went alps cafe with kiki & jac. pretty cool place i muz say. love the ambience there. wasn't too sure why there were man u fans present too..
the clubs songs were pretty nice.. i've always wanted to learn them.. but some were kinda.. vulgar. though others were super funny..
the other chelsea fans were a pretty cool bunch.. except for a few.. nvm. wld love to go back there once more!
did i mention there were a couple of cute guys? haha

i need some space. i dun need someone to cling on so much. give me a break can?

and i dun feel like giving tuition anymore. i'm surprised by my own attitude. but yea. after a couple of no pickups and no return of phone call. i can't imagine how in future i wld have to postpone any of the tuition sessions. and thinking up til the time when i have to go for placements.. wldn't be too good to bring all the germs to the kid's hse rite?

had a nice dinner with soo many ppls last nite :)
bought my 21 jeans. 2nd pair of the week :) haha. i realise the colours are pretty similar but one is closer to being black.
i'm so pissed tt i didn't open the door to see if the postman was there juz now. i only saw thru the hole. dammit. now i have to wait 2 more days to go collect at cresent. maybe i shall swim too! yay :D !
erm. need to deposit my moolah soon. otherwise sure anyhow spend.
f1 training aka more like briefing. hope the 3 days will have nice soothing weathers!!! today's one sux like hell

soo many plans..
sun. meet kiki for chelsea match
mon. mama mia with ntmb bunch
tue. shopping. again! omg!
wed.???
thu. mahjong with nyp ppls?
fri-sun. f1

and there. one week gone.
oh god. i so scared. hols are ending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOBSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

finally a new blog skin.
and fyi. whoever in their crazy mind who's interested in reading the archive- the link is actually over the tiny square box. -.- who wld've thought so?
not exactly enjoying the current j.p's salem falls. maybe all her books revolve ard too many characters. can't seem to keep track of 'em all..
did i mention i fell on both knees while doing my extremely slow jog ytd? ya. and this time, there were both slight abrasions and major blue blacks. so bad tt if i lie on my tummy. it actually hurts the knee tt's in contact with the bed. say 'ouch'!
soo many ppls are putting up posts on sgflea. i think it's hard to sell my pumps. less than 24hrs, and mine is under the 'earlier posts'. like who'll bother to see rite? i actually wldn't mind trading mine with this other shoe seller. but her feet is bigger than mine. sigh.
i bought a pair of jeans under the bargain section at f21 for 24bucks! OMG. means i have enuf moolah to go buy the black pair at wisma. kinda pissed when i cldnt find it in the vivo branch. and their labels for all pants are dn long pants. like duh.

:D results better than expected. it's really a surprise to me. except for the lousy CP and Neurosci grades[which i totally expected. thank god it wasn't worse than wat i thought]. erm. i dunno how to say this.. but i suppose i really am better than what i think of myself. of course, it also comes back to the point tt - there's a possibility that there has been moderation.. so i'm not that gd either :S

anyway, it's worth a celebration :) i totally deserved that 50$ for my F21 jeans please mummy!!!

results out in 6 hrs time.. wasn't really thinking abt it until i met up with the girls at timbre.. it was quite nice.. place was pretty quiet, prob cos it was a mon nite. thanks to rest for the mini treat :)
went out with sw earlier to shop and dine. oh god. i saw and tried on the perfect pair of black denim jeans tt i so badly wanted! but it's abit low. like squat down can see butt liao. HAHA. but i think i'll do my precautions and i shall get it! right after i get my pay!!! saw my acct balance juz now. OMG! ALL TIME LOW MAN! dammit!!!! wat's wrong with me?!?!?!?! seriously need to sell my stuff away. ASAP
anyway, i kinda have other issues to 'deal' with... so it's kinda occupying my mind more than the results. but i REALLY HOPE I DUN HAVE TO TAKE SUB FOR NEUROSCI! PLEASE!!!

hmm.. anyway, plans for the REST OF THE HOLIDAYS:
1. go exercise! aiyo. i feel so paiseh to be a PT who can't pass the 2.4
2. read all jodi picoult's novels! brilliant!
3. sell some stuff and get moolah
4. revise? LOL. seriously. the thought of CE2B not very erm. positive. it's almost like a make or break period.
5. go for sunway lagoon trip?! yes please!

ya. dun make so much to-do lists lah. usually also can't finish.

BCLS passed. but secretly i'm worried someone else will look at the slip and disagree with ly's decision. but i think ly is really super nice to me leh! i offered to be the first one to get tested, she let me chose the model and she gave me a couple of tries to print the slips before letting me pass as a first attempt! oh god. i feel so relieved.

can't wait for work to end. but i think the pay will be like no pay, cos it'll juz be covering all the losses and spendings tt i've made over the past mth. and then i have all the time in the world to read my novels. GO JOG!!! i dun wana fail my 2.4 :S and shop.. and dine with my good pals :) sounds like a good plan. and i really hope that sunway lagoon trip WORKS OUT!

sian. tmr cpr theory paper.
it kinda reminds me of driving test. although i nv gone through it. but i think it's quite similar.
hmm... its really quite similar leh! lol
take it easy joyce. it's no biggie. 2 attempts each. if not take outside, then muz pay. i think i can do it. so many ppls have done b4 me lor and they pass too. so how tough can it be RIGHT?



right.

?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
OMG?!?!?!?!?!
hmm...
chei.

was kinda strange. wat took place juz now.
and then i read that
so now, i think it's really kinda confusing. like. mixed signals?

OH god.

but RIGHT NOW. i'm thinking. wth man. *rolls eyes*
hmpf.

mooncake festival job.
dun like the aunties. even though they do help to boost the sales. cos young ppls like me are not as convincing and as experienced as them. but still.
heel pain. back of knee pain. starting to see my veins in my leg clear-er. possibility of varicose veins arising. YUCKS.
erm. learned that graciousness is a 2 way thing. customers-pls be more polite and courteous. dun try all 13 flavours and DUN BUY ANY.and juz walk away. tt juz sux lah! like c'mon man. there has to be one that u like rite??? and can u all like pls acknowledge the person greeting u or smthg?? cos obviously the person is trying to catch UR attention. so even if not interested, juz a smile or nod or shake of head will do! seriously.

been looking out. will. juz looking. at the HEs and SHEs and THEMs. if anyone even know wat i'm toking abt.

can't stop online shopping. even though there's nothing in particular i wana get. i still do it.. sigh. looking forward to my pay.. heard its by cash! woots!

You are 11:59 a.m.
You are late-sleepy relaxation, the half-awake moment when you realize it's morning, but you don't have to get up, because there's no place you have to be. You are that cozy spot under the covers where everything feels temporarily perfect, even if you know you'll eventually have to wiggle out and start the day. Maybe you're the artistic type, who doesn't function well on a normal schedule. Sleep's important to you, and you like the freedom of sleeping as late as you want (especially since that is closely related to the freedom to stay up as late as you want). You like to roll out of bed, put on some comfy clothes, and get a laid back start to the day. If not everything on your list gets accomplished, no worries. Your only priority is having no priorities ? you just want to take things at a slow, mellow pace.

gonna get heel spurs soon. or even plantar fasciitis. oh god.
and i'm so extremely disappointed with the the way things are DONE at that place. my tian ah. it's unbelievable. ME. having a mum who is oh-so-particular abt food and hygiene. SIGH. i wonder if i can really carry on. deception?dishonesty?sigh... ...

anyways, thank god for the break today. i got soooo much that i wana do.
1.go library and get sister's keepers! FINALLY. making reservations are soo much easier and convenient and soo fast too!
2.buy stuff. like. heel cushions?
3.cut hair? shld i? it's like 20$. sian.
4.read 19minutes
5.watch desp hsewives
6.F1 sign some contract. i dunno if i shld go.. cos my menses fall on that period. sigh!!!!! will they kill me if i miss one day of work?? but so far, i've managed to survive my '1st day' outside my hse with not too much trouble (eg. at bright vision & juz the other day at taka-so proud of myself please) but it wld be nice to have an extra job. to get some cash flow coming in...

i'm unwilling to buy all the things that i WANT. cos i worked so hard for it. i'll have to set aside a portion of it for my savings acct.

monday and tuesday

started work. nice place. was kinda freaked out when the customer started choosing their own flavours. was at a loss, luckily the others were experienced enuf to cope with it. and finally learned how to use a cashier. (eh, machine and person is same name ah?) hope i can rmb it for tmr. haha

today. went to suntan with jie. SIGH!!! why never get tanned?!?!?!?!?!?! ARGH! i still got that stupid rectangle though. time to go shop for a new one! ahahaha.....
lessons learnt:
1. die die also dun be in contact with sand! (soln: tanned at poolside instead)
2. tanned for longer time! 2hrs? 3?

oh god. why issit that when we're having fun, time seems to fly be oh so fast?! i dread work. i gotta go rmb price list and flavours for different colours. NO STRESS! wed to friday! shall get back to my jogging routine tmr!!!

holidays...
been reading jodi picoult's 19minutes and watching desp hsewives4 online. very nice!
think i've recovered from the supposed gastric flu.. now i really need to go out and run! if only it wld stop raining!
went to buy my pumps. juz bought the 1st pair tt i tried in the 3rd shop i went in.
spree-ing as usual.. saw a nice tote bag.. i really wonder why girls can never have enuf bags! i mean, each time i buy one bag, i'll be super pleased cos i think it'll last for all occasions, and then when i see the next nice bag, i'd say e same damn thing again. women.
haha. went queensway and saw a really super duper nice kinda bf shirt(but not exactly bf shirt). cost 38$! so ex! but it looks sooo sweet and pretty! i'll get it after my first week of work. haha.. the gd thing abt working. moolah. not a lot. but enuf to be used for buying things tt can never be too many. women women. why do we spend sooo much? i still needa save up my money for 4th yr!
gg to watch xinyi's ntu band concert at vch tmr. it's been sooooo long since i sat thru a band concert! looking forward to it!
and i think i'll be doing some crafts project this mth! unleash my creative juices!

kk now i'm bored. cos there's smthg wrong with the connection of the sound system. so no desp hsewives on this com. no music :(

i'm trying to stay positive abt the results and not even go anywhere near there.

i cried so much during the movie - money no enough 2.
usually it's juz eyes wet. but juz now. i really kept on crying..
it was soooo sad more than anything..
now i realise why the mum was part of the poster..
and it really wasn't abt the money. it was abt her love for her kids.
gosh. first time i cried so much...
and i was right next to my mum.

21aug08

615:started revising for neurosci
730:went to tapao breakfast
740:strange sharp ache in tummy
740-9plus: pain. vomit. diarrhoea. cold sweat. weakness in legs. inform tt i may not be able to take the test
10: went to doctor. gastric flu perhaps
1045: she called. D+ for prac test(how awful). so if i take alternative and still fail overal, i have to repeat module, but if i take today's paper, fail, still got sub paper. of course, there's the possibility tt i might do super well in my alternative given more time to study. but it cld be hard to do too.
1115: made the decision to leave for sch.
1145-230: decided tt i have made the correct decision of cmg. the paper wasn't that easy. the questions asked are those tt i'll prob not focus on. so oh wells.
245: went home
330: saw A LOT of cockroaches at the void deck. was horrible sight! didn't dare to take the lift initially cos one of the cockroach entered it too. called my mum to come down. but i saw another maid and her ahma go in the lift, no cockroach, so i followed them in. eeks. n i realised there are DIFFERENT TYPES of cockroaches. like more than 3 types at least.

so here i am. done. and completed with my exams. supposed to be doing trf for my oldnavy stuff. but i dun dare to leave my home cos of the cockroaches

anyways, juz wanted to mention tt i didn't really breakdown during this period of studying... i mean, there were times when i doubted my ability and my knowledge of the topics. but i knew deep down, that wateva question tt's thrown at me, i'll somehow have a ans to it(of course, smtimes the ans are wrong la) anyway. tt's good. my gpa my gpa my gpa. i really don't think can make it.. esp cos of cp and neurosci :( GPA matters a lot!

i wana recover from this gastric flu thingy. i wana go out and have fun!

MS was fine. thank god not much 'history' of the case study given. of course i left out some maybe minor yet still important points, especially for the NOF question. well well.. thank god for the good grades for the past pracs and assignment. i hope this will help to pull up my gpa cos i can bet my lousy CP and possibly the to-be-quite-jia-lat neurosci paper will soooo drag it down.

i dun feel tired rite now. despite 2 hrs of sleep from 3 to 5am and then another quick and nice nap from 8plus to 9plus am. i can't wait to get a good nite's sleep after all the terrible nights tt i was experiencing, tossing and turning, dreaming!!! damn waste energy leh.

tmr is the last day! less than 24hrs. sooooo exciting! gonna catch a movie with the class ppls. eat my nachos!! muahahahahahahahaha

let's go let's go!!

damn sian-ed over today's CP paper.
it's way harder than the physiology pract test lor!!! and seriously way harder cos i've nv seen some of the words before! and there's no way half marks will be given for MCQ!! argh! no wonder give until 2marks. so tough man!
ARGH! disgusted!

so now, i can officially say that my GPA will NOT improve, and i wld totally dread to see that it goes under that bare minimum. SIGH!!!
my dear teacher, can u please moderate the results?!?!?! PRETTY PLEASE!

i can probably say MS's mcq will be juz as tough. i guess there's a reson why they give 2m instead of 1. it really tests ur ability and ur knowledge of that stupid topic!

wateva wateva. let's juz get through this and look forward to the holidays.

neurophysiology paper. the day tt michael phelps get a rest day, and so i dun have to think abt his 6th goal while i'm doing my paper.

all went well, except for essays, which got me a little worried. cos from what i memorised, it didn't fit the marks allocation. like 8 marks for a certain question seem ridiculous cos there was only a few lines to it. Maybe he's being lenient, so for 4 sentences written, tt's 8 marks wala! hmm... haha.. i sure hope he's lenient in giving marks for the essay section! *fingers crossed*

but overall, i'm so glad i made it to the exam hall with not much erm.. anxiety.. well, of course there was some the night b4... sigh. joyce o joyce.. same old me..

gymnastics is really nice to watch btw. i'm sooo amazed with their talents and techniques.

can anyone believe this?!?! 3 days more to physiology exam, and here i am checking out the sinagpore waterski and wakeboard federation?!?!?! well, it's true. i'm kinda keen. but it's really unlikely tt i'll participate cos east coast is soooo far (trp will be ex) and so is the lessons..

oh wells. we'll see..

now i need to read my neuro first. before i proceed to physiology

IT IS TIME.
to get serious. to study.
i've got my 3 phases tt i need to complete for each module
1. PREPARE
2. REVISE
3. MEMORISE

first 2 sounds vague, but i know what i need to do.
so little time, so no time to be stressed! juz do what i need to do!! avoid breakdowns at all costs!

good luck to one and all.

we've been there, we've done that.
one more time, everyone!

yippee!
i totally feel that my CP grade is justified now that i see my MS grade!
okok, maybe Not Justified. but still. with relations to one of my previous post. i'm feeling GOOD.

and some ppls are juz so good with their practs! it does get me worried abt my chance of getting a scholarship.. i wonder how generous the hospitals or various healthcare groups are when giving away the scholarships.. hmm... PLEASE LET MY AUNT BE "SPONSORING" ME!! then i no need to worry so much.

i'm sooo unsure if i wana go. i need to have fun. but i dunno if it's worth the money. sigh.
wish wish wish..

LIMBEI! argh!

it's C+. kinda what i expected. based on how i performed. u noe, when i see the results. and i compare it with the rest, i can only be thankful of my grades. for i know- i didn't work as hard as the rest get this grade.

hmm.. improvements for GPA this sem? still on track.
i suppose.

had a good time at shokudo, with the newtown ppls.
juz a couple of pics..




at o'briens at citylink


at cosmo?(didn't really take note of the name of the bar. it's outside wisma)


erm. gotta start mugging. but i need the internet. no, i juz want it to be there to do *ahem* smthg.
wat a waste of my time.

so far, no signs of stress. yet.

somebody juz kill me and give me a slap in the face if i fare poorly for my cp pract tmr ok?

argh.

i juz dun get it.

and i'm such a slacker.

i better get a decent grade for my MS. otherwise, it's like i'm happy for nothing.

think my mum will kill me for having dinner out tmr.

sigh.

life's good after all
despite whatever tt is going on.
had a great time with the s55 ppls.. took lots of pics too:D can't wait to spend more time with them after my exams :D
katsu curry is tasty! i shall try tt dish in every jap restaurant i go in future. haha
found lifehouse's take me away & you and me. love them
managed to scrape by in that couple of 'little things in school'
love chatting with new ppls. hope the 'friendship' can last...
and bao is with kennethang! haha. totally expected tt.

to my dear friend

wish i cld help u more. wish there was smthg i cld do. wish i cld change ur mind. wish i cld make u stay

but i want u to be happy. no matter what.

u're still my buddy.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I mïss you

love,
joyce

i'm sooo happy with my online buys!!!!!!

the first one is a kimono-lookalike top

then this F21 beaded halter

and this wetseal white sunglasses.

the first came in on friday, the other 2 on sat.. yippee:) which brgs me to inform u to pls read the previous post and buy the top if u like. cos i really dun.

CAN SOMEONE PLS BUY THIS FROM ME?!?!?!?!?!?! PRETTY PLEASSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE

LETTING IT GO AT 20$ MAILED.

SIAN.

i have a confession to make. to my dear friends of the s55 clique: i wld like to sell away the pair of puma pumps that u guys gave me for 20th bday. it's not that i dun find it pretty. but if u guys had gone out with me long enuf, u all shld have figured tt i've never bought or ever wanted a pair of pumps.. hmm. oh wells. juz wanted to let u all know. *not tt i think many of u will be reading this entry anyway* so, rite now- i need the price of the shoes.
ps: yes, surong. u were right abt my body language tt nite. i juz didn't wana spoil the whole atmosphere n hype over it.

i wana buy new clothes, scarves, jeans, bags, shoes and everything else.

but i'm 'broke'.

i have decided that i will give tuition a shot, after my exams. and hopefully, the kid i take is well-mannered... i need a tutee that i can teach until i go for conversion. the pay is supposed to be saved, but, i guess it can also make up for the shopping sprees...

i think my mum will kill me if she sees that amt in my acct book.

oh wells.

why am i still thinking abt shopping when i have to study??

tmr will be a better day :)

it's a relieve. thank god.

i dunno what i shld say to her. but i hope she'll cheer up & move on.

the issues have been there. i've always noticed and have known what 'type of person' this person is like.. it's pretty darn obvious. it's juz that my dear fren wasn't as well-informed as i was... yikes.

had a long nap juz now.. those really long kind that u wake up from, thinking issit the next day already? in the end, nv go run lor. think can't run this week liao.. except weekends.. :(

it's not such a good feeling. although i know i'm not that unfortunate person. i have the sick feeling i am one of the few she mention as some 'came up with a new concept'. in that case, i'll definitely show the evidence and backup to my statement. becos i personally stronlgy feel that i dun deserve such a *&%$&#$!$# grade. unless it's becos of my electrode placement. in that case, it really sux then.

oh gosh. wat a dreaded feeling... and have to wait til after MS or CP :S speaking of which, it's 2 in the morning and i'm still awake. wonder if i can make it for class tmr at 9:S

and i really can't stand suctioning. it's a waste of my tissue packets!

i dunno how our RM grades will be.. there wasn't much of a positive comment with regards to where we 'did well'... :( i think she might go back and look thru our stuff and realise we have alot of loopholes.. :'(

oh wells, at least i'm 'free'. phew. i hope to make better decisions with regards to that, in future.

i still rmb u made that point. in the end, so many things had to change. what bullshit it was.


i cannot wait for rm to be over. pls do not bombard us with questions. please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i hope she won't be able to identify our loopholes.

a crazy semester.
i'm glad stats and rm will be over soon.
next week is chiong/pia-all-the-way week. in preparation for the crazy 2 weeks that follow. not to mention the written papers, which will come very shortly after these tests.

no stress yet.

my mum is gg for the operation next wk. really hope she wldn't go. wateva it is, i hope the pain goes away SOON. i wonder if she will get pre or post PT intervention?? hmm.. haha. ok, not funny still. surgery is a serious thing. i pray everything goes smoothly.

stats is stupid lah. i hope the paper is easy like what he mentioned b4.
and i hope nobody listens and bother to ask too many questions abt our rm which is full of loopholes. argh.

i'm optimistic abt passing my neuro and cp pract test. even tho i haven't begin my preparation. haha. at least i can HUFF (she said mine was an excellent huff. haha..) erm. ms prac is like stupid.

this weekend will be a productive one.

girl : hi, are you single?
random guy1 : yes
girl : are u gay?
random guy1 : yes
girl walks away

girl : hi, are you single?
random guy2 : yes
girl : are u gay?
random guy2 : no
girl : are u working?
random guy2 : no
girl walks away

girl : hi, are u single?
random guy3 : yes
girl : are u gay?
random guy3 : no
girl : are u working?
random guy3 : yes
both stares at each other and kisses on the mouth
girl: oh. *disappointed with the kiss*
girl walks away

this is really quite funny lah. it's a scene in p.s i love u. somemore at the lead's mourning service or smthg liddat. the girl is phoebe in friends. and she's really quite humerous leh.
but it does make me wonder if it's so simple tt u can juz walk up to a stranger and ask questions like that. doesn't it make u look desperate? or issit more of a straightforward kinda practice tt those women over there are starting to use since they're so sick of not being able to find the right man?

epa done. shld be alrite i hope. it's amazing how much information we can absorbed within days b4 our actual tests when these info were actually passed to us over a few months.

a lot of revision to be done :S
still got CP which turns out to be not-so-done after all
and stats too, which has kinda gone to a plateau
research meth. i think it'll be put off since our presentation is not next week. how typical.

there seems to be endless revision.

but i'm still gg to watch private practice online, and later on ugly betty 2

i'm having trouble waking up early these couple of weeks. have been rushing to sch for the 10am class. i even had to pay 14$ for today's cab fare cos i was SO VERY LATE. i hate taking cabs. it's juz the worst feeling ever. esp when the money comes out of ur own wallet. IT SUX. it's no excuse of spending the 30$ tt we earned by playing frisbee in the wee mornings during sundown. oh wells.

really hope to go for that jog tmr, provided 3 of my alarms all work properly.

Comms: 90% done
Research Method: >50% by friday?
CP: 95% done
Stats: 60% done

revision!!!! oh man. it's almost midnight. i wana sleep now so i can catch the germany match later without dozing off. i still need to revise physiology and stats. and i'm so distracted by THE INTERNET.

aeropostale is having a mega sale!!!

i want to sun tan!

i let my teacher put a cathether down my nose and into my mouth. i am so brave please! *haha, but i think the rest of the class is braver, cos they let each other(the not so-pro) put it down them!* HAHA

i wana hang out with my friends til late and catch a late night movie and play tennis the next day!

i dun really want a job alr. sian.

i'm getting paid 30$ for sundown marathon. of which 23$ goes to the zapped copy of TB. damn.

some ppls... are juz... so... argh... (it'll be over soon!!!)

ANYWAYS, i've had a great dinner with my great pals-sm,sy,wl at the hongkong cafe... totally enjoyed chatting with them :D then we made the impromptu decision of watching a late night movie- sex and the city at tiongbahru... sm had gone home to get her car (so that she can fetch us back after the movie. thanks fren! u're the best!) and i went wl's hse so that she cld take a quick shower..

the movie was better than what i expected... i wldn't really say it's a R21 movie.(haha, not that i know what's the difference betw M18 and R21) but it feels like M18 to me lah. i enjoy seeing the display of their close friendship.. haha.. hopefully my ntss and s55 frens will be like them.. haha.. MINUS all the gucci, LV and prada bags and designer labels outfits OF COURSE.

oh oh.. and dante is hot man! esp during the shower time! HAHA

and there was this cute angmoh outside the cinema... hahahahahahaha

oh oh.. and i almost got freaked out when i walked past this grp of guys and 1 girl at the bus stop tt sm alighted me at.. juz tot they were some baddies.. until one of them asked me where the bridge(the one tt links a couple of park) was.. phew. haha.. stupid of me.. parents have gone to bed when i reach home.. but shortly after i went to bed, my mum came over and was like - 'oh, u've came back?' and that was like in the nicest tone i've ever heard her spoken to me after cmg home... haha.

yups. i'd like to say my hols ended with a BANG!! or rather, on a happy note. haha.. later on will be playing tennis and badminton(maybe)...

which reminds me of the not-so-happy note.. SIAN.

got a call abt the flyer+balloon distribution job that i applied for. the guy mentioned smthg abt wearing a uniform. immed i thought of the hideous and gross jap uniform tt i saw some ppls were wearing at orchard some wks ago(no offense to jap sch's uniform. but juz the tot of it as a way of attracting ppls eeks me out). i asked the guy if it's Singtel and he says no. hopefully, it's juz a simple top and cap.. if need me to wear some bottom tt in one way or another exposes my fugly thigh down orchard-NO THANK YOU.

revising MS =)

at the same time, i simply and absolutely cannot resist that few online spree websites. i dunno man, i really DO NOT LIKE THE CLOTHES ON SGFLEA, but i juz can't stop myself from visiting it over and over again!!! ARGH. saw this spree which i tot wld make a good christmas presents to all my gal pals!!!!! hahaha.. but the thought of my last bank acct page juz reminds me that my savings have been dwindling(?). oh wells. i do hope that i get the vivo job this wkend *prays hard*

hols cmg to an end.. do hope to complete filming for comms, start on research meth ppt slides and also to revise physiology...

reflection

juz having one of those moments... thinking of whether i made the right decision of not having a CCA, not picking up tuition... and now, if i have the financial capability to attend an australian uni even if i do make the mark. i have yet to tell my parents about abt the fees... my older bro has started working, seems like the army is paying a good sum...

was trying to look for a part time weekend job and again, the cons outweigh the pros. after hols, it'll be like tests and presentations one straight after the other...

sigh.. money woes.. and here i am, looking at one of those high-waist belts. i dun think i shld get it, even tho it's cheap.

want to set up my online store to sell my old clothes. but kinda realised they're not in perfect conditions. oops. haha, wld give a 7/10 lah..


sigh. and so, i've wasted 1hr of the time tt i cld use to study. 11.30pm-spain playing later!! yes!!!

i can't stand myself sometimes either.. never seem to get through anything.. at all. well, except my studies lah. but still. i wish i had the mentality and determination tt my sports cca frens have...

this is juz one of those nites where i reflect upon what's gg on and try to make changes.. the world is constantly changing, and hence, wateva change i make, it can only last for a period. (good excuse, huh?)

on a lighter note, zoo was alrite. went wif jie, saw cerise. nothing interesting.

need the tan and tennis soon!!!

don't go crying, sobbing and looking pathetic when u don't reach ur expectations.
u have only yourself to blame.




it's an official break. relieved.


life's too short to be wasted by hanging ard with these ppls.

and so there's no news. at all. well well well.. some ppls do move on real fast!

had a great time at jie's bday party. played mahjong, drew those pretty paper figure thingy, had delicious meal and super yummy cake,played murderer wif pt1, played ps3 and, overall, was juz nice spending so much time wif my gd friends :DD thanks for the party fren!

me:lets hope we can replicate our cp results
joce: or do even better.

and so we did.

list of to-do things during this 2 wks hols
1) CP proj (half done, thanks to wh and gang)
2) Comms proj
3) Research Meth proj (have to get draft approved first)
4) Stats ( deadline wk 17. let's not fret too much first)
5) EPA prac test (soon)
6) Neuro prac test (soon later)
7) Stats ICA (ard the same time)
8) Neurophysio - read up, esp on prac too
9) MS notes
10) CP notes

i hope to complete half of everything. as in HALF of EACH ITEM. and i will do it.

oh. and i really can't stand all the shopping centre wif SO MUCH FOOD at their basement!!! argh!!! so annoying. like how can i resist the donut or icecream la?!!!

SIAN AH!!! IRRITATED. SLIGHTLY ANNOYED. I SHLD HAVE EXPECTED THIS. OH WELLS. GUESS IT HAS COME TO AN END.

THANK GOD.

NOW, JOYCE, IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON!!!

HOORAY TO BEING ONLINE WITHOUT GETTING BUGGED.

done wif 3 tests this wk!!!! means i get to enjoy the 2 wk break? NO!!! PROJECTS TO BE DONE (and graded :S) there's research meth, comms, stats, CP. omgod. so many leh.. and hardly done any concrete stuff yet.. which means we may have to return to sch almost every other day.
not to mention that we'll have stats ica (wk13) and the ^&%$%$#&* EPA pract test. and neuro too(somewhere along the few wks). AND, not to mention there's theory stuff that we have to read up on like physio, ms and cp, BECOS, very soon( i mean, VERY VERY SOON), the written exams will begin...

*breathless* juz writing these stuff.

this wk was quite a drama wk cos of cp and ms.. i'm glad i did above av for cp and reseach meth.. hopefully it'll be replicated for ms *fingers crossed*

THAT ASIDE. we shld really all take a decent break. hit the beach, get tanned, exercise more, go out for dinners, maybe ECP once? and tennis twice?

oh oh!! and for the first time, i tasted good maggi mee cooked by MOI! haha!!! i dunno why, but i was nv good at cooking those package maggi mee(the seasoning was always too little and soup tasted weird) but yea, it tasted oh-so-good. HAHA. juz being random.

and i'm really not sure if i still wana speak to u, cos our conversation is getting more boring and less exciting :((

looking forward to the jie's birthday party and sleepover!!!

life goes on.

looks like my GC trip may not work out after all. how annoying. how upsetting. i really feel like crying. in fact, i'm tearing already. it juz sux. really does. shld have went after As but becos of fren, didn't go. Shld be planning to go this sept(even went to agencies and got another fren to get my brochures) but once again, another fren let me down.

and i'd have insisted on going for this trip regardless of my parents' opinion.

i really really wanted to make this trip happen. like seriously. i dun think anyone can possibly imagine my disappointment when i got rejected once again. like i am tearing right now.
i juz wanted to make that step of leaving spore and gg to a foreign country on my own(wif frens, not folks) and i'm not interested in like hk nor tw cos i'm JUZ NOT INTERESTED! the reasons why i want to gc may seem oh-so-superficial, but that is juz where i want to go(since i was in sec1)! and damn the world for causing global warming leading to the hike in petrol and airport tax..

i'm speechless man. i dun even know wat else to say. my life really sux. i study all yr rd, but my grades are still not fantastic, i make no achievements in school nor society nor life. i have no outside life. i know there are people worse off than me. but really.. when i look back, i feel like i'm a HUGE LOSER after all.

and i need $70k for deg conversion. fuck.

i knew u didn't wana go in the first place. u shld have been more firm in rejecting me earlier on. u gave me false hopes. and now, all i can feel is disappointment.

valentin

it was HOT HOT HOT!!!!

awesome.
first time.



taking a break.
now get back to studying!

boring!!! i haven't been revising as much cos there was juz too many breaks the past wk (vesak day and elearning day) nothing on sgflea appeals to me ANYMORE. except for the chelsea jersey tt costs 60$, but dun have my size :(
anyway, been so bored that i juz keep doing personality tests etc.. haha.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

ah.. one distraction gone, the other comes along... fun. but, very very time-consuming.

lots to be done over the weekend. and this doesn't include revision for any of the lectures... there's special olympics screening tmr. i hope i know what i'm doing. Hope i have time for a decent jog in the late noon... so much for trying to exercise 5 times a wk. sigh.

went to suntan at jie's pl on thu.. so sorry fren. made u wasted a couple of hrs to accompany me. and then u had to be stuck outside ur own hse with no key cos the blur me still gets confused abt getting out of ur hse. SORRY! and then to make u go to eplaza to retrieve my thumbdrive... aiyo. so paiseh! hope everything works out for u be it the ppt or the tests!
sun tanning - was interesting. but my legs were extremely flithy wif all the suntan lotion stucked + disgusting black thingy that i had to scrub over and over again. eew.

yup, time to get back to serious work.

chelsea lost. again. in the penalty shootout.

congrats to man u. the only cheery thing is that no.7 missed his penalty. and i bet. he muz be thanking every god in the world that his miss didn't cost the club to lose.

and on the other hand, i muz vent my displeasure about some people.

no.1
didier drogba- why muz he start a fight? he cld have use that time to score a beauty!!!

no.2
makelele- another trouble-maker

no.3
john terry- it''s really sad that the captain was the one lost the title. i dun blame him if he didn't take the free kick, but really, to miss it?! he cld have let someone else do it! someone more professional.. after all, he's a defender, not a striker.. he kicks a ball like he's defending it! not striking!! i know he wants to take the 5th one cos it cld be a winning moment for him. sadly, it didn't turn out the way he planned.

no.4
anelka- oh wells, wat a waste of money isn't it?



my day cldn't get any worse seriously!
-i found out smthg abt this person, and it was juz disappointing. at least it didn't turn sour.
-poor archuleta lost the american idol.


really, can my day be any worse????????????

oh rite, i saw 2 lizards in my living room this morning. a huge one and a tiny one. tt is like the icing on the shit. seriously.

it's kinda fun. yet annoying. damn.

block or not? i'll miss it

i think .. i think.. i think. by the time i post this, i'd have made my decision.


so in the end. i didn't.
i need it. to make my life a little less dull.




anyways, i'm proud to have deleted some of the spree websites that i go. haha.
but then again, i went to vivo, and bought a sundress($23.90) and a sweater(14bucks original was 28$). and amanda told me GSS is cmg soon. well, i dun think i have time for GSS. no money either. haha. time to finally head the books after 3 days of total slacking!!

wk6. 2 more wks to cp prac, ms prac, research meth. jia you all!

had mahjong session last nite!! from 4pm to 11pm!!!! me and angie played all the way!!! then half way, jie and amanda had to leave, so surong and shuwei replaced them.. it was pretty fun... especially with the comical mistake that shuwei made - while all of us were juz arranging the tiles into the 18rows, we can hear sw counting.. she went '1, 2...12..oh shit.' then the rest of us turned and looked at her, and then her tiles. and we realised, she had picked 12 tiles and were looking at what tiles she was having alr!!! it was damn hilarious!!! we were all so absorbed wif arranging it, we didn't realise sw had done wat she was doing. and the table was like 'normal size''. so. hmm. VERY FUNNY INDEED. and of course, the greedy me was always so ever ready to grab my tile... and surong was funny too.. trying to be the parishilton-wannabe. rome lin surong? haha. and then. tt happened. wateva.

and it turns out that my folks will only be back from genting on MONDAY EVENING!! HELLO!!! wat happend to the go to eunos temple for praying?!!! seriously, as we kids grow older, my parents are starting to juz leave us on our own.. worse is that they still insist i have to take care of my 15yr old 'stuck-to-the-com-for-15hrs' brother. -.- and the older one is having fun in korea i suppose.

i haven't done much revision. oh wells. i guess i can mug all i want when sch starts again. eh, stuck to sgflea-ing throughout the day.. but of course, nothing i saw was pretty enuf for me to rush down to the atm machine. NOT EVEN CHARLOTTE RUSSE!!! ARGH DAMN! the dress i wanted only left L size and none of the other dresses, no matter how i stared over and over again, appeal to me!!! and to think i badly wanted their apparels a mth ago. guess i'll settle for the tote bag..

i'm supposed to save MONEY... i dun think i'm a spendthrift, but definitely wasted alot of time on these online shopping websites.. anyways, i think. i think.. my fren has finally sorta slightly maybe agreeed to cmg on the gc trip in sept.. i really hope it works out some way or another. i know i dun have enuf moolah. maybe borrow from my folks? after all, i've been a good girl not asking extra money for stuff like HANDPHONE or ipod or erm. wateva. yup. i know i shld save up for aus conversion.. but then HOR- i need nice clothes to go aus rite? haha.. can't possibly buy my clothes there. it's gc leh. not bangkok!

finally managed to find da's songs thanks to eve :) love them all. wld prefer the songs didn't have the screaming fans in the backgrd.

think i'll go vivo and try some dresses or find a big high waist belt. i have to go to vivo. i need to get away from the com!

got this from a fren's fren website. not that accurate i think.

What Joyce Chan Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

1-definitely no for the work well wif ppls/charming
2-selfish & overbearing - yes yes! unfortunately...
3.success comes rather easily? nah. go thru hell lot of stress and breakdowns :S
4.strive for perfection-probably. i can be ánal at times according to some ppls.
5.prone to a little paranoia? definitely not. cos it's ALOT of paranoia.

i was kinda proud of my effort to finish up my notes cum revision for research methods up til 2 plus in the morning. am embarrassed to say i have a breakdown halfway thru that has nothing to do wif study stress. anyway, i think i've gotten over it. i can't expect the whole class to be my best frens rite?

anyway, i juz have to sort out some of my thoughts. i know i've been kinda ''anal ''(hate using this word of myself) abt the few projects that i have to do. i know it's like only a couple of credits compared to the more impt mod like MS and CP. but i do hope to do well cos i know it's these little points that can and will help to pull up the overall gpa.

yup. so, rite now, i'm supposed to be studying for MS.. but then hor, i'm starting to feel this mixed emotions of fear, confusion, uncertainty as i flip thru the bruckner book. as i look at the terms that i've learnt during my first year, and i look thru the stuff related to examination of the knee and its associated injuries, i felt scared. like scared not becos of whether i can memorise for my exams anot. but truly scared and afraid as to whether this is really what i want to do for the rest of my life...

physiotherapy is what i want, but i'm not sure whether i can do it anot. i'm not sure if it's in my blood to become the capable and confident physiotherapist that i aspire to be. much less a sports physiotherapist.

here comes the negativities: what am i supposed to do if i leave this course? i'd be even more confused, and a even bigger burden to my parents and with no aim in life. that's not wat i want. there's no way i'm gg to uni becos nothing there interests me and well, uni life isn't as slack as what we were told in jc.

as i look thru the book, i'm not sure if it's becos of the long day i have + insufficient sleep or issit becos subconsciously, my mind or heart (or maybe the brain) is unsure , that is causing my eyes to wet.

i really dunno what to do. this really getting tougher by the day.

i really hope this is juz a phase that i'll soon get thru. and maybe as i learn more in class and get the whole concept, i won't be as clueless and helpless as i'm feeling rite now.

i had a outburst juz now. i dunno how it came out. i'm juz feeling frustrated abt having to work wif ppls that are total opposites from me. wish they wld share my sense of urgency. they probably dislike me to a certain extent, and this makes it even more difficult for me to get things done. and so i have to rely on others. juz hope they'd be more understanding. and perhaps, at times, learn to be a little more serious.

it's kinda draining juz to see the ppls ard me studying so hard, borrowing books, discussing and helping each other out wif the lecture contents. gosh. and there i was, thinking abt shopping, money not enuf, dresses and sleepover.

i feel kinda guilty. i'm not sure if i'm doing enuf revision at this stage. i do read up on most of my notes AFTER the lectures. but i dunno if i can retain the information for more than that hour which i used to study.

i can't wait for friday. get to meet up wif shuwei and amanda. maybe i'll be swimming in sch too for the very first time?! (tt is if my menses dun come)

but then again, friday marks the end of wk 4, which means we're closer to these tests:
1) CP pract
2) MS pract
3) Research meth ICA

eh wat else? yup, after that will be 2 wks of hols followed by a bunch of tests.

not to mention my most dreaded thing(s) - PROJECT WORK! 3 of them! *faints and die*

on a lighter note, i juz wana say
i love wholemeal breads
i wana buy a couple of dresses
i'm in need of a REAL holiday tt is not in singapore
prisonbreak3 is here on ch5! and i loved the first episode!
chelsea made it to the euro finals :)
chelsea also managed to caught up wif manu in the league
i enjoy listening to david cook's always be my baby (but i think the repeat mode won't last as long as 'so close'')
i'd rather be blogging and online window shopping than revising
i'd rather do filing of my notes than revise for it
i'd rather plan wat to do than actually do it.
i wana go suntan soon.
i acutally switched on and off my computer more than 2 times a nite cos i keep forgetting to do things tt i want/need to do.


LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE USED FOR WAITING!
MOVE ON PPLS!
STOP WAITING!

doggies!

i saw a bunch of dogs juz now while cooling down after my jog. it was such a.. cute sight. it's like some dogwalking club and alot of their owners were with their dogs.. some caucasians too. and i was kinda surprised the dog owners juz let their dogs go into this pond (which i dunno was clean anot) and also let their dogs take sips of water from the pond. (yucks. anyway, i hope none of them get poisoned) i have a very poor vocabulary when it comes to the different breeds of dogs. but juz to name and describe a few out of the 20over dogs, there were - labradors(can't spell), maltase(eve's puppy), the police dog, the wolf-lookalike dog etc. haha. gosh, i really can't name the breeds. but they were all sooo cute and pretty and handsome :) [yes, i'm refering to the small/medium/big dogs, none of the dog owners caught my attention]

and then! i saw them walk up this trail which i have never noticed since i started joggin there for like 2 mths! OMG! the place i was jogging was this small park (the path is like round(200m per rd)) i noe the park leads to this other bigger park which i have nv gone to. and the grp of dog walkers came down from that side. AND THEN. they walk to this other side of the the small park and when INTO the 'forest'?! oh my god?! i didn't even noe there's a trail that ppl can walk on! i shall check it out the next time rd.

i shall so not rely on my wkends to catch up on my studies.

chelsea for the double?!

3 CHEERS FOR CHELSEA!

HIP HIP-HOORAY
HIP HIP-HOORAY
HIP HIP-HOORAY

i'm so glad and happy and estatic that chelsea won liverpool. i thought their performance at the first 90mins were so-so only.. luckily i managed to wake up 5 min b4 drogba's first goal.. nice shot! and then later on torres equalised, and i was like :( yup, but it went on the extra time and chelsea scored twice! oh my tian, i really wana kill the linesman for giving drogba offside when essien wasn't even aiming at him! how can he do that?! i was sooooooooo happy at first la! jumping like mad! then i heard the word offside. like so obvious essien only had intention to smash the ball into the net! ANYWAYS, 2min later, chelsea got a penalty thanks to hypia. and dear frank lampard took the spot and scored. for once, i was 90% sure he wld do it. (i was always scared for his penalty kicks) he's doing it for his mum. i'm so proud of him, and i'm sure his mum is too :)

late scare by babel to think that chelsea may not pull thru after all. but they did la. haha!

ordered mac as i promised my lil bro that i wld if chelsea is thru. mcgriddle is ok only. i prefer the normal susage mcmuffin w egg. i didn't really like the soft bread in mcgriddle.

yup. it'll be an all english finals at moscow! i sincerely hope this year, chelsea wld get the euro cup. i mean, c'mon, manu, give chelsea a chance(and a cup) too lah! although, i secretly wish chelsea wld snatch the premier league away from manu. ok, not secretly, but OPENLY. u can do it chelsea!

i told my friends that, if chelsea wins either the euro or the league title, i'm gg to get a chelsea jersey! YEA :)

feeling emo

feeling really emo and pissed abt *sch stuff*.

i miss those days where i had a reliable grp of ppls friends i cld lean on.

i feel like i'm in the wrong place.

this is how i try to be more optimistic:
when i start to dislike/hate some people becos of one particulat smthg,
i try to think abt FIVE happy things tt i share wif the peope or the things the people have done for me. and hopefully it'll remind me not to dislike the people. but so far, these 5 things juz ain't tt big a deal.


but i'll still try to be optimistic.

he's got the nicest blue eyes i've ever seen. i'm gg to tell him tt the next time he smiles and walk pass me :)

things are getting slightly outta control in sch. i worry for myself and also for my peers. i hope everything will turn out fine.

and someone made a really *i shall not say but it starts wif a D-word* comment in class today. GOSH. wat was she thinking?!

today is day3 of wk2 of sem1 in yr2.

dress for sale!

DRESS FOR SALE!!! BRAND NEW! PLEASE BUY!!!!
SOLD!



i bought it for 25$. but it doesn't fit moi cos of my fat arse. so it's brand new ok!!! please buy!! i'm selling it for 23$(inclusive of postage). if u want a meet up, then i'll sell for 20$:) see i'm so nice. i'm desperate ppls! i dun like the sight of a brand new item in my closet which i can't wear!

and i hate that asshole who seems interested in the dress but doesn't seem interested in making payment. ASS.

20th bday

pics for u mel! haha! i dun want to upload so many cos it'll take forever to load my blog. the rest of facebook!!


Thanks to : angie, amanda, eve, limjie, mel, sheena, shuwei, surong, wenmin for celebrating my 20th bday with moi!!!!!





NYNY was really nice!!! haha, thanks to the waiter who wished me happy bday like 2-3 times! the food is nice too!!! love the cheese balls! but the bbq spare ribs alittle too hard to chew.. and the powerpuff girls cake!





went to sky garden and receive my presents! million thanks again!





chatted wif cheryl on the phone. hope her chao kuey tiao works out tmr.





i feel so blessed :)





oooh. last but not e least, the icing on the cake, a bunch of angmohs *whistles* walked pass us in the mrt.. haha..


happy belated bday to me!!!! *GRINS WIDELY*

yes i am disappointed. of course i am. i was looking forward to the day. oh wells. sometimes, life juz doesn't go ur way.

anyways, CE2A is finally over. Wldn't say it as interesting as sgh. but definitely a good exposure to the old folks and their conditions. i dun have much to say abt the attachment this time.

online spree-ed again.

clinicals

clinicals have been 'good' so far. nothing as upsetting as wat some of my other fellow frens being attached to acute hosp are feeling.

i've been attached to rehab and chronic/palliative wards.. mostly, or rather, ALL geriatric cases.. mostly patients with strokes(left cva, right hemiparesis). yup. but it's still quite different la, even though their conditions are similar.. Dealing wif elderly is very different from dealing wif ppls seen at the outpatient clinics of acute settings. the treatment plan usually involves bed mobility, sitting and standing balance, and ambulation.. i wldn't say it's 'easier'. need alot of patience too..

but i suppose my partner and i are having a better time, juz picking up little things here and there. we did chest physio today. dunno why jm say it's interesting, i think it's - 'not exactly wat i think pts shld be doing'. but anyway, since it's part of the job, then do lor..

ppls, the end is no where near. it's not ending in 5 days time. this is juz the beginning k!



*looking forward to sch!*

podiatry

i was looking for scholarship juz now but the dateline is over :S and then i came across this: overseas scholarship for podiatry.. not many ppls noe what's it abt, and there's no local courses available. i was tempted to apply for it, even tho i'm not crazy abt being a podiatrist. after all, for the past one yr, my goal was to become a physiotherapist.
but there it was. a chance- for a scholarship - overseas - degree.
did i mentioned tt i failed to get the scholarship which i submitted my application last min on the dateline itself last yr? erm. they didn't even call me up for an interview, probably becos my grades were juz average and my testimonial was soooo boring.

i wonder how many ppls will apply for this scholarship? maybe i'll be the only one? haha. then they'll give it to moi!

for those who think i'm interested in the scholarship becos of a certain *ahem*, it's a no. the thought did flash across though.. hehe

i needa submit a resume in order to apply for it.. i'm too lazy to type one out.

i needa participate in some form of cca like NYAA, to er, impress whoever it takes, to give the scholarship to me. if i do set out to start participating in NYAA, i've got to be committed.. and not give up halfway the way i did for squash. damn. and i probably have to give up my aus trip in sept.. oh this is not juz for scholarship for podiatry, it's also gg to be useful for my PT scholarship.

my grades juz ain't tt fabulous. it's passable. i wanted a 3.3 but i'm not close. and it's strange cos i tot the individual grades look good on its own. but becos my lousiest grade in both sems hold the most credit points, i guess tt's where it pulls down my gpa.

sigh sigh... shld i juz apply for the overseas podiatry thing? haha. high chance i won't get it anyway. and if they ask me to go down for interview these 2 wks, wat am i gg to say? and surely. all the troublesome things & emotions i have to do IF i do get it. nah. i won't get it. but still.. it's tempting. but hold on.. which country wil i be gg? better be aus.. AH. i'm overthinking this man. i'm not even typing out my resume yet!!! and on wat basis will they select me? my passable gpa? my empty cca record of 1 yr in nyp? my lack of enthusiam in class? failure to attend that v.impt tok tt we were strongly encouraged to go?

*yawns* so troublesome... i shld be revising for my clinicals tmr.. another 2 more wks!

slack hols

the hols is cmg to an end. clinicals at BV is gg to commence on wed! oh dear. i hope the PTs there wld go easy on us. i heard my fren who's gg to a certain private hosp will have ALOT to do to impress the PTs there.

i enjoyed my hols this time rd. haha. perhaps it's not as meaningful as wat my dear yh went thru in cambodia, but i definitely enjoyed it thoroughly.
1) meeting up wif my frens! esp the s55 ppls! sentosa,crystal jade & sakae!!
2) having lunch (outside sch!) wif my pt frens :) at manhattan fish market
3) watching 3 movies in a wk! 10,000 B.C, The Leap Years and Step Up 2 The Streets :) HOT!
4) Exercise? haha. i didn't run on tracks, but i finally restarted running at the park nearby instead of the gym.
5) went timebre wif 2 ntss pals! loved the ambience there. makes me feel good abt myself. except the part where i puked out my cosmo drink at home :S but the pizza is NICE! shall get yh to drive down there one day
6) hardly touched the books! haha. but i shall regret it later. keyword-later
7) eh, i won my first fluff gold medal! I'm proud of my dragun, Grinchy! HAHA.
8) shopping! tt's prob the best part!! and the most no. of items i bought within a mth, or even a wk! ppls- i bought threadless tees!! not 1 or 2, but 5!!! holy s**t!!!!

yup. tt pretty much sums up my hols this time rd.. it feels good.. the not-so-good part? having to work as flyer distributors - but i'm glad i worked wif jac and nurul on 2 outta 3 days. also, i didn't manage (or bothered to) learn my canto well (which i mentioned i wld last oct :S). even tho i know i spent ALOT of money on shopping, i can't stop myself from window shopping and mentally making down a list of things i need to buy. maybe i think it's time for me to get a new wardrobe of clothes to 'mark' my adulthood. of course, threadless tees are juz essentials tt everyone shld have... HAHA.

ppls. my birthday is cmg. the day is 15 APRIL 2008!
this is a list of 'PLEASE DO NOT BUY THIS FOR ME COS I'LL PROB CHUNK IT ASIDE'
1)any type of shirts. please. i'm serious. not even threadless tees!
2)wallets. nah. i dun really need one since i dun have tt many cards and i've always prefered a 2mm purse instead
3)novels. i like. but i rather receive it over x'mas
4)no vouches pls!
5)no jackets pls. i juz bought one online which i hope it fits!

wat i wld like other than a nice surprise gift may be
1)bag? this one is a toughie man. not sure pls dun buy!!!
2)handphone. too ex rite? i wan samsung handphone
3)a pair of sneakers. preferably puma. but again its' too ex. maybe my parents shld be reading this.

hmm. actually i also dunno wat i want..this is pretty thick-skinned of me to put up this post. but then again, it's concern for my fren's money being put to a worthy use. i m serious.

of course as a kind friend. i accept all gifts! all! with open arms and a grin from ear to ear. wat's most impt is the company:)

i so wasn't happy to see that.

went to check things out at the hosp this afternoon wif jm. got lots of things to read up on. supervisor seems nice but she isn't the main person we'll be tagging along.. oh god. i really hope i'm prepared by the 26th. mmt, rom, exercise presciption, old age diseases, the patients. pls let me get thru the 3 wks.

on the way home, when i was alighting from the bus, this lady who alighted right before me, tripped fell and hit her head onto the pole! omg! i was like stunned. ppls surrounded and offered to help. the incident was juz- !!!! singaporeans are nice ppls.

RESULTS ARE OUT!

alrite, by the sight of the first line, most ppls wld prob have guess tt i'm feeling good abt my results. and yes i am. i really got a shock initially. cos this morning at 4am, i was watching chelsea's match and then i went to slp at end of first half, thinking it's a sure win for them. indeed it was. but when i woke up at 10 to check my handphone for smses, i was surprised and taken aback to see the sms abt my grades! like - it's today!!! the results are out alr!!! ok, i did mark down thu on my calender but i kept thinking the results are only out on fri. anyways, yes, i'm happy wif my results. there's a improvement in anat and physio. and a decent grade for biom and epa/kine - despite me feeling EXTREMELY DOWN after my epa/kine paper. psych was my only A.. i tot i cld have aced the anat paper too.. but i didn't :S oh wells. no more anat in future. but tt doesn't mean i can give back dr uma wat i've learned from her.

anyways, chelsea did well. they scored 6-1 against derby. lampard scored 4 goals! incl a penalty! cld have kept a clean sheet tho. anyway, i feel sad for derby... losing so many matches. i really feel sad for them. sometimes i think it's not fair.

anyways. i'm happy! i wonder wat she'll be toking to me abt next mon. sigh. i can't provide a gd explanation for my emotions prior to my papers.

oh no. i spent alot this hols. and it's only halfway thru! here's the list

1)maroon pullover fr online: $24++
2)shirt dress fr online: $27
3)beach dress fr far east: $39.9
4)le coq tee:$27.9

OMG. and my fren told me she has this gd lacoste deal so it'll cost abt $60plus instead of the usual $109.9, and. i have to (and i'm gg to) buy a white plain top. as cheap as possible. maybe from giodarno.

then lunch/dinners
1)crystal jade
2)sakae sushi
3)manhattan fish market (dun try)

there was 10,000 B.C which i watched. alrite only.. cos i read a not-so-gd review b4 i entered the cinema... so my thoughts on the show was alr cloudy by the review. Looking forward to Step Up 2, (and then there's the leap years, waterhorse, ps i love u - of which the last 2 i'll prob rent the dvd)

i have abt 60$ for the remaining of the mth. i hope my pay for the singtel flyer has been banked in. even tho i said previously tt i wldn't do e job ever again, but i'm thinking it'll do gd for my shopping spree. hoho.. oh.i'm supposed to save up for gold coast.. sigh. but i'd need clothes for gold coast too! hehe!!

i'm seriously addicted. i can look at the same few websites over and over again every single day... ARGH.

first flyer distribution day

today was my first day as a flyer distributor. glad to also state tt it'll most prob be my last.. it was alrite .. the whole experience of standing along the walkway from the mrt to wisma. giving out flyers to the ppls.. it was actually quite interesting, to see the many different ppls walk passed me.. the good looking angmohs. the pretty and sophisticated girls of my age and the guys who wore skinny pants.. very nice to see wat the ladies are wearing, help me improve my sense of fashion too. haha

my conclusion is that singaporeans are pretty nice. not as rude as i thought they wld be towards flyer distributors. many of them smiled and declined, some completely ignore(TOTALLY UNDERSTANDABLE BECOS I"M ONE OF THEM TOO. HOHO), while others stare below my head. and tt's the weird part. oh wait. i was wearing suspenders ppls! omg! the only person i noe who wear suspenders is amanda la! so sian, we have to wear suspenders and a cap, both RED! yikes. i was actually supposed to wear the tennis skirt provided. but i decided it was too white and slightly 'see thru' tp my thick ugly elephant thighs. so i decided to change back to my shorts.
oh ya, ppls were looking at the words on my teeshirt.. but i keep thinking it's becos i nv zip my shorts tt's why they stare until so :O.

yup anyway, 6hrs went passes pretty fast. the other 2 guys came and help me distribute some of my flyers cos they finish damn fast. quite nice of them:) oh, not 6 hrs, i ended ard 745 wif the guys' help. so we were sorta dismissed at 8 plus. when the ic asked if i wana do next wk. i juz shook my head real hard. haha.. i dunno man. it's good easy money. but i guess cos without my frens, it doesn't feel as 'enjoyable' and i wldn't wana do it again. BUT, i wld really like to juz sit on the benches along the path and watch ppls walk.. haha.. not their gait, but the clothes they wear.. oh, i think i got quite some attention cos of wat i was wearing.. haha..

addicted to windown online shopping

i think i'm addicted to online window shopping. i can juz go over the same 10 websites and look over the same shirts and dresses. and stare in awe. well, not awe, juz wish there was a shop in spore, then i can go TRY it.. cos some of the tees are seriously not made for ppls with fats at all. they're so slim fit and skinny!!!

i have decided to buy this maroon pullover.. it looks nice.. hope it fits nicely on me.. but first, i have to transfer money!!! by tmr morning preferably.. supposed to be by last nite.. but i didn't succeed.. my first atm transfer was a failure. becos i didn't know i was using a POSB saving acct rather than the first option tt i pressed(POSB current). sigh. i sux

i shall not be like my fren who shops too much online.. i rather shop at orchard.. and try my clothes b4 i buy.. muz save $$$ too.. (possibly)got aus trip in sept!!!

can't wait for tmr's shopping!!! hope i manage to find wat i want! which is a dress, and maybe some nice tops:)

still listening to the canto cd.. quite hard ah.. not easy to learn a new language, even tho dialect is 'similar' to chi..

hair cut

went for a haircut this afternoon. was definitely feeling very nervous abt it, i even felt my thighs go shaky as i walked nearer to the shop. i didn't go to kimage nor dennis, cos it was either too far, or i can't wait. i need a haircut. NOW. so i decided to go to this salon, which was juz a few shops down the one tt i've been gg for the past 20yrs(and tt i really didn't like)

i was slightly more relieved when i was greeted by the presence of 2 female hairdressers when i walked in. somehow i get scared if guys cut my hair, even tho i did let a guy cut my hair b4.. anyways, one of the lady served me, and commented tt i have dry hair, my hair curls up at the end, and there's a patch of white hair.. as usual. one thing i was surprised was tt she blowdry my hair completely b4 cutting it. oh, and the hairdryer was so powerful tt my hair looked really pretty and rebonded b4 the start of the hair cut.

anyways, she cut, and trimmed... and yup, my fringe shortened. it was alrite, i've decided to come to the conclusion tt it isn't the fringe tt's ugly, but tt i have a pretty long face:( how sad.. it doesn't go well wif watever fringes i think.. oh wells.

yup, haircut done! juz glad the long fringe has been halved and my hair parting won't look so weird.

yes, i've decided tt getting a haircut will be on my list of 'scary' things.

it's out. my heart sank

my heart sank.

placement at bright vision hosp. i'm alr doing research on geriatrics. i hope it turns out well.. in fact, the major objective tt i wana achieve at the end, is to be able to enjoy and look forward to working in the geriatrics dept in the future. i dun wana have bad experience from working wif the elderly. let's hope everything goes fine. if not, there's always my partner i can lean on.

looking forward to shopping trips this thu and maybe sun?! haha!!! lots to buy! i regret not taking more $$ when my mum was giving me my allowance..

need to start picking up teochew hokkien and canto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really wana go to australia gold coast. really. i wana sit those rides!!! and take pictures wif the crew of looney tunes! will i get to go? i have yet to ask my mum. i can imagine she'll juz remind me to save money for the 4th yr deg conversion at aus(which i'm having my doubt abt it alr)



i'm looking at the attractions at movieworld and seaworld alr.. and also looking at the accommodation prices. can't decide if gg on tour is better(things are taken care of) or free&easy better(eh. well, it's free & easy la)



accommodation is super duper impt! the location mus be good. i mean, accessible to the themeparks. and i muz find out how to TRAVEL from the hotel/motel/apartment to the themeparks.



this is so troublesome... sigh... and it's becos of things like this, there's alot of THINGS tt i wana do but eventually didn't do becos i'm always concerned abt certain things and worrying over other stuff... i shld learn to do this man.



jie: any chance that any of ur aunts might be interested to go wif her family or smthg? then can go tog. then i dun have to research on accommodation le.

had some fun at sentosa ytd.. didn't really cycle but felt a sense of satisfaction as i helped sw and mel to learn cycle.. they're still kinda shaky but i'm sure they'll get the 'feel' of it soon.

have been facebooking these couple of days. esp petting the fluffpets and racing them! totally addicted! i want tt gold medal!!! AAAHHHHHHH! haha. so childish.

watched juno.. was pretty alrite i think... later watching p.s i love you. and then there's still jumper and the leap years(which i hope to watch on the 29th.) i thnk i'm gg to be broke soon. and i still haven't gone shopping.

tennis tmr wif yh!! it's been soooo long! i wonder how well we can still rally!!! haha!!! definitely gg to continue my tanning!!! i bet it'll be way more effective than the tanning session we had at sentosa..

carling cup final: chelsea 1 tottenham 2 (e.t.)

rather disappointed, i turned off my tv half a min before the final whistle. couldn't bear to see chelsea lose.

initially when the commentator said whenever drogba scores, chelsea will win, i was like skeptical. and then when drogba did score the opening goal, i began to be hopeful. spurs were the better team, they were pushing and attacking. chelsea had a really amateurish shaky start. chelsea was supposed to hold on to their goal as it was wat they were supposedly good at. they didn't, i knew they cldn't becos spurs was all out attacking during the late 2nd half, and they got a penalty. good lor

then it went on to extra time, steve clarke and j.terry were both giving moltivational talks and i was almost sure it wld talk some sense into the players. but it didn't. spurs scored their second goal within the first few min. i wasn't panicking at that time cos i tot chelsea cld surely come back. but they didn't. last 5 min of the match, they had one corner after another. but still no equaliser. it was painful to watch. they only have themselves to blame as they refuse to do more attacking when they first got their lead (it's like last min mugging. no use one lor. shld have been more consistent earlier on, so dun have to panick like mad at the end). that's it. chelsea lost. i lost too. i was damn damn damn sure tt chelsea will win this cup. so they at least have one silverware in their bag for this season. now the other 2 possible cups they can win is facup and cham league(which i think is still not tt possible but i shall keep my faith in them)

sigh:(

finally. exams are over. i dun feel like seeing a counsellor anymore, even though i think i really need help in coping wif the anxiety i face during exam period. it gets extremely awful.

anyway, i'm kinda disappointed not to be joining my class for timbre tonite..sorry. have decided to have a sleepover instead.. juz feel like having heart-to-heart talks wif my closest frens..

decided against getting a job this hols, wld really needa focus on clinicals preparation. initially i wasn't so nervous abt it, up til audrey mentioned some of the objectives tt we have to achieve. oh. and the fact tt if we fail one clinicals, have to retake and hence will be behind the rest by one 'clinicals'. DARN. i plan to do well in my clinicals.. brush up on my interpersonal skills(i wonder how), learn abit of teochew and canto, practice transfers, mmt and rom.. rom still can, cos i was given a chance to do it at sgh(tho not very skilled), mmt is like -!!!! it's easy to do in lab la.. but in front of the real patient, muz really be professional abt it..

gotta work out hard during this hols... kinda used to running in the gym wif the aircon le.. abit not looking forward to running on tracks.. sigh.. one yr down, one more yr to 2.4test.

other stuff i'm looking forward to:
shopping!
cycling/rollerblading wif my pals!
tanning at sentosa! haha
buying donuts from donut factory! double chocolate!!!!! chocolate wif raspberry!
fried mars bar!!!!! omg!!!
tennis/squash/badminton! work those calories!!!
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revision-.-

cheryl left. how sad. i wasn't there to see her off.

anyways, i feel really really upset about today's kine/epa paper. i also dunno whether i'd describe it as upset or numb. nah, i'm definitely upset and disappointed about today's paper. i think i didn't think hard enough before i attempted each question, so when that happens, i write out ans that i think make sense. at the end of the paper, on the way home, i ponder over it and ask wat my frens think of that paper. i have a feeling they sorta knew wat to write, but perhaps didn't phrase it properly. but for me, i felt like i didn't know wat i was writing, and everything juz came out based on prev prac and some sorta common sense.

on the bright side, i didn't leave questions blank. ya i think. but some of my ans are really crap lor. argh....

exams bother me. they really do. i have a feeling i'm the only person who is bothered by the way i fare in the paper. it sux really bad cos i feel tt i shld have stepped out of my sec sch/jc mentality and be more mature when it comes to studying for exams. i haven't. i'm still tt crybaby who succumb under pressure. the annoyed girl who can't let go of some minor marks, the perfectionist who wants to regurgitate word for word in each essay que.

i need to change.
i need to see a shrink/psychologist to help me deal with my panic attacks.

optimistic joyce. i know myself well, despite all the negativities, a side of me is assuring me tt i dun have to take sub paper, at most get a D for epa/kine mod.

i'm not gg to say i'll study harder for next sem. it does't work. after so many years, i've come to realised tt last min cramping is bad but somewat effective. unless i study my subj the way i study for anatomy. i'll miss anatomy.. abit la. cos it's the only mod tt i can do well becos i can regurgitate the facts. word for work (ps. essays only la, mcq not included unofrtunately)

i'm supposed to be happy tt kine/epa paper is over. i hope studying for biom will be smooth sailing later. hai. but got calculation ques, so can't be tt smooth la.

cheer up joyce.

i'm thinking of the day tt i was absolutely sure i failed epa prac. and i got a C in the end. let's hope things turn out better tt wat i think:)

i obviously haven't stepped out of that 'circle'/mentality.
GIVE ME A BREAK.

i'm really upset about my kine prac grade. i thought i did well. but thinking back again, the teacher did give me quite some hints abt certain stuff, so i guess i dun deserve the grade i wanted. But, if it had been the other teacher, i may have done slightly better. oh wells. now, i noe i have to work even harder for the written exam which is super duper tough cos the ans are not found in the notes. the notes are like not informative at all lor. and kine/epa has the highest credit points! kill me!

i'm worried tt if i'm not able to grind out at least 3.0 every sem, then i might not be able to get into an aus uni... sigh. wat shld i do? maybe i can work hard to do well in clinicals? haha.. unlikely considering i still sux at chi and unable to utter much phrases in the 3 dialects. i have alot to work on during the march hols.

gotta get back to studying.

i'm so dead. it's eve of CNY, and here i am in doubt over my kine pract. i thought i did well leh, even for the exercise part.. then, my fren who supposedly got the same que said it's eccen exercise and eccen functional. but i recall prescribing exercises meant for concentric. oh no.. i thnk now there's a possibility tt i may fail (even tho i did 'pass' the rom and mmt part). hmm.. but exercise prescription is not really - forget it. it's impt, if wrong exercise means fail le? die die die. shit la... why audrey nv prompt? she juz keep asking 'anything else?' so i juz keep giving concentric. i even say out how it works leh. die la. now she thinks i dunno wat's conc and ecce. shit. oh god.

tt aside. epa was alrite. managed to smoke thru even tho last nite i was seriously having a panic attack. think i may do better for epa after all.

positive sign for right trendeleburg - i dunno if i spelt the word correctly, but this is wat happens: while standing, the person's right leg will be straight, while the left pelvis drops, becos the right abductor is not able to keep the pelvis level.

i demo-ed it to my tester, and gave an explanation while demo-ing. and guess wat, for a 20yr old student, i really screwed up my left and right! i demo and said "so the right side will be straight" - and i pointed to my left leg standing straight. and then say" and left pelvis drop", and i dropped my right pelvis!

i even did all the actions leh! i showed how the right abductors(pointing at left thigh) will not be able to level the pelvis on the left side (pointing to right thigh).

it's not THAT BIG a deal i hope? afterall, my exercises were prescribed for the right leg, and i made sure my patient did it on the right leg.

yes. calm down joyce. this plus the fact the TFL doesn't attach to lateral condyle + my patient did compensation and i didn't say out until tester pointed out + my measurement for ROM also abit not here not there = i think too much liao. [i also tot of a better exercise while i was showering juz now. i shld have suggested it. damn. i think better while showering. ]

yes. i thought i cld get a good grade, now. er, well, i still think i did well.. haha.. i'm an OPTIMIST! (FYI:optimist expect good stuff to happen. i always tot they juz HOPE good stuff will happen.. hmm. )

alrite man! now. gotta start on epa. i'm so damn happy it's not tmr.. i juz took like a 1.45 h of nap!!! which felt really good after staying in sch for so long.

i'm gg to do quick shopping tmr(since i overslept), hopefully get 2 tops. and buy myself either a prosperity burger or juz the twister fries :)

am looking for websites for exercise prescription. hope the spine exercises won't be tested. argh. shit. i still rmb i have to go memorise definitions for psychology.

last nite was pretty fun. the surprise was definitely there. tho it felt more like a grp gathering rather than a class gathering cos the guys left soon after cheryl appeared and we were still sorta in out own little grps.

the exercise doesn't seem hard leh. but i noe when i see the que tmr, i'll surely -!! nope. i shall be calm when i see the que. and there's a difference between stretching and strengthening, and i have yet to touch the latter! frustrating! lucky my slot is the noon. but still.

bad news. chelsea drew!!! oh man 1-1!!! so damn close to winning la, with all the last min attacks! and idiot man u!! they score a goal at like the 93rd min to save their sorry ass! why cldn't chelsea have done the same?! then we'll be levelled, or close. now, we're 6pts below. sobs. 3 mths left? *prays hard* and shit la, chelsea is playing liverpool next!!! prays tt our home record stays unbeaten!!!!

it's 1st feb. and week 16 has juz ended.. the dreaded wk 17 with 3 tests will soon arrive :S
but still, it's been a 'fabulous' wk 16.
1) i got noticed. i think... mr.p saw me 4 times this wk! haha
2) i fell in love with the new song - So Close by Jon Mclaughlin. and i can't stop listening to it. my classmates hate me for it. i even put the song on a com in the resource room!
3) i ate 2 donuts from donut factory! Double Chocolate and the Chocolate with raspberry! SINFUL! but absolutely delicious!!! thx joce!
4) i did well for anatomy. and i was the first to find out bcos i actually approached dr uma right before she wanted to edit the list for an unnecessary reason. and apparently she noes i improved. like as though she know me very well liddat -.-

yup. tt sums up the week :)

on the downside
1) i think i was pretty unproductive in studying, except for making notes blindly
2) i totally sux at public speaking. i need to take up a course during the hols or smthg. shoots.
3) i'm pretty clueless abt exercise prescription. shit.
4) i haven't exercise much during the week.

4 -4. draw. haha. oh! chelsea won as usual! so did man u and arsenal. so it's still a draw.

the dreaded D-day will arrive in 2 weeks. it's probably more dreaded than my 2oth birthday. sobs...