i'm sucha terrible person.
hai.
i wonder how many more mistakes i can make before committing the worst one ever.

please let me learn from all these mistakes and to never repeat them ever.

omgosh omgosh omgosh!!!!! i'm so friggin excited that i made it to UNISA!!!
AUSTRALIA HERE I COME... AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i feel more motivation to work harder at work!!!
[[[ side thought. my teamleader juz trf, so now i got a new teamleader whom i hasn't spoken to before. and i stil feel clueless and helpless at times, and well, not answering questions, nor discussing them properly as a PHYSIO... i hope i learn from these past mistakes and make better contributions in the very very near future, aka saturday onwards!]]]

ANYWAYS, back to my lovely australia!!!!!!!!!!! this is all abt australia post man!
so YES, i did get in with my somewhat pretty ridiculous gpa. and i found out 2 of my seniors will be gg(they seem nice) and another of my notsoclose classmate...
but the thing is, I'M GG TO AUSTRALIA!!! the land where cheryl and jie are! the land where i spent my 21st birthday at!!!

oh gosh, i can't wait to plan all those trips AROUND australia!!!
omgosh, if i wana go so many places in aussie, how to go scotland!?!!?!?!?!!?!?

OMGOD like 1 mth ago, i was soooo decided on gg there, (and getting a westie, but well that was really more fat chance). but yes! i wanted to, and i dunno now.. the thing is with some of my pals there, it wld make gg to this cool awesome (and rather random) nation much more 'safe' and ya. at least i know i have friends there who can bring me out and it won't be entired a solo backpacking trip(kinda like my 21st bday in sydney)

but with the calculation tt i'm doing now, i dunno if i have enuf money! the KEY KEY things that i need a lot of money for are MACBOOK PRO and SCOTLAND! see! even my branded bags are pushed out of way becos of this! with my meagre pay, and many future thoughts on the trips tt i'll be gg IN Australia (dreamworld movieworld seaworld in GOLD COAST), i dunno how i can save up enough to fulfil all these travelling needs(wants) of mine!!!!!!!
and who knows, maybe a short NZ trip somewhere in between? on MAGIC? haha

talking abt australia is like so never ending!
first of all, it's UNISA i'm gg. so it'll be in south australia. issit the same as adelaide? that i'm not entirely sure..
there's accommodation.. well, tt shld be for the later part. i'm thinking of an apartment shared with the others tt i'm gg with.. but preferably a room on MY OWN!! i need my space!
then there's food. start learning!!! i need to learn chinese food for god's sake!
and travelling! please let me pass my driving b4 i go off! maybe we cld do a road trip somewhere?!?!?!?!
can i have a dog there? then bring it back when i come back?! omgosh.................
ooh shopping! hahaha hmm... adelaide ah. dunno can shop what leh
then the beaches!!!

thenthen! during the holidays, can go gold coast!!!!!!!!!
this post is so filled with random stuff!! hope they all come true!! one way or another!

i'm secretly still very scared.
but i shall be brave. or at least pretend to be. for now.
things will get better.

wakeboardin was interesting. if only the water wasn't so salty and my abs didn't feel so tired so easily.

i miss NZ. i really do.

yes at times i didn't enjoy certain parts during the trip becos it's not easy travelling with so many people and so such tight schedule.

but i still miss nz.

i miss the long white clouds tt covers the entire sky, and that is so endless it seems to be touching the ground.
i miss the fun adventures that we participated - white water rafting at kaituna river, horse-riding, cycling on the road THAT HAS A CYCLING lane, gg to the beach, swoop, bungy at taupo...
i miss the delicious food we have esp when the company is so good
i miss the weather (very odd. but yea. i guess towards the end of the trip, the weather seems alittle more bearable)
i miss the funny moments we share, the laughter and jokes...
i miss cookie time. and afghans. subway's cookie tasted funny juz now.

i can't wait for my next trip. hopefully i can go to scotland.
and in a few years time. to travel around the States.

A trying phase

Wk 1 has passed. But technically, i've only been up the wards since thursday
As a working adult, i do not wish to post all my nonsensical rantings here, for.. i'm afraid it may reflect badly on me.

It is a very trying phase to start working. I'm not sure if it's just me, or that it's only been 2nd day. Here i was, having spent the last 3hrs since i reached home from working, researching continuously.

I do not want to disappoint the people around me, especially the patients. They deserve nothing but the best. And because they do, i have to do my part to make sure i don't screw up.

Today was a teeny weeny bit better than yesterday. Hopefully Monday will be even better..
Being at the bottom isn't necessary a bad thing. It means things can only get better :)