confusion

went for the health care tok on fri.. there was 2 toks abt pharmacy and lab med, whic i felt were TOTALL BORING. not the speakers, (although they were) but the career itself.. eeks! besides, i wldn't have the grades to get there (sa only had 6 ppls gg to pharmacy in 2004) ya, finally the last speaker came on to tok abt physiotherapy.. i think it's really quite interesting lor.. it's not like the job requires much of those chemistry and complicated stuff.. i mean, the body is complicated.. but i'd rather work on helping people than researching on some new drug... i noe, i may not appear as the super sociable kinda person.. but i feel that i would wanna have a career that allows me to interact with people, rather than being in the lab!


ya, e speaker informed us of the routes to that physio. includes gg nyp(the only local option) for 3 years to get diploma before converting to a degree which takes 1 yr, either overseas or local. there's a scholarship too!! my gosh!!! i want! for speech therapy, which i was also kinda keen.. there are NO LOCAL institutions, so MUZ go overseas.. (no way).. THEN, the most shocking part(worrying, actually), is that she say the the competition for the course is pretty stiff.. 50 outta 200!!! i was like, jaw totally dropped! at that moment, i tot, there is absolutely no way i can make it there. no way. and then i was like, shit.. if i dun take physio, what am i gonna do?? oh no!!! i'm so freaking worried and disappointed and rejected...


how how? on the way back, angeline and i were like saying, we shld study very hard, so we could both get into the course.. i'm like.. er... 'if u get in, i can't get it liao.' oh sshit. how?! if i really wanna get into the course, i'd have to really STUDY VERY HARD!!!


but then again.. what if i dun like it? wat if i get into nyp and then realise that i dun like physio.. wat am i gg to do?? 4 years leh! i dun wanna waste my life away studying for smthg i;m not interested in. personally, i dun think we shld juz 'see what our grades are first'.. i think at this stage, if we each know the direction we wanna go, studying for the rest of the year will be so much 'easier' cos we'll keep our purpose in mind and not give up until we reach that goal.


it is very impt that i figure if phsyio is the path that i wanna take... hmm.. i'm so confused... then again, if i really want physio, can i get the grades? i'm soo freaking dejected now.. only abt 10 weeks to bt 2.



bio spa sux!!