hmm... wat happened?

i was told that today wld be my last day... i wonder why... i tot of a couple of possible reasons:
1) the management had other arrangements (tt's wat the HR told me)
2) they realise i lied abt my reason for half-day leave, which was to dye hair instead of collecting my cert.
3) su feels tt the way i tie the papers using the string is too loose..
4) i'm doing the work too slowly.
5) i took 2 half days in 12 days of work..

hmm... well, i've mixed feelings abt getting fired. good thing is i can have my free time now.. all to myself.. no more excuses for not gg to exercise.. but i dun think it's a gd idea to swim cos i juz had my hair dyed.. more time to go out, and shop, and hang out wif the rest... BUT.. less money:( wld have been able to spend more if i had work a couple more weeks.. and to save more too..

wld be gg to my mum's workplace to help her wif her heavy workload from tmr onwards.. she's been very busy...
was thinking of giving tuition too.. juz tt i'm worried i can't ans the students' que.. it wld be sooo embarrassing :S

hmm.. yh got her scholarship... gd for u girl! too bad there's no hostel, then i can bunk in wif her.. hai.. *envy envy*... well, she's sorta got her overseas degree covered.. not sure if i can have the chance a not.. hai... dun even noe if i'm accepted into the course.. so many ppls who have her grades are applying for physio.. i've got no chance man!

i wanna shop!! buy pants!!!! i sooo regret buying the pair of jeans.. it's so.. argh..

ROCK ON CHELSEA!!!!

i'm sooooo extremely proud of chelsea and their performance this morning against spurs.. they played the match at white hart lane where they were once defeated last yr..

first half was a goal-less draw but i didn't really regret staying up to watch it, cos the draw was smthg favourable towards chelsea aft a couple of threats by spurs... and i was rather annoyed by the commentator, cos he kept emphasizing the names of spurs players whenever they were close to scoring(and of course they didn't...).. and at the 55th min, juz when i tot, or rather everyone felt, tt sheva was gg to miss his strike, the ball went IN!!!!! oh my god!!!! i was soooo stunned... i really tot it was gg to fly out straight, but at the corner of the post, it CURLED in!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!! hooray to sheva!!(even the commentator seemed kinda slow.. cos he probably didn't think sheva's ball was gg in...) well done sheva!!! that goal was FANTASTIC!!!!

6 min later, a great goal was produced by shaun wright-phillips... gd job boy!!! a great cross fr a.cole and the cushioning of the ball off drogba's chest... paul robinson had NO CHANCE... haha :D

yup.. so.. unofficially, chelsea will be meeting man u in the FA cup finals... and idiot ronaldo.. he strikes once again. or rather, he dives once again.. he's soooo F**king arrogant la.. he thinks he's soooooooo good! argh!!! i think chelsea has a better chance winning the match.. well, of course, unless ronaldo *slips and fall*... which means it'll definitely be an UGLY ending to the match..

*smiles* i'm so happy!

went to dye and highlight my hair in the afternoon... was abit anxious.. worried.. uncertain abt the whole idea of getting my hair dyed for FREE... oh my god... i was like.. will my hair start falling off tmr??? sobs... i will nv noe until .. well, tmr.. -.-
anyway, the place was kinda 'new' with very little furniture... like not properly renovated.. i dunno.. there was this jap professional hairstylist who helped to recommend the colours for my hair... well, i also didn't noe how to choose cos all the shades of brown looks almost the same...

anyway, i think he and the disciple were kinda 'surprised' wif my hair, cos of the white portion...

yup... halfway thru... he realised that there was another portion with unnatural colour, which was becos i once dyed it to covered the white hair.. so he didn't really 'protect' that portion.. he was kinda.. exasperated i think... i tot he was gg to remove all the foils and redo everything.. but the assistant was like.. nvm.. juz go ahead and do it.. (hai.. see.. tt's wat i'm worried.. hai.. i really dunno how this will affect my hair...sobs..)

well.... anyway, besides THAT, i was pretty happy wif the outcome... the jap pro and his disciple and the rest of the crew seemed pretty pleased wif the highlights.. "good!", "very nice!" "u like?" haha.. ya.. i like.. the highlights was definitely of a LIGHTER SHADE than i had wanted and expected.. but.. i'm ok wif it la..

so.. after tt, i left.. nothin else.. no survey, no promoting to sell anything..i dunno man.. seems tooo good to be true isn't it? hai..

in any case, wateva happens to the state of my hair in future, at least i can rely on the invention - wigs -.-

oh shit.. how?

i'm soooo confused...

no.1 worry: if i get into physio: what if i dun get grades decent enuf to go to aus uni for degree conversion? wat if the workload is too much for me? wat if i breakdown like i did at the end of yr2 in jc? hmm... i'm soo lazy to send the application form for the scholarship.. really, wat are my chances? i got BBC leh.. argh.. but i still wana try... cos if i find out someone got a scholarship wif grades lower than me, i'll kill myself!

no. 2 worry: let's say i dun get into physio, then i (hopefully) get into nus and one of my top choices(sociology or projects & facilities management), then i'll have (hopefully) a more relaxed timetable, and also the campus is nearer to my hse too.. [the worry is actually, wat if the above mentioned dun happen...-.-]

BUT THEN AGAIN. studies is only for the next few years, the most important thing ultimately is still the CAREER.. if i can make it, and get a aus degree for physio, i think i wld be able to live my life the way i want to.. but wat if i dun? wat if it's proven too much for a easily stressed person like me? hai... if i get the scholarship, my degree in aus is almost assured of.. but if not, i'll have to mug very hard.. *faint faint*

watched american idol.. think tt the blake guy sound very british-like.. haha.. he's cute tho.. and chris too.. he sings like justin timberlake.. haha....

prisonbreak returning!! may not watched the first part of the season cos i alr watched it on my bro's laptop.. very very very exciting.. michael scoffield is sooo cute!!!! and desp housewives! the gardener!!!! hot and topless!!!! muahahahaha..

chelsea... rock on?!

i was having dinner when chelsea was playing against tottenham hotspurs.. when i return home, few min before half time, the score was 3-1 . i looked again, 3-1... spurs 3, chelsea 1.. SPURS 3, CHELSEA 1 !!!! wat the hell????!!!! then i observed the stadium.. eh.. it's stamford bridge leh.. why is chelsea losing??? *Faints*

i've seen chelsea down by one goal before and then fighting back to eventually win the match. but to be down by 2 goals? thankfully, it was only half-time, knowing mourinho, he wld come up wif some brilliant plan for second half to bring chelsea on par..

50th min... nothing

60th min... nothing

70th min... nothing.. oh my god! left 20 mins!!! how how how how?

71st min.. GOAL!!!! woohoo!!! lampard scored his second of the nite!!! yea!!!! i was soooo overjoyed!!!! yes!! definitely the fighters!!! rock on!

they didn't disappoint me, and the rest of the chelsea fans.. mins before the final whistle, kalou slammed in a third goal to brg the final score 3-3.. *jumps ard excitedly* hehe

they did it.. too bad they cldn't manage a 4th goal.. which wld save them the trouble of gg to whitehart lane(which they had alr once lost to spurs last yr..) i am soooo NOT looking forward to replay of the q-final match.. but then again, if they do beat spurs, they'll most likely get into finals, cos there's no way blackburn can win chelsea...

c'mon chelsea! u can do it!!! i love u chelsea!!!

bought my tennis shoes today!! addidas somemore!! and poor yh.. it was pouring heavily, and while crossing, she got splashed by the stupid bus... the water was like 'woosh!' and then cos she's like standing next to the road, she kinda helped to block the water away from me.. poor her.. but really very very funny... haha.. oops! sorry yh! at least u bought a nice pair of shoes... haha

tennis lesson again!

had to take half day leave cos need to go down personally to nyp to submit the cca record.. i was sooo dumb.. followed the rgs girls all the way, then realise tt they weren't gg where i wanted to go.. haha.. then i realised nyp is a pretty long walk from the yio chu kang mrt, which is also a long ride from my home... sobs... and i only walk to the admissions office, didn't even see the entire campus...

tennis lesson no.1 ('season 2')- hmm.. coach- quite a nice guy, like qing, but still not as humourous as qing... but he got chest pain!!! he kept rubbing his chest.. i tot he was gg to faint anytime.. so worrying...
the other students - quite mature.. like mid twenties and thirties... apparently all beginners but still can play tennis in their own way...

i think i made abit of impression - the girl who can't serve over the net even tho she's only standing at the service line.. OMG soooo embarrassing... and i'm actually the one who watches and noes abt tennis.. soooo sad... and yh was rite to say i didn't even bother to TRY PROPERLY.. tt's true... haha.. ok, shld definitely work on tt.. AND, i can't help but to hit the strokes HARD.. used to hitting hard alr, then now i'm supposed to use 5% only? okok.. i'll try...

this first lesson was juz to let us noe wat we'll be learning in the next 7 lessons... serve will be taught on the 4th.. so tt gives me 2-3 weeks?!

oh, and i'm kinda upset tt there were like 8 ppls in the class! supposed to have only 6!!! argh... then the 9 to 11 session only got 3 guys(1 cute one somemore).. so me and yh maybe asking to switch class.. liddat benefit everyone ma.. hehe

i wanna buy ipod nano!!! hopefully a less than $200... like 199...

chelsea update: yea! chelsea thru to q-finals!! and man u is suffering!!! muahahaha... poor arsenal-like totally out alr.. maybe no. 3 at most...

update - sports and work!

sports update! chelsea is through!!!! to the quaterfinals in the champions league!!! soooo exciting.. it's one of the very few early morning matches which i manage to stay awake throughout the entire match.. :D robben scored juz mins after 2nd half when chelsea was one goal down... then 11 min before the end, ballack scores!!!!! woohoo!!! so happy!!!! then, i was thinking.. chelsea football is great!!! wat exactly is boring abt it?? hmm.. nvm.. love chelsea man!!! they nv disappoint me.. love them man.. love them to bits... :)

work update -.- i'm pretty alrite wif the workload at the new workplace... sorting and folding letters are my faves!!! muahahahaha.. sooo easy... BUT.. i'm not sure if the 'manager' likes me... i dunno.. maybe she's used to wl.. so these few days i abit blur blur, so she doesn't seem v patient wif me.. hmpf. or maybe it was ytd, cos after lunch hr, i dunno wat to do, so i read the new paper lor.. then the 'boss' not happy and so the manager was prob kinda pissed too.. hai...wl says she's nice somemore.. *faints*
i dunno wat's wrong wif my punch card..the time i punch is after 6, but these past 3 days, the time was punched under different columns...

my jeans are supposed to be ready ytd... i paid money alr lor.. since working at MH, i kinda get more wary of ppls owing me money.. the lady is supposed to call me.. argh...

wat's gg on?!!!

i feel like so shit all over again!!! am i over-reacting?? why do i feel like i'm losing grip of my frens once again???????????? to myself -calm down pls...

gg out wif angie was quite a torture... she was telling me so much stuff, facts, or rather disadvantages of becoming a physiotherapist... her mother dun wan her to join cos the starting pay too low.. then she's like, trying to convince me to give up the course... i hate it when she does tt..

almost half a yr ago, she wanted to join, and all she was worried is whether her bio can make it..
then a few months ago, juz before As, she's decided on another course... that's fine wif me leh.. but did she have to keep harping on the not so nice facts abt the only course tt i'm interested in spore???!!!

went to watch pursuit of happyness... great show! very heartwarming and moltivating... came out of the cinema, and there goes angie saying - 'see! money is very impt'(this referring to the fact tt i shldn't take up physio cos starting pay is too low.) and then i reminded her of another part of the show - juz becos someone can't achieve the dream, doesn't mean u shld let them tell u tt u can't achieve it.

good huh.. hmm... but i muz say she's totally brainwashing me... but then again... i feel that if i have money, i wld go into a certain specialised area of physiotherapy... like sports or smthg... (i'm not exactly interested in the helping old ppls part.. oops! i'll help my parents tho! haha..)

worried abt money........................... heard tt can do conversion to degree at SIM.. er.. dun really want to leh.. wld prefer the one at overseas...

hai... even tho angie annoyed me wif all tht crap, i muz admit it has forced me real hard to think abt it. do i really want to take up physio? can i manage? wld i be able to come up wif enuf money for me to further the studies? wat if i'm not capable of doing it? wat if i flunk the course?

hai. then again, this is prob wat EVERYONE ELSE is thinking too... the gd thing for me is at least i have a aim in mind alr... then dun.. so it's harder for them..

hmm... uh oh.

there are ppls worrying abt which course they can enter cos their results are not tt good. i wldn't say mine are fantastic. but, it's giving me a huge problem now - MONEY

i realise the importance of scholarship. the luxury of it, its priviledges. but wif so many ppls getting As.. how can i fight wif them for the scholarship(myself not even having a A)? then i realise, for physio in nyp, i can only obtain a diploma. in order to convert it to a DEGREE, i need $$$ to go aus uni... well, my mum say the fees can get from my dad's cpf(i'm feeling kinda bad alr).. then degree how? if got scholarship then no need to worry liao lor.. the thing is-DUN HAVE.. maybe i'll juz TRY, and submit the scholarship forms(no harm trying rite?)

if not, plan B lor. start work wif diploma, save what i have earned, and maybe in a FEW yrs, wif BANK LOANS, can go overseas for tt ONE YR???

oh my god... ytd at dinner, i was telling my frens, "first i was worried i can't buy my stuff cos i haven't get my pay. then after getting my pay, i'm not sure as in how to spend, cos i have so many things i want.." and, JUZ RIGHT NOW, i was thinking, if i wana get tt degree, i need to start SAVING UP!!!
oh no.. there goes my: ipod nano, chelsea jersey, lacoste polo, addidas tennis shoes, outfitter girls brown leather bag... sobs!!!

wat shld i do?? after working at tt stupid company, i'm kinda aware of the consequences of NOT PAYING UP! all tt wos, wss, judgement, seizure.. i dun wan!! but bank loan is probably inevitable if i wana go overseas uni... which i think is extremely crucial to my career...

and today is juz the 2nd day upon receiving my results.. -.- [juz wondering, need to take napfa at nyp ah??? oh no!!!]

results...

i am satisfied wif my results... haha.. then i see the rest of the newtowners, i seem to be the lowest..again..hai.. but, nvm... guess i'm juz not as smart and capable as them... hmm, my class ppls did average i think? sw and the guys did very well-so expected.. a couple of us actually got the same grades-me, cheryl, amanda and surong...

math: C - kinda shocked actually.. tot that i'll get a B or even A... haven't inform my tutor abt it.. it's my worst grade.. haha
bio: B - expected...
chemistry: B - kinda lucky.. feeling thankful for it.. tot i wld get C or D... haha..
gp: B3! haha... totally unexpected!!! very shocked... in fact, i feel kinda lucky cos i did better than those who usually do well for their gp... heard some of the art fac students got C for gp.. poor thing...

hmm.. dun have A... sy, ap, and yh all have... so good.. my only consolation? A2 for chinese AO lor.. haha..

angie, jie and eve said my grades can make it into physio.. hope so too!

oh! and i finally got my pay!!! FINALLY! the stupid HR was like so unhappy when she gave me the cheque... and i went for dental appt.. had to put the stupid rubber band.. so painful tt it's giving me a headache...

can't wait to start my new job.. starting working, start earning $$$... and hopefully, the old screwed up company won't forget abt my feb's pay.. 900 plus leh!

hmm.. not sure..

tmr is release of A level results.. i'm trying to recall how i felt the day i received my O lvl results.. kinda shaky i think.. rmb looking at the ohp screen and seeing my frens being commended for their fantastic results.. then when i see my result slip, i kinda - stoned. and felt disappointed.

my fren at work told me tt the pay will be given out, earliest tmr, and latest next mon. well, i was kinda relived to hear it, cos it was a confirmation, rather than not giving a proper ans.. but i starting work next week leh.. how to take leave on first day somemore?!

tmr before results will be meeting at broadway for lunch.. i think everyone is extremely worried. i still dunno wat to do abt my dental appt...hmm.. supposed to meet my friends leh.. but appt at 2.. also dunno how.. then also dunno whether can take pay anot. argh! i hate the company!!!

heard eve has some caucasians in her tennis class.. one cute ukranian... so lucky!!! i wonder who will be there to learn tennis wif us on fri.. i dunno how i'm gg to make it back home and have dinner and then go for the lesson in time.. hmm..

oh.. i still have no idea wat to expect for my results.. some say is 2 grades above prelims.. but tt's kinda impossible for me... afterall, my O lvl showed otherwise. hai. dunno how i'll react leh.. aiyoyo.... hope to do well, but then i alr noe i won't... so sickening.

damn pissed. tmr is my last day, and i 'd have alr worked one and a half mths.. and i won't be receiving the JAN's pay at all. it's really ridiculous lor.. they push it all ard and no one seems to be taking responsibilty for giving out our salary..

another thing tt i'm angry abt is, they ask me to come back on fri to collect my pay. then i ask, confirm anot? then the HR was like, call before u come. the thing i'm worried is , what if i called and then they say i dun get paid??? then i no need to come down alr lor!

long week......

wat a horrible week at work.. SHE wasn't here for 3 days! and i had to handle lots of stuff on my own.. stuff tt i''m still unsure and new at... and the stupid boss had to give me more work.. argh! anyway.. i dunno how many wrong things i had done.. sigh... if i make any HUGE mistakes, they wld find out by next week.. muahahaha.... FIRE ME!!!!

actually, i'm kinda 'scared' to work at this current office... i dun think my work is that important, but still the work to be done is of 'high relevance' REALLY. well, the past 3 days had definitely made me feel extremely 'vulnerable' and 'totally helpless'... all the boss's crap abt everyone being dispensable is bullshit. SHE wasn't here, and the others didn't seem to know exactly wat to do... and i think SHE was like avoiding my calls on the second and third day... hmpf!

was looking for jobs at the various websites.. not sure if i shld apply for othere jobs... i mean, the best possible thing abt my current company is its LOCATION... even if the pay at other pl are better, i wld prob have to spend more on transport... wat shld i do?!!!

i dunno how SHE'll react when she come back on mon... things tt are left at her table... things tt i've yet to complete - will she scream at me? it's a mon, it's a morning.. and her first day after being on leave for 3days... she cld be in a bad mood... oh my gosh... pls dun let her hate and detest me!!!

things tt i think went wrong:
1.i realise in the past, i've been faxing plain papers! cos i rmbed SHE told me, is paper face up, so well, i did tt for a couple of times until today, i saw this other guy did the other way, and then i was like - uh oh.
2.some of the auction/seizure reports came in, pat emailed the stuff alr... but i dunno whether to return to quantum law anot, so i left on her table. then there was this other same report(diff case) tt the dispatch guy put into the quantum law folder, but i think he may not have let pat send the 'email' so.. hmm.. i dunno... i zap a copy of it juz in case..
3.the AOS, ALOD- dunno whether confirm all right anot.. i did check and amended those wif mistakes.. but i'm a very low confident person.. i keep getting paranoid and worried.. and like, i'll check stuff, but then after checking, i'll still doubt my checking skills and wonder if i checked correctly!
4. got some ctb files to be opened.. i think i finish alr, but didn't past to zr, cos i not sure if i did it properly, and i wana wait til SHE come back b4 i proceed..

hai.... somebody give me a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

crazy day at work!

i kinda had trouble sleeping ytd cos i kept thinking of how i'll have to handle work today cos SHE wasn't here... panic panic...

today, work didn't start out tt well... had like tons to do... and i didn't really noe wat to do! then boss called the temps to have a meeting... he was assigning us work cos the 3 temps had quitted from court department. lucky for me, i had nothing from court, but i still had to do email extraction... which i think i'm pretty slow at.. hai... then there were things to be sent OUT... and to RECEIVE.. i'm kinda worried tt i may have done the wrong thing? haha.. then still got some other PODs to be done... i was kinda worried i may not be able to finish them... by ard 6.10, i;m left with 2 days of billings... but i can't do those from CTB, cos of the number... so only got ocbc to do... almost done...

tmr, i'll have work to do.. hope i can rmb and apply what i learnt... hmm.. muz reach early lor... lucky, no need to do 2 days of ctb alod. which reminds me-thank goodness ctb was kind enuf to send less than 40lod for 2 days.. phew! otherwise i wld be panicking like siao.. oh, and i had to check my work MYSELF.... so scary.. NO MISTAKES!!! i dunno whether tt's a gd news or not.. really scared tt i missed out on a mistake. and tt *argh* boss didn't even check lor... ok lor, he sign nv check, later wrong, dun blame me hor!

i've survived 1 day wout HER... oh, of course i called her a couple of times.. lucky she wasn't annoyed wif me... i'm abit less stressed now.. haha.. actually, i feel kinda bad.. cos the email extraction, i only did a few.. haha.. tt means the afternoon shift girl will have more to do.. oops! okok.. will try to do more tmr.. tt ite guy like very free leh...everytime i want to ask him que, i'll see him using his hp.. argh!

i dunno if i shld quit leh.. As cmg out next fri... hmm.. if i dun get sacked by this fri(which i dunno if i shld be happy abt it..) i wld wanna stay a few more weeks.. and then, i think it's pretty hard to find a job, on the papers.. very little vacancies for the different types of job occupations..

Aviva Open 2007 - i wld wana get into nyp.. but if tt happens, i won't be able to volunteer for the event.. but then again, wat are the chances tt i will get into the course? haha!!! i am so clueless...

oh, and i finally realised how grateful i shld be when i have nothing to do(except for the keys) on the first few days... now, i'm so freaking busy... esp this few days. i can't wait for fri to end!!! not becos it'll be the wkend, but becos it'll be the last day SHE is on leave.. then she'll cme back on mon.. hopefully the bosses will be outstationed!!! and hopefully she doesn't have to find out tt i make tons of mistakes(if i do) during these few days..

i can't wait for my pay.. i saw the cheques on the boss table liao.. but dunno issit muz wait for michelle to return before we can get it.. wonder how much it'll be... hmm..

uh oh...

phew! wat a crazy day at work... had to do the docs for yesterday and today.. no free time to cut and paste stuff manually... then, at ard 5 plus, the time where everyone was extremely busy, there was a sudden breakdown! oh my gosh... i was like *stunned... ya.. after 5 min, someone managed to get it turned on again... then another 10 min later, when i finally finished printing all my docs, the server went down! oh my gosh... everyone was like panicking... there were things to be printed and the boss was gg to be back to sign it.. but how to get it done when the server is down?!!! i dunno... i was juz relieved i managed to print out all my necessary docs before i got affected...

well, somehow, everyone else managed to get their stuff done by 630 and were all ready to leave.. poor HER.. i think she's 'promoted' to IT personnel... which she's pretty unhappy if it becomes true...

another bad thing, SHE's on leave for 3 days next wk!!! OH NO! i'm soooo worried.... esp on wed... i'll have to do 'extracting of emails'-smthg new for me... and prob 2 sets of docs (one which was supposed to be done tmr, and the other which comes in on wed).. so dumb... i'm gg to be so busy on wed!! and then, there'll be the 'quantum law' docs which i'm still kinda new to... oh no.... i hope it turns out alrite... sigh...

disappointment and feeling of being distant...

i'm pretty disappointed.. it's juz a msg, cldn't she have replied it? it's pretty disappointing, to inform someone tt i'm unwell, yet no msg of wishing me speedy recovery... to think we've been frens for so long... anyway, this is another period of time when i'm starting to feel like i'm losing them again.. i dun feel like i'm appreciated and i dun feel a sense of belonging... i noe it's silly to expect everyone to treat my as their best fren, but why do i keep feeling like i'm not even part of this circle of frens?

anyway, i went to the doc, and yes, i have food poisoning... maybe i shld have washed my hands afterall. and i rmbed tt i did use my hands, to dip the 2 garlic bread into the soup. dirty me...

pizza sux.. tennis rox

had a pretty good tennis session this morning.. played with kezia for the first time... the first half an hr was juz a reminder to both me and yh of why we need to take up the beginner course all over again.. then kezia joined us... and i think me and yh kinda played better... like yh cld do her forehand and backhand pretty well when she was returning kez's serve... i was doing gd too... haha.. muz ask kez to join us more often.. *satisfied* :D

then went to pizza hut and had pizza... had been very long since i ordered pizza instead of lagsana.. totally regret it... cos after the last piece, which i only ate the chicken pieces, i was feeling very full.. on the bus, my tummy kept aching like every other 5 min... i tot it was becos i was too full.. then when i reach home and changed into my looser shorts, thinking i wld feel better, it juz didn't. i tried to sleep so tt the pain wld go away, but it DIDN"T... oh my gosh, i was tossing and turning all over my bed.. everytime the pain went away, it juz keeps coming back a few min later! so frustrated. finally, at 4 plus, i felt the need to SHIT-.- it was diarrhoea... once again, i tot i wld feel better once everything is out. but NO. i drank the chinese medicine, thinking it wld make me feel better, and well, it did help to clear my system again by shitting. but STILL! i was still having pains.. so horrible... it's been 4 hrs now, slight signs tt i'm getting better... hai.. i was actually planning on making a trip to buy a fren's bdae, but i guess i'll be making a trip to the clinic instead..

tennis rox..
pizza-sux

update...

another week has passed... was kinda crazy this week.. esp yesterday and today...
ytd had to print like 30 letters.. which was alot of data to be entered and print... lucky the boss didn't leave early. the crazy thing today-the boss leaves at 230, which means the work tt i ususally take ard 2hrs have to be hurried within 30 min!!!! thankfully there were lesser entries to be keyed in, and SHE helped me to do some too... crazy crazy. i can't imagine wat's gg to happen if he had left at 230 ytd. argh...

2 of the other temps leaving by end of the mth... from a group of temps wif only 1 guy, now it'll be left with only 1 girl(me) :( hai... they're leaving for jobs tt have better pay and perhaps a boss tt's less demanding.... well, my job scope is still pretty alrite... nothing much to be done in the morning, except tt i had to buy MILK from mac this morning for the boss's wife(who is also the boss). argh. stupid.

international friendlies-
i actually woke up to watch the england vs spain match, and was looking forward to an exciting game.. thos england sorta did well in the first half, no goals were scored.. then i kinda got sleepy in the second half.. and sorta fell asleep throughtout the next half... i think i saw the spain goal.. anyway, ya, they lost.. pretty disappointed... oh, and the spainsh guys weren't tt hot.. until fernando torres appeared! he's still so cute and hot as ever! haha...

germany vs switzerland... well, i was delighted to see philipp lam... i missed him.. tt cute face of his.. but i was feeling really sleepy... i noe that i everytime i woke up, one goal was scored.. haha.. 1-0, 2-0, 3-0.. and then i woke up to see switzerland score after my dear philipp lam sorta screwed up the back pass to the goalie.. or maybe it was the defender and jens lehmmen's fault.. anyway, germany won.. but sadly, michael ballack got hit wif some thigh injury.. :(

i wonder how long i'll be staying in this company.. i hate to do RECEPT! transferring calls sux! i noe it sound pretty easy.. but i juz feel uneasy doing it!!! today yenn weii wasn't here to take over recept.. so i had to do it .. shit la.. and annie is like complaining abt the recept not doing her job properly.. sian.. can't they hire a proper one?!!

but unless i have a decent job offer.. i dun wanna go over the whole job hunting process again.. i noe the pay sux and the company is sorta cheating us.. but.. eh.. i sorta contented with wat i'm doing...

shopping woes

went vivo to shop for cny clothes. only managed to buy ONE spag top tt was on sale, cost @12 only.. so many nice clothes sold in FOX.. i tried quite a few, in different sizes, but it either didn't fit or was kinda ex... so disappointed. actually, i spent alot this mth alr... haven't even get pay yet...once i get my pay next mth, i muz spend it wisely... hmm, a lacoste shirt maybe, and the sims 2!!! haha.. not v. wise -.- but still!! i want!!

getting better...

time really flies when i'm working... pretty slack work in the morning, and then i'll rush out the urgent stuff in the noon, and before i noe it, it's 630 alr. phew. and today's friday!!! woohoo!!! can't believe it i survived the wk!

good news, SHE has actually been nicer to me.. initially, when i heard she's shifting her stuff to NEXT to me, i was so afraid! i scared she'll scold me for many things! in the end, she juz actually became more relaxed and less uptight abt things... she actually gossips! to me! abt the big shots and the history of the company.. haha.. it's nice... at least i'm less afraid of asking help from her(but i'm still cautious abt making mistakes...). but there are times, where i'm unsure if i can trust her.. i dunno.. kinda weird.. office politics perhaps..

workload as being alrite. still doing the usual stuff... but i'm like the most slack among all the temps, although i see one of them on MSN, while another one is always hanging out wif the recept and IT girls. but the other A levels students seem to be pretty busy.. and keeps getting called into the office by the boss. i'm juz glad i dun have to do tt much work for the meagre pay.

talking abt the pay.. pretty sad.. cos i calculated and it turns out tt i'm only earning like $5 per hr, which is pretty low. :( and then there's this possibility tt i won't get paid $1000 in feb, even if i have full attendance. smthg abt the CNY being a working day although i dun have to work on tt day. ARGH.. it's quite confusing. i'll see what my pay is...

chelsea: poor ashley cole. getting injured. :( hope a speedy recovery to him..

tennis!: oh my gosh! i may finally, again, be getting a beginner lessons!!! yea! definitely excited and looking forward to it.. the only thing i'm kinda worried abt: warm-ups! AH!!! i'm so UNFIT. seriously. i eat so much for dinner, becos i eat biscuits after the actual meal!! i juz can't stop eating! wateva happened to my small stomach which aches after too much food is stuffed into it???!!! needa go JOGGING!!!! it'll be so embarrassing if i can't even complete a few rds ard the court.. AHHHHH!!!!

CNY: uh oh... have been spending so much money, somehow on food.. and i needa go shop for new yr clothes.. and do smthg abt my hair.. i'm still waitng for it to grow longer so i can decide what hairstyle i want... but now it really looks kinda 'not nice'. -.-

disappointed

i'm feeling kinda disappointed rite now.. cos in a few mths time, when the aviva open begins, i may not be able to volunteer for it... perhaps the 'stars' are not as attractive..cos angie and lj dun seem to be interested anymore.. i rmb on the after the finals last yr, we 3 said we'd join it again this yr... i still want to... but i think they rather earn the money than go thru the experience again... sobs... if only it was like a more major competition, like some Australian open... woa.. that wld be so exciting! haha.. but there's prob no way an international tennis competition wld take place in a small size country like spore...

i wanna see peter gade again!! and andrew smith... and kenneth johanssen...

2 weeks alr..

i've survived 2 weeks at this company..so far, everything is ok... the workload is alrite... juz bills and getting the letters done, and the KEYS. -.- yes, from last wed til today, i'm still doing keys.. today i was juz doing labelling.. but has yet to finish... has SHE been nicer to me? maybe... i dunno... i noe, the worst time to disturb her is in the morning... den by 4 plus, she doesn't get as pissed off, provided i dun mess up and give her extra work... yup.. so, maybe, juz maybe, i'll stay on abit longer than i thought.. but i am worried i'll have more work to do as the time goes by... hai.. after the other temp leaves for ns, i wonder who's gg to do his work.. pls dun be me!

chelsea is thru to carling cup finals!!! 4 - 0! bravo sheva for scoring 2 goals!! and lampard too!!! i shld have stayed up to watch the match instead of only watching the last 10 min.. i wld have been extremely delighted!!! yea.. so happy for them... and mourinho might be staying afterall!!!!!

roddick is out. :(((((( i knew it man.. how can federer be defeated by the same guy twice in a row??? haha... oh well, at least andy made it to the semis, pretty gd alr... :) and eeky for the womens final. serena williams against sharapova. rmb to turn down the vol, ppls! will be an extremely loud one...

argh!

i was pretty shocked when i realised i won't be receiving my pay for the first 3 days' work. like, wat the hell???? it's not like i work for only 3 days! i'm working for at least a mth!!! and it's a law firm somemore lor.. so ridiculous. i'm definitely not shopping for office wear clothes anymore... so argh!

tt aside, today was a bad day... pretty hectic and panicky towards the end of the day... the thais came today, then dunno why, the letterhead cldn't get the date to be in eng. then i have to edit so much and waste so many papers... and the IT person wasn't really tt gd, cos she took pretty long and i was so worried the boss wld leave w/out signing the doc.... anyway, i'm glad i finished on time... the bad thing is, the mouse at my com is extremely retarded! i'm gg to take such a long time to finish any work... and then, i was supposed to do smthg abt the keys, again! argh... it's not done yet and i have to do it again.. if only i was given proper instructions the first time SHE asked me to do it, i might not have wasted so much time... i'm getting teased la... for getting paid juz by figuring out which key belongs to which pedestal. that is NOT the only work i do, ok... i do updating of bills too and tt stupid letterhead which actually is the best part.. that's becos i'll be so busy with it, and time always flies esp fast during tt time.. so i noe, i'll be gg home soon... of course, tt's also the time where i make careless mistakes and my heart will start beating v. fast when i have to confess it to HER.

anyway, i haven't actually finished today's work... will do tmr lor, no choice wat.. besides it's no rush i think? haha... i'm quite a horrible worker.. i always go home without finishing the work.. but the gd thing is i'll always have smthg to do the next day without to bug HER for work...

i heard they're leaving soon.. ard the same time i'm leaving... sometimes, i feel like there's no need for me to quit, but at some other times, i can't wait to leave the job and get a job tt's not so stressful and have nicer co-workers... i think admin is much better than the other jobs(sales, cust service..) cos admin can SIT... really, now when i go shop, i'll take note of the ppls and the jobs they have... waitress muz stand and hold heavy stuff... sales also muz stand.. cust service worse. - kana scolded... hai... so sian. now, i see my mum.. i really sympathesize her... cos she brings her work home to do...hai...

work aside. soccer update!!! arsenal won!!! woohoo!!! more imptantly, man u LOST!!! muahahaha.. double defeat! and the 6pt gap REMAINS.... hai.. thank goodness.. but still, very worried abt the sour relationship between boss and jose... sobs sobs...

the thing abt work... even though it's only mon... i think time past much faster when i'm working than i'm studying... haha...

chelsea's blues

chelsea lost 2 - 0 to liverpool :( really upset.. i cldn't even bear to watch the rest of the match after pennant score the second goal.. i juz distracted myself by trimming my nails. it was so disappointing. the central defence was really weak. i can't blame ferreira and essien. they are not pro central defenders. but still... chelsea hardly created any chance to score goals. everytime chelsea had a corner, no one inside the box made a decent shot at goal. it sux man... if man u wins tonite... hai... jia lat. and i seriously think man u cld win... but i juz hope they dun.. otherwise.. otherwise.. otherwise... i dun wanna say it.. i hope terry cld come back soon and everything will return back to normal...

australian open has begun... really glad that roddick beat safin in the 3rd rd.. wat a tough match since both plays so alike... now he has to face ancic in the 4th.. also equally tough cos ancic is such a tall guy!!! i think bagdatis is out. i am so happy becos of that!!! haha!

oh, i had alot of free time to think while at work.. i was making comparisons between all sorts of things.. like pri and sec sch. factory and admin work... schooling and working..

pri: lots of assessments to be done... everytime muz go buy assessment books and my parents will nag at me to finish everything.. 'No watching tv!!!', that's wat my folks always tell me at that age.
sec: the work gets tough.. lots of things to learn. stupid a math and physics... i hate both subj..

factory: earn more within a day cos of longer hrs. but has became a passive smoker during break time.. the pl is way too far.. only abt 5 hrs of slp everyday and can only watch the 5.30pm drama. had to stand for long hrs... bad for health.
admin: earn lesser of course for each day. no need to smell smoke cos air con area... can hang out with ppls of my 'type'... can watch more tv shows at nite... but need to decide wat to wear each day... then somemore still need to see the person's LIAN SE. but the work is definitely more 'challenging'(not toking abt the keys) and quite alot to learn(but i think it's not really applicable to other admin jobs..) it feels abit like gg to sch..

schooling: the stress of having to study and do well and better still do better than my peers really sux. other than tt, it's alrite cos of the company i have... the friends to gossip and tok abt hot guys and tv shows tt aired the nite before... it's great! lessons are a bore but it's cos of the company tt make us abit more awake..
work: there's stress too, no doubt, esp when things are demanded to be done by a certain time.. but then again, i get paid for my work... the downside is of course not being able to spend time with the friends i made over e few yrs... of course it gives me a chance to make new friends.. but when we only get 1hr of lunch break to chat with the others, it's kinda hard... oh, of course, having to see ppls' LIAN SE.. it sux.

but at least now i understand how my mum and dad feels... in the past, i didn't really get it.. it was juz making dinner and doin chores. wat's the big deal? now i noe... cos having to work for 8 hrs and then still need to look after the family... it is a big deal. it's tough man... now, all i can do i do wat my mum asks me to do so she'll have something less to worry abt.. tt's all i can do...

5 days of work has past.. i am so glad to be able to get a weekend's rest.. still need to shop for wedding dinner outfit and more clothes for work.. it's so sad i'm only getting my pay on the 20th next mth. argh. i hope next wk won't be tough.. btw, by the end of the first day, i was alr planning to quit after 1 mth... haha... we'll see...

job update!!!

monday: first day at work. HORRIBLE. really. there were 4 temps, each of us assigned to different perm staff... the one i'm under - argh!!! she is so mean!!! if i didn't hear wrongly, when she heard tt she has a temp under her, she was very annoyed cos she didn't wanna teach! so mean la. and she totally black face me lor! still diao me. mean. i was having a horrible day only becos of her. the work was pretty easy.. keying data, zapping, taking out the staple bullets?! yup. in the afternoon, i was supposed to key in some data for another person. it was juz copy and paste.. the person alr typed out the msg, all i had to do was paste if onto more than 300 plus files... ya. then when it was time to leave, i realise that she actually typed the date wrongly! and i'd alr pasted the msg onto 300-400 entries!!! oh my god! i still had more work to do.. but unsure if i shld continue, and becos the person left alr, i decided to go home too..

tuesday, i broke the bad news to tt person.. she was pretty shocked i did so many.. and she had to edit it.. but thankfully she didn't blame or chide me at all. phew. there were some decent proper work to be done. updating the bills.. it's quite alot... did fr 10 plus to 4 plus.. den SHE came, and gave me another set of work to do.. which was to key in some data, get the letters printed, signed, photocopied, and print g/s. and put it in envelope and learn to key in the dispatch info.. it's alot of things to do for each person's data. [basically, i'm in this particular 'bank's' department, where i'm in charge of keying the bills tt their customers owe. then, i need to print out the letters so that they can be sent to the customers..] it was kinda rush... cos everything was so new to me... and i was afraid of making mistakes.. and getting scolded by HER.

wednesday, i finished up the bills.. and asked HER wat next.SHE gave me a bunch of keys and tell me to go figure out which key belongs to which pedestal and make a spreadsheet of it. 50 over keys!! and her instructions were unclear due to the way she speaks i cldn't figure out wat she was saying. i kinda stoned. was i hired to do this?? figure out which key belongs to which pedestal(it's a drawer actually, those with wheels at the bottom). wat the hell man. then i juz went ard trying ALL the keys.. this task was actually carried out over 3 days til fri. it was so frustrating becos the keys were arranged in a way which i didn't understand and i was unsure if i cld juz mix up the keys anot... it was so dumb. everyone was busy doing their work over the comp and there i was gg ard trying out all the keys.. it was tiring cos i had to like squat.. and i didn't wanna disturb some ppls cos if i had squat there and tried all the keys, i cld be blocking their way.. argh.. in the noon, i did the letters stuff which i did on tue.. there was alot of data to be keyed...

thursday: i basically stoned during the morning staring at the keys and the excel worksheet i had done... it was incomplete asi still cldn't figure which keys belong to some of the pedestals.. it was such a frustrating moment cos i didn't noe wat to do... everyone was busy with work as i'm still stoning... i was so mad... although ppls say slacking is good, but still! it's juz hard to stare at the comp and do nothing! then in the noon after lunch, SHE told me tt actually it was the boss who wants the keys to get figured out and tt the boss wld make a big fuss over alot of stuff...

friday: still doing the keys in the morning but e gd thing is i've managed to figure out at least 25 outta 30 out the pedestals... and then SHE reminds me i have to figure out the keys for cabinets. argh. wateva. she then taught me how to update another set of bills and i carried out the letters task in the late noon as usual. work ends at 530. it was such a great feeling to reach home early to watch the beginning of the ch 8 show... btw, i'm prepared to face the boss and tell her i'm not finished wif the keys(which i am supposed to get it done by fri). i will face the music. like c'mon, i did my best. almost anyway..

yup, so this past 5 days of work really set me thinking... like how tough it was to come home after a hard day at work. even tho the work scope wasn't tt tough.. but still having to face ppl's lian se...i really sympathize my mum after working this wk. cos i was so tired when i reach home and i cldn't even stay awake to watch tv. yet my mum still had to cook dinner after finishing her work and to do the housework and continue her work a home..

job at last

i found a job. at last.

it was raining HEAVILY. and i had to go to this agency at peninsula plaza to fill up some forms. after that, i had to travel to this ulu pl (which i nv heard of, which actually turns out to be somewhere near shenton way) for another interview.. yup, so i was told to fill up a form and then i received a call. i got a job! haha.. i went for it's interview yesterday, which i had to type on the spot! i tot i was kinda slow and unsteady.. but somehow, i got selected.. haha.. yup, i accepted it of course..

actually, after gg for that interview with the test typing part. i wasn't so sure if i was suitable for the job.. cos the boss said it's quite a 'stressful environment'. As if i haven't had enuf of stress for the past yr, now i'm actually gg for this job! yes, he did say that word 'stressful' a few times.. i suppose it will be.. but the thing is, when he told me wat i was supposed to do, i was actually looking forward to it.. some efiling and other stuff.. it seems pretty .. erm, how shld i put it... like i will learn alot from that job la! i was thinking that wateva i picked up will be very useful in future, esp when i go for other job interviews.. so, yup.. oh, the boss lied. i asked if i cld wear jeans and he said yes, smart casual. then juz now the lady called, she said office wear, NO JEANS. argh. well, shopping time!!! HAHA!

i can quit anytime, according to him.. but i hope to last at the very least, until i get back my results. that's pretty short, but like i mentioned earlier, he did say it's rather STRESSFUL.. oh well.. all the best for me...

consolation

the only consolation i have for myself now, while many of my frens are working, is that i've alr received my paycheck for that 8 days of horrible work i've done last mth. and i got an another atm card.. haha.. but i'm still unhappy. my mum is not really pushing me to get a job.. but STILL.

chelsea drew wif wycomb.. haix.. a team 63 positions below them. i wan petr cech back!!! oh, there's this chelsea youngster, sahar fr isreal i think, he's got the michael scoffield look. he doesn't resemble scoffield, but he has that LOOK. i dunno how to describe it.. haha nvm..

moody

i'm feeling moody rite now.
i dun have a job. i think i shld prob wait at home for some recruitment agency to ring me up for gd news. and i'm stuck having to do housework everyday. i hate it.

although chelsea are thru to the next rd in the FA cup, i'm still upset with the rumours tt's gg on.. i dun even noe what pics i shld put on my chelsea collage. what if i put jose's photo, and then he gets sacked becos chelsea doesn't retain their title? i think it's ridiculous! he's such a gd manager... and then there's my poor shevy and ballack.. hai..

i feel like i'm wasting the hols away by not spending quality time with my frens, or doing wat i planned during the As period. well, that's mainly becos i insist on getting a job first. to kinda stabilise my daily/weekly routine. it's not gg to work unless i find a job. or rather, unless i juz go out and have as much fun without thinking so much. but how can i have fun without money??

i miss sch.. no, i miss having frens ard from morning to noon.

job waiting -.-

sent my resume to recruit express le..now all i can do is wait. i can go on to look for other jobs.. but the other jobs wld most prob be sales asst. the thing is, i wanna do admin, cos it's sitting job [it's v tough to stand, esp if i have period:(] But, if i become a sales asst, i won't have to worry abt wat to wear cos most likely i'll be in some shirt and jeans. easy. i dun think i have any office wear... and i dun wanna buy any.. hiaz...

now, i'm juz waiting.. waiting.. i so wanna pick up the phone and make appt for interview for sales asst position. but i'm worried if i get the sales asst job, then i won't be able to have an admin job... BUT then again, there's no guarentee tt i'll get an admin job... argh.

oh well..

no more aus trip. nope, i'm not even keen abt gg to hongkong...it's juz too bad.. maybe next time.

yup, so 2006 has finally ended. thank goodness! one of the most tortourous yr in my life SO FAR. review of the MEMORABLE events tt took place.
the few exciting ones were definitely the
1. SINGAPORE SEVENS!!! jeff wong!!! oh so cute!
2. my 18th birthday. i love the presents! thanks guys!
3.Aviva Open. peter gade, u rock!
4.Prom. actually, more like the time spent in the hotel room with the 10 other ppls. very fun!!!

the not so good part..
1.not passing my 2.4.. too bad..
2.the stressful period of studying for all the major papers including As.. it's so horrible i'll nv forget it.

I CAN'T REMEMBER!!! haha.. really, i have bad memory... but the other most important part of this yr which i'm thankful for : my friends. thank u guys.. both in 05s55 and those in ntmb.
i really hope we can keep in touch for as long as we can... outings, birthday dinners...

happy new year!!!! haha... i'm so looking forward to the first half a yr, where i won't have to prepare for sch early in the morning, study for tests, sacrifice my tv shows, train for 2.4 -.-
and yes! i get to watch all the tv shows i want!!! prison break 2!!!

trip to zoo!!

after breakfast in outram, my dad wanted to bring the family to mt faber to take photos using his new cam. juz when we found a parking lot, i saw a coach wif the SINGAPORE ZOO ad on it. yup, and we went there!

it was a long and ulu journey... thankfully the weather was alrite.. the tix was $20each.. pretty ex, but considering none of us went there for over 10yrs. i think it's pretty alrite.. it's pretty crowded... guess cos the sch hols coming to an end..

so ya, we walked ard and look at animals. haha. there was manatee!!! haha.. cute.. there were a few interesting parts of the trip
1. we went to see the pgmy hippo. it's a smaller species of hippos.. the visitors were separated from the hippos by this glass wall. i saw the butt of one of the hippo so i went closer for a second look. then it turned ard... and faced the glass. so i was like, take photo! so i juz sat 'next' to it. the hippo was so sweet. and photogenic. it juz stop there and posed for pics with my whole family..lol.cute
2. we saw the lions mate. LOL. yup, we saw the lions, took photos of it then went to take photos of the giraffe. then when we turn back again, we saw the male lion on top of the female one. SHAKING. ya, it was pretty amazing and funny.. everyone kinda stop in their tracks to stare at this amazing sight.. haha..
3.there was this enclosed area where reptiles like snake and lizards where allowed to roam freely. visitors were allowed to walk thru the area. i chose not to.. my mum followed behind my dad and lil bro.. then seconds later, my mum came out shrieking: there's a huge chamelon inside. eww. so disgusting!!!! haha.. apparently, she didn't noe it was a free ranging area for the reptiles. she said it was dangerous. yup, tt's why i didn't go in. it was freaky enuf juz looking at the snakes in their small see thru box. to be close up and not separated by anything? that's worse!
4.the elephant show.. very cute... i've got some parts recorded in my hp...

yup, so tt's abt it.. i prob won't go there again for another dunno how many yrs.. haha.

aus trip postponed

things are not gg the way i want them to go. last nite i was pissed when wl said she had to work til mid jan. i was pissed cos she did agree to stop work by end of dec so we cld start planning and booking the aus trip package. MY initial plan was to go aus asap, so i cld come back and look for a proper admin job tt can last for 3-5mths... then i was so confused and angry abt it for like a few hrs. i tot, maybe i shld juz NOT go. so, i was thinking, fine, i'll juz go for another job.. which is for one mth. THEN, i tot, if i work for 1 mth, by then the others wld have to find jobs which dunno last for how long. so we'll end up waiting for one another to finish each others' job. ridiculous.

THEN, yh msg me, saying she had bad news. i was extremely RELIVED when she said she might not be able to go aus cos of lack of money. i dunno why i was relieved. i juz was.

it's weird how we excited we got when we were toking abt the aus trip and other stuff while we were still in sch... we had big plans. but now tt we dun see each other, the plans juz didn't go as planned. i dunno... i guess it was easier to talk abt it when we actually see each other.. it's so difficult now, cos everyone seems to be living their own lives.. jobs for one, is something tt we can't do together. so tt's why it's hard to plan stuff..

yesterday i was toking to a fren... realise tt i may be losing some of my closest fren.maybe i'm thinking too much... i dunno.. first i lost contact wif bao and jinli they all.. then now tt i'm in jc, maybe i'm not as close to wl and sy anymore... i dun want that to happen... a fren said this is they way it is.. but i disagree.. i think it's something to do wif me. it's like i juz can't keep my friends... argh... i noe it's not possible to be best frens wif everyone.. but i do sincerely hope tt i cld be there for others and vice versa.

job done.

8 days of being an production operator. i'm done!

3 days at tai seng and the last 5 days at paya lebar.the one at paya lebar was good and bad. good cos it has vending machines, decent toilet and i get a sitting job for the first 3 days(pasting labels). the bad thing was i had no choice but to breathe in the cigarette smoke during break times.

why did i quit?
well, the job, though extremely easy, require alot of mental strength. to stand for at least 11hrs!!! that's totally insane la! i dunno how the others do it, but it's extremely tiring. i was part of the 'line'(which meant i was involved in putting one component into the hp box). by the end of the shift, my shoulders were extremely stiff!!! and tho at times, it feels like i'm earning easy money cos of the job scope, sometimes i juz feel sick. like how my tummy growled or ached when the break was given one hr after everyone have alr left for theirs. (i was starved for 8 hrs before break was given). haiz...

maybe i'm juz not suitable for the job. qualification wise. i dun really noe of anyone there who was waiting for Alevels result. most of them were waiting for Os.. and there were alot of china women working there. it was supposed to be a female environment job, but there were guys too.. and if i'm not wrong, 9 out of 10 of the guys smoke.

chelsea update

disappointing... chelsea drew with reading 2-2. i once said reading is a jinx club. indeed it is, chelsea's first incident of own goal by a.cole, which then bounced off essien. so now, the gap is 4 pts between chelsea and man u. pls buy more defenders, jose!!!! and get well soon terry! the team needs u!!!

hmm... the 2 games against everton and wigan were pretty exciting cos of the results.. i'm so extremely happy that chelsea can actually managed to pull off one last stunt before the final whistle. too bad they cldn't do the same for the reading game... hai..

moody

i've always loved rainy days in the past. it wld mean a cooling weather to sleep in, no PE and i'll juz feel very calm and happy.
the past week was everything but tt.

i was told to stop work on fri, sat and sun nite. then mon late noon i called the person. there was a job at this new pl, female environment.but before tt he seem rather pissed off, and kept saying how come i have not been turning up, and i had to keep reminding him that it was he who told me not to come. so, when tt was cleared up and he told me to meet at the new pl, i had to tell him that i cldn't come cos i was not feeling well. it was my first day of menses. i didn't wanna risk it by making a scene at the new work pl. and he was not pleased with my excuse. damn. it felt like he was firing me and that i'm not gg to have my pay. he says he can't gurantee me the job and ask me to call again tmr.

i was extremely upset. was i being conned for 36hrs of hardwork and standing? i cried. i was so confused. then i msg him and ask i was still getting paid for te 3 days.

in turn, he gave me a call, and an explanation. he said he was extremely busy with so many calls coming in, so perhaps tt's why his tone may have scared me to think i've lost my job. he tot i wanted to quit... but, ya anyway, he cleared the air, and it's better now. however, i still have no idea if i'll get the job at the new pl. i really want to.. he says this one is more 'long term'... and somemore is female environmt... so much better than the prev one..

anyways, i regreted not gg.. cos my tummy didn't really ached afterall.. so, i'll juz have to pray that there are still vacancies tonite.. and tt i'll get the job... hai. another fren will be coming along, but she mentioned smthg abt admin.. hmm.. we'll see.. i juz wanna earn as much before this fri's pay day...

working is not fun at all. neither is schooling. but at least work got salary. hopefully, with my new fren's company, i won't feel so miserable.

btw, ryan and melody from so u think u can dance are in town!!! oh my gosh!!! so cool pls! i wanna see then dance!!! haha.. i wanna take a photo wif ryan doing some crazy stunt on his head.. lol!

i survived 3 days!

yes!!! i've survived 3 days of work!!! i can't believe it! cos i tot i was feeling unwell on the second nite cos of the heat in the pl.. the pl is air-conditioned, but when things move at a fast pace, it can get pretty hot and stuffy at times... i was contemplating whether or not to take a cab home at 11plus.. i was afraid if i waited til after midnite, there may not be cabs ard... i was almost tearing.. it was such a scary feeling: to feel sick and yet there weren't ppls ard who cld comfort me..i wished my frens were there.. i somehow survived til break at 1230. then after break, i was feeling so much better... and i continued to work till 8am...

day 3: the mixed feeling started when i was on the train to bedok... i dunno how to describe my feeling.. it's like i felt 'sick' having to go to work, but yet i think it's ridiculous to have such a feeling cos the job scope is so easy. pack pack pack.. so what am i scared abt? probably cos it's such a far place fr hse and tt i was afraid my period wld come during work, AND becos my frens weren't there with me to make work/break less dull...

A strange thing i've observed is that there's alot of black dirt in my nose when i dig it.. it's kinda disgusting and scary... dunno issit becos i've been hanging ard wif ppls who smoke... not that i sit directly next to them.. but sometimes, i'm juz a distance away... i've alr tried my best to stay away from them as far as possible.. think i'll somehow become a passive smoker by the time i quit :S

oh, on the fourth day, on the bus to outram, jim the guy from the agency, called and said work was cancelled for 2 days. i was kinda happy and sad at the same time. happy that i have a decent break after 3 long working days. sad that i can't earn these 2 days money... kinda felt sorry for wl and her frens too cos they cldn't come to work either.. hopefully, sun nite, they'll need us back... prays hard!! sun is 80 bucks.. although my mum says it's supposed to be double of 66, i think 80 is still alot of money for a day's work...

come to think of it, my monthly allowance in the past was $200, but now, for juz 12x3hrs, i'm getting $198.. not bad huh? haha.. well, it's my first job, so as long as the pay is decent, i'm trying not to think abt how well other jobs are paying... rite now, i can only use money as a form of moltivation for working... i can't wait to go shop!!!

first day at work

yesterday, i went down to bedok mrt to fill in the application form for some CD packer job... the person ask when i cld start work. and i said asap. that evening, at 5, she called and told me to get ready for the job, by gg down to AMK mrt, so that they cld fetch us to the workplace.

when i told my mum abt it, she was strongly against the idea. we had a huge arguement over it. she didn't wanna let me go, cos i didn't even noe the name of the company and she felt that the person in charge was irresponsible by not picking up the phone. -.- then i was telling, and crying, abt how everyone has gotten a job, and they all have some sort of employment history but i didn't have any. and i needed the cash to go Aus. at that point, my mum actually told me she'd pay for my trip, so that i dun have to go work. hai.. the last straw: she said i may sacrifice 12hrs for nothing, but i said it's worth a try, if i dun like den dun do. but wat if it's something tt i'm capable of doing? wouldn't i waste away the opportunity.. drama drama.

she did let me go in the end, though my dad and aunt were also saying dun go.

on the way, i pretty anxious. i'm afraid wat my mum said is true abt the company being a scam and then she wld say: i told u so. when the van arrived, there were like 10 other ppls who board it..

we reach the building at ard 8. then the 2 in-charge were juz busy with everything else and we the newcomers were juz stoning. finally at 8 plus9, we started work. motorola was our job. we were supposed to pack in the various components into the motorola box via the conveyor belt. there were 4 of such belts in that place.. besides that we had to fold the boxes into the shape...

what i was irritated, is that we the newcomers weren't given a proper briefing abt our job, salary, and days of work. i heard it's ard $68, for the night shift(which i'm doing) and we have to work like 6 days a week?! oh my god.

anyway, i survived. it was piece of cake, except we had to stand thruout. but there were a couple of breaks...

SO, thank goodness i went for the job. i can't wait to get paid..

oh btw, today is not only the first day of work for me, it's also the first time i slept on the train, AND MISSED MY STOP!!! oh my! i heard 'next stop, bouna vista' and then i was like, 'huh?!' LOL

i hope yh and wl cld join me at work... the frens i made were the other newcomers.. all malays, except for this other lady who prob went to do clerical work.. the ppls there were mostly teenagers... but i dun really see anyone that looked and act my age... hmm.. nvm.. i'm juz interested in the pay.

12 hrs aside for the work, i think i need another 1.5hrs each for gg and coming back.. which mean, i only have like 24-(12+3)= 9 hrs to myself... maybe 5-6hrs of slp and then stone for rest of the time...

the good thing abt working the nite shift besides that pay is that i dun have to wake up like at 5.30am to get ready. it's more likely that i'll oversleep in the morning than in the evening.
hope i'll be able to survive for like a month at least... but i'll need a new pair of jeans cos the one i'm wearing is gg to stink soon... eeks!

job hunting sux!

have been looking at the Recruit section since last thu.. cldn't really find a suitable job. main reason being i dun want to commit myself to more than 2mths.. this is becos i'll be gg to Aus, if we follow the plan, in jan... hmm.. but it's really difficult to get a job with decent pay, eg.admin/data entry, when they want the ppls to commit for at least 3mths. damn.

despite the potenital money woes that i tot i'll have in this month, i am so blessed to have parents who sympathesize with me and give me pocket money.. but, my mum is still pretty annoying, expecting me to clean up the entire house like a maid cos she's given me money.. argh...

yesterday, i tot i've secured myself a job with a decent pay. it's some packing job. i went down all the way to admirality mrt station to fill up the form and then handed in. the person in charge looked at it, says 'oh, u can do the night shift issit?', and asked 'when can u start work?'. i said either today or tmr.. then she gave me this paper and said, these are the things to bring if i call you by today.. So, i tot, sure get one la! it seems like it's a plus point tt i'm willing to do the nite shift. and the piece of paper was for me to make sure i brg the necessary stuff.. but damn, i waited the whole afternoon, sleeping with my phone next to me, but e phone nv rang. damn.

i shld have went for a second one at AMK mrt too.. then at least i got more chance of getting a job.

there are a few companies tt are recruiting for this position.. so, i'll try my luck later on at abt 3places... hope i get the job asap and start work immediately. the pay is pretty decent, esp the overtime pay on sat and sun... but i dunno exactly wat to do during the job, so perhaps it cld be VERY TOUGH... i hope i can perservere.. the money is too good... can buy so many things... the thg tt i'm interested now: prison break vcd... AH!!!! good luck to moi !

the big day finally arrived. the day didn't really start out well, cos i had to wait for sw.again. sas quite annoyed cos i had to carry some bulky stuff and walk along orchard on my own. when she finally arrived, we had to walk a distance before reaching the orange building of orchard parade hotel.. then we went up the room, and gary was there alr. the room is pretty big, has a 'closet' area, a toilet with bath tub and shower area separated, and 4 beds! and cable tv!!! soon after, the others(eve, cheryl, jie, amanda) start arriving, including the makeup artiste. eve, sw and cheryl all didn't wanna be first, so i had to be 'sacrificed'. haha, but it turn out to be a good thing. the straightening of my hair took ard 2hrs which was way past the time meant for each person's makeup and hair session. but i muz say i like my hair straight. feels so good. lol. so by ard 5 plus, all except eve and cheryl were ready.. the 3 of them curled their hair, which was pretty fast compared to my straightening. then by 6 plus, only the 4 of us were still in the hotel cos we weren't ready. all of us were getting pretty anxious, wondering if we'd make the 'grand entrance' finally, at 7.40pm, more than 1 hr past the registering time, we left the room and hailed a cab.. 'nervous, nervous,nervous'. jie, who was alr there told us that we were sitting right in front of the stage. Oh shit!!! when we reached at the meritus mandrian hotel, everyone at the entrance seemed to be staring at us. i didn't have my specs on, so i cldn't really see them. at the lobby, the 4 of us were all clueless as to where the ballroom was.. juz wandering all over before finally figuring out that it was on 6th fl, which the lift didn't stop at. and so it made us panic for another while, thinking why are we so unlucky. turns out, there is no lift at the 6th fl. So I think it's pretty dumb tt they even have the button there. When we finally arrived at the ballroom, THANK GOODNESS! It wasn't anything like we imagined. It was rather messy..everyone was walking ard, taking pics.. phew. We found our table soon and well, we didn't miss much as the beginning were juz speeches by a few GOH. The prom, was definitely v different from tt of ntss. E moment we sat down, we were hurried to fill in e prom king and queen nomination. Instead of everyone sitting down and eating together, ppls were allowed to walk ard and take photos.. as a result, some of us missed some of the food served. The food was alrite. I felt that we didn't eat much cos there were so many stage games in and performances in between. And the prizes for the lucky draw. OH MY GOD. There was crumpler bag, Olympus camera and and ipod nano wif 8GB. Damn! I didn't win any as usual. eve was lucky, but her prize was a men's wallet and watch. But still, she won! What was everyone wearing??? From retro to formal, sexy to skimpy. But definitely, everyone looked really gorgeous. The prom queen and king definitely deserved their title. At the end, we took a lot of photos and that was abt it. Haha.. it wasn't fantastic. But it was good. Definitely regret not eating as much. The guy emcee was really good.. has great potential. Ard 12 plus, me, limjie, Amanda and gary walked all the way back to orchard parade hotel. The taxi queue was way too long. Oh my, walking in heels really hurt! And limjie was worse, her shoes keep falling off cos it was abit too big.. after reaching the hotel, we changed and went to watch midnite movie- open season. Mel came too.. the rest went clubbing.. Oh, we walked all the way from orchard parade, past meritus, to cine. Are our legs tired or wat?! Bought the tix.. and there were also other prom ppls who were there in their formal attire. The movie: short. First part abit lame. The porcupine very funny!!-buddy. And I like ashton kutcher’s character.. thankfully it was only 6.50 for the tix.. After the movie, we walked ALL THE WAY back to our hotel rm. Again. The rest came back soon after us cos the club had to close pretty early.. I was trying to watch soccer, but cldn't take it, so I went to bed, sharing wif jie. She was gd la! Slp so fast. I was trying to slp but only managed to slp for half and hr before eve woke me up for the Chelsea match at 6am. Lucky sw also woke up, then she accompany me to watch while everyone was in bed.. I cldn't really concentrate on the match, cos my eyes were pretty tired.. but I was happy that shevy and wright-phillips scored. By 8, the gang who went to watch midnite movie woke up and we went to mac for breakfast.by 9, when we returned, the other grp has alr woke up, and it was my turn to go back to bed. nice.. though it was 2hrs plus.. it felt good.. haha.. I actually enjoy the part at the orchard parade hotel more than tt at the meritus hotel.. it was like camping, which I haven't done in jc, but in a high class place. With beds and tv and a decent shower place. I like it.. So that was it.. pre-prom, prom and post prom. It was fun.. I'll definitely wanna stay at hotel room wif my frens again..

lalalalala

chelsea vs man u 1-1!!!! muahahahaha... i'm happy. i'm pleased. i'm satisfied... the first half was dominated by manu no doubt.. van der sar hardly had anything to do... but. after saha scored the first goal, u can see chelsea immediately fought back. hard. the second half was so extremely exciting cos chelsea kept pushing forward... surong said chelsea played dirty.. not really la.. except some of the ballack tackles were late and uncalled for.. anyway, i was happy carvalho head in chelsea's goal. this is, if i'm not wrong, the first match that chelsea did not score the first goal. so, i think it's pretty exciting seeing chelsea fight back for such a long period of time from after the manu goal..
ashley cole did a good job. ronaldo, i admit, is pretty good. run so fast!!! lucky a.cole can keep up with him.. phew. essien also ran like he was running for his life when he switched to right back... drogba and shevchenko- well.. kinda low profile throughout... i almost forgot rooney was in the line up after saha scored the goal.. haha.. jose mourinho is such a comical guy to listen to during his interviews.. his accent and the stuff he says... he is indeed the special one.. haha..
i saw this line in the newpaper. v cool. "it's not easy to beat man u. but it's harder to beat chelsea" woohoo!!!

yup.. i can watch all the soccer match i want now!!! yea!!! As are officially over as of 9.11am on 23rd nov.. since then, i've been gg out every single day to shop. but i hav yet to buy anything.. will be buying tmr... hope the dress is still there!!!

almost.. already.. wateva

As are over! not officially, but sorta. only left p1.. i can't wait to start my shopping!!!

but first, a review of the papers
gp: u nv noe.. u juz nv noe. i hope for moderation!
math: i think it was alrite for both, pretty doable..
chem: i kinda screw up p3 :( p1 isn't tt good either..
bio: p2 was alrite considering i didn't touch the chunk on dna. BUT p3 was definitely pretty tough.. thinking back now, i think i didn't read some of the key words in the que. oops.

that's abt it... i'm trying as hard not to think of any MORE possible errors thati've made and juz concentrate on the hols

shopping for prom! oh so exciting!!!! haha.. but i have such disproportionate body :( pear shaped somemore.. eeks. hope i find a suitable dress [i dreamt that i was still at home trying out dresses when prom has alr began] hope i can work off some fats within this short teeny bit of time left. and still need to pay $60 for makeup artiste!!! and a clutch, and shoes.... hope my mum decides to be v nice and pay for some of them.. hehe

TRIP to AUSSIE!!! oh my gosh i simply can't wait for that!!! last nite, i had a conversatn w mum.
mum:i have a fren who's daughter also had a huge pimple like u. she finished her As liao, so she's on a taiwan trip w her friends. taiwan lei..are u gg on any?
me: ya to aus w my frends
mum (wide-eyed): cannot la, i can't let u go on ur own, so blur.
me(even wider-eyed): huh?! but that time u say can wat!
mum:where got?
me: there, when u say how bro is having a great time in euro, then u say if i wanna go, juz make money on ur own lor.
mum:ha..u make enuf money first lor.

THEN, after that i noe she has given me the permission when she told me to get a POSB card. i was like, wat for? "so you can use it overseas"!!!!! woohoo!!! i can't wait to meet up with the rest to discuss abt it! so exciting!! gold coast! but after watching so many epi of croc hunter diaries, i wld love to visit the aus zoo... but still, i think the rest wld rather go gold coast. rollercoaster rides!!

woo.. oh i juz can't wait... i'll make earrings, watch tv, stay up late to watch soccer, vcds, movies, to the library, learn some stuff, sleep all i want. make money and spend it on shopping!!!

i muz definitely make good use of this hols. dun be like the past hols.. juz slacking ard w nothing interesting to do. woohoo!

yikes!

As has finally begun. completed half of the papers... so far, it was alrite... but i feel v uncertain for gp, chem and mathh p2.
this time during the preparation for As, i have been highly emotionally distressed. i juz feel really and very worried and stressed each time i look at the notes the nite before... and i juz kept crying... my parents are pretty supportive and understanding... they tell me not to worry abt my results and juz take it easy with the papers. even if i dun do well for the paper, they wouldn't blame me... really relieved to hear it from them.

I have nv really felt this high level of distress during my preparation for the past major papers.. so my emotions now are kinda scaring my mum... i think she's worried abt me..

i'm not sure wat i want after As... everyone says after jc is go uni. but was if i dun want? then ppls would say i shld have went poly in the first place. well, i definitely didn't regret my decision abt not gg poly. jc was the choice i made. afterall, i wasn't sure wat course(which wld determine my career path) i wanted to take back then.
now.. i'm thinking, maybe i'm juz no good at studying. or, i'm sick of studying. i dun wanna study anymore... it's causing me so much stress it's disrupting my life... i'm considering picking up some sorta skill... something more hands-on and less cramming for exams.

of course, if i do perform well for As and my results are sufficient for the physiotherapy course, i may still go back to that.. but it's kinda doubtful.. cos i haven't done proper last min recaps and revisions for each of my past papers..

then i tot abt something else. how would i feel if my frens all obtained their degrees and diplomas and are holding a higher paid job then me? i will certainly feel left out.... But i also understand that not everyone are equally academically inclined..

many of my frens are planning to go uni. but many of them are also unsure of the courses they wanna take. it's like a 'must' to get either a degree or diploma in spore. i hate this. i want to do something fun and easy..but there's NO SUCH THING. argh. my parents say many ppls also didn't had degree and diploma, but they're still earning more money that the graduates. but i'm not that type of person. i dun have the brains nor talents to do that.

i wish i knew wat to do.. until then, i'm looking forward to end of As, prom, xmas and aussie trip.

chelsea update

i'm so happy that chelsea beat barcelona. chelsea was simply fantastic. even though i was feeling sleepy while watching the pre-match show, i was immediately wide awake the moment both teams came out.
chelsea gave barce no chance at all, or shld i say no good chance, to score. boulahrouz was down on ronaldinho. makelele did many tackles which totally impressed me. messi juz cln't break thru the solid chelsea defence. drogba:winning goal. hilario kept a clean sheet. [but i still prefer cech] overall, the team outshone barce. i juz hope shevechenko wil start scoring. and in the mid season, i hope drogba doesn't leave the club...

update on my A levels revision: not so good. i'm studing, but i'm still not confident in my grasp of alot of concepts.

uh oh...

petr cech's injury is worse than i thought..
oh no...
how are they gg to face barcelona wif that new 'unused' gk?
i hope both gk will recover soon... *prays hard*

soccer update!

england lost to croatia 2-0. their formation of 3-5-2 failed. and poor oh robinson... made a stupid mistake and he was so horribly criticised. well. take it as a lesson learnt.

Q:wat's worse than having a goalkeeper injured and sent off during the match?
A: the sustituted goalkeeper also gets injured and sent off.

last nite's chelsea match against reading went horrible. within the first few min, and dear peter cech was down.. he got a concussion fr one of the reading strikers. the only goal was an own goal tt got deflected off some reading guy. the free kick was taken by lampard. thank goodness the ball went in.. chelsea didn't really had tt many chances tho they were putting some sort of pressure on the opponent's team.. oh, the substitute gk went on but didn't had much to do.. then, 2min into stoppage time, poor oh gk got elbowed in his chest and literally black out. that 's wat it appears to me. then bravo john terry took the initiative to be the gk for the last min or so.
reading: a jinx to chealsea team.
cech's injury seems more minor that the substitute's one. so hopefully he'll be fit for the barcelona match on thu.. *prays hard*

btw, i had a dream. and frank lampard was in it. smthg abt him helping me in some training.. lol.. that was after i went to bed after the first half of the eng-croatia match. he was absolutely charming...

and i can't recall wat happened when i dreamt of roddick the other time.. haha

stress!

was really feeling stressed the past week. had to deal with doing sch work and revision papers and topical revision. even cried on 2 nites:( and it didn't help that i have to work on my fren's presents...but i'm feeling better now.

played tennis w yh yesterday. in the haze.. haha.. i'm not sure if we were playing in the haze, but the atmosphere ard were really blurry. even though i hadn't play tennis for maybe a few mths.. it was still a pretty good session. the start was horrible. but in the 2nd half of the hr, when i changed sides w yh, i hit some pretty 'good' forehands.. haha.. lucky me. i think yh was slightly frustrated.. cos wer were suppose to be hitting rallies.. but some of my forehands were juz 'impressive' for a beginner. [it was like on the single's line, and/or close to it. and it's always on the left one.]I'M SUCH A BRAGGER.. haha.. no lah, i'm not that good. i still suck though. those were juz lucky forehand strokes. really. but it was a good session nonetheless.. had some good backhand strokes too.. "keep my eyes on the ball!!!"

euro qualifiers this weekend and next week. both england's matches will be aired. hmm.. not fair to other countries. anyway, i support england, so it's ok. i wonder if they'll use the 3-5-2 formation.. wld like to see it..

upset with the draw

chelsea drew with aston villa last nite.. sobs.. though they didn't lose, i was still pretty upset :'( chelsea played well, and fought back..esp the later part in the 2nd half. they had so many chances!! even tt ukraine guy made an obvious attempt to score.(i hardly see him touch the ball in previous matches)
hiaz... poor chelsea. if man u wins tonite.. their lead will be gone.. not gone,shared. but still, -.-

hmm.. wat a surprise

good news for me today... i passed my math papers overall. i passed p1 and failed p2.
another shocking gd news was that i pass my options structured paper. hmm.. i'm really lucky. now, do i think i'll fail the essay part? most probably, but since i have passed the above papers, i juz nv noe... But i'm still thankful i passed these papers...

so far, my results are pretty average. every component/subject is 'juz passed', which is slightly over the 50% mark. serious. dunno whether i shld be happy anot. nvm.. i'll still work harder for As.

today, we had the mock bio paper that the crazy bio teachers wanted all of us to take. though i didn't studied for it, until the last 30min before the paper, i think it was relatively doable.. afterall, we all juz finished our prelims (though p2 was 3 wks ago), so we still had some info retained in us.

what was i doing in the morning when i had time to study bio? SUDOKU (not sure how it's spelt). yup, i borrowed angie's phone and decided to learn to play sudoku for my very first time. it was great!!! super nice to play:D most ppls still dunno how it's played. but it's really easy. juz make sure each row and column only have 1 of the 9 numbers available and there shldn't be any repeats within each row/colum.
And from my first game, it led me on to my 2nd, 3rd, 4th and finally the 10th game which i managed to complete before i went for bio tut. i am pretty addicted to the game. everyone ard me are like... 'joyce... u're nuts!'. yup, a few days ago, 21 was my new bridge. today, sudoku is my new 21!!! hahahaha

oh, yesterday, i went to watch 'john tucker must die'. SUPER FUNNY. MUZ WATCH!
it's so worth the money. me, cheryl and esp. eve all laughed all heads off during the movie. super funny pls!!!! it's a much better version of mean girls, becos - jesse metcalfe is so extremely hot!!! everyone : go catch the movie!!! no regrets, i promise!

post prelims

chem p1 was doable... but still not confident... i nv liked to say out loud that 'i can do' becos i dun want to be disappointed when i get back the results..
then we got back our bio papers. not much of a surprise, but i didn't expect my mcq to be that bad. ms wong admits it's difficult while ms ng says its not. IT IS. though i did pass every component of the paper, it was juz by a FEW marks. options is definitely going to pull me down.

yup, so aft that we went to limjie's hse.. slacked for awhile, watch tv and played cards. and yes, i'm addicted to the new game intro by sheena -'21'. When i first heard the name, i tot it was juz a game of black jack.. so most of us were like '*yawns*.. ok.. watever' . then afterwards, we played taidi and bridge... and it led us to play 21.. which turns out to be a FABULOUS GAME. yup, we all enjoyed ourselves thoroughly.. and we even played in sch today! yea! 21 is the new bridge

the bbq: great! my first time at a bbq with NO GUYS! haha.. usually it'll be the guys starting the fire and getting dirty from using the charcoal.. but mel, surong and sheena really surprised me with their fire starting skills.

ezb is a great bbq catering service. it's so convenient. juz make an order and everything will be sent to our doorsteps. no need to worry abt leaving smthg or anything out.

the food was good overall. had a great time.. except until aft 8.. where it got really dark, and there were minimal light for us to check whether the food was cooked of not.. hehe.. still, i think we all did a good job bbqing.. no one got food poisoning! yet... haha

a few more days to relax and chill.. before i embark on yet another journey of... mugging. 2 more months, ppls. let's do it!

...

i'm so gg to do badly for prelims!!!
gg to fail bio options.
at MOST a juz pass for math.. still quite unlikely though..
and if i dun make too many carelesss mistakes in p2 and p3 of chem, i cld get a C/D provided my p1 dun fail(which i may, cos i juz can't do the calculations!!)

i'm not sure if i'm looking forward to last paper tmr. cos after tt day, it'll be the return of our papers.. eeks!!! i can juz imagine my folks scolding me for watching too much soccer and tv..

but i do look forward to gg to jie's hse to watch the dvds ... supposed to be having bbq.. but i can't cos i got sore throat!!! argh! and i think i still have to pay.. nvm, since i alr have medicine, i might as well eat some of the stuff. make my money worth.

i hope A levels will be easier.. pls be!

review.

roddick lost to federer.. unfortunately, yet predictably. well, at least my prediction that he'd win one set came true.. i'm pleased with that... he had a great past2-3weeks. winning at cincinnati and then reaching the finals of this us open. damn that federer. he's juz so good, i wish he'd retire early.

well, today's chem paper was doable..it's a first time for most of us to take the whole 2hr45min paper. surprisingly, it wasn't as tough as we all thought it wld be since p2 was relatively doable too.. of course, those who've mugged hard shld have no problem getting at least a B. i wld prolly achieve that too IF i wasn't watching so much tv the past week.
but at least the matches i won were all in favour of the teams/players i supported.
Euro qualifiers: england beat macedonia 1-0
germany beat san marino 13-0!!!!
EPL: chelsea beat charlton 2-1
US Open: roddick played very well, reaching the finals. i swear he'd have won if the opponent was everyone else but federer.
Barclays Singapore Open: this, i only watched the last 45min of it, which was a final playoff between this gd looking aussie, adam scott and this south american ernie els. of course, i supported the young and talented adam scott, who won and defended his title.. damn, i was so CLOSE to him (well, literally, he's juz in Sentosa while i was at home in telok blangah. HAHA)

yup, that's why though i did studied, i felt kinda guilty and anxious cos i've watched all these sports matches.
at least i noe i'll pass chem(if the p1 is not too tough).. and hopefully bio too if the option paper is not too difficult. [But the entire chunk of bio option topics are VERY DIFFICULT!!!] :X

after prelims, i think i'll be very occupied with the epl, champions league and euro qualifiers.. hiax.. i'm not too sure if i'm in love with soccer.. but i truly enjoy watching and supporting my fav teams.. not to mention e presence of cute and talented guys. but i want to stress that i'm not watching for the sake of cute guys only... afterall, there are SO MANY soccer hunks, yet i'm only interested in 3 teams... it's the feeling that comes wif watching such a competitive sport.. i'm lovin' it!

euro champions 2008 @ switzerland. anyone interested? :D

1 week to prelims

last nite was awesome!!!! chelsea won their first match against man city 3-0!!! terry and lampard both scored!!! woohoo!!! and that other striker.. a pity the ukraine guy didn't really get a chance...
rite after that was roddick's final against juan carlos ferrero. both played really well the past week, so i'm pleased to see them meet in the finals. but roddick was SO MUCH BETTER!!! took away the title in 1h10min.. though i muz say ferrero had some amazing shots.. and how did roddick end it? serving 4 aces in that final game. impressive, huh?! next week is the us open!! (and start of prelims) hope roddick will continue doing what he did the past week and win the grand slam!!!

it's amazing what confidence can do to a person.. eg:roddick


ok.. today's monday.. hopefully it'll be the last time i'm using my comp until after bio p2 on next wed... muz really mug very hard.. good luck to one and all!!!

happy singapore day!

finally, a few days of break for me to start studying properly. but i'm not totally concentrating on my work.. cos there's lots of tv to watch- all the old epl matches, the ch U show at 10pm... and mtv..

band concert: it was good!!! except for the seats. NEVER. i repeat: NEVER. get seats at circle 3. they were horrible. not the view. but the height. it's so high up, and the seats are so steep that one will feel slightly dizzy and almost a headache for sitting high up there... Nonetheless, i still enjoyed the concert very much, with the company of my friends too.. we had a 'weird' dress combi: 3 in black and jeans and 2 in white and skirt...

the concert saw the first performance of the st andrew's junior band.. very cute, and a lucky bunch to be able to perform at the esplanade at such tender young age.. their music: well, they juz started last yr.. so it's considered pretty alrite.. then we hear the music by SAS, SAJC and the alumni band.. and there were a few pieces that were played by students of different levels, like sajc yr 1 wif the sas sec 4... and so on.. i was impressed by how much effort and time they had to put in to put on such a great entertaining performance.. but nearing the end, it became kinda draggy.. the pieces got longer and longer.. funny part was the 'riverdance' by the alumni band. we tot, at some pt, it had ended.. but then it didn't and juz continued... yawns... we were all getting tired..

the nicest part? benjamin yeo.. cldn't really see his face from my place.. but i cld easily recognise him. he's the conductor! haha..

anyways, i had a great time.. both band concert and rapture. hope i'll be able to get tics for the concerts following next yr..

EPL is starting. YEA!!! GO CHELSEA!!!

the past 2 weeks

prelims is in 3 weeks time.. everyone ard are like so mugging very hard...those gg to manan seems to be in good hands.. me? i feel like i've wasted the past 2 weeks. i cldn't concentrate on revision when i'm at home. but i cldn't stand another minute being in sch when there's no lessons. i dun wan to pon sch cos i noe there'll be smthg useful for the 'good' students who bother to turn up. i'm like so wasting my time... i need to get back on the right track. i miss the holidays before BT2... haix.. i can't organise my time well... i'm supposed to be a super good planner.. sux really bad... i have a feeling i'm being complacent cos my grades were decent for BT2. but i noe that BT2 doesn't include j1 work(for chem and math) which i totally sux at.. so, i'll be screwed for prelims if i dun buck up. then there's option topics which are like SO MUCH to study for but no little weightage.. argh

once again, i have yet to pass my 2.4... dun think i'll achieve my last yr's goal of getting silver.. will be happy enuf if i pass it..

went for rapture last nite.. have to admit that last yr's one is better than this yr's one.. i was expecting some 'grand' opening..but.. there wasn't any... jo was saying it's probably becos the venue was esplanade, that's why most of the dances were like contemporary... modern.. and not so much hip hop...the teachers' dance, though, were definitely much better than last yr... haha.. wif those stiff movements.. v funny, but i still 'pei fu' them for having time to practice despite all the work they need to do.. Still, i was pretty impressed with all the dances, dancers, and choreographers... xwei was like in most of the dance.. pro!

i'm getting my birkenstock tmr.yea!!!!

study study study.. gimme a break!

yesterday morning, she gave a lecture on how we shld be studying almost every waking moment of the day, and that we shldn't go town cos we're not j1s.(c'mon, i bet she's also telling the j1s not to go town cos of they prob didn't do well for ct). i'm like-GIVE ME A BREAK! made me feel soo guilty for watching pirates of the carribean aft that. bleh.

btw, the show is quite good.. esp johnny depp!!! he is such a wonderful amazing actor!!! wonder why i didn't notice that in the first movie...

bt2 results-GOOD! improvement in every subj [except for gp, which i was so close to failing.]
math-B
bio-B
chem-C
i almost got A for bio, but i shld be thankful i got a B. cos initially rumours were spreading that essay was badly done.. so.. ya,i'm happy i got a B... but,i'm kinda worried.. cos if i get these grades for bt2, that means i have to work extra extra hard to do even better for prelims(if not, maintain)... kinda pressurizing...

i wanna go shopping!!! (only less than 2 wks to end of GSS)
i wanna buy more accesories to make my earrings!!!
i wanna buy the germany jersey...(shld i buy?shld i buy?)

i wanna do all of these, and still be able to have the time and moltivation to study.. i hate option topics.. so much to study...

all out!

germany is out. late 2 goals scored by italy. if they had sustained for another 2 min, victory wld have gone to the german team. sobs. all 3 of my fav teams are out.. shld have supported one more team... think i'll be rooting for italy tmr.. although i think france will win. nvm... more importantly, hope germany wins tonight's match against portugal.

this world cup has really been very entertaining and informative. as in, it's thru this world cup that made me start noticing players that have been ard but went unnoticed. well, that's becos i dun watch epl. maybe when the season starts, i'll start watching some of it..

bt2 results:
so far so good.. made improvements in math.. but not sure issit my effort that has paid off or that the paper was supposedly easy. as for chem, though i screwed up mcq, i still manage to get the grade i was aiming for.. left bio, can pass but dunno whether will get a good grade. i muz say, this bt2 results are prob my best since i came to jc. means that i'll have hope for my a levels.

another disappointment

andy roddick is out of wimbledon. only the 3rd round and he was defeated by this unseeded andy murray. so disappointing. this year has been really poor for roddick. it was bad enuf he lost to blake(andy has won him 6 times in previous 6 matches) in stella artois... wat's wrong wif roddick???

maritina hingis is out too.. and she was wearing this low cut outfit.. hmm... weird.. not safe i wld say..

:(

england:out!

this is my personal opinion. hope no one gets offended.. pls dun take it too seriously.

england vs portugal
the match started.. pretty alrite.. no one scored during the first half.
then second half, rooney got sent off, i think it's for pushing c.ronaldo.
so england down to 10men. but they still managed to hold on to the 0-0 draw until after extra time.
there was penalty.
3 out of 4 shots by england was saved by the gk.
portugal won by penalty kicks. 3-1

i was SO DISAPPOINTED... with these ppls:
1. rooney: trouble maker!!! cos the team to go down to 10 men. i dun understand why everyone's been saying he's such a great player.
2.the referee: red card for a slight push? issit really necessary?
3.the coach: that wateva formation with only one striker up front! totally not working.
4.frank lampard: i was feeling sad for him in the past matches, cos he had so many shots at goal, but none actually went in. but to lose the penalty kick? totally disappointing. i tot he's supposed to be the best player in epl???
5.steven gerrad: the moment i see him walking to shoot the penalty, i knew he would score. boy, was i wrong!!! and to think he has scored twice in the previous matches. it shld have been a piece of cake.

Yup, that's about all. whoever said england shld avoid penalty kicks, whoever is right.
however, i do wanna say that john terry had did a commendable job in defending goals against england. he's the only man i can say, in every match, helped 'save the day' at some point of time. he was tearing at the end.. poor guy.

Brazil is out. how unbelievable. i have yet to watch the match so i can't comment.

sobs.. i support 3 teams. 2 of them are out. i really hope germany wins it this time! *prays hard*