yesterday went to play tennis... realise that i really sux at it... esp serving... worse thing is i dun even wanna try... actually it's not that i dun like yh to serve... it's juz that.. we dun have enuf practice... then...it can be quite a waste of time... then... it can be kinda unfair to the other party, me.... haiz... i'm not blaming her... i also wanna practice.. but no one's there to guide me...
then afterwards play badminton... haha... realisz that i'm really terrible at that sport... as least compared to yh and sm.... maybe becos i was playing tennis before that... but then... so was yh.... oh well... i guess i finally realise that i'm NOT a very SPORTY person.... that's kinda sad... cos i do enjoy playing sports... maybe i shld learn from yh.... "dun be afraid to learn... dun be afriad to make mistakes"
argh... i'm having leg and arm pain... eeks... abit of back pain.. cos yesterday was more of picking balls then hitting them...
been failing tests the past month... borderline fail mark for both chem and bio... kinda pissed... math, of course is fail terribly... even gp... i think i was the lowest... hiaz... i'm supposed to be hardworking.... i guess it's time to change my approach on how i shld study.... THINK NOT MEMORISE.... hiax....
well, at least i am pleased to have watch the tennis matches... i was glad i met them... but on the other hand... i'm glad i will probably not see them anytime soon... haha...
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Friday, May 13, 2005
miserable life
life is really terrible for her.. she failed her 2.4km test... failed her math test again and failed by one mark for her chem test. she could have done alright for the chem test...but she got careless during some of the ques... well, guess wat? she's abt to fail her bio test too...
this 17 yr old girl is feeling kinda depressed.. she isn't really a big fan of her class... there's this invisible cliques formed.. quite obvious but only the class tries to hide it by being together... she misses her old friends... friends like kahyin and vanessa... the ppls she could be ard with and be comfortable with toking and laming ard....
as for the 2.4km run, she got a record breaking of longest time - 20.48min... but her teacher seems really nice.. cos he did say the word ' good' when she finally completed the six rounds... she's gonna strive harder... cos she noes that even her good pal can pass with 16+min... nothing shld be impossible.... she's juz gotta rmb: mind over body.... but wat to do? she's always tot herself as someone with no brains not brawns.... she is also gonna pray for her sit-ups and standing board jump.... hoping she will get the bare min.... if she can't get a silver for her 2.4, at least she wishes to do well for her 5 stations.... there won't look too bad afterall...
after failing a couple of tests, she is beginning to feel the pressure.... the stress.... she's afraid she won't be promoted.... but then, these tests all add up to 10% only... so no biggie, rite? but still, she has to improve in her studies, esp math... in sajc, the tests are totally different from the tutorials... argh... she grumbles in unfairness as she knows she wasn't born to be good in math...
she fears the tot of being retained... there's the new syllabus and the part abt not being with her friends... graduating one year later... terrible, man...
she initially tot she had a great PI idea... but she's totally screwed cos, it seemed like she needs alot of help... as appeared from wat the teacher said.... she noes what she's gotta do, but she juz doesn't have the idea...
well, for ppls who had been reading her od and now this blog, they should noe that she's kinda changed the contents... she dun complain abt the POINT of doing various things... she juz complain that she can't do them well.... cos she noes that it's no use complaining and saying ' wat's the pt of doing these?' the govt ain't gonna change anything.. even if they do, it won't be anytime soon... so quit it, juz do it.... try your best
she think some ppls in her class see her as an isolated case despite her presence ard another friend... wadeva... she think she need to buy some self-help books for herself to improve in her
interpersonal skills...
this 17 yr old girl is feeling kinda depressed.. she isn't really a big fan of her class... there's this invisible cliques formed.. quite obvious but only the class tries to hide it by being together... she misses her old friends... friends like kahyin and vanessa... the ppls she could be ard with and be comfortable with toking and laming ard....
as for the 2.4km run, she got a record breaking of longest time - 20.48min... but her teacher seems really nice.. cos he did say the word ' good' when she finally completed the six rounds... she's gonna strive harder... cos she noes that even her good pal can pass with 16+min... nothing shld be impossible.... she's juz gotta rmb: mind over body.... but wat to do? she's always tot herself as someone with no brains not brawns.... she is also gonna pray for her sit-ups and standing board jump.... hoping she will get the bare min.... if she can't get a silver for her 2.4, at least she wishes to do well for her 5 stations.... there won't look too bad afterall...
after failing a couple of tests, she is beginning to feel the pressure.... the stress.... she's afraid she won't be promoted.... but then, these tests all add up to 10% only... so no biggie, rite? but still, she has to improve in her studies, esp math... in sajc, the tests are totally different from the tutorials... argh... she grumbles in unfairness as she knows she wasn't born to be good in math...
she fears the tot of being retained... there's the new syllabus and the part abt not being with her friends... graduating one year later... terrible, man...
she initially tot she had a great PI idea... but she's totally screwed cos, it seemed like she needs alot of help... as appeared from wat the teacher said.... she noes what she's gotta do, but she juz doesn't have the idea...
well, for ppls who had been reading her od and now this blog, they should noe that she's kinda changed the contents... she dun complain abt the POINT of doing various things... she juz complain that she can't do them well.... cos she noes that it's no use complaining and saying ' wat's the pt of doing these?' the govt ain't gonna change anything.. even if they do, it won't be anytime soon... so quit it, juz do it.... try your best
she think some ppls in her class see her as an isolated case despite her presence ard another friend... wadeva... she think she need to buy some self-help books for herself to improve in her
interpersonal skills...
Monday, May 02, 2005
sick...
came back from yesterday... got sicked... but i still went for the supposed class gathering... well, i have to say my class is very smart... as in most of them.. who didn't turn up.... perhaps they predicted that no one's gonna turn up.. that's why they dun come... of course, there are the ppls who say they got something on... something that kinda piss me off is the fact that the few of them who said they can come didn't turn up... AND they didn't inform us... but i'm glad kelvin, xinyi, yongkai and sy turned up... well, there are 5 ppls, so it makes it a grp outing... i dunno whether the outing was considered successful... but we din really stone there... so it's good...
oh for dinner, jas came along... really appreciated that... thanks ppls...
well, i'm truly sick... at 8am, my body temp was 38 deg celcius... cool, huh? okay... no it's hot... i dun really feel sick despite the high temp, though... going to see doctor later...
oh for dinner, jas came along... really appreciated that... thanks ppls...
well, i'm truly sick... at 8am, my body temp was 38 deg celcius... cool, huh? okay... no it's hot... i dun really feel sick despite the high temp, though... going to see doctor later...
Friday, April 15, 2005
happy birthday to me
today is my birthday.. seriously it's no big deal... i'm not the kind who needs company to go out and celebrate with me... so to yq: dun make me sound so pathetic... meanie... wl and sy delivered the present to me... it was very sweet of them... apparently the present was from quite a number of the bandmates... thanks alot!! the shirt was cute... but if i play tennis in it, i'll reveal my fats.. eeks!
i was quite disappointed at something.. i shan't mention... i noe what to do next time..
i'm quite worried bout the class gathering.. not sure that many of them will turn up... on one hand, look at the bright side.. if there's little people, they will tend to bond together more compared if the whole lot was there but still in their own cliques, true?
yesterday got soccer matches... ac won innova... sa won hc!!! hahahaha... anyway, i was at the caf and i started to look out for yk... so difficult... cos quite far.. anyway.. i spotted 39.. tot it looked abit like him... the way he ran.. and tried to use his head to get the ball.. haha.. so yk... then, had a discussion wif sy whether it was him.... and i was right! shows that my eyesight is still quite good...
anyway.. many saints brought the tables to the side of the field, blocking me and sy's view... but we soon made our way to the gallery, where we met up with yk... it was quite weird lah.. cos the cheers, rite.. were not what we learnt during the orientation..so what's the point of learning then? sian. oh.. my classmate was in the sa team.. and he got injured.. ouch.. i think he banged into this other guy... i could actually hear the impact... eeks.. hopes he gets well soon...
next mon wil be sa vs ac... hmm.. may the best team wins... (and may that be sa..) haha.. hope no one get injured though... oh, i heard sas won acs(i).. haha... may the trend continue... all the best, team sajc! oh.. i wish yk luck too.. only him,not his team... hehe.. .
oh.. there was also this talk bout the testimonials... ya.. so weird.. the principal was making fun of the others... actually, it's good to be simple wat... i mean, if there are leaders, there need to be followers too, rite? or else, how are the leaders ever gonna get their stuff done.. i was kinda worried too.. i think i'll be the quiet person... maybe, i can be more open in COOP.. haha... be in the ex-co or something.. wadeva lah.. see first... i juz think it was quite mean of her lor...
i was quite disappointed at something.. i shan't mention... i noe what to do next time..
i'm quite worried bout the class gathering.. not sure that many of them will turn up... on one hand, look at the bright side.. if there's little people, they will tend to bond together more compared if the whole lot was there but still in their own cliques, true?
yesterday got soccer matches... ac won innova... sa won hc!!! hahahaha... anyway, i was at the caf and i started to look out for yk... so difficult... cos quite far.. anyway.. i spotted 39.. tot it looked abit like him... the way he ran.. and tried to use his head to get the ball.. haha.. so yk... then, had a discussion wif sy whether it was him.... and i was right! shows that my eyesight is still quite good...
anyway.. many saints brought the tables to the side of the field, blocking me and sy's view... but we soon made our way to the gallery, where we met up with yk... it was quite weird lah.. cos the cheers, rite.. were not what we learnt during the orientation..so what's the point of learning then? sian. oh.. my classmate was in the sa team.. and he got injured.. ouch.. i think he banged into this other guy... i could actually hear the impact... eeks.. hopes he gets well soon...
next mon wil be sa vs ac... hmm.. may the best team wins... (and may that be sa..) haha.. hope no one get injured though... oh, i heard sas won acs(i).. haha... may the trend continue... all the best, team sajc! oh.. i wish yk luck too.. only him,not his team... hehe.. .
oh.. there was also this talk bout the testimonials... ya.. so weird.. the principal was making fun of the others... actually, it's good to be simple wat... i mean, if there are leaders, there need to be followers too, rite? or else, how are the leaders ever gonna get their stuff done.. i was kinda worried too.. i think i'll be the quiet person... maybe, i can be more open in COOP.. haha... be in the ex-co or something.. wadeva lah.. see first... i juz think it was quite mean of her lor...
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
freaked out!!!
i have been running for the past few days ... at home..not on treadmill.. u noe, it's like, on the spot lor... quite lame ah... but i really ran lor.. or at least, i jogged... i got timed myself one... gradually increased from 3min to 18min... somehow, i ran 22min instead of 18 yesterday... my legs have been cramping... but it was a great feeling... cos i've ran... outdo what i tot i couldn't do... very satisfied
today, i've decided to go to the park at my place to run.. i wanted to run the distance... to see whether the past few days i've improved.. unfortunately no... i started running... then i realized it's all gone haywire... i ran 2 rounds... then i stopped liao... that equals to one round around the track... so lan rite??? my plan was to run 45 sec every 100m... but i overshot.. but i still managed to run under 3min for 400m... so that's good, rite?
i'm really pissed lor... i'd rather run on the spot than around the track... when, i'm running on the spot, i juz focus on the time, when it's around the park... i get confused... like... it's a slightly different feeling... i seriously need to go train... i hope i have determination to do it...
without struggle, there can be no progress
i muz keep that in mind... motivates me to do perservere... ya.. i actually forgot about it when i run today... that line kept me going when i was running the past few days...
right now, i juz pray the pe teacher we get tmr will juz do height and weight and not make us run... hmm...
today, i've decided to go to the park at my place to run.. i wanted to run the distance... to see whether the past few days i've improved.. unfortunately no... i started running... then i realized it's all gone haywire... i ran 2 rounds... then i stopped liao... that equals to one round around the track... so lan rite??? my plan was to run 45 sec every 100m... but i overshot.. but i still managed to run under 3min for 400m... so that's good, rite?
i'm really pissed lor... i'd rather run on the spot than around the track... when, i'm running on the spot, i juz focus on the time, when it's around the park... i get confused... like... it's a slightly different feeling... i seriously need to go train... i hope i have determination to do it...
without struggle, there can be no progress
i muz keep that in mind... motivates me to do perservere... ya.. i actually forgot about it when i run today... that line kept me going when i was running the past few days...
right now, i juz pray the pe teacher we get tmr will juz do height and weight and not make us run... hmm...
Friday, April 08, 2005
anxious.. worried... going nuts!
hiaz... we'll probably get our time-table next week... which means... time to practice for 2.4km!!!! gosh... can u believe it, 4 years already, i've yet to pass 2.4km.... i've yet to get over my phobia... i've yet to improve my stamina despite my new year resolutions every year for the past 4 years.... no matter how i set myself a list of exercise to do, i juz can't follow it after at most 2weeks.... i'm so terrible.... i feel like i've wasted my life.... i mean, why make life so miserable over some stupid 2.4km.... why can't i juz get myself to do it.... lead a heathly life.... i've calculated... if 18 min is the passing time, i need to run 3min per round, 45sec per 100m.... if only i was forced to do it.... if only my dad had forced me to run with him... if only i've heed his advice.... if only......
alot of ppls are going for the ah leow tuition... most of them are those taking 4 sub.... can't believe it... i'm thinking of going too.. but my parents never liked the idea of sending us to tuition.. if we can do it, we can... according to them, they dun wanna push us too hard... besides, it does cost a sum of money... let's juz say, i'm doing AVERAGE only w/out tuition...
so ridiculous rite... i'm not studying now becos there's no test.... i mean, that's everyone's concept... only to study if there's a test/exam coming up.... nobody bothers to study... i'm not going to complain bout why i'm forced to take up math for the time being... wo(3) ren(4) ming(4) le....
cca is bullshit.. so is cip... the most impt thing now is to get a good testimonial, and what better way to do it than by doing tons of cip? forcing ourselves to appear to be some passionate bout cip when all we want is juz to get a good testimonial from our teachers... to the govt, this is not working out.... gd eg is me and my dear friend... thinking of ways to DO something, when all we have in mind, is actually to impress our cts... we're such laughingstocks... hey, if U are reading... i'm not exactly refering to u only okay... everyone's doing it... i'm juz pissed that we stooping so low... well, not exactly stooping so low... it's juz that our mindset are not right.... testimonial... it shld be confidential... it shld not be let known to students that a testimonial is impt... it juz brings out the pretentiousness in people.... people like me...
hey, but on the other hand... i really wanna donate blood.... i dunno... i'm not thinking in a way to help others... i juz think it's cool... so lame rite... at least i'm not donating to get credits... i'm donating cos i think it's cool... the latter sounds better, rite...
alot of ppls are going for the ah leow tuition... most of them are those taking 4 sub.... can't believe it... i'm thinking of going too.. but my parents never liked the idea of sending us to tuition.. if we can do it, we can... according to them, they dun wanna push us too hard... besides, it does cost a sum of money... let's juz say, i'm doing AVERAGE only w/out tuition...
so ridiculous rite... i'm not studying now becos there's no test.... i mean, that's everyone's concept... only to study if there's a test/exam coming up.... nobody bothers to study... i'm not going to complain bout why i'm forced to take up math for the time being... wo(3) ren(4) ming(4) le....
cca is bullshit.. so is cip... the most impt thing now is to get a good testimonial, and what better way to do it than by doing tons of cip? forcing ourselves to appear to be some passionate bout cip when all we want is juz to get a good testimonial from our teachers... to the govt, this is not working out.... gd eg is me and my dear friend... thinking of ways to DO something, when all we have in mind, is actually to impress our cts... we're such laughingstocks... hey, if U are reading... i'm not exactly refering to u only okay... everyone's doing it... i'm juz pissed that we stooping so low... well, not exactly stooping so low... it's juz that our mindset are not right.... testimonial... it shld be confidential... it shld not be let known to students that a testimonial is impt... it juz brings out the pretentiousness in people.... people like me...
hey, but on the other hand... i really wanna donate blood.... i dunno... i'm not thinking in a way to help others... i juz think it's cool... so lame rite... at least i'm not donating to get credits... i'm donating cos i think it's cool... the latter sounds better, rite...
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
crybaby
i'm so pissed with myself... well, not really.. juz shocked, embarrassed and diao?! anyway, we had the presentation thingy today... i tot it was to tok about myself... but then the first few speakers were toking bout their own personal experiences... so my preparation went down in the drain... and i juz crapped bout band...
i was saying how i joined band.. blah blah blah... then i reached the part where i was saying bout how we took the unanimous first breathe during the leonardus rex... I DUNNO WHY.. but i juz started tearing.. well, not really lah, my eyes were slightly wet... i was shaking... then i hurry up finish up and went back to seat... i guess most of the ppls could tell that i was about to break down? i dunno.. i tot i was quite obvious when i started taking tissue out to wipe dry my tears... the instructor was saying something like i have to control myself when i toking bout certain emotional issues
BUT IT"S NOT... i swear... i was juz very nervous... i mean, i din even cry when we got silver lor... why would i cry while telling the experience... band life to me, happens to be the worst time in my life... (also the best lah...) ya.. anyway... i was extremely embarrassed.... i shocked myself... maybe even the rest of the class... eeks!! what a terrible bad first impression...
please pardon me... i juz realized i have very active glands.. the one that produces tears..shucks ...
oh strange thing is... the topics that everyone choose were at least 3 min.. the instructor was out of tape lor... haha... i can't believe it... so weird rite?
i was saying how i joined band.. blah blah blah... then i reached the part where i was saying bout how we took the unanimous first breathe during the leonardus rex... I DUNNO WHY.. but i juz started tearing.. well, not really lah, my eyes were slightly wet... i was shaking... then i hurry up finish up and went back to seat... i guess most of the ppls could tell that i was about to break down? i dunno.. i tot i was quite obvious when i started taking tissue out to wipe dry my tears... the instructor was saying something like i have to control myself when i toking bout certain emotional issues
BUT IT"S NOT... i swear... i was juz very nervous... i mean, i din even cry when we got silver lor... why would i cry while telling the experience... band life to me, happens to be the worst time in my life... (also the best lah...) ya.. anyway... i was extremely embarrassed.... i shocked myself... maybe even the rest of the class... eeks!! what a terrible bad first impression...
please pardon me... i juz realized i have very active glands.. the one that produces tears..shucks ...
oh strange thing is... the topics that everyone choose were at least 3 min.. the instructor was out of tape lor... haha... i can't believe it... so weird rite?
Saturday, April 02, 2005
formalities
okay..i was really pissed when i found out they were late... i mean, come on, if u dun wanna come, then tell me... and worse still, if u had already wanted to come, can't u have some decency enuf to wake up early.... i'm telling myself, i'm never asking them out for gym.. ever. okay, so i simmered down when they FINALLY arrived... i was thinking, we've been friends, i should have expected this from them... but someone forgot her manners!!! she din apologize.... and that made me pissed for a few seconds cos the other one had already done so... did she think it was alright? oh gosh...
i think it's juz me... but i feel that manners are really impt, even among friends... i feel like demanding an apology from her right now... but i noe, she'll probably not mean it... but i'm not gonna rmb that she forgot to say sorry... i'll juz keep in mind to forget to apologize to her some other time later... BUT becos it's ME aka miss-very-polite-to-all-my-friends i'm toking about, i'll probably not be so mean... maybe, i should learn to be more forgiving... rite, that'll be one of my resolutions this year... forgiving someone for the things she've done and for the apology that she doesn't say .. rite.
i think it's juz me... but i feel that manners are really impt, even among friends... i feel like demanding an apology from her right now... but i noe, she'll probably not mean it... but i'm not gonna rmb that she forgot to say sorry... i'll juz keep in mind to forget to apologize to her some other time later... BUT becos it's ME aka miss-very-polite-to-all-my-friends i'm toking about, i'll probably not be so mean... maybe, i should learn to be more forgiving... rite, that'll be one of my resolutions this year... forgiving someone for the things she've done and for the apology that she doesn't say .. rite.
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
05S55
erm.. today din go sch AGAIN... but i got reason one.. stomachache.. but i'm fine now... fee kinda bad.. to leave sy alone... but then again, i din want to create a scene for myself... also abit disappointed that i won't be 'interacting with my cg mates'
yesterday when i had lunch with them, i kinda felt that they are really a great bunch a ppls... very friendly and nice... but most of them already knew each other... oh, and it happens to be xinyi and wanting's ex class... as usual i was really quiet... i did attempt to start a conversation with some of them.. but none of them lasted long... oh gosh... well.. on the brighter side, even if i go back to s6 combi, i wouldn't really know any of my classmates cos most of my previous cg mates are in better classes now... i hope things will get better... soon. cos somehoe, i kept going back to the new town gang.... u noe.. it's so natural... but then again, it's becos it's during orientation... when classes start officially... i'll be on my own... or hopefully, with some of my newly-made friends...
confession:
i'm feeling very insecure right now.
i wish there could be a new town junior college... haha.. then those in ntss wil go ntjc.. ya.. and ceteris paribus(all else remains the same)...
yesterday when i had lunch with them, i kinda felt that they are really a great bunch a ppls... very friendly and nice... but most of them already knew each other... oh, and it happens to be xinyi and wanting's ex class... as usual i was really quiet... i did attempt to start a conversation with some of them.. but none of them lasted long... oh gosh... well.. on the brighter side, even if i go back to s6 combi, i wouldn't really know any of my classmates cos most of my previous cg mates are in better classes now... i hope things will get better... soon. cos somehoe, i kept going back to the new town gang.... u noe.. it's so natural... but then again, it's becos it's during orientation... when classes start officially... i'll be on my own... or hopefully, with some of my newly-made friends...
confession:
i'm feeling very insecure right now.
i wish there could be a new town junior college... haha.. then those in ntss wil go ntjc.. ya.. and ceteris paribus(all else remains the same)...
Friday, March 25, 2005
what am i studying for???
i rmb..back in sec 3/4, i was complaning about studying amaths.. and physics.. cos i suxed in both subjects and i was also telling myself that i don't wanna have anything to do with physics or math in the future.. at least cheam math lah...
now i'm in such a dilemma.. well not exactly dilemma cos i'm not forced to make one out of 2 choices.. i feel frustrated... i went to the ntu, smu and nus webbies to see what i can take or what i shld take and/or so that i can make a decision for the option form thingy... i'm thinking of bio, chem and math... yes, i'm dropping econs... cos i totally sux at math and i feel that i need to concentrate more on that very impt subject.... then i was thinking, wat to take in nus? dentistry, pharmacy???? it's so diao lor, now that i think about it... study that to make money? study that to please my folks? i noe this is reality... but i juz refuse to face it... i'm thinking of poly... but i dun think i like the kinda life there... well, the courses that may interest me in poly is tourism and design & environment.. but wat shit is that? i juz feel so sick! i wanna cry.. really suddenly, i wish my main aim in life is juz to get into sajc... then, forever i will be stucked with 8 subjects and not think about anything else.... siao rite?
i went to this other website... universities in australia that offers marine biology courses.... i seriously think that is very interesting and i will definitely work hard for it.. but how can? in australia leh? i dun even have the means to go there.. much less to study there... if only i'm rich... i'm so vexed rite now... i dun even noe why i'm studying.... i'd so rather work with the animals then do any of this... even if i do well in my chem and bio, chances are i won't get into the universities in aussie either.. it's so slim... what to do???? i'm envious of those who noe what they want in life... that's their purpose of living... i dunno my purpose of living in this world.... so jia lat.. what am i going to do??? it sux... it really does... i desparately need some expert's advice on wat to do... go thru a lvls(chem and bio) and migrate to aussie? (siao, i dun dare, neither do my folks).. a scholarship will be sweet.. but who's gonna offer it???
shld i juz concentrate on these few subjects, get the s papers, then find a way to aussie?? maybe i'll be the illegal immigrant.. so lame... but i guess, that's what i'm gonna do now for the time being... a step at a time... maybe my long-term goal is to study marine biology... for now.. make sure i study hard... that sound rite? i think so...
phew, i feel much better now that i have sort out my thoughts.. dun think so much first, juz do my best in wateva i feel is rite for me... i'm living for myself... sounds good, huh? i tot so... hehe
now i'm in such a dilemma.. well not exactly dilemma cos i'm not forced to make one out of 2 choices.. i feel frustrated... i went to the ntu, smu and nus webbies to see what i can take or what i shld take and/or so that i can make a decision for the option form thingy... i'm thinking of bio, chem and math... yes, i'm dropping econs... cos i totally sux at math and i feel that i need to concentrate more on that very impt subject.... then i was thinking, wat to take in nus? dentistry, pharmacy???? it's so diao lor, now that i think about it... study that to make money? study that to please my folks? i noe this is reality... but i juz refuse to face it... i'm thinking of poly... but i dun think i like the kinda life there... well, the courses that may interest me in poly is tourism and design & environment.. but wat shit is that? i juz feel so sick! i wanna cry.. really suddenly, i wish my main aim in life is juz to get into sajc... then, forever i will be stucked with 8 subjects and not think about anything else.... siao rite?
i went to this other website... universities in australia that offers marine biology courses.... i seriously think that is very interesting and i will definitely work hard for it.. but how can? in australia leh? i dun even have the means to go there.. much less to study there... if only i'm rich... i'm so vexed rite now... i dun even noe why i'm studying.... i'd so rather work with the animals then do any of this... even if i do well in my chem and bio, chances are i won't get into the universities in aussie either.. it's so slim... what to do???? i'm envious of those who noe what they want in life... that's their purpose of living... i dunno my purpose of living in this world.... so jia lat.. what am i going to do??? it sux... it really does... i desparately need some expert's advice on wat to do... go thru a lvls(chem and bio) and migrate to aussie? (siao, i dun dare, neither do my folks).. a scholarship will be sweet.. but who's gonna offer it???
shld i juz concentrate on these few subjects, get the s papers, then find a way to aussie?? maybe i'll be the illegal immigrant.. so lame... but i guess, that's what i'm gonna do now for the time being... a step at a time... maybe my long-term goal is to study marine biology... for now.. make sure i study hard... that sound rite? i think so...
phew, i feel much better now that i have sort out my thoughts.. dun think so much first, juz do my best in wateva i feel is rite for me... i'm living for myself... sounds good, huh? i tot so... hehe
Monday, March 21, 2005
YAY!!!
yes! i made it into SAJC! woohoo!!!! i'm so really happy... i mean, i can't wait to buy the uniform... i'm so overjoyed!!! i logged on at ard 7am... and... i wasn't surprised, i could already find the posting... so.. ya, very glad... i even copied and pasted the posting on microsoft so that i noe i din see the wrong thingy.... hehe.... that's me... well... can't wait to be in sch...
but i think, the really good thing.. is that i need not go jjc... i mean, it would have been terrible if i went there.. cos i'd need to prepare a whole lot of new things.. like catching up and stuff... so yap... guess, i shld be revising for my subjects soon... YAY!
but i think, the really good thing.. is that i need not go jjc... i mean, it would have been terrible if i went there.. cos i'd need to prepare a whole lot of new things.. like catching up and stuff... so yap... guess, i shld be revising for my subjects soon... YAY!
Friday, March 18, 2005
materialism...
my friend got a new phone juz a mth ago... upon seeing it.. i juz feel the urge to get a new one too... i'm using the 8250 on now... and honestly, i haven't had my own personal phone before... most of the phones were past down by either my mum and my bro... i want to sign up for a new line.. but my mum said i'm still too young to be a consumer...
actually, based on my allowance, i can actually go sign up for the new phone and pay the monthly bills on my own...
but... i feel that what i'm doing will be a sign of.. following wat others do... u noe, cos they have a camera phone, therefore i shld have one too.. Of course, that's what everyone is doing.. keeping up with the trend.. but... to me, i find it unnecessary.. the phone i mean... i dun msg that much... i'm not really the camera person..(although i really like that cyber shot camera with a big screen and is really flat... )
besides... i'm more into watches... so, i shld probably use the money for watches instead... rite....
results out on tuesday, 8am... i'm so gonna wake up early... i dun see why i shldn't get into sajc.. cos i get 9 pts... okay... good.. i really hope so...
actually, based on my allowance, i can actually go sign up for the new phone and pay the monthly bills on my own...
but... i feel that what i'm doing will be a sign of.. following wat others do... u noe, cos they have a camera phone, therefore i shld have one too.. Of course, that's what everyone is doing.. keeping up with the trend.. but... to me, i find it unnecessary.. the phone i mean... i dun msg that much... i'm not really the camera person..(although i really like that cyber shot camera with a big screen and is really flat... )
besides... i'm more into watches... so, i shld probably use the money for watches instead... rite....
results out on tuesday, 8am... i'm so gonna wake up early... i dun see why i shldn't get into sajc.. cos i get 9 pts... okay... good.. i really hope so...
Thursday, March 17, 2005
praying hard....
holiday was okay so far... really... played the sims... very glad that i dl some of the superstars.. cos their clothes are really nice!!! so cool, man.. i wish i could wear them.. hehe...
anyway, next week is the posting results... i'm kinda scared.. but at some pt of time, i'm thinking that i do have a chance of staying in sa... it's like, 13-4=9... so why not? but then... i do kind feel scared that i will end up in jjc... it's like.. i really wanna wear the sa uniform.. i wanna be known as a saint... i'm proud of it... haiz...
wishlists
mcfly cd
kelly clarkson cd
nike shirt.. (the one with the routes on it..)
nike watch
jacket/windbreaker
anyway, next week is the posting results... i'm kinda scared.. but at some pt of time, i'm thinking that i do have a chance of staying in sa... it's like, 13-4=9... so why not? but then... i do kind feel scared that i will end up in jjc... it's like.. i really wanna wear the sa uniform.. i wanna be known as a saint... i'm proud of it... haiz...
wishlists
mcfly cd
kelly clarkson cd
nike shirt.. (the one with the routes on it..)
nike watch
jacket/windbreaker
Friday, March 04, 2005
economics... or not
hiax... i juz realized that next week is not the march holidays.. so that means, on more week of lecctures, tutorials.. and pe... sian... wanted to go running... but.. u noe.. failed to do so.. cos, when i woke up, breakfast was there.. and i juz din feel like jogging alone in some strange places... i'm so dead next week... esp during pe... can't run... Argh!
played tennis yesterday.. quite a good session.. more comfortable with my strokes now... juz still not good... i realized my serve really sux... i mean, i can, at times, get the ball to go into the box.. but there's no POWER. when yh and kenneth served.. even if it's out.. there's the sound.. u noe.. like they really hit it hard.. but somehow i couldn't do that.. the strength that i used to hit the strokes is juz not present when i try to serve it... yah.. and somehow that's the opposite of yh... haix..then went to eat pizza hut... seriously.. i think i'm not determined enuf... i have to start controlling wat i eat.. i ate 3 time-out juz now!!!! gosh... i'm supposed to eat proper meals only... but now... i muz do lots of exercise liao... yucks... i suxed
oh then.. i was thinking.. i would like to drop economics... u noe.. cos it's not a prerequisite to any of the uni courses... and i dun wanna go home late juz cos i take an extra subject... it's like, i'd like to have more time for the rest of the 3 subjects.... but u noe.. chances are higher in getting a scholarship if i take 4 subjects... hmm... but.. i dunno...
i'm kinda worrited bout the next orientation... will i stay? i hope so.. that's the reason why i shldn't pon any lessons now.. or else i'll be in trouble... i would definitely prefer to stay in the S6 series.. u noe... i've got feelings already... besides my friends all there... but then.. i wouldn't say i'm staying juz becos of my friends... aiyah... i dunno... it;s like if i go there..the chem and bio class only.. then... well.. chances are, i'll probably abit outcasted cos... i dunno.. chances are they wil noe each other more... i noe.. there will definitely be ppls previously not from sa...
i seriously dunno what i'm writing... hiax...
played tennis yesterday.. quite a good session.. more comfortable with my strokes now... juz still not good... i realized my serve really sux... i mean, i can, at times, get the ball to go into the box.. but there's no POWER. when yh and kenneth served.. even if it's out.. there's the sound.. u noe.. like they really hit it hard.. but somehow i couldn't do that.. the strength that i used to hit the strokes is juz not present when i try to serve it... yah.. and somehow that's the opposite of yh... haix..then went to eat pizza hut... seriously.. i think i'm not determined enuf... i have to start controlling wat i eat.. i ate 3 time-out juz now!!!! gosh... i'm supposed to eat proper meals only... but now... i muz do lots of exercise liao... yucks... i suxed
oh then.. i was thinking.. i would like to drop economics... u noe.. cos it's not a prerequisite to any of the uni courses... and i dun wanna go home late juz cos i take an extra subject... it's like, i'd like to have more time for the rest of the 3 subjects.... but u noe.. chances are higher in getting a scholarship if i take 4 subjects... hmm... but.. i dunno...
i'm kinda worrited bout the next orientation... will i stay? i hope so.. that's the reason why i shldn't pon any lessons now.. or else i'll be in trouble... i would definitely prefer to stay in the S6 series.. u noe... i've got feelings already... besides my friends all there... but then.. i wouldn't say i'm staying juz becos of my friends... aiyah... i dunno... it;s like if i go there..the chem and bio class only.. then... well.. chances are, i'll probably abit outcasted cos... i dunno.. chances are they wil noe each other more... i noe.. there will definitely be ppls previously not from sa...
i seriously dunno what i'm writing... hiax...
Monday, February 28, 2005
13
i received my results already... as u see, it's 13...
english-b4
com. hum-a1
emath-a2
amath-b3
physics-b3
chem-a2
bio-b3
chinese-a1
well... i was feeling neutral... not excited, neither scared... then they relieased the results... yh and wl both got 6 As... and well, was 'featured' on the transparency... so was yeqin, who got 8 distinctions... i'd say she's a hardworking girl... she deserves it... and well, even sy got 10 pts, much better than me, her english got b3, also better than me...
well, on one hand, i'm happy for my good friends... they worked hard... esp sy... though she always appear to be humble... i suppose.. i shld be too...
but on the other hand, i can't help feelind jealous of their results... wl wants to go poly, that's fine... it won't bother me much... as for yh... i dunno... i give her my congrats.. but still... you see. it's not easy seeing a good friend getting much better grades than u.... it's like... i juz dun get it... i also studied hard... but i have to say, they are smart... maybe it's the way i've been studying.. i'm gonna change... i will... for the better... for now.. i dunno how i'm gonna face them.. i do hope sy will get into sa, but it's unlikely will get into the same course, much less same class..i think i may have some difficulty FACING them... maybe it wil go away some time later... forgive me pals... u guys muz understand that i'm this kinda person...
i really wanna change.. but it's hard...
after i got my results.. i went out... then that nite, i tried to sleep.. abit difficult... cos i kept thinking bout how well my friends did compared to me... i tried to cry.. i couldn't... tried to be happy... very fake... i was basically stoning...
it's so painful.. to be in the middle of happiness and disappointment and yet still unable to feel either of them... get wat i mean?
english-b4
com. hum-a1
emath-a2
amath-b3
physics-b3
chem-a2
bio-b3
chinese-a1
well... i was feeling neutral... not excited, neither scared... then they relieased the results... yh and wl both got 6 As... and well, was 'featured' on the transparency... so was yeqin, who got 8 distinctions... i'd say she's a hardworking girl... she deserves it... and well, even sy got 10 pts, much better than me, her english got b3, also better than me...
well, on one hand, i'm happy for my good friends... they worked hard... esp sy... though she always appear to be humble... i suppose.. i shld be too...
but on the other hand, i can't help feelind jealous of their results... wl wants to go poly, that's fine... it won't bother me much... as for yh... i dunno... i give her my congrats.. but still... you see. it's not easy seeing a good friend getting much better grades than u.... it's like... i juz dun get it... i also studied hard... but i have to say, they are smart... maybe it's the way i've been studying.. i'm gonna change... i will... for the better... for now.. i dunno how i'm gonna face them.. i do hope sy will get into sa, but it's unlikely will get into the same course, much less same class..i think i may have some difficulty FACING them... maybe it wil go away some time later... forgive me pals... u guys muz understand that i'm this kinda person...
i really wanna change.. but it's hard...
after i got my results.. i went out... then that nite, i tried to sleep.. abit difficult... cos i kept thinking bout how well my friends did compared to me... i tried to cry.. i couldn't... tried to be happy... very fake... i was basically stoning...
it's so painful.. to be in the middle of happiness and disappointment and yet still unable to feel either of them... get wat i mean?
Saturday, February 19, 2005
slacking
read a few od entries.. really missed tennis lessons... and the days where i dun have to worry bout tests and hw... i juz feel weird about so many things... like, i want to start everything fresh again.. can i ? no. today is sunday, which means i'm not really supposed to be doing any hw... cos i dun have the mood to do so... want to watch tv.. but nothing catches my attention...except 7th heaven... need to study for chem and math.. i dun really noe how to... i'm juz lazy... rite now, i'm writing this cos i dunno what else to do.. it's juz so miserable... missed the nt days.. can juz tok to anybody... now, it's like, i only have a few friends.. and the others.. well, i dun even noe how to start up conversation wif them... all ky wants is to play bball... no offense.. playing it every available break u have is kinda 'too much', dun ya think so.. okay.. maybe i shld come to terms with myself that i am not such an enthu person... (but i do still look forward to those adventurous activities such as bungee jump, sky div, rock climbing... i hope to climb mt fuji... )
wat to do??? i feel lost again.. friendless again... miserable...
wat to do??? i feel lost again.. friendless again... miserable...
campus rumpus
today is the day!!! campus rumpus with the saints... reached there pretty early, when there's actually no need to.. mainly sat around and stone... walked ard the whole track to see the various activites... i tried the BIG slide, the haunted house.. it was really scary lor!! i couldn't hear the story.. and i was wondering how the tour guide kinda looked invisible... i think it was not bad lor... i knew someone was touching my shoulder... i was like.. 'stop touching my shoulder...', screamed alittle... luckily, it was in grps of five... so not bad... well done! i din really played much of the games as i had planned to do so... i had alot of tickets... i spent $60 on tee shirts... then.. some drinks and food... our stall- cocobowl was not bad lah... many guys were like.. interested.. until they rolled their first coconut.. it was either too hard or wrong side... they were like stunned! yah.. hehe.... they tot wrongly... it actually required some sort of skill... not the kind of bowling skill though... yah.. my record was 9 pins down... and yes, there were stikes... so, nothing is impossible...
i was actually quite erm.. *diao*.. cos.. i wasw helping the 'cool' clique during their shifts... 2 of them were in the tents, doing the tougher job of getting hit by the coconut.. i was like holding the tins and colecting the money... yes, under the hot sun... then, they had like no appreciation of me helping them.... it's like when i told V i was going and passed her the tin, she din even say thanks for helping or bye.. they were like slacking lor... okay lah, maybe i was mean too.. like, when weijing was helping out during our shifts.. i din really thanked her... but i said bye! ya.. wadeva, i'm the lame one... oh, weijing was helping cos she had to leave early, and couldn't do her shift... ya...
oh, next thing.. it's either i'm really paranoid, or i seriously think that kaiqi doesn't like me... really... it's like, when i told her about the change of shift, she kinda ignored me... maybe the music was loud and she couldn't hear me.. but i could sense it... and i dunno why!!! everytime, she kinda walks towards our grp, she will be calling vanessa, or kah yin... NOT ME... i dunno.. i juz feel like she doesn't pay attention to wat i say... like, she's not interested in wadeva i tell her... one incident was at the canteen, when i told her bout the stc girl... and i pointed to her some of the ppls that i was referring to, and she was like, 'oh, i dun care'... i was like.. okay... u could have said 'oh' instead... okay, maybe i'm real paranoid... i mean, I SERIOUSLY, issit something i did??? was i like too boring??? argh.. i seriously dun wanna be the next 'deenise'.... gosh... i went to jjc wif limin and yuzheng... limin was commenting that i was kinda quiet.. okay... i dunno...i dunno wat to say... like, i can't really start up a conversation... i can elaborate on wat to say though... ya... well... i 'm juz bothered... by the fact that i may have left a less-than-neutral kinda impression on the others... *prays hard*
i'm really rather red today... not dark, like lobster kinda red, ard my neck area and arm...... and i had some abrasions... hiax...
i was actually quite erm.. *diao*.. cos.. i wasw helping the 'cool' clique during their shifts... 2 of them were in the tents, doing the tougher job of getting hit by the coconut.. i was like holding the tins and colecting the money... yes, under the hot sun... then, they had like no appreciation of me helping them.... it's like when i told V i was going and passed her the tin, she din even say thanks for helping or bye.. they were like slacking lor... okay lah, maybe i was mean too.. like, when weijing was helping out during our shifts.. i din really thanked her... but i said bye! ya.. wadeva, i'm the lame one... oh, weijing was helping cos she had to leave early, and couldn't do her shift... ya...
oh, next thing.. it's either i'm really paranoid, or i seriously think that kaiqi doesn't like me... really... it's like, when i told her about the change of shift, she kinda ignored me... maybe the music was loud and she couldn't hear me.. but i could sense it... and i dunno why!!! everytime, she kinda walks towards our grp, she will be calling vanessa, or kah yin... NOT ME... i dunno.. i juz feel like she doesn't pay attention to wat i say... like, she's not interested in wadeva i tell her... one incident was at the canteen, when i told her bout the stc girl... and i pointed to her some of the ppls that i was referring to, and she was like, 'oh, i dun care'... i was like.. okay... u could have said 'oh' instead... okay, maybe i'm real paranoid... i mean, I SERIOUSLY, issit something i did??? was i like too boring??? argh.. i seriously dun wanna be the next 'deenise'.... gosh... i went to jjc wif limin and yuzheng... limin was commenting that i was kinda quiet.. okay... i dunno...i dunno wat to say... like, i can't really start up a conversation... i can elaborate on wat to say though... ya... well... i 'm juz bothered... by the fact that i may have left a less-than-neutral kinda impression on the others... *prays hard*
i'm really rather red today... not dark, like lobster kinda red, ard my neck area and arm...... and i had some abrasions... hiax...
Thursday, February 17, 2005
meanie mean
yesterday had pe... was not bad.. no need to run at all.. played tennis.. i still sucked... most of the others din really noe how to play tennis... no offence.. but i'd rather play with yh.. cos she's more... on par with me... then... though, most of the time was spent by picking up balls.. i was quite exhausted... so much that i felt queasy after buying my food.. i ate very slowly.. which was like so not me lah... i din finish it... too oily... oh, and looks like kq and lm also not very happy with that d girl... MUAHAHAHAHAHA... oh ya! vanessa told me, when kq asked dee why she came to join their grp, her reason was that ' all we (me, vanessa, ky) talk about, is food... WHAT THE ^%$^%&*^%$ so utterly ridculous lor.. excuse me! we were the ones was pursposely ignored u and left u out lor, u were 'smart' enuf to get our hint, that's why u join the other grp... i mean, look at us, do we look like lydia sum(no offence to lydia sum...)??? u are the one 'bigger' than us(i dun give a damn how U feel).. and it's not like we talk alot about food lor.. it's juz that we dun talk to u much.. so whateva non-food topics, we'll be chatting amongst ourselves... boo u !well, guess what? they dun like u either... hahaha!!!!
i noe.. i'm pretty mean.. i seem to be unhappy with a particular person at every stage of a time... oh! juz realised it's the same first letter... gosh... what a coincidence...
oh, another meanie mean.. i went for sports club .. was at labrodor park.. then supposed to run 2 rds.. i tied my shoelace then, i started lagging behind.. then there was this 'green' senior who accompanied me to run.. she can tell i have trouble running... then she asked what cca i was in sec school.. i said, band, military band... THEN, she said, our sch band is quite good, u dun have to have any backgrd to join... it took me a while b4 figuring wat her messege was... to quit sports club and join band... since i can't run that well... i was like.. quite upset... she's really mean... instead of encouraging me and giving me advice... she tells me to join band... at least, that's wat i interpreted from wat she told me... i'm crushed... but who gives a damn.. i'm not leaving sports club... i will train... will... when i'm free.... ya.. see first lah... wadeva..
today was preparation for tmr's funfair... my ct was wearing this ultratight shirt and jeans.. then he had the front part of his shirt tucked in while the rest of it was left out... so outdated lor.. that's so primary sch... then, he changed into shorts!! shorts!!! omg!!! he's shorts is not like the pe teachers' shorts that are knee- length.. it's those really short ones, like those girls' FBT shorts.. worse still, it's not the airy kind, it's the 'cannot-breathe-through' kinda shorts... like.. erm... bermudas that kinda material... it's beige in colour... totally gross... and.. worse part, his zip was undone... it's not zip lah, but valcro... ( sorry, i nt sure bout the spelling... pronounce the word urself...)... thankfully, wayne told him, and i did not see it at all!!! phew...
our cg is supposed to use coconut to bowl..know as cocobowl.. nice rite.. so... i din really do much... except to pluck out the leafs... it was quite restless... cos very hot... but, i'm looking forward to tmr... can go and try all the games... esp, haunted house.... and the food... haha... sa's food is really good.. if u're big in size, it doesn't matter how much u dun eat, u're juz fat(last sentence is to a specific person... wif reference to first paragraph)
i noe.. i'm pretty mean.. i seem to be unhappy with a particular person at every stage of a time... oh! juz realised it's the same first letter... gosh... what a coincidence...
oh, another meanie mean.. i went for sports club .. was at labrodor park.. then supposed to run 2 rds.. i tied my shoelace then, i started lagging behind.. then there was this 'green' senior who accompanied me to run.. she can tell i have trouble running... then she asked what cca i was in sec school.. i said, band, military band... THEN, she said, our sch band is quite good, u dun have to have any backgrd to join... it took me a while b4 figuring wat her messege was... to quit sports club and join band... since i can't run that well... i was like.. quite upset... she's really mean... instead of encouraging me and giving me advice... she tells me to join band... at least, that's wat i interpreted from wat she told me... i'm crushed... but who gives a damn.. i'm not leaving sports club... i will train... will... when i'm free.... ya.. see first lah... wadeva..
today was preparation for tmr's funfair... my ct was wearing this ultratight shirt and jeans.. then he had the front part of his shirt tucked in while the rest of it was left out... so outdated lor.. that's so primary sch... then, he changed into shorts!! shorts!!! omg!!! he's shorts is not like the pe teachers' shorts that are knee- length.. it's those really short ones, like those girls' FBT shorts.. worse still, it's not the airy kind, it's the 'cannot-breathe-through' kinda shorts... like.. erm... bermudas that kinda material... it's beige in colour... totally gross... and.. worse part, his zip was undone... it's not zip lah, but valcro... ( sorry, i nt sure bout the spelling... pronounce the word urself...)... thankfully, wayne told him, and i did not see it at all!!! phew...
our cg is supposed to use coconut to bowl..know as cocobowl.. nice rite.. so... i din really do much... except to pluck out the leafs... it was quite restless... cos very hot... but, i'm looking forward to tmr... can go and try all the games... esp, haunted house.... and the food... haha... sa's food is really good.. if u're big in size, it doesn't matter how much u dun eat, u're juz fat(last sentence is to a specific person... wif reference to first paragraph)
Saturday, February 12, 2005
rephrase what u say
yesterday went to eat vegetarian dinner with my family and my aunt's family... i was quite delighted to see my cousin's 2 babies, especially jone(gao jun)... he's juz so adorable!!! i like his eyes... the way he speaks, and the way he juz wants to eat everything, including vegetables!!!.... and his lil sis, gao en, also very cute... got dimples... she has this little tummy... so cute...!!!
today, went to play tennis at yh's place.. it was a good session.. although i still sucked at serving, i was quite pleased at some of my strokes.. there were some slightly longer rallies.. which was really quite fun... ya, although the strokes that we use were not-so-correct, it was juz nice to see the ball flying ard.. hehe..
then, we were toking bout jc... i think, personally, sajc is not such a terrible school, as according to some other ppls... i mean, all jcs are like this, lectures + tutorials.. so, i think, 'they' shld juz keep their comments to themselves... it's like, poly will be the same lor.. worse, cos muz wear own clothes, even worse if dun have the 'figure' to wear the 'poly' clothes.. okay, i'm being mean here.. but it's true... jc students won't have to worry bout being judged on wat they wear.. get what i mean?...
SO, if u dun like jc life, then drop out.. dun spread rumours bout sajc not being a good sch... those who already decides that poly is that path shld nv have come to jc.. they juz deprive others the chances to go into jc for that particular first 3 mths... and, jc life is juz bout the same as poly - in terms of lectures.. so, u can't say that u dun like lecture, therefore sajc sucks.. cos, lectures will be the same in all other institutions.. u not liking jc life DOES NOT mean that sajc sucks.. it juz means that whicheva jc u go, u will not like the jc... so please! next time, say that u dun like jc life and not,u dun like sajc!
unless, unless... u have went some other jcs.. and u compare it with sa, u prefer the other jcs, then, i think it's okay that u say sajc sucks.. but other than that... u are juz plain mean!
today, went to play tennis at yh's place.. it was a good session.. although i still sucked at serving, i was quite pleased at some of my strokes.. there were some slightly longer rallies.. which was really quite fun... ya, although the strokes that we use were not-so-correct, it was juz nice to see the ball flying ard.. hehe..
then, we were toking bout jc... i think, personally, sajc is not such a terrible school, as according to some other ppls... i mean, all jcs are like this, lectures + tutorials.. so, i think, 'they' shld juz keep their comments to themselves... it's like, poly will be the same lor.. worse, cos muz wear own clothes, even worse if dun have the 'figure' to wear the 'poly' clothes.. okay, i'm being mean here.. but it's true... jc students won't have to worry bout being judged on wat they wear.. get what i mean?...
SO, if u dun like jc life, then drop out.. dun spread rumours bout sajc not being a good sch... those who already decides that poly is that path shld nv have come to jc.. they juz deprive others the chances to go into jc for that particular first 3 mths... and, jc life is juz bout the same as poly - in terms of lectures.. so, u can't say that u dun like lecture, therefore sajc sucks.. cos, lectures will be the same in all other institutions.. u not liking jc life DOES NOT mean that sajc sucks.. it juz means that whicheva jc u go, u will not like the jc... so please! next time, say that u dun like jc life and not,u dun like sajc!
unless, unless... u have went some other jcs.. and u compare it with sa, u prefer the other jcs, then, i think it's okay that u say sajc sucks.. but other than that... u are juz plain mean!
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
so what?!
okay, i dun really like chinese new year... really.. besides the hongbao collection, i seriously dread cny.. i dun like visiting my relatives... i dun like wearing a skirt that's so uncomfortable that i have to adjust it every now and then... i dun like having to sit on the same place of the sofa from the time i arrive until the time i leave... i dun like having to face mean uncle who says i'm anti-social and asks whether i have any friends in school... GET A LIFE! i'm juz not a very sociable person...i dun like to gamble, i dun like to see ppls gamble and i definitely dun like to lose money in some stupid and lame games, muzh less to play with children of the mean uncle... loser.
anyway, i think hongbao collection has shrunk this year... cos i none of my mum's friends are here... ya... anyway, i won't spend any of the money...
btw, i saw a guess watch... looks quite nice... i was actually deciding on a nike watch... then i saw the guess watch.. and it sorta made me... erm.. fickle-minded again... so i not sure leh... cos i can't seem to find any of the nice guess watches on the net... maybe, i'll stick to the nike watch...
amazing race was USUAL.. like, kinda boring... yet exciting.. i'm really sad.. like disappointed. i was actually rooting for chris and jon... they are such a great couple, i dun rmb seeing them yell and get pissed off by each other... i think they're probably the best pair out of the entire amazing race seasons... Oh, and i'm sorta looking forward to the next amazing race.. i dunno.. btw, wat are the two sickening Survivors doing on the amazing race??? amber and rob... it's like, i tot she won some money already? so why did the producers let them in ??? eeks! so unfair, i hope they dun win.... i dun think i spotted any cute guys in this season... Oh, it's really sad, that heyden gave up in the road block.. it's difficult, but easy ! key and lock... i juz can't stand the way she treats aaron.. and what was aaron thinking?!! proposing to heyden? i tot he was having doubts about their relationship???? sickening...
the mean uncle and his family are here.. my lil bro is actually gambling with his 2 kids.. i'm grossed out.. my bro resembles some sort of 'lan du guai' (gambler...)
anyway, i think hongbao collection has shrunk this year... cos i none of my mum's friends are here... ya... anyway, i won't spend any of the money...
btw, i saw a guess watch... looks quite nice... i was actually deciding on a nike watch... then i saw the guess watch.. and it sorta made me... erm.. fickle-minded again... so i not sure leh... cos i can't seem to find any of the nice guess watches on the net... maybe, i'll stick to the nike watch...
amazing race was USUAL.. like, kinda boring... yet exciting.. i'm really sad.. like disappointed. i was actually rooting for chris and jon... they are such a great couple, i dun rmb seeing them yell and get pissed off by each other... i think they're probably the best pair out of the entire amazing race seasons... Oh, and i'm sorta looking forward to the next amazing race.. i dunno.. btw, wat are the two sickening Survivors doing on the amazing race??? amber and rob... it's like, i tot she won some money already? so why did the producers let them in ??? eeks! so unfair, i hope they dun win.... i dun think i spotted any cute guys in this season... Oh, it's really sad, that heyden gave up in the road block.. it's difficult, but easy ! key and lock... i juz can't stand the way she treats aaron.. and what was aaron thinking?!! proposing to heyden? i tot he was having doubts about their relationship???? sickening...
the mean uncle and his family are here.. my lil bro is actually gambling with his 2 kids.. i'm grossed out.. my bro resembles some sort of 'lan du guai' (gambler...)
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