podiatry

i was looking for scholarship juz now but the dateline is over :S and then i came across this: overseas scholarship for podiatry.. not many ppls noe what's it abt, and there's no local courses available. i was tempted to apply for it, even tho i'm not crazy abt being a podiatrist. after all, for the past one yr, my goal was to become a physiotherapist.
but there it was. a chance- for a scholarship - overseas - degree.
did i mentioned tt i failed to get the scholarship which i submitted my application last min on the dateline itself last yr? erm. they didn't even call me up for an interview, probably becos my grades were juz average and my testimonial was soooo boring.

i wonder how many ppls will apply for this scholarship? maybe i'll be the only one? haha. then they'll give it to moi!

for those who think i'm interested in the scholarship becos of a certain *ahem*, it's a no. the thought did flash across though.. hehe

i needa submit a resume in order to apply for it.. i'm too lazy to type one out.

i needa participate in some form of cca like NYAA, to er, impress whoever it takes, to give the scholarship to me. if i do set out to start participating in NYAA, i've got to be committed.. and not give up halfway the way i did for squash. damn. and i probably have to give up my aus trip in sept.. oh this is not juz for scholarship for podiatry, it's also gg to be useful for my PT scholarship.

my grades juz ain't tt fabulous. it's passable. i wanted a 3.3 but i'm not close. and it's strange cos i tot the individual grades look good on its own. but becos my lousiest grade in both sems hold the most credit points, i guess tt's where it pulls down my gpa.

sigh sigh... shld i juz apply for the overseas podiatry thing? haha. high chance i won't get it anyway. and if they ask me to go down for interview these 2 wks, wat am i gg to say? and surely. all the troublesome things & emotions i have to do IF i do get it. nah. i won't get it. but still.. it's tempting. but hold on.. which country wil i be gg? better be aus.. AH. i'm overthinking this man. i'm not even typing out my resume yet!!! and on wat basis will they select me? my passable gpa? my empty cca record of 1 yr in nyp? my lack of enthusiam in class? failure to attend that v.impt tok tt we were strongly encouraged to go?

*yawns* so troublesome... i shld be revising for my clinicals tmr.. another 2 more wks!

slack hols

the hols is cmg to an end. clinicals at BV is gg to commence on wed! oh dear. i hope the PTs there wld go easy on us. i heard my fren who's gg to a certain private hosp will have ALOT to do to impress the PTs there.

i enjoyed my hols this time rd. haha. perhaps it's not as meaningful as wat my dear yh went thru in cambodia, but i definitely enjoyed it thoroughly.
1) meeting up wif my frens! esp the s55 ppls! sentosa,crystal jade & sakae!!
2) having lunch (outside sch!) wif my pt frens :) at manhattan fish market
3) watching 3 movies in a wk! 10,000 B.C, The Leap Years and Step Up 2 The Streets :) HOT!
4) Exercise? haha. i didn't run on tracks, but i finally restarted running at the park nearby instead of the gym.
5) went timebre wif 2 ntss pals! loved the ambience there. makes me feel good abt myself. except the part where i puked out my cosmo drink at home :S but the pizza is NICE! shall get yh to drive down there one day
6) hardly touched the books! haha. but i shall regret it later. keyword-later
7) eh, i won my first fluff gold medal! I'm proud of my dragun, Grinchy! HAHA.
8) shopping! tt's prob the best part!! and the most no. of items i bought within a mth, or even a wk! ppls- i bought threadless tees!! not 1 or 2, but 5!!! holy s**t!!!!

yup. tt pretty much sums up my hols this time rd.. it feels good.. the not-so-good part? having to work as flyer distributors - but i'm glad i worked wif jac and nurul on 2 outta 3 days. also, i didn't manage (or bothered to) learn my canto well (which i mentioned i wld last oct :S). even tho i know i spent ALOT of money on shopping, i can't stop myself from window shopping and mentally making down a list of things i need to buy. maybe i think it's time for me to get a new wardrobe of clothes to 'mark' my adulthood. of course, threadless tees are juz essentials tt everyone shld have... HAHA.

ppls. my birthday is cmg. the day is 15 APRIL 2008!
this is a list of 'PLEASE DO NOT BUY THIS FOR ME COS I'LL PROB CHUNK IT ASIDE'
1)any type of shirts. please. i'm serious. not even threadless tees!
2)wallets. nah. i dun really need one since i dun have tt many cards and i've always prefered a 2mm purse instead
3)novels. i like. but i rather receive it over x'mas
4)no vouches pls!
5)no jackets pls. i juz bought one online which i hope it fits!

wat i wld like other than a nice surprise gift may be
1)bag? this one is a toughie man. not sure pls dun buy!!!
2)handphone. too ex rite? i wan samsung handphone
3)a pair of sneakers. preferably puma. but again its' too ex. maybe my parents shld be reading this.

hmm. actually i also dunno wat i want..this is pretty thick-skinned of me to put up this post. but then again, it's concern for my fren's money being put to a worthy use. i m serious.

of course as a kind friend. i accept all gifts! all! with open arms and a grin from ear to ear. wat's most impt is the company:)

i so wasn't happy to see that.

went to check things out at the hosp this afternoon wif jm. got lots of things to read up on. supervisor seems nice but she isn't the main person we'll be tagging along.. oh god. i really hope i'm prepared by the 26th. mmt, rom, exercise presciption, old age diseases, the patients. pls let me get thru the 3 wks.

on the way home, when i was alighting from the bus, this lady who alighted right before me, tripped fell and hit her head onto the pole! omg! i was like stunned. ppls surrounded and offered to help. the incident was juz- !!!! singaporeans are nice ppls.

RESULTS ARE OUT!

alrite, by the sight of the first line, most ppls wld prob have guess tt i'm feeling good abt my results. and yes i am. i really got a shock initially. cos this morning at 4am, i was watching chelsea's match and then i went to slp at end of first half, thinking it's a sure win for them. indeed it was. but when i woke up at 10 to check my handphone for smses, i was surprised and taken aback to see the sms abt my grades! like - it's today!!! the results are out alr!!! ok, i did mark down thu on my calender but i kept thinking the results are only out on fri. anyways, yes, i'm happy wif my results. there's a improvement in anat and physio. and a decent grade for biom and epa/kine - despite me feeling EXTREMELY DOWN after my epa/kine paper. psych was my only A.. i tot i cld have aced the anat paper too.. but i didn't :S oh wells. no more anat in future. but tt doesn't mean i can give back dr uma wat i've learned from her.

anyways, chelsea did well. they scored 6-1 against derby. lampard scored 4 goals! incl a penalty! cld have kept a clean sheet tho. anyway, i feel sad for derby... losing so many matches. i really feel sad for them. sometimes i think it's not fair.

anyways. i'm happy! i wonder wat she'll be toking to me abt next mon. sigh. i can't provide a gd explanation for my emotions prior to my papers.

oh no. i spent alot this hols. and it's only halfway thru! here's the list

1)maroon pullover fr online: $24++
2)shirt dress fr online: $27
3)beach dress fr far east: $39.9
4)le coq tee:$27.9

OMG. and my fren told me she has this gd lacoste deal so it'll cost abt $60plus instead of the usual $109.9, and. i have to (and i'm gg to) buy a white plain top. as cheap as possible. maybe from giodarno.

then lunch/dinners
1)crystal jade
2)sakae sushi
3)manhattan fish market (dun try)

there was 10,000 B.C which i watched. alrite only.. cos i read a not-so-gd review b4 i entered the cinema... so my thoughts on the show was alr cloudy by the review. Looking forward to Step Up 2, (and then there's the leap years, waterhorse, ps i love u - of which the last 2 i'll prob rent the dvd)

i have abt 60$ for the remaining of the mth. i hope my pay for the singtel flyer has been banked in. even tho i said previously tt i wldn't do e job ever again, but i'm thinking it'll do gd for my shopping spree. hoho.. oh.i'm supposed to save up for gold coast.. sigh. but i'd need clothes for gold coast too! hehe!!

i'm seriously addicted. i can look at the same few websites over and over again every single day... ARGH.

first flyer distribution day

today was my first day as a flyer distributor. glad to also state tt it'll most prob be my last.. it was alrite .. the whole experience of standing along the walkway from the mrt to wisma. giving out flyers to the ppls.. it was actually quite interesting, to see the many different ppls walk passed me.. the good looking angmohs. the pretty and sophisticated girls of my age and the guys who wore skinny pants.. very nice to see wat the ladies are wearing, help me improve my sense of fashion too. haha

my conclusion is that singaporeans are pretty nice. not as rude as i thought they wld be towards flyer distributors. many of them smiled and declined, some completely ignore(TOTALLY UNDERSTANDABLE BECOS I"M ONE OF THEM TOO. HOHO), while others stare below my head. and tt's the weird part. oh wait. i was wearing suspenders ppls! omg! the only person i noe who wear suspenders is amanda la! so sian, we have to wear suspenders and a cap, both RED! yikes. i was actually supposed to wear the tennis skirt provided. but i decided it was too white and slightly 'see thru' tp my thick ugly elephant thighs. so i decided to change back to my shorts.
oh ya, ppls were looking at the words on my teeshirt.. but i keep thinking it's becos i nv zip my shorts tt's why they stare until so :O.

yup anyway, 6hrs went passes pretty fast. the other 2 guys came and help me distribute some of my flyers cos they finish damn fast. quite nice of them:) oh, not 6 hrs, i ended ard 745 wif the guys' help. so we were sorta dismissed at 8 plus. when the ic asked if i wana do next wk. i juz shook my head real hard. haha.. i dunno man. it's good easy money. but i guess cos without my frens, it doesn't feel as 'enjoyable' and i wldn't wana do it again. BUT, i wld really like to juz sit on the benches along the path and watch ppls walk.. haha.. not their gait, but the clothes they wear.. oh, i think i got quite some attention cos of wat i was wearing.. haha..

addicted to windown online shopping

i think i'm addicted to online window shopping. i can juz go over the same 10 websites and look over the same shirts and dresses. and stare in awe. well, not awe, juz wish there was a shop in spore, then i can go TRY it.. cos some of the tees are seriously not made for ppls with fats at all. they're so slim fit and skinny!!!

i have decided to buy this maroon pullover.. it looks nice.. hope it fits nicely on me.. but first, i have to transfer money!!! by tmr morning preferably.. supposed to be by last nite.. but i didn't succeed.. my first atm transfer was a failure. becos i didn't know i was using a POSB saving acct rather than the first option tt i pressed(POSB current). sigh. i sux

i shall not be like my fren who shops too much online.. i rather shop at orchard.. and try my clothes b4 i buy.. muz save $$$ too.. (possibly)got aus trip in sept!!!

can't wait for tmr's shopping!!! hope i manage to find wat i want! which is a dress, and maybe some nice tops:)

still listening to the canto cd.. quite hard ah.. not easy to learn a new language, even tho dialect is 'similar' to chi..

hair cut

went for a haircut this afternoon. was definitely feeling very nervous abt it, i even felt my thighs go shaky as i walked nearer to the shop. i didn't go to kimage nor dennis, cos it was either too far, or i can't wait. i need a haircut. NOW. so i decided to go to this salon, which was juz a few shops down the one tt i've been gg for the past 20yrs(and tt i really didn't like)

i was slightly more relieved when i was greeted by the presence of 2 female hairdressers when i walked in. somehow i get scared if guys cut my hair, even tho i did let a guy cut my hair b4.. anyways, one of the lady served me, and commented tt i have dry hair, my hair curls up at the end, and there's a patch of white hair.. as usual. one thing i was surprised was tt she blowdry my hair completely b4 cutting it. oh, and the hairdryer was so powerful tt my hair looked really pretty and rebonded b4 the start of the hair cut.

anyways, she cut, and trimmed... and yup, my fringe shortened. it was alrite, i've decided to come to the conclusion tt it isn't the fringe tt's ugly, but tt i have a pretty long face:( how sad.. it doesn't go well wif watever fringes i think.. oh wells.

yup, haircut done! juz glad the long fringe has been halved and my hair parting won't look so weird.

yes, i've decided tt getting a haircut will be on my list of 'scary' things.

it's out. my heart sank

my heart sank.

placement at bright vision hosp. i'm alr doing research on geriatrics. i hope it turns out well.. in fact, the major objective tt i wana achieve at the end, is to be able to enjoy and look forward to working in the geriatrics dept in the future. i dun wana have bad experience from working wif the elderly. let's hope everything goes fine. if not, there's always my partner i can lean on.

looking forward to shopping trips this thu and maybe sun?! haha!!! lots to buy! i regret not taking more $$ when my mum was giving me my allowance..

need to start picking up teochew hokkien and canto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really wana go to australia gold coast. really. i wana sit those rides!!! and take pictures wif the crew of looney tunes! will i get to go? i have yet to ask my mum. i can imagine she'll juz remind me to save money for the 4th yr deg conversion at aus(which i'm having my doubt abt it alr)



i'm looking at the attractions at movieworld and seaworld alr.. and also looking at the accommodation prices. can't decide if gg on tour is better(things are taken care of) or free&easy better(eh. well, it's free & easy la)



accommodation is super duper impt! the location mus be good. i mean, accessible to the themeparks. and i muz find out how to TRAVEL from the hotel/motel/apartment to the themeparks.



this is so troublesome... sigh... and it's becos of things like this, there's alot of THINGS tt i wana do but eventually didn't do becos i'm always concerned abt certain things and worrying over other stuff... i shld learn to do this man.



jie: any chance that any of ur aunts might be interested to go wif her family or smthg? then can go tog. then i dun have to research on accommodation le.

had some fun at sentosa ytd.. didn't really cycle but felt a sense of satisfaction as i helped sw and mel to learn cycle.. they're still kinda shaky but i'm sure they'll get the 'feel' of it soon.

have been facebooking these couple of days. esp petting the fluffpets and racing them! totally addicted! i want tt gold medal!!! AAAHHHHHHH! haha. so childish.

watched juno.. was pretty alrite i think... later watching p.s i love you. and then there's still jumper and the leap years(which i hope to watch on the 29th.) i thnk i'm gg to be broke soon. and i still haven't gone shopping.

tennis tmr wif yh!! it's been soooo long! i wonder how well we can still rally!!! haha!!! definitely gg to continue my tanning!!! i bet it'll be way more effective than the tanning session we had at sentosa..

carling cup final: chelsea 1 tottenham 2 (e.t.)

rather disappointed, i turned off my tv half a min before the final whistle. couldn't bear to see chelsea lose.

initially when the commentator said whenever drogba scores, chelsea will win, i was like skeptical. and then when drogba did score the opening goal, i began to be hopeful. spurs were the better team, they were pushing and attacking. chelsea had a really amateurish shaky start. chelsea was supposed to hold on to their goal as it was wat they were supposedly good at. they didn't, i knew they cldn't becos spurs was all out attacking during the late 2nd half, and they got a penalty. good lor

then it went on to extra time, steve clarke and j.terry were both giving moltivational talks and i was almost sure it wld talk some sense into the players. but it didn't. spurs scored their second goal within the first few min. i wasn't panicking at that time cos i tot chelsea cld surely come back. but they didn't. last 5 min of the match, they had one corner after another. but still no equaliser. it was painful to watch. they only have themselves to blame as they refuse to do more attacking when they first got their lead (it's like last min mugging. no use one lor. shld have been more consistent earlier on, so dun have to panick like mad at the end). that's it. chelsea lost. i lost too. i was damn damn damn sure tt chelsea will win this cup. so they at least have one silverware in their bag for this season. now the other 2 possible cups they can win is facup and cham league(which i think is still not tt possible but i shall keep my faith in them)

sigh:(

finally. exams are over. i dun feel like seeing a counsellor anymore, even though i think i really need help in coping wif the anxiety i face during exam period. it gets extremely awful.

anyway, i'm kinda disappointed not to be joining my class for timbre tonite..sorry. have decided to have a sleepover instead.. juz feel like having heart-to-heart talks wif my closest frens..

decided against getting a job this hols, wld really needa focus on clinicals preparation. initially i wasn't so nervous abt it, up til audrey mentioned some of the objectives tt we have to achieve. oh. and the fact tt if we fail one clinicals, have to retake and hence will be behind the rest by one 'clinicals'. DARN. i plan to do well in my clinicals.. brush up on my interpersonal skills(i wonder how), learn abit of teochew and canto, practice transfers, mmt and rom.. rom still can, cos i was given a chance to do it at sgh(tho not very skilled), mmt is like -!!!! it's easy to do in lab la.. but in front of the real patient, muz really be professional abt it..

gotta work out hard during this hols... kinda used to running in the gym wif the aircon le.. abit not looking forward to running on tracks.. sigh.. one yr down, one more yr to 2.4test.

other stuff i'm looking forward to:
shopping!
cycling/rollerblading wif my pals!
tanning at sentosa! haha
buying donuts from donut factory! double chocolate!!!!! chocolate wif raspberry!
fried mars bar!!!!! omg!!!
tennis/squash/badminton! work those calories!!!
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revision-.-

cheryl left. how sad. i wasn't there to see her off.

anyways, i feel really really upset about today's kine/epa paper. i also dunno whether i'd describe it as upset or numb. nah, i'm definitely upset and disappointed about today's paper. i think i didn't think hard enough before i attempted each question, so when that happens, i write out ans that i think make sense. at the end of the paper, on the way home, i ponder over it and ask wat my frens think of that paper. i have a feeling they sorta knew wat to write, but perhaps didn't phrase it properly. but for me, i felt like i didn't know wat i was writing, and everything juz came out based on prev prac and some sorta common sense.

on the bright side, i didn't leave questions blank. ya i think. but some of my ans are really crap lor. argh....

exams bother me. they really do. i have a feeling i'm the only person who is bothered by the way i fare in the paper. it sux really bad cos i feel tt i shld have stepped out of my sec sch/jc mentality and be more mature when it comes to studying for exams. i haven't. i'm still tt crybaby who succumb under pressure. the annoyed girl who can't let go of some minor marks, the perfectionist who wants to regurgitate word for word in each essay que.

i need to change.
i need to see a shrink/psychologist to help me deal with my panic attacks.

optimistic joyce. i know myself well, despite all the negativities, a side of me is assuring me tt i dun have to take sub paper, at most get a D for epa/kine mod.

i'm not gg to say i'll study harder for next sem. it does't work. after so many years, i've come to realised tt last min cramping is bad but somewat effective. unless i study my subj the way i study for anatomy. i'll miss anatomy.. abit la. cos it's the only mod tt i can do well becos i can regurgitate the facts. word for work (ps. essays only la, mcq not included unofrtunately)

i'm supposed to be happy tt kine/epa paper is over. i hope studying for biom will be smooth sailing later. hai. but got calculation ques, so can't be tt smooth la.

cheer up joyce.

i'm thinking of the day tt i was absolutely sure i failed epa prac. and i got a C in the end. let's hope things turn out better tt wat i think:)

i obviously haven't stepped out of that 'circle'/mentality.
GIVE ME A BREAK.

i'm really upset about my kine prac grade. i thought i did well. but thinking back again, the teacher did give me quite some hints abt certain stuff, so i guess i dun deserve the grade i wanted. But, if it had been the other teacher, i may have done slightly better. oh wells. now, i noe i have to work even harder for the written exam which is super duper tough cos the ans are not found in the notes. the notes are like not informative at all lor. and kine/epa has the highest credit points! kill me!

i'm worried tt if i'm not able to grind out at least 3.0 every sem, then i might not be able to get into an aus uni... sigh. wat shld i do? maybe i can work hard to do well in clinicals? haha.. unlikely considering i still sux at chi and unable to utter much phrases in the 3 dialects. i have alot to work on during the march hols.

gotta get back to studying.

i'm so dead. it's eve of CNY, and here i am in doubt over my kine pract. i thought i did well leh, even for the exercise part.. then, my fren who supposedly got the same que said it's eccen exercise and eccen functional. but i recall prescribing exercises meant for concentric. oh no.. i thnk now there's a possibility tt i may fail (even tho i did 'pass' the rom and mmt part). hmm.. but exercise prescription is not really - forget it. it's impt, if wrong exercise means fail le? die die die. shit la... why audrey nv prompt? she juz keep asking 'anything else?' so i juz keep giving concentric. i even say out how it works leh. die la. now she thinks i dunno wat's conc and ecce. shit. oh god.

tt aside. epa was alrite. managed to smoke thru even tho last nite i was seriously having a panic attack. think i may do better for epa after all.

positive sign for right trendeleburg - i dunno if i spelt the word correctly, but this is wat happens: while standing, the person's right leg will be straight, while the left pelvis drops, becos the right abductor is not able to keep the pelvis level.

i demo-ed it to my tester, and gave an explanation while demo-ing. and guess wat, for a 20yr old student, i really screwed up my left and right! i demo and said "so the right side will be straight" - and i pointed to my left leg standing straight. and then say" and left pelvis drop", and i dropped my right pelvis!

i even did all the actions leh! i showed how the right abductors(pointing at left thigh) will not be able to level the pelvis on the left side (pointing to right thigh).

it's not THAT BIG a deal i hope? afterall, my exercises were prescribed for the right leg, and i made sure my patient did it on the right leg.

yes. calm down joyce. this plus the fact the TFL doesn't attach to lateral condyle + my patient did compensation and i didn't say out until tester pointed out + my measurement for ROM also abit not here not there = i think too much liao. [i also tot of a better exercise while i was showering juz now. i shld have suggested it. damn. i think better while showering. ]

yes. i thought i cld get a good grade, now. er, well, i still think i did well.. haha.. i'm an OPTIMIST! (FYI:optimist expect good stuff to happen. i always tot they juz HOPE good stuff will happen.. hmm. )

alrite man! now. gotta start on epa. i'm so damn happy it's not tmr.. i juz took like a 1.45 h of nap!!! which felt really good after staying in sch for so long.

i'm gg to do quick shopping tmr(since i overslept), hopefully get 2 tops. and buy myself either a prosperity burger or juz the twister fries :)

am looking for websites for exercise prescription. hope the spine exercises won't be tested. argh. shit. i still rmb i have to go memorise definitions for psychology.

last nite was pretty fun. the surprise was definitely there. tho it felt more like a grp gathering rather than a class gathering cos the guys left soon after cheryl appeared and we were still sorta in out own little grps.

the exercise doesn't seem hard leh. but i noe when i see the que tmr, i'll surely -!! nope. i shall be calm when i see the que. and there's a difference between stretching and strengthening, and i have yet to touch the latter! frustrating! lucky my slot is the noon. but still.

bad news. chelsea drew!!! oh man 1-1!!! so damn close to winning la, with all the last min attacks! and idiot man u!! they score a goal at like the 93rd min to save their sorry ass! why cldn't chelsea have done the same?! then we'll be levelled, or close. now, we're 6pts below. sobs. 3 mths left? *prays hard* and shit la, chelsea is playing liverpool next!!! prays tt our home record stays unbeaten!!!!

it's 1st feb. and week 16 has juz ended.. the dreaded wk 17 with 3 tests will soon arrive :S
but still, it's been a 'fabulous' wk 16.
1) i got noticed. i think... mr.p saw me 4 times this wk! haha
2) i fell in love with the new song - So Close by Jon Mclaughlin. and i can't stop listening to it. my classmates hate me for it. i even put the song on a com in the resource room!
3) i ate 2 donuts from donut factory! Double Chocolate and the Chocolate with raspberry! SINFUL! but absolutely delicious!!! thx joce!
4) i did well for anatomy. and i was the first to find out bcos i actually approached dr uma right before she wanted to edit the list for an unnecessary reason. and apparently she noes i improved. like as though she know me very well liddat -.-

yup. tt sums up the week :)

on the downside
1) i think i was pretty unproductive in studying, except for making notes blindly
2) i totally sux at public speaking. i need to take up a course during the hols or smthg. shoots.
3) i'm pretty clueless abt exercise prescription. shit.
4) i haven't exercise much during the week.

4 -4. draw. haha. oh! chelsea won as usual! so did man u and arsenal. so it's still a draw.

the dreaded D-day will arrive in 2 weeks. it's probably more dreaded than my 2oth birthday. sobs...

i walked past mr p at the traffic light.

it was rather strange when we walked passed each other. i wasn't super excited afterwards. hmm.. maybe we walked too close to each other le. strange. it's a really strange and somewat sad feeling.

wat shld i do tmr?