Aries

i was replying a sms juz now when i realised, its either my personality for having such a huge reaction to the type of qn my dear fren was asking. or juz how 'terrible' that qn is to be even asked.
so i thought i'd do a in-depth research abt myself as an aeries (I AM BORED after all), and maybe elaborate too.

Aries will be a loyal friend as long as the relationship keeps evolving and they feel that it is of benefit, but if they become bored or the relationship becomes stale, they will assuredly get out
-- true in a certain extent. but i think this applies to many ppl.. i have several friends who i tell different stuff abt and i like this.. so that i dun totally overload one person with all my emotions..

Strengths: Adventurous, Energetic, courageous, confident
i think the strengths are pretty true! haha. juz becos i feel no qualms whatsoever doing skydiving, bungy and in the future, swimming with sharks! not so true abt confidence though..i think i have self-image issues.

Weakness: self centered, short tempered, impulsive, impatient
weakness.. also pretty true. unfortunately i AM self-centered. in many ways i think my friends surely have felt it one way or another. i try to be generous and considerate but let's juz say, they're not in my genes. short tempered yea.. impulsive.. i dun really have eg of that.. impatient YES! I HATE WAITING, I HATE PPL WHO DO NOT COME ON TIME,(so tt pretty much means i hate all my friends. HAHA. pls dun be offended. juz try not to be late the next time u see me, and NO. tell me early tt u're gonna be late DOES NOT HELP. ok. anyways , i've learnt my lesson and i am no longer punctual. but i still turn up as the earliest latecomer. HATE IT) i think this impatient and self-centered traits kinda feed on each other. PAI SEH HOR.

Aries are nv shy of apologizing.
YES. extremely true. as with my Hk fren incidence. i take time. but i absolutely hate it when somebody gets the wrong impression of me. i can get angry easily. so yea. i guess i do the wrong things(becos i AM self centered :S)

Aries can speak about anything & everything under the sun.
-- NO! unless u are my close friend. or some random dude i meet online. haha

Possessing a strong sense of urgency!!!
AH YES! tt's the total opposite of impatience right?! and that is A GOOD TRAIT! i'm not sure if i got it when i was in military band and heard of the term. i think if i have a timeline, i will follow to it strictly and expect the rest to do so too. what's the point of having a timeline if u ain't gonna follow it!? i'm not sure if this is the same as being extremely time-oriented. i like to have timelines on the day of exams so tt i can tell myself what time to wake up, study, shower, lunch and when i shld leave home! yes i do that!!

remember, what Aries wants, Aries usually gets...
? really? only when i have money i think. or since last yr when i turned 21. wldn't say its true all the time!

Aries can sometimes be an egotist.Aries is the first sign of the zodiac, the first in any modern (or old) astrology sun-sign list. This strangely enough, often transfers to the person born under aries into a "me first"
-- tt probably explains my self-centeredness. not my fault ok!

Arians tend to be very organized and are therefore able to organize others with ease.
-- very true. yet i think that being too organized and wanting to get things done MY WAY sometimes backfires :(

The Leader: Being the first sign of the zodiac seems to make Arians natural leaders. They are seen as ambitious, exciting, and vibrant individuals who gravitate towards the centre of any action because of these traits. Arians make great leaders because they normally have genuine concern for those they lead. They tend to be frank and candid, which are traits many people look for in a leader.
--- true. i often myself NOT being able to juz sit back and i dun like to wait for things to happen (IMPATIENT!), so i guess tt's why i like to take things to my own hands and make things happen. once again, it does backfire, so i shld probably watch myself more.

Arians are very good at starting things, but often may leave tasks unfinished.
true to a certain extent! i guess tt's what leaders do rite? start a idea, and let the others fnish it. HAHA. juz kidding y'all!

Ares are Independent.
TRUE TO THE MAX. i'm the kind who do things for MYSELF (recall self-centered) and i dun like waiting for other (recall impatient). i go movies alone when i feel like it, i dun see a problem shopping alone.

A romantic relationship with a sweet, quiet guy won’t work for her. It’s important to choose someone who will hold his own and will not intimidate easily, otherwise life will become way too boring for Aries. On the other hand, they dislike restrictions of any kind and a possessive relationship will end up going nowhere. That does not mean she won’t be a little possessive herself. She sees nothing wrong in that.
--- i agree :)

The typical Aries woman has the physical stamina of a long distance runner. Generally healthy, these robust subjects have been known to stave off the flu through sheer willpower. Arians are simply too busy to be sick.
-- if only! then i won't be failing my 2.4 19 out of 20 times! but fyi, i still go for my regular jogs! and i am seldom sick, though i blow my nose quite often. its the aircon.

Aries motto is "Ready, fire, aim!" It may be backwards for others, but you'd rather figure out what to do while you are doing it. Impulsive actions, however, can bring you your share of trouble. While others are gathering information to make informed decisions, you are already on your way. As such, you could suffer from false starts. In fact, you Aries are so good at starting things that you can be off onto your next project before completing the previous one. As you Aries mature, you learn to slow down your reaction time in order to think about the consequences of your actions
--- SO TRUE. the last sentence --- it is only becos not everyone ard me ar aries. so i often gotta slow down and wait.. hate waiting!

i am a chronic worrier

over the past years, i've worried abt these

schools
spelling
tests CA, SA in primary & secondary sch
exams
assignments
public speaking

very recently
results
chances of gg for degree conversion
conflict with my org
gg nz - accommodation & activities

stuff in general
getting a bf. or not being able to get one

future
working.
treatment strategies. or the lack of it
documentation
inservice
contribution to the team
getting sued

this past wk was probably the worst. ever. day by day, getting worried for stuff, one over-taking another. no rest in between. and not to mention my poor sleep pattern is hugely affecting me ---- ONLY BECOS i worry i can't get out of it!

i know 99% of my worries are for nothing. but i can't help it. i really can't.
websites says tt worrying is gd becos it helps prevent problems by first anticipating it. so yea. but of course, at my rate of worrying, i'm sure the disadvantages outweigh the benefit.

hai. i worry abt not worrying too.

my org is not happy with me. or juz one or two of them.
pls let everything resolve peacefully.

my worst results ever.
if i had gotten these results last sem, it might not feel as bad. but because its the last sem, it kinda became the DECIDING sem
really sux that my results dropped this far. all because of clinicals. that 5 wks at hk (and i know that 5 wks at sgh also did affected this)

what's a girl gotta do to get into a uni?
maybe i gotta look into newcastle too. maybe i'll go there. maybe they'll take me in.
*see lah! who ask u dun want to go uni after jc. now go thru another phase of fretting over impt stuff like this!*

argh i'm so tired.
i just want to cry.
what's the f**king point of getting a scholarship if i ain't gonna live up to the standard?!?! i should totally screw myself and put a gunshot through my head. i don't deserve this.

k. shit. die.

Results out tmr.. D DAY for one very last time in NYP.
gosh. i'm still not as nervous yet. maybe i will be tmr. and then for the additional few mths where i await my application for the overseas uni.
will i be accepted?
can't imagine having to pay 1k back to nuh if i dun. then where do i work at? probably NUH still since sgh reached quota and ttsh too.

hmm.

my daily routine is as follows:

1)wake up at 9
2)breakfast
3)Back to bed by 12 or 3pm (depending on what shows are available)
4)wake up ard 5-6plus
5)goes for a 45min jog
6)watches tv til 2am(cos i enjoy watching the rerun of ER)

tt's pretty much how sad my life is now.
wait..no it's not sad.. it's juz rather lifeless.
i can't say its boring cos i'm supposed to be happy to be like this BECOS tt was how i yearn to be during the crazy period of sch.
i'm not working out as hard as i wish i was (note, jogging is not performed DAILY unfortunately)
i'm running out of money soon.
and i wld love to eat xiaolongbao. or dimsum. right now. or soon.

i miss pt2 ppls. all the lame stuff abt them. nobody is online. what's wrong with them?!

HOLIDAYS....

it's been a week... sentosa, baking, nz itinerary, lunched with angie, borrowed books, rented vcds... all's good man..

i've decided i'll probably come home with a westie when i come home from australia in a yr's time. that is IF i do go to aus in the first place... hmm.. i dun wana think abt it.. from the time when i think if my gpa can make it, to me hoping to get a scholarship, and now tt i spent most of the scholarship $$, i'm worried if the intake is large enuf to accept me in.

NZ plans: pretty much settled. except the fact tt juz the ACTIVITIES itself cost a bomb of 1.5k! no food/accommodation/transport included! :S can't imagine having to tell my mum tt i have to draw tt amt of moolah. oh dear

Gotta buy a cap! BUGIS!
Next wk is IT fair - gotta buy the thumbdrive, external harddisk and guitar hero(probably shld go with my mum instead.. pretty sure she'd pay for the first 2.)
L'oreal sale the wk after... dunno what to buy, but looking forward to seeing what they have :)

right now, life is pretty comfortable.. yea, i miss the bunch of ppls.. even though gg to sch means being stressed out, i def miss hanging out with them.. talking, gossiping, laughing... lots of smile and laughter... it's kinda.. quiet since sch ended.. :(