study study study.. gimme a break!

yesterday morning, she gave a lecture on how we shld be studying almost every waking moment of the day, and that we shldn't go town cos we're not j1s.(c'mon, i bet she's also telling the j1s not to go town cos of they prob didn't do well for ct). i'm like-GIVE ME A BREAK! made me feel soo guilty for watching pirates of the carribean aft that. bleh.

btw, the show is quite good.. esp johnny depp!!! he is such a wonderful amazing actor!!! wonder why i didn't notice that in the first movie...

bt2 results-GOOD! improvement in every subj [except for gp, which i was so close to failing.]
math-B
bio-B
chem-C
i almost got A for bio, but i shld be thankful i got a B. cos initially rumours were spreading that essay was badly done.. so.. ya,i'm happy i got a B... but,i'm kinda worried.. cos if i get these grades for bt2, that means i have to work extra extra hard to do even better for prelims(if not, maintain)... kinda pressurizing...

i wanna go shopping!!! (only less than 2 wks to end of GSS)
i wanna buy more accesories to make my earrings!!!
i wanna buy the germany jersey...(shld i buy?shld i buy?)

i wanna do all of these, and still be able to have the time and moltivation to study.. i hate option topics.. so much to study...

all out!

germany is out. late 2 goals scored by italy. if they had sustained for another 2 min, victory wld have gone to the german team. sobs. all 3 of my fav teams are out.. shld have supported one more team... think i'll be rooting for italy tmr.. although i think france will win. nvm... more importantly, hope germany wins tonight's match against portugal.

this world cup has really been very entertaining and informative. as in, it's thru this world cup that made me start noticing players that have been ard but went unnoticed. well, that's becos i dun watch epl. maybe when the season starts, i'll start watching some of it..

bt2 results:
so far so good.. made improvements in math.. but not sure issit my effort that has paid off or that the paper was supposedly easy. as for chem, though i screwed up mcq, i still manage to get the grade i was aiming for.. left bio, can pass but dunno whether will get a good grade. i muz say, this bt2 results are prob my best since i came to jc. means that i'll have hope for my a levels.

another disappointment

andy roddick is out of wimbledon. only the 3rd round and he was defeated by this unseeded andy murray. so disappointing. this year has been really poor for roddick. it was bad enuf he lost to blake(andy has won him 6 times in previous 6 matches) in stella artois... wat's wrong wif roddick???

maritina hingis is out too.. and she was wearing this low cut outfit.. hmm... weird.. not safe i wld say..

:(

england:out!

this is my personal opinion. hope no one gets offended.. pls dun take it too seriously.

england vs portugal
the match started.. pretty alrite.. no one scored during the first half.
then second half, rooney got sent off, i think it's for pushing c.ronaldo.
so england down to 10men. but they still managed to hold on to the 0-0 draw until after extra time.
there was penalty.
3 out of 4 shots by england was saved by the gk.
portugal won by penalty kicks. 3-1

i was SO DISAPPOINTED... with these ppls:
1. rooney: trouble maker!!! cos the team to go down to 10 men. i dun understand why everyone's been saying he's such a great player.
2.the referee: red card for a slight push? issit really necessary?
3.the coach: that wateva formation with only one striker up front! totally not working.
4.frank lampard: i was feeling sad for him in the past matches, cos he had so many shots at goal, but none actually went in. but to lose the penalty kick? totally disappointing. i tot he's supposed to be the best player in epl???
5.steven gerrad: the moment i see him walking to shoot the penalty, i knew he would score. boy, was i wrong!!! and to think he has scored twice in the previous matches. it shld have been a piece of cake.

Yup, that's about all. whoever said england shld avoid penalty kicks, whoever is right.
however, i do wanna say that john terry had did a commendable job in defending goals against england. he's the only man i can say, in every match, helped 'save the day' at some point of time. he was tearing at the end.. poor guy.

Brazil is out. how unbelievable. i have yet to watch the match so i can't comment.

sobs.. i support 3 teams. 2 of them are out. i really hope germany wins it this time! *prays hard*

bt2 - done

bio paper was alrite.. except some of the questions.. i still think bio paper is the easiest among the 3 papers.. hope i get a D or C..

went to pizza hut and then watch the movei - just my luck.
the movie was quite alrite... very funny and lame at certain parts.. was quite surprised at the fact that they featured McFly... Was ok overall:)

they're gg thru the papers starting next week. so soon! haven't 'rest' enuf yet, and they're gg to shock us. bleh. hope i dun fare too badly.

can finally watch world cup at ease! yea! go germany, brazil, england!!!

world cup

yesterday's gp was ok.. but i think i might have interpret the que wrongly...eeks! but then, that's always how i felt after writing an essay.. hope i dun do too badly.

i'm addicted to the world cup. almost. i can't help thinking of the matches.. I want to watch them all! But i noe i can't afford to.. we were having a discussion yesterday abt doing badly for BT. i was saying, i have an excuse for doing badly, cos i've been watching the world cup... HAHA.. But i muz make it clear. I did study during the holidays

If i dun do well, hmm.. i dunno. something's wrong. i dun expect myself to do VERY WELL, but i wanna get a decent pass for all my subj.

Can't wait for BT to be over. got lots of shopping to be done. and lots of world cup matches to be watched..

btw, i'm supporting these 3 teams: england, germany, and brazil. yesh!

update on bt2

have been studying.. not sure whether it's effective. But i've definitely put in effort and alot of time.. This is the first hols i'm studying more than watching the tv. And these days, the only show i watch is world cup matches- esp those with cute guys! haha.. like aussie and england. England's match against T&T is the only match tt i watched from start to end. The rest, i juz watched a few min. The best part is when i'm there to watch the actual goal (not the replay)

ms ng told lj and cheryl the bt, they(maybe refering to ALL of us) shld be able to get 'B'
then mr yeo told us, that we shld all aim for a 'D'.
Meaning: Bio paper is doable.
Chem paper- need to study extra hard, to get above 50marks. -.-'''

I hope the math paper is of similar standard to the revision paper that the teacher gave.

I have my targets.. I hope to achieve them. More imptantly, i hope i can REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT I'VE LEARN.

post-aviva open

Aviva Open is over. OVER. Went to orchard to celebrate wm & lj's bdae. Was hoping to see Andrew Smith. Of course, we didn't see him, he's probably on his way back to england. Life goes on.

Watched So You Think You Can Dance. Winner is Nick. It was a great show, but i just wasted 1hr45min watching it.

Started doing work after the show. I was just stoning. Like, i've no idea wat exactly was i supposed to do. I'm so lagging behind the schedule that i made for myself last week. Think i'll do a new one. Anyways, I'm not sure if I still rmb wat i touched on last week.

I'm at THE STAGE again. The stage whereby i'm not sure what i'm doing and i dunno how to get things done. LIke, i still have 2 weeks(gd news), but ALOT OF TOPICS UNTOCHED(bad news).

I'm so pissed at myself. I juz can't find the moltivation. I have survived the past 10yrs of education, and i know i wil survive this one. The point is: Do i want to? NO. Do i need to? YES. And even if i survived this one, i dun think my grades will be fantastic.

Oh gosh, wat happened to me wanting to go to NYP for physiotherapy course? I'm losing it.. Totally losig it.

Someone save me. please.

I wonder how everyone else is coping... Probably better than me.

aviva open final

Peter Gade is the champion for aviva open men's singles! yea! He beat Kenneth Jonassen in straight sets.. Not very exciting, like kinda smooth for gade. The exciting match is the mixed doubles between england and indonesia. It was such a close fight between the 2 pairs.. And the spectators kept mimicking the sound that the indo guy makes when he smashes the shuttlecock.. woah.. the atmosphere... it's juz so exciting.. angie was like so 'ji dong' Then the funny part is that in the third set, when england was down 21-22(match pt for indo) then emms made a smash and the indo pair missed it. emms thought it was in and was like 'yes!'. then the indo pair turn ard and saw the shuttlecock was out, and "YES" And, yes, the indonesian pair won.. Superb! How embarrassing for emms to 'yes!' when they lost the match.. But it was really, the most exciting match out of the 5 finals. I think is the only match that went on to 3 sets..

Yup, so while watching (me, angie, sw, lj), some of us went to get autographs fr some of the players. angie ask the england pair to sign her ipod!! crazy girl.. then me and lj asked baochunlai(fr china) to sign.. he's like super fair(like xiaoming), i call him 'zhao bai'. ya, we heard that angie got his autograph but he seemed v 'dao'. He was juz sitting a few seats in front of us, so we walked down, asked him to sign on our pass, and he mumbled smthg like 'chen hong lai le mah?' i was like huh? lucky lj understood and replied tt we got his autograph a few days ago. then lj asked to take a pic wif him. So i held the camera, and i could see he's got super huge attitude problem la! he was like so not focused onto taking the photo, kept gazing elsewhere, being super impatient. MY GOSH! after i took the pic for lj, we went back to our seats. i cannot stand this guy! and lj is like 'he's cool' -.-'''

oh, then we asked this england player, andrew smith to sign our pass too.. he's like so poor thing.. he's out in the third rd. then he was seating a few seats behind gade and jonansen. cos, it was aft the men's finals match, then everyone was like rushing there to take pics wif gade.. then i noticed tt smith kept looking at gade and his fans taking photos wf him.. Smith looks like he's envious of him... SO, we went to ask for his autograph.. Afterall, both me and lj watched him played during our shift, so we do KNOW who he is..he seems nice, and CUTE. but i didn't take photo wif him(REGRETS!) cos it felt weird.. like everyone is taking wif the finalist, and here i am taking wif some unknown guy... haha.. Oh, then i didn't ask for jonansen's autograph and photo too.. he sat right in front of gade.. Then all the ppls wif pass rushed to gade, and jonassen seemed like he was being 'forgotten'.. Poor thing..(REGRETS!)

Well, i shld be happy. oh and peter gade changed back to this tee shirt that he wore when he took photo wif me on tue.. hehe.. and he TUCKED IN HIS SHIRT FULLY. i watched as he stuffed his shirt into his pants. i was like.. er.. weird. but he still looks gd.. juz that he's wearing grey shirt and grey pants.. Anyway, who cares?! He's the WINNER! and i have both his photo(taken wif me) and his autograph! I shldn't be sad... Nvm, can always ask to take photo wif smith and jonansen next yr!! CAN' WAIT!

aviva open - quater finals

i wasn't planning to go for the quarter finals today. then lj msg me in the noon and ask me if i wanted to. i was thinking 'peter gade vs ronald susilo, shld be quite exciting.. i wanna watch both of them play'. But then again, i thought it would be a waste of time, cos the travelling time is pretty long.. and i haven't study anything in the day yet.. so, in the end, after much contemplation, i decided 'no, i'm not gg, it's a waste of time, and i need to be studying'.

So, i took a nap at 3 plus, woke up at 5 plus, and wanted to go jogging. But it rained, so i juz sat in the living room, munching on the koko krunch, while staring at the tv set. I was watching Holland V, then dinner was ready, so i went to eat. I look at the time '530.. match will begin in 2 hrs..wonder how it'll be..'. Finally, i made the decision, 'I WANT TO GO WATCH THE MATCH!' I msged lj, she was on her way home. Luckily, she was still up for it. So, we met at 7 at kallang, and rushed to the stadium.

Just in time for the match, walked thru the entrance, and walked past peter gade.. hehe.. There was quite alot of spectators, most of them were there to support ronald susilo. We set at the line judges area.. So the match began. Everytime ronald scored a point, the spectators will ALL CLAP VERY LOUDLY. then if peter gade scores, can only hear some applause, and my extreme loud clapping.(I'm on peter's side!! Go PETER!) yup, thankfully, and rightfully, peter gade won, in straight sets,(he almost lost the first). 21-19, 21-16.. yea!

Oh, while i was busy watching the match, lj was watching the one gg on in court 5, which was china's chen hong vs this tall and gd looking Malaysian. It took chenhong 3 sets before he won the match..

After that, i heard fr a fren that the bus comes hourly, so i wanted to go outside and wait for gade to get his autograph. So ard 840, we left the court area. (before that we let chen hong sign on our pass, but according to him, my marker was not very good :S) ya, so, then we opened the door, and THERE HE WAS!!! PETER GADE!!! and his IBA coach.. they were walking towards us, so we were like, 'yea'!!!! There was this uncle behind them, asked gade to sign on his shirt. So, we juz like waited, and then we asked him to sign my 2 photos and lj's pass.. then me and lj were like 'thank you thank you!' And gade replied 'welcome welcome' So sweet!!!

yea! so i got a photo wif him and his autograph.. woah, that's cool man, i shld do that for the other sports events in the future. Oh there was this cute orange shirt guy whom mel, sw, sheena, and another fren was so crazy over wif. but they didn't manage to get his pic. (this is the guy whom sheena and mel thought were peter gade) I didn't really look closely at his face, so can't give my comments yet. From far, looks average lor.. It's ok, maybe we'll take a photo wif him aft the finals on sun. *prays hard that gade gets into finals and wins the aviva open* woah, then liddat i'd be one of the few ppls who have his autograph and picture and have contact wif him.. hehe..

mood :over the moon

aviva open rnd 3

It started quite bad, cos when i took over amanda's shift, she was pretty pissed off.Apparently, she got ignored and even scolded by some players and the ic... Thankfully, my shift went on pretty smoothly.. Yes, there were players who exit by the entrance, but then i did do my job, so it's not my fault, and it's understandable tt they'd exit by the entrance when it's like a few metres away..

There were a couple of exciting matches. Like the indonesia men's doubles.. they were against england. The indonesians played v well! I was so impressed, and one was them was tall and cute(like mario ancic), but they lost in the end :( The england pair, on the other hand, seemed old and stiff.. I've no idea how they won.. But they are seeded playes, so maybe that's why.

Then there was peter gade against chenyu. First set was pretty smooth for gade. Then the second one was not so, cos chenyu wanted make a comeback.. it was super tight! And gade got pissed when the line judges said that the shuttlecock was in instead of out.. Ya, he was really pissed, he threw the shuttlecock to the service judge fr then on(usually, players who wanna change it wld walk over there wif the shuttlecocks on their racket face). Yup, so chenyu won the 2nd, very close, like 24-22. Then came the third set. Woah! Peter gade was like so "i want it badly' He smacked at any opp that came.. So he was like leading 16-8, then somehow afterwards, he kept smashing the shuttlecocks out(like 2cm fr the line).. then it became something like 20-18, then 20-19. But he managed to win the match, i think it was 22-20.. PHEW!

Ronald Susilo won his third rnd match too, and will be up against Peter Gade tonite!!! [oh, and i juz found out his birthday was yesterday! damn! me and lj didn't wish him happy bdae when we met him in the room!] Yup, so, i think gade will win, he'd better win..

peter gade

Yea!!! i took photo with one of the world's finest badminton player - PETER GADE. Woohoo!! So delighted.. And he's gd-looking too.. hehe.

Sheena and mel saw him yesterday nite when he went for training.. But they didn't take the photo wif him cos he was wif a coach... Ya, then i was like so jealous tt they get to even see him.. And Sheena was like 'i'm gg to take photo wif him to make ur jealous!' Ha, and now, i've already taken the photo wif him!!!

So today started out wif us doing the same thing. sitting at the corner, then if need arise, we'll have to ask the players to exit after their match ends.. But most of the time, we were juz stoning there... And it was freaking cold. So, i was like shivering at the last hr out of 5.

Then after our shift ended, which means all the matches of the day have been played, it was time to switch shifts wif lj and angie, who were doing venue training officers.. I took a look at their schedule, and DENMARK WAS THE FIRST TEAM TO USE THE COURTS!!!! yea!!! yup, so we stayed on to wait for them to come.. We even go to the entrance to see them enter one by one.. then, Peter Gade came!!! Woohoo! they came in a big grp, so cldn't get a chance to take pics.. So, afterwards, the 4 of us juz sat at the tables and watch the players train... And i kept wondering when peter gade will be free and alone..


The moment came! He took a shirt and walked towards the toilet alone. SO amanda and i followed him(it's my idea to follow, amanda agreed reluctantly..) So we waited outside.. there was no one, so it was the perfect opportunity to take the pic. THEN, he came out. he didn't really notice us until i asked to a photo wif him. BUT he said ' sorry i gtg... do a interview, take wif u later"(smthg liddat.. cldn't really hear) I was like.. ok... Did i mention, my heart was pumping freaking hard before, during and after i spoke to him?!

So we walked back to the tables diasppointed [i recalled a england rugger saying that to me, but in the end left hurriedly before i cld even take the photo wif him].. stoned there.. and i tried to study bio... FINALLY, the time was up, the team had to go, so when he walked towards the entrance( near out table), we stood up and walked towards him.. He saw us, so he came over, put the bag down. AND WE TOOK THE PHOTO!!! individually... me and him, then amanda and him... I was so overjoyed.. He even like, bend down slightly to be closer to us.. haha.. sweet.. and he placed his arms on our back.. as wat a normal caucasian wld do..

But i realised i didn't really make any eye contact wif him.. i was juz so happy the photo was captured on my cam.. haha.. Ya.. so yea!!! happy me!!!

Actually, i didn't even noe who he was until a month ago, when amanda told me abt him. if fact amanda didn't even noe how he look like, cos it's her fren who was crazy over him.. But, I did my research, and watched a couple of matches between him and lindan.. so i do noe smthg abt him now...

Yea, i'm a happy girl again!!! I juz enjoy doing these sort of events.. but i wonder what other sports events do spore hold? it's like... not much.... but anyways, i'm glad i did this.. can't wait for next yr's spore sevens.. haha..

*hmpf*

beware: there's this predator out there. he's preying on us. he's creepy. beware of your actions and words.

Went to collect the tshirt and pass for the aviva open. They had to put our FACE on the pass!!! so clever.. but, i look totally hideous in tt pic. The green shirt reminds me of golf, esp tiger woods.

then i saw the schedule.. wasn't too pleased wif it.. i'm doing 2 days, 13 hrs only.. while some others are doing more... hiaz.. but it's not really their fault that they get to do more, afterall, it's the lady who made the arrangement. And really, i dun need that much cip hours liao(provided rina gives me my 13hrs of cip).. juz tt i put alot of effort(and money for all e msgs), and it didn't turn out to be wat i want.

my gosh! i feel dumb abt writing this.. well, that' s me. being the ever so calculative girl. wonder why i still fail math though.. haha...


Anyways, i'll be doing an extra day wif amanda.. hopefully, we'll get to take pics wif big stars like peter gade & ronald susilo... but chances are not so high.. cos the players are supposed to meet the media aft their match... (unlike ruggers who juz go and take a bath immediately aft the match). So, we'll see..

x3

x3 is not bad... especially the popcorn part.. haha.. i meant, i enjoy eating the popcorn... so tasty. yum yum.i dun usually eat popcorn during movies.. i think i'm addicted to it..
the show itself.. not bad.. except that some ppls have v little parts.. like cyclops:( then, that boy with wings, whom we all thought will have some major role, turns out to be juz another ordinary mutant... the climax part.. was alrite.. the show is too short!!!

yay!!! hols are finally here!!! can concentrate on revising for bt2.. however.. i'm worried i might not be revising my work in the most effecient method.. hmm... and then there's the GREAT SINGPORE SALE!!! so tempting!!!

MI 3

went to watch MI:III.. is pretty good... impressive.. but the plot abit.. expected.. ya.. then there were some quite ridiculous scenes... like:

1. the part where he flew fr from building to another.. (i tot it was a remake of spiderman la! it's so... very impossible!!! i guess that's the reason for the name of the movie. ..but still... he should go audition for spiderman 3 or smthg..)


2. this is the 'off' moment'. the part where ethan ask the wife to switch on the switch, and then he suddenly ' stop! ..... i love u'.!!! argh! like so outta place... it was such a crucial moment leh... and the way he said it is like.. very casual... ya.. quite funny tho.


3. following that, when we all tot he was dead, and the wife was doing CPR... couldn't wake him up... then we all tot he really die liao.. then the wife got so emotional, she started banging on his chest.. THEN, he suddenly woke up, sat straight and point the gun at this already dead guy... this part quite er.. 'not logical' abit fake.. hehe.. but i'm glad he didn't die.


overall, the movie is pretty good. i'd give 3.5stars.. i juz didn't really appreciate maggie q's acting.. no.. maybe the fact that she's asian.. sorry.. she looks really gorgeous tho.. and there's the other cute guy.. but the 3 other person in ethan's team seem to have v little show time.. ya, the action part pretty impressive..


ok.. after this, i hope to watch posiedon and x3..

sian.

yesterday's weather was very good.. very cooling.. however, i still failed the 2.4 test.. felt so bad.. cos cheryl ran with me too.. wasted her effort.. so sorry...

then, during chem spa, i made a utterly stupid mistake.. i wrote alcohol first instead of aldehyde.... so dumb la!!! this is the outcome of PURE MEMORISING!!! rah!


then there was this discussion abt the ymca proposal.. we all got very pissed off with tc.. i dun want to talk abt it anymore.. he's juz such as asshole sucker.


the nicest part of the day was the band concert.. it was super good!!! not only were the music, there were great visual effects too!! like the cute surong!!! haha.. she so cute la!! and i was impressed with that jeremy tay guy.. he played euphonium so well... so sweet of him to dedicate the song to his mum... too bad yihui wasn't there to watch him.. oh, then there was the gd-looking saint's alumni guy, benjamin yeo.. looked like a matured version of surong's peanut.. haha.. but benjamin is so much better looking... :)

deep shit.

we're in! (happy and sad) we're in deep shit(sad)

we're selected to carry out our proposal for the YMCA-Citibank youthforcauses.

i'm speechless, overwhelmed with mixed feelings.
huixin is very upset and stressed out in the super dramatised form..
Aiping & Shiying are both juz.. shocked


our proposal really sux. really. look at the budget plan, it doesn't make sense at all.. it's so amateurish... [my heart is still pumping pretty hard]


things can really go outta hand.. bio spa aside, i still have to commit 4 days of cip at aviva open(that i'm interested) but now that there's this stupid.. [it's been so long since i last use the F word] so Fked up... i'm really.. in deep shit


initially, it was my (stupid) plan to juz ANYHOW write a proposal and hand in, so that our testimonial will look ok(at least we participated in smthg)... we weren't expecting to get in.. afterall, the proposal really sux. it's totally my fault. i'm sorry.


if we're j1s or j3s, i certainly dun mind carrying it out.. but j2s! i juz got back our report card.. not fantastic.. consistent, according to ms soh ( but i think it's more like consistently bad). i'm supposed to spend more time on studies la... at this rate. my testimonial will look fantastic.. and my grades? HORRENDOUS.


good luck to me..

confusion

went for the health care tok on fri.. there was 2 toks abt pharmacy and lab med, whic i felt were TOTALL BORING. not the speakers, (although they were) but the career itself.. eeks! besides, i wldn't have the grades to get there (sa only had 6 ppls gg to pharmacy in 2004) ya, finally the last speaker came on to tok abt physiotherapy.. i think it's really quite interesting lor.. it's not like the job requires much of those chemistry and complicated stuff.. i mean, the body is complicated.. but i'd rather work on helping people than researching on some new drug... i noe, i may not appear as the super sociable kinda person.. but i feel that i would wanna have a career that allows me to interact with people, rather than being in the lab!


ya, e speaker informed us of the routes to that physio. includes gg nyp(the only local option) for 3 years to get diploma before converting to a degree which takes 1 yr, either overseas or local. there's a scholarship too!! my gosh!!! i want! for speech therapy, which i was also kinda keen.. there are NO LOCAL institutions, so MUZ go overseas.. (no way).. THEN, the most shocking part(worrying, actually), is that she say the the competition for the course is pretty stiff.. 50 outta 200!!! i was like, jaw totally dropped! at that moment, i tot, there is absolutely no way i can make it there. no way. and then i was like, shit.. if i dun take physio, what am i gonna do?? oh no!!! i'm so freaking worried and disappointed and rejected...


how how? on the way back, angeline and i were like saying, we shld study very hard, so we could both get into the course.. i'm like.. er... 'if u get in, i can't get it liao.' oh sshit. how?! if i really wanna get into the course, i'd have to really STUDY VERY HARD!!!


but then again.. what if i dun like it? wat if i get into nyp and then realise that i dun like physio.. wat am i gg to do?? 4 years leh! i dun wanna waste my life away studying for smthg i;m not interested in. personally, i dun think we shld juz 'see what our grades are first'.. i think at this stage, if we each know the direction we wanna go, studying for the rest of the year will be so much 'easier' cos we'll keep our purpose in mind and not give up until we reach that goal.


it is very impt that i figure if phsyio is the path that i wanna take... hmm.. i'm so confused... then again, if i really want physio, can i get the grades? i'm soo freaking dejected now.. only abt 10 weeks to bt 2.



bio spa sux!!

bleh.

the sch say they'll do smthg abt our pw grades.. hopefully they'll review how our stuff are graded, and regrade it, so tt they'll give a more 'deserving' grade.. and they did gave a good reason for their 'slow' response- saying it's becos of the long weekend break. ok fine. i'll see what they do...


went for blood donation today.. had a full meal at 1 plus.. then waited for ping til 3.15.. surprisingly, there were alot of ppls at the bloodbank today.. alot of male workers... ya, so i was kinda nervous abt whether i'll faint.. cos i DID felt dizzy and faint the last time i donated blood... so, the first 'injection' the staple shot - was actually quite painful... i was like... ouch! ok, not so loud la.. then went into the room... waited for quite long, before the nurse came to help me.. and the first anticeptic(i can't spell!) shot was also quite painful... i was supposed to relax the stressball, but i still squeeze it, then i saw that the vein(or wateva) kinda swelled.. hurhur..eeks! then afterwards, she inserted the needle.. also abit pain, cos she seem to have forced it in more.. aiyoyo..

overall: PAIN


after the donation, immediately after e nurse took out the needle, my heart started pumping really hard, and ONCE AGAIN, i felt dizzy!!! it was so argh! headache, cold sweat breaking out(due to low blood pressure, NOT the hotness). i was thinking to myself : I AM SO NOT DONATING BLOOD EVER AGAIN! ya.. the nurses came over.. the doc came over... fanned me, gave me drink... ya.. made me feel better... then the nurse say, 'next time u come, tell the nurses to give me a smaller pack for donation...so, u dun really have to stop donating blood, juz donate lesser'. that makes sense.. and so i felt.. ok maybe i'll give it ANOTHER shot.


then i stood up, and walked to the cafe. surprising i was feeling OK.. very good. no dizziness.. i could get my own refreshments w/out feeling dizzy... and i took a BUS home!! haha...i wanted to take cab, but all hired... and ya, i didn't faint on the way.. i felt normal...


so, overall, it was good and bad.. bad, becos my dizziness was immediately after the needle was pulled out(the first donation, i still have time to tok to ping before i felt dizzy).. the good thing, i recovered very much faster from my dizzy spells.. haha...


i'm starting to rethink abt the 50 donations... BUT i'm willing to give it another shot...

feeling the heat already.

rahhh... juz started doing the math revision hw for those who've failed bt1... i can't do!!! i feel so useless... i juz can't rmb stuff... it's mid april liao... next week is gonna be super busy.. got napfa, chem test, LOTS OF ASSIGNMENTS to be handed in, 4 shifts of cip, tuition... my gosh... THIS is wat JC LIFE IS ABOUT.. except that i lack a proper cca(which i replaced it with cip).. then, i still need to train for 2.4, cos i hope to pass at the end of the month(which seems abit too fast, now that i look at my fully packed schedule- it means i only have a week left)


block test 1 results were horrible even though i sounded relieved at my previous entry.. i'm really at a loss as to what i can do... so much to study. so little time... 18 years old... it means i've been in the edu system for like 11 years!!! my gosh... suffered so much... i wish i could juz end it at As... unfortunately, in such a MERITOCRATIC country like spore.. As will get me NOWHERE.. and it's not like my As result will be fantastic anyway... wat to do?!


yh told me she may be gg for overseas studies... i'm so envious... if only my folks were WEALTHY... (i'm contented with what i have liao, tho..)


i'm at this phase again-i'm really clueless... i dun wanna study for the sake of studying... i need an aim... but like what yh says, reality is more than often different from what we really want... studying marine animals is what i'm interested, but my grades and financial status are saying 'impossible. be realistic'.


hmm.. it's 9 now.. i shld prob snap back to reality - finish up my hw.. go to bed... and hmm.. stop thinking abt pw and start dreaming of jeff wong!