Monday, August 22, 2005

historic moment in my life

finally!!!!!!!!!!!!! i pass my 2.4km test!!!! so happy.... it's like a stone removed from my heart... phew.... luckily got cheryl teo and shuwei run with me... thanks!

now.. muz still train for next year.... but i'm so glad it's all over....

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

sleepy...

feeling very sleepy nowadays... juz wanna sleep and not wake up... dun feel like doing anything...
oh, had ndp yesterday.. was pretty cool... we did the sign language.. i've to admit, none of mine were PERFECT... really... i hope we still break the record too... and i hope they dun say who was part of the record... cos i'll be upset to know that my name isn't there...
ps: i love the song reachout for the skies.... juz so lovely.. wish i could learn the whole dance.. instead of juz the chorus...
it's juz so tiring to be studying.. after psle, then o lvl, then alvl, then uni, then work... it's so... sian.

i juz realised my life is so empty... i feel really sad at times... very pathetic .... i'm so pissed... coming to jc is no better than going to poly....
completing o lvls was a miracle...
staying alive is a mistake
i'm so pathetic

Thursday, August 04, 2005

mixed feelings

still feeling sick.. from sore throat & flu...

there was spot check this morning.. usually, i wldn't be anxious abt it.. cos my skirt is damn long.. BUT no! i'm in SA, my skirt is ultra short(thanks to my mum).. And YES, i got caught... i, chan yanying joyce, the most goody-two-shoes of all ppls! damn suay lah.... the first half of the girls got checked by dan ho.. then, afterwards, he decided to switch with this old woman cos he wanted to check the boys of e other class... so i got caught... for having one ear stut... (go figure!) each ear can only have one. i only wear one for one ear and none for the other... then she was like... [v. blurish lah]... dun even understand wat she wants me to do.... then she saw my skirt... said it's short.. esp at the back.. pulled up my shirt... HIAX.... so embarrassing... my name was taken down...haha but it's by ct, who is extremely nice... but i'll still try to alter my skirt.. which is already v short... or i'll exchange it with someone... kaoz.. this is a first for me...

run 4 rounds during pe.. didn't stop... but still a not-so-good timing... i hope i'll do better next time... i think i will...

had chem practical.. realised i'm kinda dumb... i.e i can't really apply wat i learn during lesson time to the prac questions... which has been like since forever, including bio...
dunno how to do math and chinese... feeling hopeless... as usual.... it's damn hard lah... esp, when the questions are so long... it juz pisses me off.

i was juz wondering... how did i get past the 7 months of jc life... so fast rite?!!! and it's gonna be promos soon!!!

on the positive side(finally...) national day is coming... excited abt going back to ntss... that is if we're going.... and i'm looking forward to the 'performance' on the actual day... woohoo!! hope i dun screw up...

Monday, August 01, 2005

3 weeks

today i was supposed to take the 2.4km test again.. i told mr ho that i didn't want to run... as much as he wants me to run.. i simply refused... i juz didn't have mental preparation that i was to run today... so.. ya, i kinda told the teacher 'i give up'... i noe, i noe... we shld always have the 'never give up' attitude... but for me... it's really useless lor... oh, then i suggested to mr ho, i'll run 4 rds every pe lesson... then.. he agreed lor... ya, that was before i played games with the class..
After the games, he suggested to me, that 3 weeks later, the second last week of august, i'll do a test again... everything, again... then i was like.. stunned.. but i agreed to it... he was like, 'u did very well in your 5 stations... it's such a pity to give up... '... then i was like' ya, but the 5 stations are not long dist running'....
but, that's the deal.... i'll still continue to run 4 rds every pe lesson until that day arrives...

i think mr ho. is a really nice teacher... i mean, compared to the others lah.. so it's kinda stressful too... i mean, i also wanna do well in running... and i dun wanna disappoint myself, and him too...
haix...