said something about me being lucky and so i might be one of the 15 persons... i tot he was being sacrastic.... okay, maybe not... but it's like, we're juz beginners, how can she tell him that i want to join the team when we're still not there yet... i mean, if she wanna tell, at least wait until i'm in the team, or at least tell him on the last lesson which is this coming thursday, so that i won't have to see him again.. oh my, oh my.... talk about being embarrassed... i can't wait for the last lesson to be over
it's like i can imagine what's going thru his, or their minds right then ---- Huh? she this kinda standard how to make it to the team? only eight lessons and she can't even hit the balls within the court.... aiyoh... abit 'bu zhi liang li'
okay, maybe i'm overparanoid... maybe he wishes the best for me... BUT STILL!!!!
by the way, after we left the building i got abit pissed.... yes, with yh... hey, if she had said that BOTH of us wanted to join, the impact wouldn't be so huge on me cos she'll understand how i feel... AIYOH... actually i tot she wanted to sabotage me after the fact that i helped her to ask qing how to remove the stain... but i noe it's not becos of that.. it was like- she din noe... you noe, like both of us have different perspective on certain issues... She thinks that it's okay to tell it to our coach, but i will nv have said it...
the GOOD thing is... the rest of the students weren't there... i'd have been more embarrassed.. THANKS YH.. i'm not mad at u, but embarrassed.. thanks... (yes, i'm being sacarstic)