hate it...

waiting for my pays.. sux man. i called the HR at MHAS twice, and both times she said the cheques not ready yet.. then i asked how come my fren(working there) got his pay and we(those who quit) haven't? i mean, shldn't the cheques all be signed at the same time??? "cos u guys quit alr wat..." shit her shit him... she says she'll call when it's ready.. nothing i can do but wait i guess...

the HR at ricoh was considerate enuf to call and apologise abt not giving the pay earlier but she assured it will be by the end of the mth, which is tmr... really hope she calls asap...

i finally bought a nice cool 'semi-formal'- jacket from espirit!!! woohoo!!! the 'perfect' one.. have been sorta looking for it for awhile..and since it was on sale, tho still $99, i tot, wat the hell, if i dun buy it, i'll prob regret for the next few mths...

england finally won a match.. 3-0 against a lowly ranked team, Andorra.. lampard's injury appeared as a blessing in disguise as gerrad was able to bring out the best in him in playing is best position.. tho i think gerrad plays really well and is a great asset to the england team, i'm kinda worried tt lampard position in the team will being jeopardised. :(( hope his wrist recovers so he cld play soon...

no news from nyp yet... uh oh... hai.. was thinking actually, gg nus is not tt bad a choice afterall.. the pl is near my hse, the possible salary prob won't be tt low... hai.. but the dream of becoming a sports physiotherapist will be dashed.. dashed.. dashed...

mrs. lonely

hmm... feel like i'm soo free.. but haven't really been spending time wif my old friends... well, except for yh... haha...

hmm... wat happened?

i was told that today wld be my last day... i wonder why... i tot of a couple of possible reasons:
1) the management had other arrangements (tt's wat the HR told me)
2) they realise i lied abt my reason for half-day leave, which was to dye hair instead of collecting my cert.
3) su feels tt the way i tie the papers using the string is too loose..
4) i'm doing the work too slowly.
5) i took 2 half days in 12 days of work..

hmm... well, i've mixed feelings abt getting fired. good thing is i can have my free time now.. all to myself.. no more excuses for not gg to exercise.. but i dun think it's a gd idea to swim cos i juz had my hair dyed.. more time to go out, and shop, and hang out wif the rest... BUT.. less money:( wld have been able to spend more if i had work a couple more weeks.. and to save more too..

wld be gg to my mum's workplace to help her wif her heavy workload from tmr onwards.. she's been very busy...
was thinking of giving tuition too.. juz tt i'm worried i can't ans the students' que.. it wld be sooo embarrassing :S

hmm.. yh got her scholarship... gd for u girl! too bad there's no hostel, then i can bunk in wif her.. hai.. *envy envy*... well, she's sorta got her overseas degree covered.. not sure if i can have the chance a not.. hai... dun even noe if i'm accepted into the course.. so many ppls who have her grades are applying for physio.. i've got no chance man!

i wanna shop!! buy pants!!!! i sooo regret buying the pair of jeans.. it's so.. argh..

ROCK ON CHELSEA!!!!

i'm sooooo extremely proud of chelsea and their performance this morning against spurs.. they played the match at white hart lane where they were once defeated last yr..

first half was a goal-less draw but i didn't really regret staying up to watch it, cos the draw was smthg favourable towards chelsea aft a couple of threats by spurs... and i was rather annoyed by the commentator, cos he kept emphasizing the names of spurs players whenever they were close to scoring(and of course they didn't...).. and at the 55th min, juz when i tot, or rather everyone felt, tt sheva was gg to miss his strike, the ball went IN!!!!! oh my god!!!! i was soooo stunned... i really tot it was gg to fly out straight, but at the corner of the post, it CURLED in!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!! hooray to sheva!!(even the commentator seemed kinda slow.. cos he probably didn't think sheva's ball was gg in...) well done sheva!!! that goal was FANTASTIC!!!!

6 min later, a great goal was produced by shaun wright-phillips... gd job boy!!! a great cross fr a.cole and the cushioning of the ball off drogba's chest... paul robinson had NO CHANCE... haha :D

yup.. so.. unofficially, chelsea will be meeting man u in the FA cup finals... and idiot ronaldo.. he strikes once again. or rather, he dives once again.. he's soooo F**king arrogant la.. he thinks he's soooooooo good! argh!!! i think chelsea has a better chance winning the match.. well, of course, unless ronaldo *slips and fall*... which means it'll definitely be an UGLY ending to the match..

*smiles* i'm so happy!

went to dye and highlight my hair in the afternoon... was abit anxious.. worried.. uncertain abt the whole idea of getting my hair dyed for FREE... oh my god... i was like.. will my hair start falling off tmr??? sobs... i will nv noe until .. well, tmr.. -.-
anyway, the place was kinda 'new' with very little furniture... like not properly renovated.. i dunno.. there was this jap professional hairstylist who helped to recommend the colours for my hair... well, i also didn't noe how to choose cos all the shades of brown looks almost the same...

anyway, i think he and the disciple were kinda 'surprised' wif my hair, cos of the white portion...

yup... halfway thru... he realised that there was another portion with unnatural colour, which was becos i once dyed it to covered the white hair.. so he didn't really 'protect' that portion.. he was kinda.. exasperated i think... i tot he was gg to remove all the foils and redo everything.. but the assistant was like.. nvm.. juz go ahead and do it.. (hai.. see.. tt's wat i'm worried.. hai.. i really dunno how this will affect my hair...sobs..)

well.... anyway, besides THAT, i was pretty happy wif the outcome... the jap pro and his disciple and the rest of the crew seemed pretty pleased wif the highlights.. "good!", "very nice!" "u like?" haha.. ya.. i like.. the highlights was definitely of a LIGHTER SHADE than i had wanted and expected.. but.. i'm ok wif it la..

so.. after tt, i left.. nothin else.. no survey, no promoting to sell anything..i dunno man.. seems tooo good to be true isn't it? hai..

in any case, wateva happens to the state of my hair in future, at least i can rely on the invention - wigs -.-

oh shit.. how?

i'm soooo confused...

no.1 worry: if i get into physio: what if i dun get grades decent enuf to go to aus uni for degree conversion? wat if the workload is too much for me? wat if i breakdown like i did at the end of yr2 in jc? hmm... i'm soo lazy to send the application form for the scholarship.. really, wat are my chances? i got BBC leh.. argh.. but i still wana try... cos if i find out someone got a scholarship wif grades lower than me, i'll kill myself!

no. 2 worry: let's say i dun get into physio, then i (hopefully) get into nus and one of my top choices(sociology or projects & facilities management), then i'll have (hopefully) a more relaxed timetable, and also the campus is nearer to my hse too.. [the worry is actually, wat if the above mentioned dun happen...-.-]

BUT THEN AGAIN. studies is only for the next few years, the most important thing ultimately is still the CAREER.. if i can make it, and get a aus degree for physio, i think i wld be able to live my life the way i want to.. but wat if i dun? wat if it's proven too much for a easily stressed person like me? hai... if i get the scholarship, my degree in aus is almost assured of.. but if not, i'll have to mug very hard.. *faint faint*

watched american idol.. think tt the blake guy sound very british-like.. haha.. he's cute tho.. and chris too.. he sings like justin timberlake.. haha....

prisonbreak returning!! may not watched the first part of the season cos i alr watched it on my bro's laptop.. very very very exciting.. michael scoffield is sooo cute!!!! and desp housewives! the gardener!!!! hot and topless!!!! muahahahaha..

chelsea... rock on?!

i was having dinner when chelsea was playing against tottenham hotspurs.. when i return home, few min before half time, the score was 3-1 . i looked again, 3-1... spurs 3, chelsea 1.. SPURS 3, CHELSEA 1 !!!! wat the hell????!!!! then i observed the stadium.. eh.. it's stamford bridge leh.. why is chelsea losing??? *Faints*

i've seen chelsea down by one goal before and then fighting back to eventually win the match. but to be down by 2 goals? thankfully, it was only half-time, knowing mourinho, he wld come up wif some brilliant plan for second half to bring chelsea on par..

50th min... nothing

60th min... nothing

70th min... nothing.. oh my god! left 20 mins!!! how how how how?

71st min.. GOAL!!!! woohoo!!! lampard scored his second of the nite!!! yea!!!! i was soooo overjoyed!!!! yes!! definitely the fighters!!! rock on!

they didn't disappoint me, and the rest of the chelsea fans.. mins before the final whistle, kalou slammed in a third goal to brg the final score 3-3.. *jumps ard excitedly* hehe

they did it.. too bad they cldn't manage a 4th goal.. which wld save them the trouble of gg to whitehart lane(which they had alr once lost to spurs last yr..) i am soooo NOT looking forward to replay of the q-final match.. but then again, if they do beat spurs, they'll most likely get into finals, cos there's no way blackburn can win chelsea...

c'mon chelsea! u can do it!!! i love u chelsea!!!

bought my tennis shoes today!! addidas somemore!! and poor yh.. it was pouring heavily, and while crossing, she got splashed by the stupid bus... the water was like 'woosh!' and then cos she's like standing next to the road, she kinda helped to block the water away from me.. poor her.. but really very very funny... haha.. oops! sorry yh! at least u bought a nice pair of shoes... haha

tennis lesson again!

had to take half day leave cos need to go down personally to nyp to submit the cca record.. i was sooo dumb.. followed the rgs girls all the way, then realise tt they weren't gg where i wanted to go.. haha.. then i realised nyp is a pretty long walk from the yio chu kang mrt, which is also a long ride from my home... sobs... and i only walk to the admissions office, didn't even see the entire campus...

tennis lesson no.1 ('season 2')- hmm.. coach- quite a nice guy, like qing, but still not as humourous as qing... but he got chest pain!!! he kept rubbing his chest.. i tot he was gg to faint anytime.. so worrying...
the other students - quite mature.. like mid twenties and thirties... apparently all beginners but still can play tennis in their own way...

i think i made abit of impression - the girl who can't serve over the net even tho she's only standing at the service line.. OMG soooo embarrassing... and i'm actually the one who watches and noes abt tennis.. soooo sad... and yh was rite to say i didn't even bother to TRY PROPERLY.. tt's true... haha.. ok, shld definitely work on tt.. AND, i can't help but to hit the strokes HARD.. used to hitting hard alr, then now i'm supposed to use 5% only? okok.. i'll try...

this first lesson was juz to let us noe wat we'll be learning in the next 7 lessons... serve will be taught on the 4th.. so tt gives me 2-3 weeks?!

oh, and i'm kinda upset tt there were like 8 ppls in the class! supposed to have only 6!!! argh... then the 9 to 11 session only got 3 guys(1 cute one somemore).. so me and yh maybe asking to switch class.. liddat benefit everyone ma.. hehe

i wanna buy ipod nano!!! hopefully a less than $200... like 199...

chelsea update: yea! chelsea thru to q-finals!! and man u is suffering!!! muahahaha... poor arsenal-like totally out alr.. maybe no. 3 at most...

update - sports and work!

sports update! chelsea is through!!!! to the quaterfinals in the champions league!!! soooo exciting.. it's one of the very few early morning matches which i manage to stay awake throughout the entire match.. :D robben scored juz mins after 2nd half when chelsea was one goal down... then 11 min before the end, ballack scores!!!!! woohoo!!! so happy!!!! then, i was thinking.. chelsea football is great!!! wat exactly is boring abt it?? hmm.. nvm.. love chelsea man!!! they nv disappoint me.. love them man.. love them to bits... :)

work update -.- i'm pretty alrite wif the workload at the new workplace... sorting and folding letters are my faves!!! muahahahaha.. sooo easy... BUT.. i'm not sure if the 'manager' likes me... i dunno.. maybe she's used to wl.. so these few days i abit blur blur, so she doesn't seem v patient wif me.. hmpf. or maybe it was ytd, cos after lunch hr, i dunno wat to do, so i read the new paper lor.. then the 'boss' not happy and so the manager was prob kinda pissed too.. hai...wl says she's nice somemore.. *faints*
i dunno wat's wrong wif my punch card..the time i punch is after 6, but these past 3 days, the time was punched under different columns...

my jeans are supposed to be ready ytd... i paid money alr lor.. since working at MH, i kinda get more wary of ppls owing me money.. the lady is supposed to call me.. argh...

wat's gg on?!!!

i feel like so shit all over again!!! am i over-reacting?? why do i feel like i'm losing grip of my frens once again???????????? to myself -calm down pls...

gg out wif angie was quite a torture... she was telling me so much stuff, facts, or rather disadvantages of becoming a physiotherapist... her mother dun wan her to join cos the starting pay too low.. then she's like, trying to convince me to give up the course... i hate it when she does tt..

almost half a yr ago, she wanted to join, and all she was worried is whether her bio can make it..
then a few months ago, juz before As, she's decided on another course... that's fine wif me leh.. but did she have to keep harping on the not so nice facts abt the only course tt i'm interested in spore???!!!

went to watch pursuit of happyness... great show! very heartwarming and moltivating... came out of the cinema, and there goes angie saying - 'see! money is very impt'(this referring to the fact tt i shldn't take up physio cos starting pay is too low.) and then i reminded her of another part of the show - juz becos someone can't achieve the dream, doesn't mean u shld let them tell u tt u can't achieve it.

good huh.. hmm... but i muz say she's totally brainwashing me... but then again... i feel that if i have money, i wld go into a certain specialised area of physiotherapy... like sports or smthg... (i'm not exactly interested in the helping old ppls part.. oops! i'll help my parents tho! haha..)

worried abt money........................... heard tt can do conversion to degree at SIM.. er.. dun really want to leh.. wld prefer the one at overseas...

hai... even tho angie annoyed me wif all tht crap, i muz admit it has forced me real hard to think abt it. do i really want to take up physio? can i manage? wld i be able to come up wif enuf money for me to further the studies? wat if i'm not capable of doing it? wat if i flunk the course?

hai. then again, this is prob wat EVERYONE ELSE is thinking too... the gd thing for me is at least i have a aim in mind alr... then dun.. so it's harder for them..

hmm... uh oh.

there are ppls worrying abt which course they can enter cos their results are not tt good. i wldn't say mine are fantastic. but, it's giving me a huge problem now - MONEY

i realise the importance of scholarship. the luxury of it, its priviledges. but wif so many ppls getting As.. how can i fight wif them for the scholarship(myself not even having a A)? then i realise, for physio in nyp, i can only obtain a diploma. in order to convert it to a DEGREE, i need $$$ to go aus uni... well, my mum say the fees can get from my dad's cpf(i'm feeling kinda bad alr).. then degree how? if got scholarship then no need to worry liao lor.. the thing is-DUN HAVE.. maybe i'll juz TRY, and submit the scholarship forms(no harm trying rite?)

if not, plan B lor. start work wif diploma, save what i have earned, and maybe in a FEW yrs, wif BANK LOANS, can go overseas for tt ONE YR???

oh my god... ytd at dinner, i was telling my frens, "first i was worried i can't buy my stuff cos i haven't get my pay. then after getting my pay, i'm not sure as in how to spend, cos i have so many things i want.." and, JUZ RIGHT NOW, i was thinking, if i wana get tt degree, i need to start SAVING UP!!!
oh no.. there goes my: ipod nano, chelsea jersey, lacoste polo, addidas tennis shoes, outfitter girls brown leather bag... sobs!!!

wat shld i do?? after working at tt stupid company, i'm kinda aware of the consequences of NOT PAYING UP! all tt wos, wss, judgement, seizure.. i dun wan!! but bank loan is probably inevitable if i wana go overseas uni... which i think is extremely crucial to my career...

and today is juz the 2nd day upon receiving my results.. -.- [juz wondering, need to take napfa at nyp ah??? oh no!!!]

results...

i am satisfied wif my results... haha.. then i see the rest of the newtowners, i seem to be the lowest..again..hai.. but, nvm... guess i'm juz not as smart and capable as them... hmm, my class ppls did average i think? sw and the guys did very well-so expected.. a couple of us actually got the same grades-me, cheryl, amanda and surong...

math: C - kinda shocked actually.. tot that i'll get a B or even A... haven't inform my tutor abt it.. it's my worst grade.. haha
bio: B - expected...
chemistry: B - kinda lucky.. feeling thankful for it.. tot i wld get C or D... haha..
gp: B3! haha... totally unexpected!!! very shocked... in fact, i feel kinda lucky cos i did better than those who usually do well for their gp... heard some of the art fac students got C for gp.. poor thing...

hmm.. dun have A... sy, ap, and yh all have... so good.. my only consolation? A2 for chinese AO lor.. haha..

angie, jie and eve said my grades can make it into physio.. hope so too!

oh! and i finally got my pay!!! FINALLY! the stupid HR was like so unhappy when she gave me the cheque... and i went for dental appt.. had to put the stupid rubber band.. so painful tt it's giving me a headache...

can't wait to start my new job.. starting working, start earning $$$... and hopefully, the old screwed up company won't forget abt my feb's pay.. 900 plus leh!

hmm.. not sure..

tmr is release of A level results.. i'm trying to recall how i felt the day i received my O lvl results.. kinda shaky i think.. rmb looking at the ohp screen and seeing my frens being commended for their fantastic results.. then when i see my result slip, i kinda - stoned. and felt disappointed.

my fren at work told me tt the pay will be given out, earliest tmr, and latest next mon. well, i was kinda relived to hear it, cos it was a confirmation, rather than not giving a proper ans.. but i starting work next week leh.. how to take leave on first day somemore?!

tmr before results will be meeting at broadway for lunch.. i think everyone is extremely worried. i still dunno wat to do abt my dental appt...hmm.. supposed to meet my friends leh.. but appt at 2.. also dunno how.. then also dunno whether can take pay anot. argh! i hate the company!!!

heard eve has some caucasians in her tennis class.. one cute ukranian... so lucky!!! i wonder who will be there to learn tennis wif us on fri.. i dunno how i'm gg to make it back home and have dinner and then go for the lesson in time.. hmm..

oh.. i still have no idea wat to expect for my results.. some say is 2 grades above prelims.. but tt's kinda impossible for me... afterall, my O lvl showed otherwise. hai. dunno how i'll react leh.. aiyoyo.... hope to do well, but then i alr noe i won't... so sickening.