slack hols

the hols is cmg to an end. clinicals at BV is gg to commence on wed! oh dear. i hope the PTs there wld go easy on us. i heard my fren who's gg to a certain private hosp will have ALOT to do to impress the PTs there.

i enjoyed my hols this time rd. haha. perhaps it's not as meaningful as wat my dear yh went thru in cambodia, but i definitely enjoyed it thoroughly.
1) meeting up wif my frens! esp the s55 ppls! sentosa,crystal jade & sakae!!
2) having lunch (outside sch!) wif my pt frens :) at manhattan fish market
3) watching 3 movies in a wk! 10,000 B.C, The Leap Years and Step Up 2 The Streets :) HOT!
4) Exercise? haha. i didn't run on tracks, but i finally restarted running at the park nearby instead of the gym.
5) went timebre wif 2 ntss pals! loved the ambience there. makes me feel good abt myself. except the part where i puked out my cosmo drink at home :S but the pizza is NICE! shall get yh to drive down there one day
6) hardly touched the books! haha. but i shall regret it later. keyword-later
7) eh, i won my first fluff gold medal! I'm proud of my dragun, Grinchy! HAHA.
8) shopping! tt's prob the best part!! and the most no. of items i bought within a mth, or even a wk! ppls- i bought threadless tees!! not 1 or 2, but 5!!! holy s**t!!!!

yup. tt pretty much sums up my hols this time rd.. it feels good.. the not-so-good part? having to work as flyer distributors - but i'm glad i worked wif jac and nurul on 2 outta 3 days. also, i didn't manage (or bothered to) learn my canto well (which i mentioned i wld last oct :S). even tho i know i spent ALOT of money on shopping, i can't stop myself from window shopping and mentally making down a list of things i need to buy. maybe i think it's time for me to get a new wardrobe of clothes to 'mark' my adulthood. of course, threadless tees are juz essentials tt everyone shld have... HAHA.

ppls. my birthday is cmg. the day is 15 APRIL 2008!
this is a list of 'PLEASE DO NOT BUY THIS FOR ME COS I'LL PROB CHUNK IT ASIDE'
1)any type of shirts. please. i'm serious. not even threadless tees!
2)wallets. nah. i dun really need one since i dun have tt many cards and i've always prefered a 2mm purse instead
3)novels. i like. but i rather receive it over x'mas
4)no vouches pls!
5)no jackets pls. i juz bought one online which i hope it fits!

wat i wld like other than a nice surprise gift may be
1)bag? this one is a toughie man. not sure pls dun buy!!!
2)handphone. too ex rite? i wan samsung handphone
3)a pair of sneakers. preferably puma. but again its' too ex. maybe my parents shld be reading this.

hmm. actually i also dunno wat i want..this is pretty thick-skinned of me to put up this post. but then again, it's concern for my fren's money being put to a worthy use. i m serious.

of course as a kind friend. i accept all gifts! all! with open arms and a grin from ear to ear. wat's most impt is the company:)

i so wasn't happy to see that.

went to check things out at the hosp this afternoon wif jm. got lots of things to read up on. supervisor seems nice but she isn't the main person we'll be tagging along.. oh god. i really hope i'm prepared by the 26th. mmt, rom, exercise presciption, old age diseases, the patients. pls let me get thru the 3 wks.

on the way home, when i was alighting from the bus, this lady who alighted right before me, tripped fell and hit her head onto the pole! omg! i was like stunned. ppls surrounded and offered to help. the incident was juz- !!!! singaporeans are nice ppls.

RESULTS ARE OUT!

alrite, by the sight of the first line, most ppls wld prob have guess tt i'm feeling good abt my results. and yes i am. i really got a shock initially. cos this morning at 4am, i was watching chelsea's match and then i went to slp at end of first half, thinking it's a sure win for them. indeed it was. but when i woke up at 10 to check my handphone for smses, i was surprised and taken aback to see the sms abt my grades! like - it's today!!! the results are out alr!!! ok, i did mark down thu on my calender but i kept thinking the results are only out on fri. anyways, yes, i'm happy wif my results. there's a improvement in anat and physio. and a decent grade for biom and epa/kine - despite me feeling EXTREMELY DOWN after my epa/kine paper. psych was my only A.. i tot i cld have aced the anat paper too.. but i didn't :S oh wells. no more anat in future. but tt doesn't mean i can give back dr uma wat i've learned from her.

anyways, chelsea did well. they scored 6-1 against derby. lampard scored 4 goals! incl a penalty! cld have kept a clean sheet tho. anyway, i feel sad for derby... losing so many matches. i really feel sad for them. sometimes i think it's not fair.

anyways. i'm happy! i wonder wat she'll be toking to me abt next mon. sigh. i can't provide a gd explanation for my emotions prior to my papers.

oh no. i spent alot this hols. and it's only halfway thru! here's the list

1)maroon pullover fr online: $24++
2)shirt dress fr online: $27
3)beach dress fr far east: $39.9
4)le coq tee:$27.9

OMG. and my fren told me she has this gd lacoste deal so it'll cost abt $60plus instead of the usual $109.9, and. i have to (and i'm gg to) buy a white plain top. as cheap as possible. maybe from giodarno.

then lunch/dinners
1)crystal jade
2)sakae sushi
3)manhattan fish market (dun try)

there was 10,000 B.C which i watched. alrite only.. cos i read a not-so-gd review b4 i entered the cinema... so my thoughts on the show was alr cloudy by the review. Looking forward to Step Up 2, (and then there's the leap years, waterhorse, ps i love u - of which the last 2 i'll prob rent the dvd)

i have abt 60$ for the remaining of the mth. i hope my pay for the singtel flyer has been banked in. even tho i said previously tt i wldn't do e job ever again, but i'm thinking it'll do gd for my shopping spree. hoho.. oh.i'm supposed to save up for gold coast.. sigh. but i'd need clothes for gold coast too! hehe!!

i'm seriously addicted. i can look at the same few websites over and over again every single day... ARGH.

first flyer distribution day

today was my first day as a flyer distributor. glad to also state tt it'll most prob be my last.. it was alrite .. the whole experience of standing along the walkway from the mrt to wisma. giving out flyers to the ppls.. it was actually quite interesting, to see the many different ppls walk passed me.. the good looking angmohs. the pretty and sophisticated girls of my age and the guys who wore skinny pants.. very nice to see wat the ladies are wearing, help me improve my sense of fashion too. haha

my conclusion is that singaporeans are pretty nice. not as rude as i thought they wld be towards flyer distributors. many of them smiled and declined, some completely ignore(TOTALLY UNDERSTANDABLE BECOS I"M ONE OF THEM TOO. HOHO), while others stare below my head. and tt's the weird part. oh wait. i was wearing suspenders ppls! omg! the only person i noe who wear suspenders is amanda la! so sian, we have to wear suspenders and a cap, both RED! yikes. i was actually supposed to wear the tennis skirt provided. but i decided it was too white and slightly 'see thru' tp my thick ugly elephant thighs. so i decided to change back to my shorts.
oh ya, ppls were looking at the words on my teeshirt.. but i keep thinking it's becos i nv zip my shorts tt's why they stare until so :O.

yup anyway, 6hrs went passes pretty fast. the other 2 guys came and help me distribute some of my flyers cos they finish damn fast. quite nice of them:) oh, not 6 hrs, i ended ard 745 wif the guys' help. so we were sorta dismissed at 8 plus. when the ic asked if i wana do next wk. i juz shook my head real hard. haha.. i dunno man. it's good easy money. but i guess cos without my frens, it doesn't feel as 'enjoyable' and i wldn't wana do it again. BUT, i wld really like to juz sit on the benches along the path and watch ppls walk.. haha.. not their gait, but the clothes they wear.. oh, i think i got quite some attention cos of wat i was wearing.. haha..

addicted to windown online shopping

i think i'm addicted to online window shopping. i can juz go over the same 10 websites and look over the same shirts and dresses. and stare in awe. well, not awe, juz wish there was a shop in spore, then i can go TRY it.. cos some of the tees are seriously not made for ppls with fats at all. they're so slim fit and skinny!!!

i have decided to buy this maroon pullover.. it looks nice.. hope it fits nicely on me.. but first, i have to transfer money!!! by tmr morning preferably.. supposed to be by last nite.. but i didn't succeed.. my first atm transfer was a failure. becos i didn't know i was using a POSB saving acct rather than the first option tt i pressed(POSB current). sigh. i sux

i shall not be like my fren who shops too much online.. i rather shop at orchard.. and try my clothes b4 i buy.. muz save $$$ too.. (possibly)got aus trip in sept!!!

can't wait for tmr's shopping!!! hope i manage to find wat i want! which is a dress, and maybe some nice tops:)

still listening to the canto cd.. quite hard ah.. not easy to learn a new language, even tho dialect is 'similar' to chi..

hair cut

went for a haircut this afternoon. was definitely feeling very nervous abt it, i even felt my thighs go shaky as i walked nearer to the shop. i didn't go to kimage nor dennis, cos it was either too far, or i can't wait. i need a haircut. NOW. so i decided to go to this salon, which was juz a few shops down the one tt i've been gg for the past 20yrs(and tt i really didn't like)

i was slightly more relieved when i was greeted by the presence of 2 female hairdressers when i walked in. somehow i get scared if guys cut my hair, even tho i did let a guy cut my hair b4.. anyways, one of the lady served me, and commented tt i have dry hair, my hair curls up at the end, and there's a patch of white hair.. as usual. one thing i was surprised was tt she blowdry my hair completely b4 cutting it. oh, and the hairdryer was so powerful tt my hair looked really pretty and rebonded b4 the start of the hair cut.

anyways, she cut, and trimmed... and yup, my fringe shortened. it was alrite, i've decided to come to the conclusion tt it isn't the fringe tt's ugly, but tt i have a pretty long face:( how sad.. it doesn't go well wif watever fringes i think.. oh wells.

yup, haircut done! juz glad the long fringe has been halved and my hair parting won't look so weird.

yes, i've decided tt getting a haircut will be on my list of 'scary' things.

it's out. my heart sank

my heart sank.

placement at bright vision hosp. i'm alr doing research on geriatrics. i hope it turns out well.. in fact, the major objective tt i wana achieve at the end, is to be able to enjoy and look forward to working in the geriatrics dept in the future. i dun wana have bad experience from working wif the elderly. let's hope everything goes fine. if not, there's always my partner i can lean on.

looking forward to shopping trips this thu and maybe sun?! haha!!! lots to buy! i regret not taking more $$ when my mum was giving me my allowance..

need to start picking up teochew hokkien and canto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really wana go to australia gold coast. really. i wana sit those rides!!! and take pictures wif the crew of looney tunes! will i get to go? i have yet to ask my mum. i can imagine she'll juz remind me to save money for the 4th yr deg conversion at aus(which i'm having my doubt abt it alr)



i'm looking at the attractions at movieworld and seaworld alr.. and also looking at the accommodation prices. can't decide if gg on tour is better(things are taken care of) or free&easy better(eh. well, it's free & easy la)



accommodation is super duper impt! the location mus be good. i mean, accessible to the themeparks. and i muz find out how to TRAVEL from the hotel/motel/apartment to the themeparks.



this is so troublesome... sigh... and it's becos of things like this, there's alot of THINGS tt i wana do but eventually didn't do becos i'm always concerned abt certain things and worrying over other stuff... i shld learn to do this man.



jie: any chance that any of ur aunts might be interested to go wif her family or smthg? then can go tog. then i dun have to research on accommodation le.

had some fun at sentosa ytd.. didn't really cycle but felt a sense of satisfaction as i helped sw and mel to learn cycle.. they're still kinda shaky but i'm sure they'll get the 'feel' of it soon.

have been facebooking these couple of days. esp petting the fluffpets and racing them! totally addicted! i want tt gold medal!!! AAAHHHHHHH! haha. so childish.

watched juno.. was pretty alrite i think... later watching p.s i love you. and then there's still jumper and the leap years(which i hope to watch on the 29th.) i thnk i'm gg to be broke soon. and i still haven't gone shopping.

tennis tmr wif yh!! it's been soooo long! i wonder how well we can still rally!!! haha!!! definitely gg to continue my tanning!!! i bet it'll be way more effective than the tanning session we had at sentosa..

carling cup final: chelsea 1 tottenham 2 (e.t.)

rather disappointed, i turned off my tv half a min before the final whistle. couldn't bear to see chelsea lose.

initially when the commentator said whenever drogba scores, chelsea will win, i was like skeptical. and then when drogba did score the opening goal, i began to be hopeful. spurs were the better team, they were pushing and attacking. chelsea had a really amateurish shaky start. chelsea was supposed to hold on to their goal as it was wat they were supposedly good at. they didn't, i knew they cldn't becos spurs was all out attacking during the late 2nd half, and they got a penalty. good lor

then it went on to extra time, steve clarke and j.terry were both giving moltivational talks and i was almost sure it wld talk some sense into the players. but it didn't. spurs scored their second goal within the first few min. i wasn't panicking at that time cos i tot chelsea cld surely come back. but they didn't. last 5 min of the match, they had one corner after another. but still no equaliser. it was painful to watch. they only have themselves to blame as they refuse to do more attacking when they first got their lead (it's like last min mugging. no use one lor. shld have been more consistent earlier on, so dun have to panick like mad at the end). that's it. chelsea lost. i lost too. i was damn damn damn sure tt chelsea will win this cup. so they at least have one silverware in their bag for this season. now the other 2 possible cups they can win is facup and cham league(which i think is still not tt possible but i shall keep my faith in them)

sigh:(

finally. exams are over. i dun feel like seeing a counsellor anymore, even though i think i really need help in coping wif the anxiety i face during exam period. it gets extremely awful.

anyway, i'm kinda disappointed not to be joining my class for timbre tonite..sorry. have decided to have a sleepover instead.. juz feel like having heart-to-heart talks wif my closest frens..

decided against getting a job this hols, wld really needa focus on clinicals preparation. initially i wasn't so nervous abt it, up til audrey mentioned some of the objectives tt we have to achieve. oh. and the fact tt if we fail one clinicals, have to retake and hence will be behind the rest by one 'clinicals'. DARN. i plan to do well in my clinicals.. brush up on my interpersonal skills(i wonder how), learn abit of teochew and canto, practice transfers, mmt and rom.. rom still can, cos i was given a chance to do it at sgh(tho not very skilled), mmt is like -!!!! it's easy to do in lab la.. but in front of the real patient, muz really be professional abt it..

gotta work out hard during this hols... kinda used to running in the gym wif the aircon le.. abit not looking forward to running on tracks.. sigh.. one yr down, one more yr to 2.4test.

other stuff i'm looking forward to:
shopping!
cycling/rollerblading wif my pals!
tanning at sentosa! haha
buying donuts from donut factory! double chocolate!!!!! chocolate wif raspberry!
fried mars bar!!!!! omg!!!
tennis/squash/badminton! work those calories!!!
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revision-.-

cheryl left. how sad. i wasn't there to see her off.

anyways, i feel really really upset about today's kine/epa paper. i also dunno whether i'd describe it as upset or numb. nah, i'm definitely upset and disappointed about today's paper. i think i didn't think hard enough before i attempted each question, so when that happens, i write out ans that i think make sense. at the end of the paper, on the way home, i ponder over it and ask wat my frens think of that paper. i have a feeling they sorta knew wat to write, but perhaps didn't phrase it properly. but for me, i felt like i didn't know wat i was writing, and everything juz came out based on prev prac and some sorta common sense.

on the bright side, i didn't leave questions blank. ya i think. but some of my ans are really crap lor. argh....

exams bother me. they really do. i have a feeling i'm the only person who is bothered by the way i fare in the paper. it sux really bad cos i feel tt i shld have stepped out of my sec sch/jc mentality and be more mature when it comes to studying for exams. i haven't. i'm still tt crybaby who succumb under pressure. the annoyed girl who can't let go of some minor marks, the perfectionist who wants to regurgitate word for word in each essay que.

i need to change.
i need to see a shrink/psychologist to help me deal with my panic attacks.

optimistic joyce. i know myself well, despite all the negativities, a side of me is assuring me tt i dun have to take sub paper, at most get a D for epa/kine mod.

i'm not gg to say i'll study harder for next sem. it does't work. after so many years, i've come to realised tt last min cramping is bad but somewat effective. unless i study my subj the way i study for anatomy. i'll miss anatomy.. abit la. cos it's the only mod tt i can do well becos i can regurgitate the facts. word for work (ps. essays only la, mcq not included unofrtunately)

i'm supposed to be happy tt kine/epa paper is over. i hope studying for biom will be smooth sailing later. hai. but got calculation ques, so can't be tt smooth la.

cheer up joyce.

i'm thinking of the day tt i was absolutely sure i failed epa prac. and i got a C in the end. let's hope things turn out better tt wat i think:)

i obviously haven't stepped out of that 'circle'/mentality.
GIVE ME A BREAK.

i'm really upset about my kine prac grade. i thought i did well. but thinking back again, the teacher did give me quite some hints abt certain stuff, so i guess i dun deserve the grade i wanted. But, if it had been the other teacher, i may have done slightly better. oh wells. now, i noe i have to work even harder for the written exam which is super duper tough cos the ans are not found in the notes. the notes are like not informative at all lor. and kine/epa has the highest credit points! kill me!

i'm worried tt if i'm not able to grind out at least 3.0 every sem, then i might not be able to get into an aus uni... sigh. wat shld i do? maybe i can work hard to do well in clinicals? haha.. unlikely considering i still sux at chi and unable to utter much phrases in the 3 dialects. i have alot to work on during the march hols.

gotta get back to studying.

i'm so dead. it's eve of CNY, and here i am in doubt over my kine pract. i thought i did well leh, even for the exercise part.. then, my fren who supposedly got the same que said it's eccen exercise and eccen functional. but i recall prescribing exercises meant for concentric. oh no.. i thnk now there's a possibility tt i may fail (even tho i did 'pass' the rom and mmt part). hmm.. but exercise prescription is not really - forget it. it's impt, if wrong exercise means fail le? die die die. shit la... why audrey nv prompt? she juz keep asking 'anything else?' so i juz keep giving concentric. i even say out how it works leh. die la. now she thinks i dunno wat's conc and ecce. shit. oh god.

tt aside. epa was alrite. managed to smoke thru even tho last nite i was seriously having a panic attack. think i may do better for epa after all.

positive sign for right trendeleburg - i dunno if i spelt the word correctly, but this is wat happens: while standing, the person's right leg will be straight, while the left pelvis drops, becos the right abductor is not able to keep the pelvis level.

i demo-ed it to my tester, and gave an explanation while demo-ing. and guess wat, for a 20yr old student, i really screwed up my left and right! i demo and said "so the right side will be straight" - and i pointed to my left leg standing straight. and then say" and left pelvis drop", and i dropped my right pelvis!

i even did all the actions leh! i showed how the right abductors(pointing at left thigh) will not be able to level the pelvis on the left side (pointing to right thigh).

it's not THAT BIG a deal i hope? afterall, my exercises were prescribed for the right leg, and i made sure my patient did it on the right leg.

yes. calm down joyce. this plus the fact the TFL doesn't attach to lateral condyle + my patient did compensation and i didn't say out until tester pointed out + my measurement for ROM also abit not here not there = i think too much liao. [i also tot of a better exercise while i was showering juz now. i shld have suggested it. damn. i think better while showering. ]

yes. i thought i cld get a good grade, now. er, well, i still think i did well.. haha.. i'm an OPTIMIST! (FYI:optimist expect good stuff to happen. i always tot they juz HOPE good stuff will happen.. hmm. )

alrite man! now. gotta start on epa. i'm so damn happy it's not tmr.. i juz took like a 1.45 h of nap!!! which felt really good after staying in sch for so long.

i'm gg to do quick shopping tmr(since i overslept), hopefully get 2 tops. and buy myself either a prosperity burger or juz the twister fries :)

am looking for websites for exercise prescription. hope the spine exercises won't be tested. argh. shit. i still rmb i have to go memorise definitions for psychology.

last nite was pretty fun. the surprise was definitely there. tho it felt more like a grp gathering rather than a class gathering cos the guys left soon after cheryl appeared and we were still sorta in out own little grps.

the exercise doesn't seem hard leh. but i noe when i see the que tmr, i'll surely -!! nope. i shall be calm when i see the que. and there's a difference between stretching and strengthening, and i have yet to touch the latter! frustrating! lucky my slot is the noon. but still.

bad news. chelsea drew!!! oh man 1-1!!! so damn close to winning la, with all the last min attacks! and idiot man u!! they score a goal at like the 93rd min to save their sorry ass! why cldn't chelsea have done the same?! then we'll be levelled, or close. now, we're 6pts below. sobs. 3 mths left? *prays hard* and shit la, chelsea is playing liverpool next!!! prays tt our home record stays unbeaten!!!!

it's 1st feb. and week 16 has juz ended.. the dreaded wk 17 with 3 tests will soon arrive :S
but still, it's been a 'fabulous' wk 16.
1) i got noticed. i think... mr.p saw me 4 times this wk! haha
2) i fell in love with the new song - So Close by Jon Mclaughlin. and i can't stop listening to it. my classmates hate me for it. i even put the song on a com in the resource room!
3) i ate 2 donuts from donut factory! Double Chocolate and the Chocolate with raspberry! SINFUL! but absolutely delicious!!! thx joce!
4) i did well for anatomy. and i was the first to find out bcos i actually approached dr uma right before she wanted to edit the list for an unnecessary reason. and apparently she noes i improved. like as though she know me very well liddat -.-

yup. tt sums up the week :)

on the downside
1) i think i was pretty unproductive in studying, except for making notes blindly
2) i totally sux at public speaking. i need to take up a course during the hols or smthg. shoots.
3) i'm pretty clueless abt exercise prescription. shit.
4) i haven't exercise much during the week.

4 -4. draw. haha. oh! chelsea won as usual! so did man u and arsenal. so it's still a draw.

the dreaded D-day will arrive in 2 weeks. it's probably more dreaded than my 2oth birthday. sobs...

i walked past mr p at the traffic light.

it was rather strange when we walked passed each other. i wasn't super excited afterwards. hmm.. maybe we walked too close to each other le. strange. it's a really strange and somewat sad feeling.

wat shld i do tmr?

anat prac is finally over. sigh. shall i expect A or settle for B? not really within my control now anyway.. hope we'll get tips for physio and biom so we won't be clueless during our revision.

oh, then there was this funny joke during the pract. our dear classmate pg was seated at the rest station, and dr uma was saying, flip to ur que tt corresponds to the model at ur station. and pg was like looking ard and mumbling "eh, where's the model ah?", and then she realised "oh it's a rest station."! seriously think it's super funny when nurul told me la! i wish i was seated next to her.. it's geniune blurness la.. haha.. no offense fren, i dun mean to make fun of u.. but let's juz say, u have ur way of making ppls laugh and lightening up the mood. u rock girl!

went shopping juz now!! eh. i muz apologise for being the last customer to leave mango even tho i entered the shop knowing they're gg to close alr. oops. but i saw there were still ppls inside mah.. then i browsed the whole shop, there were still ppls, so i decided to try on a top. by the time i tried finish, only left me and another couple who were paying for their stuff.. so i was officially the last to leave. how awkward. now i noe wat lj meant when she said some irritating customers wld come when shop is closing.

and. while walking out, this caucasion guy approached me. he looked rather lost so i tot he was gg to ask for direction, and then he said ' excuse me miss, do u have natural nails or fake nails?' i was like ' do i have wat?!"his slang and vol made it kinda hard to know if i heard his words correctly anot.. anyway, i said natural(duh!), and he asked me to show him my nails. then he wanted to do smthg abt it, (apparently he was selling some of his products at those small pushcarts) an so i juz like apologiesd and rushed off.. i can't even understand him clearly.. eeks. forget it.

eating at pasta de waruku tmr! like FINALLY!!!!! :)

no mr.p :(

DISAPPOINTED!!!!

i didn't see mr.p today. how annoying! can't he like try to take the same train every morning??!!

i got a lousy grade for physio (becos i didn't cross my fingers like i said i wld.)

but i'm still a pretty optimistic person becos when i get a stupid lousy grade, i comfort myself by saying i'm on the higer end of the lousy grade.

yup. SIGH. now i'm worry for anat. ARGH

i realised i may have saw the WRONG mr.p last thu. but thankfully, i saw the CORRECT one this morning! he looks nicer.. and i'm more sure it's him. becos he was cmg out of the mrt station and was wif a fren, juz like how i saw him in the past.

haha.. can't see the buff arms... hmm.. does tt mean there are quite a number of hot caucasians working at sgh? HAHA.

happy :)

aus open

wat an eventful australian open! only the 6th day, and there were alr quite a handful of major upsets.. one in particular was andy roddick's early exit in the 3rd rd by a german seeded 29th. roddick reached a career high of having 42 aces! tt's awesome. but his winners were only 79 compared to like abt 100 of his opponent. sigh. he's juz not as good. wat's the point of serving so many aces? tennis is not juz abt serving ( even tho it's easier for roddick- cos he can juz finish off a game very quickly by serving well) wish he cld up his play more and play like federer.

*fingers crossed for phsyio pract* pls let me get a B!!!

it's him it's him!!!

prac test - i wld say it's easy, but i prob still need luck in order to get a B. *fingers crossed*
oh, i somehow passed my epa test, tho it's one of the lousier grades among all. it's alrite. i'm juz glad things turned out better than i thought it wld be. i'm thankful :)

okok, now, is the MAJOR part. ppl: guess who i saw today????? yes no maybe u dunno? let me tell u all, it's MR.P!!!!! omgosh pls!!!!! i was sooooooo happy!!!! it's a rather long story, slightly embarrassing and crazy if i write the actual process of how i saw him, let me juz cut it to the bits.

1) saw a familiar back figure in the morning. hmm..
2) in the late noon, saw mr. p's fren. strangely, he was waiting at the bus stop instead of walking towards the station. bus no. is 190 i think. HAHA
3) saw this really hot and super tanned and super buff guy! head-curly hair, eyes- black sunglasses, shirt- sleeveless singlet(*faints!*), berms and slippers and sling bag. it's him man! it's sooooooo him! BUT the strange thing too, is tt he was taking a bus too, but i didn't see the bus no. damn. yup, so even tho he looks like mr.p, i still have some doubts. cos he looks more buff than the last time i saw him, which was prob in mid nov(it's been soo long.) gosh.. and he's so tan, i bet he went to sentosa to play ball or smthg! and i still can't believe his arms were so huge.. it looks so different when he was wearing tees wif sleeves. hmm.. but the curly hair is so him lor..

hai. i tot i had snapped back to reality, thinking tt mr.p had gone home after his overseas exchange internship program. maybe he is a perm staff after all.. hai. damn, i'm gg back to dream world again...

it's really nice to have seen him. i'm so happy. but i prob won't meet him regularly cos he prob has changed to taking bus to work :(

overall mood: happy :D

smitten.

wat a embarrassing day it was at the pt clinic. i still sux at public speaking, even if it's to a bunch of ignorant kids who are like 4 years younger than me. gosh i feel old now. i feel so bad abt not helping out much.. i felt like a 13 yr old. damnit. i'll do a better job for psych ppt.

it almost happened. those water droplets. like it's gonna start flowing any time soon. it always happened! the last time it actually did was during some public speaking lesson. oh man. wish i cld be more confident... my peers were so good at it. i wish i have their confidence.

alot to study. damn. hope i dun fail my phsyio prac.

i am SUAY one lor. alrite, juz not as well prepared as i thought... EPA-FAIL. the mistakes of those ppls b4 me seemed way too minor compared to mine.. i did it on the WRONG PLACE! like WRONG! not position wrong, is WRONG PLACE. ARGH

and it was juz upsetting to know i wasn't one of the many who did really well for phsyio despite the tips. damn.

pain scale- 11 out of 10.

hopefully this serious mistake will moltivate me to work harder in my studies for the rest of the 2 mths.

had a sleepover at limjie's place. b4 tt we had dinner at the adam rd hawker centre. let me try to list the 'events' down

1) i was early, as usual. sw was late, as usual

2) decided not to rent the dvds cos it was too ex

3) had dinner at adam rd, ate the famous nasi lemak + stingray + satay

4) looked at pics of evelyn's cute little hyperactive puppy

5) took this:

6) went to island creameary? to have ice cream

7) went back to limjie's hse

8) had gift exchange - there was a lack of communication and so the presents were of the 'wrong' prices.. haha.. sw gave my cute undies.. which i shall work hard so tt i'll look gd in it.. haha

9) played a little bit of pictionary b4 angie and eve left... it was a close fight!

10) erm. cheryl n sw watched some online shows while i was double-tasking: discussing epa wif limjie while watching chelsea vs newcastle match.

11a) chelsea score 1-0

11b) newcastle drew 1-1

11c) chelsea won! 2-1 YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11d) man u lost! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

11e) arsenal down 0-1 at halftime!!!

12) watched white chicks.

13) slept at 430am.

14)everyone woke up at ard 10

15) check arsenal.com, they won 4-1. sian.

16) waited for jie's parents to buy back breakfast

17) juz hanged ard. some pictionary

18)ordered mac. n watch the unbeatables :)

19)went home!!!

I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO 2008! i dun wana do epa prac test and i am unhappy tt i'm not studying AT ALL. i feel lousy. argh. n i have decided to go sch tmr.

Date: Saturday, 24th December 2007
Place: Simin's lovely home at Clementi
Time: 645pm til the next day

530pm:I was soo looking forward to the xmas party at simin's pl. there' was this rule to wear either red or green. and i chose red! and juz b4 i left the house i realised i made an awful mistake of being in red&black completely. there was a red tee wif black skirt, then red nails wif black birks. AND i chose to carry a black handbag and the esp plastic bag-which is red. HORRIFIED! it's juz wrong. had to change it to a nice gold paper bag in the end.

545pm: at the bus stop. i stood. and waited. and waited. and waited. almost 2-3 of evey bus came except the one and only tt i cld board-166 it came like 20min later. argh.

645pm: reached simin's pl.. much to my surprise, sm was still in the midst of cooking.. and ap was helping her in the kitchen while wl was in the living rm doing the tuna on biscuit thing. nope, i didn't help. the host refused to let me do much. so i juz kinda slacked...

this is tiring.. haha. let me try to summarise

yh & lh were late.. it was like 730-745 when the table was finally filled wif food. omg. it was really filled wif food. there was chicken, duck!!!!, spaghetti, garlic bread, mashed potato, veggie, hashbrown!!! it was delicious! the setting and atmosphere was really nice too! and there was the christmas tree!!! dinner was fabulous! yh cracked a joke by asking for some '82 wateva wine... super nice.. too bad sy wasn't present.. and xy was still on her flight back from japan... the dinner was filled wif cold jokes, funny jokes, and reminders for one another to finish up the food!

after dinner... hmm.. think we juz watched some shows on tvb and licensed to wed, which was an alrite show la.. then xy arrived and we took lots of pics... unfortunately, the grp photos are all in wl's cam..... yup.. gift exchange! seriously, i swear i will put in more effort to buy a NICER present in future! sorry wl! wl and xy went to aus and jap respectively so they got us nice and edible souvenirs! :)

oh. then a sm & ap's fren turned up. ya.

then ap and xy went home.. and the rest of us kinda went to sm's rm to sleep... it was an early nite(compared to the slpover wif sw and cheryl...) we were watching harry potter.. but i fell asleep like super early cos the lights were alr out...

woke up really late despite sleeping early... had log cake(my mum made) and this friend potato dish tt sm's mum whipped up(using the left over mashed potato). watched tv... we were all kinda sianed... like stoned. and i had to play pictionary!!!! sm has this art board? those drawing kinds wif a stand.. and i drew! and sm,wl and yh guessed! haha... i had to draw based on wat i played wif sw last time...

tt's abt all... the xmas dinner was prob the best part of the stayover! i'm like so inspired to make a meal for my frens and family too!!!! hmm.. maybe i shall try it out during the hols in mar!!! yea!

i can't seem to lose weight even tho i went gym 6 times the past wk. hmm.. i seriously think ther's smthg wrong wif my weighing scale. haha... ok, maybe i've been eating abit more? nah.. it muz be the weighing scale. i can stand on it 3 times and all 3 readings differ :S

i'm so screwed for the new term. shucks. the new term tt has so many tests, pracs and soon-to-come exams that i'm not prepared for. this is so not me, man. the hols are cmg to an end in a wk's time... i dun look forward to epa prac tmr.

i sux at mahjong man! i hardly win.. my dad has been like winning almost every rd. no more
beginner's luck... but it's still fun. lucky no actual cash involved :S

it's 2008 soon!!! OH NO! i'm turning 20!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!! i dun wana turn 20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dun wana be 20. i dun wana be 20. i dun wana be 20.

i dun wana be 20.

hols

chelsea is facing a injury crisis AGAIN :(

this hols have been pretty wasted. except for gyming... hardly touch the books! hello! it's supposed to be a study break! can't eat dunkin' donuts becos didn't manage to reach the min orders. but it's prob a good thing, cos i won't gain back all the calories tt i've lost. and i've decided not to buy a xmas album. after wat i've SPENT ytd. angie will know why.

made a wasted trip to the cc's gym ytd cos it was CLOSED. i was standing there. staring at the locked gates. wondering- WHY. it was only like 5 hrs later when i was shopping wif angie in the super crowded taka mall then she informed me tt is was hari raya. i was like - !!!! no wonder so crowded.... but anyways. it was quite a fruitful trip. bought a pair of PANTS!!! :) ate at kobayashi hangul-which was previously juz known as kobayashi. the omelette and noodle. the ppls so lazy la. angie ordered the teriyaki version, and they put the meat outside the omelette instead of inside of it! and u cld so tell tt the extra 1$ was juz for some measly pieces of XXS -sized meat.

man u ppls sux man. i wonder how true is tt rape incident. are all football players in england liddat? i think, even if i can, i'd not marry any of the players.. surely divorce one! i bet the WAGS are staying on for the $$$!!!

it's been so long since we last met :(

hols are here. finally

got a B for anat paper. hmm... well, at least it's better than the D i got for biom last sem. :D [ppls! be positive!]

a couple of things to be done over the hols
1-work out in gym
2-study (psych proj,epa,physio prac...)
3-xmas party/gathering wif my 2 grps of great pals!
4-shopping! for xmas cards, gifts and... clothes? oh! xmas album and ven's dunkin' donuts :)
5-movies/dvds

SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

die liao la. again. at least 15m GONE!!! hai.. though i do feel tt this paper is slightly easier than sem 1's paper, i doubt my ability to achieve the feat of getting A. sian.

wasted my trip to ndc cos i forgotten to brg my retainers. then becos it's raining, i cldn't go meet sw and the rest to buy my sandals :(

release of anat results shld be tmr. can't wait-.-

didn't see him today, not ytd, and tmr also cannot :(

need to start MUGGING for physio :(

overall mood :(

wat a bad day today. other than 'thank you's, there was no 'gd job, well done, i feel better'. how sad and demoralising :( there was this guy whom i massaged, he came back for second round, but not by me. he said he was there to accompany his fren. but it cld also be i didn't do a gd enuf job, tt's why he needed more massage. then there was this other guy who said he had pain in the anterior part of ankle joint, and i was like dunno wat to do, so i asked him to do dorsiflexion, then a few seconds later, i asked the others from the adjacent plinth, and she was like, he shld do plantarflexion instead. and i felt stupid. like i cldn't associate wat i learn from anat(as in, ant compartment of leg - action is plantarflexion.) hai. so embarrassing.

my legs hurt.. esp the popliteal fossa area.

heard from a fren who said some yr3 say tt a lot of those who went for attachment at sgh eventually dropped out. maybe too stressed by the clinicians? eeks. now i dun wana go sgh for clinicals anymore... i'm juz glad i can see mr.podiatry once in a while on the way to sch.


anyway, yesterday, while writing my anat stuff, i came across some useful moltivational phrases/sentences(fr sa handbook) here are some with regards to smthg particular i wanna do:
1_some pursue happiness, others create it
2_nothing can be done without hope & confidence
3_destiny is not a matter of chance, it's a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved
4_to accomplish great thing, we muz dream as well as act.

the keyword here is 'happiness'. find-a-guy-get-married-and-start-a-family-happiness.


sometimes, i juz wana get away from them as far as possible.

i cldn't stop grinning when i was walking from the nel line to the red line at outram today. i saw mr.podiatry again! this time, i'm absolutely sure it's him. cos he was wif this other podiatry guy whom i cld easily recognise by the physique. gosh he was so.... cute. wif his checkered berms and sunglasses on his head.. woa.can't tell he works at the hospital! he was taking the stairs instead of the elvator after alighting from the train. and to think i was gg to give up taking the 124 route.. hmmm....

i need more confidence. i need to work out harder. but this 'harder' part will have to wait til after physio test. i think we're all pretty dead. oh wells. i'm sure, somehow or another, we'll all pull through.

mr.podiatry has made my day. well, only the morning part anyway. :D

bad hair cut

i hate my hairdresser. after abt 10yr of faithfully gg to her salon for my regular haircuts, i've decided tt she really sux. i hate my new fringe. and my hair. it's like chunky, not smooth. so ugly. and she's really a horrible hair stylist. she doesn't like give opinions or comments on wat kind of cut i want, so if it turns out bad, it'll be my fault for not clarifying wat kinda haircut i want. like my fringe is the kind tt will curl at its tips, and becos of my hair parting, if the fringe gets too short, it looks stupid. can't she tell?! wat a idiot. she's supposed to be a hairdresser la! she's so money-minded she only wants to promote her own products, and not care abt my hairstyle instead. Hair cuts are really impt.. a bad hair day will be so darn obvious. and it doesn't make me feel good at all.

i feel sulky at times in school. i dunno why ppls treat me the way they do. aren't we kinda too old for tt? i miss 05s55 ppls and my bandmates :(

mr. podiatry

this is my 201st post! woa... haha... updates!

1) brought my sec sch frens to ms clarity cafe on fri.. was kinda embarrassed cos i led them to the wrong street.. but turns out we were juz on the adjacent street. and, becos it was a fri nite, i cldn't make reservations and so we had to wait from like 7 to like 8 plus before we got a table. oh wells..
2) have been exercising since last wed... really hope to be fit and do well for napfa and also to slim down and lose all the kilos i've gained since A levels.. haha
3) last nite, chelsea drew wif everton. 1-1. a pretty decent kick by a quite-cute tim cahill at a SUPER LATE TIME (90th min)!!!! so pissed! they weren't supposed to score so late! not fair. chelsea deserved 3pts! SO SAD. i had hopes that chelsea are back in title contention. now, i'm disappointed once again. a draw is not gd enuf! argh! i hate it when i get my hopes too high only to see it get dashed soon after. sobs:'(
4) this morning, on the bus 124, i passed by the sgh bus-stop. normally, it wld have been no biggie, but dunno why, today i felt something as i passed by the stop.. like old memories of my clinicals. the next thing i noe, when i alighted at the next stop, went down the escalator, i saw MR. PODIATRY! now now, i'm only 75% sure tt it's him...it's based on the attire he is in(casual), and the sling bag he is carrying, and the curly blonde hair. BUT, i dunno... the mr. podiatry at sgh had a stronger built and physique. so.. i'm not too sure. maybe becos he was like 4m away from me. but our eyes met. and i think he was like smiling sheepishly.. or it cld juz his lips. ANYWAYS, seeing him brightened up my day :D and well, who cares chelsea got a draw? Haha!
5) my dear fren forgot to brg the polo shirt for me. even though i reminded her last nite. i was annoyed. i'm tt sort of person who gets annoyed at little things. it sorta dampened my mood cos i was looking forward to see the shirt. now i'm worried tt L may not be as comfy as the XL tt i ordered initially. hopes she brg it tmr.

still overall, i think seeing mr-i-think-is-mr-podiatry has really made my day, outweighing the negative moods of chelsea's draw and no shirt. now, i think i'll be taking 124 instead of 145 to the station more often! :D shit. i'm getting my hopes up again!

happy birthday to my clinicals-sgh partner, tricia :D
we ate at fish & co for dinner... ordered the peri peri catch(grilled fish wif smthg like sambal chilli on it) then we took lots of photo. being so-not-photogenic compared to the rest of the gals, i was not exactly part of most of the photos.. but it was nice juz watching and laughing along... LOVE is a pretty nice place to juz hang out.. tho it's also like a distraction and somewhat annoying to those having dinner inside, if they do notice. got my pants wet.. by 'wet' water. haha..

still feeling like a fish out of water. need more time.


oh rite. i got picked by her to do the demo. i was pretty annoyed. cos she did emphasize during the lectures tt she's gg to pick those weaker and quieter students. i'm not braggin here, but HELLO! i got did well for anat prac in sem1 lor! like i was so pissed for the 2-3hrs of prac. i didn't do much of the demo la.. and she didn't really expect tt much from us.. i think we did a pretty gd job identifying all the muscles.. anyway,i was in a foul mood.. although it did felt like she chose me from the grp of 10 becos there's no one else alr(seems like the rest of us were of same std).. but i still feel like she feels tt i'm WEAK in the module. it sux. i mean, if she says she wana random pick then i can't complain. but she points at me leh! she points at the first 2 pretty quickly, pauses, then scan the rest of the 8, then points at me! argh! sorry for sounding so over-reacted but it's juz not a good feeling. it's like an insult in a way. an unjustified insult. u tell the whole lecture grp tt u're gg to pick the weaker students, but SOME of them actually did DO WELL in sem1! like, if u really wana pick the weaker ones, go by the grades la! why go by the FACE!
wateva. my frens and i sorta console myself by saying the reason why i got picked was becos i had some good long eye contact wif her. DARN. i didn't noe i can 'fang(4) dian(4)' so well..

been watching 2 tennis matches feat richard gasquet. he's soo good.. loves his backhand...

shall try out the 10min interval run tmr.. hope it helps!

chelsea! :D

6goals from chelsea!!! woohoo!!! in the past, 6goals wld probably have came from 6 1-0matches. this time, it came within one single match(against mancity somemore! so it means they're not that good AFTER ALL! HA)!!! starting from essien in the 16th min, then 2 goals from drogba, 1 from jole cole, kalou and even shevchenko!!!!! OMG!!! he scored!!!!! he came on as substitute at like 80th min and he scored in the 90th!!!! i'm soooo happy for him!!! juz when he came on, the commentator actually said tt he only managed to score 1 goal in 25epl matches. i was like so stunned.. wateva happened to that european player of the year?! i really hope he improves under that new sprint coach..

terry didn't play, he was sitting wif the crowd wif his SUPER GORGEOUS wife and 2 SUPER ADORABLE AND PRETTY daugthers!!! haha.. paulo ferreira played as left-back and i was really proud tt he made some pretty good tackles.. he's the cutest player in the club la! HAHA :)

manu scored 4-1. first time chelsea score more goals than manu.. haha... and dear o' cech didn't conceed at ALL! YEA!


sometimes, i wish i cld juz keep my big mouth shut and be more sensitive to other ppls' feelings. becos when karma turns to me, i really can't take it.

realised there's like 20+muscles taught within the first 2wks of anat. SHIT. hope i'm not the weak student tt has to do a demo on the cadevas. hmm.. got like 6modules to revise

went to brewerks on thu nite. spent over 220$! but the food was good! shld have ordered the bbq porkribs tho.. didn't expect the grill pork loin to be so blend.. the appetizers were really GOOD!!! esp the salad and the nachos(tho the ones at GV are still nicer.. HAHA) then we walked ard clarke quay.. poor surong, she cldn't handle the fruit brew... i totally understood her uneasiness... the 4 of us(eve, sw and cheryl) did our jumps! and we actually did a pretty perfect one and it's caught on camera! YEA!
anyways, wld wana go to Central to try out the pasta de wakaru sometime! :)

chelsea won 2-0 against boro. and poor aston villa(left 9men) losing 1-4 to manu.

first wk of sch has been.. overwhelming i wld say. ~14 muscles alr? haha.. biom tut seemed tough. physio is really boring!(like i really dunno how to deal wif his lect. listen also dun understand, dun listen even worse.) psychology's lecturer seem pretty gd(although i worry abt the tons of slides tt he juz totally skipped) kine is like wat i alr mentioned in the prev post. think i'll have to expose my fugly thigh sometime soon:(

i've gained serious amt of weight. shall not mention how much cos it juz makes me sick in the stomach. i feel really weak -both mentally and phsyically.. like i can't seem to run properly or be determined to exercise regularly. i always find excuses for myself and procrastinate alot. i'm so envious of my classmates who run so regulary, run such long distances(10k, half marathon)... i dun wana run a marathon, but i think it's extremely embarrassing if i dun pass or at least get a silver for my napfa in yr3. like-wat kinda PT will i be?!

wk 8 is anat prac test alr.. sian. today is the first sat since sch starts and as expected, i totally wasted it. hai. i wonder wat i cld do in order to make my wkends more 'academically' productive? was thinking of gg out to study... but i dun like to study outside :( won't even want to waste my bus fare. speaking of bus fare, when i left for queenway today. i placed my wallet on the tap machine and realize there was no sound. i was like- shit. i didn't brg my card. lucky i had a few coins. faints.

facebook's fun. i totally enjoyed playing supermario:) but i seriously sucked at pacman:S

i needa lose weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (the only comfort i give myself is by saying the weight gain prob due to MUSCLE mass? i really hope so, tho i doubt i can gain tt much muscle mass by doing SO little)

sch has officially started. prob becos i slept late last nite and tt it was TCB's lesson and he was toking abt the CNS, i cldn't help but yawn every 15 min or so. i even teared. i was tt tired(or bored)
then human biomech is like - SHIT. really worried now tt i'm starting on my tut.. wat if... ? "dun shut ur mind to this module even if u dun like it. it'll juz get worse if u keep ur mind shut." ok, i shall keep it OPEN then. i muz do well in this module. not juz for grades. but for sports physio too...
kine=OMG! the teacher is pretty gd i think.. but today's lesson was WOA! HOLD ON! U WANT US TO PALPATE WHAT? WHERE?! the PUBIC TUBERCLE AND FEMORAL ARTERY?! [p/s: for those innocent beings out there, it's the area slightly above where u pee] i think alot of us were kinda stunned. like... ISSIT NECESSARY?! apparently it is. oh wells. we touched. it was hard man, both literally and phsyically. haha.. like super awkward alr and still have to put our hands under there.. and damn the femoral artery! (to think last sem we thought brachial artery was hard to palate. think again) i'm so dead man. and the kine prac test is not according to index no. so. good luck to all. [and to think we were all shy abt exposing our backs last sem. i can't believe for this sem we actually have to go DOWN UNDER! *faints*] i hope all of us will be able to pull thru this... the ppls in pt0702 are really gg to be very CLOSE by the end of 3yrs.. haha..

shit u

sch's starting.. juz realised most of my supposedly gd watches are all spoiled. *faints* have to send for repair... -.-

went shopping wif the jc ppls today.. bought my rubik's cube, both the 3x3 and 4x4! and gosh! the 4x4 is so darn difficult. only managed to solve the centres. sigh. hoping dan brown wld come up wif a gd tutorial soon! guess i shall juz focus on MEMORISING and familiarising myself wif the algorithms for the 3x3. I WANT YOU DAN BROWN!

england won 3-0! woohoo! score all 3 goals before half time!!! haha.. the last was an OG.

hai. no mood to run tmr. sorry yh.

going deep?

finally! finished wif 4 wks of work at questlab.. soooo happy!!! and today was a great day because i slacked alot! oops. HAHA. shan't mention the details! really glad to have jie working side by side wif me throughout the 4 wks... tho there were times when one of us tok and the other doesn't reply (can be very irritating leh! haha.. but both of us sometimes ignore cos there's nothing we can say or do anyway.. haha) then when we're having lunch, we'll be toking abt wat to have for lunch the next day alr.. then tt's the cheap junk food shop where jie and shone can't stop teasing me abt.. ARGH! evil evil! still, it was a pretty gd experience working in the company... muz mention tt it's even better cos a gd fren is there along wif me. thx fren!

starting sch soon.. haha.. better clear my table soon. looks like some typhoon had juz arrived!
hoping to watch sailor moon til epi60 b4 the wkend ends!

sem 2 is like a new beginning and a new yr.. shall make new sem resolutions! HAHA

ending soon..

congrats to yh for passing her driving test.. hmm.. although i was skeptical abt sitting in her car last time when she's still learning, i'm surprised to say tt i now look forward to sitting in her car!!! haha! hmm.. let's see, driving to pizzahut aft tennis... then, i sincerely hope she'll discover the route of gg to safra and to my hse(hehe)...

chelsea won their first game under new manager avram grant against valencia at the very difficult mestalla stadium... shall watch the replay later :)

can't believe it's gg to be the end of 3rd wk at work & end of hols soon... definitely looking forward to end of work(it's super tiring to work 9 to 6.30 everyday and fattening cos i dun have time to exercise... haha).. also looking forward to gg back to sch:) haha.. hopefully the experience at sgh has made me wana strive to study hard & smart... i actually look forward to spend more time in the library reading up books related to physio!! HAHAHA... i'm nuts!

weekend has finally came to an end..gotta go work tmr, and get my timesheet signed so i'll be able to get paid soon! juz bought 2 tees from esp and nike(felt so cheated when i tot i'll get a 10% + 10% discount on items if i use nets, then when i made payment for the shirt tt i tried on, the person told me it doesn't apply for new arrivals! damn! shld have said earlier ma! but since i tried it and liked it.. i decided to buy lor..)

chelsea drew against fulham. WTF! there were a couple of shots tt came SO CLOSE to gg in, from both chelsea and fulham... (thank goodness for petr cech for saving one and also the unfortunate shots tt were inches away from causing the first defeat at stamford bridge since 04) ANYWAYS, the commentator did say it's kinda early to predict the winners, but i can already sense it... wish i was wrong..

was introduced to tv-links.. watched brokeback mountain.. but seriously, i think i'm super dense cos i dun seem to understand the story... maybe it's becos of the chi subtitles.. it sux! i was trying to read it cos the accents by the 2 leads were juz too difficult for me to decipher.. darn. and the chi subtitles, at times, were completely off the track! argh. so.. didn't really enjoy the movie... but the acting looked gd.. haha...

sailor moon.. yup.. i've been watching!!! it's soooooo childish and kiddish and girlish but i love it!!! it's like gg back to my younger days.(darn! i feel old now tt i mention tt) esp the crush tt usagi has on both the arcade guy and the tuxedo musk. i juz finish watching epi 14 and there was this part where tux mask rescued sailor moon and they flew away, her in his arms.. i was like gushing and grinning from side to side la! HAHA... actually i'm not really into the plot of sailor warriors fighting the evil, juz the romance part.. haha.. yup... dun tell me to grow up.. let me finish the 200 episodes first!

i am a 19yr old.. turning 20 next year... my god ah... wish i was 17 again(tt age is like not too old, not too young...)

4-0

the time now is 4.50am. i suddenly woke up 5min(cos my 2 alarms didn't wake me up) hoping to catch abit of chelsea's match against hull city. but i think i woke up 10min after the match ended. anyways, being awake and curious/anxious, i decided to come online to check the score. it's 4-0 against the low ranked hull city. THANK GOODNESS! and sinclair scores his first goal for chelsea first team. good for him! and 2 other goals by kalou and 1- 35 yard shot from sidwell.. well done ppls! although it's against a low ranked club, i think it's pretty impt to win the match... i mean, after so many demoralising matches, winning this one cld help to boost the players confidence for them to do better in the other matches.
so right now, i'll juz keep my faith...[i look forward to a WIN in this weekend's match against fulham]

work and chelsea

this is the 3rd day of the 2nd week at work.. so far, it's been pretty slack for me compared to my 2 other frens... i have to keep pestering the IC to gimme work to do, and the things tt she ask me to do are juz - checking, filing, labelling.. it's like checking stuff tt alr has been checked by the big boss.. hai.. but i guess i shld be thankful tt i dun have to do things which require me to consult the perm staff whenever i have a prob... i dun like to trouble others, they alr have their own work to do..

anyway, i shld be seeing an update of a sum of $$$ in my account by next fri(hopefully!). then i'll be able to buy 2 tops from esp and f21 :) maybe a pair of running shoes? cos it feels weird to be running in my tennis shoes. then again, i haven't been doing much running, so it'll prob be a waste if i buy a new pair..

i still haven't find a fren to watch david copperfield with me :(( anyone pls?!


OH. i keep forgetting to do this extremely impt update of my life. my dear precious chelsea has juz lost their manager(on a mutual agreement, wateva). i'm so extremely disappointed tt he left, i dunno who to blame for his departure. and also, i can't believe tt chelsea has yet to score and yet to win a single match in ONE mth! how is tt possible? anyway, as a chelsea fan, i am sad to claim tt the EPL cup will not be back in our shelves for this season. liverpool and arsenal are doing a gd job so far.. hai.. i feel soo depressed leh.. i was soo proud of chelsea's achievement last season... and now, i dunno if i still consider myself as their fan.. i do hope they will come out of this unfortunate situation and try to salvage it asap... rumour has it tt ronaldinho is cmg over.. gosh! wat if he turns out to be the 2nd shevchenko???!!! then everyone will be laughing at poor roman abramovich for wasting his money... SIGH

class bbq

hads loads of fun at limjie's hse... bbq-think we ordered too much food cos last min got ppls decided not to turn up... hotdogs were nice(but still not as nice as the ones i ate at sentosa)

then we had a sleepover at limjie's pl instead of sw's hse.. played pictionary!!! gosh it's sooooo FUN!!! i think the best guess tt my grp did was when i attempt to draw mona lisa and amanda actually got it right!!! haha.. damn fun & funny!

shan't elaborate more.. now got chelsea vs manu match.. HAI.... tmr got work-SIAN.. it's sian cos i have to make calls.. if not, i think i wldn't be so bothered over it..

first wk of work

today was a pretty good day at work. juz do cheques and called a few clinics who have some disputes over the bills and all.. hai.. damn, i think i'll be stuck wif this calling job until the clinics start paying up:( anyway, i wasn't feeling gd cos i'm having menses and i keep sneezing and blowing my nose. didn't wana go to work but still went cos of the pay... today was gd becos i didn't have to deal wif the big one much and the boss wanted us to leave on time! [yes! today was the first time i leave so early! at 6.05pm!]

looking forward to BBQ tmr at limjie's hse and then the sleepover at sw's place :)

oh.. i got introduced to this site called 'facebook'. seems fun!

i hope i can survive the remaining 15days of work.. and look forward to receiving my salary.

ch8 show at 9pm is GOOD! finally! a decent production wif a good cast-thomas ong, chen hanwei & terence chao! it's been sooo long since these GOOD actors appear on tv...

chelsea chelsae :(

i was kinda excited to see chelsea as the more dominating team against rosenburg.. but i was really really disappointed tt they only managed a draw against a supposedly not tt fantastic club...

they had sooo many crosses into the box.. but all of it were met by the defender's headers.. one of the very few crosses from rosenburg, and they scored. HAI. and i think like 3quarter of the game, it was juz chelsea attacking and rosenburg defending(wif their heads)

i juz feel sooo sad tt chelsea didn't do well.. they scored none against both aston villa and blackburn...

i kinda understand tt sometimes, it juz ain't their day.

but still... it sux for both the players and the fans(like me) gosh... i dun even noe wat to say... i tot roman's plan to have 2euro cups in 6 yrs seems pretty alrite and fair for such a major club like chelsea.. but they're gg to have to buck up and pull up their darn socks and NOT have to rely on their injured teammate(lampard & drogba. not tt i dun like them.. but i think the winning formula for a good team shldn't be all abt 2 players only... the rest of them are such great players in their own position too!)

come on chelsea... i noe u can do it. [mr mourinho! pls kick some sense into them!] wait.. mr mourniho, can u do smthg abt it too?

*prays hard*

my first day at work:

job scope: pretty straightforward-printing, data entry, checking(gosh i hate checking-esp when it involves FIGURES! and cheques!)... juz tt i hate learning new things and doing hands-on... ya.. but by the end of the day.. i figured out how to zap the cheques double-sided, and i'm proud tt i solve the paper jam on the other printer! HAHA.. OKOK! dun laugh at the 19yr old inexperienced girl.. tt's why i hate first days...

ppls: there was a nice same age girl to teach us her work as it was her last day.. i know there's alot more we haven't learn and i really fear the BIG IC... not the one in the office, but the one in charge of temp staff.. she reminds us abt things in a tone tt instill fear and stress in me... (somehow, lj seems pretty ok..i noe i noe.. i'm such a scaredy cat!) ya.. but strangely, the other 2 temps who were alr working there seems to have a pretty decent relationship wif the perm staff.. so, hopefully, if i dun screw up in the remaining 18 days,she won't be bias against me. then there's lunch.. the temps goes tog wif the perm staff, which i find-slightly uncomfortable.. although it did allow me to see the nicer and friendlier side of the big ic..

timing: i was really - BOTHERED. by the fact tt we had to do OT.. they didn't really mention and ask us to stay back.. but lj heard tt they often stay back.. and even the rest of the perm staff dun leave til like 645!(we're supposed to end at 6!! in the end, we left at 7.10, and there were still ppls ard).. i was kinda annoyed.. like they only wait til 7 b4 making the comment of 'hey girls.. haven't leave yet ah?' C'mon! wat were we to do? there were still work to be done(never ending) and no one bothered to ask us and tell us tt we can leave the work til tmr! -.- hai.. i juz hope we get paid OT rates... otherwise, even lj wldn't stay.. as for me, i actually wouldn't even wana stay for OT lor.. supposed to use the time between 6-7 to go gym:( i alr told myself to exercise after work at abt 6.20, then now, i've juz found another excuse to not work out cos of late dismissal.. SIAN. i pray tt i do not hit the '6'..

ya... other than the timing.. everything else is still alrite.. thankgoodness there's a fren wif me..


oh ya.. i wana watch david copperfield! MAGIC & ILLUSIONS!!!

tennis and pizza

had a very good tennis session w yh.. prob becos the balls were new and more bouncy.. or that both our strokes have improved.. pretty impressive i muz say.. haha.. hearing the sound of the ball as it flew from one side to the other and back... NICE

then we went pizza hut and met up wif sm, wl, sy. it's been sooo long since i had pizza wif my sec sch frens.. i hope it wasn't becos they read the email, then they decided to come to make me feel happy?! haha.. anyways, it was juz hilarious... sooo many lame and cold and funny jokes and tricks.

1)the lasik tt sm under went. i can't believe i got tricked by sm&wl and then manage to pull of the exact one again on yh&sy! HAHA
2)the unfortunate tsunami & fire outbreak & earthquake (yh! get the torchlinght!)
3)your hero, your coach(if not the person, then the vehicle meh?!) ok la, only i laughed at this one.. but it's prob becos i was v. high alr
4)run for the bus! (wl: oh my god!)
5)cadevas.... eeks!
6)yh's hilarious multiple shots
7)secret!!!! haha...
a)it's a chi movie meh?
b)oh u mean the movie title is so long?
8)sy's octopus shot! NICE!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
gosh.. we shld totally record last nite's dinner. it was juz hilarious all the way! i cldn't finish the last bite of lagsana(first time leh!) prob due to all the laughing(then prob the air went into my stomach and made me bloat?!) thanks frens! i really cldn't stop laughing... it's like i've been surpressing my laughter for past 4 mths, and now, u guys have made me laugh til my head almost fell off! THANK YOU...

i was soo happy last nite... not juz becos of the jokes la.. but also becos i was spending time wif a grp of frens whom i missed sooo much... it feels so darn good.. once again-thank you :)

results

saw the msg wif my results.. i wasn't expecting it cos last nite when i sleep, i didn't even realise tt i wld be the 14th of sept today..

the grades were sorta -expected... haha.. next time i shall do better for anat, kine & physio.

my grades are actually averaged, but i feel it does represent the amt of work i've put in..


alrite, let's' work harder in the next sem!

realised smthg

if someone asks me whether i support england more or chelsea more, my ans wld be the latter. i realised it when i watched the england vs russia match this morning... when owen first scored at the 7th min, i was sitting on my chair making wild gestures. if chelsea had scored, i wld be making wild gestures too, but this time i wld be jumping all over from the living room to the kitchen. haha..

anyways, i went back to sleep at the 20th min, and dreamt tt england scored 3-0!! and indeed they did! woohoo! owen scored twice. [wait a min, did i watch the owen score the 2nd goal?] wateva.. i'm happy for them!

my uni frens very busy these days.. difficult to ask them out or even to meet them at their campus.. now i noe how it feels like to ask ur dear frens to go out and yet they can't make it :( i shan't blame them... i think i crap alot when i say i wanna ask my frens out... now tt i got a job for the remaining of my hols. i think it'll be even harder to meet them:(

anyways, congrats to myself for getting a job for e next 4 wks! my god.. i didn't think it wld be possible to get some admin job but i did! but it's thru agency.. so i have no idea how much my salary will be eaten! but, i muz remind myself tt a portion of the salary will go into my savings for 4th yr deg conversion. yup. oh shit. and i realise i won't be able to gym in the morning anymore.. sian. shall find a way to 'work out' in the evenings(which is v. hard) :(

class chalet

Went for class chalet at sentosa, St james on sat nite and bbq on sun evening..

a bunch of us went to Movida(?) first. it looks like a nice pub wit a small stage and a small dance floor in front of it..I wasn't sure wat to order so i got a cocktail first... Then later got cj to accompany me drink the tequila shot.. it was - alrite i guess.. the salt and lemon helped so i cldn't really taste the drink itself.. but i noe i was feeling 'hot' inside, like even though i was shivering on the outside.. when the band started- it's some spanish ppls i think - or ppls singing spanish songs... only a couple of ladies went to the floor to start dancing.. yup.. the songs were- ok.. spanish versions of a couple of michael buble's songs..

yup, after we had our drinks, we went over to the power house which seemed kinda empty(i guess it's becos it was only 11?) the music wasn't to any of our likings.. so we left soon for boiler's room.. It had better music.. but was super crowded and extremely squeezy, and so we left too..

met up wif shimin.. who brought along her volleyball! haha.. yup, then we saw that they were playing the england match so me and her went to watch it.. a few min after we sat down, england scored!!! WooHoo!! and i kinda felt tt england was sure to win the match.[yup, in the end, england did went on to win isreal 3-0] so, we went to join the others during half-time who went to 7eleven at vivo... i think i was having some sorta headache when we reached there.. many of them had some sort of drink while i was really excited to share nachos wif a fren.. gosh-the cheese tasted soooo good! haha.. then they had some crazy moments at the seats at the cinema... playing soccer using volleyball.. getting ppls to walk in straight line, lying ard and juz laughing. I on the otherhand was really feeling the effects of either a) cocktail b) tequila c)both cocktail & tequila d)the banging music e) 2 drinks & the music. it wasn't tt bad but it juz made me wana go home.. but i realised i didn't have my keys so there's no way i cld sneak back into home at 2 in the morning wout my mum knowing. Yup, after a while, the of the girls decided to go back and the rest of us followed..(one reason was becos we felt they were kinda 'unsteady' and we had to accompany them in case smthg did happen to them)

went back to movida.. i somehow felt better by then..and the place was packed! the music sounded better wif spanish versions of shakira's songs instead.. and the dance floor was packed too... yup.. danced wif a couple of the others, while some others juz kinda laid back and listened to the music... noticed a couple of things on the dance floor... like how this dude was juz obviously looking for girls to dance wif.. it was sooo darn obvious.. i think a couple of ladies juz played along and then ignored him.. it was annoying. the music was awesome and the singers were well, good singers and dancers! i think it was 3 when smthg happened.. apparantly this dude was about to approach 2 of my 'totally high' frens and those who sat behind saw it and so decided to brg them out... these 2 frens- oh my gosh.. they were like in a world of their own!!!! they had no idea wat was gg on! anyways, we decided to take a cab back to our chalet.. [i shan't mention wat happened wif the 2 girls.. juz tt they were acting - really weird.. and funny.]

watched high sch musical 2. but cldn't stay awake for more than 10 min... think the rest also felt tired... and we all juz sqeezed into the 2 beds and 2 mattresses.. i had the chance of taking up 3 different parts of the room cos the first 2 was either hurting my neck or my butt..

the next day, we woke up pretty early.. like 8 plus.. had brunch at koufu then played vball and frisbee at siloso beach.. bbq started at 6? yup.. and the rest of it - well.. juz cldn't stop eating..[ and i muz apologise here cos i felt like i didn't do much to help out except by eating. oops. i do feel guilty..] anyway, the food was good! esp the hotdogs!!! and the chicken wings-gosh! they were all COOKED! haha.. like none were like half-raw or anything.. haha... thanks to all who sweat it out at the pit!!!

anyways, me and a couple of others decided to not stay over.. no place for us to sleep or even sit ...yup!

hols has.. 'officially' started.. as long as i finished my clinicals report by wed.. yup.. then hopefully i can get a job for 3 weeks.. do some shopping.. alot of working out needs to be done... and reading up on new stuff! stuff tt we got to know thru clinicals.. me v. hardworking rite?! haha!!

2 wks of clinicals

Finally, we're done wif clinicals... all the late nite researching and preparation for the speech/ppt were killing me. I'm so glad i got over it.. All i have to do now, is finish up on my activity log & reflection. So, let me sum up the 2nd week of clinicals.

Basically, the monday started off pretty well, cos i managed to meet Mr.P :D twice somemore :)
Yup, so we attended the parkinson's disease support grp, spinal support/exercise grp, and also the cadiopulmonary grp, ACL classes These are all the pretty interestin activities besides following our CE ard... 2nd week saw many patients who alr came in the 1st week. So basically, tt's it. haha..

For the clinical ppt, i sorta screwed up? haha.. didn't appear to have much confidence cos i didn't have eye contact wif the others besides the occasional looking up to my CE. Oh, and it got even worse when it reaches my turn to speak cos the no. of ppls listening increased from 3 to 6..(okok.. 6 is still a pretty small no. compared to those speaking in front of 10..) oh yes, and i was speaking too fast. Ya, and the 5min presentation at nyp was actually slightly alrite despite my lack of practice.. I juz sorta went on in a informal way.. and i think i was one of those ppls tt Mr. Bala mention who 'danced' ard during the presentation... HAHA

Yup... shan't mention too much abt the cases i touched on... i'll be writing them in my log anyway.. Wld mention some interesting things tt happened throughout the weeks
1) we always seemed to be seen by the 'boss' at the wrong place at the wrong time. haha...
2) during the pulmonary rehab prog, while the lady was taking my BP, she gave us some instruction- to take the BP of these 2 gentlemen. I was kinda worried but i didn't show la, then she saw my BP increased(cos the equipment was still clipped onto my finger) and she was like - dun be nervous! then me and tricia burst out laughing... it was juz soo embarrassing!
3) i can't rmb... i'm bad at these..

Oh, realised tt all of us benefitted ALOT from the attachments... And i tot sgh outpatient was pretty gd, but then when i heard the experiences of the others at acute or private hospitals, i think i sorta can't wait to attend my next clinicals. wld definitely wanna be exposed to as many places as possible. Esp. spore sports sch.

Yup, so chalet begins tmr... sorta looking forward to it... i had a paranoid feeling this afternoon when i go to sch. shan't mention too much. But i hope there'll be improvements over the couple of days.

there are soo many things i wanna do over the rest of the hols.. visit my sec sch frens at nus, organise bbq for jc ppls, read up of medical conditions and all...haven't read the books i borrowed... yup... and get a job... so i can save some money and spend some on new clothes :)

finally finished with 1 week of clinicals. still have another wk though.. Even though time may seem to pass slowly and occassionally it can get a little draggy, i muz say this wk's of clinical at sgh is probably the best experience and lesson i had since cmg to nyp. it juz kinda 'reinforced' my interest in physio and tt i have absolutely made the correct decision of cmg here instead of studying any courses in uni.

things i observed, learnt, carried out at sgh:
1) alot of lower limb cases, so i'm probably pretty good at prescribing exercises for quads(okok..i'm NOT THAT GOOD yet, but almost everyday will have a case where the patient will require strengthening of lower quads)
2) the ART of goniometry.
3) importance of communication (eng, mandarin, dialects, malay and even tamil)
4) time management (up to 4 patients at one go! and still muz write the case notes.. otherwise muz stay back and do!)
5) patience
6) analysis of gait(very difficult. i better start observing ppls's gait every now and then)
ya... these and all the nitty gritty detail about knee joint-platella, achilles tendon etc..

Also, I think the ppls at the outpatient clinic are very nice ppls. and some are really friendly.. (office politics is not tt obvious). oh, and they somehow managed to achieve efficiency with a plesant attitude :) if it were me, i'll be panicking all over, or forgetting that i have a patient somewhere else. HAHA.

and then, there's the podiatry hunks. haha, still haven't manage to see them face-to-face, only their backs.. or my back to them. and of course, i won't forget about HIM, the so-gay-yet-so cute dude. SIGH.

oh, of course, i muz mention our supervisor is really good. she tries her best to clear our doubts(provided we have them), and tries to make time for us in between her patients.. she's really good.. and very nice... me and tricia shld prob do a better job next wk when it comes to asking questions and doing more research. [i wonder her she'll grade me...]

so far so good. juz now during the diabetics support grp, i had time to try out most equipments in the gym... i better start working on my back muscles... i have a flat spine and a slightly winged scapula.SOBS:(

hai.. one week left. i think the duration of this attachment is prob juz the right length. Enough to know what i'm getting myself into for the rest of my life. I would probable dread my next clinicals cos i noe there's more things tt i would have learnt by then.. of well, this attachment also give me a little bit of head start for lower limb anat next sem.

problem

i have a HUGE problem. it's been ongoing since the past couple of days. i hope the 2 weeks routine of having to go clinicals will help.

i can't tell anyone wat's the problem. i really can't tell. DON'T ASK. i mean it.

but not to worry, my frens. i'll be fine. 2 weeks. tt's all i need.

hmmm...

got this from yh who got it from su.. hmm.. not very sure how they actually derive these stuff.. but some are pretty true and some are.. well, it's nice to read good things abt myself.. haha..
http://www.adestiny.com/bazi_report/sample


Personality and Character
You are a self confident and enterprising person. You have a soft spot for sob stories. Though you have a slick exterior in fact you are touchingly sincere. Where love is concerned you will never miss a chance to seduce or be seduced. You can be irresistible and possess absolute attractiveness. You do not make friends easily but once you make friends you care deeply for them.
You have a grandeur, strong and impressive appearance. You like status quo and always like to be admired and try to upkeep such image dearly. As a result of such premise, it is difficult for you to sustain such image. A determined and firm person you are also stubborn once you set your mind on something. You are quite prepared to take risks and can get jealous easily.
Romance and Compatibilities
In love, you will never miss a chance to seduce or be seduced, but once the intimate moments have passed then you do not care what has happened. You can also be extremely sentimental and can be taken in by sob stories. You should be advised to stay more at home and close to your family if you want a happy family life. Your best partners are Gemini born in Rat/Monkey years, Aquarius and Sagittarius born in Rat/Monkey years.
You are the aggressive rather than passive type and you will go after a man if you find him interesting. You will let the man know if you find him crude, outrageous or intolerable.
Profession
You are ambitious as aspiration is very important to you. Probably, you will graduate with top honors from good schools/colleges and try to a get job that is worthy. You love challenges and will do things where others dare not try. A self-believer, you will achieve success ultimately.
You are not afraid to start in a low position and work hard to achieve your goal. Due to your determination and hard work it is very likely you will reach a high position, as you get older. Whatever fields you have chosen you are likely to end up in a front-man position in due course. You are suited for working in the civil service and if you are in the private sector you will work in the management of an organization or in the field of creativity. Your ambition is high and you like to do big things.

over!

woa!!!! it's over!!! one semester at nyp!!! can't believe it.. my frens at nus juz started sch, while here i am, finishing the last paper of the sem... time REALLY flies

anyway, think i didn't do so well for phsyio essays.. but i hope overall can pass.. a C is preferred over D. HAHA... yup, done wif kine and anat too.. left the dreadful clinicals. actually i also dunno why i dread clinicals... maybe becos it's GRADED, and i'm not sure if i'm confident of wat i have learnt over the semester (eg transfers and mmt). HAI.. nvm, it's 2 wks only... juz hope the person in charge wld hurry and reply my fren abt our appt...

went to nus to eat prata wif shuwei... loved the curry.. haha... then went to bk at fass and met up with angie... they seemed kinda vexed wif the bidding/balloting over the timetables and stuff... but i guess it is kinda new.. and it's not like their timetable is tt gd.. my dear sw ends sch at 8pm on 2 days! my gosh... haha.. i'm happy wif my timetable, i hope next sem, it won't differ THAT MUCH...

oh.. alot of cute angmohs at nus... and the guys there are more - mature looking.. not like the ah bengs in my sch. OOPS. oh wells, maybe i'll visit them during the hols more often...

i can't believe it. i'm done! happy me!

i shall not be arrogant. yet.

man u is soooo not gg to win this season's title if they continue drawing and firing blanks in their games!!!!

chelsea, on the other hand, though they've leaked in a couple of goals, they've still managed to win their first 2 matches depite falling behing at early stages of the match. ALL THE WAY CHELSEA!



i kinda dread clinicals... dunno wat to expect... and the stupid uniforms cost 90bucks! WTH!



finished my anat paper yesterday.. i'm glad it's over. i definitely had trouble with the first 10 and last 10 question... had no clue... but, i'm pretty confident abt the essays, i'm sure everyone else is too...


Some of my frens feel very strongly that it is more stressful now compared with last time studying for A levels.. Not for me though... It's not like I have been studying so consistently tt i dun have to mug hard at the last stage. But it's probably becos during e period of taking A levels, the tremendous, enormous amt of pressure and stress that i gave myself, and that thought that: if i dun do well, i will not make it to uni/pt in nyp. I was crying so often, esp when i touched on my best subj, bio. SO, maybe becos i believe tt A levels itself is THE MOST STRESSFUL part in my 18 yrs of life, i've decided tt if i can 'conquer' A level, everything else shld be a piece of cake. and perhaps tt's why when i studied for anat, physio, kine... i juz have the mindset tt i will get through all of them, cos they are kinda 'minor' compared to Alevels..

BUT, another thought juz popped up my head the other day. if i wanna be one of those graduating with credit. then, perhaps i shld study harder, push myself more, and be more stressed out?! HAI...... i really dun wanna have to deal with stress, becos i noe i'm juz very weak mentally... wateva. i'll juz settle this sem, and maybe i'll start anew for next sem:)

crappy

had a bad start during the session. realised tt i sux at tennis. esp if i dun practise regularly. partnered coach for doubles cos i had no choice which was becos i was the lousiest out there. sense of inferiority. did manage to serve better than the past 2-3 sessions... but no comments by him during serving prac. once again, sense of inferiority. fell down and hurt my knee. ouch. [i had a bad feeling when i decided to wear the pair of loose socks. hai. shall get a nice pair of nike tennis socks when i start playing regular tennis in future.]


of course me and coach win 2/2 of the matches. like, come on, we are such an AWESOME pair! i juz served/returned serve and stood at the back, while he totally chionged for every single shot. thanks coach! i juz LOVE WINNING without doing anything at all!


it's not i dun wan to run lor, but i do get a tinge of feeling tt he'd rather play the point out himself then like let me screw up. yes, sense of inferiority, once again. tt's why i chose to remain at the back. Then again, there's the fact tt he's a faster runner, so seeing tt i wasn't in the service box, he naturally ran up immed. Then again, he didn't ask me to stand in the box cos he knew i wasn't as gd as isabell when it comes to volleys. Then again, i had no initaitive. WATEVA JOYCE! yes, sometimes i can't stand myself either... always coming up with the perfect excuses...


i didn't really like the waiting part. before the session ended, i partnered another guy to play the last few point. then i felt more relaxed and put in more effort to run forward cos afterall, he seems more willing in giving me chance to hit the balls.


yes, i had my good moments today.. lucky shots here and there. but we all know it's juz lucky shots, so even if it's like dumbfoundedly good lucky shots, i still felt lousy out there tonite.




if only u knew... THEN AGAIN... oh wateva, YOU NEVER WILL.

i had a strange dream while taking a nap juz now.

i think my sec sch frens and i and another bunch of ppls were at this place holidaying. then halfway during the 'tour', we were spolited up, and i was somehow left alone with a bunch of strangers while my close frens went their own ways.
then afterward, we went back by a car driven by one of my fren, simin...(see! i noe u can pass ur driving test!) In that car, i dunno how big, but can fit me, sy, yh, wl, ap and of course the driver sm.. not sure who sat next to sm tho.. haha.. weird.
So i sorta had this huge confrontation with the rest of them, whereby i was telling them how left out i felt, and i think there was this one que tt i popped up, "do u guys still want me as ur fren? of juz the kind tt u all say hello and bye to only?" nobody answered.. they remained silent.. hmm.. then afterwards i said smthg like 'hello?! we're 22 yrs old! can u all be mature and ans the que".. then i think the rest of them said smthg like 'no, we're 17 only...' and they smiled..

i suppose they meant tt our friendship is juz the same as tt when we were 17?

haha.. anyway, i sorta teared after the dream, when i wake up... one tear only. yup, wateva it is, tho we're separated cos of the diff schs we're in, and even tho there's still a tiny primary grp formed within this sorta informal and small secondary grp, i hope our friendship is still strong and er.... strong?! LOL.. sorry ah.. not gd wif this sorta stuff... juz wana say thank you to all for being a fren to me the past years, and may our friendships last even longer.. til our children's generation.. haha..



anyway, tt aside, i did well for another paper again. muz say i'm totally shocked, cos after the paper, i felt like i wldn't do well at all..
ya.. anyway, sorry fren... i wasn't there for you... i hope u feel better now and juz persevere for the last week ok?! cheer up!

exams

i was pretty reluctant to turn up for dinner wif the rest at marina juz now. I didn't wanna eat at the open air area at marina south..dirty, unhygenic and hot. Anyway, i gave jie face, so i went, and turned up late, cos i didn't wana be the one waiting again. Yup, so we reached, but find tt it was pretty crowded at the bus stop, so we decided to head for seoul garden at marina sq...

$26.50 was the amt each of us paid... and i think i ate like $3 worth of cheap stuff like fishball and the fishcake kinda food... Did eat some meat... but juz wasn't craving for meat, so didn't eat my money's worth.. eve turned up! long time no see.. she passed me the christina's cd, but i can't seem to open it...hmmm....

then went over to marina bay-esplanade... took a couple of photos and watched this performance.. couple of ppls 'playing wif fire'... seemed abit dangerous, but at the end, we sorta concluded tt it was juz kinda boring...

yup.. tt's all.. sw wanted to stay out later, but we were kinda out of places to go, and some had to work tmr... and nope, i didn't regret gg out... was nice meeting up with them.. all the negative thoughts i had when i left home juz kinda fade away when i see them... :)

hope i did well enuf for kine prac and shs test, cos i'm soooo gg to screw up in the kine exam...

and i sorta think there's smthg wrong wif one of my lecturer cos he gave away like soo many mcq and essays so tt none of us wld have to sit for sub... i like the idea of narrowing the stuff to study, but somehow, it feels wrong abt wat he's doing... hmm.. nvm me..

soccer season starting in couple of days!!!! OMG! it's like perfect timing, cos the start of the season is the end of my exams.. and my mum won't have reason to nag at me for watching! Unfortunately, chelsea is having serious injury crisis.. like NONE of them is fully FIT without a small little injury somewhere here or there... uh oh.... and they're facing liverpool for their 2nd match!!!! NOT FAIR! tt's really tough.... esp now tt JT is out for a mth or so... SOBS:( i hope they get back the title...

ROCK ON CHELSEA!

hai...

i do enjoy playing tennis, but i just can't wait to end the tennis lessons.

i was kinda surprised wif my anat prac results... hmm.. muz have been moderated.
i still can't believe i happily wrote iliacus instead of psoas major... unbelievable..

sleepover

had a sleepover at sw's place last nite.. too bad there were only 3 of us(me, sw &cheryl)... cld have been more fun if the others had come.. anyway, it started late cos i had tennis & cheryl had work... so we only reach her hse at 12am? haha..

watched the rat chef movie ["ratatoliee']? had popcorns too.. the movie is very cute, and i think it's pretty nice to watch :) yup, then after tt, we watched e 2nd disc for mr and mrs smith cos somehow the dvd player cldn't read the first disc.. haha...it was ard 2plus3, and i cldn't take it anymore, so i fell asleep first...

hmm... it was nice meeting up with them.. listening to the various stuff tt's been happening in our separate lives.. hai.. cheryl is gg overseas next year.. definitely gg to miss her:( hopefully i can save up to visit her at the end of next yr or earlier..

ppls studying at nus are gg to start sch soon.. they'll be having their orientation during my exam period.. hai.. wish i cld join them.. bet it's sooo much more fun then ours. i'll surely visit those studying there during the hols. yes, cruise ard the campus in yh's car.( gd luck fren! u'll drive, and i'll navigate! HAHA!)

can't wait to finish the exams:) even tho i'm totally clueless abt shs's ppt and kine lect.. hmm.. well, at least i'm not the only one having this trouble.

anyway, i've got serious weight and facial issues. as if it wasn't bad enuf, dunno why now, all the sudden serious pimple breakout. argh.

transformers

i was surprised and disappointed when i found out that we would be sitting first row for the movie transformers. it was supposed to be quite long since the opening of the movie... oh well..

the movie was FANTASTIC! EXCELLENT! ACTION-PACKED!!! TOTALLY ROCKED!!!!
seriously. i was BLOWN AWAY. it was wat everyone says- action from start to end of the whole movie! it's definitely my MOVIE OF THE YEAR! and i thought, at one point, the movie kinda resembled power rangers-at the part where the 5 vehicles transformed into the enormous robots. "go go power rangers!" haha...

exams coming! hope i can get through it.
soccer season starting! dunno if i will be excited or reluctant to watch... hai..

no pain, no gain.

i think i'm not used to the concept of 'no pain, no gain'. except in terms of mugging. I find myself being more and more unwilling to sacrifice time and money in going for squash and tennis lessons.

Supposed to attend squash tmr so tt coach will teach us backhand, which there is also a possibility that he wld have forgotten abt it. I have no sch tmr leh, then the lesson starts at 7pm, so means i needa purposely go sch for a 2hr squash session. i am juz sooooo reluctant to do so... it's not fair tt i get my fren to go and learn, and then teach me another day... And if i'm so unwilling to fork out a couple of hrs, then i might as well not learn the sport rite?!

As for tennis, i do wanna play and learn new strokes like backhand slice, drop shots, and to hit the balls either cross court or down the line. But the coach is still sorta focusing on our basics like forehand, backhand and serve. Which i do understand cos we're still weak in these areas and therefore he doesn't wana teach us the new stuff... "muz learn to crawl b4 u can run/walk" I get it. But i dunno... it feels like a waste of time and money too... And then there's this OTHER FACTOR.

See... i dunno how i survived 4yrs of band practice and performances... I noe i seldom miss prac until sec3-4... and even though i get kinda scared abt the footdrills and sectionals, I won't actually find band prac a waste of time. but for tennis and squash, I seriously lack the discipline and commitment to go for the lessons.It's probably becos these lessons are not compulsory and tt i won't get into trouble if i dun attend... Haiz, i really can't be a sports athelete...HAHA.. not that i'm FIT to be one in the first place...

Right now, my classmates are actually playing sports like badminton, volleyball and bball while here i am blogging. Well, i gave the reason tt i didn't wana get sweaty and stink on my way back. But the real reason is that i'm juz reluctant and unwilling. WHY? i have NO IDEA too:(

I do wana play tennis and squash wif my frens on a regular basis, but again, i feel lazy having to brg balls, rackets,shoes, towel, extra clothes to the sch tt is 1hr15min away. There's the option of a locker, but i dun feel safe putting a 215$racket inside it..

i'm such a lazy girl - i can't stand myself!!!