damn pissed. tmr is my last day, and i 'd have alr worked one and a half mths.. and i won't be receiving the JAN's pay at all. it's really ridiculous lor.. they push it all ard and no one seems to be taking responsibilty for giving out our salary..

another thing tt i'm angry abt is, they ask me to come back on fri to collect my pay. then i ask, confirm anot? then the HR was like, call before u come. the thing i'm worried is , what if i called and then they say i dun get paid??? then i no need to come down alr lor!

long week......

wat a horrible week at work.. SHE wasn't here for 3 days! and i had to handle lots of stuff on my own.. stuff tt i''m still unsure and new at... and the stupid boss had to give me more work.. argh! anyway.. i dunno how many wrong things i had done.. sigh... if i make any HUGE mistakes, they wld find out by next week.. muahahaha.... FIRE ME!!!!

actually, i'm kinda 'scared' to work at this current office... i dun think my work is that important, but still the work to be done is of 'high relevance' REALLY. well, the past 3 days had definitely made me feel extremely 'vulnerable' and 'totally helpless'... all the boss's crap abt everyone being dispensable is bullshit. SHE wasn't here, and the others didn't seem to know exactly wat to do... and i think SHE was like avoiding my calls on the second and third day... hmpf!

was looking for jobs at the various websites.. not sure if i shld apply for othere jobs... i mean, the best possible thing abt my current company is its LOCATION... even if the pay at other pl are better, i wld prob have to spend more on transport... wat shld i do?!!!

i dunno how SHE'll react when she come back on mon... things tt are left at her table... things tt i've yet to complete - will she scream at me? it's a mon, it's a morning.. and her first day after being on leave for 3days... she cld be in a bad mood... oh my gosh... pls dun let her hate and detest me!!!

things tt i think went wrong:
1.i realise in the past, i've been faxing plain papers! cos i rmbed SHE told me, is paper face up, so well, i did tt for a couple of times until today, i saw this other guy did the other way, and then i was like - uh oh.
2.some of the auction/seizure reports came in, pat emailed the stuff alr... but i dunno whether to return to quantum law anot, so i left on her table. then there was this other same report(diff case) tt the dispatch guy put into the quantum law folder, but i think he may not have let pat send the 'email' so.. hmm.. i dunno... i zap a copy of it juz in case..
3.the AOS, ALOD- dunno whether confirm all right anot.. i did check and amended those wif mistakes.. but i'm a very low confident person.. i keep getting paranoid and worried.. and like, i'll check stuff, but then after checking, i'll still doubt my checking skills and wonder if i checked correctly!
4. got some ctb files to be opened.. i think i finish alr, but didn't past to zr, cos i not sure if i did it properly, and i wana wait til SHE come back b4 i proceed..

hai.... somebody give me a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crazy day at work!

i kinda had trouble sleeping ytd cos i kept thinking of how i'll have to handle work today cos SHE wasn't here... panic panic...

today, work didn't start out tt well... had like tons to do... and i didn't really noe wat to do! then boss called the temps to have a meeting... he was assigning us work cos the 3 temps had quitted from court department. lucky for me, i had nothing from court, but i still had to do email extraction... which i think i'm pretty slow at.. hai... then there were things to be sent OUT... and to RECEIVE.. i'm kinda worried tt i may have done the wrong thing? haha.. then still got some other PODs to be done... i was kinda worried i may not be able to finish them... by ard 6.10, i;m left with 2 days of billings... but i can't do those from CTB, cos of the number... so only got ocbc to do... almost done...

tmr, i'll have work to do.. hope i can rmb and apply what i learnt... hmm.. muz reach early lor... lucky, no need to do 2 days of ctb alod. which reminds me-thank goodness ctb was kind enuf to send less than 40lod for 2 days.. phew! otherwise i wld be panicking like siao.. oh, and i had to check my work MYSELF.... so scary.. NO MISTAKES!!! i dunno whether tt's a gd news or not.. really scared tt i missed out on a mistake. and tt *argh* boss didn't even check lor... ok lor, he sign nv check, later wrong, dun blame me hor!

i've survived 1 day wout HER... oh, of course i called her a couple of times.. lucky she wasn't annoyed wif me... i'm abit less stressed now.. haha.. actually, i feel kinda bad.. cos the email extraction, i only did a few.. haha.. tt means the afternoon shift girl will have more to do.. oops! okok.. will try to do more tmr.. tt ite guy like very free leh...everytime i want to ask him que, i'll see him using his hp.. argh!

i dunno if i shld quit leh.. As cmg out next fri... hmm.. if i dun get sacked by this fri(which i dunno if i shld be happy abt it..) i wld wanna stay a few more weeks.. and then, i think it's pretty hard to find a job, on the papers.. very little vacancies for the different types of job occupations..

Aviva Open 2007 - i wld wana get into nyp.. but if tt happens, i won't be able to volunteer for the event.. but then again, wat are the chances tt i will get into the course? haha!!! i am so clueless...

oh, and i finally realised how grateful i shld be when i have nothing to do(except for the keys) on the first few days... now, i'm so freaking busy... esp this few days. i can't wait for fri to end!!! not becos it'll be the wkend, but becos it'll be the last day SHE is on leave.. then she'll cme back on mon.. hopefully the bosses will be outstationed!!! and hopefully she doesn't have to find out tt i make tons of mistakes(if i do) during these few days..

i can't wait for my pay.. i saw the cheques on the boss table liao.. but dunno issit muz wait for michelle to return before we can get it.. wonder how much it'll be... hmm..

uh oh...

phew! wat a crazy day at work... had to do the docs for yesterday and today.. no free time to cut and paste stuff manually... then, at ard 5 plus, the time where everyone was extremely busy, there was a sudden breakdown! oh my gosh... i was like *stunned... ya.. after 5 min, someone managed to get it turned on again... then another 10 min later, when i finally finished printing all my docs, the server went down! oh my gosh... everyone was like panicking... there were things to be printed and the boss was gg to be back to sign it.. but how to get it done when the server is down?!!! i dunno... i was juz relieved i managed to print out all my necessary docs before i got affected...

well, somehow, everyone else managed to get their stuff done by 630 and were all ready to leave.. poor HER.. i think she's 'promoted' to IT personnel... which she's pretty unhappy if it becomes true...

another bad thing, SHE's on leave for 3 days next wk!!! OH NO! i'm soooo worried.... esp on wed... i'll have to do 'extracting of emails'-smthg new for me... and prob 2 sets of docs (one which was supposed to be done tmr, and the other which comes in on wed).. so dumb... i'm gg to be so busy on wed!! and then, there'll be the 'quantum law' docs which i'm still kinda new to... oh no.... i hope it turns out alrite... sigh...

disappointment and feeling of being distant...

i'm pretty disappointed.. it's juz a msg, cldn't she have replied it? it's pretty disappointing, to inform someone tt i'm unwell, yet no msg of wishing me speedy recovery... to think we've been frens for so long... anyway, this is another period of time when i'm starting to feel like i'm losing them again.. i dun feel like i'm appreciated and i dun feel a sense of belonging... i noe it's silly to expect everyone to treat my as their best fren, but why do i keep feeling like i'm not even part of this circle of frens?

anyway, i went to the doc, and yes, i have food poisoning... maybe i shld have washed my hands afterall. and i rmbed tt i did use my hands, to dip the 2 garlic bread into the soup. dirty me...

pizza sux.. tennis rox

had a pretty good tennis session this morning.. played with kezia for the first time... the first half an hr was juz a reminder to both me and yh of why we need to take up the beginner course all over again.. then kezia joined us... and i think me and yh kinda played better... like yh cld do her forehand and backhand pretty well when she was returning kez's serve... i was doing gd too... haha.. muz ask kez to join us more often.. *satisfied* :D

then went to pizza hut and had pizza... had been very long since i ordered pizza instead of lagsana.. totally regret it... cos after the last piece, which i only ate the chicken pieces, i was feeling very full.. on the bus, my tummy kept aching like every other 5 min... i tot it was becos i was too full.. then when i reach home and changed into my looser shorts, thinking i wld feel better, it juz didn't. i tried to sleep so tt the pain wld go away, but it DIDN"T... oh my gosh, i was tossing and turning all over my bed.. everytime the pain went away, it juz keeps coming back a few min later! so frustrated. finally, at 4 plus, i felt the need to SHIT-.- it was diarrhoea... once again, i tot i wld feel better once everything is out. but NO. i drank the chinese medicine, thinking it wld make me feel better, and well, it did help to clear my system again by shitting. but STILL! i was still having pains.. so horrible... it's been 4 hrs now, slight signs tt i'm getting better... hai.. i was actually planning on making a trip to buy a fren's bdae, but i guess i'll be making a trip to the clinic instead..

tennis rox..
pizza-sux

update...

another week has passed... was kinda crazy this week.. esp yesterday and today...
ytd had to print like 30 letters.. which was alot of data to be entered and print... lucky the boss didn't leave early. the crazy thing today-the boss leaves at 230, which means the work tt i ususally take ard 2hrs have to be hurried within 30 min!!!! thankfully there were lesser entries to be keyed in, and SHE helped me to do some too... crazy crazy. i can't imagine wat's gg to happen if he had left at 230 ytd. argh...

2 of the other temps leaving by end of the mth... from a group of temps wif only 1 guy, now it'll be left with only 1 girl(me) :( hai... they're leaving for jobs tt have better pay and perhaps a boss tt's less demanding.... well, my job scope is still pretty alrite... nothing much to be done in the morning, except tt i had to buy MILK from mac this morning for the boss's wife(who is also the boss). argh. stupid.

international friendlies-
i actually woke up to watch the england vs spain match, and was looking forward to an exciting game.. thos england sorta did well in the first half, no goals were scored.. then i kinda got sleepy in the second half.. and sorta fell asleep throughtout the next half... i think i saw the spain goal.. anyway, ya, they lost.. pretty disappointed... oh, and the spainsh guys weren't tt hot.. until fernando torres appeared! he's still so cute and hot as ever! haha...

germany vs switzerland... well, i was delighted to see philipp lam... i missed him.. tt cute face of his.. but i was feeling really sleepy... i noe that i everytime i woke up, one goal was scored.. haha.. 1-0, 2-0, 3-0.. and then i woke up to see switzerland score after my dear philipp lam sorta screwed up the back pass to the goalie.. or maybe it was the defender and jens lehmmen's fault.. anyway, germany won.. but sadly, michael ballack got hit wif some thigh injury.. :(

i wonder how long i'll be staying in this company.. i hate to do RECEPT! transferring calls sux! i noe it sound pretty easy.. but i juz feel uneasy doing it!!! today yenn weii wasn't here to take over recept.. so i had to do it .. shit la.. and annie is like complaining abt the recept not doing her job properly.. sian.. can't they hire a proper one?!!

but unless i have a decent job offer.. i dun wanna go over the whole job hunting process again.. i noe the pay sux and the company is sorta cheating us.. but.. eh.. i sorta contented with wat i'm doing...

shopping woes

went vivo to shop for cny clothes. only managed to buy ONE spag top tt was on sale, cost @12 only.. so many nice clothes sold in FOX.. i tried quite a few, in different sizes, but it either didn't fit or was kinda ex... so disappointed. actually, i spent alot this mth alr... haven't even get pay yet...once i get my pay next mth, i muz spend it wisely... hmm, a lacoste shirt maybe, and the sims 2!!! haha.. not v. wise -.- but still!! i want!!

getting better...

time really flies when i'm working... pretty slack work in the morning, and then i'll rush out the urgent stuff in the noon, and before i noe it, it's 630 alr. phew. and today's friday!!! woohoo!!! can't believe it i survived the wk!

good news, SHE has actually been nicer to me.. initially, when i heard she's shifting her stuff to NEXT to me, i was so afraid! i scared she'll scold me for many things! in the end, she juz actually became more relaxed and less uptight abt things... she actually gossips! to me! abt the big shots and the history of the company.. haha.. it's nice... at least i'm less afraid of asking help from her(but i'm still cautious abt making mistakes...). but there are times, where i'm unsure if i can trust her.. i dunno.. kinda weird.. office politics perhaps..

workload as being alrite. still doing the usual stuff... but i'm like the most slack among all the temps, although i see one of them on MSN, while another one is always hanging out wif the recept and IT girls. but the other A levels students seem to be pretty busy.. and keeps getting called into the office by the boss. i'm juz glad i dun have to do tt much work for the meagre pay.

talking abt the pay.. pretty sad.. cos i calculated and it turns out tt i'm only earning like $5 per hr, which is pretty low. :( and then there's this possibility tt i won't get paid $1000 in feb, even if i have full attendance. smthg abt the CNY being a working day although i dun have to work on tt day. ARGH.. it's quite confusing. i'll see what my pay is...

chelsea: poor ashley cole. getting injured. :( hope a speedy recovery to him..

tennis!: oh my gosh! i may finally, again, be getting a beginner lessons!!! yea! definitely excited and looking forward to it.. the only thing i'm kinda worried abt: warm-ups! AH!!! i'm so UNFIT. seriously. i eat so much for dinner, becos i eat biscuits after the actual meal!! i juz can't stop eating! wateva happened to my small stomach which aches after too much food is stuffed into it???!!! needa go JOGGING!!!! it'll be so embarrassing if i can't even complete a few rds ard the court.. AHHHHH!!!!

CNY: uh oh... have been spending so much money, somehow on food.. and i needa go shop for new yr clothes.. and do smthg abt my hair.. i'm still waitng for it to grow longer so i can decide what hairstyle i want... but now it really looks kinda 'not nice'. -.-