the past 2 weeks

prelims is in 3 weeks time.. everyone ard are like so mugging very hard...those gg to manan seems to be in good hands.. me? i feel like i've wasted the past 2 weeks. i cldn't concentrate on revision when i'm at home. but i cldn't stand another minute being in sch when there's no lessons. i dun wan to pon sch cos i noe there'll be smthg useful for the 'good' students who bother to turn up. i'm like so wasting my time... i need to get back on the right track. i miss the holidays before BT2... haix.. i can't organise my time well... i'm supposed to be a super good planner.. sux really bad... i have a feeling i'm being complacent cos my grades were decent for BT2. but i noe that BT2 doesn't include j1 work(for chem and math) which i totally sux at.. so, i'll be screwed for prelims if i dun buck up. then there's option topics which are like SO MUCH to study for but no little weightage.. argh

once again, i have yet to pass my 2.4... dun think i'll achieve my last yr's goal of getting silver.. will be happy enuf if i pass it..

went for rapture last nite.. have to admit that last yr's one is better than this yr's one.. i was expecting some 'grand' opening..but.. there wasn't any... jo was saying it's probably becos the venue was esplanade, that's why most of the dances were like contemporary... modern.. and not so much hip hop...the teachers' dance, though, were definitely much better than last yr... haha.. wif those stiff movements.. v funny, but i still 'pei fu' them for having time to practice despite all the work they need to do.. Still, i was pretty impressed with all the dances, dancers, and choreographers... xwei was like in most of the dance.. pro!

i'm getting my birkenstock tmr.yea!!!!

study study study.. gimme a break!

yesterday morning, she gave a lecture on how we shld be studying almost every waking moment of the day, and that we shldn't go town cos we're not j1s.(c'mon, i bet she's also telling the j1s not to go town cos of they prob didn't do well for ct). i'm like-GIVE ME A BREAK! made me feel soo guilty for watching pirates of the carribean aft that. bleh.

btw, the show is quite good.. esp johnny depp!!! he is such a wonderful amazing actor!!! wonder why i didn't notice that in the first movie...

bt2 results-GOOD! improvement in every subj [except for gp, which i was so close to failing.]
math-B
bio-B
chem-C
i almost got A for bio, but i shld be thankful i got a B. cos initially rumours were spreading that essay was badly done.. so.. ya,i'm happy i got a B... but,i'm kinda worried.. cos if i get these grades for bt2, that means i have to work extra extra hard to do even better for prelims(if not, maintain)... kinda pressurizing...

i wanna go shopping!!! (only less than 2 wks to end of GSS)
i wanna buy more accesories to make my earrings!!!
i wanna buy the germany jersey...(shld i buy?shld i buy?)

i wanna do all of these, and still be able to have the time and moltivation to study.. i hate option topics.. so much to study...

all out!

germany is out. late 2 goals scored by italy. if they had sustained for another 2 min, victory wld have gone to the german team. sobs. all 3 of my fav teams are out.. shld have supported one more team... think i'll be rooting for italy tmr.. although i think france will win. nvm... more importantly, hope germany wins tonight's match against portugal.

this world cup has really been very entertaining and informative. as in, it's thru this world cup that made me start noticing players that have been ard but went unnoticed. well, that's becos i dun watch epl. maybe when the season starts, i'll start watching some of it..

bt2 results:
so far so good.. made improvements in math.. but not sure issit my effort that has paid off or that the paper was supposedly easy. as for chem, though i screwed up mcq, i still manage to get the grade i was aiming for.. left bio, can pass but dunno whether will get a good grade. i muz say, this bt2 results are prob my best since i came to jc. means that i'll have hope for my a levels.

another disappointment

andy roddick is out of wimbledon. only the 3rd round and he was defeated by this unseeded andy murray. so disappointing. this year has been really poor for roddick. it was bad enuf he lost to blake(andy has won him 6 times in previous 6 matches) in stella artois... wat's wrong wif roddick???

maritina hingis is out too.. and she was wearing this low cut outfit.. hmm... weird.. not safe i wld say..

:(

england:out!

this is my personal opinion. hope no one gets offended.. pls dun take it too seriously.

england vs portugal
the match started.. pretty alrite.. no one scored during the first half.
then second half, rooney got sent off, i think it's for pushing c.ronaldo.
so england down to 10men. but they still managed to hold on to the 0-0 draw until after extra time.
there was penalty.
3 out of 4 shots by england was saved by the gk.
portugal won by penalty kicks. 3-1

i was SO DISAPPOINTED... with these ppls:
1. rooney: trouble maker!!! cos the team to go down to 10 men. i dun understand why everyone's been saying he's such a great player.
2.the referee: red card for a slight push? issit really necessary?
3.the coach: that wateva formation with only one striker up front! totally not working.
4.frank lampard: i was feeling sad for him in the past matches, cos he had so many shots at goal, but none actually went in. but to lose the penalty kick? totally disappointing. i tot he's supposed to be the best player in epl???
5.steven gerrad: the moment i see him walking to shoot the penalty, i knew he would score. boy, was i wrong!!! and to think he has scored twice in the previous matches. it shld have been a piece of cake.

Yup, that's about all. whoever said england shld avoid penalty kicks, whoever is right.
however, i do wanna say that john terry had did a commendable job in defending goals against england. he's the only man i can say, in every match, helped 'save the day' at some point of time. he was tearing at the end.. poor guy.

Brazil is out. how unbelievable. i have yet to watch the match so i can't comment.

sobs.. i support 3 teams. 2 of them are out. i really hope germany wins it this time! *prays hard*

bt2 - done

bio paper was alrite.. except some of the questions.. i still think bio paper is the easiest among the 3 papers.. hope i get a D or C..

went to pizza hut and then watch the movei - just my luck.
the movie was quite alrite... very funny and lame at certain parts.. was quite surprised at the fact that they featured McFly... Was ok overall:)

they're gg thru the papers starting next week. so soon! haven't 'rest' enuf yet, and they're gg to shock us. bleh. hope i dun fare too badly.

can finally watch world cup at ease! yea! go germany, brazil, england!!!

world cup

yesterday's gp was ok.. but i think i might have interpret the que wrongly...eeks! but then, that's always how i felt after writing an essay.. hope i dun do too badly.

i'm addicted to the world cup. almost. i can't help thinking of the matches.. I want to watch them all! But i noe i can't afford to.. we were having a discussion yesterday abt doing badly for BT. i was saying, i have an excuse for doing badly, cos i've been watching the world cup... HAHA.. But i muz make it clear. I did study during the holidays

If i dun do well, hmm.. i dunno. something's wrong. i dun expect myself to do VERY WELL, but i wanna get a decent pass for all my subj.

Can't wait for BT to be over. got lots of shopping to be done. and lots of world cup matches to be watched..

btw, i'm supporting these 3 teams: england, germany, and brazil. yesh!

update on bt2

have been studying.. not sure whether it's effective. But i've definitely put in effort and alot of time.. This is the first hols i'm studying more than watching the tv. And these days, the only show i watch is world cup matches- esp those with cute guys! haha.. like aussie and england. England's match against T&T is the only match tt i watched from start to end. The rest, i juz watched a few min. The best part is when i'm there to watch the actual goal (not the replay)

ms ng told lj and cheryl the bt, they(maybe refering to ALL of us) shld be able to get 'B'
then mr yeo told us, that we shld all aim for a 'D'.
Meaning: Bio paper is doable.
Chem paper- need to study extra hard, to get above 50marks. -.-'''

I hope the math paper is of similar standard to the revision paper that the teacher gave.

I have my targets.. I hope to achieve them. More imptantly, i hope i can REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT I'VE LEARN.

post-aviva open

Aviva Open is over. OVER. Went to orchard to celebrate wm & lj's bdae. Was hoping to see Andrew Smith. Of course, we didn't see him, he's probably on his way back to england. Life goes on.

Watched So You Think You Can Dance. Winner is Nick. It was a great show, but i just wasted 1hr45min watching it.

Started doing work after the show. I was just stoning. Like, i've no idea wat exactly was i supposed to do. I'm so lagging behind the schedule that i made for myself last week. Think i'll do a new one. Anyways, I'm not sure if I still rmb wat i touched on last week.

I'm at THE STAGE again. The stage whereby i'm not sure what i'm doing and i dunno how to get things done. LIke, i still have 2 weeks(gd news), but ALOT OF TOPICS UNTOCHED(bad news).

I'm so pissed at myself. I juz can't find the moltivation. I have survived the past 10yrs of education, and i know i wil survive this one. The point is: Do i want to? NO. Do i need to? YES. And even if i survived this one, i dun think my grades will be fantastic.

Oh gosh, wat happened to me wanting to go to NYP for physiotherapy course? I'm losing it.. Totally losig it.

Someone save me. please.

I wonder how everyone else is coping... Probably better than me.

aviva open final

Peter Gade is the champion for aviva open men's singles! yea! He beat Kenneth Jonassen in straight sets.. Not very exciting, like kinda smooth for gade. The exciting match is the mixed doubles between england and indonesia. It was such a close fight between the 2 pairs.. And the spectators kept mimicking the sound that the indo guy makes when he smashes the shuttlecock.. woah.. the atmosphere... it's juz so exciting.. angie was like so 'ji dong' Then the funny part is that in the third set, when england was down 21-22(match pt for indo) then emms made a smash and the indo pair missed it. emms thought it was in and was like 'yes!'. then the indo pair turn ard and saw the shuttlecock was out, and "YES" And, yes, the indonesian pair won.. Superb! How embarrassing for emms to 'yes!' when they lost the match.. But it was really, the most exciting match out of the 5 finals. I think is the only match that went on to 3 sets..

Yup, so while watching (me, angie, sw, lj), some of us went to get autographs fr some of the players. angie ask the england pair to sign her ipod!! crazy girl.. then me and lj asked baochunlai(fr china) to sign.. he's like super fair(like xiaoming), i call him 'zhao bai'. ya, we heard that angie got his autograph but he seemed v 'dao'. He was juz sitting a few seats in front of us, so we walked down, asked him to sign on our pass, and he mumbled smthg like 'chen hong lai le mah?' i was like huh? lucky lj understood and replied tt we got his autograph a few days ago. then lj asked to take a pic wif him. So i held the camera, and i could see he's got super huge attitude problem la! he was like so not focused onto taking the photo, kept gazing elsewhere, being super impatient. MY GOSH! after i took the pic for lj, we went back to our seats. i cannot stand this guy! and lj is like 'he's cool' -.-'''

oh, then we asked this england player, andrew smith to sign our pass too.. he's like so poor thing.. he's out in the third rd. then he was seating a few seats behind gade and jonansen. cos, it was aft the men's finals match, then everyone was like rushing there to take pics wif gade.. then i noticed tt smith kept looking at gade and his fans taking photos wf him.. Smith looks like he's envious of him... SO, we went to ask for his autograph.. Afterall, both me and lj watched him played during our shift, so we do KNOW who he is..he seems nice, and CUTE. but i didn't take photo wif him(REGRETS!) cos it felt weird.. like everyone is taking wif the finalist, and here i am taking wif some unknown guy... haha.. Oh, then i didn't ask for jonansen's autograph and photo too.. he sat right in front of gade.. Then all the ppls wif pass rushed to gade, and jonassen seemed like he was being 'forgotten'.. Poor thing..(REGRETS!)

Well, i shld be happy. oh and peter gade changed back to this tee shirt that he wore when he took photo wif me on tue.. hehe.. and he TUCKED IN HIS SHIRT FULLY. i watched as he stuffed his shirt into his pants. i was like.. er.. weird. but he still looks gd.. juz that he's wearing grey shirt and grey pants.. Anyway, who cares?! He's the WINNER! and i have both his photo(taken wif me) and his autograph! I shldn't be sad... Nvm, can always ask to take photo wif smith and jonansen next yr!! CAN' WAIT!

aviva open - quater finals

i wasn't planning to go for the quarter finals today. then lj msg me in the noon and ask me if i wanted to. i was thinking 'peter gade vs ronald susilo, shld be quite exciting.. i wanna watch both of them play'. But then again, i thought it would be a waste of time, cos the travelling time is pretty long.. and i haven't study anything in the day yet.. so, in the end, after much contemplation, i decided 'no, i'm not gg, it's a waste of time, and i need to be studying'.

So, i took a nap at 3 plus, woke up at 5 plus, and wanted to go jogging. But it rained, so i juz sat in the living room, munching on the koko krunch, while staring at the tv set. I was watching Holland V, then dinner was ready, so i went to eat. I look at the time '530.. match will begin in 2 hrs..wonder how it'll be..'. Finally, i made the decision, 'I WANT TO GO WATCH THE MATCH!' I msged lj, she was on her way home. Luckily, she was still up for it. So, we met at 7 at kallang, and rushed to the stadium.

Just in time for the match, walked thru the entrance, and walked past peter gade.. hehe.. There was quite alot of spectators, most of them were there to support ronald susilo. We set at the line judges area.. So the match began. Everytime ronald scored a point, the spectators will ALL CLAP VERY LOUDLY. then if peter gade scores, can only hear some applause, and my extreme loud clapping.(I'm on peter's side!! Go PETER!) yup, thankfully, and rightfully, peter gade won, in straight sets,(he almost lost the first). 21-19, 21-16.. yea!

Oh, while i was busy watching the match, lj was watching the one gg on in court 5, which was china's chen hong vs this tall and gd looking Malaysian. It took chenhong 3 sets before he won the match..

After that, i heard fr a fren that the bus comes hourly, so i wanted to go outside and wait for gade to get his autograph. So ard 840, we left the court area. (before that we let chen hong sign on our pass, but according to him, my marker was not very good :S) ya, so, then we opened the door, and THERE HE WAS!!! PETER GADE!!! and his IBA coach.. they were walking towards us, so we were like, 'yea'!!!! There was this uncle behind them, asked gade to sign on his shirt. So, we juz like waited, and then we asked him to sign my 2 photos and lj's pass.. then me and lj were like 'thank you thank you!' And gade replied 'welcome welcome' So sweet!!!

yea! so i got a photo wif him and his autograph.. woah, that's cool man, i shld do that for the other sports events in the future. Oh there was this cute orange shirt guy whom mel, sw, sheena, and another fren was so crazy over wif. but they didn't manage to get his pic. (this is the guy whom sheena and mel thought were peter gade) I didn't really look closely at his face, so can't give my comments yet. From far, looks average lor.. It's ok, maybe we'll take a photo wif him aft the finals on sun. *prays hard that gade gets into finals and wins the aviva open* woah, then liddat i'd be one of the few ppls who have his autograph and picture and have contact wif him.. hehe..

mood :over the moon

aviva open rnd 3

It started quite bad, cos when i took over amanda's shift, she was pretty pissed off.Apparently, she got ignored and even scolded by some players and the ic... Thankfully, my shift went on pretty smoothly.. Yes, there were players who exit by the entrance, but then i did do my job, so it's not my fault, and it's understandable tt they'd exit by the entrance when it's like a few metres away..

There were a couple of exciting matches. Like the indonesia men's doubles.. they were against england. The indonesians played v well! I was so impressed, and one was them was tall and cute(like mario ancic), but they lost in the end :( The england pair, on the other hand, seemed old and stiff.. I've no idea how they won.. But they are seeded playes, so maybe that's why.

Then there was peter gade against chenyu. First set was pretty smooth for gade. Then the second one was not so, cos chenyu wanted make a comeback.. it was super tight! And gade got pissed when the line judges said that the shuttlecock was in instead of out.. Ya, he was really pissed, he threw the shuttlecock to the service judge fr then on(usually, players who wanna change it wld walk over there wif the shuttlecocks on their racket face). Yup, so chenyu won the 2nd, very close, like 24-22. Then came the third set. Woah! Peter gade was like so "i want it badly' He smacked at any opp that came.. So he was like leading 16-8, then somehow afterwards, he kept smashing the shuttlecocks out(like 2cm fr the line).. then it became something like 20-18, then 20-19. But he managed to win the match, i think it was 22-20.. PHEW!

Ronald Susilo won his third rnd match too, and will be up against Peter Gade tonite!!! [oh, and i juz found out his birthday was yesterday! damn! me and lj didn't wish him happy bdae when we met him in the room!] Yup, so, i think gade will win, he'd better win..

peter gade

Yea!!! i took photo with one of the world's finest badminton player - PETER GADE. Woohoo!! So delighted.. And he's gd-looking too.. hehe.

Sheena and mel saw him yesterday nite when he went for training.. But they didn't take the photo wif him cos he was wif a coach... Ya, then i was like so jealous tt they get to even see him.. And Sheena was like 'i'm gg to take photo wif him to make ur jealous!' Ha, and now, i've already taken the photo wif him!!!

So today started out wif us doing the same thing. sitting at the corner, then if need arise, we'll have to ask the players to exit after their match ends.. But most of the time, we were juz stoning there... And it was freaking cold. So, i was like shivering at the last hr out of 5.

Then after our shift ended, which means all the matches of the day have been played, it was time to switch shifts wif lj and angie, who were doing venue training officers.. I took a look at their schedule, and DENMARK WAS THE FIRST TEAM TO USE THE COURTS!!!! yea!!! yup, so we stayed on to wait for them to come.. We even go to the entrance to see them enter one by one.. then, Peter Gade came!!! Woohoo! they came in a big grp, so cldn't get a chance to take pics.. So, afterwards, the 4 of us juz sat at the tables and watch the players train... And i kept wondering when peter gade will be free and alone..


The moment came! He took a shirt and walked towards the toilet alone. SO amanda and i followed him(it's my idea to follow, amanda agreed reluctantly..) So we waited outside.. there was no one, so it was the perfect opportunity to take the pic. THEN, he came out. he didn't really notice us until i asked to a photo wif him. BUT he said ' sorry i gtg... do a interview, take wif u later"(smthg liddat.. cldn't really hear) I was like.. ok... Did i mention, my heart was pumping freaking hard before, during and after i spoke to him?!

So we walked back to the tables diasppointed [i recalled a england rugger saying that to me, but in the end left hurriedly before i cld even take the photo wif him].. stoned there.. and i tried to study bio... FINALLY, the time was up, the team had to go, so when he walked towards the entrance( near out table), we stood up and walked towards him.. He saw us, so he came over, put the bag down. AND WE TOOK THE PHOTO!!! individually... me and him, then amanda and him... I was so overjoyed.. He even like, bend down slightly to be closer to us.. haha.. sweet.. and he placed his arms on our back.. as wat a normal caucasian wld do..

But i realised i didn't really make any eye contact wif him.. i was juz so happy the photo was captured on my cam.. haha.. Ya.. so yea!!! happy me!!!

Actually, i didn't even noe who he was until a month ago, when amanda told me abt him. if fact amanda didn't even noe how he look like, cos it's her fren who was crazy over him.. But, I did my research, and watched a couple of matches between him and lindan.. so i do noe smthg abt him now...

Yea, i'm a happy girl again!!! I juz enjoy doing these sort of events.. but i wonder what other sports events do spore hold? it's like... not much.... but anyways, i'm glad i did this.. can't wait for next yr's spore sevens.. haha..

*hmpf*

beware: there's this predator out there. he's preying on us. he's creepy. beware of your actions and words.

Went to collect the tshirt and pass for the aviva open. They had to put our FACE on the pass!!! so clever.. but, i look totally hideous in tt pic. The green shirt reminds me of golf, esp tiger woods.

then i saw the schedule.. wasn't too pleased wif it.. i'm doing 2 days, 13 hrs only.. while some others are doing more... hiaz.. but it's not really their fault that they get to do more, afterall, it's the lady who made the arrangement. And really, i dun need that much cip hours liao(provided rina gives me my 13hrs of cip).. juz tt i put alot of effort(and money for all e msgs), and it didn't turn out to be wat i want.

my gosh! i feel dumb abt writing this.. well, that' s me. being the ever so calculative girl. wonder why i still fail math though.. haha...


Anyways, i'll be doing an extra day wif amanda.. hopefully, we'll get to take pics wif big stars like peter gade & ronald susilo... but chances are not so high.. cos the players are supposed to meet the media aft their match... (unlike ruggers who juz go and take a bath immediately aft the match). So, we'll see..

x3

x3 is not bad... especially the popcorn part.. haha.. i meant, i enjoy eating the popcorn... so tasty. yum yum.i dun usually eat popcorn during movies.. i think i'm addicted to it..
the show itself.. not bad.. except that some ppls have v little parts.. like cyclops:( then, that boy with wings, whom we all thought will have some major role, turns out to be juz another ordinary mutant... the climax part.. was alrite.. the show is too short!!!

yay!!! hols are finally here!!! can concentrate on revising for bt2.. however.. i'm worried i might not be revising my work in the most effecient method.. hmm... and then there's the GREAT SINGPORE SALE!!! so tempting!!!

MI 3

went to watch MI:III.. is pretty good... impressive.. but the plot abit.. expected.. ya.. then there were some quite ridiculous scenes... like:

1. the part where he flew fr from building to another.. (i tot it was a remake of spiderman la! it's so... very impossible!!! i guess that's the reason for the name of the movie. ..but still... he should go audition for spiderman 3 or smthg..)


2. this is the 'off' moment'. the part where ethan ask the wife to switch on the switch, and then he suddenly ' stop! ..... i love u'.!!! argh! like so outta place... it was such a crucial moment leh... and the way he said it is like.. very casual... ya.. quite funny tho.


3. following that, when we all tot he was dead, and the wife was doing CPR... couldn't wake him up... then we all tot he really die liao.. then the wife got so emotional, she started banging on his chest.. THEN, he suddenly woke up, sat straight and point the gun at this already dead guy... this part quite er.. 'not logical' abit fake.. hehe.. but i'm glad he didn't die.


overall, the movie is pretty good. i'd give 3.5stars.. i juz didn't really appreciate maggie q's acting.. no.. maybe the fact that she's asian.. sorry.. she looks really gorgeous tho.. and there's the other cute guy.. but the 3 other person in ethan's team seem to have v little show time.. ya, the action part pretty impressive..


ok.. after this, i hope to watch posiedon and x3..

sian.

yesterday's weather was very good.. very cooling.. however, i still failed the 2.4 test.. felt so bad.. cos cheryl ran with me too.. wasted her effort.. so sorry...

then, during chem spa, i made a utterly stupid mistake.. i wrote alcohol first instead of aldehyde.... so dumb la!!! this is the outcome of PURE MEMORISING!!! rah!


then there was this discussion abt the ymca proposal.. we all got very pissed off with tc.. i dun want to talk abt it anymore.. he's juz such as asshole sucker.


the nicest part of the day was the band concert.. it was super good!!! not only were the music, there were great visual effects too!! like the cute surong!!! haha.. she so cute la!! and i was impressed with that jeremy tay guy.. he played euphonium so well... so sweet of him to dedicate the song to his mum... too bad yihui wasn't there to watch him.. oh, then there was the gd-looking saint's alumni guy, benjamin yeo.. looked like a matured version of surong's peanut.. haha.. but benjamin is so much better looking... :)

deep shit.

we're in! (happy and sad) we're in deep shit(sad)

we're selected to carry out our proposal for the YMCA-Citibank youthforcauses.

i'm speechless, overwhelmed with mixed feelings.
huixin is very upset and stressed out in the super dramatised form..
Aiping & Shiying are both juz.. shocked


our proposal really sux. really. look at the budget plan, it doesn't make sense at all.. it's so amateurish... [my heart is still pumping pretty hard]


things can really go outta hand.. bio spa aside, i still have to commit 4 days of cip at aviva open(that i'm interested) but now that there's this stupid.. [it's been so long since i last use the F word] so Fked up... i'm really.. in deep shit


initially, it was my (stupid) plan to juz ANYHOW write a proposal and hand in, so that our testimonial will look ok(at least we participated in smthg)... we weren't expecting to get in.. afterall, the proposal really sux. it's totally my fault. i'm sorry.


if we're j1s or j3s, i certainly dun mind carrying it out.. but j2s! i juz got back our report card.. not fantastic.. consistent, according to ms soh ( but i think it's more like consistently bad). i'm supposed to spend more time on studies la... at this rate. my testimonial will look fantastic.. and my grades? HORRENDOUS.


good luck to me..

confusion

went for the health care tok on fri.. there was 2 toks abt pharmacy and lab med, whic i felt were TOTALL BORING. not the speakers, (although they were) but the career itself.. eeks! besides, i wldn't have the grades to get there (sa only had 6 ppls gg to pharmacy in 2004) ya, finally the last speaker came on to tok abt physiotherapy.. i think it's really quite interesting lor.. it's not like the job requires much of those chemistry and complicated stuff.. i mean, the body is complicated.. but i'd rather work on helping people than researching on some new drug... i noe, i may not appear as the super sociable kinda person.. but i feel that i would wanna have a career that allows me to interact with people, rather than being in the lab!


ya, e speaker informed us of the routes to that physio. includes gg nyp(the only local option) for 3 years to get diploma before converting to a degree which takes 1 yr, either overseas or local. there's a scholarship too!! my gosh!!! i want! for speech therapy, which i was also kinda keen.. there are NO LOCAL institutions, so MUZ go overseas.. (no way).. THEN, the most shocking part(worrying, actually), is that she say the the competition for the course is pretty stiff.. 50 outta 200!!! i was like, jaw totally dropped! at that moment, i tot, there is absolutely no way i can make it there. no way. and then i was like, shit.. if i dun take physio, what am i gonna do?? oh no!!! i'm so freaking worried and disappointed and rejected...


how how? on the way back, angeline and i were like saying, we shld study very hard, so we could both get into the course.. i'm like.. er... 'if u get in, i can't get it liao.' oh sshit. how?! if i really wanna get into the course, i'd have to really STUDY VERY HARD!!!


but then again.. what if i dun like it? wat if i get into nyp and then realise that i dun like physio.. wat am i gg to do?? 4 years leh! i dun wanna waste my life away studying for smthg i;m not interested in. personally, i dun think we shld juz 'see what our grades are first'.. i think at this stage, if we each know the direction we wanna go, studying for the rest of the year will be so much 'easier' cos we'll keep our purpose in mind and not give up until we reach that goal.


it is very impt that i figure if phsyio is the path that i wanna take... hmm.. i'm so confused... then again, if i really want physio, can i get the grades? i'm soo freaking dejected now.. only abt 10 weeks to bt 2.



bio spa sux!!

bleh.

the sch say they'll do smthg abt our pw grades.. hopefully they'll review how our stuff are graded, and regrade it, so tt they'll give a more 'deserving' grade.. and they did gave a good reason for their 'slow' response- saying it's becos of the long weekend break. ok fine. i'll see what they do...


went for blood donation today.. had a full meal at 1 plus.. then waited for ping til 3.15.. surprisingly, there were alot of ppls at the bloodbank today.. alot of male workers... ya, so i was kinda nervous abt whether i'll faint.. cos i DID felt dizzy and faint the last time i donated blood... so, the first 'injection' the staple shot - was actually quite painful... i was like... ouch! ok, not so loud la.. then went into the room... waited for quite long, before the nurse came to help me.. and the first anticeptic(i can't spell!) shot was also quite painful... i was supposed to relax the stressball, but i still squeeze it, then i saw that the vein(or wateva) kinda swelled.. hurhur..eeks! then afterwards, she inserted the needle.. also abit pain, cos she seem to have forced it in more.. aiyoyo..

overall: PAIN


after the donation, immediately after e nurse took out the needle, my heart started pumping really hard, and ONCE AGAIN, i felt dizzy!!! it was so argh! headache, cold sweat breaking out(due to low blood pressure, NOT the hotness). i was thinking to myself : I AM SO NOT DONATING BLOOD EVER AGAIN! ya.. the nurses came over.. the doc came over... fanned me, gave me drink... ya.. made me feel better... then the nurse say, 'next time u come, tell the nurses to give me a smaller pack for donation...so, u dun really have to stop donating blood, juz donate lesser'. that makes sense.. and so i felt.. ok maybe i'll give it ANOTHER shot.


then i stood up, and walked to the cafe. surprising i was feeling OK.. very good. no dizziness.. i could get my own refreshments w/out feeling dizzy... and i took a BUS home!! haha...i wanted to take cab, but all hired... and ya, i didn't faint on the way.. i felt normal...


so, overall, it was good and bad.. bad, becos my dizziness was immediately after the needle was pulled out(the first donation, i still have time to tok to ping before i felt dizzy).. the good thing, i recovered very much faster from my dizzy spells.. haha...


i'm starting to rethink abt the 50 donations... BUT i'm willing to give it another shot...

feeling the heat already.

rahhh... juz started doing the math revision hw for those who've failed bt1... i can't do!!! i feel so useless... i juz can't rmb stuff... it's mid april liao... next week is gonna be super busy.. got napfa, chem test, LOTS OF ASSIGNMENTS to be handed in, 4 shifts of cip, tuition... my gosh... THIS is wat JC LIFE IS ABOUT.. except that i lack a proper cca(which i replaced it with cip).. then, i still need to train for 2.4, cos i hope to pass at the end of the month(which seems abit too fast, now that i look at my fully packed schedule- it means i only have a week left)


block test 1 results were horrible even though i sounded relieved at my previous entry.. i'm really at a loss as to what i can do... so much to study. so little time... 18 years old... it means i've been in the edu system for like 11 years!!! my gosh... suffered so much... i wish i could juz end it at As... unfortunately, in such a MERITOCRATIC country like spore.. As will get me NOWHERE.. and it's not like my As result will be fantastic anyway... wat to do?!


yh told me she may be gg for overseas studies... i'm so envious... if only my folks were WEALTHY... (i'm contented with what i have liao, tho..)


i'm at this phase again-i'm really clueless... i dun wanna study for the sake of studying... i need an aim... but like what yh says, reality is more than often different from what we really want... studying marine animals is what i'm interested, but my grades and financial status are saying 'impossible. be realistic'.


hmm.. it's 9 now.. i shld prob snap back to reality - finish up my hw.. go to bed... and hmm.. stop thinking abt pw and start dreaming of jeff wong!

argh!

yesterday, we went to get our pw results.. i was telling shuwei that i'm expecting a 3 cos ms soh already said our class did badly. and yup, i was rite, the whole class except deb got a 3. i was feeling ok abt it lah.. 60% of the sch got 3.. so, maybe we really screwed up.. "MOVE ON", i told myself.

last nite, i went for dinner with ap, wl, simin, yh, des, xinyi. i asked abt their results.. and they were like mostly 2 except dunno who get 1.. and i was like!!!!! what the hell?!?!?! ok, i dun tok abt jj and pj. but, ap, wl, sy and yh all got a 2!!!! no offense to them... but if they got a 2, shldn't i get a 2 too?!!! afterall, fr wat i heard fr them, for each component of their work, it seems like there's alot of mistakes even up till they hand up the last draft... and mine is like, most requirements were fulfilled... so why issit i get a 3???? i dun usually make this sort of statements, but i seriously feel that I DESERVE BETTER THAN A 3! like, c'mon, i did 5 PIs leh!!! some of the others did like only 2 at most?! and ms soh was definitely pleased with my final PI draft... and for the rest of the components, i did until the comments given were satisfactory before i hand in. so i was really pissed with this shit result.


today is my bdae.. i didn't wanna tok abt pw... if fact i was fine with my results UNTIL i heard the other ppls.. i'm so ARGH!!! my class got a 3.... 28 outta 29!!! like, isn't it WEIRD???? how's that possible??? if like one third got 2.. then ok , wateva. but 28 of us!!! and it's not like deb is the only one who's eng is gd.. other ppls like jac and sw, their stuff always got praised in class.. what happend???!!! IN MY OPINION, there is seriously something WRONG with the TEACHER!!! whoever that teacher is.. my goodness, can't she/he like rechecked everything if she realised the whole class 3s??!! it makes no sense at all... it's NOT FAIR! if they wanna make it fair, get cambridge to grade us instead! that i'll have nothing to say!

and poor ms soh and gary and whoever in the class who blames themselves. it's none of our fault.. and it's definitely not ms soh's fault! in fact i think she did a wonderful job in explaining the requirements for each component, and she was so nice that she marked ALL of our drafts(there's alot cos everyone kept redoing in order to fulfill ALL the requirements) ... so i feel sad for her too... she did so much work, all of us did so much work too! and this is the kinda grades we get???!!! c'mon.. there muz be smthg wrong!


complain to the sch?! oh forget it!! all they gonna do is find some way and juz shut our mouths(like they always do).. it's so ARGH!




ANyWAY, now that i'm done shooting my mouth off.. i shall lighten things up.. first of all, i wanna thank my class ppls, angeline, lj, sw, cheryl, eve, mel, surong, sheena, jo, huixin, wm, amanda, for the cute pink/grey le coq sportif jacket they gave.. nice jacket, nice price... hehe:) and then there's the whole other gang : simin, ap, xinyi, yh, wl, des, for spending the nite, till 1130 with me at orchard... and the presents they gave.. thanks alot ppls!!! love u all!!!

...

today was supposed to be a good day.. there wasn't supposed to be any 2.4.. at least not for the few of us who didn't do 5 stations last week. so i was feeling pretty good.. no tummyaches in the morning...


so we had chem lect... i muz say - mdm lee is really a very effective lecturer.. .she may be very fierce at times.. and her voice can be quite sharp and loud.. but she can really drill the stuff into our head.. it's like, we dun really have a choice but to listen. hopefully she'll lect us more often... unlike for other lectures, like math.. i'm super easily distracted cos i dun understand, and the lecturer is so slow and soft, and she juz doesn't get things across...


anyway, the not so good part abt the day is pe. mr ho casually said that everyone will be running for 2.4.. so i was like.. hmm.. 'can't be.. i dun think so..'. then he got kun to lead us to doing warmup..at that time, it was pretty dark, and looks like it was gg to rain anytime soon. so i kept praying it will rain, so we no need to run. Next, someone ask him 'are we all doing 2.4 today?' and he was like 'didn't i say already? we are all doing 2.4 today!' oh shit!!! what the hell?!?!?! i'm so not prepared.. he blew the whistle. and off everyone went... no choice lor.. juz run... and i was praying so hard that it will NOT rain.. cos it'll affect my running... in the end, it did rain.. not v heavily, but my glasses were covered with raindrops, and i felt as though i was crying, when it's juz the rain drops. yup, so i took 18.24min.. fail, but still an improvement from my 19.50 in my first trial... so it's ok.. i'm alrite.. actually, i kinda predicted my timing... it's gg according to my plan.. so HOPEFULLY, i'll get a better timing at end of the month.. maybe bronze... that's my aim anyway...


yup... that's abt all that happened today.. anyway, i juz realised that i was actually the one who asked jeff wong to take a pic.. hehe!! and before that, on day 1, i our eyes met a couple of timess when he was getting ready for the match!!! yea! ya.. he looks super cool in his tight jersey, and super cute in his casual attire.. (sigh) i juz can't stop thinking abt him..

standard chartered singapore sevens

okok.. i'm so happy!!!! i've got loads to tell..ok, went to do cip at national stadium for the standard chartered spore sevens.


on fri-briefing/dryrun = blah blah... we were late...(i was rite abt the timing tho..hehe).. so, were were told our duty was to bring the teams to their holding rm before their game starts.. simple. btw, we also saw ronald susilo running, on the outer perimeter in the stadium.. oh, and we all spotted this cute guy whom we all agree is cute.. (according to eve, she caught hime staring at her 3 times. hmm...)


sat= got our teeshirts.. dryfit x2. so we started.. the canadian team was early.. they were warming up, rite in front of the voluteers(us).. and i saw this cute part where they lift each other by their butt!! so cute!!! i got it on video!!! haha.. yup, china was early too.. and then the rest of the 16 teams start streaming in..

so, i was in charge of these few teams on sat - scotland(nice coach, we tok abt the weather).they quite auto.., i haven't say anything then they move to holding rm liao... that's not the same for korea, and japan tho.. can't even communicate w the ppls... ya.. so.. while i was outside the holding rm, ALOT of players passed by... and i was juz like.. trying not to make it obvious that i'm look at them.. some of them even wrapped in towels and then come out of changing rm.. so embarrassing!(for me!).. haha.. but i saw that they actually wore smthg inside.. yup.. so that's abt wat we did.. during our break, we also went up the grandstand to watch the games.. ok, so at the end of the day, we were all sitting at the volunteers area.. watching the players sign autographs for the ppls... and i wanted to take photos w them!!! but i was SO SHY!!! i didn't dare too... ya... so many cute and gorgeous hunks! AAAHHHH!!!! there's this canadian one, the hongkong no.9!!!! er... ya.. can't rmb liao... but the hongkong one was the main one, cos he's so extremely cute... he pass by me like a couple times!!! (sigh.) ya.. so basically.. tt day i was super exhausted.. and very upset and disappointed at myself for not taking any photos WITH the players.. ( i did took photos OF them... )


sun= bad start! the ic was like.. 'today is gonna be v impt.. we're gg to cut down on the no. of volunteers.. if u're not needed, go up to the gallery and watch the math.. and DON"T take photos with the players cos their matches will be very tight..(blah)'. ya, so i was super sad and down when i know i can't take photos with them... argh! and then during noon, we heard that mel and eve took pics with one player! i was so jealous!!!!

BUT THEN, at ard 4 plus 5... somehow, i went to look for eve and wenmin, who were hiding out at the holding rm area.. and i reluctantly yet excitedly stayed.. (cos when i enter, i heard the ic scolding some guy) ya..so we waited.. and finally! i took photos with some of the guys.. a few only la... eve and wenmin took with almost everyone who were not getting ready for the match.. ya.. but i wasn't sure of their name.. and i cldn't rmb their faces.. so there was 1 guy, who we took with, and i almost wanted to take with him again! hahaha..


then afterwards, we went for dinner.. the best meal so far.. cos everything was WARM. ya.. at that time, i was like.. still hoping to take pic with hongkong no.9. his name is jeff wong. but by the time we went back, i didnt see him liao.. we went to the carpark.. thankfully hongkong's bus was still there.. i wanted to stake out there one.. but eve wanted to watch the finals between england and fiji(fiji won). so AT THE END of everything.. we were like all looking for players to take photos with.. (we=me, wenmin and eve) security was prett tight.. but we still managed to get a couple of photos.. thankfully, the ic wasn't at that area where all the players were... [oh, there was this england player who DIDN"T take photo with me, he says to do so after the match, but in the end, no time, and i only saw him wrapped in a towel, and walked to the bus:(]


ya, SO, we were all waiting at the area, waiting to take pics with the england players.. and the next thing i knew - jeff wong!!!! woohoo!!! he walked out with a couple of frens..playfully hitting one another... i hurriedly nudged at wenmin... and i took a photo with jeff wong! yay! at first i tot wenmin was too fast, cos i saw the flash before i was standing next to him, but then went i got into position, he placed his arm ard my back, and i manage to nudge closer to him(eeks, i juz rmb my face was super oily! haha.. hope he didn't feel that) yay!! i was so happy la!! And after that, he smiled at me and said 'cheers!' my gosh!!! AAHHH!!! So cute!!!!! [He's on my display pic, ya.. he's abit short.. in fact, one of the shortest players.. but he's extremely cute please!!!!! I can feel his bubbliness and friendliess and everything!!! ]


yup, so tat was the main part... all in all, I took 5 solo shots with the players... ok lah.. although I didn't take with that Canadian and new Zealand players..nvm... I've got JEFF!!! Hoots!



So that's basically all.. I was so freaking happy the whole way home.. when I reach home, I cldn't sleep at all!!!! Cos I juz cldn't stop smiling and thinking of jeff… (sigh.) I think I finally fell asleep at 1 plus and somehow I woke up way before the alarm clock rang(at ard 5.30) and yes, I was smiling!
Oh my.. I'm juz so crazy over him rite now.. he's like my latest obsession.. oh my gosh!!! I love jeff!!!


random stuff- 1)i saw a player's naked butt!!! not on purpose!!!! they didn't close the door.. and i juz happened to glance in.. and there it was.. hmm.. so embarrassing.. lucky no one saw me seeing his butt... 2)alot of players from fiji and england juz wrapped a towel around their waist and walked to their bus at the end of the day.. 3) the england player i wanted to take with looks ABIT like andy roddick.. aiya.. i really can't rmb...


overall= an experience i'll always rmb!!! esp jeff wong!!!

Unbelievable!!!! woohoo!!!

i've got so many good news!!! i dunno where to start from!!! haha...

let's start from.. bio. okay, so for the bt1, i've got F for math and E for chem. so i tot i'm basically a goner and will have to meet parents cos there's no way i can get a B for bio to get 30 pts overall.. so.. (this part abit kiddish... will sound like a 3yr old being praised for getting the abc right. but i insist on writing cos it juz made my day).. Yup, so, ms ng was gg thru the mcq, then she was asking which statement was incorrect.. so there were 4 statements rite.. she asked me the first which i couldn't ans.. and then she asked the class abt the 3rd statement, which no one ansed.. and she said 'hmm, let me see who did well for the cardiac cycle'. so she looked at her list, looking at the bottom few,(thinking it cld be liyuan), then looked from the top, and then she said 'joyce, it's you again.' woohoo!!! it meant i did well for the que!! i was so overjoyed.. haha.. but i was thinking.. maybe it's only that part of the que... okay.. then she return the structured which i failed.. but still managed to pass if i add it up wif the mcq marks.. THEN she returned the essay part... and i got 15.5 for one of the que!!! haha.. i was so happy.. i calculated and found out i got a C..(which deb considered as anti-climax cos ms ng made it sound as tho i did excellent.. ).. anyway.. i'm happy.. cos i got the highest for tt particular que... (see, i told u.. i sound so immaturish as i write this sort of pri sch stuff... can tell how depressed i've been.. so anything, no matter how small, that makes me happy..has made me happy!).. ya, so at that pt, i got a overall of 25 pts.. C E F


then came to gp. i wasn't sure what i'd get.. esp for compre.. cos eve said mr pang didn't like those with long ans, and mine were pretty long.. so i was kinda worried.. ya.. so for compo, i got 28.. and shuwei got 30(highest), and she was saying before tt in the toilet, that she may not do so well.. bleh. ya.. then ms soh give out the compre.. according to marks. starting fr the highest.. so she was like ' cheryl(yip), vic.. .. joyce! you also!!' i was like - so shocked !!! and can hear that the class is shocked & surprised too.. cos they were ''woah!!!" quite loud.. ya.. everyone including me, were surprised... i got a 32(+1)..so happy:) yup, so that was a B4. which means 5pts.


so overall, i got 30 pts!!!! on the dot.. dun have to meet parents!!! my goodness... i can't believe.. this has happened 3 times!!! i was juz so close to failing to meet the 30 pts, since CT1, and promos(which i failed if not for the small tests here and there) and now the BT1!!!! i really dunno how it happend!!! i juz feel so overjoyed rite now.. it's like some sort of miracle.. hmm.. maybe there's some guardian angel out there looking out for me... either that or i shld have more confidence in myself.


i noe i noe.. 30 pts! can't even make it into any uni lah.. but still.. i managed to do better than what i've predicted.. phew.. i feel like the luckiest girl on earth!


so that was happy event no. 2. after that, me, sy, and aiping.. we were deciding to go to TOUCH community.. to ask for the stamp for our proposal.. but we made a call first.. the ic wasn't available until after ard 4.. so, me and sy decided to make a trip to mac first.. and see how it goes.. at ard 4 plus.. we called sharon, the ic, but to no avil.. so sy called may tan(another person) and asked for the email add of sharon. but then maytan said sharon was back but she's juz on the phone.. so, she asked for my no. instead.. so, i was v. worried and.. at a loss.. cos i scared when she calls me, i may not know how to tell her abt our proposal... then 5 min later, sharon called back.. and since we were in the area and she was free, we went to the office to meet her.. me and sy were like so nervous!!! sy had wanted to leave, after giving my no.. but luckily sharon called back before sy had time to go..

so.. we met her! so, at first we were waiting at a office.. then both of us were like.. oh no.. oh shit.. how how??? then i was like.. 'calm down.. treat this as a learning experience.. we're amateurs.. but it'll do good for our future..'
so sharon came in, and she's actually quite a nice lady.. she explained to us abt how the Touch com operates and stuff.. so.. at first it was kinda long.. and i was wondering when she'll look at our proposal.. finally.. ard 20min later, she allowed me a chance to present.. i was not v good.. but i managed to get the idea across... and she seems okay wif it.. she added a few stuff tt we cld add on to.. and then she said.. "okay, so can you'all fill up this form? while i go get the stamp." i was like?!!! that's it??!! ohmygosh!! so easy!!!! i was so happy and on top of the moon, sun and wateva!! it was really an easy deal.. and sharon was such a nice person.. like ms soh.. cos at first, i tot these ppls wld be v strict and diff to handle.. but then it turn out okay.. phew! so, we got the stamp!!!! yea!! and we were so worried that we wldn't even get a stamp and then we won't be able to submit to ymca.. but now that that's done.. all we have to worry is whether we'll get selected or not.. i am super anxious.. cos on one hand , i'm afraid it might take up alot of our time, but then since we were able to get the stamp, it feels like we shld do something in return for the favour they have done for us.. and at the end of the session sy was saying she was feeling cold all the way(nervouse).. only to find out that i was my skin was colder than hers.. haha tt means i was more nervous than her..


so.. that's everything that happened today! so happy... i dunno wat to say.. hahahahhaha yea!

bleh.

while i'm blogging now, i'm so envious of my frens who are lunching at nydc.. i so looked forward to this day... but i got cramps... so suai... tummy aching...

the past few days were tortourous... this morning i got tummy ache, and i tot was stress... so i was like: ok, calm down. dun worry too much.. fail then fail.. I WILL BUCK UP. yes.. so rite before the paper, i went to toilet and realise IT'S HERE... what are the chances? i know it will come, but RIGHT BEFORE THE START OF THE PAPER?? well, at least i was in sch, so i didn't really have a choice of whether to take the paper or not. if i were at home, i think i'd have pon the paper... the paper was like, wat ms ng said, doable. i cld't ans 7 marks worth of que.. mcq was ok, cos quite a few came from tys which i thankfully did the nite before.. so, i think shld be can pass ..

as for chem and math.. >.< cannot make it... chem mcq maybe still can... but the rest... then for math.. so frustrating!!! first page still ok. then reach 2nd page, i know how to do the que but i juz couldn't get a proper value !!! then liddat more than 10 marks gone! the rest of the 2 que was almost 30 plus marks which i couldn't score at all!!! sure fail one lor.. argh!

now, all is over.. juz gotta wait for results.. but rite now, i think i'm moltivated to study even harder. YES I WILL!

ya, but still muz wait for my tummy aches goes away..

sick and stressed

1)this past week was really horrible... felt sick almost every morning... had to shit at home.. then go to sch/mrt and shit again... it's not the normal one.. it's like as though i stressed until i need to shit... argh! i think it's like history repeating itself.. back when i was sec 2, i often had tummyaches in the morning on the days when i have tests... then these stress related tummyache 'vanished' when i got into sec 3 cos i'm immuned to the difficulty of tests.. then now.. this past week had made me feel that i'm starting to get tummyaches due to my stress..

2)had 5 stations trial... phew.. thank goodness i pass for all.. but 2.4km.. haiz.. sure fail one.. i'll juz try my best can liao..

3)block test 1 coming up... but there's so much tutorials to do.. how to study?

4)amazing race is coming back!! woohoo!

cny

i'm actually done... no more visiting... all finished in one day... nothing much... cny is juz holiday... not much abt gathering wif relatives...


i shld probably delete hers... makes me feel weird when i see those stuff... i shall move on!


federer won!!!! woohoo!!! haha... marcos lost... hahahahaha.. i feel so mean... but i'm juz so overjoyed tt he lost!!! u noe, i wldn't have hate him if he had not beaten roddick... anyways.. i'm so glad he lost... although i'd rather he lose to roddick than federer.. haha.. but still, good job federer!!!

sobs...'aussie open'

i am so sad... roddick lost the fourth round, to some unseeded guy... i missed the first 2 sets... but from the third set, i could tell his opponent(marcos b.) was pretty good too... and i have no idea why roddick simply didn't go after any of his shots.. i think it's the distance prob...
moreover, marcos's supporters were so loud and noisy, like some tribe.. i think that kinda distracted roddick... he looks as though he was freaking out in the 4th set... i feel so sad for him.... but at the end, i think he was impressed wif his opponent too.. he said' well done, good job...'... haix.. i feel so sad for him...


then after the reporter tok to marcos... he asked him whether he'll be watching his next opponent's match or celebrating wif his supporters.. he say he'll sleep.. then, the reporter ask abt his girlfriend.. and then.. somehow.. it led to him saying his coach will be watching the match while he'll be sleeping.. wif his girlfriend... i was like... woah.. haha..ok.. ps: i hope he loses the next rd... muahahaha


well, i juz finished changing my new year wish.. gonna replace the one on the board... cos i seem to have bad feelin abt.. *ahem*.. ya...


anyways.. there'll always be a winner and loser in a competition.. it's not like Roddick has never lost before.. but i'm sure he'll grow to be even stronger.. and hopefully he'll do better next time!

what a relieve...

was such a cold day ystday... somemore 3 hrs of lecture in the cold cc and lt. lucky i got bring jacket, but the hair on my legs were still standing...

yup, then after sch, went to mediacorp to support sheena!!! which i almost didn't make it cos i was such a glutton... ya.. ate at pastamania.. gulp down the minnestrone soup, then finished the baked rice, and had a slice of haiwaiian pizza, and like 2 strands of spagetti... ya.. so i was feeling damn bloated.... and sick.. couldn't burp which i desperately needed... ya.. lucky got huixin there to be my first aider.. so i felt better and decided to take taxi wif the rest to mediacorp...

then we squeezed our way thru the reception... waited in the oh-so-darn-stuffy place... my tummy was aching again... then FINALLY, they let us in... and led us.. only to make us wait at the carpark..(and we met the police and thief guy... the police only lah.) ya.. i was still not doing gd cos it was kinda hot there and i wanted to sit down..

FINALLY, they let us in... walked down like 6 flights of stairs before we entered the tv theartre. ya. so we, supporters of F1.. were supposed to sit at the extreme right, and those wif the posters were to sit rite in front... since i wasn't feeling well, and didn't want to sit in front, me, huixin, liyuan and gary ended up at the back sits... and ms soh, her bf and ms ng were at the very last row... ya, her bf is so tall, one head taller than ms soh.. quite cute... but too fair liao.. haha


thankfully, the moment i sat down.. i felt very much better.. no more pain.. ya.. so there was this 933 dj giving us instructions... asking the audiences to cheer...i tot our sch was well prepared... and then i saw the F2 fans were like.. woah! screaming.. and everyone had a poster their hand...
ya, we really paled in comparison...

ya.. so the show went on... saw the 2 hosts.. and realised junyang is awfully short... and he and sugi stood next to the M1... my gosh.. how embarrasing... both were one head shorter... funny lah...

ya.. sheena got in.. woohoo... the last 2 girls left were the ones with the loudest cheers... but still.. the least no. of votes... so in the end, the F2 got out... quite sad lah..



ya, my dad & mum were there to fetch me home.. how sweet(and surprising)... so, we reach home juz in time to watch the recording of the results show... ya, and i realise sheena really needs to practice her thankyou speech... sounds wrong..haha.. anyway, i'm juz glad she's in..

new sch, new year

have been 3 days at this sch... ok lah... wake up at 6am.. reach sch at ard 7.10... ya.. the sch is quite big... like a maze.. but i think i'm starting to figure out the routes.. lessons so far are pretty alrite... think i need to start revising the past yr's work cos i have absolutely no idea wat's gg on in class, esp the org cmpd part...


yup, then... PE.. on wed, we took height & weight... then i tot, dan ho will juz ask us to run a few rds and let us of... INSTEAD, he led us to run one rd around the track..then finish, i tot can rest.. INSTEAD, he continued to run behind the gallery... hmm.. maybe to drink water... NO. ran past half the 2 bball courts.. and which i tot will juz continue gg ard... THEN, he led us to run ard the buildings... yup.. i was the slowest... as usual... sad is kun and chao were supposed to run at the back.. so, ya, they have to hurry me to run which they sort of failed cos i cldn't go any faster to close the gap... [oops! sorry guys!] THEN... reach the track, 3min water break... hmm.... THEN... 'alrite, come to the track.. girls go first. 3rds, below 7min30 sec' ... yes, so we did it, boys juz after us... as usual, i was the slowest... (yawns..) ya.. took almost 11 min... horrible... last part, dan ho was pretty sweet, saying how he appreciated our effort... "Even the weakest is strong", glances at me when he said that.. ya... not sacarstic... quite encouraging... almost tot i'd tear... which i didn't.. so.. ok, DONE.



then today.. thu.. had PE at last period.. was hoping it would rain.. which it did for 3 times.. however, the very creative dan ho had his own way of doing PE... running ard the sch... within the buildings.. gg UP.. and DOWN... then UP... along the corridors.. then DOWN... total is 15 min.. but i think i took more than that... y, i tried to keep up with the front ppls... but only managed to do that for the first rd ard the sch...yup, once again kun & chao were asking me to run faster... i wanted to leh! but then, i tot, if i run to close up the gap, i'd have lost energy to continue... make sense rite?! ya.. but lucky they got pause to wait... although, by the time i reach their 'resting time' they would have continued running liao.. haha... anyway, he let us off early... WOOHOO! thank goodness... yup..



alrite.. overall.. ok... i will try harder next week... to keep up and run faster... *prays hard*.. haha...

end & beginning

ok. the year has come to an end liao... and i have to say, it was quite a horrible year.. academically wise... my grades are all like C or E or close to O... so jialat lah... next yr how to take a lvls??? actually, i think i've like wasted the past year... didn't really study... didn't really understand lectures.. didn't really complete my tutorials... the supposed only achievement of this past yr was that i pass my 2.4km run... w/out cheating... haha.. oh, and my first blood donation too.


But coming to a new sch and being in a new class, i have enjoyed the company of my new grp of friends - shuwei, cheryl, huixin, wenmin, angeline, limjie... & the flowergirls... of course, i haven't forgotten my sec sch frens... whom i still keep in touch with like simin, xiny, aiping, shiying, woeilin and yihui. and this past year was more about going out... wif frends.. enjoying their company... and juz living the moment... trying not to care about other stuff..


then came the dec hols... well spent, i would say. i'm not gonna complain how i've been slacking.. and not doing hw or revision...i would say i have slept for very long... replacing some of the hrs that i used for studying... and i have enjoyed watching all the tv shows... that i have missed while cooping myself in my room... and i haven't listen to any radio since the start of the hols... let's see, i'm gonna miss alot of shows.. such as: oprah! the nanny!(my favourite!), ch 8 drama like the current one - love concierge and the 3 lucky stars, ch 5 variety tv - ameria's next top model, [oh, and amazing race is coming soon! - this i muz watch]... and all the cable tv shows... oh, and i watched king kong (movie of the year!) and Oi! Sleeping Beauty! The wake up musical... which i loved & thoroughly enjoyed!!!


next yr a lvl liao... i really hope to do well.. cos my olvl grades was like no way here nor there.. and i really wanna do well... afterall., i need to enter uni... so my grades muz be very decent, if not excellent.. to get into my choice faculty... hmm.. wonder wat i'll choose... hopefully, a scholarship for overseas studies will juz drop upon me... hehe..

christmas @ cheryl's & the drama production

went to cheryl's hse to celebrate christmas wif wenmin, surong, mel, amanda and latecomer(as usual)- shuwei... yup. had pasta... (which i already ate in the morning) watched charlie and e choco factory. i dunno whether it was boring or that i juz felt like sleeping during the show... and the small man singing and dancing were eeky...

ya, then watched the rainbow connectn again... agrees wif the others that this show abit senseless and is not logical... abit diao lah.. then we exchanged presents... i got cheryl's homemade cookies and mine key pendant went to shuwei...


ok, went to watch the play ' oi! sleeping beauty! The WAKE UP Musical' it was a wonderful show... so funny... esp when they involved the audiences... like the part where the cat ask the audience to tell Dawn that he's not there. and then dawn asked the audience where is her cat. some kid actually shouted ' he's not there'!!! haha... then got the kiss and kill the princess part...


oh and there were these 2 irritating guys sitting behind me & yunle who laughed SO LOUD and so distinctly. according to sources, these 2 were the costume designers which explains their absence at the second half of the show.. oh, and they sang really well!! the Prince bin Charming and Dawn... oh, and we realized that there was a mike on dawn's forehead!! amazing...


overall, i loved the show!!!! i dun mind coming for their next production.. but it's quite ex... $30plus onwards... but it's really wonderful!!! support local productions!!!

cip & band fest.

1st- cip. have doine 3 shifts of cip... it's quite good lah... juz sell the booklets and funpacks for abt 1 hr plus.. and then give out the feedback form at the end of the show for another half hour... AND the total cip hours is actually 3.5 hrs!! ya.. cos when the show starts, there's not much for volunteers to do... so can juz slack... ok. so the more 'eventful' shift was sunday nite. wif wl and yl. we met ADRIAN PANG!!!! like O M G!!!! okok.. i noe.. it's adrian pang only... not like it's pierre png or zoe tay.. ya so.. he was wif his family, his kids.. but i didn't really see his wife... so. i wanted to approach him at like.5 min later to ask him to buy the stuff.. then the next thing i noe.. yl is like 4meters ahead, walking in his direction.. ARGH!!!! ya.. so he bought for her.. oh.. i think he's really sweet to his kids... they are like less than 5... maybe 4... and so he helped them to write their wishes... so cute lah... like he was kneeling down... his hand over his kid's hand... writing down the wish... sigh....
THEN we met ben soh and wl's fav teacher leonard ong... yup.. so they bought a pack from both of us..
THEN... during the interval... i saw adrian pang playing with his 2 kids... so sweet lah... at one corner where i almost missed him if not for yl... ya.. and it was only the 3 of them.. w/out the wife.. so i din ren xin to borrow him so that i cld take a photo wif him... sigh... ya.. and that was the last time i saw him. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

2nd - band fest. ok.. i hate to say this.. but this yr's band fest is kinda disappointing.. first is the starting of the first piece by the first band.. i was like... huh?? ok.. then the next thing is there were hardly any shuaige playing the percussion... i rmb the last time i went there were so many lah... but come to think abt it.. i was like sec 3 then watching jc ppls play.. but i'm now watching ppls of my age.. so maybe dun look as attractive... THE MOST IMPT PART - i saw the usher boy.. so cute! i swear i spotted him first whom yh disagrees. watever. didn't notice his name.. as usual... ya.. and during the interval, i asked yh to take his photo which she unskillfully... DID NOT.. nvm... so i practically spend the next half of the concert thinking abt him.. haha.. not really lah..i did listen to the music.. but the seats were really uncomfortable... so.. after the show, we came up.. but i noticed his was gone... hiaz.. ya. and then we met up wif simin and mr tay, who kept on toking abt aiping's sis..he siao one lor.. like some old che go pek(pervert).. BUT THEN FINALLY... i saw him again.. wif yh.. he had changed to his polo tee.. looking .. well not as cute as he was with the usher attire on.. haha.. and.. no chance to take his pic.. as usual... but again. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

so.. on the way home wif wl.. i was telling her i think i'm gg crazy cos of my craziness over the shuaige... first it's 'johnnie' then it's now usherboy.. i'm so huachi lor... i shld prob stop this kinda behaviour... so horrible... i'm gg nuts!!! and the worse is i still dun have their photos... eeks!!!

updates

okok... went to simin's hse warming.. woah... so many ppls lah... ya.. played twister with e same gang... sell my earrings... yea!!! thanks girls! not gg into details.
then.. watched harry potter.. was a great show!!! muahaha... can't wait to watch chicken little and king kong... woohoo!!!!
oh.. that camp and QPS.. was ok lah... made frens.. with the facils... and like 2 of the mentees... wouldn't say i'm the most interactive person on earth... ya.. enjoyed playing the games.. was glad that the 2 days went past pretty fast... and not to mention i had to run for ALL 4 of my bus in the 2 days.. can u believe it? lucky for me the bus wasn't as fast as i am... haha... so-not-true...
so rite now.. i'm juz slacking... and hoping to finish my hol assignments... and i can't wait to go shopping!!!!!!

er... abit diao..

went for job application today.. with des... we were told to fill up the application form.. then... later we gave it to his lady, prob the in-charge.. and then she started a little mini interview.. there and then. so she asked a few ques... i said a few words in reply.. and so did des... then, she concluded.. that i was v. nervous.. and said that she wld give the job to des rather then me... well.. i wld be lying if i said i didn't feel a tinge of regret for getting des to come along... BUT... i dun blame her... really.. even if she wasn't there.. i would still have like.. 'played wif my hand' i dun really agree wif the lady that i was extremely nervous... maybe a little.. i mean, who wouldn't be??? well.. i think des didn't get the job cos she's gg overseas... well.. she was nice to 'push' the job to me.. (thx!) but i guess... i wasn't ready for the job... honestly, if e person calls and say she'll give me a trial, i'd rather she didn't....

i guess i'm not ready yet... for this sorta thing... after this interview.. which is like a huge lesson learnt on the impt of body language.. i think i shld juz stay at home and mug for next yr's As.. haha... oh.. and maybe i shld read up on books that teaches 'how to score for your interviews'
which i did... after leaving the shop.. haha.. i think the most impt thing is the confidence level part... which i'm totally lacking.... hmm... it's ok... it like a ... 'what do u call that' in my face... but.. life goes on.... i guess more imptantly, i shld pick up on such skills so that i wld be ready to look for jobs after As and also to prepare for possible interviews for universities...

and to make matters worse.. i was on my way home.. waiting at the bus stop.. there's this mini van that passed by carrying malay ppls wearing their beautiful costumes.. and this idiot suddenly pointed his middle finger at me... i was like???!!!!! what the hell??? i didn't look ard .. but there wasn't anyone siting near me... and i think that guy was actually pointing at me... i'm juz so pissed lah... watever... dun wanna continue.. otherwise i kana sued for racist comments.

well.. i'll be gg to the library soon... to read up on these kinda stuff... not sure whether i'll still be gg for any work interviews... i juz hope that more ppls will buy earrings from me so that i can earn some extra money... worse come to worse.. i'll use my nets lor.. which i dun want to...

PS: i'm ok! maybe i shld be glad that i can have all the time in the world to properly manage my hols and well.. window shopping is good too.. a form of exercise...

$$$

i need money! first time leh... i mean, this has nv well, hardly happened to me before... like in sec sch... i have no money watsoever during the hols... i stay at home... go for band... which i get my $5 for every practice i attend... and that's it... i dun go out.. at all....

then.. juz this nov, my mum gave me $200 for god noes wat reason... and then i realise juz THE OTHER DAY, it's gone.. poof! gone... i so can't believe it.... what happened to me??? and i still have so many things tt i need to buy!!! *sobs*

so rite now.. i think i'm gonna need to go find job.... there's this one at citylink (next to num!) and it has flexible work schedule... so.. maybe i'll go try out for it... but i'm juz scared... like.. i dunno how to approach the person... dunno how to ask for an application for the job... i'm so absolutely clueless!!!! but i noe this is gonna be impt... i mean, eventually i'll have to go out there and WORK.... hiaz.... ok... i'll go take a look soon... hopefully the job is not taken up...

btw, ppls!!! listen up!!!! i have started to make my own earrings.. and they are for sale!!! pls purchase them... plsplsplsplspls.. i seriously need the cash... and its' freakin cheap... no where else.. ppls... u gotta buy my stuff... hehe....

happy

okok.. went for class outing at sentosa on mon... actually.. it's more like cliques' outing lah.. but it was really fun... er.. i didn't see any obvious jellyfishes... juz droplets of them, which according to the lifeguard can cause rashes... nope, surong, i dun think they are cute.... well, maybe alittle... ya.. so basically, i played frisbee wif amanda, lj and sw... watched the others build a ship from sand... suntanned at the brigde... luckily for me, i didn't get any darker... juz got my feet burnt... overall.. it was OK... at least i wasn't feeling miserable - like the first og outing... anyway.. it was fun!!! but i think i'd prefer to go cheryl's hse for any more of such outings...

bought my earring beads... but only 3 colours.. so currently they're all looking pink blue and white... i'm gg to buy more today!!! haha... i'm juz so happy doing these earrings... althought i think my designs are pretty not so-fabolous... but i juz like the process of making them.. hhehe... i'm so gonna be broke... i think i have money for one lunch and one movie for the rest of the hols... and NO.. i dun wanna work!!!! haix... everyone is so into working.... i juz wish i have a cash printer at home to print money for me to use.... (sigh) wldn't that be so good! the best invention of the century!!!! muahahahhaha.. yes.. fat hope.

still hanging on...

i am so gg to be broke... going*.. take a look
charm bracelet-$29.9
shorts - $40.8
flipflops-$26.9
dinner @ jack's place- $19.9
jc band fest- $11( haven't pay yet...)
actually.. not really lah.. but then u can see how ridiculously i spent my money.. and the holidays only JUZ STARTED... and i still got so many bags and tops tt i haven't buy!
my goodness...

anyway, yesterday went to jack's pl for dinner wif -aiping,wl, sy, simin, xinyi... sort of a post sy's bdae dinner... was quite fun... learnt that aiping got the letter to go ns in malaysia! so shock.. hope she can escape from it... otherwise... she's in trouble... started 845 plus.. i was so starving already.. then took photos at paragon.. well, with the xmas tree outside... was kinda fun.. felt reall great to hang out wif them.. too bad yh & des didn't come... well, there will be more of these times... esp after yh finishes wif out jap visit. oh, then the 5 of us sang bdae song for sy... it was the one person-one word bdae song. it was so funny lor...haha.. so sweet too!

i seriously have no idea how to do i&r.. i can't believe i did so well for the 2nd one and then i juz totally screwed up the third... and now i hve to come up with e final one.... argh!

ppls! xmas is coming!!!! yea!!! santa claus IS coming to TOWN!!!

(sigh!)

today went to buy havaianas... 'johnny' wasn't there... was kinda disappointed... cos tt time i came at the same day same time, and he was there.. but he wasn't today... i still buy the slippers though... and yes! they do wear name tag.. so... i'm gonna find out his name soon!! and why didn't i wait until he was serving me, then i buy the slippers? well, i can't wait.. mon gg sentosa.. then i dun think i'm gg out for the next few days.. so might as well buy lor...

then i saw him.. yes, the johnny guy... me and sw were on the way back to somerset mrt.. already in the mrt.. then.. cos there's like 2 distinct directn.. so we walked on the left.. and then i saw this really distinct guy.. he's tall, tanned.. looks extremely familiar.. and he was carrying the 'mum' bag..( which is supposed to be 'num' = newurbanmale) then. sw was like - 'issit?! him?!' and yadayada.. we shrieked for a awhile... sigh... so goodlooking... lucky we took note of the bag earlier at the shop... otherwise, i wouldn't have believed it was him... i mean, i haven't seen him for like the longest time.. haha..can't really recignise him....

yes.. then sw was like.. hiax.. if we've waited... but then i think it's alrite.. i mean, what are the chances u'll meet the guy who works in orchard at an mrt? i mean.. quite difficult lor.. so, now that i met him.. it's considered.. 'yuan fen'... fate.. hehe.. i am so unbelivably cheena.
i am juz over the moon... can't help smiling to myself at times.. hehe.. happpy!

oh.. and we went to cheryl's house... me, sw, surong, sheena, angeline.. and later amanda.. weate pizzas... made by cheryl! not bad.. actually got tomato inside.. i think it's good! then watch 40yrold virgin and some ghost show... then we played Life... was overall a great day!! haha.. can't wait to go there again... except for the not so nice ghost show.

inferno & op

Yay! Good guys won!! Haha.. only 3 guys and 1 girl in the good guys team.. and they won!!! Yes.. good will always prevail over the evil...i think the the bad asses lost prob cos they dun have teamwork.. and that there's 7 of them.. so.. haha... they sux... I'm happier at the fact that bad asses lost rather than good guys won.I think Jamie was lucky.. she didn't get picked into the inferno. I mean, all the girls in good guys who got picked all ended up gg home.. so .. lucky Jamie.. and I think the girls in bad assess are not really that fit..this triathlon is really all abt endurance and physical ability lor.. I think it's kinda boring.. and the riddle is so easy lah.juz figure out the age of the ppls who kana out from the inferno.. haix... $150,000. that's a whole lot of freaking money. if I had that .. I would.. haha.. I would do and buy a hell lot of stuff.
I like the show. juz watching ppls fooling ard.. getting competitive.. bitchy.. haha

op is finally over... the long awaited moment in my life.. but then.. i TOTALLY SCREW UP the q&a... i simply couldn't ans the que...i knew my ans was not the ans they are looking for.. but then i really dunno wat to say liao lor... then stupid me i go and mention OBS.. it's not OBS lah.. it's DBS.. then... i ARGH!! totally screw up.. i tot ben soh was v kind when he asked my to elaborate on my 'wrong' but according to him, 'interesting' point... but i also couldn't ans.. i juz simply repeated myself... *pukes*
but i think i did alrite for the presentation part.. alot of eye contact.. good.. i think.. i hope i can get a good ME... hehe.. *prays hard* but then the effectiveness of the presentation abit screw up lah.. cos sheena was like ' as shown in the chart' (points to the screen) but then the screen didn't have the chart.. it was kinda funny lah... haha.. but i think we did alrite... except my qna part... hiax.

now left i&r... hmm..if i can't do well for op, the least i cld do it score for the rest of the pw... and i need to start of holiday assignment liao.. esp math.. cos i'm having my first ever tuition this sat... i hope it helps...

yay!!!

i got a new handphone!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy!!! hahahahahahah... it's a samsung slide phone... not bad... quite small.. smaller than my 8250... lighter than my 8250.. got COLOUR!!! my goodness... i'm so amazed.. haha... i noe, i'm lagging... but it's juz that my phone had nv had colour for like the past 2 years... and everyone ard had colour phone.. i was so envious.. finally! it has a camera too... [ppls! i'm coming to take photos of all of u!!] haha... i feel like a country pumpkin... not that i didn't know that such functions exist.. it's juz that i've had my 8250 for too long... so long until i'm missing out on all the exciting functions of a colour-cam-mp3-phone.. did i mention mp3? yes i did! haha.. but i still dunno how to dl songs into the phone yet.. dun think it can store alot lah... but nvm..i'm juz overjoyed....
yes, i got a phone.. all thanks to my mum, who's in the Hub Club... some starhubs thingy.. haha.. so happy she decided to get me the phone... i hurried her to the shop last nite... otherwise i'd have to wait till wed... hehe.. i'm so happy... now, that's one thing off my wishlist... and 1 more to go...
oh gosh... haha... i feel like a little kid getting extremely happy over a new toy... muahahahah

yesterday's op went well... i was time keeping for amanda's grp.. and then.. when it reached xw's turn.. my heart was thumping really hard... haha.. i guess i was getting nervous.. cos their grp's presentation gg to end soon... which means it's my turn! THEN, since amanda's grp took an hour, by the time they finished, it's 845, and here comes to rest of the class... eeks! not fair, we have to present in front of the class while amanda's grp only presented in front of our grp.. ANYWAY.. my heart was still beating... but i managed to deliver my part of the presentation well...at least that's what the teachers said... good eye contact.. improvement from the last op... more confident... muahahahaha.. i feel so happy.. but i noe i was gg abit too fast... so i'll work on my pace... i think i've memorised my part.. cos before i sleep and when i juz woke up, i managed to say the speech w/out the cue cards. yay. however.. i still have to work on the q&a... which i was juz telling my grp, that i might as well juz give up... i mean, do well for the presentation.. then screw the qna so hopefully i can still get a gd ME.. hehe...

ppls! less than 2 more days left!!! woohoo!

forget it..

looking at photos juz sucked... really bad... I realise i'm nv gonna fit into their grp... oh well.. forget it... i guess it juz wasn't meant to be... it's ok...

a fren juz called.. someone who cares... i guess, i shld be juz be contented with who i have ard me now, and not force myself to fit into other grp of ppls that are juz way off my league... yup. i've made up my mind...

peace.

roddick, i love u!

my goodness, what a game... i din see the entire match... only started when the last set's score was like 5-4, ferrer leading.. whoa.. then it went on to 5-5, 6-6, then tiebreak..i was so nervous lah... that ferrer guy is good at his aces too... it was all so close.. i kept shrieking.. my dad was like me, not sure who's gonna win.. cos they keep ending up at a tie... then one of the last few, we tot roddick's ball was out, but it's actually in! [it was like a whack across the court that most likely is out], but then no one said anything.. anyway, i'm juz glad it's in... otherwise ferrer wld have won... and roddick won, with an ace as his match point.. woohoo! i love roddick! he got 17 aces, compared to the 12 aces that ferrer had... it was so close.. phew...

tinge of regret

i dunno how to say this...
i felt weird when i see the photos... i'm kinda jealous..well, not jealous jealous... but.. like regret jealous... (ok i dun make sense)... feel sad that i lost a bunch of frens juz liddat... i mean, i'm happy i still have my current groups of frens... but looking back... if i had been more... i dunno.. involved, i'd still be close to them... yes.. i miss them... not every single one.. but the other few... haiz.. not much i can really do now... hopefully i can meet up with them...
i'm juz really sad... 2 years of friendship... juz gone liddat... and it's all my fault...
i love u guys.. well, girls i mean...

update!

chi is over! yea! hope i get a B3 or better still, A. Went out with the a bunch of them... flowergirls, lj, angeline, hx, jo, cheryl & sw... was very happy... eating lamian... hey, it's cheaper when u share the food, u noe? haha... then we went orchard, in hope that the 'johnny' will be there... i was having such a headache on the bus... i think it's juz weird to have a bunch of girls juz gg there to see the guy.... haha.. fortunately, he wasn't there... phew!

mum hired a tutor for me... my cousin's bf.... heard he's smart... and doesn't make his tutees memorise stuff.... i hope it'll really help... gotta buck up this hols.... still got that stupid OP.... hiax... i also dunno how to practice.. juz noe that i have to be more confident...

this holiday is gonna be well-planned.... exercise. study. go out. haha... hope i won't waste my hols... next year is 'A's... so fast, huh? can't believe it... and i got promoted! haha... still feeling happy and shocked.. but i can't be complacent... next yr's goal is to do well, and have points good enuf for uni admission...

have fun ppls!

(sigh..) happy

haven't really been studying chi... more interested in watching tv... have been gg out... to orchard... buy this buy that... walk until my feet v pain.. but very HAPPY !!! went to buy the havainas... the guy is so cute!!! and v shuai! he's so polite too... greeting us when we went there... not like the other 'blur' guy that served us the previous time... this shuai-ge had a pimple.. but he looks so cute! esp when he smiled... showing his set of colgate white teeth! haha...

hiax... the slippers are nice... but not really worth so much leh... dun think i will buy.. but i will want to go that shop more often....

happy me!

huge sigh of RELIEVE

thank goodness!!!!!!!! i pass my promos... yes that = I AM PROMOTED TO J2...
if i didn't see wrongly...
my results will be something liddat:
Chem- 46 (E)
Math-46(E)
Bio -56(C)
GP- ard C5-B4
Chinese- B4

thank goodness... this is the overall marks.... i failed both chem and math papers... pretty badly... luckily for CA and CT... my marks are pulled up... so, moral of the story... study hard throughout your J1 year... u nv noe when u need the marks...

so, after this... my plan is to play hard and study even harder! i have a mission to be accomplished for next year: good grades and university admission...

faints

terrible... humiliating... disappointing...
today was maths paper... i fainted.
the wing was extremely strong... then my tummy started aching.
i went to the toilet.
then i walked back... feeling very sick.
when i saw the rest, i was ....
asked sy to walk me to the office which is like 7m away.
couldn't see where i was walking... juz kept walking....
suddenly. thud! i landed.. face flat... i think i saw deb, and i heard vic's voice. i realise, if my knee didn't hurt, i'd have laid down...
tried to get up... walk into the office... told the staff that i wasn't feeling well...
then image became blur.
DM and another staff held me as they walked me to the sick bay... i couldn't walk... well. hardly
i reached the bed. laid there...
a nice lady came to help me...
i was sick sick sick.
then after much dilemma, i decided to take the paper... at 10 plus
no surprise, i couldn't do it.. i tot 3 hrs was long... but it's not that long.. cos my brain was trying to function...
cried, cried, cried...

overall.. i did badly. the only paper i can confirm a pass is MT...
i'm so gonna get retained...
peace.
i'm feeling better now.

promos !

today is monday. tmr is tue which is bio spa. then wednesday. THEN THURSDAY !!! which is promos for chem and bio!!!! argh!!! and what am i doing online now.??? checking for protein synthesis animation... abit helpful.. as i've nv understood what it was toking about before...

stress....
can't wait for promos to be over.. so many things to do!!
can't wait to be promoted...
bless me.

peace

i took a 3hr nap today!!!!!! eeks! wasted so much time.. can't blame myself cos i slept at 1 plus 2, trying to complete tt stupid chi compo.

i seriously sux at math. can't do a simple que... much less difficult ques. how how how? few weeks left...

my dad brought alot of vcds and ps2 dvds today... can't wait to watch and play them...

i have this feeling i'm going to make it... but i'm still... like, not getting my facts in the head...
actually i think many of us will make it... oh gosh.. i'm so scared.. i'll be left out... i mean, i have got past so many major exams... doing badly, but nv failing.(except this CT's math).. haha.. can one, can one.. sure can one... jia you!

sept hols

phew... so fast.. another week of holiday has arrived... not sure whether to be happy or not... cos, it can be a week of relaxation, but also a week of mugging..... haha.. actually i think it's more relax than mugging... somehow i juz can't mug during the hols... this is evident from the past years of studying... hmm.. one week is really good... u see, i got CEO when i study the day before the ct.. so, if i study more than one week, i shld do really well rite, at least better than CEO... make sense doesn't it..?

hmm... many ppls dun really like pw... neither do i... but i seriously think it's a great way of connecting and getting to know others... of course, it would be better if we din have to chiong for all the stuff...

it's 10 plus now... still haven't started on the gp essay... (yawns)
i can't wait to get promoted... haha

historic moment in my life

finally!!!!!!!!!!!!! i pass my 2.4km test!!!! so happy.... it's like a stone removed from my heart... phew.... luckily got cheryl teo and shuwei run with me... thanks!

now.. muz still train for next year.... but i'm so glad it's all over....

sleepy...

feeling very sleepy nowadays... juz wanna sleep and not wake up... dun feel like doing anything...
oh, had ndp yesterday.. was pretty cool... we did the sign language.. i've to admit, none of mine were PERFECT... really... i hope we still break the record too... and i hope they dun say who was part of the record... cos i'll be upset to know that my name isn't there...
ps: i love the song reachout for the skies.... juz so lovely.. wish i could learn the whole dance.. instead of juz the chorus...
it's juz so tiring to be studying.. after psle, then o lvl, then alvl, then uni, then work... it's so... sian.

i juz realised my life is so empty... i feel really sad at times... very pathetic .... i'm so pissed... coming to jc is no better than going to poly....
completing o lvls was a miracle...
staying alive is a mistake
i'm so pathetic

mixed feelings

still feeling sick.. from sore throat & flu...

there was spot check this morning.. usually, i wldn't be anxious abt it.. cos my skirt is damn long.. BUT no! i'm in SA, my skirt is ultra short(thanks to my mum).. And YES, i got caught... i, chan yanying joyce, the most goody-two-shoes of all ppls! damn suay lah.... the first half of the girls got checked by dan ho.. then, afterwards, he decided to switch with this old woman cos he wanted to check the boys of e other class... so i got caught... for having one ear stut... (go figure!) each ear can only have one. i only wear one for one ear and none for the other... then she was like... [v. blurish lah]... dun even understand wat she wants me to do.... then she saw my skirt... said it's short.. esp at the back.. pulled up my shirt... HIAX.... so embarrassing... my name was taken down...haha but it's by ct, who is extremely nice... but i'll still try to alter my skirt.. which is already v short... or i'll exchange it with someone... kaoz.. this is a first for me...

run 4 rounds during pe.. didn't stop... but still a not-so-good timing... i hope i'll do better next time... i think i will...

had chem practical.. realised i'm kinda dumb... i.e i can't really apply wat i learn during lesson time to the prac questions... which has been like since forever, including bio...
dunno how to do math and chinese... feeling hopeless... as usual.... it's damn hard lah... esp, when the questions are so long... it juz pisses me off.

i was juz wondering... how did i get past the 7 months of jc life... so fast rite?!!! and it's gonna be promos soon!!!

on the positive side(finally...) national day is coming... excited abt going back to ntss... that is if we're going.... and i'm looking forward to the 'performance' on the actual day... woohoo!! hope i dun screw up...

3 weeks

today i was supposed to take the 2.4km test again.. i told mr ho that i didn't want to run... as much as he wants me to run.. i simply refused... i juz didn't have mental preparation that i was to run today... so.. ya, i kinda told the teacher 'i give up'... i noe, i noe... we shld always have the 'never give up' attitude... but for me... it's really useless lor... oh, then i suggested to mr ho, i'll run 4 rds every pe lesson... then.. he agreed lor... ya, that was before i played games with the class..
After the games, he suggested to me, that 3 weeks later, the second last week of august, i'll do a test again... everything, again... then i was like.. stunned.. but i agreed to it... he was like, 'u did very well in your 5 stations... it's such a pity to give up... '... then i was like' ya, but the 5 stations are not long dist running'....
but, that's the deal.... i'll still continue to run 4 rds every pe lesson until that day arrives...

i think mr ho. is a really nice teacher... i mean, compared to the others lah.. so it's kinda stressful too... i mean, i also wanna do well in running... and i dun wanna disappoint myself, and him too...
haix...

almost there...

failed my 2.4 test.... 18min 12 s... actually, come to think abt it.. i was quite happy with my results... i mean, my previous one was 20.48... so it's pretty much a great 'achievement'... haha... if only i had run harder, i could have got bronze... which, i wouldn't need to run again... well.. nvm.... i'll try harder again next time... but i think it's gonna be harder to keep up with the new timing...

i have to do it!

okay, i drank red bull as recommended by wenmin... wouldn't say it's very useful, as least not to me.. finished the 4 laps, overshot by 15 seconds... after that, i juz couldn't carry on... honestly, i believe there shld be some sort of moltivation to do everything... esp those really tough ones, like running 2.4... i can't think of any lah... i was running the third one, and i was thinking, 'i gotta go, i gotta continue running... because...?' i dunno! nothing moltivates me to finish the run...

i came back, with my whole body aching... mostly due to the five stations i completed on mon... i would really wanna pass this time's 2.4km... in the past years, the night before possible 2.4 runs, i would totally dread waking up, hoping it will rain, or that i will suffer from some sickness... but on last sun nite, i was like, 'okay, i can do it.' and i was like looking forward to do it...

if i'm not wrong, everyone did well for their 5 statns, on mon. so that means, if i dun pass my 2.4 this thur or mon, i will be the only one redoing the entire thing next week... that would really sux...

i wanna pass, really badly. i trained hard.. i think. at least, i've done my part...
it can be quite irritating to keep constantly thinking abt 2.4km... i wanna get it done and over with...

and i can't stand those who tell me ' fail then fail lor' and then they pass instead... go figure!

haix

Did terrible in my ct... suprisingly, my gp and chinese is better than my science... go figure...
have been trying to study hard lately... watching less tv and all.. doing mindmaps??? ya.. i'm trying my best... i do not wanna get retained. nobody does, but i'm gonna do my part in ensuring that doesn't happen...
i wish i didn't have to take math... econs would have been better.. at least the topics in econs make sense... unlike math... functions, trigo, bionomial...
the pt of me taking 3 sub is so that i can conc. on them and hopefully get to do s paper.. but now, i'll juz be glad if i dun get retained...

2.4 this coming mon... erm.. hope i can improve my timing. better still, keep up with the others... which reminds me of thur when i was running with them... i kept wanting to stop.. but i dunno why i didn't... it felt great to have been able to keep up with jan and sw..

i think there's ard 75 days left to promos.. yap.. jia you..

past few days

coop camp was okay only... very slack lah.. it's at a pace that is so comfortable.... unlike counsillors... so hiong... so smelly too... haha. i'm pissed at sy for not running with me on the last morning... it's so sian lah... she always does that.... so why issit she's always telling me that she walks with other people? nvm... she's been a close friend of mine for so long... i'm not gonna get mad at her for such a small thingy... i take it as a lesson learnt...
anyway... games were okay lah... overall, my grp got 2nd place... so not too bad.. my thighs hurt after the frisbee game... which explains why i couldn't keep up with the others on the last day of moring run...
i din run for the elections... i had no confidence in making the speech... besides.. they even asked questions there and then... so kinda freaky... also, the committe didn't really nominate me... so... kinda obvious lah...

legs still hurt... dunno how i'm going to go for my usual jogs.. sian.. muz retrain all over again.

still learning my sign language... very interesting... hope i get selected for the ndp...