good day folks! it was a good day after all. my 'best day' out of the whole placement. the happiest day was the friday b4 attachments start. and i'm glad to say i ended the 5wks with a slight bang too!
ok. first of all, last nite,N gave me the idea to speak to mr.p. which was a really good idea.last day and all. juz go for it man! so i seeked help from S as to what to say la. cos u noe, i'm not the pro at this sorta things. by 1am, i learnt what i was to say and even requested for cookies to go along with the whole stunt tt i was abt to pull today.
the next day, i shared my plan. which unfortunately wasn't fully supported by my pals. but a fren did give another suggestion which seemed more feasible and more suitable in my case. so i waited for the opportunity to come. what i'm abt to do was: to speak to mr.p. give him the cookies and say merry xmas. and maybe add in the "i think u'll cute and i looked forward to seeing u everyday." line.
so for the plan to be excuted right, it has to be done alone. alone like me without my frens, and him without his colleages. i missed one chance right b4 noon cos he turns out to be walking behind us! but tt wld have been awkward cos his TA juz came out of the room and i was with a fren.
during lunch i was like frustrated, annoyed, hum(4) & totally wanted to give up the whole idea of approaching him. AFTER ALL HE IS ATTACHED! so what's the point right?!!
came back from lunch. and to be honest, i was hanging outside the clinic (walking in and out) all day long awaiting him to come out from the room. then after the like hundredth time of walking out, i saw him! he was with his 2 colleages coming in from outside the clinic and he had dropped this soft ball(like really soft) which rolled towards me. (mr.p said smthg like throw it back?!?!, i can't rmb man)so i picked up and threw it back. I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED IN MY THROWING cos it HIT THE WALL! *faints* so it bounced off the wall and he had to bend and picked it.
me: oops. sorry!
mr.p: it's ok(or issit it's alrite), i'll forgive u this one time
yes he said that. so hooray! no i didn't give the cookies. he wasn't alone and i didn't have my cookies with me!
THEN! after 2 patients and 3 hrs and some talking. i went back and forth to stand outside the clinic to hopefully catch a glimpse of him. gosh if there was a camera, i think the guard will be like super annoyed lah! anyway. after for like the gazillionth time!, i finally saw him walking towards to gents next to the PT clinic. then IMMED i turned ard and went back in the get my cookies!!!!! HURRAY! haha. so the other ppls were still talking, i juz hurried out and this was how it went
me: heyyy! (cos his back was facing me when i came out of the clinic)
mr,p: turns ard, stops and stare.
me: [this is really vague to me. i seriously cannot recall much!!! but it's smthg liddat this i think] today is our last day here, so my friends and i made some cookies, and ... "something abt me giving it to him la"
me: merry christmas? (really cannot recall!)
mr.p: thanks. merry christmas (to u too?)
me: erm, what's ur name?
mr.p: robert
me: i'm joyce
mr.p: *sticks out hand* and i shaked it.
me: [vaguely recalls. i honestly can't rmb. but i RMB CLEARLY that later on, i said THANKS. then i went like, "eh, why did i say thanks?" anyway, merry christmas!]
mr.p: *smiles alot*
and then we walked back to our resp rooms
YUP. so it went smthg along this line. erm. i am very ashamed to mention that i even said out the "thanks. and eh, why am i saying thanks?" TO HIM. amateurs are like this. it's probably the most embarrassing thing. i hope he doesn't think too much into it.
ya. it really went quite vague. it seemed like i blocked out wat he said except for his name. like. honestly man. i did have some eye contact with him i think. haha.
so ppls. now's the time to applause for yours truly for the ultimate brave move of the month!
anyway. juz to prove that i'm not making this whole crap up- after we left the clinic to go change at the staff toilet, we walked past mr.p who was chatting with the OT clerks. and i tried not to look at him, but i did glance up and he saw me, and he said "thanks for the cookies again". by the time i had walked past this wall, so i cld only say 'u're welcome' really loudly for him to hear.
yea. cool day huh. after all that past few posts abt how i've had a crush on him. wanting to make a move. and then later on finding out he's attached. and yet last day, i managed to pull off something 'crazy' tt i've been DYING to do since YEAR ONE! i'm so proud of myself man. it's not becos it's mr.p. but more like, i actually could do smthg like this! of course, i plan to do better in future. HAHA. ya, FUTURE. like future hot potential guys!
*sighs in happiness*
on a side note: the more i think abt it, the more it feels like everything juz wasn't as smooth as it was supposed to be. oh gosh. pls let me forget everything tt has happened. i dun wana think abt my embarrassing moment with him!
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