end & beginning

ok. the year has come to an end liao... and i have to say, it was quite a horrible year.. academically wise... my grades are all like C or E or close to O... so jialat lah... next yr how to take a lvls??? actually, i think i've like wasted the past year... didn't really study... didn't really understand lectures.. didn't really complete my tutorials... the supposed only achievement of this past yr was that i pass my 2.4km run... w/out cheating... haha.. oh, and my first blood donation too.


But coming to a new sch and being in a new class, i have enjoyed the company of my new grp of friends - shuwei, cheryl, huixin, wenmin, angeline, limjie... & the flowergirls... of course, i haven't forgotten my sec sch frens... whom i still keep in touch with like simin, xiny, aiping, shiying, woeilin and yihui. and this past year was more about going out... wif frends.. enjoying their company... and juz living the moment... trying not to care about other stuff..


then came the dec hols... well spent, i would say. i'm not gonna complain how i've been slacking.. and not doing hw or revision...i would say i have slept for very long... replacing some of the hrs that i used for studying... and i have enjoyed watching all the tv shows... that i have missed while cooping myself in my room... and i haven't listen to any radio since the start of the hols... let's see, i'm gonna miss alot of shows.. such as: oprah! the nanny!(my favourite!), ch 8 drama like the current one - love concierge and the 3 lucky stars, ch 5 variety tv - ameria's next top model, [oh, and amazing race is coming soon! - this i muz watch]... and all the cable tv shows... oh, and i watched king kong (movie of the year!) and Oi! Sleeping Beauty! The wake up musical... which i loved & thoroughly enjoyed!!!


next yr a lvl liao... i really hope to do well.. cos my olvl grades was like no way here nor there.. and i really wanna do well... afterall., i need to enter uni... so my grades muz be very decent, if not excellent.. to get into my choice faculty... hmm.. wonder wat i'll choose... hopefully, a scholarship for overseas studies will juz drop upon me... hehe..

christmas @ cheryl's & the drama production

went to cheryl's hse to celebrate christmas wif wenmin, surong, mel, amanda and latecomer(as usual)- shuwei... yup. had pasta... (which i already ate in the morning) watched charlie and e choco factory. i dunno whether it was boring or that i juz felt like sleeping during the show... and the small man singing and dancing were eeky...

ya, then watched the rainbow connectn again... agrees wif the others that this show abit senseless and is not logical... abit diao lah.. then we exchanged presents... i got cheryl's homemade cookies and mine key pendant went to shuwei...


ok, went to watch the play ' oi! sleeping beauty! The WAKE UP Musical' it was a wonderful show... so funny... esp when they involved the audiences... like the part where the cat ask the audience to tell Dawn that he's not there. and then dawn asked the audience where is her cat. some kid actually shouted ' he's not there'!!! haha... then got the kiss and kill the princess part...


oh and there were these 2 irritating guys sitting behind me & yunle who laughed SO LOUD and so distinctly. according to sources, these 2 were the costume designers which explains their absence at the second half of the show.. oh, and they sang really well!! the Prince bin Charming and Dawn... oh, and we realized that there was a mike on dawn's forehead!! amazing...


overall, i loved the show!!!! i dun mind coming for their next production.. but it's quite ex... $30plus onwards... but it's really wonderful!!! support local productions!!!

cip & band fest.

1st- cip. have doine 3 shifts of cip... it's quite good lah... juz sell the booklets and funpacks for abt 1 hr plus.. and then give out the feedback form at the end of the show for another half hour... AND the total cip hours is actually 3.5 hrs!! ya.. cos when the show starts, there's not much for volunteers to do... so can juz slack... ok. so the more 'eventful' shift was sunday nite. wif wl and yl. we met ADRIAN PANG!!!! like O M G!!!! okok.. i noe.. it's adrian pang only... not like it's pierre png or zoe tay.. ya so.. he was wif his family, his kids.. but i didn't really see his wife... so. i wanted to approach him at like.5 min later to ask him to buy the stuff.. then the next thing i noe.. yl is like 4meters ahead, walking in his direction.. ARGH!!!! ya.. so he bought for her.. oh.. i think he's really sweet to his kids... they are like less than 5... maybe 4... and so he helped them to write their wishes... so cute lah... like he was kneeling down... his hand over his kid's hand... writing down the wish... sigh....
THEN we met ben soh and wl's fav teacher leonard ong... yup.. so they bought a pack from both of us..
THEN... during the interval... i saw adrian pang playing with his 2 kids... so sweet lah... at one corner where i almost missed him if not for yl... ya.. and it was only the 3 of them.. w/out the wife.. so i din ren xin to borrow him so that i cld take a photo wif him... sigh... ya.. and that was the last time i saw him. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

2nd - band fest. ok.. i hate to say this.. but this yr's band fest is kinda disappointing.. first is the starting of the first piece by the first band.. i was like... huh?? ok.. then the next thing is there were hardly any shuaige playing the percussion... i rmb the last time i went there were so many lah... but come to think abt it.. i was like sec 3 then watching jc ppls play.. but i'm now watching ppls of my age.. so maybe dun look as attractive... THE MOST IMPT PART - i saw the usher boy.. so cute! i swear i spotted him first whom yh disagrees. watever. didn't notice his name.. as usual... ya.. and during the interval, i asked yh to take his photo which she unskillfully... DID NOT.. nvm... so i practically spend the next half of the concert thinking abt him.. haha.. not really lah..i did listen to the music.. but the seats were really uncomfortable... so.. after the show, we came up.. but i noticed his was gone... hiaz.. ya. and then we met up wif simin and mr tay, who kept on toking abt aiping's sis..he siao one lor.. like some old che go pek(pervert).. BUT THEN FINALLY... i saw him again.. wif yh.. he had changed to his polo tee.. looking .. well not as cute as he was with the usher attire on.. haha.. and.. no chance to take his pic.. as usual... but again. the best memories will forever be kept close to my heart

so.. on the way home wif wl.. i was telling her i think i'm gg crazy cos of my craziness over the shuaige... first it's 'johnnie' then it's now usherboy.. i'm so huachi lor... i shld prob stop this kinda behaviour... so horrible... i'm gg nuts!!! and the worse is i still dun have their photos... eeks!!!

updates

okok... went to simin's hse warming.. woah... so many ppls lah... ya.. played twister with e same gang... sell my earrings... yea!!! thanks girls! not gg into details.
then.. watched harry potter.. was a great show!!! muahaha... can't wait to watch chicken little and king kong... woohoo!!!!
oh.. that camp and QPS.. was ok lah... made frens.. with the facils... and like 2 of the mentees... wouldn't say i'm the most interactive person on earth... ya.. enjoyed playing the games.. was glad that the 2 days went past pretty fast... and not to mention i had to run for ALL 4 of my bus in the 2 days.. can u believe it? lucky for me the bus wasn't as fast as i am... haha... so-not-true...
so rite now.. i'm juz slacking... and hoping to finish my hol assignments... and i can't wait to go shopping!!!!!!

er... abit diao..

went for job application today.. with des... we were told to fill up the application form.. then... later we gave it to his lady, prob the in-charge.. and then she started a little mini interview.. there and then. so she asked a few ques... i said a few words in reply.. and so did des... then, she concluded.. that i was v. nervous.. and said that she wld give the job to des rather then me... well.. i wld be lying if i said i didn't feel a tinge of regret for getting des to come along... BUT... i dun blame her... really.. even if she wasn't there.. i would still have like.. 'played wif my hand' i dun really agree wif the lady that i was extremely nervous... maybe a little.. i mean, who wouldn't be??? well.. i think des didn't get the job cos she's gg overseas... well.. she was nice to 'push' the job to me.. (thx!) but i guess... i wasn't ready for the job... honestly, if e person calls and say she'll give me a trial, i'd rather she didn't....

i guess i'm not ready yet... for this sorta thing... after this interview.. which is like a huge lesson learnt on the impt of body language.. i think i shld juz stay at home and mug for next yr's As.. haha... oh.. and maybe i shld read up on books that teaches 'how to score for your interviews'
which i did... after leaving the shop.. haha.. i think the most impt thing is the confidence level part... which i'm totally lacking.... hmm... it's ok... it like a ... 'what do u call that' in my face... but.. life goes on.... i guess more imptantly, i shld pick up on such skills so that i wld be ready to look for jobs after As and also to prepare for possible interviews for universities...

and to make matters worse.. i was on my way home.. waiting at the bus stop.. there's this mini van that passed by carrying malay ppls wearing their beautiful costumes.. and this idiot suddenly pointed his middle finger at me... i was like???!!!!! what the hell??? i didn't look ard .. but there wasn't anyone siting near me... and i think that guy was actually pointing at me... i'm juz so pissed lah... watever... dun wanna continue.. otherwise i kana sued for racist comments.

well.. i'll be gg to the library soon... to read up on these kinda stuff... not sure whether i'll still be gg for any work interviews... i juz hope that more ppls will buy earrings from me so that i can earn some extra money... worse come to worse.. i'll use my nets lor.. which i dun want to...

PS: i'm ok! maybe i shld be glad that i can have all the time in the world to properly manage my hols and well.. window shopping is good too.. a form of exercise...

$$$

i need money! first time leh... i mean, this has nv well, hardly happened to me before... like in sec sch... i have no money watsoever during the hols... i stay at home... go for band... which i get my $5 for every practice i attend... and that's it... i dun go out.. at all....

then.. juz this nov, my mum gave me $200 for god noes wat reason... and then i realise juz THE OTHER DAY, it's gone.. poof! gone... i so can't believe it.... what happened to me??? and i still have so many things tt i need to buy!!! *sobs*

so rite now.. i think i'm gonna need to go find job.... there's this one at citylink (next to num!) and it has flexible work schedule... so.. maybe i'll go try out for it... but i'm juz scared... like.. i dunno how to approach the person... dunno how to ask for an application for the job... i'm so absolutely clueless!!!! but i noe this is gonna be impt... i mean, eventually i'll have to go out there and WORK.... hiaz.... ok... i'll go take a look soon... hopefully the job is not taken up...

btw, ppls!!! listen up!!!! i have started to make my own earrings.. and they are for sale!!! pls purchase them... plsplsplsplspls.. i seriously need the cash... and its' freakin cheap... no where else.. ppls... u gotta buy my stuff... hehe....

happy

okok.. went for class outing at sentosa on mon... actually.. it's more like cliques' outing lah.. but it was really fun... er.. i didn't see any obvious jellyfishes... juz droplets of them, which according to the lifeguard can cause rashes... nope, surong, i dun think they are cute.... well, maybe alittle... ya.. so basically, i played frisbee wif amanda, lj and sw... watched the others build a ship from sand... suntanned at the brigde... luckily for me, i didn't get any darker... juz got my feet burnt... overall.. it was OK... at least i wasn't feeling miserable - like the first og outing... anyway.. it was fun!!! but i think i'd prefer to go cheryl's hse for any more of such outings...

bought my earring beads... but only 3 colours.. so currently they're all looking pink blue and white... i'm gg to buy more today!!! haha... i'm juz so happy doing these earrings... althought i think my designs are pretty not so-fabolous... but i juz like the process of making them.. hhehe... i'm so gonna be broke... i think i have money for one lunch and one movie for the rest of the hols... and NO.. i dun wanna work!!!! haix... everyone is so into working.... i juz wish i have a cash printer at home to print money for me to use.... (sigh) wldn't that be so good! the best invention of the century!!!! muahahahhaha.. yes.. fat hope.

still hanging on...

i am so gg to be broke... going*.. take a look
charm bracelet-$29.9
shorts - $40.8
flipflops-$26.9
dinner @ jack's place- $19.9
jc band fest- $11( haven't pay yet...)
actually.. not really lah.. but then u can see how ridiculously i spent my money.. and the holidays only JUZ STARTED... and i still got so many bags and tops tt i haven't buy!
my goodness...

anyway, yesterday went to jack's pl for dinner wif -aiping,wl, sy, simin, xinyi... sort of a post sy's bdae dinner... was quite fun... learnt that aiping got the letter to go ns in malaysia! so shock.. hope she can escape from it... otherwise... she's in trouble... started 845 plus.. i was so starving already.. then took photos at paragon.. well, with the xmas tree outside... was kinda fun.. felt reall great to hang out wif them.. too bad yh & des didn't come... well, there will be more of these times... esp after yh finishes wif out jap visit. oh, then the 5 of us sang bdae song for sy... it was the one person-one word bdae song. it was so funny lor...haha.. so sweet too!

i seriously have no idea how to do i&r.. i can't believe i did so well for the 2nd one and then i juz totally screwed up the third... and now i hve to come up with e final one.... argh!

ppls! xmas is coming!!!! yea!!! santa claus IS coming to TOWN!!!

(sigh!)

today went to buy havaianas... 'johnny' wasn't there... was kinda disappointed... cos tt time i came at the same day same time, and he was there.. but he wasn't today... i still buy the slippers though... and yes! they do wear name tag.. so... i'm gonna find out his name soon!! and why didn't i wait until he was serving me, then i buy the slippers? well, i can't wait.. mon gg sentosa.. then i dun think i'm gg out for the next few days.. so might as well buy lor...

then i saw him.. yes, the johnny guy... me and sw were on the way back to somerset mrt.. already in the mrt.. then.. cos there's like 2 distinct directn.. so we walked on the left.. and then i saw this really distinct guy.. he's tall, tanned.. looks extremely familiar.. and he was carrying the 'mum' bag..( which is supposed to be 'num' = newurbanmale) then. sw was like - 'issit?! him?!' and yadayada.. we shrieked for a awhile... sigh... so goodlooking... lucky we took note of the bag earlier at the shop... otherwise, i wouldn't have believed it was him... i mean, i haven't seen him for like the longest time.. haha..can't really recignise him....

yes.. then sw was like.. hiax.. if we've waited... but then i think it's alrite.. i mean, what are the chances u'll meet the guy who works in orchard at an mrt? i mean.. quite difficult lor.. so, now that i met him.. it's considered.. 'yuan fen'... fate.. hehe.. i am so unbelivably cheena.
i am juz over the moon... can't help smiling to myself at times.. hehe.. happpy!

oh.. and we went to cheryl's house... me, sw, surong, sheena, angeline.. and later amanda.. weate pizzas... made by cheryl! not bad.. actually got tomato inside.. i think it's good! then watch 40yrold virgin and some ghost show... then we played Life... was overall a great day!! haha.. can't wait to go there again... except for the not so nice ghost show.

inferno & op

Yay! Good guys won!! Haha.. only 3 guys and 1 girl in the good guys team.. and they won!!! Yes.. good will always prevail over the evil...i think the the bad asses lost prob cos they dun have teamwork.. and that there's 7 of them.. so.. haha... they sux... I'm happier at the fact that bad asses lost rather than good guys won.I think Jamie was lucky.. she didn't get picked into the inferno. I mean, all the girls in good guys who got picked all ended up gg home.. so .. lucky Jamie.. and I think the girls in bad assess are not really that fit..this triathlon is really all abt endurance and physical ability lor.. I think it's kinda boring.. and the riddle is so easy lah.juz figure out the age of the ppls who kana out from the inferno.. haix... $150,000. that's a whole lot of freaking money. if I had that .. I would.. haha.. I would do and buy a hell lot of stuff.
I like the show. juz watching ppls fooling ard.. getting competitive.. bitchy.. haha

op is finally over... the long awaited moment in my life.. but then.. i TOTALLY SCREW UP the q&a... i simply couldn't ans the que...i knew my ans was not the ans they are looking for.. but then i really dunno wat to say liao lor... then stupid me i go and mention OBS.. it's not OBS lah.. it's DBS.. then... i ARGH!! totally screw up.. i tot ben soh was v kind when he asked my to elaborate on my 'wrong' but according to him, 'interesting' point... but i also couldn't ans.. i juz simply repeated myself... *pukes*
but i think i did alrite for the presentation part.. alot of eye contact.. good.. i think.. i hope i can get a good ME... hehe.. *prays hard* but then the effectiveness of the presentation abit screw up lah.. cos sheena was like ' as shown in the chart' (points to the screen) but then the screen didn't have the chart.. it was kinda funny lah... haha.. but i think we did alrite... except my qna part... hiax.

now left i&r... hmm..if i can't do well for op, the least i cld do it score for the rest of the pw... and i need to start of holiday assignment liao.. esp math.. cos i'm having my first ever tuition this sat... i hope it helps...

yay!!!

i got a new handphone!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so happy!!! hahahahahahah... it's a samsung slide phone... not bad... quite small.. smaller than my 8250... lighter than my 8250.. got COLOUR!!! my goodness... i'm so amazed.. haha... i noe, i'm lagging... but it's juz that my phone had nv had colour for like the past 2 years... and everyone ard had colour phone.. i was so envious.. finally! it has a camera too... [ppls! i'm coming to take photos of all of u!!] haha... i feel like a country pumpkin... not that i didn't know that such functions exist.. it's juz that i've had my 8250 for too long... so long until i'm missing out on all the exciting functions of a colour-cam-mp3-phone.. did i mention mp3? yes i did! haha.. but i still dunno how to dl songs into the phone yet.. dun think it can store alot lah... but nvm..i'm juz overjoyed....
yes, i got a phone.. all thanks to my mum, who's in the Hub Club... some starhubs thingy.. haha.. so happy she decided to get me the phone... i hurried her to the shop last nite... otherwise i'd have to wait till wed... hehe.. i'm so happy... now, that's one thing off my wishlist... and 1 more to go...
oh gosh... haha... i feel like a little kid getting extremely happy over a new toy... muahahahah

yesterday's op went well... i was time keeping for amanda's grp.. and then.. when it reached xw's turn.. my heart was thumping really hard... haha.. i guess i was getting nervous.. cos their grp's presentation gg to end soon... which means it's my turn! THEN, since amanda's grp took an hour, by the time they finished, it's 845, and here comes to rest of the class... eeks! not fair, we have to present in front of the class while amanda's grp only presented in front of our grp.. ANYWAY.. my heart was still beating... but i managed to deliver my part of the presentation well...at least that's what the teachers said... good eye contact.. improvement from the last op... more confident... muahahahaha.. i feel so happy.. but i noe i was gg abit too fast... so i'll work on my pace... i think i've memorised my part.. cos before i sleep and when i juz woke up, i managed to say the speech w/out the cue cards. yay. however.. i still have to work on the q&a... which i was juz telling my grp, that i might as well juz give up... i mean, do well for the presentation.. then screw the qna so hopefully i can still get a gd ME.. hehe...

ppls! less than 2 more days left!!! woohoo!

forget it..

looking at photos juz sucked... really bad... I realise i'm nv gonna fit into their grp... oh well.. forget it... i guess it juz wasn't meant to be... it's ok...

a fren juz called.. someone who cares... i guess, i shld be juz be contented with who i have ard me now, and not force myself to fit into other grp of ppls that are juz way off my league... yup. i've made up my mind...

peace.

roddick, i love u!

my goodness, what a game... i din see the entire match... only started when the last set's score was like 5-4, ferrer leading.. whoa.. then it went on to 5-5, 6-6, then tiebreak..i was so nervous lah... that ferrer guy is good at his aces too... it was all so close.. i kept shrieking.. my dad was like me, not sure who's gonna win.. cos they keep ending up at a tie... then one of the last few, we tot roddick's ball was out, but it's actually in! [it was like a whack across the court that most likely is out], but then no one said anything.. anyway, i'm juz glad it's in... otherwise ferrer wld have won... and roddick won, with an ace as his match point.. woohoo! i love roddick! he got 17 aces, compared to the 12 aces that ferrer had... it was so close.. phew...

tinge of regret

i dunno how to say this...
i felt weird when i see the photos... i'm kinda jealous..well, not jealous jealous... but.. like regret jealous... (ok i dun make sense)... feel sad that i lost a bunch of frens juz liddat... i mean, i'm happy i still have my current groups of frens... but looking back... if i had been more... i dunno.. involved, i'd still be close to them... yes.. i miss them... not every single one.. but the other few... haiz.. not much i can really do now... hopefully i can meet up with them...
i'm juz really sad... 2 years of friendship... juz gone liddat... and it's all my fault...
i love u guys.. well, girls i mean...

update!

chi is over! yea! hope i get a B3 or better still, A. Went out with the a bunch of them... flowergirls, lj, angeline, hx, jo, cheryl & sw... was very happy... eating lamian... hey, it's cheaper when u share the food, u noe? haha... then we went orchard, in hope that the 'johnny' will be there... i was having such a headache on the bus... i think it's juz weird to have a bunch of girls juz gg there to see the guy.... haha.. fortunately, he wasn't there... phew!

mum hired a tutor for me... my cousin's bf.... heard he's smart... and doesn't make his tutees memorise stuff.... i hope it'll really help... gotta buck up this hols.... still got that stupid OP.... hiax... i also dunno how to practice.. juz noe that i have to be more confident...

this holiday is gonna be well-planned.... exercise. study. go out. haha... hope i won't waste my hols... next year is 'A's... so fast, huh? can't believe it... and i got promoted! haha... still feeling happy and shocked.. but i can't be complacent... next yr's goal is to do well, and have points good enuf for uni admission...

have fun ppls!

(sigh..) happy

haven't really been studying chi... more interested in watching tv... have been gg out... to orchard... buy this buy that... walk until my feet v pain.. but very HAPPY !!! went to buy the havainas... the guy is so cute!!! and v shuai! he's so polite too... greeting us when we went there... not like the other 'blur' guy that served us the previous time... this shuai-ge had a pimple.. but he looks so cute! esp when he smiled... showing his set of colgate white teeth! haha...

hiax... the slippers are nice... but not really worth so much leh... dun think i will buy.. but i will want to go that shop more often....

happy me!

huge sigh of RELIEVE

thank goodness!!!!!!!! i pass my promos... yes that = I AM PROMOTED TO J2...
if i didn't see wrongly...
my results will be something liddat:
Chem- 46 (E)
Math-46(E)
Bio -56(C)
GP- ard C5-B4
Chinese- B4

thank goodness... this is the overall marks.... i failed both chem and math papers... pretty badly... luckily for CA and CT... my marks are pulled up... so, moral of the story... study hard throughout your J1 year... u nv noe when u need the marks...

so, after this... my plan is to play hard and study even harder! i have a mission to be accomplished for next year: good grades and university admission...

faints

terrible... humiliating... disappointing...
today was maths paper... i fainted.
the wing was extremely strong... then my tummy started aching.
i went to the toilet.
then i walked back... feeling very sick.
when i saw the rest, i was ....
asked sy to walk me to the office which is like 7m away.
couldn't see where i was walking... juz kept walking....
suddenly. thud! i landed.. face flat... i think i saw deb, and i heard vic's voice. i realise, if my knee didn't hurt, i'd have laid down...
tried to get up... walk into the office... told the staff that i wasn't feeling well...
then image became blur.
DM and another staff held me as they walked me to the sick bay... i couldn't walk... well. hardly
i reached the bed. laid there...
a nice lady came to help me...
i was sick sick sick.
then after much dilemma, i decided to take the paper... at 10 plus
no surprise, i couldn't do it.. i tot 3 hrs was long... but it's not that long.. cos my brain was trying to function...
cried, cried, cried...

overall.. i did badly. the only paper i can confirm a pass is MT...
i'm so gonna get retained...
peace.
i'm feeling better now.

promos !

today is monday. tmr is tue which is bio spa. then wednesday. THEN THURSDAY !!! which is promos for chem and bio!!!! argh!!! and what am i doing online now.??? checking for protein synthesis animation... abit helpful.. as i've nv understood what it was toking about before...

stress....
can't wait for promos to be over.. so many things to do!!
can't wait to be promoted...
bless me.

peace

i took a 3hr nap today!!!!!! eeks! wasted so much time.. can't blame myself cos i slept at 1 plus 2, trying to complete tt stupid chi compo.

i seriously sux at math. can't do a simple que... much less difficult ques. how how how? few weeks left...

my dad brought alot of vcds and ps2 dvds today... can't wait to watch and play them...

i have this feeling i'm going to make it... but i'm still... like, not getting my facts in the head...
actually i think many of us will make it... oh gosh.. i'm so scared.. i'll be left out... i mean, i have got past so many major exams... doing badly, but nv failing.(except this CT's math).. haha.. can one, can one.. sure can one... jia you!

sept hols

phew... so fast.. another week of holiday has arrived... not sure whether to be happy or not... cos, it can be a week of relaxation, but also a week of mugging..... haha.. actually i think it's more relax than mugging... somehow i juz can't mug during the hols... this is evident from the past years of studying... hmm.. one week is really good... u see, i got CEO when i study the day before the ct.. so, if i study more than one week, i shld do really well rite, at least better than CEO... make sense doesn't it..?

hmm... many ppls dun really like pw... neither do i... but i seriously think it's a great way of connecting and getting to know others... of course, it would be better if we din have to chiong for all the stuff...

it's 10 plus now... still haven't started on the gp essay... (yawns)
i can't wait to get promoted... haha

historic moment in my life

finally!!!!!!!!!!!!! i pass my 2.4km test!!!! so happy.... it's like a stone removed from my heart... phew.... luckily got cheryl teo and shuwei run with me... thanks!

now.. muz still train for next year.... but i'm so glad it's all over....

sleepy...

feeling very sleepy nowadays... juz wanna sleep and not wake up... dun feel like doing anything...
oh, had ndp yesterday.. was pretty cool... we did the sign language.. i've to admit, none of mine were PERFECT... really... i hope we still break the record too... and i hope they dun say who was part of the record... cos i'll be upset to know that my name isn't there...
ps: i love the song reachout for the skies.... juz so lovely.. wish i could learn the whole dance.. instead of juz the chorus...
it's juz so tiring to be studying.. after psle, then o lvl, then alvl, then uni, then work... it's so... sian.

i juz realised my life is so empty... i feel really sad at times... very pathetic .... i'm so pissed... coming to jc is no better than going to poly....
completing o lvls was a miracle...
staying alive is a mistake
i'm so pathetic

mixed feelings

still feeling sick.. from sore throat & flu...

there was spot check this morning.. usually, i wldn't be anxious abt it.. cos my skirt is damn long.. BUT no! i'm in SA, my skirt is ultra short(thanks to my mum).. And YES, i got caught... i, chan yanying joyce, the most goody-two-shoes of all ppls! damn suay lah.... the first half of the girls got checked by dan ho.. then, afterwards, he decided to switch with this old woman cos he wanted to check the boys of e other class... so i got caught... for having one ear stut... (go figure!) each ear can only have one. i only wear one for one ear and none for the other... then she was like... [v. blurish lah]... dun even understand wat she wants me to do.... then she saw my skirt... said it's short.. esp at the back.. pulled up my shirt... HIAX.... so embarrassing... my name was taken down...haha but it's by ct, who is extremely nice... but i'll still try to alter my skirt.. which is already v short... or i'll exchange it with someone... kaoz.. this is a first for me...

run 4 rounds during pe.. didn't stop... but still a not-so-good timing... i hope i'll do better next time... i think i will...

had chem practical.. realised i'm kinda dumb... i.e i can't really apply wat i learn during lesson time to the prac questions... which has been like since forever, including bio...
dunno how to do math and chinese... feeling hopeless... as usual.... it's damn hard lah... esp, when the questions are so long... it juz pisses me off.

i was juz wondering... how did i get past the 7 months of jc life... so fast rite?!!! and it's gonna be promos soon!!!

on the positive side(finally...) national day is coming... excited abt going back to ntss... that is if we're going.... and i'm looking forward to the 'performance' on the actual day... woohoo!! hope i dun screw up...

3 weeks

today i was supposed to take the 2.4km test again.. i told mr ho that i didn't want to run... as much as he wants me to run.. i simply refused... i juz didn't have mental preparation that i was to run today... so.. ya, i kinda told the teacher 'i give up'... i noe, i noe... we shld always have the 'never give up' attitude... but for me... it's really useless lor... oh, then i suggested to mr ho, i'll run 4 rds every pe lesson... then.. he agreed lor... ya, that was before i played games with the class..
After the games, he suggested to me, that 3 weeks later, the second last week of august, i'll do a test again... everything, again... then i was like.. stunned.. but i agreed to it... he was like, 'u did very well in your 5 stations... it's such a pity to give up... '... then i was like' ya, but the 5 stations are not long dist running'....
but, that's the deal.... i'll still continue to run 4 rds every pe lesson until that day arrives...

i think mr ho. is a really nice teacher... i mean, compared to the others lah.. so it's kinda stressful too... i mean, i also wanna do well in running... and i dun wanna disappoint myself, and him too...
haix...

almost there...

failed my 2.4 test.... 18min 12 s... actually, come to think abt it.. i was quite happy with my results... i mean, my previous one was 20.48... so it's pretty much a great 'achievement'... haha... if only i had run harder, i could have got bronze... which, i wouldn't need to run again... well.. nvm.... i'll try harder again next time... but i think it's gonna be harder to keep up with the new timing...

i have to do it!

okay, i drank red bull as recommended by wenmin... wouldn't say it's very useful, as least not to me.. finished the 4 laps, overshot by 15 seconds... after that, i juz couldn't carry on... honestly, i believe there shld be some sort of moltivation to do everything... esp those really tough ones, like running 2.4... i can't think of any lah... i was running the third one, and i was thinking, 'i gotta go, i gotta continue running... because...?' i dunno! nothing moltivates me to finish the run...

i came back, with my whole body aching... mostly due to the five stations i completed on mon... i would really wanna pass this time's 2.4km... in the past years, the night before possible 2.4 runs, i would totally dread waking up, hoping it will rain, or that i will suffer from some sickness... but on last sun nite, i was like, 'okay, i can do it.' and i was like looking forward to do it...

if i'm not wrong, everyone did well for their 5 statns, on mon. so that means, if i dun pass my 2.4 this thur or mon, i will be the only one redoing the entire thing next week... that would really sux...

i wanna pass, really badly. i trained hard.. i think. at least, i've done my part...
it can be quite irritating to keep constantly thinking abt 2.4km... i wanna get it done and over with...

and i can't stand those who tell me ' fail then fail lor' and then they pass instead... go figure!

haix

Did terrible in my ct... suprisingly, my gp and chinese is better than my science... go figure...
have been trying to study hard lately... watching less tv and all.. doing mindmaps??? ya.. i'm trying my best... i do not wanna get retained. nobody does, but i'm gonna do my part in ensuring that doesn't happen...
i wish i didn't have to take math... econs would have been better.. at least the topics in econs make sense... unlike math... functions, trigo, bionomial...
the pt of me taking 3 sub is so that i can conc. on them and hopefully get to do s paper.. but now, i'll juz be glad if i dun get retained...

2.4 this coming mon... erm.. hope i can improve my timing. better still, keep up with the others... which reminds me of thur when i was running with them... i kept wanting to stop.. but i dunno why i didn't... it felt great to have been able to keep up with jan and sw..

i think there's ard 75 days left to promos.. yap.. jia you..

past few days

coop camp was okay only... very slack lah.. it's at a pace that is so comfortable.... unlike counsillors... so hiong... so smelly too... haha. i'm pissed at sy for not running with me on the last morning... it's so sian lah... she always does that.... so why issit she's always telling me that she walks with other people? nvm... she's been a close friend of mine for so long... i'm not gonna get mad at her for such a small thingy... i take it as a lesson learnt...
anyway... games were okay lah... overall, my grp got 2nd place... so not too bad.. my thighs hurt after the frisbee game... which explains why i couldn't keep up with the others on the last day of moring run...
i din run for the elections... i had no confidence in making the speech... besides.. they even asked questions there and then... so kinda freaky... also, the committe didn't really nominate me... so... kinda obvious lah...

legs still hurt... dunno how i'm going to go for my usual jogs.. sian.. muz retrain all over again.

still learning my sign language... very interesting... hope i get selected for the ndp...

moment of truth

yesterday went to play tennis... realise that i really sux at it... esp serving... worse thing is i dun even wanna try... actually it's not that i dun like yh to serve... it's juz that.. we dun have enuf practice... then...it can be quite a waste of time... then... it can be kinda unfair to the other party, me.... haiz... i'm not blaming her... i also wanna practice.. but no one's there to guide me...
then afterwards play badminton... haha... realisz that i'm really terrible at that sport... as least compared to yh and sm.... maybe becos i was playing tennis before that... but then... so was yh.... oh well... i guess i finally realise that i'm NOT a very SPORTY person.... that's kinda sad... cos i do enjoy playing sports... maybe i shld learn from yh.... "dun be afraid to learn... dun be afriad to make mistakes"

argh... i'm having leg and arm pain... eeks... abit of back pain.. cos yesterday was more of picking balls then hitting them...

been failing tests the past month... borderline fail mark for both chem and bio... kinda pissed... math, of course is fail terribly... even gp... i think i was the lowest... hiaz... i'm supposed to be hardworking.... i guess it's time to change my approach on how i shld study.... THINK NOT MEMORISE.... hiax....

well, at least i am pleased to have watch the tennis matches... i was glad i met them... but on the other hand... i'm glad i will probably not see them anytime soon... haha...

miserable life

life is really terrible for her.. she failed her 2.4km test... failed her math test again and failed by one mark for her chem test. she could have done alright for the chem test...but she got careless during some of the ques... well, guess wat? she's abt to fail her bio test too...

this 17 yr old girl is feeling kinda depressed.. she isn't really a big fan of her class... there's this invisible cliques formed.. quite obvious but only the class tries to hide it by being together... she misses her old friends... friends like kahyin and vanessa... the ppls she could be ard with and be comfortable with toking and laming ard....

as for the 2.4km run, she got a record breaking of longest time - 20.48min... but her teacher seems really nice.. cos he did say the word ' good' when she finally completed the six rounds... she's gonna strive harder... cos she noes that even her good pal can pass with 16+min... nothing shld be impossible.... she's juz gotta rmb: mind over body.... but wat to do? she's always tot herself as someone with no brains not brawns.... she is also gonna pray for her sit-ups and standing board jump.... hoping she will get the bare min.... if she can't get a silver for her 2.4, at least she wishes to do well for her 5 stations.... there won't look too bad afterall...

after failing a couple of tests, she is beginning to feel the pressure.... the stress.... she's afraid she won't be promoted.... but then, these tests all add up to 10% only... so no biggie, rite? but still, she has to improve in her studies, esp math... in sajc, the tests are totally different from the tutorials... argh... she grumbles in unfairness as she knows she wasn't born to be good in math...
she fears the tot of being retained... there's the new syllabus and the part abt not being with her friends... graduating one year later... terrible, man...

she initially tot she had a great PI idea... but she's totally screwed cos, it seemed like she needs alot of help... as appeared from wat the teacher said.... she noes what she's gotta do, but she juz doesn't have the idea...

well, for ppls who had been reading her od and now this blog, they should noe that she's kinda changed the contents... she dun complain abt the POINT of doing various things... she juz complain that she can't do them well.... cos she noes that it's no use complaining and saying ' wat's the pt of doing these?' the govt ain't gonna change anything.. even if they do, it won't be anytime soon... so quit it, juz do it.... try your best

she think some ppls in her class see her as an isolated case despite her presence ard another friend... wadeva... she think she need to buy some self-help books for herself to improve in her
interpersonal skills...

sick...

came back from yesterday... got sicked... but i still went for the supposed class gathering... well, i have to say my class is very smart... as in most of them.. who didn't turn up.... perhaps they predicted that no one's gonna turn up.. that's why they dun come... of course, there are the ppls who say they got something on... something that kinda piss me off is the fact that the few of them who said they can come didn't turn up... AND they didn't inform us... but i'm glad kelvin, xinyi, yongkai and sy turned up... well, there are 5 ppls, so it makes it a grp outing... i dunno whether the outing was considered successful... but we din really stone there... so it's good...
oh for dinner, jas came along... really appreciated that... thanks ppls...

well, i'm truly sick... at 8am, my body temp was 38 deg celcius... cool, huh? okay... no it's hot... i dun really feel sick despite the high temp, though... going to see doctor later...

happy birthday to me

today is my birthday.. seriously it's no big deal... i'm not the kind who needs company to go out and celebrate with me... so to yq: dun make me sound so pathetic... meanie... wl and sy delivered the present to me... it was very sweet of them... apparently the present was from quite a number of the bandmates... thanks alot!! the shirt was cute... but if i play tennis in it, i'll reveal my fats.. eeks!
i was quite disappointed at something.. i shan't mention... i noe what to do next time..

i'm quite worried bout the class gathering.. not sure that many of them will turn up... on one hand, look at the bright side.. if there's little people, they will tend to bond together more compared if the whole lot was there but still in their own cliques, true?

yesterday got soccer matches... ac won innova... sa won hc!!! hahahaha... anyway, i was at the caf and i started to look out for yk... so difficult... cos quite far.. anyway.. i spotted 39.. tot it looked abit like him... the way he ran.. and tried to use his head to get the ball.. haha.. so yk... then, had a discussion wif sy whether it was him.... and i was right! shows that my eyesight is still quite good...
anyway.. many saints brought the tables to the side of the field, blocking me and sy's view... but we soon made our way to the gallery, where we met up with yk... it was quite weird lah.. cos the cheers, rite.. were not what we learnt during the orientation..so what's the point of learning then? sian. oh.. my classmate was in the sa team.. and he got injured.. ouch.. i think he banged into this other guy... i could actually hear the impact... eeks.. hopes he gets well soon...

next mon wil be sa vs ac... hmm.. may the best team wins... (and may that be sa..) haha.. hope no one get injured though... oh, i heard sas won acs(i).. haha... may the trend continue... all the best, team sajc! oh.. i wish yk luck too.. only him,not his team... hehe.. .


oh.. there was also this talk bout the testimonials... ya.. so weird.. the principal was making fun of the others... actually, it's good to be simple wat... i mean, if there are leaders, there need to be followers too, rite? or else, how are the leaders ever gonna get their stuff done.. i was kinda worried too.. i think i'll be the quiet person... maybe, i can be more open in COOP.. haha... be in the ex-co or something.. wadeva lah.. see first... i juz think it was quite mean of her lor...

freaked out!!!

i have been running for the past few days ... at home..not on treadmill.. u noe, it's like, on the spot lor... quite lame ah... but i really ran lor.. or at least, i jogged... i got timed myself one... gradually increased from 3min to 18min... somehow, i ran 22min instead of 18 yesterday... my legs have been cramping... but it was a great feeling... cos i've ran... outdo what i tot i couldn't do... very satisfied
today, i've decided to go to the park at my place to run.. i wanted to run the distance... to see whether the past few days i've improved.. unfortunately no... i started running... then i realized it's all gone haywire... i ran 2 rounds... then i stopped liao... that equals to one round around the track... so lan rite??? my plan was to run 45 sec every 100m... but i overshot.. but i still managed to run under 3min for 400m... so that's good, rite?

i'm really pissed lor... i'd rather run on the spot than around the track... when, i'm running on the spot, i juz focus on the time, when it's around the park... i get confused... like... it's a slightly different feeling... i seriously need to go train... i hope i have determination to do it...

without struggle, there can be no progress

i muz keep that in mind... motivates me to do perservere... ya.. i actually forgot about it when i run today... that line kept me going when i was running the past few days...

right now, i juz pray the pe teacher we get tmr will juz do height and weight and not make us run... hmm...

anxious.. worried... going nuts!

hiaz... we'll probably get our time-table next week... which means... time to practice for 2.4km!!!! gosh... can u believe it, 4 years already, i've yet to pass 2.4km.... i've yet to get over my phobia... i've yet to improve my stamina despite my new year resolutions every year for the past 4 years.... no matter how i set myself a list of exercise to do, i juz can't follow it after at most 2weeks.... i'm so terrible.... i feel like i've wasted my life.... i mean, why make life so miserable over some stupid 2.4km.... why can't i juz get myself to do it.... lead a heathly life.... i've calculated... if 18 min is the passing time, i need to run 3min per round, 45sec per 100m.... if only i was forced to do it.... if only my dad had forced me to run with him... if only i've heed his advice.... if only......

alot of ppls are going for the ah leow tuition... most of them are those taking 4 sub.... can't believe it... i'm thinking of going too.. but my parents never liked the idea of sending us to tuition.. if we can do it, we can... according to them, they dun wanna push us too hard... besides, it does cost a sum of money... let's juz say, i'm doing AVERAGE only w/out tuition...
so ridiculous rite... i'm not studying now becos there's no test.... i mean, that's everyone's concept... only to study if there's a test/exam coming up.... nobody bothers to study... i'm not going to complain bout why i'm forced to take up math for the time being... wo(3) ren(4) ming(4) le....

cca is bullshit.. so is cip... the most impt thing now is to get a good testimonial, and what better way to do it than by doing tons of cip? forcing ourselves to appear to be some passionate bout cip when all we want is juz to get a good testimonial from our teachers... to the govt, this is not working out.... gd eg is me and my dear friend... thinking of ways to DO something, when all we have in mind, is actually to impress our cts... we're such laughingstocks... hey, if U are reading... i'm not exactly refering to u only okay... everyone's doing it... i'm juz pissed that we stooping so low... well, not exactly stooping so low... it's juz that our mindset are not right.... testimonial... it shld be confidential... it shld not be let known to students that a testimonial is impt... it juz brings out the pretentiousness in people.... people like me...

hey, but on the other hand... i really wanna donate blood.... i dunno... i'm not thinking in a way to help others... i juz think it's cool... so lame rite... at least i'm not donating to get credits... i'm donating cos i think it's cool... the latter sounds better, rite...

crybaby

i'm so pissed with myself... well, not really.. juz shocked, embarrassed and diao?! anyway, we had the presentation thingy today... i tot it was to tok about myself... but then the first few speakers were toking bout their own personal experiences... so my preparation went down in the drain... and i juz crapped bout band...

i was saying how i joined band.. blah blah blah... then i reached the part where i was saying bout how we took the unanimous first breathe during the leonardus rex... I DUNNO WHY.. but i juz started tearing.. well, not really lah, my eyes were slightly wet... i was shaking... then i hurry up finish up and went back to seat... i guess most of the ppls could tell that i was about to break down? i dunno.. i tot i was quite obvious when i started taking tissue out to wipe dry my tears... the instructor was saying something like i have to control myself when i toking bout certain emotional issues

BUT IT"S NOT... i swear... i was juz very nervous... i mean, i din even cry when we got silver lor... why would i cry while telling the experience... band life to me, happens to be the worst time in my life... (also the best lah...) ya.. anyway... i was extremely embarrassed.... i shocked myself... maybe even the rest of the class... eeks!! what a terrible bad first impression...

please pardon me... i juz realized i have very active glands.. the one that produces tears..shucks ...

oh strange thing is... the topics that everyone choose were at least 3 min.. the instructor was out of tape lor... haha... i can't believe it... so weird rite?

formalities

okay..i was really pissed when i found out they were late... i mean, come on, if u dun wanna come, then tell me... and worse still, if u had already wanted to come, can't u have some decency enuf to wake up early.... i'm telling myself, i'm never asking them out for gym.. ever. okay, so i simmered down when they FINALLY arrived... i was thinking, we've been friends, i should have expected this from them... but someone forgot her manners!!! she din apologize.... and that made me pissed for a few seconds cos the other one had already done so... did she think it was alright? oh gosh...
i think it's juz me... but i feel that manners are really impt, even among friends... i feel like demanding an apology from her right now... but i noe, she'll probably not mean it... but i'm not gonna rmb that she forgot to say sorry... i'll juz keep in mind to forget to apologize to her some other time later... BUT becos it's ME aka miss-very-polite-to-all-my-friends i'm toking about, i'll probably not be so mean... maybe, i should learn to be more forgiving... rite, that'll be one of my resolutions this year... forgiving someone for the things she've done and for the apology that she doesn't say .. rite.

05S55

erm.. today din go sch AGAIN... but i got reason one.. stomachache.. but i'm fine now... fee kinda bad.. to leave sy alone... but then again, i din want to create a scene for myself... also abit disappointed that i won't be 'interacting with my cg mates'
yesterday when i had lunch with them, i kinda felt that they are really a great bunch a ppls... very friendly and nice... but most of them already knew each other... oh, and it happens to be xinyi and wanting's ex class... as usual i was really quiet... i did attempt to start a conversation with some of them.. but none of them lasted long... oh gosh... well.. on the brighter side, even if i go back to s6 combi, i wouldn't really know any of my classmates cos most of my previous cg mates are in better classes now... i hope things will get better... soon. cos somehoe, i kept going back to the new town gang.... u noe.. it's so natural... but then again, it's becos it's during orientation... when classes start officially... i'll be on my own... or hopefully, with some of my newly-made friends...

confession:
i'm feeling very insecure right now.

i wish there could be a new town junior college... haha.. then those in ntss wil go ntjc.. ya.. and ceteris paribus(all else remains the same)...

what am i studying for???

i rmb..back in sec 3/4, i was complaning about studying amaths.. and physics.. cos i suxed in both subjects and i was also telling myself that i don't wanna have anything to do with physics or math in the future.. at least cheam math lah...
now i'm in such a dilemma.. well not exactly dilemma cos i'm not forced to make one out of 2 choices.. i feel frustrated... i went to the ntu, smu and nus webbies to see what i can take or what i shld take and/or so that i can make a decision for the option form thingy... i'm thinking of bio, chem and math... yes, i'm dropping econs... cos i totally sux at math and i feel that i need to concentrate more on that very impt subject.... then i was thinking, wat to take in nus? dentistry, pharmacy???? it's so diao lor, now that i think about it... study that to make money? study that to please my folks? i noe this is reality... but i juz refuse to face it... i'm thinking of poly... but i dun think i like the kinda life there... well, the courses that may interest me in poly is tourism and design & environment.. but wat shit is that? i juz feel so sick! i wanna cry.. really suddenly, i wish my main aim in life is juz to get into sajc... then, forever i will be stucked with 8 subjects and not think about anything else.... siao rite?

i went to this other website... universities in australia that offers marine biology courses.... i seriously think that is very interesting and i will definitely work hard for it.. but how can? in australia leh? i dun even have the means to go there.. much less to study there... if only i'm rich... i'm so vexed rite now... i dun even noe why i'm studying.... i'd so rather work with the animals then do any of this... even if i do well in my chem and bio, chances are i won't get into the universities in aussie either.. it's so slim... what to do???? i'm envious of those who noe what they want in life... that's their purpose of living... i dunno my purpose of living in this world.... so jia lat.. what am i going to do??? it sux... it really does... i desparately need some expert's advice on wat to do... go thru a lvls(chem and bio) and migrate to aussie? (siao, i dun dare, neither do my folks).. a scholarship will be sweet.. but who's gonna offer it???

shld i juz concentrate on these few subjects, get the s papers, then find a way to aussie?? maybe i'll be the illegal immigrant.. so lame... but i guess, that's what i'm gonna do now for the time being... a step at a time... maybe my long-term goal is to study marine biology... for now.. make sure i study hard... that sound rite? i think so...

phew, i feel much better now that i have sort out my thoughts.. dun think so much first, juz do my best in wateva i feel is rite for me... i'm living for myself... sounds good, huh? i tot so... hehe

YAY!!!

yes! i made it into SAJC! woohoo!!!! i'm so really happy... i mean, i can't wait to buy the uniform... i'm so overjoyed!!! i logged on at ard 7am... and... i wasn't surprised, i could already find the posting... so.. ya, very glad... i even copied and pasted the posting on microsoft so that i noe i din see the wrong thingy.... hehe.... that's me... well... can't wait to be in sch...
but i think, the really good thing.. is that i need not go jjc... i mean, it would have been terrible if i went there.. cos i'd need to prepare a whole lot of new things.. like catching up and stuff... so yap... guess, i shld be revising for my subjects soon... YAY!

materialism...

my friend got a new phone juz a mth ago... upon seeing it.. i juz feel the urge to get a new one too... i'm using the 8250 on now... and honestly, i haven't had my own personal phone before... most of the phones were past down by either my mum and my bro... i want to sign up for a new line.. but my mum said i'm still too young to be a consumer...
actually, based on my allowance, i can actually go sign up for the new phone and pay the monthly bills on my own...

but... i feel that what i'm doing will be a sign of.. following wat others do... u noe, cos they have a camera phone, therefore i shld have one too.. Of course, that's what everyone is doing.. keeping up with the trend.. but... to me, i find it unnecessary.. the phone i mean... i dun msg that much... i'm not really the camera person..(although i really like that cyber shot camera with a big screen and is really flat... )

besides... i'm more into watches... so, i shld probably use the money for watches instead... rite....

results out on tuesday, 8am... i'm so gonna wake up early... i dun see why i shldn't get into sajc.. cos i get 9 pts... okay... good.. i really hope so...

praying hard....

holiday was okay so far... really... played the sims... very glad that i dl some of the superstars.. cos their clothes are really nice!!! so cool, man.. i wish i could wear them.. hehe...
anyway, next week is the posting results... i'm kinda scared.. but at some pt of time, i'm thinking that i do have a chance of staying in sa... it's like, 13-4=9... so why not? but then... i do kind feel scared that i will end up in jjc... it's like.. i really wanna wear the sa uniform.. i wanna be known as a saint... i'm proud of it... haiz...

wishlists
mcfly cd
kelly clarkson cd
nike shirt.. (the one with the routes on it..)
nike watch
jacket/windbreaker

economics... or not

hiax... i juz realized that next week is not the march holidays.. so that means, on more week of lecctures, tutorials.. and pe... sian... wanted to go running... but.. u noe.. failed to do so.. cos, when i woke up, breakfast was there.. and i juz din feel like jogging alone in some strange places... i'm so dead next week... esp during pe... can't run... Argh!
played tennis yesterday.. quite a good session.. more comfortable with my strokes now... juz still not good... i realized my serve really sux... i mean, i can, at times, get the ball to go into the box.. but there's no POWER. when yh and kenneth served.. even if it's out.. there's the sound.. u noe.. like they really hit it hard.. but somehow i couldn't do that.. the strength that i used to hit the strokes is juz not present when i try to serve it... yah.. and somehow that's the opposite of yh... haix..then went to eat pizza hut... seriously.. i think i'm not determined enuf... i have to start controlling wat i eat.. i ate 3 time-out juz now!!!! gosh... i'm supposed to eat proper meals only... but now... i muz do lots of exercise liao... yucks... i suxed

oh then.. i was thinking.. i would like to drop economics... u noe.. cos it's not a prerequisite to any of the uni courses... and i dun wanna go home late juz cos i take an extra subject... it's like, i'd like to have more time for the rest of the 3 subjects.... but u noe.. chances are higher in getting a scholarship if i take 4 subjects... hmm... but.. i dunno...
i'm kinda worrited bout the next orientation... will i stay? i hope so.. that's the reason why i shldn't pon any lessons now.. or else i'll be in trouble... i would definitely prefer to stay in the S6 series.. u noe... i've got feelings already... besides my friends all there... but then.. i wouldn't say i'm staying juz becos of my friends... aiyah... i dunno... it;s like if i go there..the chem and bio class only.. then... well.. chances are, i'll probably abit outcasted cos... i dunno.. chances are they wil noe each other more... i noe.. there will definitely be ppls previously not from sa...
i seriously dunno what i'm writing... hiax...

13

i received my results already... as u see, it's 13...
english-b4
com. hum-a1
emath-a2
amath-b3
physics-b3
chem-a2
bio-b3
chinese-a1
well... i was feeling neutral... not excited, neither scared... then they relieased the results... yh and wl both got 6 As... and well, was 'featured' on the transparency... so was yeqin, who got 8 distinctions... i'd say she's a hardworking girl... she deserves it... and well, even sy got 10 pts, much better than me, her english got b3, also better than me...
well, on one hand, i'm happy for my good friends... they worked hard... esp sy... though she always appear to be humble... i suppose.. i shld be too...
but on the other hand, i can't help feelind jealous of their results... wl wants to go poly, that's fine... it won't bother me much... as for yh... i dunno... i give her my congrats.. but still... you see. it's not easy seeing a good friend getting much better grades than u.... it's like... i juz dun get it... i also studied hard... but i have to say, they are smart... maybe it's the way i've been studying.. i'm gonna change... i will... for the better... for now.. i dunno how i'm gonna face them.. i do hope sy will get into sa, but it's unlikely will get into the same course, much less same class..i think i may have some difficulty FACING them... maybe it wil go away some time later... forgive me pals... u guys muz understand that i'm this kinda person...
i really wanna change.. but it's hard...
after i got my results.. i went out... then that nite, i tried to sleep.. abit difficult... cos i kept thinking bout how well my friends did compared to me... i tried to cry.. i couldn't... tried to be happy... very fake... i was basically stoning...
it's so painful.. to be in the middle of happiness and disappointment and yet still unable to feel either of them... get wat i mean?

slacking

read a few od entries.. really missed tennis lessons... and the days where i dun have to worry bout tests and hw... i juz feel weird about so many things... like, i want to start everything fresh again.. can i ? no. today is sunday, which means i'm not really supposed to be doing any hw... cos i dun have the mood to do so... want to watch tv.. but nothing catches my attention...except 7th heaven... need to study for chem and math.. i dun really noe how to... i'm juz lazy... rite now, i'm writing this cos i dunno what else to do.. it's juz so miserable... missed the nt days.. can juz tok to anybody... now, it's like, i only have a few friends.. and the others.. well, i dun even noe how to start up conversation wif them... all ky wants is to play bball... no offense.. playing it every available break u have is kinda 'too much', dun ya think so.. okay.. maybe i shld come to terms with myself that i am not such an enthu person... (but i do still look forward to those adventurous activities such as bungee jump, sky div, rock climbing... i hope to climb mt fuji... )

wat to do??? i feel lost again.. friendless again... miserable...

campus rumpus

today is the day!!! campus rumpus with the saints... reached there pretty early, when there's actually no need to.. mainly sat around and stone... walked ard the whole track to see the various activites... i tried the BIG slide, the haunted house.. it was really scary lor!! i couldn't hear the story.. and i was wondering how the tour guide kinda looked invisible... i think it was not bad lor... i knew someone was touching my shoulder... i was like.. 'stop touching my shoulder...', screamed alittle... luckily, it was in grps of five... so not bad... well done! i din really played much of the games as i had planned to do so... i had alot of tickets... i spent $60 on tee shirts... then.. some drinks and food... our stall- cocobowl was not bad lah... many guys were like.. interested.. until they rolled their first coconut.. it was either too hard or wrong side... they were like stunned! yah.. hehe.... they tot wrongly... it actually required some sort of skill... not the kind of bowling skill though... yah.. my record was 9 pins down... and yes, there were stikes... so, nothing is impossible...

i was actually quite erm.. *diao*.. cos.. i wasw helping the 'cool' clique during their shifts... 2 of them were in the tents, doing the tougher job of getting hit by the coconut.. i was like holding the tins and colecting the money... yes, under the hot sun... then, they had like no appreciation of me helping them.... it's like when i told V i was going and passed her the tin, she din even say thanks for helping or bye.. they were like slacking lor... okay lah, maybe i was mean too.. like, when weijing was helping out during our shifts.. i din really thanked her... but i said bye! ya.. wadeva, i'm the lame one... oh, weijing was helping cos she had to leave early, and couldn't do her shift... ya...

oh, next thing.. it's either i'm really paranoid, or i seriously think that kaiqi doesn't like me... really... it's like, when i told her about the change of shift, she kinda ignored me... maybe the music was loud and she couldn't hear me.. but i could sense it... and i dunno why!!! everytime, she kinda walks towards our grp, she will be calling vanessa, or kah yin... NOT ME... i dunno.. i juz feel like she doesn't pay attention to wat i say... like, she's not interested in wadeva i tell her... one incident was at the canteen, when i told her bout the stc girl... and i pointed to her some of the ppls that i was referring to, and she was like, 'oh, i dun care'... i was like.. okay... u could have said 'oh' instead... okay, maybe i'm real paranoid... i mean, I SERIOUSLY, issit something i did??? was i like too boring??? argh.. i seriously dun wanna be the next 'deenise'.... gosh... i went to jjc wif limin and yuzheng... limin was commenting that i was kinda quiet.. okay... i dunno...i dunno wat to say... like, i can't really start up a conversation... i can elaborate on wat to say though... ya... well... i 'm juz bothered... by the fact that i may have left a less-than-neutral kinda impression on the others... *prays hard*

i'm really rather red today... not dark, like lobster kinda red, ard my neck area and arm...... and i had some abrasions... hiax...

meanie mean

yesterday had pe... was not bad.. no need to run at all.. played tennis.. i still sucked... most of the others din really noe how to play tennis... no offence.. but i'd rather play with yh.. cos she's more... on par with me... then... though, most of the time was spent by picking up balls.. i was quite exhausted... so much that i felt queasy after buying my food.. i ate very slowly.. which was like so not me lah... i din finish it... too oily... oh, and looks like kq and lm also not very happy with that d girl... MUAHAHAHAHAHA... oh ya! vanessa told me, when kq asked dee why she came to join their grp, her reason was that ' all we (me, vanessa, ky) talk about, is food... WHAT THE ^%$^%&*^%$ so utterly ridculous lor.. excuse me! we were the ones was pursposely ignored u and left u out lor, u were 'smart' enuf to get our hint, that's why u join the other grp... i mean, look at us, do we look like lydia sum(no offence to lydia sum...)??? u are the one 'bigger' than us(i dun give a damn how U feel).. and it's not like we talk alot about food lor.. it's juz that we dun talk to u much.. so whateva non-food topics, we'll be chatting amongst ourselves... boo u !well, guess what? they dun like u either... hahaha!!!!
i noe.. i'm pretty mean.. i seem to be unhappy with a particular person at every stage of a time... oh! juz realised it's the same first letter... gosh... what a coincidence...

oh, another meanie mean.. i went for sports club .. was at labrodor park.. then supposed to run 2 rds.. i tied my shoelace then, i started lagging behind.. then there was this 'green' senior who accompanied me to run.. she can tell i have trouble running... then she asked what cca i was in sec school.. i said, band, military band... THEN, she said, our sch band is quite good, u dun have to have any backgrd to join... it took me a while b4 figuring wat her messege was... to quit sports club and join band... since i can't run that well... i was like.. quite upset... she's really mean... instead of encouraging me and giving me advice... she tells me to join band... at least, that's wat i interpreted from wat she told me... i'm crushed... but who gives a damn.. i'm not leaving sports club... i will train... will... when i'm free.... ya.. see first lah... wadeva..

today was preparation for tmr's funfair... my ct was wearing this ultratight shirt and jeans.. then he had the front part of his shirt tucked in while the rest of it was left out... so outdated lor.. that's so primary sch... then, he changed into shorts!! shorts!!! omg!!! he's shorts is not like the pe teachers' shorts that are knee- length.. it's those really short ones, like those girls' FBT shorts.. worse still, it's not the airy kind, it's the 'cannot-breathe-through' kinda shorts... like.. erm... bermudas that kinda material... it's beige in colour... totally gross... and.. worse part, his zip was undone... it's not zip lah, but valcro... ( sorry, i nt sure bout the spelling... pronounce the word urself...)... thankfully, wayne told him, and i did not see it at all!!! phew...

our cg is supposed to use coconut to bowl..know as cocobowl.. nice rite.. so... i din really do much... except to pluck out the leafs... it was quite restless... cos very hot... but, i'm looking forward to tmr... can go and try all the games... esp, haunted house.... and the food... haha... sa's food is really good.. if u're big in size, it doesn't matter how much u dun eat, u're juz fat(last sentence is to a specific person... wif reference to first paragraph)

rephrase what u say

yesterday went to eat vegetarian dinner with my family and my aunt's family... i was quite delighted to see my cousin's 2 babies, especially jone(gao jun)... he's juz so adorable!!! i like his eyes... the way he speaks, and the way he juz wants to eat everything, including vegetables!!!.... and his lil sis, gao en, also very cute... got dimples... she has this little tummy... so cute...!!!

today, went to play tennis at yh's place.. it was a good session.. although i still sucked at serving, i was quite pleased at some of my strokes.. there were some slightly longer rallies.. which was really quite fun... ya, although the strokes that we use were not-so-correct, it was juz nice to see the ball flying ard.. hehe..
then, we were toking bout jc... i think, personally, sajc is not such a terrible school, as according to some other ppls... i mean, all jcs are like this, lectures + tutorials.. so, i think, 'they' shld juz keep their comments to themselves... it's like, poly will be the same lor.. worse, cos muz wear own clothes, even worse if dun have the 'figure' to wear the 'poly' clothes.. okay, i'm being mean here.. but it's true... jc students won't have to worry bout being judged on wat they wear.. get what i mean?...
SO, if u dun like jc life, then drop out.. dun spread rumours bout sajc not being a good sch... those who already decides that poly is that path shld nv have come to jc.. they juz deprive others the chances to go into jc for that particular first 3 mths... and, jc life is juz bout the same as poly - in terms of lectures.. so, u can't say that u dun like lecture, therefore sajc sucks.. cos, lectures will be the same in all other institutions.. u not liking jc life DOES NOT mean that sajc sucks.. it juz means that whicheva jc u go, u will not like the jc... so please! next time, say that u dun like jc life and not,u dun like sajc!
unless, unless... u have went some other jcs.. and u compare it with sa, u prefer the other jcs, then, i think it's okay that u say sajc sucks.. but other than that... u are juz plain mean!

so what?!

okay, i dun really like chinese new year... really.. besides the hongbao collection, i seriously dread cny.. i dun like visiting my relatives... i dun like wearing a skirt that's so uncomfortable that i have to adjust it every now and then... i dun like having to sit on the same place of the sofa from the time i arrive until the time i leave... i dun like having to face mean uncle who says i'm anti-social and asks whether i have any friends in school... GET A LIFE! i'm juz not a very sociable person...i dun like to gamble, i dun like to see ppls gamble and i definitely dun like to lose money in some stupid and lame games, muzh less to play with children of the mean uncle... loser.

anyway, i think hongbao collection has shrunk this year... cos i none of my mum's friends are here... ya... anyway, i won't spend any of the money...
btw, i saw a guess watch... looks quite nice... i was actually deciding on a nike watch... then i saw the guess watch.. and it sorta made me... erm.. fickle-minded again... so i not sure leh... cos i can't seem to find any of the nice guess watches on the net... maybe, i'll stick to the nike watch...
amazing race was USUAL.. like, kinda boring... yet exciting.. i'm really sad.. like disappointed. i was actually rooting for chris and jon... they are such a great couple, i dun rmb seeing them yell and get pissed off by each other... i think they're probably the best pair out of the entire amazing race seasons... Oh, and i'm sorta looking forward to the next amazing race.. i dunno.. btw, wat are the two sickening Survivors doing on the amazing race??? amber and rob... it's like, i tot she won some money already? so why did the producers let them in ??? eeks! so unfair, i hope they dun win.... i dun think i spotted any cute guys in this season... Oh, it's really sad, that heyden gave up in the road block.. it's difficult, but easy ! key and lock... i juz can't stand the way she treats aaron.. and what was aaron thinking?!! proposing to heyden? i tot he was having doubts about their relationship???? sickening...

the mean uncle and his family are here.. my lil bro is actually gambling with his 2 kids.. i'm grossed out.. my bro resembles some sort of 'lan du guai' (gambler...)

sick

i din feel like going to sch on thursday. first becos i din like the tot that i have to look for my cg teacher to get the green slip.. actually, it's more like i din want to see his face.. yucks! 2nd is becos i din wanna do pe.. well, actually it's juz the part bout running under timing.. but thank god, i really had a mild tummyache.. so, i kinda pretended to lie on the bed and 'show' it to my mum... ya, rest is history.. hehe..
woke up at 10am, realised that my period is finally here... so is my tummyache... i din feel like eating cos my tummy was really aching... but haven't reach climax yet lah...

so i went for my dental appointment.. the orthodontist stuck 2 white things onto the back of my teeth... the thing is very hard.. so i can't bite, neither can i even 'close' my teeth... so on the way back, i was feeling very uncomfortable, dun to my tummy ache and the fact that i can't close my teeth.. i couldn't take it.. i alighted a few stops earlier, puked alittle and took a cab home... i rushed back, shitted and there, the climax...

fortunately my mum was home to do the motherly thing she would, wipe my forehead, which was filled with cold sweat... get me a warm cup of water, medicine, and chided my for not eating lunch... well, at that pt of time, i kept changing positions.. i sat on the toilet bowl, then i changed to put my face above the toilet bowl, and then i went to lie on my mum's bed, and then i lie on the floor.. ya, i did these repeatedly... i was in great pain... i so wanted to get a jab to ease off the pain...
strangely, at that time, i was thinking of giving birth... i rmbed watching a show that said that labour pain is 10 times menstual pain... so, i was thinking.. my gosh, do i really wanna give birth to so many children? it's the pain part.... eeks!
anyway, i went to see the doctor.. he was quite naggy... oh, and there isn't jab to ease off menstrual pain, cos it hasn't been discovered... ya...
somehow, after visiting a doctor, i'd have felt better.. my mum made me a cup of hot milo and i ate bread with it.. true enough, i couldn't bit the bread... i had to make it soggy with the milo before i could use my tongue and my opper teeth to tear it off.. yes, i couldn't chew either...

well, i felt better after that.. i din study for bio.. cos i had mc for 2 days... ya...

so pissed

today was supposed to be a good day.. although i was quite nervous to run ard the track... but surprisingly, i ran.. 5 rounds... non-stop.. almost lah... first i stopped to tie shoe lace when i realise that i still got another round to go, then i stopped when i heard a whistle blown, which i tot was for me... ya.. but i nv walked.. so it's a huge achievement for me!! *applause.... hehe... pls, whoeva is reading.. dun be sacarstic and say ' chei, i run 2.4 also nv stop...' excuse me.. u're reading the blog that belongs to joyce.. the girl who will complete 6 rounds, out of which, 3 will be done by walking... SO, once again.. please * applause...hehe
but then, my day was destroyed when someone told me that me and my friends have been labelled as the 'reject clique'... this was by the so-called self-labelled ' cool clique' who are in my class.. i so cannot believe it.. by my very own cg... i mean... ain't we all in jc now? so why are there still such immature ppls who label others? grow up...
* thanks juncheng for buying the $5 ticket from me...
this was heard by a friend's(my cg) friend(not my cg..). the friend was sitting near the 'cool clique' and she overheard one of them saying that something like - there are alot of clique in our cg.. then we are the cool clique and (dunno wat... ) .then afterwards, one of them pointed to my frien(my cg) and said 'there, the reject clique'...
so..i'm not sure whether i'm also part of the reject clique.. but somehow.. what my friend said.. is that, the 2 of my friend plus me are also part of the reject clique... gosh.. i feel like kicking thier ass..
okay, but i'm not sure.. cos i think only one of them said it... so.. i think it's that extra girl...
i juz dun understand how they can actually say that lor... it's so childish... and exactly why are they cool??? cos their short? they can run faster than me? they are outspoken? they like to attract attention?? okay.. i'm being mean here cos i still dun have the facts yet.. as in who said it... so i dun really wanna say bad things about other ppls who are not as childish as the person, even though they are part of the cool clique... i really hope not everyone is like the person who bullshited.. it hurts.. it really does.. back in nt, nothing like that took place.. everyone had their clique and everyone minded their own business... so why issit happening in a jc??? and the person who said it, is from a girls school... gosh. what a bitch

sian

lectures are really BORING!!!! it's not the part where the teacher goes blah blah blah... it's the part where i can't sit at a comfortable position.. okay wrong word,it's not that i find it boring although it is.. but i juz can't stand, i mean, sit, in the audi... and the lecture theater... the tables are so small... i think i'd prefer tutorials... it's juz so hard to concentrate... esp, when the teacher is also figuring out how to use the stupid Windows Journal... quite cool lah.. but abit slow lor... and it felt really terrible to sit in the front... aiyah.. it juz feels uncomfortable to even sit at those chairs... it's like, i sit so extremely straight, i think everyone ard me is like, ' why is she sitting so upright..." i mean, back in normal class.. no one would have observed that.. but in the audi and lt..it's juz so @#$&%*^!!! whateva...

sports club

juz now went to west coast park... it's organised by the first batch of SA sports club.. ya, there's only 5 seniors... erm..we were first separated into diff grps of colours.. dunno why arh, red seems to be my colour since the yr started.. first it was Alesia(red), then it was gomes(red), then today, i got into the red team again.. hehe.. no wonder last time when i checked my horoscope, they say something bout my lucky colour being red...
anyway, we played ultimate frisbee and touch rugby.. for the frisbee rite, i agree wif simin that it was like repeating our sec 2 post-exams pe... the actual game itself wasn't very fun either.. i mean, the sport is fun lah.. but got so many ppls and with limited boundary... can be quite sian lor... then we also learned to play touch rugby... same thoughts as that of frsibee... little land, so many ppls...
but overall, it felt okay lah.. the warm-up, which involved a little bit of jogging was alrite... cos very slow, i can keep up... and the route was very short... (hmm.. maybe i shld go there often to run instead of going gym... cos there quite ulu...
anyway, out leader(senior/overall incharge), eugene was not bad lah.. then there was zihao... no offense lah, but he reminds me of the way claire speaks... very cute yet funny... ya, initially at the bus, when baohui was asking me whether i was to stay at the sports club, i realise he juz walked past.. then i know wat, so i din like, want to say in front of him.. but then he realized i pause, so he was like.. 'answer leh, why dun want to answer?'... ya that sorta thing...
at the end of the day, the evaluation thing.. eugene was saying that joining sports club requires certain level of fitness... so that part i quite worried lah... cos i dunno whether i up to standard anot... aiyah, somemore.. tennis ppls haven't call yet.. so.. i dun think i got chance there... definitelly no band for me.. cos their hours are so late and more imptly, i dun really appreciate that sorta music... ya so... haix...

cca open house

it's not fair leh... they never say got trials... gosh i screw up lor... then for recreational, they only select 20 odd ppls... i'm so upset... esp cos i did learn tennis... ya lar, i learn only for 8 lessons.. and i hardly practise it ever since sch started... but many of the girls also nv learn tennis b4... the worse thing is not that i bought the racket and nv got into the recreational team. it is the fact that others who din even had a single experience can actually go in... IT SUX!!! okay.. the fact that i juz mentioned has not been confirmed, that is juz wat i'm afraid of... But i still feel like i totally wasted money on learning the tennis course and buying such a good racket..EEKS!!! okay let's recall:
one of the balls thrown was way too fast, but i managed to hit it, ya, and it went to the other court... then, there was another one where i hit,not bad, but went out of court juz by a couple of inches... then, the worst, i hit a ball out of the court.. is that good or wat??? i mean, u see, it could mean that i have the strenght to hit it that high and up or it could mean that i'm really a horribly terrible player... anyway, we juz hit a few balls and were told to stop.. the person was like, which one's ur name? then she put a tick there... SO, is that good or wat? cos the 2 players infront of us, ( their names were there too according to my partner), but i din see any other ticks... SO, it could mean that we are good or simply, not cut out for tennis... ARGH!!! so wasted.. but then u think lah, if it's a tick, most likely, she call rite? Ya, she did say she'll contact us... ( i think is regardless of whether we're in or not..) sickening...
then, after that went to audi to watch the performance by band... i was definitely not very impressed by them.. not that i'm better lah, but i juz feel that many other secondary schs are juz as good (except ntss lah)... so, the student conductor was toking... quite lame lah.. then he did mention the word COMMITMENT... i dun think i can do it lor... commit to band that much...
anyway, there's this sports club that i signed up too.. they do various activites... something like odac lah, but not really... so.. if i dun can into tennis, i guess that's my only option...
OH PLEASE!!! let me at least get into the recreational team...

sajc orientation

day2
okay i'll juz summarise everything... i accidentally became the og rep on day 2 cos i was sitting at the 13th position... so, that day we hard our kingdom time - learn cheers... thenwe learn to dance lindy hop... partner with wl... quite hard to dance actually... the main game of the day was The Dark Secret.. we were supposed to find out which counsillor leaked out the secret to Black Knight on how to break the halo... then, there was the arts enrichment, where 2 guys form lee wei song sch came and did some intro and performance.. the so called JJ, sang REALLY WELL... he was also quite gd looking(reminds me of garethgates w/out the gap in the teeth..) he was really impressive esp in music of the night, although there were some pitch probs at the end of the song...
day3
saw the dance by the student council.. not bad.. then, mass dance again... but they taught us a new one.. some indian song... very funny...had mass games... quite lame lah, the chain thingy... but not bad.. then there was the conquest... actually quite depressing... cos our og seem to lost out at every game... it's as though we have too many ppls... but then we had fun, esp to cheering part... the station leaders were like shock when we ask them which cheer they want us to do... quite lame lah, like we have cheer 101, movement 2, book 2... very funny.... oh, i saw caleb too... didn't noe he was from sa, also a sc... the games were mostly water and mud and soap... and flour... okay lah... i din really dirty myself much... at the end, some of us stayed back to do the mascot(red indian) and dance thingy... then went dinner with some of them...i was really glad i went to dinner with a bunch of strangers.. okay not exactly strangers lah... but we tok,joke and juz lame ard... made a few more friends... nice...
day 4
very tiring... had only 6 hrs of sleep the day b4... oh, we learn the college song.. very nice... UP SAINTS... then there was the B.K.T.C, (bernice and kenneth tok cock..).. it's really tok cock lor, their jokes were totally lame.... so lame... but funnily lame... then got mass games and dance again.. i seriously dun think the chain game is nice to play... cos got alot of ppls and the hall very small... but the dance part was quite nice.. cos some of us, yh, sm, ap and wl gathered ard and we dance with each other... (i'm still more comfortable abt making a fool infront of my old friends...) okay.. then preparation for the finale... jasmine from oug og was teaching us how to dance.. the steps were easy except, there was no music... so when our og finally heard the music and were informed that we had to dance at a much faster pace.. we knew something was bound to take place... btw, othe ogs in alesia hasn't heard the music yet... after that, we wore our identity stuff, there was the painting on the face, red cloth on the head and feather behind.. quite nicely done and very nice cos red is a very bright colour... finally, the performance began... alesia was third in line... as expected, we screwed up... quite funny lah.. we were supposed to do 4 times of what we've learn, in the end we din only twice... and in wasn't very organised... so when we kinda got lost, we juz jumped ard the mascot and sang the red indian song... it was really embarrassing... However we weren't the only kingdom to screw up, the other one N... also quite jialat...
BUT, ALESIA IS THE BEST KINGDOM!!!!! yea, so happy... on annoucing the 4th award - best identity, it was N who won, then dunno why, our ogls started jumping ard... then we realized the last award of best kingdom belonged to us... when our noble went up, the host was like ' i haven;t announce yet'.. so quite embarrassing and they walked back.. at that time i was like so pai seh lor.. and also afraid that we won't win anything... but then when they finally announce our name, we were all estatic!!!! so happy lor, so we all ran ard the track.. i quite pai seh lah, cos i was at the back most of the time... the last hundred metre, i was like ' i cannot liao lor...' but the ogl was like ' alesia hurry up!' so i managed to finish the run... whew...
then the finale part, sa had their own band playing music for us.. it was really dark liao.. all of us were jumping and singing and running ard... i was with my og all the time.. very fun... oh ya, afterwards we found ally(my ogl) and we cheered for her... i think the past few days she quite lau kuay cos our grp was kinda quiet withe the exceptn of a few guys... so i tot she was really happy when we all cheered for her and had a grp hug... nice
then went for supper with my og at harbour front hawker centre... eat and tok... then ally came along and we tok cock for abt 45 min... she was explaining to us abt the black knight and the story... at that time, i was really scared.. like as though we were really living in saintierra and the black knight really existed... i quite lame hor?
but i had fun.. alot of fun... hope i'll still remain in touch with my og mates...

sajc orientation

day 1
first day was quite... erm first day lor... everyone was like so uncomfortable... also everyone was like kinda separated by our birthdays... unfortunately, i was the only april new towner... then the ogls told us to stand up and do massages for those ard us... not bad... my ogl is ally... the curly hair girl... my og is 'lucky 13'.. nothing much lah... while other og playing whacko, we doing admin stuff... then we also cheer alot... lunch was very crowded at the caferteria... have to buy own lunch cos no packet food... i nv eat lah.. juz drink... thenm finally we had our own og time.. did our intros and played whacko... alot of RVs in my grp... oh then play the mass games in hall... touch the tapes thingy.. so lame lor.. i kana forefeit with thiam for 2 times.. but we nv really did anything.. oh ya... then during the cheer part, i saw the bonding between the counsillors... woah.. very close.. very on ... ' counsillors, are u ready? EVER READY, saints are u ready? EVER READY!!'
oh then, i sorta observed the jc 2 girls... all so gd looking, so mall sizzed.. then their skirts all mini lor.. haix..