it's a weird feeling to be totally by myself compared to being myself in the presence of the other 2.. there's more comfort in numbers in the latter. not that it really matters right now, since i'm at the lobby watching boys over flowers. but yea, i'm curious to know where they are right now...

this wkend was pretty relaxed i guess. to be staying in hongkong and not having to worry abt what condition the next pt will present with or wat are the biomechanics of this and that... it's juz pure holiday..

Hai. can't believe that for the ortho inpt, i'll still be graded. kena stumped by all the simple qns today...


i can't play catch up anymore. any longer.
i miss being alone without being lonely.

i noe many of the 'consequences' are the results of the decisions i made, but i guess that's juz who i am. it's hard to put it in words. maybe i'm a complicated person who doesn't like to be 'manipulated', i like things to be done my way - unfortunately, when i'm ard with ppls who are more outspoken and have a mind of their own, instead of speaking up, i'd rather go do my own thing, my own way, myself, alone.

if u stay in a foreign land for 6wks with ppls whom u're are not used to, u either hate em or love em.
but whateva the emotion u choose for the person, only express it after the 6wks.
until then, u juz gotta suck it up, cos they are the ones u sleep next to every single night...

28 days have passed and i've made up my mind.

soon! ppls, i'm cmg home REAL SOON!!!
and soon i'll be able to treat my 2 kind friends for the help they've provided me few mths back! :)))))

i can't WAIT to get out of the clinic man! wk 3 was still tolerable. managed to survive somehow... but i dunno how much more he'd expect from us on the last wk!! i'm secretly glad i can't speak canto, so perhaps he doesn't expect me to give pt education.. haha. but then i wished i was able to understand the language more. cos it seems like my ce is so good with his pt, building up rapport and stuff. and i really wish i know what he was saying to the pt so i can pick up some stuff from him!

sigh.. i wonder how it'll be like if i'm here with my good pals instead.. haha.. i dunno... guess it depends on who..

hmm.. inservice is such a chore. i'd be out shopping like mad if it wasn't for inservice. not that i'm very productive anyway. juz kinda waiting for them to pass me the impt info..

miss the days at sydney.. guess it's always the case. when i'm in sg, i'll yearn to go overseas, and the moment i step out of sg, i wish i was back in sg. why is it this way??? i'm like half looking forward to gg aus for further studies, but now... after been to sydney for 1wk and hk for 3wks plus(soon 5wks), i can't decide if i really wana leave the stupid little red dot.

Updates from HK!

it's been super long since i last updated! been thru quite a lot but i'll try to summarise them all

day1: at the airport. started out really embarrassing cos my mum was rushing for work, and she kept insisting on me and the rest to check in. while the family of the other 2 are still like 'dilly dallying'.. which is understandable on their part. but i still feel my mum didn't have to be so kanchiong to send me off for a 6wks HK attachment

my 4mth old samsung pixxon broke down on me the moment the plane landed in hk. it literally burnt up. -.- so annoying

we got lost on the way to the hotel becos we took bus instead of cab. BAD CHOICE. DUN EVEN DO THAT OK. [now tt we look back on that experience, we cld have found our way easier since we juz walked rounds and rounds abt the hotel. but still. if u have a 20kg lugguage. TAKE A CAB]

sobbed and sobbed on the first nite there when we found out the room was freaking small. it was really extremely small.. and all the problems surfaced upon us and we just cldn't control our tears... fortunately, a kind soul appeared and we managed to switch to a bigger room the next day. accommodation- settled.

Clinicals. our CE is no-joke, no-nonsence kind one ok. tt says it all. nothing close to my neuro CE in ttsh. and we had peripherals on top of spine cases! ARGH. anyway, i was really stressed out during the first and 2nd wk. cried and called my mum to talk abt it.. it was quite similar to how i felt back on the day before bio Alevels.. juz extremely painful. not to mention i was in a foreign land far far away from home. did not help at all. but after a while, i got settled. i dun think my mid-eval is extremely reflective of my competency due to lack of spine cases. so. oh wells. i hope to do better within the next 2 wks since my spine placement is only 4 wks short. [yes, i'm extremely happy to say that my spine placement is only 4 wks. i dun think i can handle this amt of stress any longer. but of course tt meant i only have 4(now 2) wks left to redeem myself... ]

shopping wise- let's juz say i'm the type tt will buy stuff tt can be found in sg overseas. yea. so brands like esp nike and adidas- i'll buy them when i'm overseas cos tt's when i can spend the money more at ease. haha. rubbish. wateva... i haven't decided if i shld get converse anot.. not really my style. haha. maybe la. still got one more yr of uni(if i get in). i juz feel like my sense of style and clothings shld change now tt i'm a adult..ok. tt's abit rubbish. i can't phrase it well. but yea. something along tt line tt i shld dress nicely more. haha.

hmm. i declare sunday my free and easy day. cos the other 2 go church, and i decide i shall do whateva i like whenever i want. so yup.

yup. food is alrite here... had a century egg porridge lunch diet last wk.. haha... muz save money over the wkdays so that i can spend more over the wkends!!

i miss my mummy.... everytime i'm sad and i talk to her, i'll miss her more... and i'll end up crying... i dunno how my grades will turn our - both the exam and the placement grades.. i really hope i'll do well this 2 wks and prove my competency.