it's quite tiring to cry after every single patient u noe that. and thank god i manage to control it in front of my CE. wldn't wana let her know tt i'm so weak.
sigh. i wish there were more 'perfect' patients. but then again. even if the right ones came along, i wldn't have know what to do.

learn tt i have to deal with pain. not mine. but the patient's pain. some ppls are juz overreacting way more la

tmr is wkly eval day. think i'm gonna fail it. at least for this wk.
unless, my 2 patients are 'simple cases' tt i can easily diagnose or smthg

ANYWAY. the fantastic news is.
mr.p smiled at moi today :))) was walking back from the toilet and hopin tt the door of the podiatry room will open. and then juz as i walk past this other room, he suddenly appeared! he turned ard and gave me a smile. well. it was like a simultaneous thing when we smiled at each other. SO HAPPY PLS! ya. tt was before i saw my pt la. i was in such a bad state after my case tt i'd rather not see him.

hope i can deal with my 2 patients without breaking down again. i got to learn faster. think faster! and probe further! and i shall not be defeated or 'slaps my forehead in exaperation IN FRONT OF THE PATIENT'

i can do this. i can. i know i can.

i will.