erm.. today din go sch AGAIN... but i got reason one.. stomachache.. but i'm fine now... fee kinda bad.. to leave sy alone... but then again, i din want to create a scene for myself... also abit disappointed that i won't be 'interacting with my cg mates'
yesterday when i had lunch with them, i kinda felt that they are really a great bunch a ppls... very friendly and nice... but most of them already knew each other... oh, and it happens to be xinyi and wanting's ex class... as usual i was really quiet... i did attempt to start a conversation with some of them.. but none of them lasted long... oh gosh... well.. on the brighter side, even if i go back to s6 combi, i wouldn't really know any of my classmates cos most of my previous cg mates are in better classes now... i hope things will get better... soon. cos somehoe, i kept going back to the new town gang.... u noe.. it's so natural... but then again, it's becos it's during orientation... when classes start officially... i'll be on my own... or hopefully, with some of my newly-made friends...
confession:
i'm feeling very insecure right now.
i wish there could be a new town junior college... haha.. then those in ntss wil go ntjc.. ya.. and ceteris paribus(all else remains the same)...
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
what am i studying for???
i rmb..back in sec 3/4, i was complaning about studying amaths.. and physics.. cos i suxed in both subjects and i was also telling myself that i don't wanna have anything to do with physics or math in the future.. at least cheam math lah...
now i'm in such a dilemma.. well not exactly dilemma cos i'm not forced to make one out of 2 choices.. i feel frustrated... i went to the ntu, smu and nus webbies to see what i can take or what i shld take and/or so that i can make a decision for the option form thingy... i'm thinking of bio, chem and math... yes, i'm dropping econs... cos i totally sux at math and i feel that i need to concentrate more on that very impt subject.... then i was thinking, wat to take in nus? dentistry, pharmacy???? it's so diao lor, now that i think about it... study that to make money? study that to please my folks? i noe this is reality... but i juz refuse to face it... i'm thinking of poly... but i dun think i like the kinda life there... well, the courses that may interest me in poly is tourism and design & environment.. but wat shit is that? i juz feel so sick! i wanna cry.. really suddenly, i wish my main aim in life is juz to get into sajc... then, forever i will be stucked with 8 subjects and not think about anything else.... siao rite?
i went to this other website... universities in australia that offers marine biology courses.... i seriously think that is very interesting and i will definitely work hard for it.. but how can? in australia leh? i dun even have the means to go there.. much less to study there... if only i'm rich... i'm so vexed rite now... i dun even noe why i'm studying.... i'd so rather work with the animals then do any of this... even if i do well in my chem and bio, chances are i won't get into the universities in aussie either.. it's so slim... what to do???? i'm envious of those who noe what they want in life... that's their purpose of living... i dunno my purpose of living in this world.... so jia lat.. what am i going to do??? it sux... it really does... i desparately need some expert's advice on wat to do... go thru a lvls(chem and bio) and migrate to aussie? (siao, i dun dare, neither do my folks).. a scholarship will be sweet.. but who's gonna offer it???
shld i juz concentrate on these few subjects, get the s papers, then find a way to aussie?? maybe i'll be the illegal immigrant.. so lame... but i guess, that's what i'm gonna do now for the time being... a step at a time... maybe my long-term goal is to study marine biology... for now.. make sure i study hard... that sound rite? i think so...
phew, i feel much better now that i have sort out my thoughts.. dun think so much first, juz do my best in wateva i feel is rite for me... i'm living for myself... sounds good, huh? i tot so... hehe
now i'm in such a dilemma.. well not exactly dilemma cos i'm not forced to make one out of 2 choices.. i feel frustrated... i went to the ntu, smu and nus webbies to see what i can take or what i shld take and/or so that i can make a decision for the option form thingy... i'm thinking of bio, chem and math... yes, i'm dropping econs... cos i totally sux at math and i feel that i need to concentrate more on that very impt subject.... then i was thinking, wat to take in nus? dentistry, pharmacy???? it's so diao lor, now that i think about it... study that to make money? study that to please my folks? i noe this is reality... but i juz refuse to face it... i'm thinking of poly... but i dun think i like the kinda life there... well, the courses that may interest me in poly is tourism and design & environment.. but wat shit is that? i juz feel so sick! i wanna cry.. really suddenly, i wish my main aim in life is juz to get into sajc... then, forever i will be stucked with 8 subjects and not think about anything else.... siao rite?
i went to this other website... universities in australia that offers marine biology courses.... i seriously think that is very interesting and i will definitely work hard for it.. but how can? in australia leh? i dun even have the means to go there.. much less to study there... if only i'm rich... i'm so vexed rite now... i dun even noe why i'm studying.... i'd so rather work with the animals then do any of this... even if i do well in my chem and bio, chances are i won't get into the universities in aussie either.. it's so slim... what to do???? i'm envious of those who noe what they want in life... that's their purpose of living... i dunno my purpose of living in this world.... so jia lat.. what am i going to do??? it sux... it really does... i desparately need some expert's advice on wat to do... go thru a lvls(chem and bio) and migrate to aussie? (siao, i dun dare, neither do my folks).. a scholarship will be sweet.. but who's gonna offer it???
shld i juz concentrate on these few subjects, get the s papers, then find a way to aussie?? maybe i'll be the illegal immigrant.. so lame... but i guess, that's what i'm gonna do now for the time being... a step at a time... maybe my long-term goal is to study marine biology... for now.. make sure i study hard... that sound rite? i think so...
phew, i feel much better now that i have sort out my thoughts.. dun think so much first, juz do my best in wateva i feel is rite for me... i'm living for myself... sounds good, huh? i tot so... hehe
Monday, March 21, 2005
YAY!!!
yes! i made it into SAJC! woohoo!!!! i'm so really happy... i mean, i can't wait to buy the uniform... i'm so overjoyed!!! i logged on at ard 7am... and... i wasn't surprised, i could already find the posting... so.. ya, very glad... i even copied and pasted the posting on microsoft so that i noe i din see the wrong thingy.... hehe.... that's me... well... can't wait to be in sch...
but i think, the really good thing.. is that i need not go jjc... i mean, it would have been terrible if i went there.. cos i'd need to prepare a whole lot of new things.. like catching up and stuff... so yap... guess, i shld be revising for my subjects soon... YAY!
but i think, the really good thing.. is that i need not go jjc... i mean, it would have been terrible if i went there.. cos i'd need to prepare a whole lot of new things.. like catching up and stuff... so yap... guess, i shld be revising for my subjects soon... YAY!
Friday, March 18, 2005
materialism...
my friend got a new phone juz a mth ago... upon seeing it.. i juz feel the urge to get a new one too... i'm using the 8250 on now... and honestly, i haven't had my own personal phone before... most of the phones were past down by either my mum and my bro... i want to sign up for a new line.. but my mum said i'm still too young to be a consumer...
actually, based on my allowance, i can actually go sign up for the new phone and pay the monthly bills on my own...
but... i feel that what i'm doing will be a sign of.. following wat others do... u noe, cos they have a camera phone, therefore i shld have one too.. Of course, that's what everyone is doing.. keeping up with the trend.. but... to me, i find it unnecessary.. the phone i mean... i dun msg that much... i'm not really the camera person..(although i really like that cyber shot camera with a big screen and is really flat... )
besides... i'm more into watches... so, i shld probably use the money for watches instead... rite....
results out on tuesday, 8am... i'm so gonna wake up early... i dun see why i shldn't get into sajc.. cos i get 9 pts... okay... good.. i really hope so...
actually, based on my allowance, i can actually go sign up for the new phone and pay the monthly bills on my own...
but... i feel that what i'm doing will be a sign of.. following wat others do... u noe, cos they have a camera phone, therefore i shld have one too.. Of course, that's what everyone is doing.. keeping up with the trend.. but... to me, i find it unnecessary.. the phone i mean... i dun msg that much... i'm not really the camera person..(although i really like that cyber shot camera with a big screen and is really flat... )
besides... i'm more into watches... so, i shld probably use the money for watches instead... rite....
results out on tuesday, 8am... i'm so gonna wake up early... i dun see why i shldn't get into sajc.. cos i get 9 pts... okay... good.. i really hope so...
Thursday, March 17, 2005
praying hard....
holiday was okay so far... really... played the sims... very glad that i dl some of the superstars.. cos their clothes are really nice!!! so cool, man.. i wish i could wear them.. hehe...
anyway, next week is the posting results... i'm kinda scared.. but at some pt of time, i'm thinking that i do have a chance of staying in sa... it's like, 13-4=9... so why not? but then... i do kind feel scared that i will end up in jjc... it's like.. i really wanna wear the sa uniform.. i wanna be known as a saint... i'm proud of it... haiz...
wishlists
mcfly cd
kelly clarkson cd
nike shirt.. (the one with the routes on it..)
nike watch
jacket/windbreaker
anyway, next week is the posting results... i'm kinda scared.. but at some pt of time, i'm thinking that i do have a chance of staying in sa... it's like, 13-4=9... so why not? but then... i do kind feel scared that i will end up in jjc... it's like.. i really wanna wear the sa uniform.. i wanna be known as a saint... i'm proud of it... haiz...
wishlists
mcfly cd
kelly clarkson cd
nike shirt.. (the one with the routes on it..)
nike watch
jacket/windbreaker
Friday, March 04, 2005
economics... or not
hiax... i juz realized that next week is not the march holidays.. so that means, on more week of lecctures, tutorials.. and pe... sian... wanted to go running... but.. u noe.. failed to do so.. cos, when i woke up, breakfast was there.. and i juz din feel like jogging alone in some strange places... i'm so dead next week... esp during pe... can't run... Argh!
played tennis yesterday.. quite a good session.. more comfortable with my strokes now... juz still not good... i realized my serve really sux... i mean, i can, at times, get the ball to go into the box.. but there's no POWER. when yh and kenneth served.. even if it's out.. there's the sound.. u noe.. like they really hit it hard.. but somehow i couldn't do that.. the strength that i used to hit the strokes is juz not present when i try to serve it... yah.. and somehow that's the opposite of yh... haix..then went to eat pizza hut... seriously.. i think i'm not determined enuf... i have to start controlling wat i eat.. i ate 3 time-out juz now!!!! gosh... i'm supposed to eat proper meals only... but now... i muz do lots of exercise liao... yucks... i suxed
oh then.. i was thinking.. i would like to drop economics... u noe.. cos it's not a prerequisite to any of the uni courses... and i dun wanna go home late juz cos i take an extra subject... it's like, i'd like to have more time for the rest of the 3 subjects.... but u noe.. chances are higher in getting a scholarship if i take 4 subjects... hmm... but.. i dunno...
i'm kinda worrited bout the next orientation... will i stay? i hope so.. that's the reason why i shldn't pon any lessons now.. or else i'll be in trouble... i would definitely prefer to stay in the S6 series.. u noe... i've got feelings already... besides my friends all there... but then.. i wouldn't say i'm staying juz becos of my friends... aiyah... i dunno... it;s like if i go there..the chem and bio class only.. then... well.. chances are, i'll probably abit outcasted cos... i dunno.. chances are they wil noe each other more... i noe.. there will definitely be ppls previously not from sa...
i seriously dunno what i'm writing... hiax...
played tennis yesterday.. quite a good session.. more comfortable with my strokes now... juz still not good... i realized my serve really sux... i mean, i can, at times, get the ball to go into the box.. but there's no POWER. when yh and kenneth served.. even if it's out.. there's the sound.. u noe.. like they really hit it hard.. but somehow i couldn't do that.. the strength that i used to hit the strokes is juz not present when i try to serve it... yah.. and somehow that's the opposite of yh... haix..then went to eat pizza hut... seriously.. i think i'm not determined enuf... i have to start controlling wat i eat.. i ate 3 time-out juz now!!!! gosh... i'm supposed to eat proper meals only... but now... i muz do lots of exercise liao... yucks... i suxed
oh then.. i was thinking.. i would like to drop economics... u noe.. cos it's not a prerequisite to any of the uni courses... and i dun wanna go home late juz cos i take an extra subject... it's like, i'd like to have more time for the rest of the 3 subjects.... but u noe.. chances are higher in getting a scholarship if i take 4 subjects... hmm... but.. i dunno...
i'm kinda worrited bout the next orientation... will i stay? i hope so.. that's the reason why i shldn't pon any lessons now.. or else i'll be in trouble... i would definitely prefer to stay in the S6 series.. u noe... i've got feelings already... besides my friends all there... but then.. i wouldn't say i'm staying juz becos of my friends... aiyah... i dunno... it;s like if i go there..the chem and bio class only.. then... well.. chances are, i'll probably abit outcasted cos... i dunno.. chances are they wil noe each other more... i noe.. there will definitely be ppls previously not from sa...
i seriously dunno what i'm writing... hiax...
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