rahhh... juz started doing the math revision hw for those who've failed bt1... i can't do!!! i feel so useless... i juz can't rmb stuff... it's mid april liao... next week is gonna be super busy.. got napfa, chem test, LOTS OF ASSIGNMENTS to be handed in, 4 shifts of cip, tuition... my gosh... THIS is wat JC LIFE IS ABOUT.. except that i lack a proper cca(which i replaced it with cip).. then, i still need to train for 2.4, cos i hope to pass at the end of the month(which seems abit too fast, now that i look at my fully packed schedule- it means i only have a week left)
block test 1 results were horrible even though i sounded relieved at my previous entry.. i'm really at a loss as to what i can do... so much to study. so little time... 18 years old... it means i've been in the edu system for like 11 years!!! my gosh... suffered so much... i wish i could juz end it at As... unfortunately, in such a MERITOCRATIC country like spore.. As will get me NOWHERE.. and it's not like my As result will be fantastic anyway... wat to do?!
yh told me she may be gg for overseas studies... i'm so envious... if only my folks were WEALTHY... (i'm contented with what i have liao, tho..)
i'm at this phase again-i'm really clueless... i dun wanna study for the sake of studying... i need an aim... but like what yh says, reality is more than often different from what we really want... studying marine animals is what i'm interested, but my grades and financial status are saying 'impossible. be realistic'.
hmm.. it's 9 now.. i shld prob snap back to reality - finish up my hw.. go to bed... and hmm.. stop thinking abt pw and start dreaming of jeff wong!
No comments:
Post a Comment