i really wana go to australia gold coast. really. i wana sit those rides!!! and take pictures wif the crew of looney tunes! will i get to go? i have yet to ask my mum. i can imagine she'll juz remind me to save money for the 4th yr deg conversion at aus(which i'm having my doubt abt it alr)



i'm looking at the attractions at movieworld and seaworld alr.. and also looking at the accommodation prices. can't decide if gg on tour is better(things are taken care of) or free&easy better(eh. well, it's free & easy la)



accommodation is super duper impt! the location mus be good. i mean, accessible to the themeparks. and i muz find out how to TRAVEL from the hotel/motel/apartment to the themeparks.



this is so troublesome... sigh... and it's becos of things like this, there's alot of THINGS tt i wana do but eventually didn't do becos i'm always concerned abt certain things and worrying over other stuff... i shld learn to do this man.



jie: any chance that any of ur aunts might be interested to go wif her family or smthg? then can go tog. then i dun have to research on accommodation le.

had some fun at sentosa ytd.. didn't really cycle but felt a sense of satisfaction as i helped sw and mel to learn cycle.. they're still kinda shaky but i'm sure they'll get the 'feel' of it soon.

have been facebooking these couple of days. esp petting the fluffpets and racing them! totally addicted! i want tt gold medal!!! AAAHHHHHHH! haha. so childish.

watched juno.. was pretty alrite i think... later watching p.s i love you. and then there's still jumper and the leap years(which i hope to watch on the 29th.) i thnk i'm gg to be broke soon. and i still haven't gone shopping.

tennis tmr wif yh!! it's been soooo long! i wonder how well we can still rally!!! haha!!! definitely gg to continue my tanning!!! i bet it'll be way more effective than the tanning session we had at sentosa..

carling cup final: chelsea 1 tottenham 2 (e.t.)

rather disappointed, i turned off my tv half a min before the final whistle. couldn't bear to see chelsea lose.

initially when the commentator said whenever drogba scores, chelsea will win, i was like skeptical. and then when drogba did score the opening goal, i began to be hopeful. spurs were the better team, they were pushing and attacking. chelsea had a really amateurish shaky start. chelsea was supposed to hold on to their goal as it was wat they were supposedly good at. they didn't, i knew they cldn't becos spurs was all out attacking during the late 2nd half, and they got a penalty. good lor

then it went on to extra time, steve clarke and j.terry were both giving moltivational talks and i was almost sure it wld talk some sense into the players. but it didn't. spurs scored their second goal within the first few min. i wasn't panicking at that time cos i tot chelsea cld surely come back. but they didn't. last 5 min of the match, they had one corner after another. but still no equaliser. it was painful to watch. they only have themselves to blame as they refuse to do more attacking when they first got their lead (it's like last min mugging. no use one lor. shld have been more consistent earlier on, so dun have to panick like mad at the end). that's it. chelsea lost. i lost too. i was damn damn damn sure tt chelsea will win this cup. so they at least have one silverware in their bag for this season. now the other 2 possible cups they can win is facup and cham league(which i think is still not tt possible but i shall keep my faith in them)

sigh:(

finally. exams are over. i dun feel like seeing a counsellor anymore, even though i think i really need help in coping wif the anxiety i face during exam period. it gets extremely awful.

anyway, i'm kinda disappointed not to be joining my class for timbre tonite..sorry. have decided to have a sleepover instead.. juz feel like having heart-to-heart talks wif my closest frens..

decided against getting a job this hols, wld really needa focus on clinicals preparation. initially i wasn't so nervous abt it, up til audrey mentioned some of the objectives tt we have to achieve. oh. and the fact tt if we fail one clinicals, have to retake and hence will be behind the rest by one 'clinicals'. DARN. i plan to do well in my clinicals.. brush up on my interpersonal skills(i wonder how), learn abit of teochew and canto, practice transfers, mmt and rom.. rom still can, cos i was given a chance to do it at sgh(tho not very skilled), mmt is like -!!!! it's easy to do in lab la.. but in front of the real patient, muz really be professional abt it..

gotta work out hard during this hols... kinda used to running in the gym wif the aircon le.. abit not looking forward to running on tracks.. sigh.. one yr down, one more yr to 2.4test.

other stuff i'm looking forward to:
shopping!
cycling/rollerblading wif my pals!
tanning at sentosa! haha
buying donuts from donut factory! double chocolate!!!!! chocolate wif raspberry!
fried mars bar!!!!! omg!!!
tennis/squash/badminton! work those calories!!!
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revision-.-

cheryl left. how sad. i wasn't there to see her off.

anyways, i feel really really upset about today's kine/epa paper. i also dunno whether i'd describe it as upset or numb. nah, i'm definitely upset and disappointed about today's paper. i think i didn't think hard enough before i attempted each question, so when that happens, i write out ans that i think make sense. at the end of the paper, on the way home, i ponder over it and ask wat my frens think of that paper. i have a feeling they sorta knew wat to write, but perhaps didn't phrase it properly. but for me, i felt like i didn't know wat i was writing, and everything juz came out based on prev prac and some sorta common sense.

on the bright side, i didn't leave questions blank. ya i think. but some of my ans are really crap lor. argh....

exams bother me. they really do. i have a feeling i'm the only person who is bothered by the way i fare in the paper. it sux really bad cos i feel tt i shld have stepped out of my sec sch/jc mentality and be more mature when it comes to studying for exams. i haven't. i'm still tt crybaby who succumb under pressure. the annoyed girl who can't let go of some minor marks, the perfectionist who wants to regurgitate word for word in each essay que.

i need to change.
i need to see a shrink/psychologist to help me deal with my panic attacks.

optimistic joyce. i know myself well, despite all the negativities, a side of me is assuring me tt i dun have to take sub paper, at most get a D for epa/kine mod.

i'm not gg to say i'll study harder for next sem. it does't work. after so many years, i've come to realised tt last min cramping is bad but somewat effective. unless i study my subj the way i study for anatomy. i'll miss anatomy.. abit la. cos it's the only mod tt i can do well becos i can regurgitate the facts. word for work (ps. essays only la, mcq not included unofrtunately)

i'm supposed to be happy tt kine/epa paper is over. i hope studying for biom will be smooth sailing later. hai. but got calculation ques, so can't be tt smooth la.

cheer up joyce.

i'm thinking of the day tt i was absolutely sure i failed epa prac. and i got a C in the end. let's hope things turn out better tt wat i think:)

i obviously haven't stepped out of that 'circle'/mentality.
GIVE ME A BREAK.

i'm really upset about my kine prac grade. i thought i did well. but thinking back again, the teacher did give me quite some hints abt certain stuff, so i guess i dun deserve the grade i wanted. But, if it had been the other teacher, i may have done slightly better. oh wells. now, i noe i have to work even harder for the written exam which is super duper tough cos the ans are not found in the notes. the notes are like not informative at all lor. and kine/epa has the highest credit points! kill me!

i'm worried tt if i'm not able to grind out at least 3.0 every sem, then i might not be able to get into an aus uni... sigh. wat shld i do? maybe i can work hard to do well in clinicals? haha.. unlikely considering i still sux at chi and unable to utter much phrases in the 3 dialects. i have alot to work on during the march hols.

gotta get back to studying.

i'm so dead. it's eve of CNY, and here i am in doubt over my kine pract. i thought i did well leh, even for the exercise part.. then, my fren who supposedly got the same que said it's eccen exercise and eccen functional. but i recall prescribing exercises meant for concentric. oh no.. i thnk now there's a possibility tt i may fail (even tho i did 'pass' the rom and mmt part). hmm.. but exercise prescription is not really - forget it. it's impt, if wrong exercise means fail le? die die die. shit la... why audrey nv prompt? she juz keep asking 'anything else?' so i juz keep giving concentric. i even say out how it works leh. die la. now she thinks i dunno wat's conc and ecce. shit. oh god.

tt aside. epa was alrite. managed to smoke thru even tho last nite i was seriously having a panic attack. think i may do better for epa after all.

positive sign for right trendeleburg - i dunno if i spelt the word correctly, but this is wat happens: while standing, the person's right leg will be straight, while the left pelvis drops, becos the right abductor is not able to keep the pelvis level.

i demo-ed it to my tester, and gave an explanation while demo-ing. and guess wat, for a 20yr old student, i really screwed up my left and right! i demo and said "so the right side will be straight" - and i pointed to my left leg standing straight. and then say" and left pelvis drop", and i dropped my right pelvis!

i even did all the actions leh! i showed how the right abductors(pointing at left thigh) will not be able to level the pelvis on the left side (pointing to right thigh).

it's not THAT BIG a deal i hope? afterall, my exercises were prescribed for the right leg, and i made sure my patient did it on the right leg.

yes. calm down joyce. this plus the fact the TFL doesn't attach to lateral condyle + my patient did compensation and i didn't say out until tester pointed out + my measurement for ROM also abit not here not there = i think too much liao. [i also tot of a better exercise while i was showering juz now. i shld have suggested it. damn. i think better while showering. ]

yes. i thought i cld get a good grade, now. er, well, i still think i did well.. haha.. i'm an OPTIMIST! (FYI:optimist expect good stuff to happen. i always tot they juz HOPE good stuff will happen.. hmm. )

alrite man! now. gotta start on epa. i'm so damn happy it's not tmr.. i juz took like a 1.45 h of nap!!! which felt really good after staying in sch for so long.

i'm gg to do quick shopping tmr(since i overslept), hopefully get 2 tops. and buy myself either a prosperity burger or juz the twister fries :)

am looking for websites for exercise prescription. hope the spine exercises won't be tested. argh. shit. i still rmb i have to go memorise definitions for psychology.

last nite was pretty fun. the surprise was definitely there. tho it felt more like a grp gathering rather than a class gathering cos the guys left soon after cheryl appeared and we were still sorta in out own little grps.

the exercise doesn't seem hard leh. but i noe when i see the que tmr, i'll surely -!! nope. i shall be calm when i see the que. and there's a difference between stretching and strengthening, and i have yet to touch the latter! frustrating! lucky my slot is the noon. but still.

bad news. chelsea drew!!! oh man 1-1!!! so damn close to winning la, with all the last min attacks! and idiot man u!! they score a goal at like the 93rd min to save their sorry ass! why cldn't chelsea have done the same?! then we'll be levelled, or close. now, we're 6pts below. sobs. 3 mths left? *prays hard* and shit la, chelsea is playing liverpool next!!! prays tt our home record stays unbeaten!!!!

it's 1st feb. and week 16 has juz ended.. the dreaded wk 17 with 3 tests will soon arrive :S
but still, it's been a 'fabulous' wk 16.
1) i got noticed. i think... mr.p saw me 4 times this wk! haha
2) i fell in love with the new song - So Close by Jon Mclaughlin. and i can't stop listening to it. my classmates hate me for it. i even put the song on a com in the resource room!
3) i ate 2 donuts from donut factory! Double Chocolate and the Chocolate with raspberry! SINFUL! but absolutely delicious!!! thx joce!
4) i did well for anatomy. and i was the first to find out bcos i actually approached dr uma right before she wanted to edit the list for an unnecessary reason. and apparently she noes i improved. like as though she know me very well liddat -.-

yup. tt sums up the week :)

on the downside
1) i think i was pretty unproductive in studying, except for making notes blindly
2) i totally sux at public speaking. i need to take up a course during the hols or smthg. shoots.
3) i'm pretty clueless abt exercise prescription. shit.
4) i haven't exercise much during the week.

4 -4. draw. haha. oh! chelsea won as usual! so did man u and arsenal. so it's still a draw.

the dreaded D-day will arrive in 2 weeks. it's probably more dreaded than my 2oth birthday. sobs...