looks like my GC trip may not work out after all. how annoying. how upsetting. i really feel like crying. in fact, i'm tearing already. it juz sux. really does. shld have went after As but becos of fren, didn't go. Shld be planning to go this sept(even went to agencies and got another fren to get my brochures) but once again, another fren let me down.

and i'd have insisted on going for this trip regardless of my parents' opinion.

i really really wanted to make this trip happen. like seriously. i dun think anyone can possibly imagine my disappointment when i got rejected once again. like i am tearing right now.
i juz wanted to make that step of leaving spore and gg to a foreign country on my own(wif frens, not folks) and i'm not interested in like hk nor tw cos i'm JUZ NOT INTERESTED! the reasons why i want to gc may seem oh-so-superficial, but that is juz where i want to go(since i was in sec1)! and damn the world for causing global warming leading to the hike in petrol and airport tax..

i'm speechless man. i dun even know wat else to say. my life really sux. i study all yr rd, but my grades are still not fantastic, i make no achievements in school nor society nor life. i have no outside life. i know there are people worse off than me. but really.. when i look back, i feel like i'm a HUGE LOSER after all.

and i need $70k for deg conversion. fuck.

i knew u didn't wana go in the first place. u shld have been more firm in rejecting me earlier on. u gave me false hopes. and now, all i can feel is disappointment.