disappointed

i'm feeling kinda disappointed rite now.. cos in a few mths time, when the aviva open begins, i may not be able to volunteer for it... perhaps the 'stars' are not as attractive..cos angie and lj dun seem to be interested anymore.. i rmb on the after the finals last yr, we 3 said we'd join it again this yr... i still want to... but i think they rather earn the money than go thru the experience again... sobs... if only it was like a more major competition, like some Australian open... woa.. that wld be so exciting! haha.. but there's prob no way an international tennis competition wld take place in a small size country like spore...

i wanna see peter gade again!! and andrew smith... and kenneth johanssen...

2 weeks alr..

i've survived 2 weeks at this company..so far, everything is ok... the workload is alrite... juz bills and getting the letters done, and the KEYS. -.- yes, from last wed til today, i'm still doing keys.. today i was juz doing labelling.. but has yet to finish... has SHE been nicer to me? maybe... i dunno... i noe, the worst time to disturb her is in the morning... den by 4 plus, she doesn't get as pissed off, provided i dun mess up and give her extra work... yup.. so, maybe, juz maybe, i'll stay on abit longer than i thought.. but i am worried i'll have more work to do as the time goes by... hai.. after the other temp leaves for ns, i wonder who's gg to do his work.. pls dun be me!

chelsea is thru to carling cup finals!!! 4 - 0! bravo sheva for scoring 2 goals!! and lampard too!!! i shld have stayed up to watch the match instead of only watching the last 10 min.. i wld have been extremely delighted!!! yea.. so happy for them... and mourinho might be staying afterall!!!!!

roddick is out. :(((((( i knew it man.. how can federer be defeated by the same guy twice in a row??? haha... oh well, at least andy made it to the semis, pretty gd alr... :) and eeky for the womens final. serena williams against sharapova. rmb to turn down the vol, ppls! will be an extremely loud one...

argh!

i was pretty shocked when i realised i won't be receiving my pay for the first 3 days' work. like, wat the hell???? it's not like i work for only 3 days! i'm working for at least a mth!!! and it's a law firm somemore lor.. so ridiculous. i'm definitely not shopping for office wear clothes anymore... so argh!

tt aside, today was a bad day... pretty hectic and panicky towards the end of the day... the thais came today, then dunno why, the letterhead cldn't get the date to be in eng. then i have to edit so much and waste so many papers... and the IT person wasn't really tt gd, cos she took pretty long and i was so worried the boss wld leave w/out signing the doc.... anyway, i'm glad i finished on time... the bad thing is, the mouse at my com is extremely retarded! i'm gg to take such a long time to finish any work... and then, i was supposed to do smthg abt the keys, again! argh... it's not done yet and i have to do it again.. if only i was given proper instructions the first time SHE asked me to do it, i might not have wasted so much time... i'm getting teased la... for getting paid juz by figuring out which key belongs to which pedestal. that is NOT the only work i do, ok... i do updating of bills too and tt stupid letterhead which actually is the best part.. that's becos i'll be so busy with it, and time always flies esp fast during tt time.. so i noe, i'll be gg home soon... of course, tt's also the time where i make careless mistakes and my heart will start beating v. fast when i have to confess it to HER.

anyway, i haven't actually finished today's work... will do tmr lor, no choice wat.. besides it's no rush i think? haha... i'm quite a horrible worker.. i always go home without finishing the work.. but the gd thing is i'll always have smthg to do the next day without to bug HER for work...

i heard they're leaving soon.. ard the same time i'm leaving... sometimes, i feel like there's no need for me to quit, but at some other times, i can't wait to leave the job and get a job tt's not so stressful and have nicer co-workers... i think admin is much better than the other jobs(sales, cust service..) cos admin can SIT... really, now when i go shop, i'll take note of the ppls and the jobs they have... waitress muz stand and hold heavy stuff... sales also muz stand.. cust service worse. - kana scolded... hai... so sian. now, i see my mum.. i really sympathesize her... cos she brings her work home to do...hai...

work aside. soccer update!!! arsenal won!!! woohoo!!! more imptantly, man u LOST!!! muahahaha.. double defeat! and the 6pt gap REMAINS.... hai.. thank goodness.. but still, very worried abt the sour relationship between boss and jose... sobs sobs...

the thing abt work... even though it's only mon... i think time past much faster when i'm working than i'm studying... haha...

chelsea's blues

chelsea lost 2 - 0 to liverpool :( really upset.. i cldn't even bear to watch the rest of the match after pennant score the second goal.. i juz distracted myself by trimming my nails. it was so disappointing. the central defence was really weak. i can't blame ferreira and essien. they are not pro central defenders. but still... chelsea hardly created any chance to score goals. everytime chelsea had a corner, no one inside the box made a decent shot at goal. it sux man... if man u wins tonite... hai... jia lat. and i seriously think man u cld win... but i juz hope they dun.. otherwise.. otherwise.. otherwise... i dun wanna say it.. i hope terry cld come back soon and everything will return back to normal...

australian open has begun... really glad that roddick beat safin in the 3rd rd.. wat a tough match since both plays so alike... now he has to face ancic in the 4th.. also equally tough cos ancic is such a tall guy!!! i think bagdatis is out. i am so happy becos of that!!! haha!

oh, i had alot of free time to think while at work.. i was making comparisons between all sorts of things.. like pri and sec sch. factory and admin work... schooling and working..

pri: lots of assessments to be done... everytime muz go buy assessment books and my parents will nag at me to finish everything.. 'No watching tv!!!', that's wat my folks always tell me at that age.
sec: the work gets tough.. lots of things to learn. stupid a math and physics... i hate both subj..

factory: earn more within a day cos of longer hrs. but has became a passive smoker during break time.. the pl is way too far.. only abt 5 hrs of slp everyday and can only watch the 5.30pm drama. had to stand for long hrs... bad for health.
admin: earn lesser of course for each day. no need to smell smoke cos air con area... can hang out with ppls of my 'type'... can watch more tv shows at nite... but need to decide wat to wear each day... then somemore still need to see the person's LIAN SE. but the work is definitely more 'challenging'(not toking abt the keys) and quite alot to learn(but i think it's not really applicable to other admin jobs..) it feels abit like gg to sch..

schooling: the stress of having to study and do well and better still do better than my peers really sux. other than tt, it's alrite cos of the company i have... the friends to gossip and tok abt hot guys and tv shows tt aired the nite before... it's great! lessons are a bore but it's cos of the company tt make us abit more awake..
work: there's stress too, no doubt, esp when things are demanded to be done by a certain time.. but then again, i get paid for my work... the downside is of course not being able to spend time with the friends i made over e few yrs... of course it gives me a chance to make new friends.. but when we only get 1hr of lunch break to chat with the others, it's kinda hard... oh, of course, having to see ppls' LIAN SE.. it sux.

but at least now i understand how my mum and dad feels... in the past, i didn't really get it.. it was juz making dinner and doin chores. wat's the big deal? now i noe... cos having to work for 8 hrs and then still need to look after the family... it is a big deal. it's tough man... now, all i can do i do wat my mum asks me to do so she'll have something less to worry abt.. tt's all i can do...

5 days of work has past.. i am so glad to be able to get a weekend's rest.. still need to shop for wedding dinner outfit and more clothes for work.. it's so sad i'm only getting my pay on the 20th next mth. argh. i hope next wk won't be tough.. btw, by the end of the first day, i was alr planning to quit after 1 mth... haha... we'll see...

job update!!!

monday: first day at work. HORRIBLE. really. there were 4 temps, each of us assigned to different perm staff... the one i'm under - argh!!! she is so mean!!! if i didn't hear wrongly, when she heard tt she has a temp under her, she was very annoyed cos she didn't wanna teach! so mean la. and she totally black face me lor! still diao me. mean. i was having a horrible day only becos of her. the work was pretty easy.. keying data, zapping, taking out the staple bullets?! yup. in the afternoon, i was supposed to key in some data for another person. it was juz copy and paste.. the person alr typed out the msg, all i had to do was paste if onto more than 300 plus files... ya. then when it was time to leave, i realise that she actually typed the date wrongly! and i'd alr pasted the msg onto 300-400 entries!!! oh my god! i still had more work to do.. but unsure if i shld continue, and becos the person left alr, i decided to go home too..

tuesday, i broke the bad news to tt person.. she was pretty shocked i did so many.. and she had to edit it.. but thankfully she didn't blame or chide me at all. phew. there were some decent proper work to be done. updating the bills.. it's quite alot... did fr 10 plus to 4 plus.. den SHE came, and gave me another set of work to do.. which was to key in some data, get the letters printed, signed, photocopied, and print g/s. and put it in envelope and learn to key in the dispatch info.. it's alot of things to do for each person's data. [basically, i'm in this particular 'bank's' department, where i'm in charge of keying the bills tt their customers owe. then, i need to print out the letters so that they can be sent to the customers..] it was kinda rush... cos everything was so new to me... and i was afraid of making mistakes.. and getting scolded by HER.

wednesday, i finished up the bills.. and asked HER wat next.SHE gave me a bunch of keys and tell me to go figure out which key belongs to which pedestal and make a spreadsheet of it. 50 over keys!! and her instructions were unclear due to the way she speaks i cldn't figure out wat she was saying. i kinda stoned. was i hired to do this?? figure out which key belongs to which pedestal(it's a drawer actually, those with wheels at the bottom). wat the hell man. then i juz went ard trying ALL the keys.. this task was actually carried out over 3 days til fri. it was so frustrating becos the keys were arranged in a way which i didn't understand and i was unsure if i cld juz mix up the keys anot... it was so dumb. everyone was busy doing their work over the comp and there i was gg ard trying out all the keys.. it was tiring cos i had to like squat.. and i didn't wanna disturb some ppls cos if i had squat there and tried all the keys, i cld be blocking their way.. argh.. in the noon, i did the letters stuff which i did on tue.. there was alot of data to be keyed...

thursday: i basically stoned during the morning staring at the keys and the excel worksheet i had done... it was incomplete asi still cldn't figure which keys belong to some of the pedestals.. it was such a frustrating moment cos i didn't noe wat to do... everyone was busy with work as i'm still stoning... i was so mad... although ppls say slacking is good, but still! it's juz hard to stare at the comp and do nothing! then in the noon after lunch, SHE told me tt actually it was the boss who wants the keys to get figured out and tt the boss wld make a big fuss over alot of stuff...

friday: still doing the keys in the morning but e gd thing is i've managed to figure out at least 25 outta 30 out the pedestals... and then SHE reminds me i have to figure out the keys for cabinets. argh. wateva. she then taught me how to update another set of bills and i carried out the letters task in the late noon as usual. work ends at 530. it was such a great feeling to reach home early to watch the beginning of the ch 8 show... btw, i'm prepared to face the boss and tell her i'm not finished wif the keys(which i am supposed to get it done by fri). i will face the music. like c'mon, i did my best. almost anyway..

yup, so this past 5 days of work really set me thinking... like how tough it was to come home after a hard day at work. even tho the work scope wasn't tt tough.. but still having to face ppl's lian se...i really sympathize my mum after working this wk. cos i was so tired when i reach home and i cldn't even stay awake to watch tv. yet my mum still had to cook dinner after finishing her work and to do the housework and continue her work a home..

job at last

i found a job. at last.

it was raining HEAVILY. and i had to go to this agency at peninsula plaza to fill up some forms. after that, i had to travel to this ulu pl (which i nv heard of, which actually turns out to be somewhere near shenton way) for another interview.. yup, so i was told to fill up a form and then i received a call. i got a job! haha.. i went for it's interview yesterday, which i had to type on the spot! i tot i was kinda slow and unsteady.. but somehow, i got selected.. haha.. yup, i accepted it of course..

actually, after gg for that interview with the test typing part. i wasn't so sure if i was suitable for the job.. cos the boss said it's quite a 'stressful environment'. As if i haven't had enuf of stress for the past yr, now i'm actually gg for this job! yes, he did say that word 'stressful' a few times.. i suppose it will be.. but the thing is, when he told me wat i was supposed to do, i was actually looking forward to it.. some efiling and other stuff.. it seems pretty .. erm, how shld i put it... like i will learn alot from that job la! i was thinking that wateva i picked up will be very useful in future, esp when i go for other job interviews.. so, yup.. oh, the boss lied. i asked if i cld wear jeans and he said yes, smart casual. then juz now the lady called, she said office wear, NO JEANS. argh. well, shopping time!!! HAHA!

i can quit anytime, according to him.. but i hope to last at the very least, until i get back my results. that's pretty short, but like i mentioned earlier, he did say it's rather STRESSFUL.. oh well.. all the best for me...

consolation

the only consolation i have for myself now, while many of my frens are working, is that i've alr received my paycheck for that 8 days of horrible work i've done last mth. and i got an another atm card.. haha.. but i'm still unhappy. my mum is not really pushing me to get a job.. but STILL.

chelsea drew wif wycomb.. haix.. a team 63 positions below them. i wan petr cech back!!! oh, there's this chelsea youngster, sahar fr isreal i think, he's got the michael scoffield look. he doesn't resemble scoffield, but he has that LOOK. i dunno how to describe it.. haha nvm..

moody

i'm feeling moody rite now.
i dun have a job. i think i shld prob wait at home for some recruitment agency to ring me up for gd news. and i'm stuck having to do housework everyday. i hate it.

although chelsea are thru to the next rd in the FA cup, i'm still upset with the rumours tt's gg on.. i dun even noe what pics i shld put on my chelsea collage. what if i put jose's photo, and then he gets sacked becos chelsea doesn't retain their title? i think it's ridiculous! he's such a gd manager... and then there's my poor shevy and ballack.. hai..

i feel like i'm wasting the hols away by not spending quality time with my frens, or doing wat i planned during the As period. well, that's mainly becos i insist on getting a job first. to kinda stabilise my daily/weekly routine. it's not gg to work unless i find a job. or rather, unless i juz go out and have as much fun without thinking so much. but how can i have fun without money??

i miss sch.. no, i miss having frens ard from morning to noon.

job waiting -.-

sent my resume to recruit express le..now all i can do is wait. i can go on to look for other jobs.. but the other jobs wld most prob be sales asst. the thing is, i wanna do admin, cos it's sitting job [it's v tough to stand, esp if i have period:(] But, if i become a sales asst, i won't have to worry abt wat to wear cos most likely i'll be in some shirt and jeans. easy. i dun think i have any office wear... and i dun wanna buy any.. hiaz...

now, i'm juz waiting.. waiting.. i so wanna pick up the phone and make appt for interview for sales asst position. but i'm worried if i get the sales asst job, then i won't be able to have an admin job... BUT then again, there's no guarentee tt i'll get an admin job... argh.