*hmpf*

beware: there's this predator out there. he's preying on us. he's creepy. beware of your actions and words.

Went to collect the tshirt and pass for the aviva open. They had to put our FACE on the pass!!! so clever.. but, i look totally hideous in tt pic. The green shirt reminds me of golf, esp tiger woods.

then i saw the schedule.. wasn't too pleased wif it.. i'm doing 2 days, 13 hrs only.. while some others are doing more... hiaz.. but it's not really their fault that they get to do more, afterall, it's the lady who made the arrangement. And really, i dun need that much cip hours liao(provided rina gives me my 13hrs of cip).. juz tt i put alot of effort(and money for all e msgs), and it didn't turn out to be wat i want.

my gosh! i feel dumb abt writing this.. well, that' s me. being the ever so calculative girl. wonder why i still fail math though.. haha...


Anyways, i'll be doing an extra day wif amanda.. hopefully, we'll get to take pics wif big stars like peter gade & ronald susilo... but chances are not so high.. cos the players are supposed to meet the media aft their match... (unlike ruggers who juz go and take a bath immediately aft the match). So, we'll see..

x3

x3 is not bad... especially the popcorn part.. haha.. i meant, i enjoy eating the popcorn... so tasty. yum yum.i dun usually eat popcorn during movies.. i think i'm addicted to it..
the show itself.. not bad.. except that some ppls have v little parts.. like cyclops:( then, that boy with wings, whom we all thought will have some major role, turns out to be juz another ordinary mutant... the climax part.. was alrite.. the show is too short!!!

yay!!! hols are finally here!!! can concentrate on revising for bt2.. however.. i'm worried i might not be revising my work in the most effecient method.. hmm... and then there's the GREAT SINGPORE SALE!!! so tempting!!!

MI 3

went to watch MI:III.. is pretty good... impressive.. but the plot abit.. expected.. ya.. then there were some quite ridiculous scenes... like:

1. the part where he flew fr from building to another.. (i tot it was a remake of spiderman la! it's so... very impossible!!! i guess that's the reason for the name of the movie. ..but still... he should go audition for spiderman 3 or smthg..)


2. this is the 'off' moment'. the part where ethan ask the wife to switch on the switch, and then he suddenly ' stop! ..... i love u'.!!! argh! like so outta place... it was such a crucial moment leh... and the way he said it is like.. very casual... ya.. quite funny tho.


3. following that, when we all tot he was dead, and the wife was doing CPR... couldn't wake him up... then we all tot he really die liao.. then the wife got so emotional, she started banging on his chest.. THEN, he suddenly woke up, sat straight and point the gun at this already dead guy... this part quite er.. 'not logical' abit fake.. hehe.. but i'm glad he didn't die.


overall, the movie is pretty good. i'd give 3.5stars.. i juz didn't really appreciate maggie q's acting.. no.. maybe the fact that she's asian.. sorry.. she looks really gorgeous tho.. and there's the other cute guy.. but the 3 other person in ethan's team seem to have v little show time.. ya, the action part pretty impressive..


ok.. after this, i hope to watch posiedon and x3..

sian.

yesterday's weather was very good.. very cooling.. however, i still failed the 2.4 test.. felt so bad.. cos cheryl ran with me too.. wasted her effort.. so sorry...

then, during chem spa, i made a utterly stupid mistake.. i wrote alcohol first instead of aldehyde.... so dumb la!!! this is the outcome of PURE MEMORISING!!! rah!


then there was this discussion abt the ymca proposal.. we all got very pissed off with tc.. i dun want to talk abt it anymore.. he's juz such as asshole sucker.


the nicest part of the day was the band concert.. it was super good!!! not only were the music, there were great visual effects too!! like the cute surong!!! haha.. she so cute la!! and i was impressed with that jeremy tay guy.. he played euphonium so well... so sweet of him to dedicate the song to his mum... too bad yihui wasn't there to watch him.. oh, then there was the gd-looking saint's alumni guy, benjamin yeo.. looked like a matured version of surong's peanut.. haha.. but benjamin is so much better looking... :)

deep shit.

we're in! (happy and sad) we're in deep shit(sad)

we're selected to carry out our proposal for the YMCA-Citibank youthforcauses.

i'm speechless, overwhelmed with mixed feelings.
huixin is very upset and stressed out in the super dramatised form..
Aiping & Shiying are both juz.. shocked


our proposal really sux. really. look at the budget plan, it doesn't make sense at all.. it's so amateurish... [my heart is still pumping pretty hard]


things can really go outta hand.. bio spa aside, i still have to commit 4 days of cip at aviva open(that i'm interested) but now that there's this stupid.. [it's been so long since i last use the F word] so Fked up... i'm really.. in deep shit


initially, it was my (stupid) plan to juz ANYHOW write a proposal and hand in, so that our testimonial will look ok(at least we participated in smthg)... we weren't expecting to get in.. afterall, the proposal really sux. it's totally my fault. i'm sorry.


if we're j1s or j3s, i certainly dun mind carrying it out.. but j2s! i juz got back our report card.. not fantastic.. consistent, according to ms soh ( but i think it's more like consistently bad). i'm supposed to spend more time on studies la... at this rate. my testimonial will look fantastic.. and my grades? HORRENDOUS.


good luck to me..

confusion

went for the health care tok on fri.. there was 2 toks abt pharmacy and lab med, whic i felt were TOTALL BORING. not the speakers, (although they were) but the career itself.. eeks! besides, i wldn't have the grades to get there (sa only had 6 ppls gg to pharmacy in 2004) ya, finally the last speaker came on to tok abt physiotherapy.. i think it's really quite interesting lor.. it's not like the job requires much of those chemistry and complicated stuff.. i mean, the body is complicated.. but i'd rather work on helping people than researching on some new drug... i noe, i may not appear as the super sociable kinda person.. but i feel that i would wanna have a career that allows me to interact with people, rather than being in the lab!


ya, e speaker informed us of the routes to that physio. includes gg nyp(the only local option) for 3 years to get diploma before converting to a degree which takes 1 yr, either overseas or local. there's a scholarship too!! my gosh!!! i want! for speech therapy, which i was also kinda keen.. there are NO LOCAL institutions, so MUZ go overseas.. (no way).. THEN, the most shocking part(worrying, actually), is that she say the the competition for the course is pretty stiff.. 50 outta 200!!! i was like, jaw totally dropped! at that moment, i tot, there is absolutely no way i can make it there. no way. and then i was like, shit.. if i dun take physio, what am i gonna do?? oh no!!! i'm so freaking worried and disappointed and rejected...


how how? on the way back, angeline and i were like saying, we shld study very hard, so we could both get into the course.. i'm like.. er... 'if u get in, i can't get it liao.' oh sshit. how?! if i really wanna get into the course, i'd have to really STUDY VERY HARD!!!


but then again.. what if i dun like it? wat if i get into nyp and then realise that i dun like physio.. wat am i gg to do?? 4 years leh! i dun wanna waste my life away studying for smthg i;m not interested in. personally, i dun think we shld juz 'see what our grades are first'.. i think at this stage, if we each know the direction we wanna go, studying for the rest of the year will be so much 'easier' cos we'll keep our purpose in mind and not give up until we reach that goal.


it is very impt that i figure if phsyio is the path that i wanna take... hmm.. i'm so confused... then again, if i really want physio, can i get the grades? i'm soo freaking dejected now.. only abt 10 weeks to bt 2.



bio spa sux!!

bleh.

the sch say they'll do smthg abt our pw grades.. hopefully they'll review how our stuff are graded, and regrade it, so tt they'll give a more 'deserving' grade.. and they did gave a good reason for their 'slow' response- saying it's becos of the long weekend break. ok fine. i'll see what they do...


went for blood donation today.. had a full meal at 1 plus.. then waited for ping til 3.15.. surprisingly, there were alot of ppls at the bloodbank today.. alot of male workers... ya, so i was kinda nervous abt whether i'll faint.. cos i DID felt dizzy and faint the last time i donated blood... so, the first 'injection' the staple shot - was actually quite painful... i was like... ouch! ok, not so loud la.. then went into the room... waited for quite long, before the nurse came to help me.. and the first anticeptic(i can't spell!) shot was also quite painful... i was supposed to relax the stressball, but i still squeeze it, then i saw that the vein(or wateva) kinda swelled.. hurhur..eeks! then afterwards, she inserted the needle.. also abit pain, cos she seem to have forced it in more.. aiyoyo..

overall: PAIN


after the donation, immediately after e nurse took out the needle, my heart started pumping really hard, and ONCE AGAIN, i felt dizzy!!! it was so argh! headache, cold sweat breaking out(due to low blood pressure, NOT the hotness). i was thinking to myself : I AM SO NOT DONATING BLOOD EVER AGAIN! ya.. the nurses came over.. the doc came over... fanned me, gave me drink... ya.. made me feel better... then the nurse say, 'next time u come, tell the nurses to give me a smaller pack for donation...so, u dun really have to stop donating blood, juz donate lesser'. that makes sense.. and so i felt.. ok maybe i'll give it ANOTHER shot.


then i stood up, and walked to the cafe. surprising i was feeling OK.. very good. no dizziness.. i could get my own refreshments w/out feeling dizzy... and i took a BUS home!! haha...i wanted to take cab, but all hired... and ya, i didn't faint on the way.. i felt normal...


so, overall, it was good and bad.. bad, becos my dizziness was immediately after the needle was pulled out(the first donation, i still have time to tok to ping before i felt dizzy).. the good thing, i recovered very much faster from my dizzy spells.. haha...


i'm starting to rethink abt the 50 donations... BUT i'm willing to give it another shot...

feeling the heat already.

rahhh... juz started doing the math revision hw for those who've failed bt1... i can't do!!! i feel so useless... i juz can't rmb stuff... it's mid april liao... next week is gonna be super busy.. got napfa, chem test, LOTS OF ASSIGNMENTS to be handed in, 4 shifts of cip, tuition... my gosh... THIS is wat JC LIFE IS ABOUT.. except that i lack a proper cca(which i replaced it with cip).. then, i still need to train for 2.4, cos i hope to pass at the end of the month(which seems abit too fast, now that i look at my fully packed schedule- it means i only have a week left)


block test 1 results were horrible even though i sounded relieved at my previous entry.. i'm really at a loss as to what i can do... so much to study. so little time... 18 years old... it means i've been in the edu system for like 11 years!!! my gosh... suffered so much... i wish i could juz end it at As... unfortunately, in such a MERITOCRATIC country like spore.. As will get me NOWHERE.. and it's not like my As result will be fantastic anyway... wat to do?!


yh told me she may be gg for overseas studies... i'm so envious... if only my folks were WEALTHY... (i'm contented with what i have liao, tho..)


i'm at this phase again-i'm really clueless... i dun wanna study for the sake of studying... i need an aim... but like what yh says, reality is more than often different from what we really want... studying marine animals is what i'm interested, but my grades and financial status are saying 'impossible. be realistic'.


hmm.. it's 9 now.. i shld prob snap back to reality - finish up my hw.. go to bed... and hmm.. stop thinking abt pw and start dreaming of jeff wong!

argh!

yesterday, we went to get our pw results.. i was telling shuwei that i'm expecting a 3 cos ms soh already said our class did badly. and yup, i was rite, the whole class except deb got a 3. i was feeling ok abt it lah.. 60% of the sch got 3.. so, maybe we really screwed up.. "MOVE ON", i told myself.

last nite, i went for dinner with ap, wl, simin, yh, des, xinyi. i asked abt their results.. and they were like mostly 2 except dunno who get 1.. and i was like!!!!! what the hell?!?!?! ok, i dun tok abt jj and pj. but, ap, wl, sy and yh all got a 2!!!! no offense to them... but if they got a 2, shldn't i get a 2 too?!!! afterall, fr wat i heard fr them, for each component of their work, it seems like there's alot of mistakes even up till they hand up the last draft... and mine is like, most requirements were fulfilled... so why issit i get a 3???? i dun usually make this sort of statements, but i seriously feel that I DESERVE BETTER THAN A 3! like, c'mon, i did 5 PIs leh!!! some of the others did like only 2 at most?! and ms soh was definitely pleased with my final PI draft... and for the rest of the components, i did until the comments given were satisfactory before i hand in. so i was really pissed with this shit result.


today is my bdae.. i didn't wanna tok abt pw... if fact i was fine with my results UNTIL i heard the other ppls.. i'm so ARGH!!! my class got a 3.... 28 outta 29!!! like, isn't it WEIRD???? how's that possible??? if like one third got 2.. then ok , wateva. but 28 of us!!! and it's not like deb is the only one who's eng is gd.. other ppls like jac and sw, their stuff always got praised in class.. what happend???!!! IN MY OPINION, there is seriously something WRONG with the TEACHER!!! whoever that teacher is.. my goodness, can't she/he like rechecked everything if she realised the whole class 3s??!! it makes no sense at all... it's NOT FAIR! if they wanna make it fair, get cambridge to grade us instead! that i'll have nothing to say!

and poor ms soh and gary and whoever in the class who blames themselves. it's none of our fault.. and it's definitely not ms soh's fault! in fact i think she did a wonderful job in explaining the requirements for each component, and she was so nice that she marked ALL of our drafts(there's alot cos everyone kept redoing in order to fulfill ALL the requirements) ... so i feel sad for her too... she did so much work, all of us did so much work too! and this is the kinda grades we get???!!! c'mon.. there muz be smthg wrong!


complain to the sch?! oh forget it!! all they gonna do is find some way and juz shut our mouths(like they always do).. it's so ARGH!




ANyWAY, now that i'm done shooting my mouth off.. i shall lighten things up.. first of all, i wanna thank my class ppls, angeline, lj, sw, cheryl, eve, mel, surong, sheena, jo, huixin, wm, amanda, for the cute pink/grey le coq sportif jacket they gave.. nice jacket, nice price... hehe:) and then there's the whole other gang : simin, ap, xinyi, yh, wl, des, for spending the nite, till 1130 with me at orchard... and the presents they gave.. thanks alot ppls!!! love u all!!!

...

today was supposed to be a good day.. there wasn't supposed to be any 2.4.. at least not for the few of us who didn't do 5 stations last week. so i was feeling pretty good.. no tummyaches in the morning...


so we had chem lect... i muz say - mdm lee is really a very effective lecturer.. .she may be very fierce at times.. and her voice can be quite sharp and loud.. but she can really drill the stuff into our head.. it's like, we dun really have a choice but to listen. hopefully she'll lect us more often... unlike for other lectures, like math.. i'm super easily distracted cos i dun understand, and the lecturer is so slow and soft, and she juz doesn't get things across...


anyway, the not so good part abt the day is pe. mr ho casually said that everyone will be running for 2.4.. so i was like.. hmm.. 'can't be.. i dun think so..'. then he got kun to lead us to doing warmup..at that time, it was pretty dark, and looks like it was gg to rain anytime soon. so i kept praying it will rain, so we no need to run. Next, someone ask him 'are we all doing 2.4 today?' and he was like 'didn't i say already? we are all doing 2.4 today!' oh shit!!! what the hell?!?!?! i'm so not prepared.. he blew the whistle. and off everyone went... no choice lor.. juz run... and i was praying so hard that it will NOT rain.. cos it'll affect my running... in the end, it did rain.. not v heavily, but my glasses were covered with raindrops, and i felt as though i was crying, when it's juz the rain drops. yup, so i took 18.24min.. fail, but still an improvement from my 19.50 in my first trial... so it's ok.. i'm alrite.. actually, i kinda predicted my timing... it's gg according to my plan.. so HOPEFULLY, i'll get a better timing at end of the month.. maybe bronze... that's my aim anyway...


yup... that's abt all that happened today.. anyway, i juz realised that i was actually the one who asked jeff wong to take a pic.. hehe!! and before that, on day 1, i our eyes met a couple of timess when he was getting ready for the match!!! yea! ya.. he looks super cool in his tight jersey, and super cute in his casual attire.. (sigh) i juz can't stop thinking abt him..

standard chartered singapore sevens

okok.. i'm so happy!!!! i've got loads to tell..ok, went to do cip at national stadium for the standard chartered spore sevens.


on fri-briefing/dryrun = blah blah... we were late...(i was rite abt the timing tho..hehe).. so, were were told our duty was to bring the teams to their holding rm before their game starts.. simple. btw, we also saw ronald susilo running, on the outer perimeter in the stadium.. oh, and we all spotted this cute guy whom we all agree is cute.. (according to eve, she caught hime staring at her 3 times. hmm...)


sat= got our teeshirts.. dryfit x2. so we started.. the canadian team was early.. they were warming up, rite in front of the voluteers(us).. and i saw this cute part where they lift each other by their butt!! so cute!!! i got it on video!!! haha.. yup, china was early too.. and then the rest of the 16 teams start streaming in..

so, i was in charge of these few teams on sat - scotland(nice coach, we tok abt the weather).they quite auto.., i haven't say anything then they move to holding rm liao... that's not the same for korea, and japan tho.. can't even communicate w the ppls... ya.. so.. while i was outside the holding rm, ALOT of players passed by... and i was juz like.. trying not to make it obvious that i'm look at them.. some of them even wrapped in towels and then come out of changing rm.. so embarrassing!(for me!).. haha.. but i saw that they actually wore smthg inside.. yup.. so that's abt wat we did.. during our break, we also went up the grandstand to watch the games.. ok, so at the end of the day, we were all sitting at the volunteers area.. watching the players sign autographs for the ppls... and i wanted to take photos w them!!! but i was SO SHY!!! i didn't dare too... ya... so many cute and gorgeous hunks! AAAHHHH!!!! there's this canadian one, the hongkong no.9!!!! er... ya.. can't rmb liao... but the hongkong one was the main one, cos he's so extremely cute... he pass by me like a couple times!!! (sigh.) ya.. so basically.. tt day i was super exhausted.. and very upset and disappointed at myself for not taking any photos WITH the players.. ( i did took photos OF them... )


sun= bad start! the ic was like.. 'today is gonna be v impt.. we're gg to cut down on the no. of volunteers.. if u're not needed, go up to the gallery and watch the math.. and DON"T take photos with the players cos their matches will be very tight..(blah)'. ya, so i was super sad and down when i know i can't take photos with them... argh! and then during noon, we heard that mel and eve took pics with one player! i was so jealous!!!!

BUT THEN, at ard 4 plus 5... somehow, i went to look for eve and wenmin, who were hiding out at the holding rm area.. and i reluctantly yet excitedly stayed.. (cos when i enter, i heard the ic scolding some guy) ya..so we waited.. and finally! i took photos with some of the guys.. a few only la... eve and wenmin took with almost everyone who were not getting ready for the match.. ya.. but i wasn't sure of their name.. and i cldn't rmb their faces.. so there was 1 guy, who we took with, and i almost wanted to take with him again! hahaha..


then afterwards, we went for dinner.. the best meal so far.. cos everything was WARM. ya.. at that time, i was like.. still hoping to take pic with hongkong no.9. his name is jeff wong. but by the time we went back, i didnt see him liao.. we went to the carpark.. thankfully hongkong's bus was still there.. i wanted to stake out there one.. but eve wanted to watch the finals between england and fiji(fiji won). so AT THE END of everything.. we were like all looking for players to take photos with.. (we=me, wenmin and eve) security was prett tight.. but we still managed to get a couple of photos.. thankfully, the ic wasn't at that area where all the players were... [oh, there was this england player who DIDN"T take photo with me, he says to do so after the match, but in the end, no time, and i only saw him wrapped in a towel, and walked to the bus:(]


ya, SO, we were all waiting at the area, waiting to take pics with the england players.. and the next thing i knew - jeff wong!!!! woohoo!!! he walked out with a couple of frens..playfully hitting one another... i hurriedly nudged at wenmin... and i took a photo with jeff wong! yay! at first i tot wenmin was too fast, cos i saw the flash before i was standing next to him, but then went i got into position, he placed his arm ard my back, and i manage to nudge closer to him(eeks, i juz rmb my face was super oily! haha.. hope he didn't feel that) yay!! i was so happy la!! And after that, he smiled at me and said 'cheers!' my gosh!!! AAHHH!!! So cute!!!!! [He's on my display pic, ya.. he's abit short.. in fact, one of the shortest players.. but he's extremely cute please!!!!! I can feel his bubbliness and friendliess and everything!!! ]


yup, so tat was the main part... all in all, I took 5 solo shots with the players... ok lah.. although I didn't take with that Canadian and new Zealand players..nvm... I've got JEFF!!! Hoots!



So that's basically all.. I was so freaking happy the whole way home.. when I reach home, I cldn't sleep at all!!!! Cos I juz cldn't stop smiling and thinking of jeff… (sigh.) I think I finally fell asleep at 1 plus and somehow I woke up way before the alarm clock rang(at ard 5.30) and yes, I was smiling!
Oh my.. I'm juz so crazy over him rite now.. he's like my latest obsession.. oh my gosh!!! I love jeff!!!


random stuff- 1)i saw a player's naked butt!!! not on purpose!!!! they didn't close the door.. and i juz happened to glance in.. and there it was.. hmm.. so embarrassing.. lucky no one saw me seeing his butt... 2)alot of players from fiji and england juz wrapped a towel around their waist and walked to their bus at the end of the day.. 3) the england player i wanted to take with looks ABIT like andy roddick.. aiya.. i really can't rmb...


overall= an experience i'll always rmb!!! esp jeff wong!!!

Unbelievable!!!! woohoo!!!

i've got so many good news!!! i dunno where to start from!!! haha...

let's start from.. bio. okay, so for the bt1, i've got F for math and E for chem. so i tot i'm basically a goner and will have to meet parents cos there's no way i can get a B for bio to get 30 pts overall.. so.. (this part abit kiddish... will sound like a 3yr old being praised for getting the abc right. but i insist on writing cos it juz made my day).. Yup, so, ms ng was gg thru the mcq, then she was asking which statement was incorrect.. so there were 4 statements rite.. she asked me the first which i couldn't ans.. and then she asked the class abt the 3rd statement, which no one ansed.. and she said 'hmm, let me see who did well for the cardiac cycle'. so she looked at her list, looking at the bottom few,(thinking it cld be liyuan), then looked from the top, and then she said 'joyce, it's you again.' woohoo!!! it meant i did well for the que!! i was so overjoyed.. haha.. but i was thinking.. maybe it's only that part of the que... okay.. then she return the structured which i failed.. but still managed to pass if i add it up wif the mcq marks.. THEN she returned the essay part... and i got 15.5 for one of the que!!! haha.. i was so happy.. i calculated and found out i got a C..(which deb considered as anti-climax cos ms ng made it sound as tho i did excellent.. ).. anyway.. i'm happy.. cos i got the highest for tt particular que... (see, i told u.. i sound so immaturish as i write this sort of pri sch stuff... can tell how depressed i've been.. so anything, no matter how small, that makes me happy..has made me happy!).. ya, so at that pt, i got a overall of 25 pts.. C E F


then came to gp. i wasn't sure what i'd get.. esp for compre.. cos eve said mr pang didn't like those with long ans, and mine were pretty long.. so i was kinda worried.. ya.. so for compo, i got 28.. and shuwei got 30(highest), and she was saying before tt in the toilet, that she may not do so well.. bleh. ya.. then ms soh give out the compre.. according to marks. starting fr the highest.. so she was like ' cheryl(yip), vic.. .. joyce! you also!!' i was like - so shocked !!! and can hear that the class is shocked & surprised too.. cos they were ''woah!!!" quite loud.. ya.. everyone including me, were surprised... i got a 32(+1)..so happy:) yup, so that was a B4. which means 5pts.


so overall, i got 30 pts!!!! on the dot.. dun have to meet parents!!! my goodness... i can't believe.. this has happened 3 times!!! i was juz so close to failing to meet the 30 pts, since CT1, and promos(which i failed if not for the small tests here and there) and now the BT1!!!! i really dunno how it happend!!! i juz feel so overjoyed rite now.. it's like some sort of miracle.. hmm.. maybe there's some guardian angel out there looking out for me... either that or i shld have more confidence in myself.


i noe i noe.. 30 pts! can't even make it into any uni lah.. but still.. i managed to do better than what i've predicted.. phew.. i feel like the luckiest girl on earth!


so that was happy event no. 2. after that, me, sy, and aiping.. we were deciding to go to TOUCH community.. to ask for the stamp for our proposal.. but we made a call first.. the ic wasn't available until after ard 4.. so, me and sy decided to make a trip to mac first.. and see how it goes.. at ard 4 plus.. we called sharon, the ic, but to no avil.. so sy called may tan(another person) and asked for the email add of sharon. but then maytan said sharon was back but she's juz on the phone.. so, she asked for my no. instead.. so, i was v. worried and.. at a loss.. cos i scared when she calls me, i may not know how to tell her abt our proposal... then 5 min later, sharon called back.. and since we were in the area and she was free, we went to the office to meet her.. me and sy were like so nervous!!! sy had wanted to leave, after giving my no.. but luckily sharon called back before sy had time to go..

so.. we met her! so, at first we were waiting at a office.. then both of us were like.. oh no.. oh shit.. how how??? then i was like.. 'calm down.. treat this as a learning experience.. we're amateurs.. but it'll do good for our future..'
so sharon came in, and she's actually quite a nice lady.. she explained to us abt how the Touch com operates and stuff.. so.. at first it was kinda long.. and i was wondering when she'll look at our proposal.. finally.. ard 20min later, she allowed me a chance to present.. i was not v good.. but i managed to get the idea across... and she seems okay wif it.. she added a few stuff tt we cld add on to.. and then she said.. "okay, so can you'all fill up this form? while i go get the stamp." i was like?!!! that's it??!! ohmygosh!! so easy!!!! i was so happy and on top of the moon, sun and wateva!! it was really an easy deal.. and sharon was such a nice person.. like ms soh.. cos at first, i tot these ppls wld be v strict and diff to handle.. but then it turn out okay.. phew! so, we got the stamp!!!! yea!! and we were so worried that we wldn't even get a stamp and then we won't be able to submit to ymca.. but now that that's done.. all we have to worry is whether we'll get selected or not.. i am super anxious.. cos on one hand , i'm afraid it might take up alot of our time, but then since we were able to get the stamp, it feels like we shld do something in return for the favour they have done for us.. and at the end of the session sy was saying she was feeling cold all the way(nervouse).. only to find out that i was my skin was colder than hers.. haha tt means i was more nervous than her..


so.. that's everything that happened today! so happy... i dunno wat to say.. hahahahhaha yea!

bleh.

while i'm blogging now, i'm so envious of my frens who are lunching at nydc.. i so looked forward to this day... but i got cramps... so suai... tummy aching...

the past few days were tortourous... this morning i got tummy ache, and i tot was stress... so i was like: ok, calm down. dun worry too much.. fail then fail.. I WILL BUCK UP. yes.. so rite before the paper, i went to toilet and realise IT'S HERE... what are the chances? i know it will come, but RIGHT BEFORE THE START OF THE PAPER?? well, at least i was in sch, so i didn't really have a choice of whether to take the paper or not. if i were at home, i think i'd have pon the paper... the paper was like, wat ms ng said, doable. i cld't ans 7 marks worth of que.. mcq was ok, cos quite a few came from tys which i thankfully did the nite before.. so, i think shld be can pass ..

as for chem and math.. >.< cannot make it... chem mcq maybe still can... but the rest... then for math.. so frustrating!!! first page still ok. then reach 2nd page, i know how to do the que but i juz couldn't get a proper value !!! then liddat more than 10 marks gone! the rest of the 2 que was almost 30 plus marks which i couldn't score at all!!! sure fail one lor.. argh!

now, all is over.. juz gotta wait for results.. but rite now, i think i'm moltivated to study even harder. YES I WILL!

ya, but still muz wait for my tummy aches goes away..

sick and stressed

1)this past week was really horrible... felt sick almost every morning... had to shit at home.. then go to sch/mrt and shit again... it's not the normal one.. it's like as though i stressed until i need to shit... argh! i think it's like history repeating itself.. back when i was sec 2, i often had tummyaches in the morning on the days when i have tests... then these stress related tummyache 'vanished' when i got into sec 3 cos i'm immuned to the difficulty of tests.. then now.. this past week had made me feel that i'm starting to get tummyaches due to my stress..

2)had 5 stations trial... phew.. thank goodness i pass for all.. but 2.4km.. haiz.. sure fail one.. i'll juz try my best can liao..

3)block test 1 coming up... but there's so much tutorials to do.. how to study?

4)amazing race is coming back!! woohoo!

cny

i'm actually done... no more visiting... all finished in one day... nothing much... cny is juz holiday... not much abt gathering wif relatives...


i shld probably delete hers... makes me feel weird when i see those stuff... i shall move on!


federer won!!!! woohoo!!! haha... marcos lost... hahahahaha.. i feel so mean... but i'm juz so overjoyed tt he lost!!! u noe, i wldn't have hate him if he had not beaten roddick... anyways.. i'm so glad he lost... although i'd rather he lose to roddick than federer.. haha.. but still, good job federer!!!

sobs...'aussie open'

i am so sad... roddick lost the fourth round, to some unseeded guy... i missed the first 2 sets... but from the third set, i could tell his opponent(marcos b.) was pretty good too... and i have no idea why roddick simply didn't go after any of his shots.. i think it's the distance prob...
moreover, marcos's supporters were so loud and noisy, like some tribe.. i think that kinda distracted roddick... he looks as though he was freaking out in the 4th set... i feel so sad for him.... but at the end, i think he was impressed wif his opponent too.. he said' well done, good job...'... haix.. i feel so sad for him...


then after the reporter tok to marcos... he asked him whether he'll be watching his next opponent's match or celebrating wif his supporters.. he say he'll sleep.. then, the reporter ask abt his girlfriend.. and then.. somehow.. it led to him saying his coach will be watching the match while he'll be sleeping.. wif his girlfriend... i was like... woah.. haha..ok.. ps: i hope he loses the next rd... muahahaha


well, i juz finished changing my new year wish.. gonna replace the one on the board... cos i seem to have bad feelin abt.. *ahem*.. ya...


anyways.. there'll always be a winner and loser in a competition.. it's not like Roddick has never lost before.. but i'm sure he'll grow to be even stronger.. and hopefully he'll do better next time!

what a relieve...

was such a cold day ystday... somemore 3 hrs of lecture in the cold cc and lt. lucky i got bring jacket, but the hair on my legs were still standing...

yup, then after sch, went to mediacorp to support sheena!!! which i almost didn't make it cos i was such a glutton... ya.. ate at pastamania.. gulp down the minnestrone soup, then finished the baked rice, and had a slice of haiwaiian pizza, and like 2 strands of spagetti... ya.. so i was feeling damn bloated.... and sick.. couldn't burp which i desperately needed... ya.. lucky got huixin there to be my first aider.. so i felt better and decided to take taxi wif the rest to mediacorp...

then we squeezed our way thru the reception... waited in the oh-so-darn-stuffy place... my tummy was aching again... then FINALLY, they let us in... and led us.. only to make us wait at the carpark..(and we met the police and thief guy... the police only lah.) ya.. i was still not doing gd cos it was kinda hot there and i wanted to sit down..

FINALLY, they let us in... walked down like 6 flights of stairs before we entered the tv theartre. ya. so we, supporters of F1.. were supposed to sit at the extreme right, and those wif the posters were to sit rite in front... since i wasn't feeling well, and didn't want to sit in front, me, huixin, liyuan and gary ended up at the back sits... and ms soh, her bf and ms ng were at the very last row... ya, her bf is so tall, one head taller than ms soh.. quite cute... but too fair liao.. haha


thankfully, the moment i sat down.. i felt very much better.. no more pain.. ya.. so there was this 933 dj giving us instructions... asking the audiences to cheer...i tot our sch was well prepared... and then i saw the F2 fans were like.. woah! screaming.. and everyone had a poster their hand...
ya, we really paled in comparison...

ya.. so the show went on... saw the 2 hosts.. and realised junyang is awfully short... and he and sugi stood next to the M1... my gosh.. how embarrasing... both were one head shorter... funny lah...

ya.. sheena got in.. woohoo... the last 2 girls left were the ones with the loudest cheers... but still.. the least no. of votes... so in the end, the F2 got out... quite sad lah..



ya, my dad & mum were there to fetch me home.. how sweet(and surprising)... so, we reach home juz in time to watch the recording of the results show... ya, and i realise sheena really needs to practice her thankyou speech... sounds wrong..haha.. anyway, i'm juz glad she's in..

new sch, new year

have been 3 days at this sch... ok lah... wake up at 6am.. reach sch at ard 7.10... ya.. the sch is quite big... like a maze.. but i think i'm starting to figure out the routes.. lessons so far are pretty alrite... think i need to start revising the past yr's work cos i have absolutely no idea wat's gg on in class, esp the org cmpd part...


yup, then... PE.. on wed, we took height & weight... then i tot, dan ho will juz ask us to run a few rds and let us of... INSTEAD, he led us to run one rd around the track..then finish, i tot can rest.. INSTEAD, he continued to run behind the gallery... hmm.. maybe to drink water... NO. ran past half the 2 bball courts.. and which i tot will juz continue gg ard... THEN, he led us to run ard the buildings... yup.. i was the slowest... as usual... sad is kun and chao were supposed to run at the back.. so, ya, they have to hurry me to run which they sort of failed cos i cldn't go any faster to close the gap... [oops! sorry guys!] THEN... reach the track, 3min water break... hmm.... THEN... 'alrite, come to the track.. girls go first. 3rds, below 7min30 sec' ... yes, so we did it, boys juz after us... as usual, i was the slowest... (yawns..) ya.. took almost 11 min... horrible... last part, dan ho was pretty sweet, saying how he appreciated our effort... "Even the weakest is strong", glances at me when he said that.. ya... not sacarstic... quite encouraging... almost tot i'd tear... which i didn't.. so.. ok, DONE.



then today.. thu.. had PE at last period.. was hoping it would rain.. which it did for 3 times.. however, the very creative dan ho had his own way of doing PE... running ard the sch... within the buildings.. gg UP.. and DOWN... then UP... along the corridors.. then DOWN... total is 15 min.. but i think i took more than that... y, i tried to keep up with the front ppls... but only managed to do that for the first rd ard the sch...yup, once again kun & chao were asking me to run faster... i wanted to leh! but then, i tot, if i run to close up the gap, i'd have lost energy to continue... make sense rite?! ya.. but lucky they got pause to wait... although, by the time i reach their 'resting time' they would have continued running liao.. haha... anyway, he let us off early... WOOHOO! thank goodness... yup..



alrite.. overall.. ok... i will try harder next week... to keep up and run faster... *prays hard*.. haha...

end & beginning

ok. the year has come to an end liao... and i have to say, it was quite a horrible year.. academically wise... my grades are all like C or E or close to O... so jialat lah... next yr how to take a lvls??? actually, i think i've like wasted the past year... didn't really study... didn't really understand lectures.. didn't really complete my tutorials... the supposed only achievement of this past yr was that i pass my 2.4km run... w/out cheating... haha.. oh, and my first blood donation too.


But coming to a new sch and being in a new class, i have enjoyed the company of my new grp of friends - shuwei, cheryl, huixin, wenmin, angeline, limjie... & the flowergirls... of course, i haven't forgotten my sec sch frens... whom i still keep in touch with like simin, xiny, aiping, shiying, woeilin and yihui. and this past year was more about going out... wif frends.. enjoying their company... and juz living the moment... trying not to care about other stuff..


then came the dec hols... well spent, i would say. i'm not gonna complain how i've been slacking.. and not doing hw or revision...i would say i have slept for very long... replacing some of the hrs that i used for studying... and i have enjoyed watching all the tv shows... that i have missed while cooping myself in my room... and i haven't listen to any radio since the start of the hols... let's see, i'm gonna miss alot of shows.. such as: oprah! the nanny!(my favourite!), ch 8 drama like the current one - love concierge and the 3 lucky stars, ch 5 variety tv - ameria's next top model, [oh, and amazing race is coming soon! - this i muz watch]... and all the cable tv shows... oh, and i watched king kong (movie of the year!) and Oi! Sleeping Beauty! The wake up musical... which i loved & thoroughly enjoyed!!!


next yr a lvl liao... i really hope to do well.. cos my olvl grades was like no way here nor there.. and i really wanna do well... afterall., i need to enter uni... so my grades muz be very decent, if not excellent.. to get into my choice faculty... hmm.. wonder wat i'll choose... hopefully, a scholarship for overseas studies will juz drop upon me... hehe..

christmas @ cheryl's & the drama production

went to cheryl's hse to celebrate christmas wif wenmin, surong, mel, amanda and latecomer(as usual)- shuwei... yup. had pasta... (which i already ate in the morning) watched charlie and e choco factory. i dunno whether it was boring or that i juz felt like sleeping during the show... and the small man singing and dancing were eeky...

ya, then watched the rainbow connectn again... agrees wif the others that this show abit senseless and is not logical... abit diao lah.. then we exchanged presents... i got cheryl's homemade cookies and mine key pendant went to shuwei...


ok, went to watch the play ' oi! sleeping beauty! The WAKE UP Musical' it was a wonderful show... so funny... esp when they involved the audiences... like the part where the cat ask the audience to tell Dawn that he's not there. and then dawn asked the audience where is her cat. some kid actually shouted ' he's not there'!!! haha... then got the kiss and kill the princess part...


oh and there were these 2 irritating guys sitting behind me & yunle who laughed SO LOUD and so distinctly. according to sources, these 2 were the costume designers which explains their absence at the second half of the show.. oh, and they sang really well!! the Prince bin Charming and Dawn... oh, and we realized that there was a mike on dawn's forehead!! amazing...


overall, i loved the show!!!! i dun mind coming for their next production.. but it's quite ex... $30plus onwards... but it's really wonderful!!! support local productions!!!

cip & band fest.

1st- cip. have doine 3 shifts of cip... it's quite good lah... juz sell the booklets and funpacks for abt 1 hr plus.. and then give out the feedback form at the end of the show for another half hour... AND the total cip hours is actually 3.5 hrs!! ya.. cos when the show starts, there's not much for volunteers to do... so can juz slack... ok. so the more 'eventful' shift was sunday nite. wif wl and yl. we met ADRIAN PANG!!!! like O M G!!!! okok.. i noe.. it's adrian pang only... not like it's pierre png or zoe tay.. ya so.. he was wif his family, his kids.. but i didn't really see his wife... so. i wanted to approach him at like.5 min later to ask him to buy the stuff.. then the next thing i noe.. yl is like 4meters ahead, walking in his direction.. ARGH!!!! ya.. so he bought for her.. oh.. i think he's really sweet to his kids... they are like less than 5... maybe 4... and so he helped them to write their wishes... so cute lah... like he was kneeling down... his hand over his kid's hand... writing down the wish... sigh....
THEN we met ben soh and wl's fav teacher leonard ong... yup.. so they bought a pack from both of us..
THEN... during the interval... i saw adrian pang playing with his 2 kids... so sweet lah... at one corner where i almost missed him if not for yl... ya.. and it was only the 3 of them.. w/out the wife.. so i din ren xin to borrow him so that i cld take a photo wif him... sigh... ya.. and that was the last time i saw him. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

2nd - band fest. ok.. i hate to say this.. but this yr's band fest is kinda disappointing.. first is the starting of the first piece by the first band.. i was like... huh?? ok.. then the next thing is there were hardly any shuaige playing the percussion... i rmb the last time i went there were so many lah... but come to think abt it.. i was like sec 3 then watching jc ppls play.. but i'm now watching ppls of my age.. so maybe dun look as attractive... THE MOST IMPT PART - i saw the usher boy.. so cute! i swear i spotted him first whom yh disagrees. watever. didn't notice his name.. as usual... ya.. and during the interval, i asked yh to take his photo which she unskillfully... DID NOT.. nvm... so i practically spend the next half of the concert thinking abt him.. haha.. not really lah..i did listen to the music.. but the seats were really uncomfortable... so.. after the show, we came up.. but i noticed his was gone... hiaz.. ya. and then we met up wif simin and mr tay, who kept on toking abt aiping's sis..he siao one lor.. like some old che go pek(pervert).. BUT THEN FINALLY... i saw him again.. wif yh.. he had changed to his polo tee.. looking .. well not as cute as he was with the usher attire on.. haha.. and.. no chance to take his pic.. as usual... but again. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

so.. on the way home wif wl.. i was telling her i think i'm gg crazy cos of my craziness over the shuaige... first it's 'johnnie' then it's now usherboy.. i'm so huachi lor... i shld prob stop this kinda behaviour... so horrible... i'm gg nuts!!! and the worse is i still dun have their photos... eeks!!!

updates

okok... went to simin's hse warming.. woah... so many ppls lah... ya.. played twister with e same gang... sell my earrings... yea!!! thanks girls! not gg into details.
then.. watched harry potter.. was a great show!!! muahaha... can't wait to watch chicken little and king kong... woohoo!!!!
oh.. that camp and QPS.. was ok lah... made frens.. with the facils... and like 2 of the mentees... wouldn't say i'm the most interactive person on earth... ya.. enjoyed playing the games.. was glad that the 2 days went past pretty fast... and not to mention i had to run for ALL 4 of my bus in the 2 days.. can u believe it? lucky for me the bus wasn't as fast as i am... haha... so-not-true...
so rite now.. i'm juz slacking... and hoping to finish my hol assignments... and i can't wait to go shopping!!!!!!

er... abit diao..

went for job application today.. with des... we were told to fill up the application form.. then... later we gave it to his lady, prob the in-charge.. and then she started a little mini interview.. there and then. so she asked a few ques... i said a few words in reply.. and so did des... then, she concluded.. that i was v. nervous.. and said that she wld give the job to des rather then me... well.. i wld be lying if i said i didn't feel a tinge of regret for getting des to come along... BUT... i dun blame her... really.. even if she wasn't there.. i would still have like.. 'played wif my hand' i dun really agree wif the lady that i was extremely nervous... maybe a little.. i mean, who wouldn't be??? well.. i think des didn't get the job cos she's gg overseas... well.. she was nice to 'push' the job to me.. (thx!) but i guess... i wasn't ready for the job... honestly, if e person calls and say she'll give me a trial, i'd rather she didn't....

i guess i'm not ready yet... for this sorta thing... after this interview.. which is like a huge lesson learnt on the impt of body language.. i think i shld juz stay at home and mug for next yr's As.. haha... oh.. and maybe i shld read up on books that teaches 'how to score for your interviews'
which i did... after leaving the shop.. haha.. i think the most impt thing is the confidence level part... which i'm totally lacking.... hmm... it's ok... it like a ... 'what do u call that' in my face... but.. life goes on.... i guess more imptantly, i shld pick up on such skills so that i wld be ready to look for jobs after As and also to prepare for possible interviews for universities...

and to make matters worse.. i was on my way home.. waiting at the bus stop.. there's this mini van that passed by carrying malay ppls wearing their beautiful costumes.. and this idiot suddenly pointed his middle finger at me... i was like???!!!!! what the hell??? i didn't look ard .. but there wasn't anyone siting near me... and i think that guy was actually pointing at me... i'm juz so pissed lah... watever... dun wanna continue.. otherwise i kana sued for racist comments.

well.. i'll be gg to the library soon... to read up on these kinda stuff... not sure whether i'll still be gg for any work interviews... i juz hope that more ppls will buy earrings from me so that i can earn some extra money... worse come to worse.. i'll use my nets lor.. which i dun want to...

PS: i'm ok! maybe i shld be glad that i can have all the time in the world to properly manage my hols and well.. window shopping is good too.. a form of exercise...

$$$

i need money! first time leh... i mean, this has nv well, hardly happened to me before... like in sec sch... i have no money watsoever during the hols... i stay at home... go for band... which i get my $5 for every practice i attend... and that's it... i dun go out.. at all....

then.. juz this nov, my mum gave me $200 for god noes wat reason... and then i realise juz THE OTHER DAY, it's gone.. poof! gone... i so can't believe it.... what happened to me??? and i still have so many things tt i need to buy!!! *sobs*

so rite now.. i think i'm gonna need to go find job.... there's this one at citylink (next to num!) and it has flexible work schedule... so.. maybe i'll go try out for it... but i'm juz scared... like.. i dunno how to approach the person... dunno how to ask for an application for the job... i'm so absolutely clueless!!!! but i noe this is gonna be impt... i mean, eventually i'll have to go out there and WORK.... hiaz.... ok... i'll go take a look soon... hopefully the job is not taken up...

btw, ppls!!! listen up!!!! i have started to make my own earrings.. and they are for sale!!! pls purchase them... plsplsplsplspls.. i seriously need the cash... and its' freakin cheap... no where else.. ppls... u gotta buy my stuff... hehe....

happy

okok.. went for class outing at sentosa on mon... actually.. it's more like cliques' outing lah.. but it was really fun... er.. i didn't see any obvious jellyfishes... juz droplets of them, which according to the lifeguard can cause rashes... nope, surong, i dun think they are cute.... well, maybe alittle... ya.. so basically, i played frisbee wif amanda, lj and sw... watched the others build a ship from sand... suntanned at the brigde... luckily for me, i didn't get any darker... juz got my feet burnt... overall.. it was OK... at least i wasn't feeling miserable - like the first og outing... anyway.. it was fun!!! but i think i'd prefer to go cheryl's hse for any more of such outings...

bought my earring beads... but only 3 colours.. so currently they're all looking pink blue and white... i'm gg to buy more today!!! haha... i'm juz so happy doing these earrings... althought i think my designs are pretty not so-fabolous... but i juz like the process of making them.. hhehe... i'm so gonna be broke... i think i have money for one lunch and one movie for the rest of the hols... and NO.. i dun wanna work!!!! haix... everyone is so into working.... i juz wish i have a cash printer at home to print money for me to use.... (sigh) wldn't that be so good! the best invention of the century!!!! muahahahhaha.. yes.. fat hope.

still hanging on...

i am so gg to be broke... going*.. take a look
charm bracelet-$29.9
shorts - $40.8
flipflops-$26.9
dinner @ jack's place- $19.9
jc band fest- $11( haven't pay yet...)
actually.. not really lah.. but then u can see how ridiculously i spent my money.. and the holidays only JUZ STARTED... and i still got so many bags and tops tt i haven't buy!
my goodness...

anyway, yesterday went to jack's pl for dinner wif -aiping,wl, sy, simin, xinyi... sort of a post sy's bdae dinner... was quite fun... learnt that aiping got the letter to go ns in malaysia! so shock.. hope she can escape from it... otherwise... she's in trouble... started 845 plus.. i was so starving already.. then took photos at paragon.. well, with the xmas tree outside... was kinda fun.. felt reall great to hang out wif them.. too bad yh & des didn't come... well, there will be more of these times... esp after yh finishes wif out jap visit. oh, then the 5 of us sang bdae song for sy... it was the one person-one word bdae song. it was so funny lor...haha.. so sweet too!

i seriously have no idea how to do i&r.. i can't believe i did so well for the 2nd one and then i juz totally screwed up the third... and now i hve to come up with e final one.... argh!

ppls! xmas is coming!!!! yea!!! santa claus IS coming to TOWN!!!

(sigh!)

today went to buy havaianas... 'johnny' wasn't there... was kinda disappointed... cos tt time i came at the same day same time, and he was there.. but he wasn't today... i still buy the slippers though... and yes! they do wear name tag.. so... i'm gonna find out his name soon!! and why didn't i wait until he was serving me, then i buy the slippers? well, i can't wait.. mon gg sentosa.. then i dun think i'm gg out for the next few days.. so might as well buy lor...

then i saw him.. yes, the johnny guy... me and sw were on the way back to somerset mrt.. already in the mrt.. then.. cos there's like 2 distinct directn.. so we walked on the left.. and then i saw this really distinct guy.. he's tall, tanned.. looks extremely familiar.. and he was carrying the 'mum' bag..( which is supposed to be 'num' = newurbanmale) then. sw was like - 'issit?! him?!' and yadayada.. we shrieked for a awhile... sigh... so goodlooking... lucky we took note of the bag earlier at the shop... otherwise, i wouldn't have believed it was him... i mean, i haven't seen him for like the longest time.. haha..can't really recignise him....

yes.. then sw was like.. hiax.. if we've waited... but then i think it's alrite.. i mean, what are the chances u'll meet the guy who works in orchard at an mrt? i mean.. quite difficult lor.. so, now that i met him.. it's considered.. 'yuan fen'... fate.. hehe.. i am so unbelivably cheena.
i am juz over the moon... can't help smiling to myself at times.. hehe.. happpy!

oh.. and we went to cheryl's house... me, sw, surong, sheena, angeline.. and later amanda.. weate pizzas... made by cheryl! not bad.. actually got tomato inside.. i think it's good! then watch 40yrold virgin and some ghost show... then we played Life... was overall a great day!! haha.. can't wait to go there again... except for the not so nice ghost show.

inferno & op

Yay! Good guys won!! Haha.. only 3 guys and 1 girl in the good guys team.. and they won!!! Yes.. good will always prevail over the evil...i think the the bad asses lost prob cos they dun have teamwork.. and that there's 7 of them.. so.. haha... they sux... I'm happier at the fact that bad asses lost rather than good guys won.I think Jamie was lucky.. she didn't get picked into the inferno. I mean, all the girls in good guys who got picked all ended up gg home.. so .. lucky Jamie.. and I think the girls in bad assess are not really that fit..this triathlon is really all abt endurance and physical ability lor.. I think it's kinda boring.. and the riddle is so easy lah.juz figure out the age of the ppls who kana out from the inferno.. haix... $150,000. that's a whole lot of freaking money. if I had that .. I would.. haha.. I would do and buy a hell lot of stuff.
I like the show. juz watching ppls fooling ard.. getting competitive.. bitchy.. haha

op is finally over... the long awaited moment in my life.. but then.. i TOTALLY SCREW UP the q&a... i simply couldn't ans the que...i knew my ans was not the ans they are looking for.. but then i really dunno wat to say liao lor... then stupid me i go and mention OBS.. it's not OBS lah.. it's DBS.. then... i ARGH!! totally screw up.. i tot ben soh was v kind when he asked my to elaborate on my 'wrong' but according to him, 'interesting' point... but i also couldn't ans.. i juz simply repeated myself... *pukes*
but i think i did alrite for the presentation part.. alot of eye contact.. good.. i think.. i hope i can get a good ME... hehe.. *prays hard* but then the effectiveness of the presentation abit screw up lah.. cos sheena was like ' as shown in the chart' (points to the screen) but then the screen didn't have the chart.. it was kinda funny lah... haha.. but i think we did alrite... except my qna part... hiax.

now left i&r... hmm..if i can't do well for op, the least i cld do it score for the rest of the pw... and i need to start of holiday assignment liao.. esp math.. cos i'm having my first ever tuition this sat... i hope it helps...

yay!!!

i got a new handphone!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy!!! hahahahahahah... it's a samsung slide phone... not bad... quite small.. smaller than my 8250... lighter than my 8250.. got COLOUR!!! my goodness... i'm so amazed.. haha... i noe, i'm lagging... but it's juz that my phone had nv had colour for like the past 2 years... and everyone ard had colour phone.. i was so envious.. finally! it has a camera too... [ppls! i'm coming to take photos of all of u!!] haha... i feel like a country pumpkin... not that i didn't know that such functions exist.. it's juz that i've had my 8250 for too long... so long until i'm missing out on all the exciting functions of a colour-cam-mp3-phone.. did i mention mp3? yes i did! haha.. but i still dunno how to dl songs into the phone yet.. dun think it can store alot lah... but nvm..i'm juz overjoyed....
yes, i got a phone.. all thanks to my mum, who's in the Hub Club... some starhubs thingy.. haha.. so happy she decided to get me the phone... i hurried her to the shop last nite... otherwise i'd have to wait till wed... hehe.. i'm so happy... now, that's one thing off my wishlist... and 1 more to go...
oh gosh... haha... i feel like a little kid getting extremely happy over a new toy... muahahahah

yesterday's op went well... i was time keeping for amanda's grp.. and then.. when it reached xw's turn.. my heart was thumping really hard... haha.. i guess i was getting nervous.. cos their grp's presentation gg to end soon... which means it's my turn! THEN, since amanda's grp took an hour, by the time they finished, it's 845, and here comes to rest of the class... eeks! not fair, we have to present in front of the class while amanda's grp only presented in front of our grp.. ANYWAY.. my heart was still beating... but i managed to deliver my part of the presentation well...at least that's what the teachers said... good eye contact.. improvement from the last op... more confident... muahahahaha.. i feel so happy.. but i noe i was gg abit too fast... so i'll work on my pace... i think i've memorised my part.. cos before i sleep and when i juz woke up, i managed to say the speech w/out the cue cards. yay. however.. i still have to work on the q&a... which i was juz telling my grp, that i might as well juz give up... i mean, do well for the presentation.. then screw the qna so hopefully i can still get a gd ME.. hehe...

ppls! less than 2 more days left!!! woohoo!

forget it..

looking at photos juz sucked... really bad... I realise i'm nv gonna fit into their grp... oh well.. forget it... i guess it juz wasn't meant to be... it's ok...

a fren juz called.. someone who cares... i guess, i shld be juz be contented with who i have ard me now, and not force myself to fit into other grp of ppls that are juz way off my league... yup. i've made up my mind...

peace.

roddick, i love u!

my goodness, what a game... i din see the entire match... only started when the last set's score was like 5-4, ferrer leading.. whoa.. then it went on to 5-5, 6-6, then tiebreak..i was so nervous lah... that ferrer guy is good at his aces too... it was all so close.. i kept shrieking.. my dad was like me, not sure who's gonna win.. cos they keep ending up at a tie... then one of the last few, we tot roddick's ball was out, but it's actually in! [it was like a whack across the court that most likely is out], but then no one said anything.. anyway, i'm juz glad it's in... otherwise ferrer wld have won... and roddick won, with an ace as his match point.. woohoo! i love roddick! he got 17 aces, compared to the 12 aces that ferrer had... it was so close.. phew...

tinge of regret

i dunno how to say this...
i felt weird when i see the photos... i'm kinda jealous..well, not jealous jealous... but.. like regret jealous... (ok i dun make sense)... feel sad that i lost a bunch of frens juz liddat... i mean, i'm happy i still have my current groups of frens... but looking back... if i had been more... i dunno.. involved, i'd still be close to them... yes.. i miss them... not every single one.. but the other few... haiz.. not much i can really do now... hopefully i can meet up with them...
i'm juz really sad... 2 years of friendship... juz gone liddat... and it's all my fault...
i love u guys.. well, girls i mean...

update!

chi is over! yea! hope i get a B3 or better still, A. Went out with the a bunch of them... flowergirls, lj, angeline, hx, jo, cheryl & sw... was very happy... eating lamian... hey, it's cheaper when u share the food, u noe? haha... then we went orchard, in hope that the 'johnny' will be there... i was having such a headache on the bus... i think it's juz weird to have a bunch of girls juz gg there to see the guy.... haha.. fortunately, he wasn't there... phew!

mum hired a tutor for me... my cousin's bf.... heard he's smart... and doesn't make his tutees memorise stuff.... i hope it'll really help... gotta buck up this hols.... still got that stupid OP.... hiax... i also dunno how to practice.. juz noe that i have to be more confident...

this holiday is gonna be well-planned.... exercise. study. go out. haha... hope i won't waste my hols... next year is 'A's... so fast, huh? can't believe it... and i got promoted! haha... still feeling happy and shocked.. but i can't be complacent... next yr's goal is to do well, and have points good enuf for uni admission...

have fun ppls!

(sigh..) happy

haven't really been studying chi... more interested in watching tv... have been gg out... to orchard... buy this buy that... walk until my feet v pain.. but very HAPPY !!! went to buy the havainas... the guy is so cute!!! and v shuai! he's so polite too... greeting us when we went there... not like the other 'blur' guy that served us the previous time... this shuai-ge had a pimple.. but he looks so cute! esp when he smiled... showing his set of colgate white teeth! haha...

hiax... the slippers are nice... but not really worth so much leh... dun think i will buy.. but i will want to go that shop more often....

happy me!

huge sigh of RELIEVE

thank goodness!!!!!!!! i pass my promos... yes that = I AM PROMOTED TO J2...
if i didn't see wrongly...
my results will be something liddat:
Chem- 46 (E)
Math-46(E)
Bio -56(C)
GP- ard C5-B4
Chinese- B4

thank goodness... this is the overall marks.... i failed both chem and math papers... pretty badly... luckily for CA and CT... my marks are pulled up... so, moral of the story... study hard throughout your J1 year... u nv noe when u need the marks...

so, after this... my plan is to play hard and study even harder! i have a mission to be accomplished for next year: good grades and university admission...

faints

terrible... humiliating... disappointing...
today was maths paper... i fainted.
the wing was extremely strong... then my tummy started aching.
i went to the toilet.
then i walked back... feeling very sick.
when i saw the rest, i was ....
asked sy to walk me to the office which is like 7m away.
couldn't see where i was walking... juz kept walking....
suddenly. thud! i landed.. face flat... i think i saw deb, and i heard vic's voice. i realise, if my knee didn't hurt, i'd have laid down...
tried to get up... walk into the office... told the staff that i wasn't feeling well...
then image became blur.
DM and another staff held me as they walked me to the sick bay... i couldn't walk... well. hardly
i reached the bed. laid there...
a nice lady came to help me...
i was sick sick sick.
then after much dilemma, i decided to take the paper... at 10 plus
no surprise, i couldn't do it.. i tot 3 hrs was long... but it's not that long.. cos my brain was trying to function...
cried, cried, cried...

overall.. i did badly. the only paper i can confirm a pass is MT...
i'm so gonna get retained...
peace.
i'm feeling better now.

promos !

today is monday. tmr is tue which is bio spa. then wednesday. THEN THURSDAY !!! which is promos for chem and bio!!!! argh!!! and what am i doing online now.??? checking for protein synthesis animation... abit helpful.. as i've nv understood what it was toking about before...

stress....
can't wait for promos to be over.. so many things to do!!
can't wait to be promoted...
bless me.

peace

i took a 3hr nap today!!!!!! eeks! wasted so much time.. can't blame myself cos i slept at 1 plus 2, trying to complete tt stupid chi compo.

i seriously sux at math. can't do a simple que... much less difficult ques. how how how? few weeks left...

my dad brought alot of vcds and ps2 dvds today... can't wait to watch and play them...

i have this feeling i'm going to make it... but i'm still... like, not getting my facts in the head...
actually i think many of us will make it... oh gosh.. i'm so scared.. i'll be left out... i mean, i have got past so many major exams... doing badly, but nv failing.(except this CT's math).. haha.. can one, can one.. sure can one... jia you!

sept hols

phew... so fast.. another week of holiday has arrived... not sure whether to be happy or not... cos, it can be a week of relaxation, but also a week of mugging..... haha.. actually i think it's more relax than mugging... somehow i juz can't mug during the hols... this is evident from the past years of studying... hmm.. one week is really good... u see, i got CEO when i study the day before the ct.. so, if i study more than one week, i shld do really well rite, at least better than CEO... make sense doesn't it..?

hmm... many ppls dun really like pw... neither do i... but i seriously think it's a great way of connecting and getting to know others... of course, it would be better if we din have to chiong for all the stuff...

it's 10 plus now... still haven't started on the gp essay... (yawns)
i can't wait to get promoted... haha

historic moment in my life

finally!!!!!!!!!!!!! i pass my 2.4km test!!!! so happy.... it's like a stone removed from my heart... phew.... luckily got cheryl teo and shuwei run with me... thanks!

now.. muz still train for next year.... but i'm so glad it's all over....

sleepy...

feeling very sleepy nowadays... juz wanna sleep and not wake up... dun feel like doing anything...
oh, had ndp yesterday.. was pretty cool... we did the sign language.. i've to admit, none of mine were PERFECT... really... i hope we still break the record too... and i hope they dun say who was part of the record... cos i'll be upset to know that my name isn't there...
ps: i love the song reachout for the skies.... juz so lovely.. wish i could learn the whole dance.. instead of juz the chorus...
it's juz so tiring to be studying.. after psle, then o lvl, then alvl, then uni, then work... it's so... sian.

i juz realised my life is so empty... i feel really sad at times... very pathetic .... i'm so pissed... coming to jc is no better than going to poly....
completing o lvls was a miracle...
staying alive is a mistake
i'm so pathetic

mixed feelings

still feeling sick.. from sore throat & flu...

there was spot check this morning.. usually, i wldn't be anxious abt it.. cos my skirt is damn long.. BUT no! i'm in SA, my skirt is ultra short(thanks to my mum).. And YES, i got caught... i, chan yanying joyce, the most goody-two-shoes of all ppls! damn suay lah.... the first half of the girls got checked by dan ho.. then, afterwards, he decided to switch with this old woman cos he wanted to check the boys of e other class... so i got caught... for having one ear stut... (go figure!) each ear can only have one. i only wear one for one ear and none for the other... then she was like... [v. blurish lah]... dun even understand wat she wants me to do.... then she saw my skirt... said it's short.. esp at the back.. pulled up my shirt... HIAX.... so embarrassing... my name was taken down...haha but it's by ct, who is extremely nice... but i'll still try to alter my skirt.. which is already v short... or i'll exchange it with someone... kaoz.. this is a first for me...

run 4 rounds during pe.. didn't stop... but still a not-so-good timing... i hope i'll do better next time... i think i will...

had chem practical.. realised i'm kinda dumb... i.e i can't really apply wat i learn during lesson time to the prac questions... which has been like since forever, including bio...
dunno how to do math and chinese... feeling hopeless... as usual.... it's damn hard lah... esp, when the questions are so long... it juz pisses me off.

i was juz wondering... how did i get past the 7 months of jc life... so fast rite?!!! and it's gonna be promos soon!!!

on the positive side(finally...) national day is coming... excited abt going back to ntss... that is if we're going.... and i'm looking forward to the 'performance' on the actual day... woohoo!! hope i dun screw up...

3 weeks

today i was supposed to take the 2.4km test again.. i told mr ho that i didn't want to run... as much as he wants me to run.. i simply refused... i juz didn't have mental preparation that i was to run today... so.. ya, i kinda told the teacher 'i give up'... i noe, i noe... we shld always have the 'never give up' attitude... but for me... it's really useless lor... oh, then i suggested to mr ho, i'll run 4 rds every pe lesson... then.. he agreed lor... ya, that was before i played games with the class..
After the games, he suggested to me, that 3 weeks later, the second last week of august, i'll do a test again... everything, again... then i was like.. stunned.. but i agreed to it... he was like, 'u did very well in your 5 stations... it's such a pity to give up... '... then i was like' ya, but the 5 stations are not long dist running'....
but, that's the deal.... i'll still continue to run 4 rds every pe lesson until that day arrives...

i think mr ho. is a really nice teacher... i mean, compared to the others lah.. so it's kinda stressful too... i mean, i also wanna do well in running... and i dun wanna disappoint myself, and him too...
haix...

almost there...

failed my 2.4 test.... 18min 12 s... actually, come to think abt it.. i was quite happy with my results... i mean, my previous one was 20.48... so it's pretty much a great 'achievement'... haha... if only i had run harder, i could have got bronze... which, i wouldn't need to run again... well.. nvm.... i'll try harder again next time... but i think it's gonna be harder to keep up with the new timing...

i have to do it!

okay, i drank red bull as recommended by wenmin... wouldn't say it's very useful, as least not to me.. finished the 4 laps, overshot by 15 seconds... after that, i juz couldn't carry on... honestly, i believe there shld be some sort of moltivation to do everything... esp those really tough ones, like running 2.4... i can't think of any lah... i was running the third one, and i was thinking, 'i gotta go, i gotta continue running... because...?' i dunno! nothing moltivates me to finish the run...

i came back, with my whole body aching... mostly due to the five stations i completed on mon... i would really wanna pass this time's 2.4km... in the past years, the night before possible 2.4 runs, i would totally dread waking up, hoping it will rain, or that i will suffer from some sickness... but on last sun nite, i was like, 'okay, i can do it.' and i was like looking forward to do it...

if i'm not wrong, everyone did well for their 5 statns, on mon. so that means, if i dun pass my 2.4 this thur or mon, i will be the only one redoing the entire thing next week... that would really sux...

i wanna pass, really badly. i trained hard.. i think. at least, i've done my part...
it can be quite irritating to keep constantly thinking abt 2.4km... i wanna get it done and over with...

and i can't stand those who tell me ' fail then fail lor' and then they pass instead... go figure!

haix

Did terrible in my ct... suprisingly, my gp and chinese is better than my science... go figure...
have been trying to study hard lately... watching less tv and all.. doing mindmaps??? ya.. i'm trying my best... i do not wanna get retained. nobody does, but i'm gonna do my part in ensuring that doesn't happen...
i wish i didn't have to take math... econs would have been better.. at least the topics in econs make sense... unlike math... functions, trigo, bionomial...
the pt of me taking 3 sub is so that i can conc. on them and hopefully get to do s paper.. but now, i'll juz be glad if i dun get retained...

2.4 this coming mon... erm.. hope i can improve my timing. better still, keep up with the others... which reminds me of thur when i was running with them... i kept wanting to stop.. but i dunno why i didn't... it felt great to have been able to keep up with jan and sw..

i think there's ard 75 days left to promos.. yap.. jia you..

past few days

coop camp was okay only... very slack lah.. it's at a pace that is so comfortable.... unlike counsillors... so hiong... so smelly too... haha. i'm pissed at sy for not running with me on the last morning... it's so sian lah... she always does that.... so why issit she's always telling me that she walks with other people? nvm... she's been a close friend of mine for so long... i'm not gonna get mad at her for such a small thingy... i take it as a lesson learnt...
anyway... games were okay lah... overall, my grp got 2nd place... so not too bad.. my thighs hurt after the frisbee game... which explains why i couldn't keep up with the others on the last day of moring run...
i din run for the elections... i had no confidence in making the speech... besides.. they even asked questions there and then... so kinda freaky... also, the committe didn't really nominate me... so... kinda obvious lah...

legs still hurt... dunno how i'm going to go for my usual jogs.. sian.. muz retrain all over again.

still learning my sign language... very interesting... hope i get selected for the ndp...

moment of truth

yesterday went to play tennis... realise that i really sux at it... esp serving... worse thing is i dun even wanna try... actually it's not that i dun like yh to serve... it's juz that.. we dun have enuf practice... then...it can be quite a waste of time... then... it can be kinda unfair to the other party, me.... haiz... i'm not blaming her... i also wanna practice.. but no one's there to guide me...
then afterwards play badminton... haha... realisz that i'm really terrible at that sport... as least compared to yh and sm.... maybe becos i was playing tennis before that... but then... so was yh.... oh well... i guess i finally realise that i'm NOT a very SPORTY person.... that's kinda sad... cos i do enjoy playing sports... maybe i shld learn from yh.... "dun be afraid to learn... dun be afriad to make mistakes"

argh... i'm having leg and arm pain... eeks... abit of back pain.. cos yesterday was more of picking balls then hitting them...

been failing tests the past month... borderline fail mark for both chem and bio... kinda pissed... math, of course is fail terribly... even gp... i think i was the lowest... hiaz... i'm supposed to be hardworking.... i guess it's time to change my approach on how i shld study.... THINK NOT MEMORISE.... hiax....

well, at least i am pleased to have watch the tennis matches... i was glad i met them... but on the other hand... i'm glad i will probably not see them anytime soon... haha...

miserable life

life is really terrible for her.. she failed her 2.4km test... failed her math test again and failed by one mark for her chem test. she could have done alright for the chem test...but she got careless during some of the ques... well, guess wat? she's abt to fail her bio test too...

this 17 yr old girl is feeling kinda depressed.. she isn't really a big fan of her class... there's this invisible cliques formed.. quite obvious but only the class tries to hide it by being together... she misses her old friends... friends like kahyin and vanessa... the ppls she could be ard with and be comfortable with toking and laming ard....

as for the 2.4km run, she got a record breaking of longest time - 20.48min... but her teacher seems really nice.. cos he did say the word ' good' when she finally completed the six rounds... she's gonna strive harder... cos she noes that even her good pal can pass with 16+min... nothing shld be impossible.... she's juz gotta rmb: mind over body.... but wat to do? she's always tot herself as someone with no brains not brawns.... she is also gonna pray for her sit-ups and standing board jump.... hoping she will get the bare min.... if she can't get a silver for her 2.4, at least she wishes to do well for her 5 stations.... there won't look too bad afterall...

after failing a couple of tests, she is beginning to feel the pressure.... the stress.... she's afraid she won't be promoted.... but then, these tests all add up to 10% only... so no biggie, rite? but still, she has to improve in her studies, esp math... in sajc, the tests are totally different from the tutorials... argh... she grumbles in unfairness as she knows she wasn't born to be good in math...
she fears the tot of being retained... there's the new syllabus and the part abt not being with her friends... graduating one year later... terrible, man...

she initially tot she had a great PI idea... but she's totally screwed cos, it seemed like she needs alot of help... as appeared from wat the teacher said.... she noes what she's gotta do, but she juz doesn't have the idea...

well, for ppls who had been reading her od and now this blog, they should noe that she's kinda changed the contents... she dun complain abt the POINT of doing various things... she juz complain that she can't do them well.... cos she noes that it's no use complaining and saying ' wat's the pt of doing these?' the govt ain't gonna change anything.. even if they do, it won't be anytime soon... so quit it, juz do it.... try your best

she think some ppls in her class see her as an isolated case despite her presence ard another friend... wadeva... she think she need to buy some self-help books for herself to improve in her
interpersonal skills...

sick...

came back from yesterday... got sicked... but i still went for the supposed class gathering... well, i have to say my class is very smart... as in most of them.. who didn't turn up.... perhaps they predicted that no one's gonna turn up.. that's why they dun come... of course, there are the ppls who say they got something on... something that kinda piss me off is the fact that the few of them who said they can come didn't turn up... AND they didn't inform us... but i'm glad kelvin, xinyi, yongkai and sy turned up... well, there are 5 ppls, so it makes it a grp outing... i dunno whether the outing was considered successful... but we din really stone there... so it's good...
oh for dinner, jas came along... really appreciated that... thanks ppls...

well, i'm truly sick... at 8am, my body temp was 38 deg celcius... cool, huh? okay... no it's hot... i dun really feel sick despite the high temp, though... going to see doctor later...

happy birthday to me

today is my birthday.. seriously it's no big deal... i'm not the kind who needs company to go out and celebrate with me... so to yq: dun make me sound so pathetic... meanie... wl and sy delivered the present to me... it was very sweet of them... apparently the present was from quite a number of the bandmates... thanks alot!! the shirt was cute... but if i play tennis in it, i'll reveal my fats.. eeks!
i was quite disappointed at something.. i shan't mention... i noe what to do next time..

i'm quite worried bout the class gathering.. not sure that many of them will turn up... on one hand, look at the bright side.. if there's little people, they will tend to bond together more compared if the whole lot was there but still in their own cliques, true?

yesterday got soccer matches... ac won innova... sa won hc!!! hahahaha... anyway, i was at the caf and i started to look out for yk... so difficult... cos quite far.. anyway.. i spotted 39.. tot it looked abit like him... the way he ran.. and tried to use his head to get the ball.. haha.. so yk... then, had a discussion wif sy whether it was him.... and i was right! shows that my eyesight is still quite good...
anyway.. many saints brought the tables to the side of the field, blocking me and sy's view... but we soon made our way to the gallery, where we met up with yk... it was quite weird lah.. cos the cheers, rite.. were not what we learnt during the orientation..so what's the point of learning then? sian. oh.. my classmate was in the sa team.. and he got injured.. ouch.. i think he banged into this other guy... i could actually hear the impact... eeks.. hopes he gets well soon...

next mon wil be sa vs ac... hmm.. may the best team wins... (and may that be sa..) haha.. hope no one get injured though... oh, i heard sas won acs(i).. haha... may the trend continue... all the best, team sajc! oh.. i wish yk luck too.. only him,not his team... hehe.. .


oh.. there was also this talk bout the testimonials... ya.. so weird.. the principal was making fun of the others... actually, it's good to be simple wat... i mean, if there are leaders, there need to be followers too, rite? or else, how are the leaders ever gonna get their stuff done.. i was kinda worried too.. i think i'll be the quiet person... maybe, i can be more open in COOP.. haha... be in the ex-co or something.. wadeva lah.. see first... i juz think it was quite mean of her lor...

freaked out!!!

i have been running for the past few days ... at home..not on treadmill.. u noe, it's like, on the spot lor... quite lame ah... but i really ran lor.. or at least, i jogged... i got timed myself one... gradually increased from 3min to 18min... somehow, i ran 22min instead of 18 yesterday... my legs have been cramping... but it was a great feeling... cos i've ran... outdo what i tot i couldn't do... very satisfied
today, i've decided to go to the park at my place to run.. i wanted to run the distance... to see whether the past few days i've improved.. unfortunately no... i started running... then i realized it's all gone haywire... i ran 2 rounds... then i stopped liao... that equals to one round around the track... so lan rite??? my plan was to run 45 sec every 100m... but i overshot.. but i still managed to run under 3min for 400m... so that's good, rite?

i'm really pissed lor... i'd rather run on the spot than around the track... when, i'm running on the spot, i juz focus on the time, when it's around the park... i get confused... like... it's a slightly different feeling... i seriously need to go train... i hope i have determination to do it...

without struggle, there can be no progress

i muz keep that in mind... motivates me to do perservere... ya.. i actually forgot about it when i run today... that line kept me going when i was running the past few days...

right now, i juz pray the pe teacher we get tmr will juz do height and weight and not make us run... hmm...

anxious.. worried... going nuts!

hiaz... we'll probably get our time-table next week... which means... time to practice for 2.4km!!!! gosh... can u believe it, 4 years already, i've yet to pass 2.4km.... i've yet to get over my phobia... i've yet to improve my stamina despite my new year resolutions every year for the past 4 years.... no matter how i set myself a list of exercise to do, i juz can't follow it after at most 2weeks.... i'm so terrible.... i feel like i've wasted my life.... i mean, why make life so miserable over some stupid 2.4km.... why can't i juz get myself to do it.... lead a heathly life.... i've calculated... if 18 min is the passing time, i need to run 3min per round, 45sec per 100m.... if only i was forced to do it.... if only my dad had forced me to run with him... if only i've heed his advice.... if only......

alot of ppls are going for the ah leow tuition... most of them are those taking 4 sub.... can't believe it... i'm thinking of going too.. but my parents never liked the idea of sending us to tuition.. if we can do it, we can... according to them, they dun wanna push us too hard... besides, it does cost a sum of money... let's juz say, i'm doing AVERAGE only w/out tuition...
so ridiculous rite... i'm not studying now becos there's no test.... i mean, that's everyone's concept... only to study if there's a test/exam coming up.... nobody bothers to study... i'm not going to complain bout why i'm forced to take up math for the time being... wo(3) ren(4) ming(4) le....

cca is bullshit.. so is cip... the most impt thing now is to get a good testimonial, and what better way to do it than by doing tons of cip? forcing ourselves to appear to be some passionate bout cip when all we want is juz to get a good testimonial from our teachers... to the govt, this is not working out.... gd eg is me and my dear friend... thinking of ways to DO something, when all we have in mind, is actually to impress our cts... we're such laughingstocks... hey, if U are reading... i'm not exactly refering to u only okay... everyone's doing it... i'm juz pissed that we stooping so low... well, not exactly stooping so low... it's juz that our mindset are not right.... testimonial... it shld be confidential... it shld not be let known to students that a testimonial is impt... it juz brings out the pretentiousness in people.... people like me...

hey, but on the other hand... i really wanna donate blood.... i dunno... i'm not thinking in a way to help others... i juz think it's cool... so lame rite... at least i'm not donating to get credits... i'm donating cos i think it's cool... the latter sounds better, rite...

crybaby

i'm so pissed with myself... well, not really.. juz shocked, embarrassed and diao?! anyway, we had the presentation thingy today... i tot it was to tok about myself... but then the first few speakers were toking bout their own personal experiences... so my preparation went down in the drain... and i juz crapped bout band...

i was saying how i joined band.. blah blah blah... then i reached the part where i was saying bout how we took the unanimous first breathe during the leonardus rex... I DUNNO WHY.. but i juz started tearing.. well, not really lah, my eyes were slightly wet... i was shaking... then i hurry up finish up and went back to seat... i guess most of the ppls could tell that i was about to break down? i dunno.. i tot i was quite obvious when i started taking tissue out to wipe dry my tears... the instructor was saying something like i have to control myself when i toking bout certain emotional issues

BUT IT"S NOT... i swear... i was juz very nervous... i mean, i din even cry when we got silver lor... why would i cry while telling the experience... band life to me, happens to be the worst time in my life... (also the best lah...) ya.. anyway... i was extremely embarrassed.... i shocked myself... maybe even the rest of the class... eeks!! what a terrible bad first impression...

please pardon me... i juz realized i have very active glands.. the one that produces tears..shucks ...

oh strange thing is... the topics that everyone choose were at least 3 min.. the instructor was out of tape lor... haha... i can't believe it... so weird rite?

formalities

okay..i was really pissed when i found out they were late... i mean, come on, if u dun wanna come, then tell me... and worse still, if u had already wanted to come, can't u have some decency enuf to wake up early.... i'm telling myself, i'm never asking them out for gym.. ever. okay, so i simmered down when they FINALLY arrived... i was thinking, we've been friends, i should have expected this from them... but someone forgot her manners!!! she din apologize.... and that made me pissed for a few seconds cos the other one had already done so... did she think it was alright? oh gosh...
i think it's juz me... but i feel that manners are really impt, even among friends... i feel like demanding an apology from her right now... but i noe, she'll probably not mean it... but i'm not gonna rmb that she forgot to say sorry... i'll juz keep in mind to forget to apologize to her some other time later... BUT becos it's ME aka miss-very-polite-to-all-my-friends i'm toking about, i'll probably not be so mean... maybe, i should learn to be more forgiving... rite, that'll be one of my resolutions this year... forgiving someone for the things she've done and for the apology that she doesn't say .. rite.

05S55

erm.. today din go sch AGAIN... but i got reason one.. stomachache.. but i'm fine now... fee kinda bad.. to leave sy alone... but then again, i din want to create a scene for myself... also abit disappointed that i won't be 'interacting with my cg mates'
yesterday when i had lunch with them, i kinda felt that they are really a great bunch a ppls... very friendly and nice... but most of them already knew each other... oh, and it happens to be xinyi and wanting's ex class... as usual i was really quiet... i did attempt to start a conversation with some of them.. but none of them lasted long... oh gosh... well.. on the brighter side, even if i go back to s6 combi, i wouldn't really know any of my classmates cos most of my previous cg mates are in better classes now... i hope things will get better... soon. cos somehoe, i kept going back to the new town gang.... u noe.. it's so natural... but then again, it's becos it's during orientation... when classes start officially... i'll be on my own... or hopefully, with some of my newly-made friends...

confession:
i'm feeling very insecure right now.

i wish there could be a new town junior college... haha.. then those in ntss wil go ntjc.. ya.. and ceteris paribus(all else remains the same)...

what am i studying for???

i rmb..back in sec 3/4, i was complaning about studying amaths.. and physics.. cos i suxed in both subjects and i was also telling myself that i don't wanna have anything to do with physics or math in the future.. at least cheam math lah...
now i'm in such a dilemma.. well not exactly dilemma cos i'm not forced to make one out of 2 choices.. i feel frustrated... i went to the ntu, smu and nus webbies to see what i can take or what i shld take and/or so that i can make a decision for the option form thingy... i'm thinking of bio, chem and math... yes, i'm dropping econs... cos i totally sux at math and i feel that i need to concentrate more on that very impt subject.... then i was thinking, wat to take in nus? dentistry, pharmacy???? it's so diao lor, now that i think about it... study that to make money? study that to please my folks? i noe this is reality... but i juz refuse to face it... i'm thinking of poly... but i dun think i like the kinda life there... well, the courses that may interest me in poly is tourism and design & environment.. but wat shit is that? i juz feel so sick! i wanna cry.. really suddenly, i wish my main aim in life is juz to get into sajc... then, forever i will be stucked with 8 subjects and not think about anything else.... siao rite?

i went to this other website... universities in australia that offers marine biology courses.... i seriously think that is very interesting and i will definitely work hard for it.. but how can? in australia leh? i dun even have the means to go there.. much less to study there... if only i'm rich... i'm so vexed rite now... i dun even noe why i'm studying.... i'd so rather work with the animals then do any of this... even if i do well in my chem and bio, chances are i won't get into the universities in aussie either.. it's so slim... what to do???? i'm envious of those who noe what they want in life... that's their purpose of living... i dunno my purpose of living in this world.... so jia lat.. what am i going to do??? it sux... it really does... i desparately need some expert's advice on wat to do... go thru a lvls(chem and bio) and migrate to aussie? (siao, i dun dare, neither do my folks).. a scholarship will be sweet.. but who's gonna offer it???

shld i juz concentrate on these few subjects, get the s papers, then find a way to aussie?? maybe i'll be the illegal immigrant.. so lame... but i guess, that's what i'm gonna do now for the time being... a step at a time... maybe my long-term goal is to study marine biology... for now.. make sure i study hard... that sound rite? i think so...

phew, i feel much better now that i have sort out my thoughts.. dun think so much first, juz do my best in wateva i feel is rite for me... i'm living for myself... sounds good, huh? i tot so... hehe

YAY!!!

yes! i made it into SAJC! woohoo!!!! i'm so really happy... i mean, i can't wait to buy the uniform... i'm so overjoyed!!! i logged on at ard 7am... and... i wasn't surprised, i could already find the posting... so.. ya, very glad... i even copied and pasted the posting on microsoft so that i noe i din see the wrong thingy.... hehe.... that's me... well... can't wait to be in sch...
but i think, the really good thing.. is that i need not go jjc... i mean, it would have been terrible if i went there.. cos i'd need to prepare a whole lot of new things.. like catching up and stuff... so yap... guess, i shld be revising for my subjects soon... YAY!

materialism...

my friend got a new phone juz a mth ago... upon seeing it.. i juz feel the urge to get a new one too... i'm using the 8250 on now... and honestly, i haven't had my own personal phone before... most of the phones were past down by either my mum and my bro... i want to sign up for a new line.. but my mum said i'm still too young to be a consumer...
actually, based on my allowance, i can actually go sign up for the new phone and pay the monthly bills on my own...

but... i feel that what i'm doing will be a sign of.. following wat others do... u noe, cos they have a camera phone, therefore i shld have one too.. Of course, that's what everyone is doing.. keeping up with the trend.. but... to me, i find it unnecessary.. the phone i mean... i dun msg that much... i'm not really the camera person..(although i really like that cyber shot camera with a big screen and is really flat... )

besides... i'm more into watches... so, i shld probably use the money for watches instead... rite....

results out on tuesday, 8am... i'm so gonna wake up early... i dun see why i shldn't get into sajc.. cos i get 9 pts... okay... good.. i really hope so...

praying hard....

holiday was okay so far... really... played the sims... very glad that i dl some of the superstars.. cos their clothes are really nice!!! so cool, man.. i wish i could wear them.. hehe...
anyway, next week is the posting results... i'm kinda scared.. but at some pt of time, i'm thinking that i do have a chance of staying in sa... it's like, 13-4=9... so why not? but then... i do kind feel scared that i will end up in jjc... it's like.. i really wanna wear the sa uniform.. i wanna be known as a saint... i'm proud of it... haiz...

wishlists
mcfly cd
kelly clarkson cd
nike shirt.. (the one with the routes on it..)
nike watch
jacket/windbreaker

economics... or not

hiax... i juz realized that next week is not the march holidays.. so that means, on more week of lecctures, tutorials.. and pe... sian... wanted to go running... but.. u noe.. failed to do so.. cos, when i woke up, breakfast was there.. and i juz din feel like jogging alone in some strange places... i'm so dead next week... esp during pe... can't run... Argh!
played tennis yesterday.. quite a good session.. more comfortable with my strokes now... juz still not good... i realized my serve really sux... i mean, i can, at times, get the ball to go into the box.. but there's no POWER. when yh and kenneth served.. even if it's out.. there's the sound.. u noe.. like they really hit it hard.. but somehow i couldn't do that.. the strength that i used to hit the strokes is juz not present when i try to serve it... yah.. and somehow that's the opposite of yh... haix..then went to eat pizza hut... seriously.. i think i'm not determined enuf... i have to start controlling wat i eat.. i ate 3 time-out juz now!!!! gosh... i'm supposed to eat proper meals only... but now... i muz do lots of exercise liao... yucks... i suxed

oh then.. i was thinking.. i would like to drop economics... u noe.. cos it's not a prerequisite to any of the uni courses... and i dun wanna go home late juz cos i take an extra subject... it's like, i'd like to have more time for the rest of the 3 subjects.... but u noe.. chances are higher in getting a scholarship if i take 4 subjects... hmm... but.. i dunno...
i'm kinda worrited bout the next orientation... will i stay? i hope so.. that's the reason why i shldn't pon any lessons now.. or else i'll be in trouble... i would definitely prefer to stay in the S6 series.. u noe... i've got feelings already... besides my friends all there... but then.. i wouldn't say i'm staying juz becos of my friends... aiyah... i dunno... it;s like if i go there..the chem and bio class only.. then... well.. chances are, i'll probably abit outcasted cos... i dunno.. chances are they wil noe each other more... i noe.. there will definitely be ppls previously not from sa...
i seriously dunno what i'm writing... hiax...